I have been having a hard time the last few days with losing my good friend, Master Mark E. DeSade. I noticed today on his website there was a public notice put up and a song. The words to Time by Alan Parson's Project. My thoughts are with marie right now. I have thought about her a lot lately. I know he cared about her a lot. We talked about her in our last chat. It said his site will be shut down at the end of July. I will leave his link up until the site is closed and then delete the link. I wish there was a way to do some kind of public memorial for him. I have barely thought of anything but his passing the last few days.
I got an e-mail recently from Master R and I phoned him. I am putting up a photo today from one of my nights with Master R. For those who don't know who Master R is, he is a man who has been a mentor, friend and Master to me. He's married but his wife is vanilla. He's had many slaves he plays with. There have always been rules to follow. He is someone I have played with many times. We shared a night a few months ago to say goodbye. Master Anakin allowed us to be able to share one more night together. He went away on vacation with his wife for two months. He is now retired from his job. He was pretty much retiring from being a Master too. At least that's what he was hoping to do. I think he realized that is hard to do. To forget about his feelings about wanting to be a Dom. It's in his nature. I have missed him so much. I was glad to hear from him.
He teased me and flirting with me on the phone. We talked about some old times. I mentioned Master Mark and how I never got to get that spanking from him. Master R then told me he was always available for a spanking. I inquired half expecting he was joking. But he wasn't. He put out a offer that I can turn to him for a cup of coffee or a spanking. He misses spanking me. He found it very stress relieving and it helped fullfill a need in him. So Master and I had a big talk last night. Master realized that I miss being spanked by him. I miss the feel of a true discipline type of spanking. I miss the heavy level of play. Our M/s has been slow due to the vacation and then the loss of my friend. I need to feel back on track and we both know that Master R can get me focused and back on track. He's always had a ability to bring me out of a dark space.
I am sure many people might not understand my relationship with Master R. I've been judged by a few people through the years. I recently told my sister about our night together a few months ago. She knows we were poly but she figured we went back to monogomy after we married and nikki was gone. She was shocked. She tried not to judge me but I could tell she didn't understand it. I've had many people ask me many questions about Master R. I will just say that I am only allowed to share on this blog or with others what he lets me share. He's a extremely private man. He's a experienced player. I trust him 100%.
I was chatting to my sis on yahoo and telling her about Master R. I wish she lived closer so she can help me get ready for tonight. Master R and I are meeting tonight at 6 pm for coffee and then some play. His wife is out of town. He is looking for some fun and escape. So am I. Master Anakin has given us rules to follow. Master R is a very good person to play with. He's always respected Master Anakin's rules and he is very careful of my emotions. We don't kiss. We don't use the L (love) word ever. I don't know Master R's last name or information about him. I am not allowed to ask about his other slaves. I am to obey always. I do have a safeword with him. Tonight there will be no penetration. We slept together the last time we met but this time we do not plan to do that. I am feeling too vulnerable and Master Anakin is not allowing it. We do plan to play. The no penetration rule does allow for oral sex though and I am sure I will be sucking his cock after he spanks me hard. I used to wonder what Master R gets out of our meetings. He doesn't get paid. Up until recently he didn't get penetration. He told me that he gets the thrill of control out of it. Master Anakin gives me to him for a night and he gets to control me and use me and to spank my ass. I am the youngest of his slave's. He's almost 60 now. Almost old enough to be my Dad. I do not know his wife. I don't want to. I do ask about her but he's very limited in what he tells me.
From the beginning it was clear what our relationship was...very good friend's who play together and he would mentor me for Master Anakin and help in my training. I know I am the slave I am today because of him. I know tonight will be intense. My meetings with Master R always are. He is no nosense. He spanks damn hard. My ass usually has bruises for a few days and it doesn't bruise easily now. He will use his toys on me and I will hurt tonight. I will probably be on my knees sucking his very hard cock after he canes my ass. I will come back to Master Anakin and show him the bruises on my ass and with a very well corrected attitude. And I will get used and fucked by him. I know Master loves to fuck my pussy after he sees the marks on my ass from Master R.
I wrote a few very good blog posts about Master R. In case anyone wants to read them:
Our Saturday Night with Master R - I am sharing the same photo today that I shared in that blog post. It was me dressed up for Master R the night he was over visiting us. It's a hot blog post!
Master R - a blog post about my relationship with him.
and Master R pays me a visit - this is about a visit he paid me many months ago. Enjoy!
I chatted with good girl and also my sis about tonight. I am so nervous and excited. I didn't think I would ever get a spanking again from him. I am not sure if he will ever be my Master again but I do realize we will always share a special friendship and I am glad we can still play together. I really need this in my life to get my focused. To have some escape and to bring out my submissive feelings again and get Master Anakin and I back on track to where we need to be. I love this picture I put up today with the girl in the mirror. She looks so sexy. I really wish there was a woman to join us tonight for the play. I wish my sis was here to share in the countdown before I see Master R. I am almost shaking I am so nervous...
I have a hair dye I plan to use to make it nice and light blonde and I have been given a set of instructions about tonight. I am to have a shaved pussy and nice and clean. Master R has picked out the red thong butterfly to wear for tonight for him and picked out my clothes. I have been given chores by Master Anakin to get done in order to go out tonight with Master R. My ass is already anticipating tonight. I know it's going to need some ice the next few days. Messa going to get spanked!!
Tommorow is HNT and I plan to put up the spanking photos and share some details from last weekend. So stay tuned for that. So does anyone want the details of tonight??
2 more days til Miami Vice and our special date night. I can't wait!! 3 more days til the Star Wars spanking party here at Journey to the Darkside. Hope you all can make it!
I was told to have this blog post done by Master's lunch hour and I just got it done in time. *whew* Now I need to get my chores done and start getting ready for tonight.
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