Monday, July 31, 2006

May the Force be with you Master Mark

Blogger is not cooperating today so I will do this blog post without the picture. I am very quiet today. I didn't really feel like coming online. Today's a tough day for me. I like to post my true feelings on the blog. I was going to do a blog post about Friday night and my date with Master R and Master Anakin but I just don't feel like writing it. I have only one thing on my mind. It's all I can concentrate on. Today is my good friend, Master Mark E. DeSade's funeral. I would like to be there for it but it's too far away. My spirit is there today with marie and his friends and family. I feel a lot of sadness in my heart today. I keep thinking about my chat with marie. I really am worried about her right now. I hope she is ok today. I know she was planning to speak today at the funeral. I really, really wish I could be there.

My heart feels so much sadness because I can't say goodbye properly to my friend. I have had a few days of escape and fun. I was able to get distracted. It's very hard to distract me today from what is happening today. It's all I can think about. His website is supposed to be closing today. I plan to go take a last look around after I finish this blog post. I've been going to his site since 1997. I will be deleting his link as soon as the site is taken down. I plan to do a minute of silence at 12 pm PST. That's 3 pm EST. I hope others will join me for a minute of silence in remembrance of my good friend, Master Mark. Today I realize just how precious time is. How suddenly someone can be gone. I feel very spiritual today and have many thoughts going through my mind. I want to put up words to a song that meant a lot to Master Mark. marie told me he chose this song for his funeral.

Time by Alan Parsons Project

Time, flowing like a river
Time, beckoning me
Who knows when we shall meet again
If ever
But time
Keeps flowing like a river

To the sea
Goodbye my love,
Maybe for forever
Goodbye my love,
The tide waits for me
Who knows when we shall meet again

If ever
But time
Keeps flowing like a river (on and on)
To the sea, to the sea
Till it's gone forever
Gone forever
Gone forevermore
Goodbye my friends,

Maybe forever
Goodbye my friends,
The stars wait for me
Who knows where we shall meet again

If ever
But time
Keeps flowing like a river (on and on)

To the sea, to the sea
Till it's gone forever
Gone forever
Gone forevermore

May the force be with you Master Mark....I will miss you.

~padme

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Thank you for coming to our Star Wars Spanking party!



I couldn't resist putting two very sexy Star Wars pictures up. I love them both. :) *winks* I wanted to do a blog post to say thanks!! Thanks to everyone who joined us on yahoo conference last night to join us for our Star Wars spanking party. Both Master Anakin and I felt like it was a real success. Many people stopped in for a short visit and others stayed almost all night. My bro, Adam said it was 3:22 am when the party stopped there in New York! There are too many names to mention for who came to the party. I am hoping they all will comment today and let us know your thoughts on the party. We want to hear from everyone who attended. Was there other people who watched the movie, Revenge of the Sith but did not attend the party?

We watched Episode 2 after Revenge of the sith and then put on a porno from the Shaw on Demand. Master Anakin and I continued to play after the party was over. It was a very late night. It was really wild!!

My friend, good girl said in her blog post she could hear me getting spanked. I know we had our voice on chat going and some people could hear us. I am curious to know who all heard me getting spanked last night? *show of hands please* Who heard him fucking me last night? I got spanked many times through out the night. Who gave Master the idea to use the riding crop on my ass? I would love to get some feedback from the party. Mel provided the music last night. Thank you Mel!! It added to the party a lot. I want to say thank you to belda for giving me the idea for this party and many of the questions I used for the meme. If anyone hasn't done the meme, please give it a try. I would love to know your answers to it. I am really hoping a lot of people will do it!! Pretty please with a cherry on top? Click HERE to get the meme and also the trivia from last night. I will be doing both the answers to it and meme answers. Does anyone want more Star Wars trivia from our Star Wars DVD trivia game? If anyone will do it, I will post some more.

belda told me she was going to do a review of the party on her blog. If anyone else does this, please let me know. I'm curious to hear everyone's thoughts on the party last night!! Please contact me through your blog or comments or a e-mail!! Did everyone have a good time last night?? Who else is hungover today??

We enjoyed having everyone join our virtual date. It was really fun to watch the movie with everyone. Who else would like us to host another party? Any ideas for a future party? We really enjoyed meeting everyone virtually like that. I felt a real connection to many bloggers and my friend, mary last night. I really hope more people will join us for another party. It's way to get to know people outside of their blogs. We started this blog to meet others. I was longing for people to talk to. I am a social butterfly. I worked retail for many years and was a secretary once. My people skills are good I have been told. Did everyone like us as hosts? I really hope everyone enjoyed themselves as much as we did. Thanks everyone!! :)

My butt was sore from Friday. I know I still need to do a blog post about Friday night and plan to this week. It was a wild night. My ass was even more sore through the night. Did anyone hear how hard he was spanking me? It was like he wanted to really make a clear impression on everyone listening how hard he likes to spank me. I was so wet last night. It's the exhibitionist in me. I love attention. I thrive on it. I was the girl who liked to dance on the stage. I was stripping last night. I was getting spanked hard last night with his hand, belt and riding crop. I came with my vibrator. Who heard that?? *blushes* And I got fucked hard last night. Who heard us? Audio in Yahoo chat is awesome! I know someone out there must have been listening to that. *big grins*

So who was drunk last night? Who was horny? Who was just happy to be there listening to all the action? Who wants to have another party? *cheers*

Here's the meme answers to the meme questions belda and I came up with. :)

1. Who is your favorite character on Star Wars? Mine is padme. I think everyone probably knows that. :) I also love Yoda!

2. Who is your favorite couple on Star Wars? I think that is probably also pretty obvious. Anakin and padme all the way baby!!

3. Which character do you feel you relate to the most? Mine is most definatly padme!! I really like padme's personality and of all the characters in the movies I feel I can relate to her the most. Her love for Anakin.

4. Who most on Star Wars deserved a spanking? or which character would you have liked a spanking from? I would most definatly want a spanking from Anakin (both in the movie and Master Anakin...maybe even at the same time!!)

5. Which Star Wars movie was your favorite? Episode 3, Revenge of the Sith

6. Which Star Wars movie was your least favorite? The Empire Strikes Back

7. Do you wish there were more Star Wars movies coming in the future? YES!!!!!

8. How old were you when you saw your first Star Wars movie? I was about 10 years old and saw Return of the Jedi. It was the first movie I ever saw in the movie theatre.

9. Who do you like the least on Star Wars? I would say probably Jar Jar Binks

10. What's your favorite scene in a Star Wars movie? Mine is when Anakin and padme got married at the end of Episode 2. I love how romantic that scene is.

11. What's your favorite Star Wars quote? Do or do not. There is no try. Yoda.

12. What's your favorite planet in a Star Wars universe? Naboo

Trivia answers:

1. Who asks "Will somone get this big walking carpet out of the way"? Princess Leia

2. What is C-3po's two word comment when a door shuts in his face during a evacuation of Hoth? "How typical"
3.What title appears on early posters and trailers for Return of the Jedi? Revenge of the Jedi

4. Who warns Queen Amidala "I can only protect you. I can't fight a war for you?" Qui-Gon Jinn

5. Who's brave enough to nibble on Luke's food bar? Yoda

6. Who nearly succumbs to Anakin Skywalker's Force Choke, on Mustafar?" Padme Amidala

7. What three-legged character appears on all six films? R2-D2

8. Who says "What do you think padme would do if she were in your position?" Obi-Wan Kenobi

9. Who's the First Character to admit to "having a bad feeling about this" in Return of the Jedi? C-3PO

10. Who says "Being held by you isn't quite enough to get me excited?" Princess Leia

11. What were the last words Han says to Luke before the first Death Star Battle? "May the force be with you"

12. What is the first object seen in Return of the Jedi? The Second Death Star

13. Who interrupts Han and Leia's first kiss? C-3PO

14. Who becomes a "far younger and more powerful" replacement for Darth Tyranus?" Anakin Skywalker or Darth Vader

15. What planet does Princess Leia consider her homeworld? Alderann

I am a bit hungover from the vodka shots and wine. My ass is so sore to sit on today. I am recovering from a few days of so much fun. The fireworks and spanking from Master R, Friday night with Miami Vice with Master Anakin and Master R, and last night with our star wars spanking party!! We are hoping to go see the new Pirates of the Carribean with our kids today. I hope it works out. I really want to see that movie! Who else has seen it? Is it any good? Right now I need to go put some ice on my butt and hope it heals soon. Ouchies!!

May the force be with you all!!

EDIT: We are going to see Pirates of the Caribean today with our kid's at the theatre and having a family day. We plan to go by Ikea to for some shopping. We won't be around the computer for most of the day. We wanted to let people know in case they are trying to get a hold of us. The new Pirates looks really good and I can't wait to see it today!! My force feels strong today. :)

~playful padme

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Saturday, July 29, 2006

Come join us in yahoo!!

We are watching Star Wars Episode 3, Revenge of the Sith. We have a party going on on yahoo chat conference tonight. There's lots of bloggers there!! It's quite a party. We all would love for you to join us. padmesavtar is my yahoo. I'll invite you into the chat. Come on in and say hello. I'd love to talk to you all!! We're having so much fun tonight!! It feels like we are having a virtual party with everyone!!

Please read my other blog posts today. I put up Star Wars trivia and meme. Please give it a try!! Please join us tonight for a party!! Whoo hoo!! Vodka is out and I'm a naughty girl who's already gotten a OTK spanking!!

A party time padme...

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

The PARTY is on!

We're all chatting in Yahoo Chat. Cum join us for the Star Wars spanking party! Put on Star Wars III and party on! Thanks everyone for coming over!

Star Wars Spanking Party tonight!!



Master Anakin and I have no kid's tonight. We are alone and we are ready for the big party tonight!! We have been planning this for a few weeks now. I really hope everyone will stop by and comment or join us on yahoo messenger or on msn messenger. My yahoo id is padmesavtar. I would to meet some fellow reader's. I hope the lurkers will come out of the shadows tonight. We've put a lot of work into this party tonight. It's the HSBC fireworks downtown tonight at English Bay. Master and I discussed delaying this party but we don't want to. We want to throw a big party tonight and we invite all of you to it!! At 5:50 pm tonight I will be receiving my first spanking of the night. I am going to be getting a OTK from Master Anakin ten minutes before the movie begins. At 6 pm we plan to press the play button on Star Wars Episode 3, Revenge of the Sith. We hope you all will too!! We want a virtual date with everyone. It's like us inviting you into our livingroom to have a party. I hope to meet some new people. Tommorow we will be recaping the party and who attended or commented.

At 6 pm I will be having a shot of vodka to honor my good friend, Master Mark E De Sade who passed away recently. I was able to chat with marie today on yahoo. I was really glad to hear from her. His funeral is this Monday. I really wish I could be there but I live so far away. She offered to send me some of his toys which I really appreciated but we are worried about customs. I would have loved to have some of his toys in my collection. He had the best collection around in my opinion with being a Pro Dom. I really miss my dear friend so much. I hope you all will raise your glass tonight of vodka or wine or just juice and please honor my friend tonight at 6 pm.

I want to thank Adam and belda for mentioning the party on their blogs. We want to spread the word!! We want to break records for this blog and get people talking and having a good naughty time tonight. I am going to be spanked many times during the course of the movie and you all get to hear about it!! It's like your all watching me get my spankings. This is making me wet just thinking about. It's the exhibitionist in me. :)

My good friend, belda came up with the idea of this party tonight and I want to thank her very much for it. The UFC spanking party was a success and we wanted to have a different type of party for people. Master and I love Star Wars as everyone can tell and this is a great idea for tonight!! If this is successful we will do more parties in the future. It's going to be a spanking good time as my bro said!!

6 pm PST/9 pm EST we will be starting the movie and enjoying Revenge of the Sith. We will all watch together as Anakin turns to the darkside. I'd love to hear your thoughts or reviews of this movie as you watch it. Please comment on your thoughts!! E-mail or yahoo or here on the blog. Comment moderation is off for today so everyone can say hello. Master Anakin will also be chatting tonight and he has helped me a lot with planning this party. Master is one of the biggest Star Wars fans that I know. He was the one who attended all the midnight showings of the different movies when they came out. We both love Episode 3 and can't wait to watch it tonight!! Master has already put on Episode 1 today to warm up.

My ass is hurting so bad today. Master Anakin used his bullwhip on my ass as well as a riding crop. Master R watched and took photos last night. It was a wild night and I will do a blog post soon about it. I have never in my life had so many problems sitting today. I am not kidding when I say my ass is extremely welted and bruised in many areas. The play was heavy and intense last night. It was the first time I was ever really whipped like that. He used the end of it to whip my thighs and ass very hard. I am wondering today how long it will hurt to sit on my ass. Especially with more spankings cumming tonight. *winks* :)

I put up a picture of Star Wars and a spanking. Barbana did that picture. Star Wars and spankings are my two favorite subjects. My favorite website that combines these two is called Star Wars and Spankings. Please check them out if you havn't yet. It's got some really neat stuff in it. Messa getting spanked. :)

I have a list of questions for you to answer here on the blog or in your own blog. They are some interesting questions that belda had on her blog and also I thought of. I hope you all will answer...Here's my Star Wars meme for you all! I will answer my own meme in a blog post either today or tommorow.

1. Who is your favorite character on Star Wars?
2. Who is your favorite couple on Star Wars?
3. Which character do you feel you relate to the most?
4. Who most on Star Wars deserved a spanking? or which character would you have liked to get spanked from?
5. Which Star Wars movie was your favorite?
6. Which Star Wars movie was your least favorite?
7. Do you wish there were more Star Wars movies coming in the future?
8. How old were you when you first watched a Star Wars movie?
9. Who do you like the least on Star Wars?
10. What's your favorite scene in a Star Wars movie?
11. What's your favorite Star Wars quote?
12. What's your favorite planet in the Star Wars universe?


Does anyone have any good Star Wars jokes to share? Or pictures? I would love to hear about them today. Here's some trivia for you...I will put the answers into a blog post either today or tommorow...this triva is from our DVD Star wars game...no peeking online for the answers...let's see what you know about star wars...

1. Who asks: "Will somebody get this big walking carpet out of the way"?

2. What is C-3po's two-word comment when a door shuts in his face during a evacuation of Hoth?

3. What title appears on early posters and trailers for Return of the Jedi?

4. Who warns Queen Amidala: "I can only protect you. I can't fight a war for you?"

5. Who's brave enough to nibble on Luke's food bar?

6. Who nearly succumbs to Anakin Skywalker's Force Choke, on Mustafar?

7. What three-legged character appears in all six films?

8. Who asks Anakin "What do you think padme would do were she in your position?"

9. Who's the first character to admit to having "a bad feeling about this" in Return of the Jedi?

10. Who says "Being held by you isn't quite enough to get me excited?"

11. What are the last words Han says to Luke before the first Death Star Battle?

12. What is the first object seen in Return of the Jedi?

13. Who interrupts Han and Leia's first kiss?

14. Who becomes a "far younger and more powerful" replacement for Darth Tyranus?

15. What planet does Princess Leia consider her homeworld?

Give it a try! I'd love to hear your answers. Maybe we should do a trivia for Episode 3. What do you all think?

My friend, belda had a idea for a drinking game. what do you all think of it?
her comment says:
anyone wanna also do something called a drinking game? such as evertine a certian word or phrase is said you have to take a drink? if not maybe next party? TTYS! May the Force be with Y/you always!

So lots of ideas for the party tonight!! I really hope to hear from you all!! Cum out and say hello!! Let's hear from everyone and have a great time tonight!! Party on! *break out the vodka!! The party girl is now cumming out!! Revenge of the Sith is in the DVD player and my ass is ready to get spanked!!! party on everyone!!

May the force be with you all!!

~party girl padme

Star Wars Spanking party tonight!! Please join us!

I'm doing a blog post this morning to remind everyone about our party tonight!! Comment moderation is now off for the day!! So please comment away!! I hope lurkers will cum out and say hello. I hope there will be lots and lots of people. I plan to do a couple of blog posts today all in dedication of Star Wars. I have some jokes to put up, links, trivia, questions and a few different things for our reader's. I hope everyone will participate!! I want to break a few records today here at Journey to the Darkside!! I'd like to get people talking. I'd like to dedicate today to our favorite movies of all time... Star Wars!!! I hope the Star wars fans will cum out and even if your not, please join us!!

I know many people are probably wondering how my big night went with Master R and Master Anakin. Today is about our party so I won't be talking too much about it. I plan to blog about it soon though. I promise! Who wants the details? Does anyone want to know what happened? I will tell you that I have one heck of a sore ass today. I really have problems sitting down. I am a bit hungover from the vodka. I really enjoyed Miami Vice and plan to do a review of the movie at some point also for a blog post. I had a wild night last night!! One of the wildest of my life to be honest. I was whipped harder than I have ever been whipped on my ass. I was tied up and whipped and fucked very brutally and I am still having a hard time cumming down from it all today.

6 pm the party starts!! It's PST so if your on the East coast that's 9 pm your time!! We plan to start Episode 3, Revenge of the Sith exactly at 6 pm. I hope everyone will do the same. We can all watch the movie at the exact same time. We plan to be on yahoo and messenger both and hope to get conference chats going with everyone. We have a bottle of wine we plan to open tonight. And there will be many blog posts with Star Wars stuff. I've been told I am getting several spankings tonight. I can't imagine how much more my ass can take. Ouchies is all I will say right now. My ass is sooooooooo sore!!! You all can't even imagine how sore it is.

Please spread the word about this party!! I want lots of people to know about it!! A few people asked me to remind them about it...well here's your reminder!! It's a little less than 7 hours away til the party starts!! I need to start getting my stuff together for the party and my blog posts today. Stay tuned today!! Star Wars trivia is coming up soon and then some questions too. Master Anakin and I both will be participating in this party tonight. I really hope you all can stop by!

My yahoo id is padmesavtar. We'd love to chat with you while we watch the movie. Who's going to be watching the movie tonight? I really hope this party is a success. If it is, we plan to host more parties in the future. *Please* drop by or leave a comment or e-mail...I really hope everyone can make it tonight. Have some fun...put the DVD on and enjoy some snacks. Some drinks. Some conversation if you want. Or enjoy the Star Wars posts we plan to put up!! I really want to hear from the SW's fans out there!! Anyone excited about this party? I want to know!!

Whoo Hooo!! Party time is almost here!!

May the force be with you all!!

~party girl padme

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Thursday, July 27, 2006

Wanting someone to cum over


Damn I am horny tonight. Who wants to cum on over?? Seriously. I have a need in me tonight. I want to be fucked so hard. I want to cum so bad. I need a woman. I need a woman who wants me to go down on her. Or wants to go down on me. Master went to bed and gave me a bedtime of 1 am. He told me to do a blog post tonight. Tommorow is a busy day and I have very limited time on the computer. I won't be doing a blog post on Friday and hope everyone has a good day. My list of chores to do is long and I have to get them done before we leave to go meet Master R. My daughter goes to my ex's. Our son goes to Master's parent's. We are meeting Master R before the movie to have dinner. His wife comes into town early Saturday so we want to catch the early show.

Miami Vice opens today. It's midnight and I am already ready for the big date night. Master R got back to us and we have all arranged a get together for the Miami Vice movie. I have been looking forward to this movie for months, weeks and days. I love Miami Vice. I heard this movie was darker than the tv show. I love Colin Farrell, the bad boy who's going to play a very sexy Crocket. I am so excited!! I think the director micheal mann is brilliant! I love his movies. Who else plans to watch this movie? Anyone else excited?

Thank you for all the feedback on the HNT today. I really do get horny sharing my spanked bottom photos with everyone. It's the exhibitionist in me. I can't help it. I get really wet when I know others enjoy my blog. I am always interested to know...does anyone get wet or hard over this blog? Cum on...admit it!! I bet there are people who have masturbated to our videos or pictures. I thrive off feedback. When I know someone is horny, I get horny!! That's just the way I am. Tonight I am so horny...on orgasm denial sweetly suffering as Master Anakin would say. He teased me tonight. I am not allowed to cum til tommorow night. It's been almost a week and I want to cum so bad tonight!! Urg. I am one frustrated padme. The build up is intense. My clit feels like it's on fire. My pussy is soaking the chair right now.

I came on my blog tonight to check my messages and saw a comment from a beautiful texan beauty, mel. She said to go check out her flickr. I really was surprised to see my avtar in it. Awww....that really made my night!! Thanks mel. :)

I love this picture with the blonde girl putting her hands down her panties. That's what I am doing right now. I can't help it. I'm wearing my heart panties right now. I'm a little slut who wants to get wet. I know I can't cum or I will be severely punished but I am allowed to touch myself. Ohhhhh my pussy is soaked....I am so horny. I have a need tonight...

I hope everyone will stop by and comment on Saturday or join us for our Star Wars spanking party here at Journey to the Darkside. It's at 6 pm PST or 9 pm EST. We plan to hit the play button at that exact time to start our movie Star Wars, Episode 3..Revenge of the Sith. I hope everyone will try to do the same. We plan to put up a Star Wars post on Saturday to begin the day. Master is going to put up trivia from our DVD star wars game I got him for X-mas. We also plan to put up many Star wars questions from our friend, belda's blog. She had some really good thought provoking star wars questions. I will be getting spanked through the night. Thanks belda for putting up a reminder of the party on your blog!! I loved her picture of the Star wars party stuff. We are having a party!! padme's party!! Yeah! Woo hoo!! Let's have some fun!!

We plan to take off comment moderation for that whole day. I hope lurkers will cum out and say hello. Stop by and say hey!! I hope to have lots of naughty fun that night. Episode 3 will turn me on like it always does. Master will get into his Darth role for it. He will turn to the darkside. He plans to be on yahoo and messenger also. We want to set up a conference for everyone to talk to one another. I want to dedicate Saturday to Star Wars and spanking...Master and I's two favorite subjects to talk about. We are both really looking forward to it. I hope belda and others will maybe make Saturday a Star Wars day on their blog too. Or a spanking day! Master and I both plan to be a part of this party and enjoy some fun. No kid's and a lot of time to enjoy the movie and enjoy him spanking my ass and chat about Star Wars and spanking with everyone!

Please spread the word on the party. Tell your friend's. Invite your friend's. We plan to open up a bottle of our Napa Wine we brought home from San Fran on our trip to drink that night and we plan to have lots of fun with everyone. I am really hoping this will be a success. The UFC night that we had our party was a success and I hope this will be even bigger!! Two days away and counting!!

I am fantasizing tonight about what might happen after the Miami Vice movie. Two sexy men and one very horny slave. I havn't gotten into the blog how deep and dark my fantasies go yet. I quess I still feel shy sometimes. *winks* I really would love to have two men fuck me at the same time one day. I have had a few different threesomes with Master Anakin and Master R but this is one thing that hasn't happened yet. I get very submissive with the two of them in the same room. They both have driven me crazy with desire yesterday and today. I am on edge constantly.

I have been given a one hour limit for the computer tommorow so I can get my chores done. We plan to come back to our place after the movie and dinner. Master picked up some vodka already for the night. Vodka will bring the wild russian woman out in me. I will want to fuck so bad. I wish it was happening right now. I don't know how to sleep in this state. My pussy is on fire!! All I can think of is fucking. I want a spanking!! I need sex!! Urg. I hope I can make it til tommorow night. I wonder what will happen. Two sexy men taking me out to see my favorite movie that I have wanted to see for months. I am sure they will make me very wet. And use me. Fuck me. Take me. Spank me. And so many other things...that I will leave for our reader's imagination...

Horny padme wants to play!!

May the force be with you all!!

~a very horny padme

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Happy HNT - Dedication to my good friend, Master Mark


Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) to everyone!! Thursdays are becoming a favorite day of the week for me. I love trying to pick out which photo to put up. We have so many we want to share with our readers. Some older photos still havn't been put up yet. I still have many vacation photos and stories to share also. I have to do a blog post one day about my spanking in the chamber of horrors down in the wax museum in San Francisco. I hope the readers enjoy the two photos I am putting up today. The one is now my absolute favorite spanking photo put up on Journey to the Darkside. Everyone has their favorites. This is mine. I find this a very erotic photo. Master captured a moment between us. A spanking moment. Please give me your feedback. Lurkers....cum on out!! E-mail me if you're too shy. I really want to hear feedback on this photo. What do you think??

Today's spanking photos are put up in dedication to my very good friend, Master Mark E DeSade who passed away recently. I still can't believe it's really true. I am still in shock over losing him. I sent my friend many spanking photos of me through the years. He liked to see the pictures of my punished behind. I wonder sometimes how many bottoms he had spanked through the years. He called himself a spankologist. He never got the chance to spank mine but I fantasized about it a lot and we talked about it. I wish he had lived closer. I just never got the chance to make it out to LA.

In this one photo which you can enlarge by clicking on it is one of me bent over a pillow. You can see my blonde hair which has grown in length. I am staring at the toys he has placed on the floor in front of me to see. I get to see the toys which are going to cross my ass. To think about it. To wonder how each of them will feel against my poor behind just waiting to get it. On Saturday I knew I had crossed the line with him. I didn't tell him about our finances in San Fran. I love to shop and to spend and this has gotten my ass into trouble a few times. Saturday he used his cane, his black belt, his Master Anakin's paddle, riding crop, and purple flogger. I got 250 with these toys hard on my ass. You can see his black socks in the photo. He was standing over me taking the photo. My bottom high in the air on that pillow just waiting for each toy. Boy that was a punishment I won't forget anytime soon. You see the result of those toys. The second photo I am putting up is my very red bottom. Yes, I was made to wear my schoolgirl outfit for the punishment. To be spanked like a bad schoolgirl. It was definatly ouchies. :)

I have already had a few messages this morning from people wanting to know what happened last night. My friend, good girl left me a message and I shared some details with her and also my sis, schiava. I'd like to give a very big congratulations to my friends, Griz and good girl who got engaged!! I am so happy for them!! They shared a beautiful picture for their HNT of her ring and also another hot photo!! Check it out!

I also had a great talk on the phone with my bro, adam today. He put up one of the best HNT photos!! I LOVE it!! He did a homage to the Red Hot Chili Peppers!! I love that band. Check it out!!

Now...onto the details of last night and my spanking and coffee date with Master R. I know many people are probably wondering what happened last night. I am sharing the details of this with Master Anakin also as we never got a chance to talk last night. I got in at 1 am and he was sleeping. I got a message this morning telling me to share these with him and do a blog post right after I got up. So here I am sit still in subspace and dizzy from all of what happened last night. This is going to be a long blog post today. I want to share all the details before I forget any. What a night!! Wow!! We also are talking of maybe getting together to watch the miami vice movie on Friday. His wife gets into town on Saturday and he's lonely and bored. Master asked him to join us for our date night. We have an overnight schuduled for Friday and a movie and dinner date. I really want to see Miami Vice the day it opens. I've been counting down the days. One more day now!! So Friday he might join us for dinner and a movie and of course some fun afterwards. I hope it works out. *winks* :)

So here are the details of last night with Master R:

I was nervous all day getting ready for my meeting with him. I dyed my hair light blonde. I used Clairol this time and it really made the blonde shine through. I was feeling like Marilyn Monroe. My hair has grown out. My boxing has been paying off. I felt so sexy yesterday. I got a few messages throughout the day from both Master Anakin and Master R. There was a lot of mind fucks before even leaving the house. I did my chores as instructed and got ready. I made sure to shave my pussy well. I wore my red butterfly thong that Master R chose. I wore my jean shorts and tank top without the bra of course. That way people can see my erect nipples!! :) Last night they were erect many times. I was told some new rules. I was told I would not be allowed to cum last night. I hadn't cum since Saturday afternoon and I was hoping I would be allowed. Master Anakin wants me on orgasm denial until Friday, our Miami Vice date night. He wants me feeling horny and wet and submissive. I am so damn wet this morning. I sit here in my Bad Kitty Nightgown and my computer chair is soaked. I could cum from walking. I am going nuts!!

I put on my make up and got ready. Master made arrangements for him to join us for coffee. Our kid's went to his parent's for a hour. I could barely eat dinner I was so nervous. I had no idea what the two of them had talked about through the day. I was just imaginging them cooking up some sexy plans for me. We met him at Starbucks. I love Starbucks. I enjoy just sitting outside enjoying a mocha. Master R was waiting for us when we arrived. He looked sexy in a very yuppie golfer type of outfit. He was enjoying his coffee and had his sunglasses on. I could tell him eyeing me up and down and felt very nervous. Sometimes I feel Master R look right through my soul.

We all enjoyed some conversation. I realized how far the two men have come in ten years of knowing each other. They enjoyed talking about me a bit and both smiled at me with their dominant smiles. Both of them know how to mind fuck me. Master R asked if he could have permission from Master Anakin to take me to the HSBC Celebration of Light that was happening downtown in English Bay. I really wanted to go but it would be too late to go with our two children. Master Anakin decided this would be good for me. To get away for a night and relax and get my mind off things. He's been worried about me. I was very excited!! I love the fireworks each year. Italy (my sis's country) was the country doing the fireworks last night. I told Master R about my sis. We talked about her a lot. I wanted him to know about the woman I am in love with and who is big part of my life.

After Starbucks Master Anakin said goodbye to me with a slap on my ass right in front of the whole coffee store. I know he did this to embarrass me and a few people were staring at us. I was walking away and he just all of a sudden slapped my ass hard once. I turned around and blushed. One guy had wild eyes. Master R just smiled and did a sadistic little laugh. Both men were enjoying themselves. I could tell. They both feed off my reactions to things.

Master R and I headed to his place. I love his home. It's private and a huge house. It makes my townhouse look like chopped liver. He's got a lot of money and no kid's. I always enjoy going there. He's got his own private collection of toys. We went to the pool room. It was strange to see that pool table again. I had a flashback of him fucking me on it. I started to get horny at this point. He got the point pretty fast. Put on some music and came over and told me to pull down my shorts and thong. I leaned over that same pool table he fucked me on and he took off his belt. I had noticed earlier in the evening that he had a new belt. I felt his old one many times. I have a belt fetish. This was very much a warm up to the evening. I got his belt hard and he spanked my ass with his big hands.

We went upstairs for a drink at one point. I was wearing my tank top and thong and left my shorts behind. We went into his livingroom. He tapped his knee.

"Over you go, my sweet sin" he said with a big grin.

I knew a hard OTK would follow and it did. My ass burned by the time he was done. It felt so red and sore. I tried my best to take it all but I squirmed around a bit and he lectured me. He has such a stern voice. I was wet and he knew it. He teased me with his fingers.

"Your not allowed to cum, little one. You must suffer for your Master" he said to me.

I admit this gave me a pout and he erased it fast when he went to get his cane. This cane is from his blinds. Damn that thing hurt!!! My ass hated it. He would get me to lean over and wack it against my butt and I would scream out. I was given 20 of these hard. And I mean hard!! I was feeling extremely submissive at this point. I was in a very deep subspace. He took out his hard cock and told me to suck it hard. I gave him a blow job and he was most pleased. I loved watching his reaction as he came.

We talked for a bit. He then told me I would be getting a quick OTK again before leaving for the fireworks. My ass was sore for that car ride and he teased and taunted me many times in the car about it.

"How's your ass, sin?"

He's a very sarcastic type of man with a sick sense of humor about things. He really did drive me crazy. At one point telling me to stick my hands down my shorts and masturbate in the car. I could feel the wetness in my panties. I wanted to cum but he wouldn't let me but instead taunted me constantly about it.

"Wet little slut can't cum. awwww..." he said very sadistically.

I enjoyed going downtown Vancouver. We enjoyed a bit of sushi before heading to English Bay. The fireworks were incredible. I really enjoyed feeling like we were friend's last night. I was getting upset that he would want to spank me or be with me and not spend any time with me. We got to have a very good talk. Last night was just what I needed. He kissed me on the forehead during the fireworks. It reminded me of a Daddy type of thing to do. He is as old as my own Father. I thought about that a bit last night. His age worries me. I don't want to lose him in my life. I am so glad we never said goodbye to one another. I was afraid he was gone from my life but he's there during a time I need my friend's the most. Thanks Master R for a great night!! I hope Friday works out.

Some friend's have disappeared on me during a time that I was struggling the most with my friend's passing. I had some of the lowest days this week. I really did need to come out of my dark place and I did thanks to my Master and Master R. I am so grateful for them in my life. I am so grateful for my friend's. I am so grateful to the reader's of this blog.

Saturday is the Star Wars spanking party!! Just a reminder. 6 pm!! I hope you can join us or stop by and say hello or leave a comment!! We have a few different plans for it.

May the force be with you all!!

~a very horny padme

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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Coffee and a spanking with Master R tonight!


I have been having a hard time the last few days with losing my good friend, Master Mark E. DeSade. I noticed today on his website there was a public notice put up and a song. The words to Time by Alan Parson's Project. My thoughts are with marie right now. I have thought about her a lot lately. I know he cared about her a lot. We talked about her in our last chat. It said his site will be shut down at the end of July. I will leave his link up until the site is closed and then delete the link. I wish there was a way to do some kind of public memorial for him. I have barely thought of anything but his passing the last few days.

I got an e-mail recently from Master R and I phoned him. I am putting up a photo today from one of my nights with Master R. For those who don't know who Master R is, he is a man who has been a mentor, friend and Master to me. He's married but his wife is vanilla. He's had many slaves he plays with. There have always been rules to follow. He is someone I have played with many times. We shared a night a few months ago to say goodbye. Master Anakin allowed us to be able to share one more night together. He went away on vacation with his wife for two months. He is now retired from his job. He was pretty much retiring from being a Master too. At least that's what he was hoping to do. I think he realized that is hard to do. To forget about his feelings about wanting to be a Dom. It's in his nature. I have missed him so much. I was glad to hear from him.

He teased me and flirting with me on the phone. We talked about some old times. I mentioned Master Mark and how I never got to get that spanking from him. Master R then told me he was always available for a spanking. I inquired half expecting he was joking. But he wasn't. He put out a offer that I can turn to him for a cup of coffee or a spanking. He misses spanking me. He found it very stress relieving and it helped fullfill a need in him. So Master and I had a big talk last night. Master realized that I miss being spanked by him. I miss the feel of a true discipline type of spanking. I miss the heavy level of play. Our M/s has been slow due to the vacation and then the loss of my friend. I need to feel back on track and we both know that Master R can get me focused and back on track. He's always had a ability to bring me out of a dark space.

I am sure many people might not understand my relationship with Master R. I've been judged by a few people through the years. I recently told my sister about our night together a few months ago. She knows we were poly but she figured we went back to monogomy after we married and nikki was gone. She was shocked. She tried not to judge me but I could tell she didn't understand it. I've had many people ask me many questions about Master R. I will just say that I am only allowed to share on this blog or with others what he lets me share. He's a extremely private man. He's a experienced player. I trust him 100%.

I was chatting to my sis on yahoo and telling her about Master R. I wish she lived closer so she can help me get ready for tonight. Master R and I are meeting tonight at 6 pm for coffee and then some play. His wife is out of town. He is looking for some fun and escape. So am I. Master Anakin has given us rules to follow. Master R is a very good person to play with. He's always respected Master Anakin's rules and he is very careful of my emotions. We don't kiss. We don't use the L (love) word ever. I don't know Master R's last name or information about him. I am not allowed to ask about his other slaves. I am to obey always. I do have a safeword with him.
Tonight there will be no penetration. We slept together the last time we met but this time we do not plan to do that. I am feeling too vulnerable and Master Anakin is not allowing it. We do plan to play. The no penetration rule does allow for oral sex though and I am sure I will be sucking his cock after he spanks me hard. I used to wonder what Master R gets out of our meetings. He doesn't get paid. Up until recently he didn't get penetration. He told me that he gets the thrill of control out of it. Master Anakin gives me to him for a night and he gets to control me and use me and to spank my ass. I am the youngest of his slave's. He's almost 60 now. Almost old enough to be my Dad. I do not know his wife. I don't want to. I do ask about her but he's very limited in what he tells me.

From the beginning it was clear what our relationship was...very good friend's who play together and he would mentor me for Master Anakin and help in my training. I know I am the slave I am today because of him. I know tonight will be intense. My meetings with Master R always are. He is no nosense. He spanks damn hard. My ass usually has bruises for a few days and it doesn't bruise easily now. He will use his toys on me and I will hurt tonight. I will probably be on my knees sucking his very hard cock after he canes my ass. I will come back to Master Anakin and show him the bruises on my ass and with a very well corrected attitude. And I will get used and fucked by him. I know Master loves to fuck my pussy after he sees the marks on my ass from Master R.

I wrote a few very good blog posts about Master R. In case anyone wants to read them:

Our Saturday Night with Master R - I am sharing the same photo today that I shared in that blog post. It was me dressed up for Master R the night he was over visiting us. It's a hot blog post!

A Night to Remember with Master R - This was written by Master Anakin. He writes about our night with him.

One Final Night with Master R - My night together with him. Obviously it was not our final night together and I am very happy he is still a part of my life.

Goodbye my Mentor and Friend - a blog post I wrote to say goodbye to him

Master R - a blog post about my relationship with him.

and Master R pays me a visit - this is about a visit he paid me many months ago. Enjoy!

I chatted with good girl and also my sis about tonight. I am so nervous and excited. I didn't think I would ever get a spanking again from him. I am not sure if he will ever be my Master again but I do realize we will always share a special friendship and I am glad we can still play together. I really need this in my life to get my focused. To have some escape and to bring out my submissive feelings again and get Master Anakin and I back on track to where we need to be. I love this picture I put up today with the girl in the mirror. She looks so sexy. I really wish there was a woman to join us tonight for the play. I wish my sis was here to share in the countdown before I see Master R. I am almost shaking I am so nervous...

I have a hair dye I plan to use to make it nice and light blonde and I have been given a set of instructions about tonight. I am to have a shaved pussy and nice and clean. Master R has picked out the red thong butterfly to wear for tonight for him and picked out my clothes. I have been given chores by Master Anakin to get done in order to go out tonight with Master R. My ass is already anticipating tonight. I know it's going to need some ice the next few days. Messa going to get spanked!!

Tommorow is HNT and I plan to put up the spanking photos and share some details from last weekend. So stay tuned for that. So does anyone want the details of tonight??

2 more days til Miami Vice and our special date night. I can't wait!! 3 more days til the Star Wars spanking party here at Journey to the Darkside. Hope you all can make it!

I was told to have this blog post done by Master's lunch hour and I just got it done in time. *whew* Now I need to get my chores done and start getting ready for tonight.

May the force be with you all!!

~nervous padme

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Sadness in my heart

There is a lot of sadness in my heart today. I didn't plan to do a blog post but decided to post my answers to the one meme and to write out some feelings. I thought this picture of padme showed my emotions today. padme looks so sad in this picture. I just feel so sad. I am trying very hard to hang on. I am grieving. I've cried a lot the last few days.

Today hasn't been a good day for me. The last few days have been very hard for me. I want to hide. I want to cut myself. I want to run away. I can't deal with the emotional pain in my heart right now. I long for the physical pain to take away the emotinal pain I am feeling so strongly. I am trying to come to terms with my good friend Master Mark's death and many other issues going on in my life right now. There feels like many changes are happening. In my friendships, in my relationship with Master Anakin, with myself. Since coming back from our trip I have felt differently. I was still coming down from the vacation when I got the news about my friend. I got the news the same day we spent all afternoon playing.

I got punished on Saturday and got the spanking of my life for overspending on our trip. I plan to share the photos and details on Thursday for my HNT. I was in subspace. Master Anakin and I connected. Darth came out. Anakin had been around for two weeks, not Darth. That sadist was romantic and loving on our trip. I loved it but I craved his other side. The dominant side. The Darth side. I got a taste of it Saturday and it was wonderful. We had great sex and I was happy and relaxed. I came downstairs to check my e-mails. And the first one I saw was Master Mark E De Sade's e-mail address. I thought it was him. I thought he was letting me know he was ok. I was worried about him after our last conversation. But it was from his friend, marie. I hadn't heard from her in months. I must have sat here for ten minutes staring at the computer screen in shock. I didn't believe it. So I wrote her and she wrote me back. I really crashed at that point.

The last few days have felt like some of the hardest for me since the time of my accident. I am having a hard time concentrating and dealing with the smallest things. It's also made me feel spiritual though. I am reaching out to people right now. I feel needy for love. I need my friend's. People ask how I am doing. I am not doing very well. I finally got out after several days of not leaving my house. I finally took a shower and I tried to eat. I havn't slept much. I toss and turn. I keep going over my last conversation with Master Mark. I feel haunted right now. I wish I had more answers. I quess I am trying to come to terms with this loss. I've never lost a friend before like this and so young. I honestly don't know how to deal with it.

My force feels weak. I am drowning in sadness. I am trying to keep my head above water but today has been difficult. I did appreciate the break of getting groceries. I really crave the structure and control right now. The M/s is so important to me right now. I need Master right now. I need to be told to exercise...to eat...to do the simple things. I need him to push me through this fog I am feeling of sadness.

I am worried about my depression. I hope I don't have to go back on meds. I have been considering making a Doctor's appointment. I really am crashing so hard from the vacation being over and my friend's death. I feel so lonely right now. I reached out today to Master R. He's back from his 2 month trip with his wife. He wrote me a e-mail and I phoned him today. He will always be my friend. In many ways he still feels like my other Dom. He's known me almost 10 years and he knows me very well. He was worried about me and e-mailed me. I have been given permission to go out with him for coffee from Master Anakin. I am thinking about it. I miss Master R. I admit I miss the spankings from him. He teased me a bit. I'm not sure if he's serious but I think a part of him misses the lifestyle. We still flirt with each other. I am glad he's in my life.

My sister, E and I had a long talk yesterday. I did tell her a good friend of mine died. I wanted to reach out to her right now. I learned a lesson from my friend's death. Don't put off telling them how you feel...cause one day it might be too late. It's too late for me to tell Master Mark how much he did for me and how much I appreciated his friendship. I am going to miss him so much. I want to tell the reader's of this blog how much I appreciate their support and comments. The comments really do mean a lot to Master and I. Thank you for being here on our journey with us.

The Star Wars spanking party is here at Journey to the Darkside this Saturday July 29th at 6 pm PST. I hope you all can join us. We will be watching Episode 3, Revenge of the Sith and chatting to others and we will leave our comment moderation off so people can comment easily. We plan to open a bottle of Gallo's wine that we got right from Napa Valley that night. We got a overnight for our son so we have no kid's and we plan to do lots of spankings that night. I really need this escape right now. We will be on yahoo and messenger and plan to do a conference with everyone who wants to to talk about the movie and my spankings or anything else. It's going to be fun. Don't miss it!! Bring your own booze or drinks and snacks. Enjoy a night of a great movie and some great fun and conversation!

Master's been taking care of me. Anakin came back. I am craving Darth so bad though. I want his strength right now. I feel lost. I need his guidance through this time right now. He's been busy at work and we havn't had much time together in the last few days. Master did something yesterday for me though that was so romantic and really touching. He arranged for sitting for our son and for my ex to pick up our daughter early on Friday. Friday is a day I have been looking for for months. Miami Vice is coming out!!! We are going to see it opening day. I am counting down the days.

I love Miami Vice. One of my favorite memories as a kid was watching Miami Vice with my Dad on Friday nights. He would let me stay up. Sometimes we ordered pizza or chinese food. He loved the show and it's one of the few good memories with him from my childhood. I had it bad for Don Johnson too. Yesterday we watched the Pilot episode on Season One DVD. He knows I want to see this movie Friday and arranged for a special night. (dinner and a movie date for it) We plan to make the night special. I got a pair of Palm Tree earrings on our trip from him that I plan to wear for our night out. Tonight we are planning to watch more Miami Vice to get ready for the big night!! I love Colin Farrell too. He's so hot and I predict he'll make a perfect Crockett.

Blogger's been acting up the last few day's. I tried to post my answers to the one meme but it didn't work for some reason. Urg!! Well I better start dinner for Master. I am hoping we can find some time together tonight. I've missed him a lot. Uh oh...Master just walked in the door and I havn't started dinner yet. He went up for a shower in Darth mode. My ass already feels a spanking coming for this!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

Monday, July 24, 2006

I will remember you my friend...Master Mark

Blogger doesn't seem to be cooperating today for me. I have tried several times to put up a photo of Master Mark and it's not letting me. So I am going to do my post without the picture. This was a very hard blog post to write. I hope I can get the words out right. It was completely unexpected and he was very young. He was only 2 years older than Master Anakin. He was a very special person and he's going to be missed by many.

I am very sad and upset right now. I received two e-mails from Master Mark's friend, marie on Saturday informing me of his passing. I really had hoped there had been a mistake. I had many questions. Today while chatting to my good friend, scarlett she told me she found out that it was indeed true. There had been a public posting about his passing from the chairman of the Powerotics Foundation. I feel like I am allowed to grieve now and really deal with the fact that he's gone. He's really gone. I am in shock. I feel numb. I am just shocked to my core. Words can't describe my emotions I am feeling today. I am crying as I type this trying very hard to find the words to describe my emotions right now.

scarlett did a blog post also about Master Mark. Please check it out. It also has a really good photo of him looking happy and relaxed.

I hadn't talked to him in a few weeks and was thinking a lot about him the other day. I never had the chance to thank him for his friendship and all the advice and being there for me through the years. I first talked to Master Mark in 1997. I had just found D/s on the internet and I needed a lot of guidance. I found Master Mark E DeSade's website and e-mailed him. He was very easy to talk to and answered many of my endless questions. We started to chat on icq at that time. I got to know him. He turned into a friend for me. We didn't talk for a few years due to what was happening in my life but I contacted him again after starting my blog.

I wanted to put up his link on my blog as I had so much respect for him as a Dom and considered him a good friend. He put out a offer at one point to have me star in one of his spanking movies. It was poor timing though with Christmas coming and commitements. I definatly fantasized about it though. I had always wondered what a spanking would feel like from him. I kept putting off the trip to LA. I kept thinking there would be more time for that. And now there is no more time. He's really gone. My friend is really gone. I am crying as I type this. I miss him. I wish I had tried harder to be in contact with him. I kept meaning to do a interview with him. I am feeling some guilt right now. I really wish I had made the time to do that interview now. He helped me a lot to deal with my situation with Master R. I was so thankful for all the advice and friendship during a rough time in my life. I still can't really believe he is gone. I am going to miss him so much.

He will be missed by many people. I know scarlett will miss him so much too. I feel like she understands how I feel right now. I appreciate the friendship and support of my bro, adam and my sis, schiava also. They have both been amazing. Master Anakin has tried to take care of me through this. I appreciate all the comments and e-mails. I admit I am not dealing with this very well and am really depressed right now. I am not sleeping well or eating much. We have a heat wave happening here and it's drained me. I can't stop thinking about Master Mark. He passed so young. He had many years ahead of him. I never had the chance to find a lady for him. It just really hurts right now. It's a great loss to the bdsm community. I don't know many other Pro Doms. He was really good at what he did and I know this will affect many people.

I imagine Master Mark somewhere right now with his paddle in one hand and a big smile on his face. I will never forget him and his friendship...I will miss my dear friend very, very much...

Rest in peace Master Mark....
May the force be with you, dear friend...
As Sarah McLachlan sings...

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybeI’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel

May you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie

That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness
ohThis glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage

Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

I wanted to say more about my friend, Master Mark but I am unable to find the words. I am crying and so shaken up. I think I am going to go offline for the rest of today and try to come to terms with this somehow. I am having a hard time at the moment thinking of anything but this. I did put up a Dr. Phil test that I got from my sister. I hope you all will give it a try.

I have learned a big lesson from my friend's passing. To try to keep in touch with my friend's more and tell them how I feel about them. You can put it off or think that one day you'll be able to but sometimes it's too late. I hope my friend, Mark knows how much I cared about him and will miss him so much...

May the force be with you all!!

~a very sad padme

Dr. Phil's Test

I got 35 on this test...I hope everyone will give it a try. I got this in a e-mail from my sister. It was a fun one to try and wanted to put it up for everyone.


Below is Dr Phil's test. (Dr. Phil scored 55; he did this test on Oprah
- she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out!
Read on, this is very interesting!

Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only
takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to your
friends.

The person who sent it placed their score in the e-mail subject box.
Please do the same before forwarding to your friends (send it back to
the person who Sent it to you.) Don't peek, but begin the test as you
scroll down and answer.

Answers are for who you are now...... not who you were in the past. Have
pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human
Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today.
It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and
prospective employees. It's only 10 Simple questions, so...grab a pencil
and paper,
keeping track of your letter answers to each question.

Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When
you are finished, forward this to friends/family, and also send it to
the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR
score in the subject box.

Ready??

Begin...

1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon &and early evening
c) late at night

2. You usually walk...
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you..
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, ! touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with..
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with...
a) big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you..
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're
interrupted........
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you lik e most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going
to sleep you are..
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they shoul d "handle with
care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely
dominant.. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like
you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply
involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather
impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions,
though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and
adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes
chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company
because of the excitement! you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing,
practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the
center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to
their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding;
someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Ot hers see you as sensible, cautious, careful &
practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not
a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone
who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same
loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a
lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you a
long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see
you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It
would! really surprise them if you ever did something
impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine
everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against
it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive,
someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make
the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with
anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems
that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know
you well know that you aren't.

Now forward this to others, and put your score in the subject box of
your e-mail, like this:
"Dr.Phil's Test-I'm a
--

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HHNT!!!!!! (http://melanaise.blogspot.com)
I Feel Myself, I Really Do : ) (http://eroticandy.blogspot.com)
Porn Week Vacation (http://www.internetisforporn.com)

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
The Anticipation (http://wanklog.blogspot.com)
Being Submissive (http://ww2.alternativealbany.com/bdsm/)
Late night deviant (http://xxgraciexx.blogspot.com)
Mmm Tentacle-y (http://shayssexcolumn.blogspot.com)
My Orgasm and Sexual Desire Secrets (http://totalsensuality.blogspot.com)
RANT: On the Rag with The Goddesses (http://cuntinglinguist.blogspot.com)
Self image is a wonderful thing, most of the time (http://seanandmel.blogspot.com)
Tag - Past Love - Story 2 - Self-discovery and Healing (http://dawnndirty.blogspot.com)
Those damn slutty bisexuals (http://www.dangerousfemme.com)

Sex News
Bush for “Products and Services,” Not Birth Control (http://www.taratainton.com)
Gay Gamers are Coming Out of the Closet (http://sugarjoy.com)
Next Door Nikki on Jerry Springer (http://myhotbox.blogspot.com)
There’s Got To Be A Joke Here Somewhere (http://tgp.com)

BDSM and Fetish

Guessing Games (http://eroticaetcetera.com/blog/)
How about a cookie (http://redvelvetropeburn.com)
Isabella’s Eyes - Part IV (http://nyc-urban-gypsy.blogspot.com)
Spanking at t’mill (http://www.spankingwriters.com)

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A VERY long drive home (http://spankingkatiespades.blogspot.com)
Yes Master (http://gentlygently.blogspot.com)

Humor
Static Electricity–and no, it wasn’t caused by the phone (http://lipstickexplosion.com)
Unbeknownst To The Roommate (http://radicalvixen.com/blog)
You want some popcorn with that? (http://dontwakethekids.blogspot.com)

Sex Work
Haze Goes to Prison (http://adelehaze.com/)
Long nails dig into the submissive mind (http://www.ladyevilsdungeon.com)
Tease and Denial with My sissy bitch (http://www.caramelvixen.com/vixen-blog/)

Erotic Writing and Experiences
7/16 by Rex: Soap Suds (http://rexandroxy.blogspot.com)
The Bed, the Bath, and Beyond (http://www.taratainton.com)
A Bit of Pink Alone Time (http://femmefataleteen.blogspot.com)
Blush (http://designingintimacy.blogspot.com)
Can you hear that..? (http://pleasinglydebauched.blogspot.com)
Cold Hands, Hot strokes (http://lustdemon.blogspot.com)
Good Thing It Wasn’t Windy Today… (http://onaniajournal.blogspot.com)
His Kind of Woman (http://theholidaylife.blogspot.com)
Hot Mami is OPP (part one) (http://dirtydetails.blogspot.com/)
I left my heart in San Francisco (http://darkside-journey.blogspot.com)
Just the, um, three of us? part one……. (http://aliferestarted.blogspot.com)
Nocturnal Confessions #1 (http://xantasia.blogspot.com)
Trees again (http://orgasmcurious.blogspot.com)
Wet (http://www.asstr.org/~gentlebutfirm/)

Lovely upskirt photo courtesy of Melanaise.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Loss of a friend

I just got two e-mails from a close friend of Master Mark's. Master Mark is someone who I have considered a good friend. I just got the most shocking news tonight. I am very sad right now and very shaken up. My friend, Master Mark has passed away suddenly yesterday. His friend, Marie told me he passed peacefully in his sleep. I know she meant a lot to him. I am absolutely in shock right now. It doesn't seem like too long ago we were chatting on yahoo. I never got around to that interview with him. And now he's gone.

Marie mentioned they will be putting up a notice/memorial on his site soon about his passing. I am really going to miss my friend. I respected him very much. He was very well known in the bdsm community. I used to dream of going out to see him and now I will never have the chance. I am so deeply sad tonight. I will miss him so much. I am just very much in shock right now. It's a very sad night..

Goodbye my friend...
I will miss you so much...
May the force be with you.

~padme

Another meme and a punishment spanking coming


I saw another meme this morning from searabbit and decided to give it a try. It looks good. I hope some people might give it a try for me. I thought I would share another two photos from our trip. We took so many really good photos. I hope the reader's are enjoying them. Both of these were taken at Cannon Beach.

Cannon beach, Oregon was one of my favorite places on the trip. It had one of the most beautiful beaches I have ever seen. In one photo you can see the women riding their horses out on the beach. It was a beautiful sight. I hope everyone enjoyed my San Fran post yesterday. There are so many memories to share and I want to blog about the spanking in the chamber of horrors soon too.

I have a punishment spanking coming to me today. I am thinking about it a lot this morning. We have sitting today for the first time in the last two weeks. He plans to give me the cane and paddle and his belt for overspending on our trip. I spent a bit too much money and didn't tell him about it. I know the rules and I know I have had this spanking coming to me since we came back. A part of me is craving it as I want to get back into line. Another part is dreading this because when I havn't been spanked in a while I know that this is going to hurt. A punishment spanking is also always harder than a play one. He wants me to learn a lesson. So wish me luck with this. He's got a lot of time today and air conditioning going to keep him cool during this heat wave to spank me hard. I have a hard time when shopping. I like to spend money and it was too hard to control myself in San Fran. $200 was spent over our budget that I didn't tell him about. So I've been told I am getting 200 with the cane, his black belt and Master Anakin's paddle today for punishment. Ouchies!!

Here is the meme from searabbit:

Choose a word from each pairs you think is the most representative for me... Can be both... or any of them...

*dominant or submissive
*logical or intuitive
*social or loner
*kinky or vanilla
*cute or sophisticated
*kitten or puppy
*warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
*leader or follower
*quiet or talkative
*spontaneous or planned
*teddy bear or porcelain doll
*hiking or window shopping
*tequila or vodka
*top or bottom
*bare foot or shoes
*jeans or slacks
*tender or rough
*aware or dreamy
*nerd or jock
*brains or brawn
*common sense or book smarts
*pretty or sexy

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

Friday, July 21, 2006

I left my heart in San Francisco


I wanted to share a few more vacation photos with our reader's. I just feel in the mood to blog today. I did a quiz and a meme already today. Check it out and please let me know if you do the meme. It's a good one. :) This photo I am putting up is Master and I kissing on the San Francisco Bay. It was one of the most romantic moments of my life. It was a very romantic night for us.

Master made the decision to go to San Fran on a whim at Eureka, California. We were sitting at the Jack in the Box and he says "let's keep driving down the coast." I thought he was a bit nuts but decided that this would be a memory we could share that we would always remember. I am a very spontaneous person. I was a bit surprised Master was being so willing to live in the moment. He is usually the one who likes things planned out. We had only planned to go down the Oregon Coast and then head back. We knew we would only get about 24 hours in San Francisco. He would be driving about 5 hours to only get 24 hours in one city. He did it though. We drove through some of the most incredible places. I knew my bro, Adam would have liked to go back to California. I admit some of the reasons I decided to keep going was because of him. I wanted to take a little bit of California back to him. I know he misses it there so much. I enjoyed my talk on the phone today with Adam. I really value my friendship with my bro.

We drove through a lot of wineries and picked up a bottle to take back with us. We got into San Fran about 6 pm. There was fog on the Golden Gate Bridge. It was a beautiful sight. Sunny with fog. I am putting up a picture from that drive into San Fran. It was a beautiful sight!! We drove into the city and started to look for a motel near the Fisherman's Wharf. We checked in and headed straight down to the Wharf. We were able to watch the sunset as we stared out at Alcatraz and the Golden Gate Bridge. It was beautiful and Master held me while we sat there watching it. Our kid's playing at the bay. We walked around the shops and bought many neat things. We ate at the Rainforest Cafe there. It was worth the wait. Our kid's loved it. The bill was a hundred bucks though. We overdid our budget on the trip. It was worth the memories though.

After dinner we went back to the beach on the bay. I was slightly intoxicated from my Bahama Mama I drank with dinner. Hardly anyone was around. I loved how the light was shining on alcatraz and it looked lite up. The golden gate bridge looked beautiful too with the lights. I took off my shoes and decided to go dip my toes into the ocean. Boy it was cold. I was shocked at how cold the water was. Master came over to me and grabbed me. He spun me around and started to kiss me with so much passion and love. In the one photo you can see the kiss. It was a moment I will never forget. He looked into my eyes...told me I was his forever...and he loved me with all of his heart. I cried a bit. We went back to the hotel. The kid's went to bed. We snuck into the bathroom and locked the door. He made love to me against the sink. My ass sitting on top of the sink...his cock in my very wet pussy. Fucking me with his passion...kissing me so romantically. I felt so much love with his love making that night. It was truly incredible.

It was one of the most incredible moments sexually for me. I came three times from it. He was so passionate and gentle. Just like Anakin was towards padme. I fell in love with Master all over again that night. My love for him grew so much that night. I really loved that night we spent in San Fran. I will never forget it.

The next day we headed to the wax museum and got a spanking in the chamber of horrors. But that's another blog post for another day. :)

I really wanted to write about that night and share that experience with my reader's and friend's. It was a truly incredible moment in my life.

As Frank Sinatra sings...
I left my heart in San Francisco

The loveliness of Paris seems somehow sadly gay,
The glory that was Rome is just another day,
I've been terribly alone and forgotten in Manhattan,
I'm going home to my city by the bay.

[Chorus:]

I left my heart in San Francisco,
high on a hill it calls to me
To be where little cable cars climb halfway to the stars.
The morning fog may chill the air,
I don't care.

My love waits there in San Francisco,
above the blue and windy sea,
When I come home to you,
San Francisco,
your golden sun will
shine for me.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

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Tagged by Theresa

I got tagged before I went on vacation by Theresa. I am finally able to do this meme. I'm not tagging anyone so if anyone wants to do it, let me know and I'll check out your results. :)

Place a X by all the things you have done, or remove the X from the ones you have not.

This is for your entire life.

(X) Smoked a cigarette
(X) Drank so much you threw up
( ) Crashed a friend's car
( ) Stolen a car
(X) Been in love
(X) Been dumped
( ) Shoplifted
(X) Been laid off/fired
(X) Quit your job
(X) Been in a fist fight
( ) Snuck out of your parent's house
(X) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) Been arrested
(X) Gone on a blind date
(X) Lied to a friend
(X) Skipped school
( ) Seen someone die
(X) Been to Canada
(X) Been to Mexico
(X) Been on a plane
(X) Been lost
( ) Been on the opposite side of the country
( ) Gone to Washington, DC
(X) Swam in the ocean
(X) Felt like dying
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
(X) Played cops and robbers
( ) Recently colored with crayons
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid for a meal with only coins
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) Made prank phone calls
(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) Danced/Did something else in the rain
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
(X) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(X) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) Blown bubbles
(X) Made a bonfire on the beach
(X) Crashed a party
(X) Gone roller-skating
(X) Gone ice-skating
(X) Been to Europe
(X) Kissed (with tongue) a member of the same sex
( ) Learned to surf
( ) Climbed a real mountain
( ) Jumped out of a airplane while it was in the air
( ) Bungee jumped
( ) Hang glided
(X) Had a one night stand
( ) Danced in a snow fall
(X) Made a snow angel
(X) Watched a friend break their heart over you
( ) Played disc golf
(X) Played regular golf
(X) Water-skiied
( ) Learned to sail
(X) Kissed (with tongue) a member of the opposite sex
( ) Been to Asia
( ) Been to Austrailia/New Zealand
( ) Been the only one dancing
( ) Been to Africa
( ) Been so cold you thought you would die
( ) Been to South America
( ) Been to the Caribbean
( ) Been addicted to a drug
( ) Won over a addiction
(X) Smoked weed
( ) Tried cocaine
( ) Tried crystal meth
( ) Tried ecstacy
( ) Tried heroin
( ) Seen a rainforest
(X) Attend (ed) church regularly
(X) Feel spiritual every day

Any nicknames: sin and padme

Tattoo's: one on my ankle

Body Piercings: My ears are pierced

How much do you love your job? I enjoy staying home as Master's houseslave very much. :)

Birthplace: Around Vancouver, BC Canada

Favorite Vacation Spot: Las Vegas, Nevada

What is your favorite drink? Alcoholic: Wine Non-Alcoholic: Starbucks coffee

Ever steal traffic signs? No

Ever been in a police chase? No

Ever been in a car accident? Yes

2 door or 4 door: 4 door

Salad Dressing? Russian

Favorite Pie? Pumpkin

Favorite Number? 5

Favorite Movie? Any of the Star Wars movies

Favorite Holiday? The one I just took to Oregon coast/San Fran

Favorite Food? Russian

Favorite Day of the week? Friday

Favorite brand of Body soap? Any of the lush products

Favorite TV shows? CSI, Young and the Restless, Survivor, old Miami Vice episodes, Kink

Favorite smell? Lavender and cinnamon

What do you do to relax? Take a hot bath with candles and soft music or sit outside on my porch and relax and meditate

Message to your friend's reading this? Be spontaneous and live in the moment!

How do you see yourself in ten years? Old and grey and still in love with Master Anakin

Auto or Stick: Auto

Walking or cycling? Walking

Dance or watch? Dance

Expect to live forever? No

TGIF to everyone!! Tonight is our play night and I am really looking forward to it. I am feeling so needy for Master right now. I hope everyone is having a good day. Almost the weekend!!

I was very surprised to learn that Creative Spanked Wife is now closed. I really enjoyed patty's blog and she inspired me to start my own. I read her blog for months before anyone else's. I hope she will come back to the blogging world one day. I'm going to miss her.

I really need a spanking right now!! Anyone care to come over and give me one??

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

Quiz from searabbit

You scored as Mermaid. Mermaid: Mermaids are also known as Sirens. These creatures were beautiful women who tricked sailors into becoming completely entranced by their haunting voices and found death soon after. Not all stories of Mermaids are about gentle loving sea people. They are mystical, magical, and extremely dangerous. They have a way about them that brings anyone they are around to seem enchanted. They are very mysterious creatures and to meet one... Would mean certain Death. Let the song of the Sea fill your soul, for you are a Mermaid.

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Angel

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Thursday, July 20, 2006

Happy HNT - Flash at the Oregon Dunes



I am putting two more photos of our trip to Oregon Coast/San Francisco trip up. Happy HNT!! (Half-Nekkid Thursday) Today's HNT is another flashing photo. This one was taken in a very public place not far from the Oregon Dunes. It's the exhibitionist in me that loves to flash my tits whenever possible. Master wanted me to flash him in the trail going up to the Dunes. Our kid's had run ahead to the sand and we were alone. He immediately ordered me to show my tits to him.

"Show me your tits, slut" he said with a sadistic smile.

I didn't hesitate and flashed him. Anyone could have come around the corner at any moment to see this. I was very excited over this. You can see my nipples very erect in this photo. I could see the Dunes and Oregon Coast in the background as I flashed my tits. In the other photo is my feet in the sand. I've never done a feet photo on this blog before. You can get a good look at my anklet that Master bought me. I put my feet right into the hot sand. The sand was so soft and amazing. I havn't felt sand like that through my toes since Hawaii. I wear this anklet often. I love how sexy it makes me feel. :)

I have some blog catch up to do on all the blogs I have been missing. I also have a ton of housework and stuff to do today. I wish I was on the beach on the bay in San Francisco right now.

I am going to share a spanking story from the trip in my next blog post. Stay tuned for that!! We took a few videos with our camera. They are all vanilla though. I am curious if anyone would like to see them. Please let me know. There was so many beautiful places we saw. I want to share our vacation with our reader's. It's been really hard coming back to reality after a week away. I left my heart in San Francisco, California. It was one of the best 24 hours of my life there. Master was so romantic and loving. We had a really special night. I want to share the details of that night very soon.

I feel an inner peace I havn't felt in a very long time. I am very relaxed and happy. Master and I reconnected and fell in love again. I havn't felt so much love towards him since our honeymoon. We can't stop touching each other and kissing. I love the romance. I admit though I am missing Darth. There's a part of me which is desiring the dark side to come out. I miss a hard spanking or his hands on my throat. I miss the sadist. I miss the naughty and nasty sex. His side like Anakin is very loving and sweet and romantic. The other side is Darth and I miss him right now. Our rules went out the window on this trip. My diet especially went out the window. I ate so many rich foods and even ate beef. My body is feeling the effects of it all now. So much chocolate and fish and chips. I swear I gained five pounds. I know I need to get back to the rules again and exercise plan. I need to be tied up. I need to be controlled. The submissive in me is aching for Darth. I am also horny today. It's been days since we fucked and that night it was more like making love. I love that but I miss the rough fucking we do.

We have a weekend of no plans. Next weekend the new Miami Vice movie is coming out! I am SO much looking forward to it. I have been counting down the days. I hope this weekend we will play and get some time to reconnect as Master and slave. I am really needing that right now.

I am chatting to my sis, schiava right now. I missed her so much. I thought about her a lot on the trip. I missed many of my friend's.

Don't forget that next Saturday July 29th is our Star Wars spanking party here at Journey to the Darkside. We are hoping to start the party around 6 pm that night vancouver time. (PST) The comment moderation will be shut off for that night (so your comments will show up right away) and we plan to watch Episode 3, Revenge of the Sith. I have been told I will be receiving several spankings throughout that night. We will be discussing the movie too. I hope you all can join us!! It's going to be a lot of fun.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

From Vancouver to San Francisco and back in 6 days





We are back from our vacation. It's been very hard to come down from our trip. So much has happened in a week. We have been to so many different places and I have many memories and photos to share of our trip. For the next week I plan to share all our adventures with our reader's. We had a really relaxing and fun time. We are having a hard time dealing with getting back to a normal day. I am emotionally and physically exhausted. I've had very little sleep. I am craving a hot bath and a spanking to get me back to real life. I havn't had a hard spanking in over a week now. We did some playful spankings on the trip. We didn't do too much play. Kind of hard to with two young ones around all the time. A lot of rules went out the window for the trip. I am longing for a very hard and long spanking right now.

Some of these posts may seem very vanilla to some people. I hope some of our reader's will enjoy the amazing photos and enjoy some of the memories I had of the trip. Click on the photos to enlarge. I have a naughty photo to share for HNT of me out in the Oregon Dunes. I did a flash and will be posting that picture tommorow.

We left Vancouver last Thursday July 13th at 2 pm Vancouver time. We made it to Seaside, Oregon the first night. It was really neat to be in the United States after so many years. We were in search of the sun and surf. We checked into a really neat little motel half a block from the beach. We went out to it and enjoyed a fire on the beach. We could hear the waves crashing in. We had some terrific seafood that night and slept like a rock. We got up to breakfast and a full day. We saw Cannon Beach. In the one photo you can see me from behind walking towards Cannon beach. It was incredibly beautiful there!! We made our way down the Oregon Coast on the Pacific Hwy. We stopped at many view points. One of the other photos was sea lions on a rock with a lighthouse in the background. We saw lots of wildlife on the trip.

The second night was camping at Seal Rock, Oregon. A private beach and many romantic moments with Master and I. Our kid's played in the sand and we enjoyed some private time. We made out lots. We came back to coolers and roasting marshmellows. It was a terrific night and we enjoyed the stars. Then we went down the rest of the Oregon Coast into California the next day. We stopped by the seals in the caves and a prehestoric dinosaur park. We went into California and stopped in a motel at Crescent City. It was beautiful there. We went to the Trees Of Mystery in California and enjoyed the Redwoods. When we got to Eureka Master and I made the decision to keep going. He drove the 4-5 hours to get to San Francisco, California. We got a full 24 hours there. It was the most amazing place. We drove through the wine country and I took many photos along the way. We squeezed the most we could into 24 hours in San Fran. In the one photo is the Golden Gate Bridge. We had stopped at Vista Point to take photos and it was absolutely gorgeous and a fantastic view.

We stayed in a motel two blocks from Fisherman's wharf. We went down for a San Fran sunset along the bay. With a view of Alcatraz and the Golden Gate Bridge we watched the sun go down. We walked around the shops and spent a heck of a lot of money. One store was a really neat Pirate Store that we went nuts in. We overspent our budget and will be paying this trip off for a bit but it was worth it. We took back some neat stuff from our trip. We ate at the Rainforest cafe there and looked around the wharf. I had a bahama mama for a drink and was feeling quite happy and relaxed. We went down to the beach at the bay and dipped our feet into the ocean. Master kissed me and we took a photo of it. We reconnected on our trip and felt so much love on this trip. There was tons of romance. Master spoiled me rotten. I have many naughty stories to share about our trip. I got spanked in the Wax museum after complaining about him leaving me alone in the chamber of horrors. I will blog more about it and I plan to share many photos of our trip.

We drove 3,400 km's in total. We spent two days going non stop to get home. We left Medford, Oregon and drove 12 hours straight home yesterday. We got in just before midnight exhausted and having to unpack everything. I now have a ton of e-mails to respond to, unpacking, laundry, and phone calls to return. I am way behind now in my blog reading. It's going to take days to catch up on everything. I am amazed I was able to post today with so much to do. I wanted to let people know we are back and had a really fun and relaxing time. It's good to be home. I missed so many people while I was away. I can't wait to talk to my sis again soon. I will share many more stories in the next while with our reader's and some amazing photos. I wonder what I missed while I am away. I feel like I have been gone for weeks. I am so exhausted and really need to come down from such a nice trip. :) Please let me know what you think of all the photos we share. We saw so many incredible places. We took over 500 photos and we put a lot into the 6 days we were away. I am so glad we lived in the moment and went down to San Fran. I hope to go back again one day... right now I am headed for a nice long hot bath and some sleep soon...

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Happy HNT and happy birthday schiava!




I have decided to do my final HNT blog post and happy birthday to my sis today. I wanted the time to get a good blog post in before we leave on our vacation. You won't be hearing from us for a while. My sister will be staying at our place while we are away to watch Miesha and take a break themselves. We are officially on vacation as of 4 pm west coast time when Master gets off work and heads home to us. He is off now til Wednesday the 19th. He surprised me with the extra day yesterday. So we will probably be offline until the Tuesday or Wed. To be honest I want to jump in the car when he gets home and leave right away. I want to just drive. A part of me wants to skip the Island. I am afraid of the memories a bit. I am worried about it really affecting me to go back to the place I spent my summer holidays. A part of me wants to drive down the coast. It's so beautiful. The Oregon and California coast. They are some of my favorite beach's.

It's raining here today in Vancouver and I really want to be headed towards the sunshine. I am craving it. I need a vacation so bad. It's all I can think about right now. We bought a new tent last night. We got our treats and Master bought some Miller beer's. We are planning to head to the Vancouver Island but perhaps Master will just jump in the car and head out somewhere else when he gets home. One of the funniest memories if our Disneyland trip back in 1999. We were supposed to go to the Oregon Coast. We were in a Motel 6 there and decided that very night to change the direction and head to Disneyland. We couldn't afford it at that time but we didn't care. We went on a very strict budget but we still go to see Disneyland and a star home's tour and Hollywood. It is one of my favorite memories. It was just us and our daughter. We camped in Pismo Beach, California one night and I fell in love with that place. I have always wanted to go back. It's a dream of mine. I am a very spontaneous type of person. My sister phoned me one day with a offer to go to Vegas. I said yes and two days later we were flying out.

I would like to give a very special happy birthday wish for my beautiful submissive sister, schiava. She turns 27 years old tommorow!! Happy birthday sweetness!!! I will be thinking of her tommorow. I'm really going to miss her on my trip. I am used to chatting with her every day while she's at work. I love my sis so much and she's become a really important part of my life. I really hope she has a wonderful birthday!!

schiava,
buon compleanno suora! (happy birthday sister!)
tia amo (I love you)
your sis,
padme
xoxoxoxo

I decided to put up two HNT pictures today. Click to enlarge them. One is for HNT and the other is for my sis for her birthday. One of them is a spanking photo I have not put up before. I love this one. My jeans were pulled down for a spanking one day when I was being a real brat to Master Anakin. He pulled them and my panties down and my ass was over a pillow very fast for a hard spanking with his very big hands. Ouchies!! The other was a photo that Master Anakin did with one of our pictures. You can see my braids that I did for Master. He loves me to wear braids. It's my "lolita" look. Great job Master!! I really love his pictures. He made this one look very erotic with my one strap down to be sexy. I hope our reader's enjoy these two pictures. What do you think??

I am going to miss my blog and also many other blogs which have become a part of my daily reading. I know I am going to go through computer withdrawal. I know that this break will be good for me though and to spend some time as a family. We don't get many weekends with our daughter. I am really excited about this trip and am planning to dye my hair light blonde for the trip. Master got a hair cut yesterday too and looked so sexy and dominant. I wanted him badly. He's put me on orgasm denial til we are away. He's promised me lots of outdoor play. He has also laid down the law about a few rules I must follow while we are away and that he will cut a switch or find ways to punish me if I am being a brat.

We have a announcement to make also today!! Our Star Wars spanking party is now being planned. We are hoping to have it Saturday July 29th!! My bro, adam gave me the idea to get rid of comment moderation for a night so we can all chat to one another. Please join us that day as we watch Episode 3, Revenge of the Sith on DVD and discuss the movie and also I will be getting many spankings that night. You all get to be a part of it!! I am very excited about this. The UFC spanking party last Saturday night was a big success. I can't wait for this one. Please make sure to plan for this!! We would love you all to join us that night. So spread the word and please try to join us for a really fun Star wars spanking party!! Lots of chat about the movie and also spankings!! I can't wait now!!

Adam wrote a beautiful poem on his blog called Gazing at Orion's Belt. I hope you all can check it out!! I'm going to miss my bro when I am away.

I know many reader's havn't read some of our old blog posts. I have decided to look through our archives and link to a few of my favorite old posts. Some of them are very hot and erotic. Some have details on some spankings I received. Some were scenes we did. Two were a trip we took for a weekend getaway to Whistler. Enjoy the reading while we are away. We have many pictures, stories and other blog posts you can enjoy too. I am going to miss you all for a few days...I'll catch up on all your blog's next week.

The Chauffer - blog post describing one of our scene's

This anniversary, now and forever -Master Anakin's blog post detailing my tattoo experience for our anniversary. This was one of my favorite posts that he has written.

Phantom of the Opera - our very special night many years ago including a photo of what we were both wearing when we went to see Phantom of the Opera. We have tickets to go see Phantom of the Opera next month at the Queen Elizabeth Theatre and I can't wait. I am dieting to try to fit into that sexy velvet black dress again. I got one of my most memorable spankings that night. :)

Public Punishment: A Drive Into the Country- This was also written by Master Anakin. It describes details of a public punishment that happened many years ago during a drive out in White Rock. Enjoy!

First Spanking from Master Anakin- Details of my first spanking I ever got from Master Anakin. I can still remember that night like it was yesterday. This has to be one of my favorite blog posts I wrote.

Bad Girl Spanking- Details on a spanking I got including some sexy photos of Bad Girl written on my ass. Enjoy!

Happy Anniversary Master- Details on a Whistler getaway we went on for our anniversary in April. This was a wonderful trip for us and we felt very connected after. Part 1

Part 2- Weekend Getaway to Whistler- This is my second post about our trip including a outdoor photo of me flashing on a gondola up there. It was a very naughty exhibitionist moment of the trip.

I hope everyone has a good naughty weekend while I am gone. I hope to share many stories of our vacation and pictures.

I am in such a good mood. So excited and all I can think about is this holiday!! I am counting down the minutes. 6 whole days to spend with Master. I feel like such a lucky girl!! He truly spoils me and I am so excited about us spending so much time together. I can hardly wait. This girl has little patience!!

Holiday-Madonna

If we took a holiday
Took some time to celebrate
Just one day out of life
It would be, it would be so nice

Everybody spread the word
Were gonna have a celebration
All across the world
In every nation
Its time for the good times
Forget about the bad times, oh yeah

One day to come together
To release the pressure
We need a holiday

(chorus)

You can turn this world around
And bring back all of those happy days
Put your troubles down
Its time to celebrate

Let love shine
And we will find
A way to come together
And make things better
We need a holiday

May the force be with you all!!

UPDATE: I am writing this at 9:15 pm Wednesday night. The Vancouver Island is expecting rain the next few days. We decided tonight to head in a different direction. We plan to head to the United States tommorow and head South. We want sunny and warm weather for camping. We have been busy trying to get ready for it. So we plan to stop in Seattle and down to Oregon Coast...maybe even into California!! Sunshine..here we come!!! Talk to you all when we get back!!

~playful padme
xoxoxoxo

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Monday, July 10, 2006

Journey's on vacation for a week...


I wanted to do a blog post today letting people know why I won't be online for a week. Journey to the Darkside is now on vacation for a week. I am planning to do one blog post this week on Thursday to do a HNT photo and also because it is my sis's birthday. I want to do a blog post for her birthday on Thursday. I am hoping to talk to her on the phone that day too to wish her a happy birthday. She got my card and presents last week. She sounded very happy today on yahoo and I'm so glad she enjoyed her visit with her Master yesterday. I love hearing all the details. I'm so happy that Italy won the world cup yesterday. I was cheering for them for my sis!! Yeah Italy!!

I wanted to put up two photos from my Lonsdale Quay photos. I had a wonderful day meeting Master after his work for some relaxing and time together. I took the skytrain down and seabus. It was beautiful out and they had a summer festival going. I dropped off my daughter at my ex's office. And took our son to meet Master. We went for a walk in a park near there which was so beautiful. I was relaxed and so happy. In the one photo you can see me in the distance on the park bench looking at downtown Vancouver. I had thoughts of my sis during that photo. I was thinking that I hope one day she can come here and see Vancouver. I also hope my bro, adam will come here one day. Vancouver is a beautiful place to live. I have never seen this part of North Vancouver before. It was so amazing.

In the other photo is the fish and chips we ate for dinner there. It shows a different view of Vancouver. I like this photo Master took. I think it looks very professional. You can see the flags in that one. Click to enlarge it. The fish and chips were so yummy. It was a perfect summer day. I was so relaxed when we got home. We played and fucked. I was happy to find out Friday we won the most spankable blog award from the beautiful Melanaise. :)

Saturday as you read on the one blog post we had our UFC 61 spanking sex party on here. It was a big success. So many comments and people talking about the UFC. It felt like adam was right here partying with us. Thanks for everyone who joined us. My ass was so sore after all the spanking on Saturday night. I had a hard time sitting yesterday. Ouchies. *winks*

Master did a spanking new survey about spanking toys!! Please check it out and let us know what your favorite is. We love to hear from everyone. My favorite is definatly the razor strop. So soft and traditional. Yum! Really makes my ass nice and red too! I love that we don't know how many bottoms have been spanked with it. We got it from our flea market a few years ago. What a find! Best 60 bucks we spent on a toy. They are hard to find. I'd be curious who else has a razor strop. Does anyone else have one? Where did you get yours?

Our next party is going to be a Star Wars spanking type of party here on Journey to the Darkside. A big thank you to our good friend, belda who gave us the idea for it!! We can't wait to do that one next. Any ideas for it? Please let us know. We are still trying to figure out a date for it. We'll let everyone know so there's more notice this time. Our stats broke a record that day. There was almost 4,000 hits on the blog on Saturday. Thank you everyone!! And thanks for the congrats on the 400,000. We've put a lot of work into the blog. We are really happy to hear the feedback and comments. :)

I feel very overwhelmed today with everything I have to do for this family camping trip. We are leaving on Thursday afternoon and won't be back til Monday night. So much to do. I have a huge list. So I know I can't be on the computer much if I am going to get everything done by Thursday. I will be offline for most of the week ahead. I will try to keep up with comments on my blog and a few of my favorite blogs til Thursday. I have very limited time right now. I am in vacation mode right now. It's all I can think about right now. I can't concentrate on anything but what has to be done. I forgot this much work went into a camping trip.

I hope to get back to regular blog reading and posting again next Tuesday. So if your not hearing from me, I am busy with preparations for a big traditional family camping trip. Please enjoy our videos, stories and pictures while we are away! Master and I both camped when we were kid's. We have camped with our daughter but not our son. This is our first family trip with the four of us. We only have a 4 man tent. This should be interesting. My sister is coming out with her boyfriend to stay at our place. They will water the plants and also take care of Miesha for us and watch over our place. My sister is looking at this as a get away. That means having to also clean up my place completely for them. So much work ahead. Urg!!

We are headed Thursday to the BC ferries and we are headed over to Vancouver Island. There we will visit Nanaimo, Parksville (including Miracle Beach) and then over to Tofino. Master and I both have never been to Tofino before. This is a dream come true for me. It's supposed to be beautiful over there. I've heard so much about it. We plan to go on a whale watching tour. There are lots of orca whales apparently over there. I really can't wait for this. We need a chance to get away and be a family. My ex only allows a few weekends a year that I get to have our daughter. My kid's keep asking every two minutes "when are we going, mom??"
lol. I love whales. I really hope we can see a few.

Master has already told me I better be a good girl on this trip. He told me he can always cut a switch in the forest for me if I am not behaving. Of course there's always his hand and his belt that he has on him at all times. We plan to take our camera. We hope to maybe even get some outdoor photo shots. I know we plan to take tons. I will try to share a few with the blog. I am sure we will have many stories to share from this trip. It's sure going to be a nice family getaway. I hope everyone has a nice week. My force feels strong today. I love our family vacations. Last year was Banff, BC in the Rocky Mountains. This year the Island. We are talking about Disneyland again sometime too. We went when our daughter was younger. We want to do a family trip there one day down the coast.

We have several small trips planned for this summer. This one is very exciting as it's just the four of us and also the camping experience. I can't wait and am counting down the minutes.

All I can think of right now is this holiday away. I keep thinking of the Holiday Road song from the Vacation soundtrack. Lindsay Buckingham from Fleetwood Mac sings that song. It always makes me think of family trips in our car in the summertime. Those were actually pretty good memories of my childhood. My Dad was usually in a pretty good mood. I love to be able to give my children great memories of different trips they have taken. Sooooo...my question today....did you camp as a kid?? If so, what is your favorite memory of it or place you went to??? I'm in vacation mode. I would love to hear everyone's camping stories. E-mail or comment...lurkers come on out!! Is there anyone who hasn't camped but wants to one day?

I better get back to my long list and sorting of a the pile of camping stuff in the livingroom. I still havn't figured out how it's all going to fit in the car. lol. I hope everyone enjoys their week...I will do one final HNT picture and quick blog post Thursday for my sis's birthday and then it's offline til Tuesday...

Holiday Road-National Lampoon's Vacation

I found out long ago
It's a long way down the holiday road
Holiday road
Holiday road

Jack be nimble, Jack be quick
Take a ride on the West Coast kick

Holiday road
Holiday road
Holiday road
Holiday road

I found out long ago
It's a long way down the holiday road

Holiday road
Holiday road
Holiday road
Holiday road

I am in such a great mood!! I can't wait to escape and get back to the great outdoors. To explore a place I've never been before. Spend some time as a family. Look out at the stars with Master. Enjoy a camp fire and make smores. Ohhhhhhhhh ......this girl has very little patience til we leave....

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

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Sunday, July 09, 2006

Near 400,000 and a question for you

Thank you to all our readers, lurkers and commenters alike. We're almost at 400,000 visitors and couldn't be happier that you have joined us on our Journey to the Darkside. We hope you have enjoyed and continue to enjoy all the content we work so hard to bring you regularly; since we started we've created quite a collection of erotic photos, fictions, posts, and even a couple erotic videos for your viewing pleasure. We hope you've come to see our blog as a friendly, fun place where we can all come together and enjoy the kink that we love. We've learned a lot along the way, had a lot of fun, made a lot of friends, and we couldn't have done it without you. Thank you! The Journey continues; our Force is strong.

Thank you to everyone who joined us for our Saturday night spanking party. We hope to have another one in the near future, so stay tuned. It was great to post live comments while the UFC 61 fights were going on. It was great to have you all over virtually in our living room. We hope you enjoyed the food, drinks, entertainment and the company. We'd love to have you all over again sometime soon.

Is anyone watching the 2006 world cup? Who are you cheering for? Italy or France?

We've also updated our survey question. We want to know your absolute favorite spanking impliment; those who spank and those who get spanked, which toy do you most enjoy? Heavy leather flogger? The crack of the belt? The swift hand on a bare bottom? So scroll down on the right hand column and let us know what you love to swing, love to feel, or love to hate.

padme got spanked with a hell of a lot of impliments last night. Her ass looked (and felt, from her description) like a pin-cushion. The belt, cane, paddle, crop, strap, and hand can do that to a girl if she's been a naughty girl. Oh how naughty she was; but now, she sits and winces and has been very centered and corrected and in a good place. I hope all of you are in a good place too.

Our last survey asked you What would you like to see more of on our blog? We wanted to know what you, the reader, wanted to see more of on our blog. Thank you to the many who responded. The winning response was that many of you wanted more details of padme's punishments. That can be arranged. In second place, you wished for more spanking photos. Well, we're constantly taking pictures and will continue to share them with all of you who enjoy them so much.

May the Force be with you!

~Anakin

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Saturday, July 08, 2006

The party's on...fight night tonight!! Go Tito Go!!


Journey to the Darkside is having a spanking and sex party tonight!! Join us! Leave your comment. Let us know your thoughts. We want to hear from everyone!! Lurkers..cum out and join us.

I'm getting spanked and Master needs idea's for it. Who thinks I should get spanked real hard tonight? Caned? Cropped? Strapped? OTK? You tell us. We'll take pictures!! We are having a real spanking party. In honor of tonight's big fight...Tito vs Ken. You don't have to be a UFC fan to join us tonight. We'll comment back during the fights...and let you know the updates on the comments..please...I really want to hear from you!! Where is everyone?? Cum out...cum out...where ever you are....

Tell your friend's. Bring your own booze. Put on the fight and some porn. Or just some porn. Enjoy some great music. It's Saturday night and we have no kid's all night. It's fight night!! We plan to play tonight and I am already in my black and white thong and nothing else...butt plug up my ass. Nipples erect. Wet and horny!!

What are your sex plans for tonight? Anyone else getting spanked? Anyone else counting down the minutes to this big fight. Who's wet? Who's hard? Who's just plain horny??

I am SO excited about the big fight tonight. UFC 61...don't miss it!! Live on pay per view in beautiful sunny Las Vegas!! I wish I was there tonight watching live. A huge fight between two men who hate each other and have a huge history. Tito Ortiz vs Ken Shamrock. Any predictions on the fight? Anyone else going to be watching?? I am so pumped up. Master knows how much I love bad boys. Tito "The Huntington Beach Bad Boy" Ortiz makes me so fucking wet. We've picked up our snacks and a bottle of the best Russian Vodka to celebrate. Check out my vodka and pigtails post from the past. You'll see what happens when I drink russian vodka. Yum!! The wild padme cums out to play.

Who wants to join the party tonight?? We are huge UFC fans and have been looking forward to this fight for weeks. My favorite fighter, Andrei Arlovski will also be fighting. Andrei wears a vampire mouthguard when he fights. When he smiles he flashes his vampire teeth and makes me horny. Go Tito Go!!! Go Andrei Go!!! We have a overnight planned for tonight. No kid's for a whole night. Fight night so that means lots of play. Me serving Master tonight in many ways. I've already received some warm up on my ass...he used his belt to get my ass nice and red before heading out to the liquor and grocery store. I love going out knowing my ass is still sore and red and no one knows about it except for us. Like it's our little secret. *smiles* :)

I had a really fun night last night. I was so excited to find out I had won the TGIF award for the most spankable blog from the beautiful texan, melanaise. I had a bit of a naughty night with melanaise last night. I sure hope one day I can meet her. She's a lot of fun and naughty and a beautiful texan woman. I also want to say congrats to my bro, adam who won the award for Spankin' Blog Award. Way to go adam!! I loved his blog post today with the cartoon. It gave me a huge smile. :) Check it out!! Yee Haw!! Celebrating time!! Anyone want to join us for a shot of vodka? What about watching me get spanked?? We took two very hot videos last night. One of them is a OTK spanking from Master. Another is me sucking his cock on my knees. Unfortunately the one with me sucking his cock has my face so I won't be able to put that one on the blog. The spanking one we hope to put up very soon if anyone is interested. *winks* The photos are also damn hot...

My sis, schiava is seeing her Master tommorow. I'm thinking about her today too. I am so excited for her!! I hope my sis has a wonderful time!!

We got reviewed on Jane's guide.com. Thanks for the review. I didn't get the quality on mine though. Does that mean it's a bad review?? hmmm...does this mean we are not a quality type of blog? Not sure I understand how that all works. We are fast approaching 400,000 and I am very proud of this blog. I am slowly taking steps back into the blogging. I think we have a lot of really good quality material. From what I know we are the few blogs who have videos. I want to know if anyone wants to see the hot one from last night?? hmmmm...anyone??

So who's in a naughty mood like I am?? mel...want to cum over and play again tonight?? I sure had a fun time with my vibrator thinking of you last night. Who else is horny right now?? Who else is drinking? or who else is having some naughty thoughts??? Who wants to party???

The party's on...the vodka's in the freezer....the snacks are ready to eat....and playful padme is horny and ready for action!!! I need a naughty woman to cum over...or a strong Dominant man to cum over and spank me or watch my Master spank me!! Ohhhhhhhh....padme is ready for play... my ass is aching to be more red...my nipples are erect...I want to get naked...get ready for the fight...and get fucked hard. I want to go down on a pussy. Lick a woman's nipple. Taste Master's cum. Ohhhhhhh...playful padme's ready for some action tonight!!

I've got five minutes and then I'm back over his knee to get more spanking!! Ohhhh...already had two shots and it's not even fight night yet. Woo Hoo!! Cum on over and play with us...join the party tonight!!

Pull up a chair...enjoy some pretzels or chips. We also have a vegetable dish for those dieting. Come watch the fight with us tonight. Enjoy some vodka or your own drinks. Enjoy the fight night and join the party!! Go Tito Go!!! Party time!!

Ohhhhhhhh...Master just told me that we have a spanking bet. If Tito Ortiz loses I get 40 with his cane hard. If he wins I get 40 with my favorite toy, the razor strop. Oh boy!! Now my ass is on the line for this fight...who's going to win!! I hate that cane. I love the strop. Now I really want the Huntington Beach Bad Boy to win! Go Tito!!!!!!!!!

We are having a UFC spanking party tonight...leave us your comments. Join in the fun!! I want to hear from you tonight. Even if your not a fan....say hello. Journey to the Darkside is having a spanking party!! padme's getting spanked tonight...and we want to hear from our reader's. Have some fun tonight!!

We want to hear from everyone...lurkers and all!! Who's ready for a party tonight?? Who's ready for a spanking party tonight???

Who wants lots of pictures of my spanking tonight? or a video??? Pleasssssseeee...leave me a comment. I'm begging you all!!

May the force be with you all!!

~playful padme

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Taking a break on the journey..

I asked Master to do a blog post tonight letting people know a update and being able to say goodbye for a while. We are taking a little break from our blog for a little while. I am not sure for how long. Maybe a week..maybe more. I want to let it be known though that we do NOT plan to give up our blog. So much work and effort has been put into our blog. We will not be deleting Journey to the Darkside. We love this blog too much. We don't plan to move our blog and we plan to stay put. We just need to take a small break. We havn't taken much of a break since starting our blog and now seems like a good time with summer and what's happened with that creep lately. I will have to watch how much I share with this blog now though with what's happened. We also have comment moderation on the comments and have changed our passwords.

We are almost at 400,000 hits. So much time and work to give it all up. I love Journey. I just can't give it up. I just know a break is a good thing. It's been a difficult few weeks for Master and I both. Family issues and many changes happening. Master and I had a long talk tonight and made the decision to keep the blog but take a break from it and with our trip happening soon, it's a good time for it. We won't be around the computer for a while. We are not going to let a creep bring this beautiful blog down. We have put hours of work into this blog. I have done blog posts almost daily. We have created a beautiful blog and I can't give it up.

That experience yesterday really did upset me. This blog has stressed me out a lot lately. I can't describe the emotions I felt going to our blog yesterday and discovering it had been deleted. I was completely in shock. I completely lost it. If there wasn't a back up copy of our template months of work and blog posts would have been gone forever. The whole experience of threatening comments and nasty ones too really upset me and came into my R/t life. I spent most of the night in tears last night. I love this blog. Blogging has become one of my true loves. I blog almost every day. I love having a outlet for my emotions. I know Master is right though and I need a break. I am going through many changes within my life right now. With my family...with my friendships...with many aspects of my life.

I want to thank all the people who have showed support for us and this blog. It really means a lot to Master Anakin and I both. I feel like so many times this blog has been trashed and I am glad for the positive feedback. There are some truly amazing people who have come to mean so much to me in my life. The comments really do mean a lot to me. Thank you to all who left comments on the last few blog posts and showed their support. I cried over a few comments. They touched me deeply. I really do love blogging. I love to open myself up. I worry now that perhaps I have opened myself too much.

I am scared that this may affect my R/t life. When someone threatens my family I have reason to worry. It wouldn't be hard to figure out who I am in R/t based on many blog posts saying too much information. My "his mark" tattoo had to be deleted also yesterday. I am afraid someone might try to track me down. I take threats very seriously. I was raped once by someone who was very close to me and I trusted. He gave us several threats before we moved away. I worry constantly he might find me. I was in hiding for years due to what happened. He was someone I trusted very much. He is someone who I have nightmares about still. I can't help but wonder if this creep may be him. D is someone I have worried about for years.

Or maybe this creep is the same one who made my sister, schiava have to give up her blog. She was threatened and harrased to the point she was forced to have to make the decision to give up her blog. I just know we can't take any chances. I am very worried about this situation and so is Master. He worked out yesterday for a hour and was punching the bag so intently. I have been worried at how this is affecting him also. This blog has been trashed quite a bit. I just hope people can try to be more supportive. People have called us names, stole our pictures, trashed my writing, put us down. After a while it feels like some people are pissing in this garden we have created. This last creep and his threats and hacking into our blog honestly did me in emotionally. I was a complete wreck last night. I knew after that that we must take a break. I am emotionally worn out from my family issues last week and now this.

I wanted to give a few minor updates in this blog post. We got rid of our special friend's section. This was Master's decision. I hope no one will take this personally. Master felt that it wasn't being fair to some people who have become our friend's recently. If we added all our friend's on a list it would be huge. My friendships have really changed in the last while for us.

I want to also thank the many people who have e-mailed me showing me support lately. There are a few people I feel very close to. To everyone who e-mailed me showing support through this and all my family problems...thank you!! You really do all mean so much to me. I started this blog to make friend's and have met some incredible people. Please keep in touch with me. I try to respond to all e-mails.

There is a family section on this blog for two people who have consistently for months shown me love and support. They both mean the world to me. I consider them both to be a part of my family....and I can imagine meeting them both one day...they are both a part of my daily life and I love them both very much. I have talked about them both a lot on this blog and it's because they both mean so much to both Master and I. My friendships with them go beyond the blogs and I am so glad for them both in my life.

adam- my true blue friend. You are truly amazing. I am sorry you were so down today. I really did feel close talking to you tonight on the phone. Please know that Master and I both think of you like a brother. You came into my life during a time I was losing my own brother, H. I felt a real hole in my heart due to what was happening with him and I. You are as close to me now as my own brother. We burn up the phone lines and are always in touch. You and I both hope to meet one day. Either I come out to New York and or you come out here to Vancouver. I just know one day we will meet. You mean so very much to me, adam. I am always here for you too, my friend. Blog or no blog...we will always be family.

schiava-my sweet submissive sister. You are the ray of sunshine in my life. You also came into my life during a time I needed you. I had been deeply hurt by a woman and didn't think I would love again. I really do love you. I have let you into my heart. We are true sisters...you are as close to me as my own sister..but yet it's so different as you know more than my sister. You know the real me. You accept me faults and all. You have let me into your heart. Most women just push me away. You were different. You have let me love you. I can't thank you enough for that. Today meant so much to me. For those few minutes on the webcam...they really made me smile. You are so beautiful. Blog or no blog...we will always be family.

A reminder to those UFC fans...this Saturday is the big fight night with Tito and Ken Shamrock. I can't wait and am counting down the days. I am so excited about this fight. Master and I have a overnight and are planning a big play night for that night. I usually do a blog post about it but won't be this week. Go Tito Go!!!

I also apologize there is no HNT post for this week due to all of this. There are several videos we have done including one from last week. We do hope to post these sometime. Is anyone still interested in them?

My sis's birthday is July 13th and she got her card today in the mail. I want to wish her a very happy early birthday. In case I don't post before then...I hope she knows how much I wish her a very happy birthday next Thursday!

I am making some changes in my life. I started boxing again two days ago and doing some big changes in my work outs to lose more weight. I called my best friend, S and we worked out our issues. I decided our friendship was worth fighting for. I've known her 6 years and she knows me very well and I really felt like I needed to get things right. I have talked to my brother, H who is going into rehab later this week. I have given him my support since he's getting clean. I've cut my Dad off from my life.

I wrote Master R a very big e-mail telling him some things that I really needed to say. I deleted a few people from messenger and yahoo who didn't seem to want to chat to me. I am cleaning my life up completely. I am on a strict diet now also. Master has given me structure and rules to follow and it's been wonderful. Feeling his control has been wonderful ... our bdsm lifestyle is back on track full force. I really felt so wonderful about that today. I love to feel his control in my life.

I've reconnected with Master Anakin. He's got me back on track and today I felt better than I have all week physically and mentally. The kid's were at the park and I got the Master Anakin's paddle 60 times extremely hard to center me and to reconnect us. I also got one of the hardest hand spankings from him. He put me over his knee and spanked my bottom as hard as he could with his very big hands. My ass was red and sore for hours. I needed it so bad. We are doing well and back on track. He always is and remains the love of my life. My force...my strength...my soulmate.

He is my best friend, lover, Daddy, Master, Anakin, Darth...Master.

He made love to me today and it was truly beautiful. Words can't describe the feelings that I feel for him. Almost ten years together and we are stronger than ever. He's known me 16 years now. He's never disappeared on me or let me down.

Master Anakin,
The words to our song say it all sometimes...Sting sings...

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
Well forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in the fields of gold

Know that I love you more than anything...thank you for being my force...
Love Your padme
xoxoxo

For now we are taking a break...we are not sure for how long. Maybe a week or two or more. We will be back..I just know we need a break. We also have plans to go on a family camping trip soon and won't be around much anyways to blog. I can't wait to get away. We are going to a place I have dreamed of for years. I can't wait!!! I plan to do some writing in the next while. I havn't written a spanking story in a long time. I plan to start a book to read. I plan to get together with S and her kid's to go swimming. There is so much I want to do.

Thank you dear readers for making this blog a success and all your support. We say goodbye just for a while. We are not saying goodbye forever.... The journey will continue...

Please enjoy our stories and pictures while we are taking a break. We have been blogging since the end of September and I know we have never taken more than a few days off. Thank you for joining us on our journey ...the journey to the darkside... we will be back...

Our stats are higher today than they have ever been. I really want people to know how much we have appreciated the comments and support with this blog. You all were a huge reason we decided to keep the blog. We also want to keep it due to the work we have invested into it and how much we love Journey. It would seriously tear me apart to give this all up.

As the Terminator says....I'll be back.....

For now, take care of yourselves and know that the force is with you all!!

~love padme

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Turning to the Darkside



Recent anonymous comments have greatly angered me; indirectly threatening towards my family, these comments are unacceptible. We bloggers open ourselves up to the world, and the majority are respectful, many are kind; and then there is YOU. The YOU who hides in the corner, the YOU who dares fuck with what shouldn't be fucked with. It's not going to happen.

After beating the shit out of my heavy boxing bag in my basement, every punch, every roundhouse kick, thinking of YOU, I've come up to share these words with YOU. You are the one who should be worried about not being there some day. I've contacted blogger, who logs pretty much everything, and they're looking into who left this comment. I've got tracking software of everyone who'se ever visited our blog; and YOU know you're in that list. My tracking company is looking into you too. Rest assured your ISP is going to get after YOU. I've got network security expert friends looking into YOU; YOU DON'T want to fuck with me. Any more comments, hacking of our template, or other shit will be forwarded to our local and provincial police departments, and probably yours.

My padme and I are taking a hiatus from blogging; it is our family that is most important, ultimately important; and so we take a break to refocus, regroup, recoup. padme is very fragile right now and dealing with many family issues right now also. Fellow bloggers, live strong.

May the force be with you.

~Darth

What's the point anymore??

I've had a pretty bad day today and it's not helping that someone who is anonymous is leaving very nasty comments for Master and I. One comment was very threatening. Your two comments were deleted from our blog. If you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all. There was close to 3,000 people who came to my blog today and the only person to leave me a comment was my dear friend, adam. I am honestly questioning this blog tonight and so is Master. I have been delinked from a few blogs lately and I am not sure why. Today's been a crappy day. I feel a few people pushing me away lately even though I'm trying to get close to them. I honestly think I am just trying to hard. Maybe I just need to disappear for a while...

I am having people put down this blog. Recently I had someone steal my photos again and put me down. Master left a comment and they took the posts down but it hurt. And a bunch of people seem to have disappeared lately. I comment on so many blogs every single day. I leave comments that usually do not come back to my own blog. I feel a complete lack of support and I feel ready to pack it in. Master is also at the same point. I apologize that my blog is not sexy or not always about spanking or sex. I will say I have put a really big effort into this blog. I post almost daily. I pour my heart into blog posts. I open up my real self to people and try to think about the blog posts. We have put videos out which most blogs have not done yet.

I put my heart and soul into this blog. I don't understand it when I see my stats and many people can't seem to leave me a short comment or even to keep in touch at all with me. I can't tell you the amount of hours which have been put into our blog and also into reading and commenting on other blogs. I feel like right now the time can be spent doing other stuff with it being summer and busy with other things.

I was going to do a vanilla blog but decided instead to combine this blog by doing a spanking/sex and vanilla type of blog. I like to let people know the real us. I tried doing the just talk about spanking and I couldn't talk about it every single day. It's really not a huge part of our lives. Some weeks there are no spankings or very little sex.

I started this blog in September of last year and had met some really fantastic people. The majority of people from that time that I felt are were my close friend's no longer seem to contact me and I am not sure why. They have just disappeared. I honestly wonder why I blog. What's the point? I would really like to know why do you read me? What do you enjoy about this blog? Would anyone truly care if this blog was deleted. Why do people just disappear? You leave them a e-mail or message or comment on their blog and they can't seem to leave one back??

People will say the comments shouldn't matter. Well to me they do. I spend a lot of time thinking of what to comment on other people's blogs. I like to hear from people. I need feedback. I like to know what people think of the photos we put up or the blog posts.

Comment moderation has been put on my blog now due to anonomous's comments. Thanks for telling me that this blog is getting worse and worse. I really appreciate your very negative feedback. Anyone else got some for me tonight???

As of right now I am unsure I want to blog again. What's the point? Who would care if this blog disappeared. There are so many other blogs that are better than this one and I can spend the time doing other things other than blogging. I really question why I am leaving comments on blogs which don't come back to me at all. Why am I blogging? Blogging just seems like a complete waste of time today.

I am very ready to call it quits and hit the delete key...

UPDATE: I wanted to do a quick update. Something happened shortly after posting this blog post that both Master Anakin and I feel was strange. The majority of our template was deleted. We don't feel that this was a error by blogger but done by a person. Thank god Master does regular back-ups of all blog related data. Or all our hard work would have been gone. We have changed our passwords and comments are now moderated due to what's happened. We both feel under attack with what's happened tonight. I hope the person who's doing this will please leave us alone.


~padme

These are the days...

For some reason today I just don't feel like myself and feel so moody. And it's not even my pms yet. Not sure exactly what is wrong with me. I havn't felt well physically for a week and emotionally I just don't feel right. Master is back at work. I miss him a lot today. I am adjusting to the changes with having my daughter home for the summer. I have a lot to look forward to and be grateful for. I am trying with everything in me to hold onto that right now. It would be easy to hide but I'm trying not to do that. Although I mentioned deleting this blog, I know Master would not allow it. I tend to want to do that when I want to hide and run away from my problems.

I enjoy this blog sometimes for having a outlet. I feel a bit bad my posts havn't been too sexy the last while. I feel like maybe some people have disappeared due to that. Our stats are still strong. We are sneaking up on 400,000. It won't be long. I am glad for all the support from my friends and readers. Thank you dear readers for joining Master and I on this journey...Journey to the Darkside. I really do appreciate the comments. There are a few blogs I have given up reading lately and I know some of it is because of them not commenting or it coming back. I really try hard to keep up with blogs who comment here. I make them my priority.

I want to wish my United States reader's a very happy 4th of July!! I was chatting to my friend, adam and asking him to have a brew for me. I hope those reader's celebrating today all have a wonderful night. According to our stats there are more united states readers on this blog than any other country. Have a happy holiday!!

Master did this photo for me and I put it up as my wallpaper on my computer. It makes me smile. I want to share it with our reader's. No, it's not a very sexy photo but it means a lot to me. Master does small things for me and I love him for it. It's not a secret to those who know me that I love the show from the 80's, Miami Vice. I swear I've seen every episode at least once. Some more than once or twice. I loved Don Johnson growing up. When I am feeling down, I throw on a episode on my DVD and enjoy some Crockett and Tubbs. This photo was taken at Crescent Beach, White Rock on Sunday. Master made it look like Miami Vice. He did a wonderful job of it. I love it!! I can't tell you how excited I am about the Miami Vice movie coming up at the end of the month. I'll be the first in line to see it. I also hope one day to see Miami. I think it looks like a beautiful place. Check out the link. You can see the trailer on there for it. I really can't wait to see Colin Farrell play Crockett. July 28th!!! I am so there that day to see the movie!! I've been excited for months.

I am also really looking forward to the big fight coming up this Saturday. UFC fans are so excited and counting down the big fight between Tito Ortiz and Ken Shamrock. These two men hate each other and this is going to be one very intense fight. Also one of my favorite fighters, Andrei Arlovski is fighting against Tim Sylvia. It's going to be a really big night Saturday. I am counting down the minutes. I love fight nights. I am a huge UFC fan and so is Master. We saw a show last night getting us so excited about it. Master went and worked out after seeing Tito's work out. I can't wait!! I predict Tito kicks some butt!! 4 days til fight night!!

I'm trying to hold onto the exciting things happening this month. I am trying very hard to stay positive and strong. My force is a bit weak but I am trying to hold on.

This song today goes out to my friend, adam who I know loves Van Morrison. I hope he enjoys his 4th of July today. This song really moves me every time I hear it. I remember Master dancing with our son to this song when he was a baby. Thank you adam for your friendship. I hope you enjoy a brew for me tonight and enjoy the fireworks! This song just seems to say it all today...tears are in my eyes as I type this...

These are the Days

These are the days of the endless summer
These are the days, the time is now
There is no past, there’s only future
There’s only here, there’s only now

Oh your smiling face, your gracious presence
The fires of spring are kindling bright
Oh the radiant heart and the song of glory
Crying freedom in the night

These are the days by the sparkling river
His timely grace and our treasured find
This is the love of the one magician
Turned the water into wine

These are days of the endless dancing and the
Long walks on the summer night
These are the days of the true romancing
When I’m holding you oh, so tight

These are the days by the sparkling river
His timely grace and our treasured find
This is the love of the one great magician
Turned water into wine

These are the days now that we must savour
And we must enjoy as we can
These are the days that will last forever
You’ve got to hold them in your heart.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

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Monday, July 03, 2006

Moody slave


I really didn't want to do a blog post today but Master wanted me to write one and so here I sit. I have been feeling very moody today. I just feel down on myself. I had a really wonderful weekend and it has been hard to come down to reality today. Tommorow I face my first week my daughter is out of school. Two kid's home during the day now instead of just one. I won't be doing my usual walks. My schedule is screwed up. I know my time is about to get very limited on the computer. We had to sit down today and plan our holidays out.

There are 3 seperate vacations planned for this summer. Starting next weekend I will be away for several days and not blogging. We are planning a family camping trip. In August there are several trips planned. I plan to see my mom and sister. I am really having a hard time keeping up with my blog and also my blog reading. The list has grown lately of the blogs we read and link to. Some will have to go and I plan to delete a few today. I will also be deleting a few people off my messenger and yahoo list. I don't have time for people who have disappeared on me. I feel disappointed that a few friendships never seemed to work very well. That girl from collarme.com has disappeared on me. I messaged her and no response. If your not interested in me, let me know. Don't leave me hanging. There was a woman I felt a strong connection to also the last few days but I think she's got too much going on in her life. I seem to appear in people's lives when it's the worst time. We had so many responses to those ads but not one person has worked out. I feel frustrated. I think perhaps I should be grateful for who I do have in my life...Master and my sis and a few other very close friend's. I hope I get this right but wanted to leave a message for my sis...

schiava,
Io voglio dirti che ti amo (I just want to tell you that I love you)
Mi manchi, amore mio (I miss you, my love)
con tutto il cuore (with all my heart),
your submissive sister,
padme
xoxoxo

Since nikki I just seem to have a heck of a time making any connections with other females. I don't feel like the majority of them are really that interested in me anyways. The only woman who's stuck around and keeps in contact with me is my sis, schiava. I was able to chat for a few minutes with her this morning. I feel so lucky to have her in my life. My feelings for my sis are as strong as for my Master. It goes way beyond this blog. I honestly don't know what I would do without her in my life. It's so simple with her. I really long for those types of relationships in my life right now. Why is it that the one woman who I know for a fact wants to be with me lives in Italy and so far away?? It's a hard thing for me sometimes. I long for her. I want her so bad. I desire her so strongly. I was looking at books of Italy at Chapters today. I am really going to try to make it happen to go see her. My feelings of wanting a woman are so strong lately that they consume me.

Even if this blog gets deleted I know there are a few people who I would still have friendships/relationships with. I'm almost positive the rest of the people would disappear on me. Some have already. I am the type who prefers a very small group of people in my life. This blog makes me feel way too out in the open sometimes. The one thing this blog has given me is a few very close friendships with a few very special friends and they know who they are. A part of me honestly just wants to delete this blog. Master and I have had a few talks about it. At least for now I can delete a few links to help with all the blog reading I have to do and also shorten my yahoo/messenger list. My blog posts may shorten during the summer but at least for now Master does not want me to delete this blog.

I had a very nice weekend. Friday night was play night. I got caned and some with his belt. Some was punishment for my attitude during the week. Master opened our window to get some air and starting fucking me. All of a sudden there was lights and sirens. The cops were outside dealing with something across the street from us. At first I thought maybe someone called the cops and heard him caning me and using his belt on my ass. We fucked as they were outside our window. Master joked we should invite them in with their handcuffs. One cop was very cute. :) It was very exciting. I enjoyed the naughty behavior with the police right outside our window. I tried very hard to be quiet as he fucked me hard in my very wet pussy and sore ass. I'm normally a screamer but was worried they might come over to our place if I started to scream loud from my orgasm.

Saturday was Superman Returns with my mom and step dad and our overnight. The movie was excellent and I recommend it. I'm sure it will be a huge summer blockbuster. Kevin Spacey was awesome as a bad guy, lex luther. I was very impressed. I cried at the end. I enjoyed the visit with my mom. We came back to our overnight. We rented a porno on Shaw on demand and I got cropped hard and we played very rough. I felt a very big connection to Master that night. We had some of the best sex in a long time. I came several times. I really love fucking him when he's had a few drinks. He lets Darth cum out and play and he definatly did Saturday night. We did some knife play and he also did some nipple torture. The alligator clips hurt like hell and he had them on my nipples for half a hour. They hurt all day yesterday from it. I had some huge orgasms due to the pain and pleasure. He fucked my ass also very hard.

He used that crop over and over and over again. My ass was so red and sore already from the cane the night before. I stuck my ass in the air and asked for more. I desired it so much. I was so horny...so needy of him. The porno had a terrific girl on girl scene. The girl's were using a strap on on each other. I fantasized about my sis, schiava. Master let me cum watching that scene with my vibrator. My sis is so beautiful and I want her bad. I came thinking of her and I together...me going down on her delicious pussy. I'm so happy my sis is seeing her Master this weekend. Her birthday is coming up. I hope she gets my card and presents soon.

Sunday was our beach day. Crescent beach is beautiful and one of my favorite places to go on a hot and sunny summer day. I am putting up two photos from it. I am in one of the photos. You might have to look close to see me. :) Click on the photo to enlarge. I love going down to the beach. It was a real escape from everything. We ate fish and chips at a restraunt we could see the beach from. Jamaican music was playing. I felt very relaxed. My step dad talked a lot about Florida and I was told they are going back there in the winter. I was glad to get some time with my mom and we got very close for the first time in a long time. We had a very good talk. My mom asked me about me having a girlfriend. She knows I am bi. I was very open with her. She saw my new tattoo and we talked very openly about a few things. It was a beautiful day. We came back and felt so relaxed and tired. I got burnt a bit too.

We watched the movie, the Exorcism of Emily Rose. The movie really affected me. I had a heck of a time sleeping after that. I was afraid of waking up at 3 am. The movie gave me the creeps. So what movie gives you the creeps? I was up half the night which is also a reason I am moody today. I could barely sleep. I havn't had a movie affect me like that since the Mothman Prophecies. I find movies like those based on real events are so scary because they really happened to real people. I can watch a horror movie and it doesn't affect me but that Exorcism of Emily Rose was just so scary to me.

My horoscope today was very accurate. I woke up moody. I feel all over the place today. Here's my libra horoscope:

You may feel overwhelmed by your emotions today and be prone to taking offense where no offense was intended. An acute susceptibility to critical words or thoughtless deeds can make it difficult for you to interact normally with your colleagues, peers, and loved ones. Your sensitive mood can also cause you to react strongly when you are confronted with the intense emotions of others. You may feel empathetic and thus experience a very real distressing reaction when you encounter people who are hurt, angry, or depressed. Today might be a good time to take part of the day off, or even the whole day if you can manage, in order to relax in the comfort of a personal sanctuary. If that is impossible, you may find relief in letting your rational self guide you as you progress through the day.

When you choose not to react emotionally to what others do or say, you can move through life without being impaired by your sensitivity. Taking what we see and hear personally can be emotionally exhausting because, in doing so, we assume that everyone around us is being driven by nefarious purposes. Assessing people’s motives in a rational way can help you determine whether a situation or incident warrants an emotional reaction or could be best dealt with logically and practically. You’ll have more mental energy to devote to your own concerns when you aren’t focused on how others are acting. No one person will get in the way of your quest for inner peace. Tempering your emotional reactions with rational thought today will help you function unscathed at home and work.

I hope everyone had a good weekend. Anyone else get spanked? How is everyone?

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

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Sunday, July 02, 2006

Off to the beach


I am heading down to my favorite beach in about a hour and a half and wanted to write a quick update on our blog about my weekend and how I am doing. I love this picture. Reminds me of me being naked down at Wreck beach a few times. No nude beaches though with my mom and step dad visiting though. lol. I am in a really good mood today for the first time in a while. I have many reasons to smile. I want to write out all the details of Friday's play and last night's overnight but I don't have much time with having to get packed up for the beach. It's a beautiful summer day and the ocean air and fish and chips are calling my name. I don't blame my mom at all for wanting to head there while she's here on vacation. I know when I get back I will be very relaxed and sleep well tonight. I always do after being at the beach all day.

My mom's visit was nice yesterday and I am looking forward to today. She only commented on my weight once and actually told me I looked skinny. :) I've been working my butt off the last few months to get fit. We had a good visit and headed to White Spot for dinner and then we went and saw Superman Returns. It was kind of nice going on a double date with them. Our son was sat for a overnight so we had no kid's and were able to really enjoy the visit and the movie. It was awesome!! I really liked it. I cried at the end when I saw the dedication to Christopher and Dana Reeves. I think that's so sweet that they would dedicate that movie to them. They seemed like such a sweet couple.

Master and I had a lot of reconnection this weekend. We played Friday night and last night. I will blog about it soon. I have many deep bruises from a cropping he gave me last night. He calls my ass "bulletproof" but he was able to give me some really good marks from it. I needed it. It's amazing how a very hard whipping gets my mind centered and me feeling so happy. I feel very happy and ready for the beach this morning.

My voice is slowly coming back too. The antibiotics must be kicking in because I am feeling a lot better. I was able to talk to my mom a bit. We did discuss my brother and apparently he is doing ok and they plan to put him into rehab after he is out from the hospital. I havn't heard anything else about my Dad. I'm kind of glad as I really feel like I've had enough stress the last week. Today feels like a bright sun shining today. I am really looking forward to the time at the beach today.

As Jimmy Cliff sings...

It's gonna be a bright (bright)
bright(bright) sunshiny day.
It's gonna be a bright(bright)
bright (bright) sunshiny day.
Oh yes, I can make it now the pain is gone.
All of the bad feelings have disappeared.
Here is the rainbow I've been praying for.
It's gonna be a bright (bright)
bright (bright) sunshiny day.
(ooh...) Look all around, there's nothing but blue skies.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing but blue skies.
I can see clearly now the rain is gone.

I hope all the canadian readers's enjoyed their Canada day. Master is home tommorow and we get to spend the day together. My weekend has been wonderful to get my stress gone and feeling better about things. For the US readers, your July 4th is almost here!! Anyone have plans for that?

How is everyone's weekend?
I am now offline until tommorow...I hope everyone has a lovely day!!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme

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