Happy HNT - slave on a leash

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone. I am one horny padme today. I can't stop fantasizing. I've got Master Anakin wanting to sexually torture me and I'm on orgasm denial. I'm not sure how long I'm on the orgasm denial. I wrote in my last blog post about getting our force back. About some struggles Master Anakin and I have been having and about my punishment for cumming without permission last Saturday night and also a lot of attitude for a few days. I was a real bitch and didn't make life very easy for Master Anakin although he was sick at the time. I should have been more supportive and understanding. Life gets in the way sometimes and every weekend can't always be playtime. We can try to make the time but things do come up. I realized yesterday how selfish I was being and I feel good in my heart that Master is punishing me for this. I feel guilty that I would cum without his permission. I really do know better and it was a serious infraction. I don't remember the last time I did orgasm without his permission. It's always been the rule and I've always made sure to call him at work if I want to masturbate or e-mail him to ask permission. This time I did it out of anger and spite. He fell asleep (he was sick with the cold/flu) and I was angry he didn't come back down to give me more attention. So I acted out and made myself cum. I felt very guilty in my heart and went upstairs to tell him about it right away. The punishment was pretty severe on Monday night. My ass looked beaten and purple in one area of my ass cheek. The damn it flogger and cane were both used hard on my poor little ass. I was fucked up the ass hard and I was taken close to orgasm and denied. He has decided that every night I should be sexually tortured and that he will make me so utterly submissive to him through denying me over and over again...until I truly can't take it anymore. I am certain he will give me more pain before any pleasure is given. I need to learn that my orgasms belong to him!! He owns them. I do not cum without his permission. I will learn through this sexually suffering that he teaches me to do better...he teaches me to submit to him fully. I have so much built up sexual energy in me right now. I feel like maybe I should write a spanking story right now. I have time because I'm stuck at home with sick kid's and I am needing to escape. I feel very erotic right now. Master Anakin was reading comments on yesterday's blog post and came across Tiggr's. Her comment said: "Sweet, sweet Padme,Oh, how this post lightened my heart and made me smile... hopefully now you KNOW he ownds you always and can begin to let go of just a bit of your own insecurities... you both are where you are because this is how HE wants it... and you need what he gives, all of it, even the lapses in overt dominance, just to prove that you are always His no matter what.And of course I'm glad you got your ass paddled so soundly and the orgasm denial, well, that seems a given... if I were Him (which I'm not and don't ever presume to be), I'd tease you relentlessly for a good many days before finally giving you permission again. But that's just the sadist in me, which you know you bring out so very easily and completely..." He had a huge smile after reading her comment and came over to me and told me he loved that idea for punishment for the cumming without permission. He loves to get great ideas from others on how to deal with me. He told me that he loved the way her mind worked and this was a great idea to tease me for days relentlessly. So every day now until he lets me cum again I will be sexually teased and tormented until I am finally given permission again to cum.Last night after the kid's were in bed he came into the bedroom and had the look of Darth in his eyes. I knew he was going to be teasing me and I wondered what he might do to me. He went over to pull his belt out of the pant loops. The sliding sound of it coming off always makes my pussy wet. He came over to me and started to kiss me. We made out for a few minutes..his hands grabbing my ass which is still bruised and my tit in his other one. Pinching my nipples. Making them erect. Making me moan. Then he started to tease me. He started to carress my pussy and down to my clit...fingering it and making it harden. He started to talk about how much he is going to make me suffer for him. He won't let me cum. Every night taking me closer to the edge of orgasm but that he will continue to deny me. He won't allow it. My feeling for orgasm will build in me until I truly submit to whatever he will do to me. He knows I am so close...but again he denies me!! Again...I get told no and he withdraws his hand from my pussy and clit. I'm going out of my mind and wanting to beg him. In my mind I wonder if there is any way of trying to convince him to let me cum. But I know it's useless. He is enjoying this. The sadistic smile as he tells me we get to do more tommorow. He belted my tits a few times. Made me put my arms out and leave them there as he took his belt end and strapped my nipple hard. Three times for each tit. Tit torture is truly hard to lay still for. I had to close my eyes while he was doing it to me. Major ouchies! My nipples were hard as rocks after he was done and welts on my tits. Then he told me he will be eating my pussy tonight and that I must shave it for him. Tonight he will go down on my pussy and stimulate me more and he told me that he will continue to say no. Orgasm denial is a part of the punishment. Sweetly suffering for Master..... ..... Master Anakin decided for today's HNT to put up one from our archives. We've had this picture in our HNT section and havn't put it up yet. I'm not sure why as I think it's very erotic. Today I'm putting up two pictures taken on the same night. They are both of me on a leash. I love that leash. How it feels around my neck. How secure and safe and owned I feel when I'm wearing it and he will pull on it. In the one picture you see me wearing my sexy red lingerie and red sheer panties with black ruffles on the bum. I'm wearing braids in the picture. You can see my red rose tattoo. I hadn't gotten my butterfly tattoo yet in this picture. This picture was taken before my birthday last year. You can see my ankle bracklet on. I am wearing my leather gloves. Master all dressed in black which is his favorite color. His terminator boots (as my sister calls them) right on my back. The leash is being pulled in his hands. In the other picture is of my black collar with the loop. I like that loop as you can put leashes or other things onto it to pull. You can see him pulling on it towards him. We got our leash from a pet store. It was reasonably priced and good quality and has lasted us for years. I enjoy the safe and calming feeling I get being in a leash. He will put me into the leash late on a Friday night when I am needing him to control me and lead me. I often get the leash and hand it to him on my knees...begging to be in it. Feeling like a owned pet. Like his little "pussy" cat. What does everyone think of it? We would love your feedback!! Please give us a comment on the pictures. We have put up a new survey today to go with the HNT post. In our last survey about your favorite public flash photo 28% said the public market one was the favorite of theirs. 21% said the suspension bridge photo. Thank you to everyone who voted! I found it interesting that the one that won was the public market one. I wouldn't have quessed that. It was a fun place to do a naughty public flash. I look forward to doing more in the future. Today's survey is about the HNT pictures we have taken so far in 2007. We are curious to hear feedback on what everyone likes. Please vote. The survey is on the side bar. What is your favorite HNT photo of 2007 so far?? The pictures we have put in the survey are: - slave on a leash (today's picture) - spank me panties and threesome fun - fetish boots and whip -maturbation erotica -Valentine's thumbcuffs -suspension bridge flash -Dungeon bondage chair -a slave's desire -boxing bondage Check them all out if you havn't already and please vote. My favorite has been the spank me panties and threesome. That picture held some special memories for me. Master's is fetish boots and whip. It became our header because we liked it so much. I've got another interview ready to be put up. Please e-mail at shyanne.blog@gmail.com if you wish to be interviewed. I could use a few more interviews and there are other blogger's out there who I wish would be interviewed. I have many questions for different people. We decided yesterday that we will be renting a car on our trip to Edmonton in April for our anniversary. I'm excited about it. We can drive around a new city to sexplore. I am curious about the adult stores there. Does anyone read this blog from Edmonton or has been there and recommend a few places to check out? Please let us know. I'm very excited about this trip coming up!! I hope everyone is having a good hump day!! I have decided to change my name once again. This time I changed it to padme amidala. I'm trying to get used to using the new name. I changed my padme icon to a different one I liked which had the name padme amidala on it. I have seen many padme's around the internet but none with the name padme amidala yet. I like it and it's erotic to me. I can relate to padme in the Star wars movies so much. I now associate Star wars with this blog and can't watch the movies without thinking erotic thoughts. I think of my Annie...my Darth. The darkside. The journey to the darkside. I miss Master Anakin and can't wait til he's home. I have a yummy dinner that I will be cooking for him and I've been wanting to serve him. My force is through him.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala Technorati Tags: HNT, orgasm denial, erotic photography, leash, collar, belt, sadist, padme amidala, darkside

Sugasm #68

The best of this weeks blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #69? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the linklist within a week and you’re all set. This Week’s Picks First Client (http://thismuse.blogspot.com)“He buries his nose in my pussy, licks me while I suck him, rubs his mouth up and down me.” His point of view (http://junohenry.wordpress.com)“Once he shut the door — urgently, impatiently, with a deft kick of his heel and a satisfying thud as the lock caught, all vestiges of decorum disappeared.” Why is my sex ed class so sticky? (http://deliciously-naughty.typepad.com)“This game was played for NINE years, and it’s only this year that parents are writing the school board?” Mr. Sugasm Himself Thumbnail Gallery Problems… (http://www.sugarbank.com) Editor’s Choice More on submissives with lists (http://principalquattrano.com/blog) More SugasmJoin the Sugasm (Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.)

Getting our force back

It's been a very difficult month for Master Anakin and I and I am really looking forward to March. March holds better memories for me and the spring will be starting. Our son celebrates his birthday. I have never had good luck with Febuary. This month has held a lot of different stress for us. The biggest problem has been the different health problems. I've had family issues going on and also distance between me and some of my friend's like Master R and even S. This month I have felt disconnected from almost everyone in my life. I admit I tend to go into a shell when I am deeply stressed. The best thing we did this month was to plan for our Edmonton trip for our 3 year wedding anniversary in April. We have saved up a lot of money to really have a wonderful time. We really need this time away. We've been through a lot and I know we deserve a little time just the two of us. I would love to hear from other people who have advice on how to handle bdsm and D/s and having young children. I really struggle with this sometimes. I read other blog's where other submissives deal with similar issues. I know it's very hard for people with no children to really understand what it's like. Our daughter is turning 12 and our son is turning 6. They are both very curious kid's and we have to hide our bdsm lifestyle from them both. We do have a traditional marriage and our families and kid's have both known who wears the pants in our family. I am honest with everyone who is in our lives that Master is the HOH. (Head of the household) No matter what happens or even if the D/s does slide for a few days, he is always the one in control. That's been that way since before we even knew what D/s was. The third time we made love he made it clear to me back in 1996 that he wouldn't be like my ex husband. I wore the pants in my first marriage. He made it crystal clear that wouldn't happen in our relationship. His parent's and grandparent's have a traditional marriage and this is what he had wanted. He was clear to me that my last final real decision would be the decision to marry him. The moment I married him, I signed our TPE (total power exchange) agreement. We had a very long talk last night and this morning about our D/s relationship. He made some really good points to me about our past and how I tend to get scared when we don't play for a while. He also made it clear that I am owned and that he is always my Dom. I feel like I am not being controlled but he pointed out I am very controlled with our TPE agreement. I am not allowed to drive or work. My time belongs to him. My finances are up to him. My belongings are his. I am not allowed to say no to his demands whether they are sexual or non sexual. We are TPE and that won't change. We could never be vanilla. Both of us wanted this type of relationship and we have worked hard to keep our force strong. It's been hard to find time together with two young children. Any play has to be done after they are in bed and our daughter likes to fight her bedtime. We tend to only play during the weekends. Master Anakin has to go to bed early due to being up early in the morning. We had a sitter but she quit to work at Arby's. His parent's will sit but lately they've been sick and had different things going on. A few weeks with no kid free time tends to really affect us. The last few weeks have been very challenging for us. We've had family issues going on, my break up with Master R, health problems, and stuff going on with our children. This has put the bdsm play on the back burner. This last weekend we were not able to play the way I had hoped. I wrote about this on padme's devotions yesterday. I was feeling disappointed and frustrated. He came home and I saw Darth right away. We fought a bit yesterday night. I was trying to avoid him. The darkside took over Lord Vader last night with my attitude and trying to hide from him. He doesn't let me hide. I tried for a few minutes to fight it but it never works with Darth. He put the kid's to bed. I waited for him in our bedroom watching CSI Miami. I was nervous because I had seen Darth in his eyes. I knew there was probably going to be some type of punishment coming. He came in and ordered me down to the basement. We went down there and it was freezing cold. He locked the door. We have locks on both sides of our basement in case the kid's ever get up. He went over to get our black bag of toys. He started going through it looking at different implements. I stood there in my barefeet and just my nightshirt on. My nipples felt erect from the cold. Then he got something out that he hasn't in a long time. One of my least favorite spanking toys. This was a homemade toy that we got from amber and her husband many years ago for Christmas. They called this toy the "damn it" due to how it would hurt and she would say damn it when it was used on her ass. So that name stuck. In the one picture you can see what it looks like. The damn it is a very effective toy. It leaves some deadly bruises and is quiet and it hurts. I was told to get over the school desk and he lifted up my nightshirt and exposed my ass to him. He lectured me as he spanked me hard with the damn it. He told me I was getting punished for my attitude and also cumming without permission on Saturday night. He had planned to punish me on Sunday but we got busy with our carpet cleaning and sick kid's. He also has been sick himself. "Where do you always end up, slave?? Do you really doubt my Dominance after all these years??" he asked me in his Darth tone. He pushed me hard last night. I was spanked harder than I have in weeks. After the damn it I heard him get the cane. Ohhhhhh that cane that puts fear into my soul. I knew it was going to hurt. I could hear the dominance in his voice as he lectured me and called me "bitch" several times. I admit that I love to be called bitch during punishments and spankings. There is something emotional that happens to me when he calls me bitch. I fell into a deep subspace. The pain became pleasure with the caning. One after another...after another....they fell down hard across my ass cheeks. He was so ruthless with that bamboo cane. I could feel the redness starting and it felt so sore across my sit spot. Major ouchies. He was not pleased with me. I always know when he is really mad because of our hard the cane will come down on my ass. How hard he swings. The full dominance in his voice and the way he is with me. "You really thought you could cum without my permission, bitch. That's a severe infraction. You really thought I would let Saturday night go?? Do you, bitch??" he hissed at me. He swung me around and made me look directly into his eyes. He had the look of the predator to the prey. "You bring out the darkside and you fucking know it. You wanted me to punish you hard. Don't deny it. You want it good on your ass. I'm going to punish you and then I'm going to fuck you in the ass." I could see the intense stare right into my soul. He was bring out the submissive desires that are in my heart. I was close to crying at this point. He knew it and was going to push me harder. To take me to the edge. To take us where we both wanted to go. The cane came down another 20 times. I was to thank him as soon it was done. "Thank you Master for punishing me" I said to him hoping he might accept my apology. He wasn't done with me though. He went over to grab the lubricant and butt plug. He got me to get on the ground. He shoved the butt plug up my ass and started to fuck me with it. "I'm preparing your ass for my cock, you fucking bitch" he whispered in my ear. Taunting me...teasing me. He started to play with my pussy and clit with his other hand. "I'm going to get you so close to cumming and then you won't be allowed to. You will sexually suffer for me. You will NEVER cum again without MY fucking permission!!" he warned me. He used his hand to tease my pussy. My juices started to flow and I felt myself slip into another planet. I wanted to cum and I knew he was not going to let me. I would suffer for him. I would be taken there but not allowed. Denied. He knows that denying me will make me sweetly submissive to him. He knows this will be the ultimate punishment for a bitch who came without his permission on Saturday night. I knew Saturday I had broken a major rule. It's been a long time since I broke it. I was half buzzed on the merlot and horny and he went upstairs to put our son back to bed after he started crying. Our son wasn't feeling well that night. Master didn't come downstairs so I used the Hitachi on myself and came. Then I went up and told him about it as I felt guilty in my heart. Last night I was going to be punished for a very serious rule breaking. He took out the butt plug and put his cock up my ass. Slowly and steady....filling my ass with his hard cock. He wrapped his hands around my blonde hair tight. He rode me like a horse. He would go deep into my ass and then pull back a bit so my head was taken back. "Oh gawd...I want to cum, Master!!" I tried to beg. He got into a very angry Darth tone. "Don't you DARE cum, slave" he warned. Then he pulled into me hard and came deep in my ass. His fist was still clenched around my hair. My head hurt from how hard he had pulled it. We went upstairs and I have to admit it was very hard to know I wouldn't be cumming when I felt so ready to. My clit felt like it had a pulse all on it's own. I felt like I could cum just by rubbing against the bed. I knew in my heart though it was no use to try to beg or plead. Darth had decided that the punishment for cumming without permission on Saturday and my attitude would be sexually suffering. He held onto my close and kissed me and reassured me before bed and I fell asleep close beside him. I felt owned. I felt submissive. I felt like I belonged to him....it was an amazing feeling. My pussy was on fire...my head felt like it was floating...my body felt so in tune to his body....my ass hurt a bit from being fucked so hard and also the caning and flogging with the damn it. I was told today that I am on orgasm denial until he decides I have suffered enough for my serious disobeying of a major rule. My ass is sore to sit on, especially in one place on my left ass cheek. A reminder of last night. We've had some really good talks and we are getting our force back. Master and my kid's were home sick today. I've been taking care of them all. Master and I have shared some very close moments. He went out and rented the family movie, Flushed Away for us all to watch. He is getting me back into line and it feels good. We are over 900,000 now!! yeah!! What a milestone!! It's very exciting. HNT is tommorow and we have another sexy erotic picture ready to go up!! Thank you to everyone for the feedback on the padme's interviews. I'm really glad everyone is enjoying the series. I havn't been online much but will try to catch up on blog reading tommorow. I hope to get back to my walks tommorow. I have lost two pounds this week due to my illness but I'm missing my walks most of all. I hate being stuck inside. It feels good to be getting our force back....we are on our journey together and there will be bumps along the journey but we we get through them. May the force be with you all!! ~padme Amidala

Interview with searabbit

This is my 13th interview in my series, padme's interviews. I hope everyone is enjoying this series. If you would like to be interviewed, e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com. I hope this series can continue for a long time. How was everyone's weekend?? I am so tired today. It's been a very long week for me. I have been dealing with some family stuff this weekend and dealing with two children sick. Master also is now sick. I was sick early last week. I have had my period and I feel very drained. We spent all day yesterday cleaning our carpets and place. My kid's are home today from school. It's pouring rain and I just feel very depressed today. I am looking forward to our trip to Edmonton in April that I talked about in my last blog post. It was the one highlight of the weekend. It just seems like far away right now. I havn't been online much the last week due to all the health issues and family stuff and being very busy. I want to thank everyone for their comments. We are almost at 900,000 hits!! That's just amazing to me that we are nearing a million!! Our stats have been great and I want to say hello to our new reader's and thank you for all the regular reader's who come back. We love to hear from all of you!! Thank you for joining us on our journey... I only got a few strokes with Master's belt on Saturday night. We had hoped to play and I was so much looking forward to it. Life gets in the way sometimes. Our son was sick and woke up several times during our play. I was buzzed on my merlot from California and I was so horny and needing him. He was not feeling too good also that night. So no spanking or much play that night. There has been little D/s with the health stuff going on. He's not feeling well and we have been too busy to play. I am always submissive and I'm a slave but this weekend I honestly didn't feel that way. I admit this is bothering me a lot today. I can't wait til Edmonton and our anniversary trip away. We really need this time together. I miss Darth. I miss the pain. I miss feeling pleasure. My force is not very strong today. I am interviewing a good friend of mine today, searabbit. I was so excited when she came to me asking to be interviewed. I have been reading her different blogs since even before starting my own blog. I think she's fabulous and I really enjoy her blog and writing. She's got some of the most amazing pictures and I want to thank her for letting me put two of them up for the interview today. I love that one that says "librarians don't look like librarians all the time". There is another librarian that I know that doesn't always look like one. *smiles at Master Anakin* searabbit is also a Canadian blogger like I am. I really enjoy hearing about her experiences when she lived in Vancouver, BC. I really enjoy her different blog post's and her HNT pictures. She updates her blog frequently and is a very talented writer. In this interview, even Master Anakin asked her a question about something he was curious about. He told me he is very impressed with her pictures. Please stop by her blog today and tell her I sent you. I know she'd love to hear from you!! You won't be disappointed! Interview with searabbit: 1. Q: What is the name of your blog? Q: How long have you been blogging? A: "The blog's name changed here and there... I don't even remember the first title of it... but the fist one I remember is Vue du Dedans... a French title, announcing my colors... I deleted it at some time... and it became the Last Romantic BPD Journal... It stayed under this label for quite a while... but as every good BPD affected people, I love changes... so it is now the Sea Blog... or, if you prefer, the SeaRabbit's Blog... " "I am now blogging since 2 years and a bit more… " 2. Q: How many blogs do you have or have had in the past? A: "I remember maintaining 4 blogs at the same time, in a unsuccessful affiliate program... It wasn't too much work, as I didn't have anything to do but put some links going to that company product... I stopped it after a I did a few purchases... No, I am not into sex toys... but their are sex toys and sex toys... what I received from them was very low quality, a lot different than what the photo on their site were showing... A waste of time... but who knows maybe am I only impatient... ";-) 3. Q: How did you get into blogging?A: "The first time I came across a blog, I shouted that people were really doing anything they could to get some attention... True that it was the blog of one of my actual partner fuckfriend he never said anything about while telling me he was seeing anyone else than me... I admit I was bias on this one... with good reasons... at least for me... But, I came across other blogs... find people with same interest as me... and decided to use the blog format to keep track of my effort to fulfill my vows as a submissive partner and a day to day journal in my healing process while going to therapy..." 4. Q: Can you tell people a bit about yourself? Q: Your hobbies? A: "Myself?... Oh... I am an old librarian... lololol... but hey... librarians really don't have to look like librarians all the time... Let say that I am a bit of a kinky librarian... Ok... for the stats... I am a white female, 47 year's old, with a past that could make blushed many sluts around the world... Before this relationship, I have been in a vanilla boring as hell marriage... I got separated something like 12 years ago, but never divorced.. I have always something more urgent to look at... After that separation, I've been hooked to a Black pimp... for a year... yes, it was awful... hard, and I went through physical violences disguised as SM.... I've been through heavy psychological manipulations including hypnosis... I came out of it because I cared for my son who was 9 years old at that time... Not long after that, I met someone I started to see here and there... but it wasn't my cup of tea at all.. The day I signaled that man I wasn't interested anymore, he made a huge comedy... throwing up, crying, praising me.. I accepted to continue to see him once in a while... He then took the occasion to get to my credit card and fraud me for 5,000$... A few days after I had put the cops on his way, he came at my place supposedly to pay me back some of this amount... I just had an abortion that same day... he arrived at 4am, drunk and without money... he raped me by sodomy.... I didn't react because my son was home and asleep... I really didn't want him to be a witness of that awful moment... I kicked the guy out right after... and called the cop... They arrested him, he accepted the charges... but, two years later, in court, he said he wasn't guilty, and from a trick of life, the judge decided to give him the benefice of the doubt... I could have charged him because of the credit card fraud... I felt raped twice..." "Hobby... I love to do wall plasters and painting effects... but I have not much time in my hands to do so... I love to do photo manipulations... and I just put up a site about it... it is a commercial site called "Glamorized Photos"... "I am often just playing with graphics… transforming them… making tags, blog templates, everything having to do with images… ";-) 5. Q: Where do you live? Q: What is it like living there?A: "We are living now in Montreal, Quebec, Canada... I deeply feel we are the only real bilingual province in all Canada... Bilingual by law, I mean... because I consider B.C. bilingual too, but not by law... more by choice for accommodating with the rich Asians... here it is French/English... Montreal is a very cosmopolitan city... Downtown is a mix of everything you can find all around the world... like in every big city... but at the same time, I feel Montreal is still a village,,, well-known for it's look of Old France... and our so interesting outdoor stairs…" 6. Q: You mentioned living in Vancouver, BC before? Q: What were your favorite places here? Q: Your favorite memories of Vancouver? (I'm curious because I live in Vancouver) A: "I have many wonderful memories of Vancouver... such as having sex in our small garden beside the elementary school at lunch time... with the kids running and the noise, the laughs... We were well hidden by the tall and thick cedars encircling our small garden... It was fun... and so lustful... I also love Stanley Park a lot... How many walks we did there... and the beaches... We've been in Van for a year... I took a chance to find a job with enough advantage to compete with the one I had and still have in Montreal... It didn't happen... The only interesting job arrived to me too late... a few months before, I could at least have had a taste of it and compared with the job waiting for me... I couldn't the timing wasn't good... but I really regret that we came back... We had so many wonderful moments there that never happened again once in Montreal..." "Our almost daily walks at the Van Duysen gardens are also moments I keep close to my heart…" 7. Q: Are you in a D/s or M/s relationship? A: "Hummm... this is a hard question for me right now... our relationship isn't D/s in the sense of Him making all the decisions on a 24/7 base... It is not SM .. as I am not into pain or so little... and I’m not sure he is sadistic at all… I love the idea... but once I am feeling it... I often back off... Let say that we are trying..." ;-)) "For sure, BPD isn't helping us to get where we would like to be... but I have faith that it will come..." "Am I a submissive woman? I am... because I love... If there is no love involved, I am more defensive and will move to the Domme side... With Him, I am sexually submissive right now... We have sex when he wishes to, the way he wants it... And it is satisfying both of us... until I get into some moods where anything is not enough... I am a sex addict... I would love to have sex 5 times a day... It won’t bother me at all to get three quickies and one long and sensual love making every day of my life... It seems this is too much to handle for many men... so I am fine with what He is willing to provide me... and as I have no taste for anything else since we are together, I think I am very lucky that at our age (close to 50) we still are having sex more than once a week..." ;-) 8. Q: Are you married/engaged/living together? A: "Another tricky question... We are married... but to other persons... ;-)) I left my husband many years ago, but never paid attention to the paper stuff... He left his wife 5 years ago... and seems to be just like me... In my case... it is real neglect and I am trying to put money aside to finally have a court paper... Him, I don't know... as we rarely talk about that..." "We are living together almost since we met... At the right beginning, my daughter's dad was still living at my place... but we were as far as strangers can be... I was back on the “meat market” since a few months, but very rarely meeting... having a 2 years old isn't helping in cases like that... ;-) We met at the beginning of August 2002... Next November, he was sleeping at my place almost every night... and going back to his place to work... In April, he told me he was to go back in Vancouver... I broke and asked him to take me with him... I sold my condo in late June to a friend, loosing a few thousands $ in the transaction... He drove from Montreal to Vancouver with my furniture... but it didn't go... we came back in Montreal in July 2004.." 9. Q: Would you consider yourself submissive? Q: Or a switch? Q: Or more dominant? A: "I think that I am a switch... honestly, out of being in love, I wouldn't submit to anyone... Before we met, I had one love... and I was submissive, and the requests were way much difficult than what I am experiencing now... In between I was the Snake Queen... and use to make great fun of those poor guys by having those loosing their erections confronted to my awful comments... and do I need to say about the following comments??? Yes... I have been more than bad... but I am now a soft kitty... ;-) Claws have been removed…" ;-)) 10. Q: Have you been spanked before? Q: If so, what was one memorable spanking for you? A: "Before what? I am not sure of your question... If you mean before this relationship, yes... It happened, and a few slaps on my rear where enough to make me fly at the end of the universe... it was something I never experimented in my marriage... in which I was quite frigid... I have to add that I never been OTK spanked... and in any other formal position... the slaps I got are always while having sex... I wonder how I would react to real formal spanking…." 11. Q: What types of play do you like to do? (are you into bdsm, knife play, role playing, dress up etc....?) A: "To tell the truth, I think I love them all.. Even if there are many I never tried... Knife play is one of his best turn on... I love it... because of the left over on my skin for the following days... We have that ritual ... Every time he is going on a trip, he cut me for the same amount of nights he will be away.... No, I am not in ecstasy while he is cutting me... I scream, I try to avoid the knife... It hurts... but I love the feelings in the morning... the burns, the feel of those cuts and scratches under my bras fabric... It is exquisite..." "I also love sensorial deprivation... and all sensual plays... I am a big fan of wax... I love being tightly tied, with my body spread eagle... blindfold, even all covered by whatever he may think about ( I have in mind that one and only time he rolled Saran Wrap all around my body) with only my most erogenous zones accessible... I love to be examined, medically touched... Yes… sensual plays are my favorites…" "He is more into rough sex... hair pulling, deep throat blowjobs... having me on all four with his cock in my mouth and making me following him around the room... still sucking him... having me on the leash and begging to get a taste of his dick... hard walls, stones, sex in nature, my skin touching the rough bark, the dirty soil while he is digging deep in me are what he seems to prefer..." "Yes... it is conflicting at times... when I feel that I don't get enough of what I like... but I never refuse him anything he likes... and than, it slapped me in the face that it is not about what I like... but about him.. But... where is the contract?? LOLOLOL... No, really I would like to get more often the kind of play I love... and give him what he loves as much as he wants... we still have to find a balance in that... Luckily... love is there to help us to sort that out..." ;-) 12. Q: Are you a star wars fan? Q: If so, what was your favorite star wars movie? Q: Character? A: "I am not a real Star War fan... but I did appreciate the episodes I watched... My favorite character... easy to find out... Chewbacca" "Wow... Imagine that beast doing you... the strength of those arms;-))) and the growls that should come out of him when he cums... ;-)) Hummm... just thinking about it is making me wet... ;-)) Yes... the noises, when he is expressing his pleasure loudly is a real turn on for me... and I bet that Chewbee could be noisy as I like..." ;-)) 13. Q: Can you describe your most memorable sexual experience? A: "Being fisted... I know... nothing unique for me... but every time, I am so amazed by the sensations and the intensity of my orgasms... It is really an incredible feeling... I wish every woman to experience that at least once in a life time... and don't be scared... I was only 5'2" and weighting 100 when he did it for the first time... Yes, I had two kids before... but lube should help you if you didn't... we rarely use lube... I had to write it..." ;-) 14. Q: What works in your relationship? A: "Having many common interests... sharing intellectual knowledge... Appreciating the same qualities in every cultural areas... thinking one thing... and hearing it from the other less that 2 seconds later... being in tune... I never lived anything like that before... and yes, it is wonderful..." 15. Q: Is there a fantasy that you hope to live out that you haven’t already? A: "For me... I use to say that I lived them all... because of that time in my life where I was going for every experience that was in front of me... But it is not so sure..." "Actually... I am very anally focused... I would like to have my ass fisted... even if it is quite scary just to think about that... I often think about how it could be... and I'd really love to at least have a try... or two... or more..." ;-)) "Also... I would love to get confident enough to get into a threesome... or many... with my love... I had one experience a while ago, but I wasn't attached to the man engaged in it and I have no idea who was the other woman... I often feel guilt about having experienced with someone I didn’t care much about and being unable to go into it with someone I want to make happy... what a paradox... No… I’m not ready to share…" 16. Q: Do you have any tattoo's or piercing? Q: Can you describe your experiences getting them? A: "You are doing everything to make this interview long..." ;-)) "I have three tattoos... and two piercing... " "My first tattoo was done not long after a trip to Mexico, where I met some bad boys from Belize... They were nice to me... and one of them was even more than nice... He had amazing tattoos all over his body... but never accept to tell me what they were about... It seems that it was related to some gangs... but anyway... I got a tattoo that resembled some of his once I came back..." "The second and third tattoos were done in Van, because he asked me to get his name on me... It took me a few weeks before doing so... because this is not something to do on an impulse... I choose to get his three initials into a graphic on my lower back... It is a big tattoo that took something close to an hour to be done... and because I felt like, I got a tiny kind of flower on my left breast on the same day..." "The piercing was done after we moved in Montreal... One more time he suggested those... and I just went...Oh... yesssssss... I had the idea of a piercing even before we met, but never found the occasion to have it done... He wanted me to have two rings on my outer labia... When we arrived at the piercing studio, we were informed by the owner Pierre Black, that this kind of piercing was the most painful to get... and the one taking the longest time to heal... Ah!! No matter... let's do it... Not enough with that so joyful information, he told us that it wouldn’t be of any sex enhancement for me, neither for him... but will only look... nice... Ah!!! That's fucking fun... I was still dreaming of a corset like piercing… something like 6 rings on each side…" "When he pierced the first hole... I screammmmmmmmmm "FUCK!!!!!"... OMG... I remember that so well... Once the ring was in, he asked me if I wanted to take a break before doing the second one... My answer? "No... go ahead... if we stop, there are chances that I won't be back"... and he did the second labia... It seems this one hurt less... but I was already in shock from the first one... so maybe I felt it less because of that... And I changed my mind about the corset thing… no… thanks… really…" "For the next 6 months, I had to clean and move the rings twice a day... I had also to take sea salt baths... After those six months, the healing was done, but the sensitivity was so high that I couldn’t’ tolerate having them touched... Even now, almost three years later, if ever I wear too tight pants, it will happens that one of the ring get caught in a wrong angle and I will have to move to get it more comfortable..." "It is not something I will ever encourage someone to have done... sorry..." 17. Q: What has been your favorite HNT picture you have put up? A: "I have many... I quite like that glamorized portrait I did a year ago... The shot at the end of the year was a nice one too... comforting for me as I am at an age where body changes aren't well accepted... and not easy to cope with... For almost 6 months, I didn't know what to wear anymore... I am now back on track... yes, I had to change style... tight clothes aren't making me look good anymore... but, I like myself better now that have boobs.... Can you imagine what it is to have a life time wearing a 34A bra... and suddenly having to get to a 36C?? Scary... but also powerful... lololol... I am such a girlie sometimes... ;-)) So, yes… I enjoy this new cleavage… and have no problem showing it as often as possible…" ;-) 18. Q: You have a lot of information for BPD on your blog? Q: Could you describe a bit of what that is and how it applies to you? Q: Do you have any good links on BPD you could share with the reader's to help understand more about it? A: "BPD is a mental illness... It have many levels like any other mental illness... some people are deep in it, some have only exacerbated traits... I can say that I am not an extreme case of BPD... but I am not an easy one to live with either..." "Many therapists (mine is one of them) think and are convinced that BPD is related to some events from early childhood... I doubt that a lot... and some new studies will soon make me right..." "BPD makes people very worry about their relationships... Often the problem occurs with the primary relationship, the s.o., because in everyone life, the bagage we have from our parents are following us to adulthood and we all tend to re enact some troubles we encountered then in our present life... Some are also taking those issue in their friendships.. It happened to me once... and I wish it will never happen again..." "Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is characterized by a pattern of unstable personal relationships, a self-image that is not well formed, and poor impulse control. The person suffering from BPD fears abandonment and will go to any length to prevent this, including threats of suicide and self-harm." "I never had any BPD symptoms before I reached 36 year's old... maybe I could figured out that I had some traits... but nothing needing a close look at... After my year with the pimp and the fraud and the rape, and the abortions, I became very cynical toward men and relationships, but I didn't considered that as a disease, I think that anyone going through such experiences will react like me or so... I didn’t trust anyone...and love became a kind of fairy tale existing only in books and movies... I decided then to enjoy sex... as it was the only way for me to reach the other part of human kind... but for sure... all my hate and comp tent were showing and as I wrote, I had great fun making those poor guys loosing their erections and laughing at it... I was powerful..." "In my relationship at that time, with the dad of my little one, it was a war zone... I never was into a "relationship" with that man... He was there, doing cooking, washing dishes, taking care of everything while I was sick as hell after having been raped 3 weeks before.. All I had in mind was to cheat on him, what I did so often that I can't count... and this is how me and Him met..." "I thought that everything was to be ok... but BPD isn't like that... BPD is at its worst at the right moment you involve yourself in a relationship... as long as you are not everything is fine... In fact..... I can relate BPD to many movie characters... Blanche, in "A Streetcar Named Desire", "Girl, interrupted", Kathleen Turner in "Body Heat", my alter ego, "Betty Blue", one of my fetish book.. "Gia: Too beautiful to die, too wild to live"... Think also about Adele H., Camille Claudel, every woman loosing their minds for love... " "Links... Just look at my sidebar... under BPD... ;-) There are many…" 19. Q: How did you come up with the name, Searabbit? A: "This was supposed to stay a secret... but as I already told some people about the story... why not making it public...." "SeaRabbit is a mythic animal from my imagination... I encountered the searabbits for the first time when I went to England.., He took me to the Beach Head Cliffs... Quite impressive view, and that day... more than impressive wind... I kept walking in rabbit holes while being close to the cliffs... and I wondered how come rabbits were living so close to the sea and into that chalk made ground... and, as no real rational answer was coming to me, I invented the Searabbit story... They were Super Rabbits... traveling in water from a shore to another, swimming with their ears... They were faster than the fastest fish... and they were coming on the ground at night... to visit and colonized new places... I even have an idea about writing SeaRabbits adventures for kids... a kind of geography and historical series... with the SeaRabbit's tribe as main character..." ;-)) "That same night, after going to be, we were so but so tired... we couldn't stop laughing at the hilarious adventures of the SeaRabbits... It ended up with the SeaRabbit's King getting his way with his favorite SeaRabbit slave..." ;-)) 20. Q: Do you have any future plans for your blog? A: "Hummm... I just wish I will get as much readers as I had on Blogger... WordPress is such a wonderful blogging tool... but there is no community as on Blogger... I miss that... So... in a short term, I would like to get back my usual readers... and many new... that I am discovering and finding interests about..." "I was approached also by a sex toys company to affiliate to them... but it is so much work to just build a page that I am postponing it every time I am on the computer... It should come.. but I would love over anything else that Glamorized Photos brings me some orders... I just love the photo manipulation... and I give myself the 2 years left before my retirment to be able to make a living from this as a complement to my pension plan... This will be the best thing that could happens from blogging... and, as I did you own photo, and you seem very happy with, I think I only have to wait and see... It should come..." ;-)) 21. Question from Master Anakin: Q: Your photography and computer graphics are great and fantastic! Do you have any formal training and what equipment and software do you use or recommend?? A: "About photo retouch… no, I have no particular training… I just learned on my own… It’s been many years now… In 1999, I started to play with Photoshop… but I soon realized that more tutorials were available for Paint Shop Pro… I got the program and yes, it is so much easier to work with than Photoshop… and the results are as good… I joined some groups of people sharing their knowledge, and here I am… It takes a lot of practice… many hours sitting in front of the monitor… but when you like doing something, you are probably like me, not counting your time…" "When I began to play, I had a regular computer… with not much memory… right now, I have something really big… images are often huge files size and He got me a real big hard drive… I make many version of the same image… It is sometimes very hard to choose which one is the best…" ;-) "I still use Photoshop sometimes… but PSP is working great for me…" "I received a Waccom tablet for Xmas, and I still have to learn how to use it for the best… but it is very useful to work on details… I just downloaded a flash file about the use of it… but need some time to watch it properly"… ;-) "Ok… the camera He is using is a Canon Rebel I gave him a few years ago… It is a very expensive camera, but he is so happy to have it… The resolution of the images is amazing… and scary… some shots of me are showing every pore, every wrinkle… not nice at all… ROFL… and when I see those, I’m glad that I know how to correct them, so I become beautiful… LOLOLOL… I’m a bit vain, I know…" "I wish that answer your question Anakin… and than you for your kind words of appreciation… It is flattering, because you are doing very well yourself, with padme photos… I love them a lot…" ;-) "I would like to thank you, padme, for allowing me to talk my heart out about those so important topics... I am so glad you choose to interview me... and I wish my answers are good enough to be post on your so beautiful and popular blog..." ;-)) Jo ....... Thank you searabbit for participating in my series, padme's interviews and letting me and other reader's get to know a bit more about you. Great answers! Please check out searabbit's blog today!! I hope everyone had a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Edmonton...here we come!!

I'm having such a wonderful day today and felt like writing about it and sharing it with everyone. Wow!! I am SO excited right now. It's been an amazing day!! I am sitting here enjoying a glass of merlot from Sonoma County in California. We had bought this bottle of wine on our road trip to San Fransisco, California in the summer. In the one photo you can see a picture of the grape vines. We were going by St. Francis winery in Sonoma county, California and we stopped and got this bottle and did some wine tasting. I love fine merlot and this has been aged since 2002. We bought this bottle of wine on our beautiful drive to San Fransisco. I was in such a great mood that day and so in love with Master. Master took a photo of this merlot for everyone to see. It's incredible! So smooth and the taste of it is like nothing I have experienced in my years of drinking wine. We were saving it for a special day and today is that day!! We have done a toast to our love tonight. We have some great news! We went out today to do our tax refund at H and R Block. We were expecting only a few hundred dollars back so we were a bit surprised when we found out it was more than that. We went out for breakfast and started to talk. We never really went on a real honeymoon after we were married back in 2004. We had gone to Harrison Hot springs but it was close by and turned out to have a lot of stress due to car problems and me not feeling well. Last year we went to Whistler for two nights for our wedding anniversary. This year for our three year wedding anniversary we wanted to do something a bit different. Master brought up my credit from West Jet that I had for $300. I had planned to go to Calgary a few months ago for the Taboo Sex show. It didn't work out and I cancelled the trip. I did go to the Taboo Naughty but nice sex show last month in Vancouver so it all worked out and I had my credit. We started talking about places we wanted to go. We can't go to the United States as Master doesn't have his passport yet and you need it now to fly. So we had our choices in Canada. We decided to both head out to Edmonton, Alberta!! So we went down to Flight Center and we booked the trip. We arranged sitting for our children so we are kid free. We leave on Friday April 6th and come back late on the Sunday April 8th. Edmonton...here we come!! The best surprise was yet to happen!! Master did something when we got home and didn't tell me he was doing it. I have mentioned for years that I have always wanted to stay in the huge hotel there in Edmonton called the Fantasyland Hotel. They have themed rooms there that look incredible! Check out the website!! I have been looking at 180 degree turns around the room on there. Quess which room he picked out for us??? He chose the Polynesian room. Holy smokes!! I was literally jumping around the room more excited than if he had booked Disneyland. We have been to Disneyland a few times but this seems almost more exciting to me!! This hotel looks so incredible and is in the very big hotel there. The West Edmonton Mall which is a really big mall is right there! I can't wait to get shopping! So many stores and restraunts and attractions. I went to this mall a few years ago with my sister and we spent all day shopping there and I just couldn't believe how big it was and how much there was to do!! I immediately started to have fantasies. Check out that room!! I have always wanted to stay in this hotel since I was a young girl!! I can't believe he really booked this hotel!! There is a jacuzzi tub surrounded by lava rock and a waterfall around that. He told me that we never had a real honeymoon and that we were going to have the time of our lives!! This was my anniversary present!! He wants us to have an anniversary to remember!! He told me he plans to make all my fantasies cum true that weekend on our anniversary vacation! He promised me this would be more memorable than our Whistler trip last year. I can just imagine the types of fun we are going to have in that room!! We will have to take our camera!! Maybe share a few pictures with the reader's? Would anyone be interested? *winks* Master Anakin then poped the cork on our merlot from Sonoma Valley we were saving for a special night. He kissed me and told me he loved me and we toasted to our anniversary trip to Edmonton and our love. He reminded me that life is precious and sometimes you just need to live and do something different and neat. He is treating me to Chinese Food for dinner and he said we will be playing tonight. I picked up some Instead because I am on my period and we are planning a very special romantic night. He promised me to spank me tonight and that we will share a very memorable evening together. We have not played, spanked or fucked for one week and we are both horny and really wanting one another. I want him so much tonight. He has treated me like a princess!! I feel so spoiled and so lucky!! I am so pumped about our anniversary trip and I feel on top of the world tonight!! I am so excited...about today, about tonight and about our anniversary trip to Edmonton!! Life feels pretty good right now.... Our dinner is here and the merlot is going down so smooth and I feel so happy in my heart.... I hope to get an interview up for my next blog post. Stay tuned! Hope everyone is having a good weekend!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Sugasm #67

The best of this weeks blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #68? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the linklist within a week and you’re all set. This Week’s Picks First Orgasm (http://deliciously-naughty.typepad.com)“His thumbs begin to stroke my nipples, and I watched my breath, coming out in little puffs of air, quicken.” It’s in the Genes (http://www.sex-kitten.net/home.html)“I found old magazines disguised as photography and drawing magazines but were actually full of nude women and some men […]” Why You Should Never Sit on Hotel Bedspreads (http://brooklynrake.blogspot.com)“We are looking for someone who can get a bit rough. Is that you?” Mr. Sugasm Himself Why Porn’s Already Decided the Next Generation Video Format (http://sugarbank.com) Editor’s Choice Take Your Sick Fantasies to the Shrink (http://adelehaze.com) More SugasmJoin the Sugasm Erotic Writing and Experiences The Beginning (http://thebridgeofshame.blogspot.com) Birthday Wishes (http://loladavid.wordpress.com) The Black Widow - Erotic Poetry (http://eroticjournals.blogspot.com) Correction: Instructive Desire (http://lumpesse.com) Eclectic Slut part two (http://junohenry.wordpress.com) Fair Play - Part I (http://lafillemariee.blogspot.com) Hot and heavy (http://marriedexploits.blogspot.com) A La Carte (http://confessions112.blogspot.com) The Lilith Quotient, Part The First (http://udoj.wordpress.com) More Interruptions (http://gentlygently.blogspot.com) My Girlfriend the Stripper, part 4 (http://erotischism.blogspot.com) The Sex Competition! (http://mandyseroticlife.blogspot.com Sex & Politics The Cop vs. The Stripper (http://www.radicalvixen.com/blog) Morning After Malarky (http://www.jessicagoldharalson.com) BDSM & Fetish Escape into Darkness (http://blog.myspace.com/tit_elation) The Golden Question (http://www.neongolden.com) In Search of the Inner Lesbian (http://sweatshopsissy.wordpress.com) Story: A Mystic Meeting (http://acestrokes.blogspot.com) Sex News, Reviews and Interviews Silicone Taffy Tickler Water Buddy Vibrator Review (http://stilettodiaries.blogspot.com) NSFW Pics (& videos) Happy HNT - Valentine’s thumbcuffs (http://darkside-journey.blogspot.com) Lady Dalbin - On the Waterfront Part One (http://thebootcam.com) Sexy Humor Secret Reads: Skippy The Fluffy Fucker II (http://secretbrain.blogspot.com) Uniform Fetish (http://spankingwriters.com/blog) What If? Part 1 (http://principalquattrano.com/blog) Sex Work Danni’s pics and his crush on danika! (http://www.princessmorgan.net) Thoughts on Sex and Relationships 10 Reasons to Masturbate (as if you needed any) (http://edinerotica.blogspot.com) I Got Some Amazing Comments (http://wecouldbenaked.blogspot.com) Of Floggers and Fire Escapes (http://talktovanessa.com) Selfish (http://perverselypoly.blogspot.com) Sex Blogging/Sex Writing The Affair (http://blog.myspace.com/deannadahlsad) The POD Stigma (Or Scratching the Self-Published Itch) (http://www.writingup.com/blog/dark_blue) Thumbcuffs courtesy of Journey to the Darkside.

Whip me Master

TGIF. What a week!! It's been a very long week for me this week. I am still not feeling too great and both of my kid's are also sick. I was very sick this week and on top of it I got my period. I am just so glad it's Friday! I dyed my hair light blonde for Master today. He chose the color and I love how it looks on me. I'm trying to keep busy until he's home as I am missing him like crazy today. :) I hope everyone got a chance to see our HNT this week. Please check it out if you havn't yet. Master Anakin spent a lot of time on the photo and giving it all the right touches. We both realized that it has been officially a year since we started the HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) series. We have come along way since our first HNT. Master has improved so much on his photos and we have both tried to be very creative with the different erotic pictures. The comments mean the world to us both. It keeps us wanting to keep going with the HNT series. We really enjoy the feedback and we appreciate everyone taking the time to let us know what they think of the different photos. Stay tuned for another interview that I hope to get up this weekend sometime. I'm really happy that a few more people have contacted me to be interviewed. If your interested in being interviewed please e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com. I'm so happy on all the feedback I've gotten on the padme's interview series. I thought I would share a photo of my very whipped ass that was taken last week. In this photo you can see the homemade whip Master Anakin made. It's a deadly implement. This whip is made of rubber type of strands. It's like little cords and they can cut into my flesh. I find this the hardest toy to submit to. I have a love/hate relationship with the cane but this toy is more serious than that. I find it pushes me to the limits. It almost always makes my ass bleed. It will bring up some very deep welts onto my skin. Master made this whip a few years ago as a present for me. He got all the supplies at Home Depot. It's amazing the little goodies you can get for next to nothing to make a really interesting spanking toy. To make this toy cost very little and it's lasted years. We have a *huge* black bag that is filled full of yummy toys. We are always buying more goodies for play. We have made a few toys and we have had some given to us also. Usually now most of the toys we buy are from JT's Stockroom. Right now I have a wish list of different toys I would love to get. One of them is a beautiful English Tawse. Another one is a fiberglass cane. Maybe Master can get me one of them for our three year wedding anniversary coming up in April?? *hint hint* We enjoy role-playing so I also have a drawer full of different outfits and lingerie. I love to dress in different sexy and naughty outfits for Master Anakin. We have done all kinds of different role playing. We've done the schoolgirl and principal role-playing. We've played Anakin and padme and also Darth and padme. We've also role-playing Bender and Claire from the Breakfast Club. Can you tell I like bad boys?? Bender made me drool in that movie and I loved how Master played him that one night. We have played out many of our fantasies. We've also played some very extreme types of scenes also. Back in 1997 when we first started to play, we would often spend days organizing a scene that we would do. We had decided in 1997 to also got into a D/s relationship. I had a hard time letting go of the control back in those days. I fought it sometimes with everything in me. I never made it easy for Master Anakin to take the control. We had some huge battles. I can remember one night he chased me down the street. We were living in a rural area and it was very early in the morning. We both were drinking Wild Turkey we had brought back from Las Vegas. Things got out of control. I called him an asshole and I slapped him and he got the look of Darth in his eyes. I could work him up like nothing else in those days. My temper and his would go head to head. I saw Darth and I got scared. I opened the door and ran down the street in my panties and a nightshirt on and no shoes. He chased me and we got to the park and he jumped on me and spanked me right then and there. He took off his belt and laid into my poor ass pretty good that night. I wondered if someone might wake up or have seen us that night. I will never know. The echos of his belt hitting my ass went around the dark park. He took his fury out on my ass that night. He took me back to the house practically kicking and screaming even after getting his belt. I was going to fight him that night! I wouldn't give into him. He of course is Darth Vader. There is no reasoning with him and he was drunk on the Wild Turkey that night. He usually doesn't drink but that night he had quite a few shots. I saw a different side to him that night. He brought me home and we had our first experience with bdsm. He fucked me up the ass for the first time. It wasn't gentle. I have to admit that it was so rough that I didn't like anal for a long time. Darth came out to play and I saw a very dark side in Master. Our play was so extremely intense. He shoved his cock deep into my ass and used his belt to put it around my neck. He would fuck my ass and then squeeze the belt tight. Our first breath control experience and also my first time doing anal. The sexual tension in those days was always around us. He was so dominant and I wouldn't submit. I was used to wearing the pants in my marriage as my ex was very passive. I wanted to give up control in those days but mostly just sexually. I was spoiled and I would fight some of the spankings with everything in me. The struggle of our D/s would make for some very incredible foreplay. We have both come a long way but I often wonder what would happen if I tried fighting him now with our TPE relationship. I want to struggle like I did in those days but I also know that would anger him too much. The struggle would get us both so worked up and fuck like animal's. There was some very hard and nasty fucking in those days. In those early days we were fucking all the time. I can remember fucking all weekend with him. We were both young and horny all the time and I couldn't get enough of him. We had our weekends free for many years. Our daughter went to my ex's and our son wasn't born yet. I think of those days often. How wild we would get. The memorable spankings I got when he was so angry and I would fight him. Him and I together in those days were explosive. We have toned things down a lot since getting married and having our son but there are still a few nights that we show our wild sides. I am so glad for our experiences. I am glad we have shared so many different sexual experiences together. I can honestly say our sex life has never been boring or vanilla. We've only been blogging the last year and a half and this blog has only shown a very small amount of our play and different things we have experienced. I have yet to talk about some of the very wild nights and things we saw and places we went. I hope to write more in the future to give people a glimpse of our struggles and our play and the different things we have tried. We tried a few things in the early days that I didn't want to do again such as watersports. We also tried knife play and enjoyed it and still play with a knife sometimes. We also explored bondage very early in our relationship and have enjoyed different experiences with it. In the photo I put up today, you can see the whipping I got with his homemade whip. My "spank me" panties were pulled down and he laid into my flesh with that whip of his. My ass got red and bled in a few places. He put the whip right between my red and sore ass cheek's so you could get a look at the implement which caused my pain. I am wearing my pretty in pink outfit. I am laying on my butterfly blanket. I love butterfly's. Click to enlarge photo. I havn't been spanked since last Saturday night and it's made me feel irritable and craving one. I hope we can try to find a little play time this weekend. I am really missing Master today. We havn't fucked all week and I really need some of his yummy cock!! Cum home soon, Darth!! Cum home and whip me Master!! I hope everyone has a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Happy HNT - Masturbation erotica

Happy HNT everyone! I truly hope that you enjoy this week's HNT picture. In the photograph, My padme is enjoying herself immensely using her waterproof iVibe rabbit vibrator. You can even see the blur of her hand as she was moving the vibrator around. Please click on the picture for a much better look at the details! I really liked the picture as taken, but I wanted to do more with it so I spent a lot of time on this picture in Photoshop. For something completely different, I thought that I would talk about the steps I used in Photoshop CS2 to create this work. First I selected the picture; I take a lot of shots, so I look for the one that I can see potential in; at this point, it's all about how the picture is composed and how it's going to look cropped. After selection, I converted to black and white, then sepia, adjusted the contrast, and ran everything through a noise filter. I copied some of the blanket to cover some of the floor that wasn't already covered with the blanket. Next, on a new layer, I did a few gradient fills with black creating the shadows at the bottom edge and over padme's face. On another layer, I did the lettering for Journey to the Darkside. Finally, on yet another layer, I did black and white grunge brushes adding the white grunge and scratches near the light and the black grunge and scratches on the bottom half of the picture. I really hope you enjoy the photo. I'd really love to hear your comments; the feedback makes it all worthwhile. My padme's still feeling ill so I've been taking care of her; that's why she hasn't been online much lately. She'll be back as soon as she's recovered fully. May the force be with you. ~ Anakin Technorati Tags: HNT, masterbation, erotic photography, photoshop

Needing Daddy

I have not been feeling very well at all today. The last few days I have been struggling with tummy problems but today I started having a high fever and a lot of nausea and dizziness. I am usually a very healthy person so this is rare for me to feel so sick. I'm not sure if it's the flu or something else going on but it's been a long time since I felt so ill. I phoned Master at work and he offered to come home and take care of me but I'm trying to hold my own right now. He offered to take tommorow off also if I am still not well. I do admit that I feel like I really need Master right now but I would feel guilty with him leaving his work for me. I feel very weak and vulnerable today and I wanted to stay in bed but I couldn't. I have two young children to take care of so life can't stop, even when I don't feel well. Being sick seems to scare me and I'm not sure why. I feel very off today and I wish Master were taking care of me like a Daddy. Sometimes I don't need Darth or even Anakin, I just need my Daddy. I spent most of today watching the Anna Nicole Smith hearing live. It was pretty interesting. I'm hoping she will be allowed to be buried beside her son. I think it's what she would have wanted. I've been very drained and have no energy to do very much. It reminded me of the months I watched I watched the OJ simpson trial back in 1995 when I was pregnant with my daughter. I couldn't get out of bed very well and spent a lot of time watching the tv and that trial was so interesting. I really enjoy watching live court cases. I had hoped to dye my hair today but it's being postponed until I am feeling better. I did my weigh in today and have lost another pound. It's probably from my lack of appetite lately due to my tummy problems. I'd like to thank everyone for their feedback on my series, padme's interviews. I am really glad everyone is enjoying the different interviews I have done. If you wish to be interviewed, please e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com. I feel so lucky to have such a wonderful Master who takes such good care of me. He does all the little things for me like tucking me into bed at night and taking care of me when I don't feel well. I really feel grateful today for his love and support when I feel so sick. It meant a lot to me that he was willing to come home just for me. I'm going to go curl up now under my blanket and wait for Master to get home. I just want him to come home and take care of me. My force feels weak today and I need Daddy... May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Interview with How about now?

Today is my 12th interview in my series, padme's interviews. I'm very excited to have a few interviews ready to be put up. I really hope this series can continue for a long time. I've gotten a lot of positive feedback about it and I've really enjoyed interviewing different bloggers and it's let me meet and link to a few new people. If you would like to be interviewed please e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com. I just send you out the questions and it's a great chance to let other's know more about you and your blog. If you have missed any interviews, just check out the drop down menu under padme's interviews and they are all there. Thank you to everyone who has participated in this series. I had a really good weekend. I got to get a very good visit in with my mom and we got to see Ghost Rider which was excellent!! I want to own that one when it comes out on DVD. Nic Cage was great in it. Thank you for all the feedback on my last post asking about your favorite Nicolas Cage movie. I really enjoyed hearing everyone's responses to the question. I loved Con Air also and City of Angels was awesome. I went and saw City of Angels with my sister and I can remember everyone walking out with tears in their eyes. He's been in so many different movies and it's hard to just chose one that is my favorite. Mandy from How about now? contacted me to be interviewed and I want to thank her for e-mailing me. She's got a really wonderful blog that I have linked to and read now on a regular basis. She's a very talented writer and I enjoy her posts very much. She updates frequently and always has something new and exciting in her posts. I'd like to thank her for allowing me to put up two pictures with her interview today. I was told that the pictures were exclusive to me and not posted anywhere else. Thank you so much Mandy!! They are so beautiful and erotic. Please check out her blog today!! You won't be disappointed! Tell her I sent you. I know she'd love to hear from everyone! When you first go to her blog you notice that it says "What's a broke-but-fully-employed girl to do? Why, start selling her services, of course. Can it be done without losing husband, self-respect, etc? Only time will tell." Interview with Mandy from How about now? 1. Q: What is the name of your blog? A: "How About Now?" "I wasn't sure what to title it, but I'd been having a lot of trouble with getting email from Lover, and he kept sending emails with that title. Especially since it's gained currency as a cell-phone phrase, it worked for me as a way of asking, can you hear what I want to say? I have a lover, how about now? I'm a whore, how about now?" 2. Q: Is this your only blog? Q: How long have you been blogging? A: "Yes, and I've been blogging since early January. I love writing and I've been meaning to write something, so this was a way to write almost every day. I've been a writer my entire life, though I hated the physical act of putting pen to paper until high school. Then I became the editor of my high school literary magazine and really started enjoying writing. Now I write non-fiction, plays, and some fiction as well as my blog, and I'm published in my other mediums." 3. Q: How did you get into blogging? A: "I read Go Fug Yourself a lot and it makes my day, so I was used to the idea of daily content. Then Lover gave me Belle de Jour's book and I thought, I could do this. Then I found out that Belle du Jour is in the process of being outed as a journalist who may have written it fictitiously, and I thought, if it's fiction, it should be a better book, and since it's sex fiction, it should have a climax! And I'd been toying with the idea of whoring, and the two seemed to go together. It's not worth whoring just for money, and it's not worth blogging without having a current, active thing to talk about and to serve as the coat-rack where I can hang stories from my life." 4. Q: What are your blog/blogs about? A: "My secret part-time life as a whore, my D/s relationship with Lover (haven't gotten into it yet, though), my sex life with Lover and my other lovers, and my relationship with Husband, who prefers not to know. It's also filled with schadenfreude, and I try to write in a way that lets people laugh at my foibles as well as skewering the world around me." 5. Q: Could you tell people a bit about yourself? A: "What I tell clients: I'm a redhead in my early 30's, 5'9", 135, 36C, not a hardbody but strong, fit and flexible." "What I think is actually important: I love words, I love the power of choosing and arranging the right words to say exactly what I want to say, and hopefully, evoke feelings and a need to know more from the reader. I have a lot of love to give, and I feel like part of my purpose is to give the men and women I meet in my life - as a sex worker or otherwise - that little shove, pull, or hand-hold they need to take the next step on their journey. Yeah, it's pretentious, but I do actually do it, so I'm starting to claim it and be proud of it. Hence the "muse" in my name. I've done some literal "muse" work - helping friends develop, focus and refine their artistic projects - and I also have a general practice of helping people believe that they are certainly capable of doing what they feel inspired to do." 6. Q: What are your hobbies? A: "I love to read, especially mysteries - I have a collection of vintage Perry Mason mysteries with the lurid dime-novel covers, plus Agatha Christie, Sue Grafton, Dick Francis, PD James, Ruth Rendell, and the classiest of all, Dorothy Sayers. I'm also a big fan of Terry Pratchett, who disguises some very astute social commentary in a set of humorous/fantasy nose-glasses. I think Pratchett is one of the premier satirists of the English language. Non-fiction, very into Malcolm Gladwell, and I love my subscription to the New Yorker - that, NPR and the Daily Show are my news and current affairs." "I'm at the gym a lot - I have a workout partner I really enjoy spending time with, and I'm having a great time working out at a gymnastics gym, where we climb ropes and bounce on the trampolines! Working on back tuck right now (a backflip in a ball). And at home, I love curling up in my cosy little library, surrounded by books and with Law&Order on - that's the best part of cable, there's pretty much Law&Order on all the time." 7. Q: Are you married/engaged/single? A: "Married, mistress and muse." 8. Q: Are you polyamourous? Q: What have you learned being in one? A: "Yes. I'm in a primary relationship with my husband, a secondary relationship with Lover, and tertiary relationships with several other people. Husband knows I'm polyamorous, but prefers himself to be monogamous. Lover knows I'm married and enjoys being secondary - he has neither the time nor inclination to be in a full-time relationship with anyone right now, and he and I don't work well together as a couple if we're together more than a few days in a row! I'm very honest with tertiary lovers - they always know I'm married, and they sometimes know about Lover." "I've learned a couple of important things - one is that I get a certain devotional level of attention from Lover that is not sustainable as a full-time relationship, and I have to not only accept not getting that from Husband but also make sure that I give him extra attention and time since he is nervous about ever coming second. The other was that it's a natural feeling to think, "what if..." with a new lover. I spent time cheating before Husband and I worked out a deal, and with each one I thought, "what if...?" With Lover, we've been together long enough to go through infatuation, speculation about what it would be like to be full-time, break-ups, make-ups, and an eventual acceptance of the relationship being what it is and enjoying what it is instead of wishing or speculating about being something else. That was a tough journey, and it paralleled - not coincidentally - the deepening and maturing of my marriage." 9. Q: Are you into any bdsm or do you have any D/s or HOH (head of the household) in your relationship? A: "I'm not a big bondage person, because I find the costumes and paraphenalia a little silly. But I am by nature submissive (though never with clients) and my relationship with Lover is very D/s. I very much value that we will meet somewhere and he handles all the details, financial and otherwise, and my job is to be there for what he wants. Not to say I don't pick things to do, in and out of bed :) but I love handing over responsibility." "I've heard that a lot of strong people are submissive - the classic dominatrix client is the suited corporate executive. And as someone who spends a lot of time bossing and managing and taking care of other people, it is so beautiful and comforting to *not be in charge*. " "I think the thing I love most about D/s is the idea of "climbing the mountain" with another person. When I submit to what Lover wants, pushing him to take me further, and he pushes me to go further, and afterwards, it feels as though we have done something together that could not be done alone, something challenging and exciting and *new*. And there's a lot of emotional commitment as well as physical exertion, so it's fantastic to be drained and ravaged and lying in his arms, the look on his face reflecting how far we've gone. I keep thinking there isn't anything left to do (other than fetishes that don't appeal to us) and then we do something new! D/s is all about the mental for me - I don't want to be tied up, I want a man to look me in the eye and tell me "don't move" and then have to control myself, not knowing what will happen, fearing what's going to happen, fearing what will happen if I move. For that reason, I don't use a "safe word." I think that's a chance for the submissive to bail out instead of going the distance, I think it's an excuse for the dominant not to pay close attention (if there's no safe word, the dominant has to be very, very attentive to distinguish the physical or verbal no that means "keep going" from the one that says, "that's as far as I can go." Also from that, "safe word" to me means it's a game instead of something real. I can see, though, that this might be really different in a full-time D/s relationship, where the submissive may well need to know they can get out of a moment if they have to, or where the daily interaction could get on a slippery slope if there's no 'out'. " 10. Q: Have you been spanked in your relationship/relationships? A: "Yes - and I love it when it's done well! Just hauling off and smacking me is a no go, but slowly building in intensity is amazing - I had one spanking experience where I was within an inch of coming just from the spanking (and the occasional fingering). And hey, just to get figuratively naked here, I also like being whipped with a belt or crop, hit on my breasts, hit on my pussy, and hit in the face. Depends on the person, the setting, and the moment, though - I do sometimes say, ok, no more of this for awhile, I'll let you know when I can take it. And guys who hit me with their penis just make me laugh! " 11. Q: What is your most memorable sexual experience? A: "Sitting in a restaurant, early enough so that we were the only diners, and Lover slapped me. It was such a public assertion of his power." "And Husband proposing in mid-fuck." 12. Q: What works in your relationship? A: "That I travel so much. I'm able to be polyamorous without rubbing my husband's nose in it. While he's decided he can live with my sluttiness, I don't shame him, sleep with anyone in my hometown or his friends, or give him details he doesn't want to know. This is made a lot easier by doing all my frolicking on the road, and it's also much better for me that I don't take time away from my primary relationship to see others, I'm already away from Husband and he doesn't get any fewer phone calls. I also like the travel because I enjoy being on my own some of the time! When I'm home, I'm really, really home - we spend most of our time in the same room when we're together. For Valentine's Day, we'll be sitting quietly in the library with pizza and cupcakes, and that's wonderful for me - my time with Husband is all about the joy of simple comforts." 13. Q: Are you a Star wars fan? Q: If so, what was your favorite movie or character? A: "I like the first movie - my favorite Star Wars moment was being in the theatre for the re-release of the original movie, and when Luke says, "But I wanted to go to Tashi Station!" the whole theatre went "ah-ehhhh" like, "you whiner!". And watching for the moment when the Storm Trooper knocks his head on the door. There should be more moments like that. I mean, it's a military operation, right? And knowing what we know about the military, OF COURSE people are running into walls and knocking their heads, it's not like they know the place they're invading." 14. Q: How did you meet your husband? Q: How long have you been together? A: "I met a man who flew me to another state and then didn't meet me because he was seeing someone else and felt guilty. So I drove six hours to console myself with another man who turned out to have a girlfriend he had neglected to mention for four months of phone calls. His roommate is now my husband, and we've been together for twelve years." 15. Q: Are you submissive or dominant in your relationship with your husband? A: "We don't have a D/s relationship, but I generally wear the pants. He's amazing and I adore him, but I'm better with money and organization, and it just works with much less hassle that way. In the end, what I am with my husband is Present (as in, "here"). He knows me better than any other man, we are soulmates, we're meant to be together. We had a rocky spell a few years ago, and it was then, while I was initially bonding with Lover and Husband was going through an affair that was, by our then-rules, cheating, that I realized that when I said, "til death do us part," I meant it. It's not a metaphor for me." 16. Q: Have you always been in a polyamourous relationship? A: "I've never been in a monogamous relationship - I have a lovely picture from one of those Ye Oldtyme Photo places, in which I'm dressed as a Southern Belle, my first boyfriend is a Confederate soldier, and his best friend is Union. Yes, I was." "What's changed for me in the past five years is the level of honesty. I cheated for my entire marriage, I started advocating for an open relationship about five years ago, and last year I sat down and told my husband that I wasn't monogamous, I never could be, and I couldn't keep hiding that part of me from the person whom I love best in all the world." 17. Q: Do you have any good links to share with the reader's? A: "I'm always a fan of Savage Love and everyone knows about PostSecret :), so I'll use this as a chance to plug my current new favorite artist, Lily Allen. First heard her song "Everytime I see you cry/it makes me smile" while driving in Europe last year. Now I play her song "Knock 'Em Out" on the way to all my whoring appointments!" 18. Q: Do you have any future plans for your blog? A: "World fame and an international hunt for my identity after my book hits #1 on the New York Times Bestseller list ten weeks in a row. Not that I'm filled with hubris..." "Right now I'm just grateful that people want to read it - I'm here to spread the crazy around, and there's a lot of it to spread." "So nice to talk with you - thank you." ...... Thank you Mandy for participating in my series, padme's interviews and letting me and everyone else know a bit more about you. Great answers! Please check out How about now? today! I hope everyone had a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Valentine's day paddling

I put up two pictures in my last blog post from Valentine's day with Master Anakin. I thought I'd share one this morning of the paddling from our romantic day together. You can see my new lingerie on and my brand new red thong!! He used his Anakin's paddle to make my ass nice and red and warm. Just thinking about it makes me want to go bend over for more!! Usually Friday night is our play night but we were too tired to play last night. I'm craving a spanking right now! We have an overnight for our son tonight to go out on a double date with my mom and step dad. They are taking us to see Ghost Rider which just came out yesterday!! I'm really looking forward to this movie for many reasons. I LOVE Nicolas Cage!! Fuck...he's such a hottie!! I got such a major crush on him when he was in the 80's movie, Valley Girl. I can remember the Valley girl fad that was happening too when I was younger. I can't believe I used to talk like a valley girl. *like totally!!* I also enjoy marvel comic movies. I think the special effects for Ghost Rider look pretty cool too. I think it will be good to see it on the big screen. Soooo...what is your favorite Nic Cage movie? That's my question to all the reader's today!! I'm curious. I loved Gone in sixty seconds and have seen that movie a million times. Same with Leaving Las Vegas. I'd have to say my favorite is Face Off. I loved his character in that movie. My favorite quote from that movie is "I can eat a peach for hours." I didn't like his recent one, The Wicker Man. I found it to be pretty disappointing and I didn't like the ending. I also wasn't too thrilled with 8MM. He's been in so many movies!! What's your favorite one? My mom is staying in a hotel so after we go out on our date we are hoping to come home and play. Master Anakin has already told me he is up for some naughty play time tonight and that my ass needs some spanking time!! yeah!! I've been horny since yesterday and I'm in the mood to get fucked HARD!! He's looking so yummy this morning and I want him bad!! Hopefully he'll fuck me hard after giving my ass some attention with whatever implement he choses. What do you think he should use on my poor little ass? I have gotten a great response to my series, padme's interviews. I've got a few ready to go up. If you would like to be interviewed please e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com and stay tuned for one which I hope to put up tommorow or Monday. I havn't seen my mom since Thanksgiving and am looking forward to her visit. We don't get out on many double dates so this should be a fun evening. I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend!! Please comment!! I'd love to hear from you!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

A wonderful Valentine's day!

Thank you to everyone who commented on our HNT picture. I can't wait to use the thumbcuffs again. We appreciate your comments so much! It was great to hear from a few people who havn't commented in a while. Thank you!! The feedback means a lot to us. I had a bit of time before dinner to do a quick blog post and I wanted to share a few photos from yesterday from my Valentine's day with Master Anakin. I'm a very excited and spoiled girl today!! I got some *awesome* news today that made my day!! I am the winner of a Valentine's day contest that I put my name in for. We had went to De Dutch for breakfast yesterday. Master Anakin had taken off the day from work to spend Valentine's with me. There was a contest for a free breakfast from De Dutch once a month for a year Valentine's day contest for all couples yesterday. I WON!! I'm so excited right now! De Dutch is my absolute favorite restaurant. I ate there on my wedding day for breakfast before marrying Master Anakin. The place holds many memories for me and I'm just so happy that I won! Yeah!! I got a single red rose also from De Dutch from Master Anakin. I love red roses so much and it's on our table today to remind me of yesterday. Tuesday was a really stressful day for me for many reasons. Master R and I have decided to take a break from one another for a while. I'm not sure for how long. We havn't been getting along lately. Trying to juggle a poly relationship can be very difficult. I know that I write about all the good times on this blog with the poly but I don't blog enough about the challenges. Last year when we finally made our relationship sexual I expected it to be a one night type of deal. We were supposed to go seperate ways. Master R came back into my life a few months later and we have been having a rocky relationship ever since. We agreed we will always remain friend's. I care about him a lot and I know we will keep in touch. I am trying to put all my energy into Master and our family right now. I admit trying to juggle two relationships with two Doms was a bit too much for me at times. There have been many changes happening in my life and I am dealing with them all pretty good. Master has helped me so much. I am thankful every day for his strength and friendship. He really is my force. He gave me the best Valentine's day ever!! Yesterday was amazing and he was so romantic. I admit I am a romantic in my heart! I found it a bit disappointing that some people and even blogger's didn't seem very into Valentine's day. S gave me a really bad time about making it special. My mother in law even said "it's a day for kid's, not adult's. We are a very romantic couple and we always celebrate Valentine's together. We make a big deal out of every holiday. We are a bit over the top sometimes with the romance but I believe it's one of the best parts of our relationship. We are romantic but kinky and we both are incredibly in love with one another after 10 years together. It's coming up three years we have been married in April. We are talking about taking a trip together for our anniversary. My relationship with Master Anakin is stronger than it's ever been. Where I feel many of my friendships are crumbling and drifting apart, my relationship has actually become way stronger than it's been in years. I am very content as a slave and feeling very submissive. I've really learned to hand over more and more control to him and it's been very freeing for me. Master Anakin surprised me yesterday with so many things. Just when I think he was done with the surprises he did something else to blow my mind. He let me sleep in yesterday morning and take my time getting ready for our date. We went out to De Dutch and he held my hand and whispered sweet nothings into my ear. I love how deep he can get with his words and love. I got the red rose and then we went over the mall. He bought me brand new stockings (red and black) and a brand new red thong. Red is my favorite color! We went to La Senza and he got me new lingerie. I love lingerie!! I got my sister a gift card for her birthday from there and then picked out my new lingerie which is lavender color. I put up a picture of it today for everyone to see my new gift's. The lingerie is sooooooo sexy!! It fit me like a glove and made me feel so in the mood. I couldn't wait to get home and get naughty. We shopped around and he spoiled me a bit more. I got chocolate from Purdy's! YUM! We stopped by the liquor store and he got me a very fancy French merlot from the year of our wedding. (2004) We headed home for a few hours with no kid's and a new thong and lingerie and chocolate! I was one happy girl!! I wanted him BAD!! He smelled like axe and was wearing his dark blue shirt that I gave him for Christmas. He had freshly shaved and I could barely keep my hands off him while he was driving!! We got home and we practically ran upstairs. We lit some candles around the bedroom and put on a porno. Master put on our cd player to listen to some music while I changed into my new lingerie and thong for him. The song "The most beautiful girl in the world by Prince came on the radio. We danced to it and I felt so intensely close to him. He kissed me with passion and desire and he whispered the words of that song into my ear. My nipples were erect and my pussy was getting wet. We took a few pictures to remember the experience. He used his paddle to spank me over the pillow. He made my ass glow and I got a nice erotic spanking for Valentine's day. He would paddle me a few times and then stop and then feel my ass and then paddle it again. When he was done we couldn't hold back any more. He got his hard cock out of his black silky boxers and stuck it hard into my pussy. We became one. He pounded my pussy and we rode into rythym together. He looked deep into my eyes while we fucked. He would go fast and then slow down a bit and he would kiss my neck and lips. He told me he loved me many times while we fucked. I begged him to cum and he gave me permission and I came just before he did. We both held each other for quite a while on the bed after. I felt so close to him. So secure and so relaxed. I wanted to hold onto the moment for the rest of the night. We came downstairs and we watched Far and Away. Last year we saw the Notebook for Valentine's day but this year was Far and Away. I love that movie! It was so romantic. It was an incredible Valentine's day! I have been cleaning all day today. My mom is coming into town this weekend. I havn't seen her in a while. She was supposed to come down for Christmas and wasn't able to. She's taking us to see Ghost Rider this weekend. I've been so busy that I havn't had time to respond to e-mails or do any blog reading. My place looks and smells fantastic. I love Febreeze! I sprayed everything today. I made a dinner in the slow cooker for Master. He is very pleased with me. I am crazy in love today and feeling so close to him!! I'm not sure how much I will be online the next few days but I'll try to blog when I can. I hope everyone enjoyed their Valentine's day! I certainly did! My force is so strong today.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Happy HNT - Valentine's thumbcuffs

Happy HNT! Master Anakin had planned to do the HNT tommorow but we have arranged for sitting for our son after he's out of kindergarden so we have no kid's between 8:30 am and 3 pm and we have plans for family time after that. So the HNT which is usually put up on Wednesday is getting put up early today. This is my 4th post today. I put up sugasm, my Gratitude Tuesday post, (letters W, X, Y and Z) a valentine's slide show for Master Anakin for Valentine's day and now this post for our HNT. We will both be offline all day tommorow. We both want to spend the day together being romantic and in love!! I can't wait! I really need a day away from the computer. I have had a pretty emotional day today and I'm really looking forward to some romance and playtime with Master tommorow. We didn't get sitting on Saturday so we havn't had any kid free time in a while. He's taking me out for breakfast to De Dutch and then we plan to go shopping (hopefully for something sexy) and then home for some play. He told me today I will be getting a spanking tommorow for some stress relief so I'm also looking forward to that. :) Today's picture was taken on Friday night. We had exchanged presents for Valentine's day because we didn't know then we would have any alone time tommorow. Check out the blog post about our Friday night. One gift that I got and didn't mention was the thumbcuffs in this picture. This is such a neat gift!! They are a very neat way of being restrained. He got them from JT's Stockroom along with along with my locking heart that locks my collar and he has the key. I also got some strawberries and cream body lotion from save on from him. I gave him the Erotic Bondage Handbook by Jay Wiseman and also chocolates and a very romantic card. I've also promised to make him a really nice dinner tommorow night. He is my true Valentine. I wrote him a special blog post on padme's devotions today also for Valentine's day and made him a slide show in my last post with our special memories from our past. I also sent him a kinky card for Valentine's day from slave to Master. The thumbcuffs are a different alternative to handcuffs and it's very hard to do very much with them on the thumbs. I really enjoyed wearing them on Friday night and hope to play more with them in the future. :) I read that thumbcuffs can also be worn as toecuffs. Another idea for the future perhaps? *winks* :) I dressed up in my red lingerie for him and my black and white thigh hi stockings which I am wearing in the HNT picture. Master did some photoshop to add Valentine's day candy hearts to it. You can click to enlarge the picture. All of the candy hearts say "spank me" in them!! We both thought this was a neat saying in the hearts and a little more like us since we are spankos. What does everyone think? We would love feedback and to hear from everyone. We both appreciate your comments so much!! I read many of them over many times. Master Anakin puts a lot of work into our HNT pictures and we both love to know what people think of them. I would love to hear from the people in the shadows! Do you enjoy the HNT pictures? What would you like to see more of? Please comment!! Happy Valentine's day to my sexy and wonderful husband and Master!! I am so grateful for his love in my life. It makes Valentine's day very special to be in love with such a special man. Happy Valentine's Day to all our readers and friends!! We hope everyone enjoys their day tommorow and we appreciate you being along on our journey...our Journey to the Darkside!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme Technorati Tags: HNT, Valentine's day, romance, candy hearts, thumbcuffs, bondage

Happy Valentine's day Master Anakin!

Gratitude Tuesday - The letters W, X, Y and Z

I have decided to put the last four letters for Gratitude Tuesday together today as I didn't have many on my list. I've really enjoyed doing this very positive series and would like to thank ceeci for starting it. I have enjoyed doing my lists every week and it's given me a lot to be grateful for. I'd like to thank toy from Married man's fucktoy for participating in my padme's interview series and please check out her interview if you havn't had the chance. :) Master is taking the day off work tommorow to spend Valentine's day together. I have been told I will not be allowed online. Tuesday is always the longest day of the week for us and it's really helping me today to know that we are spending the whole day together tommorow for the most romantic day of the year. He's taking me to De Dutch for breakfast once the kid's are in school and then we plan to go shopping. I am hoping for some play time also. I'd love to get a spanking for Valentine's day. :) I went up to weigh myself this morning and got a very pleasant surprise! I have lost two pounds this week!! I'm pretty sure it's all the exercising I have been doing. Even on my off day on Saturday I was doing tons of walking around the Greater Vancouver zoo. I've been trying to watch what I eat more and I've been walking every day. I'm very excited today and proud of myself for my progress. Since New Year's I have lost five pounds!! Not bad. :) Master is limiting my computer time and has really cracked down with his control over my time lately. It's been great to be getting stuff done and having a really clean place. I was spending way too much time online and I think some of my weight loss is from being very active lately and getting off the computer. I hope everyone has a wonderful Valentine's day!! What is everyone's plans for it? Onto Gratitude Tuesday: When I think of the things I am grateful for that begin with the letter "W" I think of: ~wedding - I put up a picture of Anakin and padme's wedding today. It's one of my favorite moments in the Star wars movies. The best day of my life was my wedding to Master Anakin. It was so sunny and beautiful and we had arranged it in six weeks but we did it our way. I refused to let others take over the wedding like they did the first time I got married. I was told by many that our wedding was one of the most romantic they had ever been at. I'm grateful for my wedding day/anniversary which reminds me of that special day we shared and became a married couple and also signed our TPE agreement. ~weight loss - I am grateful for my two pound weight loss this week and all the weight I have lost in the last few years. I've worked very hard to get fit. ~windows/windex - I am grateful for my many windows in my place and I love to use windex to clean them all and keep them shiny and able to see through them ok. ~Wal mart!! - I am grateful for Wal mart!! Master joked that I was going to have the "wal mart baby" when I was pregnant with our son due to how much time I was spending there. We live down the street from Wal mart and I'm in there a few times a week. I love their prices. The moment I got released from the hospital after giving birth to our son I went directly to Wal mart to get stuff for him. When I got married I also got so much stuff from there for it. ~whips - I am grateful for our whips that Master has used on me. Our rubber whip and bull whip has been used on me more than once. :) ~weekend - I am grateful for the weekend. I love to have the weekends with Master. ~washer - I am grateful to have a washer/dryer upstairs that I use almost every day having a family of four. I like doing laundry and one of my favorite smells is clean laundry fresh from the dryer. ~wetness - I am grateful for my wetness that Master gets me. He can make me wet like no one else. :) ~water - I am grateful for one of my favorite drinks, water. ~White Rock - I am grateful for White Rock as we love to go down to the beach and pier there in the spring and summer. I would love to live down in White Rock. ~west coast - I am grateful to live on the west coast. I wouldn't live anywhere else. ~Waterproof iVibe Rabbit Vibrator - I am grateful for my new vibrator which has given me a lot of pleasure and orgasms. ~woman - I am grateful for being a woman. ~writing - I am grateful for being able to write my blog posts or stories or letters. ...... When I think of the things I am grateful for that begin with the letter "X" I think of: ~X-Rays - I am grateful for the different x-rays I have had in my life. I had a kidney stone once and the x-ray was able to show my Doctor why I had such bad pain on my one side. ~X-Rated - I am grateful for x-rated pornos or magazines. I love porn. :) ..... When I think of the things I am grateful for that begin with the letter "Y" I think of: ~Yanni - I have seen Yanni three times in concert and I LOVE his music. My mother has a major crush on him. lol. I think he's kind of hot also. *smiles* His song Nightingale is one of my favorites from him and was playing at my wedding. Also when we were on the road trip and going down the Oregon Coast his music was playing on our cd player. He's amazing! ~youth - I am grateful for my youth. I still consider myself young at age 34. ~yard - I am grateful for my front yard which I plant flowers and spend time in. ~years - I am grateful for all the years I have spent with Master Anakin and our children. ...... When I think of the things I am grateful for that begin with the letter "Z" I think of: ~zoo - I am grateful for the zoo which we went to on the weekend. ~zebras - I love zebras and saw a few at the zoo. ~zen - I am grateful for zen in my life. ~zodiac - I am grateful for the zodiac. .... I have enjoyed this series a lot. If you would like to see any of my past letters of what I am grateful for just check out the drop down menu under Gratitude Tuesday. They are all there. Today I am SO grateful for my true Valentine....Master Anakin!!! He is such a special and amazing man. He gives me so much and I'm so grateful for his love and support in my life. I was having a difficult day yesterday and he ran me a bath and then let me watch the Sopranos upstairs in our room and put me to bed early. He knew I just needed alone time. He knows me better than anyone and has been there through all my adult life. I was 17 years old when we first became best friend's. I can't imagine my life without him. He's my soulmate and true best friend. He's a dedicated Master and he knows my dark heart and what I need and crave. 4 years ago tommorow we moved into our dream home. I can still remember the smell of the new place and how exciting it was to be in our country home. I can't imagine living anywhere else but here and I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. We hadn't even gone inside and I mentioned to Master Anakin that I wanted to live here. I look forward to many more years together living in our beautiful home. I am in a very romantic mood today and so in love with my incredible Master and husband!! Happy Valentine's day Master Anakin and also to all our reader's and friend's!!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Sugasm #66

The best of this weeks blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #67? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the linklist within a week and you’re all set. This Week’s Picks Black Tie Optional; Cleavage Required. (http://middleurge.blogspot.com)“It had been so long since she’d worn something like this, I had to keep checking in and making sure she was really comfortable with appearing in public looking this… well, sexy.” Don’t Be A Blog Playa (http://marketingwhore.naughtyblog.net)“Blogging is often treated like dating, where folks fall in love with setting it up, posting some ramblings, and when no one gushes and fawns all over them, they move onto the next one.” Eclectic Slut part one (http://junohenry.wordpress.com)“As we lay, limbs entwined and tangled, realising that we couldn’t stop touching each other even for a second, the conversation returned to one we’d started earlier… about control and submission.” Mr. Sugasm Himself 5 Ways to Keep Your Blog Off Digg (http://sugarbank.com) Editor’s Choice The Shirt… (http://ellesnovellas.blogspot.com) More SugasmJoin the Sugasm (Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.) Thoughts on Sex and Relationships Green with envy (http://hard-and-fast.blogspot.com) Judgment Call (http://lafillemariee.blogspot.com) Originality, Fellatio and the Chicago Bears (http://lostinperversion.com) Random Things (http://aslipofagirl.blogspot.com) Smut, politics, and community and a little story called “Auschwitz Blowjob” (http://lustylady.blogspot.com)Tit-Elation (http://shayssexcolumn.blogspot.com) Valentine’s Day Is on the Way (http://www.taratainton.com) When In Doubt, Refer To #2 (http://perverselypoly.blogspot.com) NSFW Pics (& videos) Bad Girl HNT (http://stilettodiaries.blogspot.com) Charly & Klara (video) (http://myhotbox.blogspot.com) Cockslut Column #2 (http://themilfblog.blogspot.com) Finally Did a Naked Photoshoot (http://totalsensuality.blogspot.com) Half-Nekkid Cleavage (http://www.tarasnaughtyshop.com) Nora Marlo New Nude Photos (http://eroticandy.blogspot.com) Sex News, Reviews and Interviews Masturbation Interview (http://sabrinainstockings.com) Review: Best American Erotica (http://www.radicalvixen.com/blog) Waterproof iVibe Rabbit Vibrator Review (http://darkside-journey.blogspot.com) Sex Work Outcall (http://thismuse.blogspot.com) BDSM and Fetish Breast stroke, cane strokes (http://pandorablake.blogspot.com) Douleur érotique (http://dopaminedreams.blogspot.com) Esmerelda (http://blog.myspace.com/tit_elation) The Foundry (http://blog.atlantabondage.com) So Good I’m Boring! (http://emiliegirl.livejournal.com) What you can do to please me (http://principalquattrano.com/blog) Sex (and Sex Blog) Advice Cracked Jaw (http://inkserotica.daria.be) Reader: What’s your take on love? (http://smutandsteff.com) The Sheep from the Goats (http://alwaysarousedgirl.blogspot.com) Sex & Politics Jon Stewart on Ted Haggard (http://dausa.blogspot.com) When is it Rape? (http://deliciously-naughty.typepad.com/my_weblog) Erotic Writing and Experiences Awoken by the beast (http://dirtylittlecockslut.blogspot.com) Breaking the Ice (http://loladavid.wordpress.com) First AFF Adventure, Pt. 2 (http://unfetteredcravings.blogspot.com) Mind Play - An Erotic Poem (http://eroticjournals.blogspot.com) What Man Turns Down Two Women? (http://fourstate.blogspot.com) Yeah, it’s a little stiff. (http://gentlygently.blogspot.com)

The force is strong

The force feels strong tonight. I am more relaxed right now than I have been in a very long time. I'm feeling very happy and content. I've had a wonderful and memorable weekend so far and I wanted to post tonight and share some of it. I didn't plan to do a blog post but I thought it would feel nice to share some details of the weekend and to write while things are fresh in my mind. I put up three pictures also in padme's devotions from today at the Greater Vancouver Zoo that we went to as a family outing. We took our son, skywalker for his first time to the zoo today. He's turning 6 next month and he was so excited to go to the zoo. He got to see so many different animals and was amazed by it all. I loved seeing his reactions to the Giraffe's and the Tiger/Lion feeding we got to see. We took tons and tons of pictures. Master is such a good Dad and I really enjoy watching him push his son on the swings and talking to him about the different animals. Last night was so wonderful and I felt my force so strong today. Please remember to vote in our new survey. We are curious to know your favorite public flash photo. You can check out the different flash pictures to vote from for the survey on our HNT post. I slept so solid through the night snuggling close to Master after our play time together. I received part two to my punishment. If you read my last blog, A spanking to remember it had all the details of part one of my punishment including a spanking picture taken during it. Yesterday night I got part 2 which was 100 more with the crop on a bruised and sore ass. After the punishment was done Master decided he wanted to play and also to exchange some of our Valentine's day presents to one another. I got some interesting gifts from him. One of them will be shown on our HNT this week so stay tuned for that! Another was a locking heart that he got from JT's stockroom for me. It locks my collar so I can't get it off without the key. Of course, he holds the key. It is shaped like a heart. One of my valentine's presents to him was the a book that I got from Chapters. I'm hoping to give him some bondage ideas from it. It's called the Erotic Bondage Handbook by Jay Wiseman. He took a picture of it with the feather we got from the Taboo Naughty but Nice sex show. It looks like a great book. I might have to give it a read also. He also gave me some strawberries and cream body lotion and chocolates. I'm a spoiled slave. :) I dressed in my red silky lingerie that I got last year from him. I havn't worn it in a while and he was happy to see me all dressed up for him and also with a freshly shaved pussy. He had me doing chores most of the day and shaving my pussy to get ready for last night. I wore my black and white thigh hi stockings also with the outfit. We took many erotic pictures last night. One of the pictures I put up tonight is of me with my erect nipples and my purple feather. My ass was so sore after he finished the 100 crops on my ass. He was brutal with the crop. Over and over again it came down hard and showed no mercy. I felt it all night and he made sure to give me a slap on the ass every once in a while just to show me he was in Darth mode and wanting to play. I would wince in pain and he would just smile. I wanted him so badly. I begged him to fuck me. I wanted his cock so much. He told me I would give him the best blow job ever and to get down on my knees and worship his cock. I sucked him hard. I used my hands. I licked his balls and I got him so turned on. He laid down next to the fire and I got him a pillow so he could relax. Just before he came he threw me down and told me he was going to cum on my face. He squirted all over my face and tits. I love his cum. I licked it up after he was done and licked him clean too. I begged him for an orgasm which he told me I could have. He figured I had been sexually stimulated enough being on orgasm denial and having such a need in me. I used my Waterproof Ivibe rabbit vibrator to masturbate myself for him while he watched me. He had the belt jingling in his hands while I masturbated. He demanded I cum for him and I exploded!! It was the type of orgasm to go right through my body up to my head. It was intense. I barely remember going to bed. My legs were shaky and I felt completely out of it when we were done playing in the early hours. We woke up and Master decided we were all going out for a family day with our son. Our son has never been to the zoo before and it was a beautiful day today. The sun was shining so bright and we got in the car and headed out to Aldergrove. What a day!! We rented a big bike that we all could share to cycle around the zoo. We stopped checking out the different animals. Our son had a blast and I really enjoyed seeing his reactions to the animals. One picture is of the Giraffe we saw there. Master and I couldn't stop kissing each other all day. I felt so incredibly close to him. We held hands while our son played in the park there. He fed me french fries as a treat. Saturday is my off day from the diet and he allows me to splurge. I even got chocolate covered almonds!! YUM!! He slapped me on my ass a few times out in public. I love when he does that!! *giggles* I just felt so close to Master...our force so strong today. We stopped by Save on and liquor store. Master picked me up a bottle of a really nice Argentina merlot and we got the fresh ingredients for a bbq as the weather was so beautiful!! Master barbequed salmon and we had the most delicious dinner!! It was so good. I feel so relaxed right now. I am really enjoying the merlot and looking forward to tonight. We have rented the Wicker Man with Nic Cage in it to watch after our son is in bed. He has told me that we will be making love tonight. He wants to have some romance with me. It's the perfect way to spend after a really wonderful day out. I am really enjoying my weekend. :) I've been enjoying some Fleetwood mac music while writing this post. It really amazes me how much their music moves me. What is your favorite song by them? I love the song Sara by them and also Dreams. I remember listening to their music when I was very young. My mom had their record at the time and would listen to their songs over and over again. Their music is always so nice to listen to when you want to relax. I saw them in concert and have one of their t-shirts. I have read their biography. I just love them!! I have been listening to them since coming home tonight. I love the song, Rhiannon by them also... Rhiannon rings like a bell throu the night And wouldnt you love to love her Takes to the sky like a bird in flight And who will be her lover All your life you've never seen a woman Taken by the wind Would you stay if she promised you heaven Will you ever win She is like a cat in the dark And then she is the darkness She rules her life like a fine skylark And when the sky is starless ...... I won't be online tommorow very much. Master and I are planning to take the family out bowling and we are going to spend the day together. Stay tuned for another interview that is ready to be put up! I really enjoyed this interview and think you all will too! What is everyone doing this weekend? Anyone else horny? I sure know I am. I've got a very sexy wonderful Master and I'm going to end this post and go snuggle up with him. Our journey is a beautiful one. There are days I feel so lucky to be alive and today is one of them!! I want to hold onto this feeling of absolute love and submission. I feel more submissive to him than I have in years and I'm so happy and relaxed. It's a wonderful feeling to really let go of the control and to give it all to him.... Enjoy your weekend!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

A spanking to remember

I was told to do a blog post this morning for Master to post about yesterday. As a part of my punishment I am to post why I got punished and describe in detail all about my punishment yesterday and to post a picture from the spanking. TGIF!! I'm so glad it's the end of the week. This has been a extremely stressful week for me. It all lead up to what happened yesterday. I hope everyone enjoyed our HNT picture. Please vote in the new survey if you havn't already on your favorite public flash photo. I look forward to doing more flashes in 2007 for the blog and for Master!! I really enjoyed doing the suspension bridge one. :) Wednesday was a bad day for me. I got together with Master R for coffee at Tim Hortons. I wasn't in the mood to play at all. Master Anakin and I had a fight the night before over our finances. I also didn't have much time as my son gets out of kindergarden in the late morning. I sometimes don't like playing in the morning earlier. I was tired and hadn't slept right the night before. We left Tim's and I told Master R that I didn't want to play. He didn't like that response. He doesn't like me telling him no. He got into a real mood and words were exchanged and he took off on me leaving me at Tim's. I had to walk to the school and then pick up my son. I came home in a real mood after that. I havn't heard from him since. Master Anakin and I started exchanging e-mails back and forth. My mood came across in my e-mails. I had a very bratty attitude the night before about finances and now I wanted to shut him out. I know in my heart this isn't a good way for a slave to behave. I've been hyper sensitive this week due to painful anniversaries that happened and stress. I apologize to Master Anakin that I didn't handle this right. It carried into Wednesday night. Master Anakin had enough!! He arranged to do something without telling me about it. I woke up yesterday morning and started to get the kid's ready for school. I heard a noise downstairs and my heart started racing. I thought at first someone had broken into our place. I could hear dishes rattling around. I came downstairs and saw Master and was confused. I knew he was taking Valentine's Day off to spend it with me but I had no idea he had chosen to take a extra day off. He told me he arranged to spend the day together alone. He arranged with his parent's to get skywalker from school so we could be alone until 3 pm. My heart started beating a mile at minute at this point. I could see Darth in his eyes. He had one of the most intense looks I've seen in a very long time. I knew I was in trouble right then and there. Darth was out and he was not in a mood to be fucked with. I got the kid's out the door for school and made him breakfast. He sat there at the kitchen table watching me and not saying a word to me. Just watching me like a hawk. I felt incredibly nervous!! I started to wonder what he had planned for me. I was going to ask him if he was going to punish me but I already knew the answer to that question deep inside. I was going to get it good. I tried to drag breakfast out longer hoping he wouldn't want to start the punishment. He started to lecture me during the breakfast. His words were stern and sharp with me. Darth Vader was angry and my attitude was going to get a serious attitude adjustment!! I felt very submissive as he told me that we would be heading up to the bedroom for my punishment afterwards. I was told I would be grounded for the day from the phone and the computer. I was only getting part one of the punishment yesterday. Part two would be delivered to me on Friday night. (tonight) He wants me to think about what's coming and to wonder about what he will do to me tonight...so now I'm nervous and it's all I can think about. I woke up thinking about it. He told me I was going on immediate orgasm denial and that my vibrators were being hidden from me so I couldn't even think to use them. He told me I was going to suffer for him and he planned on making it a spanking to remember. Just him saying those words made my head spin. He was in the canadian army years ago and he knows exactly how to get a certain tone with me that I am literally jumping around trying to do as I am told. His voice gets so loud and sharp. He's got a very dominant personality and he knows how to get people to listen to him, especially me. He was pissed and I knew it!! He had little patience for my attitude the last few days and was going to get me focused. He told me he needed to take the day off to make sure I got it good. I went upstairs and got the pillow out to the end of the bed. He went and got the toys to use on my ass. He grabbed the bamboo cane which immediately got the fear into my head. I hate that cane!! He got the crop and our whip. He got the cuffs out and then I heard the familiar sound of him taking off his black belt. I know that belt very well. He was going to punish me hard! I knew we had hours and I had no way of escaping what he planned to give me. The jingle of that belt got me deeply aroused and also scared!! He knows how to swing it hard and make a point with it. I was put in the cuffs and put over the pillow. I had no panties on but my pretty in pink outfit. He gave me a part of the comforter to bite down on during the punishment. He turned the music up on our cd player. Then he came over and got to work on my ass!! First the belt to make a statement. It was very intense and he didn't say anything to me during the first part of it. I always know he's really mad when he gets quiet. I had a hard time trying to keep still. The first stroke of the belt was so hard that I knew there was no warm up. I closed my eyes and tried to focus during the pain. He switched over to the whip (rubber whip) and then the crop. Each stroke going faster and harder. He stopped at one point to lecture me a bit. I tried to catch my breath. "You've had this coming, bitch. You better just take it for me and accept. By the time I'm done your going to be crying and sorry. I'm not stopping this til your really sorry" he said in the Darth tone. I tried to take the strokes that were coming faster and faster. The crop was so powerful and he kept hitting my thighs with it. I found myself screaming out at the one point when I realized it was the cane he had switched to and hit one so hard on my sit spot. "You won't be sitting for the next few days, My slave" he said in his sadistic tone. I knew he was enjoying this. He was angry and enjoying taking it out on my ass. I'm not sure how many I got. I lost count. I got lost into my subspace with my pussy getting very aroused. I lost track of time at this point. He took pictures and I'm putting one up today for you all to see! Notice how red he made it. I was one punished sorry little brat!! When he was done I was sent to the "bad girl" corner as he calls it. It's the corner of our bathroom. I was told to thank him for the punishment which I did in a very submissive tone. I felt so sorry at that moment for my attitude and actions. He likes to take many pictures during my punishments. He will take them during parts of it. This is usually so I have reminders of what can happen should I get out of line or do something very naughty. I look back on old photos sometimes and remember exactly what he used to punish me or different memories. I won't forget yesterday's spanking and punishment. I stood in the corner for about twenty minutes. My legs were getting sore. I was to have my nose in the corner and my ass feeling like it was on fire. He left the room for a bit and I heard him come in a bit later. He told me that I was going to be doing lines and also a essay for him. I also was going to sexually suffer for him. I was not allowed to cum. I would cry by the time he was done and then really feel sorry for my actions. He was mad at me for screwing up our finances but also a lot of out of line behavior for me. I felt a great relief to get punished yesterday. I wrote out lines on the piece of paper and also a 7 page eassy for him. I wrote about my role as a slave and about the important of finances and budgets. He is trying to train me about being better with money. I could tell you many of the stories of my past with going crazy with money!! There was a spanking I got after going to Las Vegas with my sister and wracking up the credit card to the max with my spending!! I spent a hour writing out the essay. He left me alone in our room to write. I did the lines for him. I sat on that VERY sore ass while doing it. I tried to put a lot into the essay. He came up and told me I was going to be tied up tight for the next part. I was put in leg cuffs and handcuffs and my legs were spread. He had me naked for this part. Clothespins on my nipples. He went down on me. Fuck it felt sooooooooooo fucking good!! He can give me oral like no other man!! He flicked around my clit with his tongue. I bucked my hips around and squirmed in pleasure. Then he just stopped. He laughed at me and told me that I was not allowed to cum. I would be a slut in heat for him!! No relief for a bad girl. I tried to beg but he doesn't like that and told me "silence, BITCH!!" Then he went and got the Hitachi out. I couldn't get out of the cuffs and he had my legs spread open for him. I felt vulnerable and helpless. He got me to the edge!! I was so close to cumming and I tried to beg but again he denied me. He stopped and slapped me hard across the face! It came as a huge surprise to me. I then started to cry. It's strange to me that a spanking no matter how hard will not make me cry but one slap to the face was enough to get me to bawl. The tears started to come. "Begging won't work with me. You won't be cumming. I'm sure your clit is so ready to cum but you are not allowed!! I am not sure when you will cum again. You are to SUFFER today for ME!!!" he told me in a stern and dominant tone. I had wanted all week to release and cry. It had been bottling up in me all week. It felt good to let go and release the tears. He let me out of the cuffs and leg cuffs after and he snuggled with me on the bed. He kissed me and reassured me. He let me cry on his shoulder...he felt so strong to me. He wiped my tears away. I felt so utterly submissive at that moment. I felt a very deep connection with him. I felt a force with him...so true and so amazing! Yesterday wasn't about sex or orgasms. He didn't fuck me or ask for a blow job. It was all about punishment and cleansing of my soul. He let me hug my teddy bear and told me I was going to get some alone time for a while to think and that he would be back to get me in a bit. I wound up falling asleep. The subspace had my head spinning and the crying wore me down and I fell into a deep sleep. He woke me up and I went down to make his dinner. The kid's were home and he told me we were all having a family night. I was so stunned by the news on CNN!! Anna Nicole Smith has passed away!! I sat there for a hour in shock!! I felt so sad for her little baby girl and I found myself reacting very emotionally to her death. It's just so tragic. We watched Ghostbusters 2 with our kid's. He made sure to give me a look every once in a while to show his dominance to me. We snuggled together on the couch. My ass very sore and bruised, especially on one side of it. He put me to bed early and told me part 2 would be happening tonight. (Friday night) I have strict rules put on me for today. I have limited computer time and chores to get done or I am in big trouble. I was to blog about yesterday for him and also do a post in padme's devotions for him. I will write that as soon as this is posted. I hope others understand why I won't be online very much today. I'm nervous about tonight...I have no idea what he has planned for me. I have no idea if he will let me cum tonight or just make me suffer more sexually. I have no idea how long I am on orgasm denial. I also don't know how much more I will get on my ass but I'm quessing he's got more in mind for what to do to it. I feel SO submissive today!! I want to please Master and he's my force right now. I am hoping he'll allow me to suck his cock tonight or fuck my ass. We go closer to the darkside and it makes me crave more! I admit that I am very aroused over wondering about the things he will do to me tonight...the pain and the pleasure...I'm sure Darth hasn't left yet and he's got a little more spanking to give to my poor bottom. Anyone got some ice or a pillow?? I am pretty sure I'm going to need one tommorow! I've got a interview ready to go up so stay tuned for that! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Happy HNT - Suspension Bridge Flash

Happy HNT everyone! This week for my Gratitude Tuesday post I put two letter's up. This week I'm going to put two pictures up for HNT taken on the same date with Master Anakin. I hope it will tell the story of our date and everything we did. I really enjoyed doing this HNT this week. It was fun and naughty and I love to do public flashes. We started a padme's public flashes section in our blog because I wanted to give me some incentive for doing flashes in different places. I've tried to be creative in where I flash my tits. Master Anakin takes our camera with us where ever we go now in case of a photo opportunity. Master Anakin put up a tree branch over my face with photoshop as we have to be private. He added a wooden frame for the picture. What does everyone think of it? What has been your favorite public flash photo we have done so far? We have added a new survey that is on the right sidebar. Please vote!! We are curious to hear feedback from everyone. Please let us know in a comment or e-mail. If you havn't seen them all, now is a great chance to check them all out!! Have you flashed your tits in public and have any stories to share for it? Please let us know! Might give me ideas for future flash pictures. :) What was your favorite public flash photo we have done here at Journey to the Darkside. Was it: ~Flash on the Bridge ~Flash in the Field ~Stadium Flash ~Public Market Flash ~Forest flash ~Gondola Flash ~Elevator Flash ~Stanley Park flash ~Oregon dunes flash ~Movie Theatre flash ~Suspension Bridge Flash (today's HNT picture) Please check them out and vote! I can't wait to hear everyone's responses. My favorite is today's HNT one of the suspension bridge flash. It was very public that I flashed my tits but also naughty and a really fun date that I will always remember. I will remember our date on Saturday for a very long time. It was romantic and fun and we really enjoyed our date. Our last survey was about your favorite parts of Journey to the Darkside. We got 57 votes! Thank you to everyone who voted and helped to give feedback about what you enjoy on our blog. 15% of you said you enjoyed our spanking pictures. 9% of you enjoy our spanking posts and 8% of you said you enjoy everything on our blog. Thank you for voting!! It was very interesting to hear everyone's responses. Today we are putting up two pictures including a spanking picture as most of you seem to enjoy them the most. My good friend's, Griz and good girl are also putting up a spanking picture for their HNT today called spanked raw edition!! It's a lovely picture and now one of my favorites from them. It's a really hot picture of good girl's red behind. Nothing like a great spanking picture to get the juices flowing. Check it out! :) I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed today for a few reason's. I went out with Master R for coffee to Tim Hortons this morning. I think he was expecting to play but I wasn't in the mood and asked to play at another time. It's hard to try to squeeze the time into play when there is little time in the morning before my son is out of kindergarden. I think he's disappointed that we didn't play. Master Anakin is also upset with me and I admit I am feeling a lot of guilt over it. I forgot to mention a cheque going through our bank account to him. He wasn't able to budget correctly due to this forgotten cheque. Now our budget is all screwed up. Master Anakin is trying to come up with a creative way to punish me for this and asks for feedback from people on how to handle this. I've screwed up our finances now and I'm in the doghouse. I'm supposed to keep him updated and I forgot to mention a very big cheque. Yikes!! I also had some major attitude last night with him. I said a few things I shouldn't have said and was a real brat! What do you think is the appropriate punishment for this? E-mail him at anakins.blog@gmail.com or leave us a comment on how you would handle this. Should I get spanked or corner time or groundings or?? Master Anakin is wanting to hear how you would handle this. The punishment will be happening on Friday night which is our time to usually play. He is hoping people might give him some creative ideas for punishment for this. Details from Saturday night: I wanted to write out a few details from Saturday night and our date when these photos were taken and explain a bit about the HNT photo today. We decided to not watch the UFC fight on Saturday but instead go out on a date. We had an overnight with no kid's and we wanted to do something different for our date. We took a hot shower together and got ready to go out. I didn't know until we were on the way where he was taking me. He chose North Vancouver for our date on Saturday. We drove to the Quay there. I love going to the Quay. It's a public market and has many shops and fresh veggies and fruits and foods. He took me out to lunch somewhere I had never been before, The Tantra Bar and Grill. We sat at a table with a view of Downtown Vancouver across the water. There was some fog which made it beautiful and really mystic. We had a wonderful talk and enjoyed our lunch which was fabulous! We shopped after getting some fresh veggies and fruits for the week and also a homemade pumpkin pie to take home with us for dessert. He told me we were going hiking to a beautiful place that I had never been to before. He had been there and always wanted to take me there. It's near the Quay in North Vancouver up on the mountain. It's called Lynn Canyon Park. If you see the website of Lynn Canyon you will see the suspension bridge that I flashed my tits on. It's pretty public. There were a few people around and if you look close in the HNT picture you will see someone in the background. I was nervous taking that photo not just because of the public tit flash but the suspension bridge. I am afraid of heights and there is a huge canyon below that suspension bridge. The bridge was very jiggly. Words can't describe how nervous I was about that bridge. He ordered me to lift my shirt and flash my tits at him for the picture and I did as I was told. We took the photo and I blushed as a few people went by us after. I'm sure they knew what we were doing. We went for a pretty big hike around the canyon. The creek is a bit scary also. Many people have died from drownings in that canyon and the water is very fast and intense. The forest was foggy. We took a few vanilla pictures which I posted on padme's devotions on my blog post a few days ago on my "date with Master" post. We found a waterfall there which was so beautiful!! We made out for a while as we were all alone there. No people around. We considered the possibility of fooling around in the woods but it was starting to get dark. So we headed back. It was a heck of a hike going up the mountain back to the car. I love to hike and love how it gets the blood going. It was a real work out! The hiking reminded me of the movie, Killing me Softly when she is hiking on their wedding night. I love that scene in that movie. She hikes up to their cabin in the woods and there is a breath control scene. Yummy! Master would slap my ass as I was in front of him while hiking. I would try to stop to take a breath and he would say "Move your ass, slave." The air was so fresh and it was so beautiful and scenic. I was getting a bit nervous as the sun went down and it got dark but we finally made it back to the car. We drove home and got ready for some play. I was told to dress up for him. He told me what to wear for him. My naughty schoolgirl skirt, black and white tights, spank me panties and no shirt. I got ready for him and he came upstairs so we could play in our bedroom. We played for a few hours. I was caned and he took the spanking picture during a part of it. Click to enlarge photos. You can see the welts on my ass from the cane. Just like a naughty school girl I was told to pull down my spank me panties and submit to his cane. My ass hurt so much on Saturday night. I felt so connected. Darth came out to play and I loved the intense dark mood of the night. We seem to go farther towards the darkside sometimes and on Saturday I felt like a well owned slave after we were done playing. We did lots of different play on Saturday and I got fucked hard after I got down on my knees giving his hard cock some attention with my mouth. I used my Waterproof iVibe Rabbit vibrator also after I got fucked and I came huge!! It was so bonding and a very intense night for us. I barely remember going to bed after we played. I was in floating in subspace and feeling so happy and owned. :) We spent Sunday doing more cleaning and I still felt the effects of our play on Saturday. My ass was sore to sit on and I was controlled fully while I cleaned for him and cooked for him. It was a wonderful weekend! :) I hope everyone enjoyed our HNT picture this week. It was a fun one. I'm an exhibitionist who loves to do public play. With the warmer weather we hope to do more public flashes in different places. :) We would love feedback!! Please comment and remember to vote on the new survey also! Any ideas for punishment would be appreciated too. :) Happy Hump day! May the force be with you all!! ~padme Technorati Tags: HNT, public flash, spanking picture, tits, spanking, exhibitionist

Gratitude Tuesday - The letters U and V

Tuesday is here and today I'm going to combine two letter's for my Gratitude Tuesday post. I wasn't able to come up with many U or V's compared to my S list. :) I'd like to thank Tom Paine again for participating in my interview with him. Please check it out if you havn't had the chance. I also want to thank bonnie for putting up our blog post and picture of our Anakin's paddle in her implement stories. Check it out! :) Tommorow is HNT and we have a fun picture from our date on Saturday. I will blog about all the juicy details from that day also in the post so stay tuned for that! Onto Gratitude Tuesday... When I think of the things I am grateful for that begin with the letter "U" I think of: ~UFC - (Ultimate Fighting championship) I am grateful for the UFC. Master Anakin and I are huge fans of the UFC. ~university - I am grateful for University as Master went to it and has some of his education through it. ~Usher - I am grateful for Usher. He's one of my favorite singers and I love his music. ~Uncle - I am grateful for my Uncle's in my life. My one favorite Uncle is getting married today in Hawaii and I'm thinking of him. ~unicorns - I am grateful for unicorns which are so mystical. ~unconditional love - I am grateful for Master's unconditional love for me. ~umbrella - I am grateful for my umbrella which I need a lot of living here in Vancouver, BC. It rains a lot here. ~understanding - I am grateful for Master's understanding of my needs and who I am. ......... When I think of the things I am grateful for that begin with the letter "V" I think of: ~veggies - I am grateful for the veggies (vegetables) that I eat and love. ~vanilla - I am grateful for my vanilla spice which I use in different recipes. I love the smell of vanilla ~vampires - I am grateful for vampire movies, books, role-playing etc. I put up a picture of Underworld (which is a U word) which is one of my favorite movies. ~Vancouver - I am grateful for Vancouver where I have lived all my life. I can't imagine living anywhere but around Vancouver, BC. ~vitamins - I am grateful for my vitamins which I take every day to make me healthy and strong. ~vehicle - I am grateful for our vehicle which gets us where we need to go. ~vacation - I am grateful for vacation time when we get to get away from it all for a night or a few days. ~vagina - I am grateful for my vagina. ~voice - I am grateful to have a voice that I use to speak. ~Victoria - I am grateful to have gone to Victoria a few times in my life which is so beautiful and scenic. ~vote - I am grateful to be able to vote. ~vodka - I am grateful for vodka (especially the Russian kind :) ) ~Vegas - I am grateful to have gone to Vegas (las vegas) five times. I love it there! I have many stories to share of my trips there. Master also proposed to me there. ~vibrator - I am grateful for my vibrators which I love and use. (especially my new waterproof iVibe rabbit vibrator) ~vinegar - I am grateful for vinegar for putting on my fish and chips and also fries sometimes. ~video games - I am grateful for our video games which I love to play. especially with our new Wii system. :) ~violin - I am grateful for violin music. It's so calming and relaxing sometimes. I hope everyone is having a good Tuesday. May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Sugasm #65

The best of this weeks blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #66? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the linklist within a week and you’re all set. This Week’s Picks Motel Meeting (http://lafillemariee.blogspot.com) “As always though, coming together for us meant first holding, then kissing, groping, stroking, and suddenly, there we were, as always, naked, lying together, limbs intertwined on DG’s bed under the cozy, thick white duvet.” My breasts are not safe for work - welcome to the pink ghetto (http://lustylady.blogspot.com) “I love to find out things about people’s sex lives and thinking about sex that make me see them, and the topic at hand, in a new light, and often I learn about myself that way.” Richard Evans Lee (http://www.sex-kitten.net) “An increase in sexual empathy. Being able to put yourself in the other person’s heart would curb everything from infidelity to homophobia.” Mr. Sugasm Himself Sexual Chocolate (http://sugarbank.com) Editor’s Choice Midnight Conversations at the Tick Tock Diner (http://perverselypoly.blogspot.com) More Sugasm Join the Sugasm (Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.) Erotic Writing and Experiences Decay (http://blog.myspace.com/tit_elation) Fuck Me First (http://loladavid.wordpress.com) Hands (http://onlyamirage.blogspot.com) Heels, Stockings, Girdle, Bra, Face (http://aslipofagirl.blogspot.com) Horny… Period! (http://dirtydetails.blogspot.com) How Hip Swingster Got His Groove Back (http://fourstate.blogspot.com) Reluctant Mary - Part Two (http://eroticjournals.blogspot.com) Sex Party Redux (http://plum001.blogspot.com) Trade (http://turnthelampsdownlow.wordpress.com) Sex Advice, News, Reviews and Interviews 33 Days, 33 Posts: Prologue, or, This Is Gonna Hurt (http://dausa.blogspot.com) Apple, sex toys and the genesis of the iPhone Vibrator (http://sextoysinsider.com) Reader: But Will She Love My Penis? (http://smutandsteff.com) Taco Tuesday: Toy Review 1 (http://themilfblog.blogspot.com) BDSM and Fetish Anxious Fuck (http://dirtylittlecockslut.blogspot.com) Caution! The Story You Are About To Enjoy Is Extremely Hot - Part Two (http://stilettodiaries.blogspot.com) Introducing Prisoner #4228 (http://pandorablake.blogspot.com) The Itch, Part The Last (http://udoj.wordpress.com) Little Miss Sunshine (http://sweatshopsissy.wordpress.com) Meeboguest confesses: “I have been a bad boy again…” (http://anawtymouz.blogspot.com) Quiet The Hum Part Five (http://kissingcorporalkate.wordpress.com) Spanking on Honeymoon (http://www.spankingwriters.com/blog) Thoughts on Sex and Relationships Being Bisexual (http://eroticawriter.blogspot.com) Cop a Feel, Show Me the Love (http://middleurge.blogspot.com) Eyes Wide Open for Sexual Possibility (http://www.taratainton.com) The Feminist Who Wanted to Be Fucked Like a Whore (http://brooklynrake.blogspot.com) How About Now? (http://thismuse.blogspot.com) Polyamory: The Great Sexual Alternative Lifestyle (http://www.model-chat.com) Sex Work A Lackluster Coming Out (http://www.radicalvixen.com/blog) Sexy Humor Meow (http://hard-and-fast.blogspot.com) Seduction Outtake #17 (http://sabrinainstockings.com) Who would YOU want to make submit? (http://principalquattrano.com) NSFW Pics (& videos) Angela Taylor Naked (http://eroticandy.blogspot.com) Beautiful french maid upskirt (http://upskirtr.blogspot.com) For Odysseus Love, Penelope (http://marriedexploits.blogspot.com) Happy HNT - Dungeon Bondage Chair (http://darkside-journey.blogspot.com) January’s Cartoon Babe of the Month! (http://secretbrain.blogspot.com) Slaving Away (http://kitchen-girls.blogspot.com) Stella & Sandra (movie) (http://myhotbox.blogspot.com)

Waterproof iVibe Rabbit Vibrator Review

This is my second toy review that I am doing on Journey to the Darkside. I'm very excited about this new toy and can't wait to share all the details with testing it out last night with everyone! Last week I was contacted by the Rabbit Lady about testing out one of her Rabbit vibrators. I'd like to thank my good friend, Tiggr for recommending me to her. I went to her website to chose which one to pick for my review. There were so many different ones. It was hard to pick. I finally settled on the Waterproof iVibe Rabbit Vibrator. I don't have any toys which are waterproof and I'd like to test out a toy in the bath or shower. I sent her my information and waited for UPS which came on Thursday. I was SO excited when the package arrived with the iVibe rabbit vibrator in it. I could barely contain myself! I phoned Master Anakin at work and asked him to pick me up the batteries (it requires 4 AA batteries into the handle) and begged him to try it out that night. We couldn't though due to being so tired so it got postponed until last night. Master Anakin surprised me with red roses on his way home from work. I posted a picture of it last night on my post for everyone! We had a relaxing evening. He told me to go enjoy a nice hot bath and shave my pussy smooth. I went upstairs and took out the rabbit vibrator and tested it in the bath as I was running the water. It is indeed waterproof! I can imagine taking this toy in a shower or bath now for a little fun! I checked out the rabbit vibrator while the bath was running. It looks pretty neat and I noticed right away that it's a pretty heavy toy and weighs a lot. Pearl beads swirl around the vibrating shaft. There is a vibrating pulsating clitoral tickler and a waterproof unit advanced I.C. Chip technology which allows you to control the vibrator. The product is made by Doc Johnson. It says on the box: You control the pleasure You control the function Function one: (F1) Clit stimulator vibrates while head rotates and pleasure pearls swirl. Function two: (F2) Clit stimulator creates slow, relaxed vibration while head pivots right to left, front to back Function three: (F3) Clit stimulator pulses in short, quick motion as the head swings to and fro..right along with your own The left on button starts the clit tickler and increases or decreases the power. The right on button brings on the vibrating shaft into action and increases or decreases the power. I couldn't wait to try it out! We put our son to bed and I got dressed into my black lingerie with no panties and brought the new toy and others downstairs. I cleaned the rabbit to get it ready for playing with. I really enjoy playing next to our fireplace. It's so relaxing and I can get into the mood easily. We put in a porno and we lit some candles around the room. Master poured me a glass of Jackson Triggs merlot and I sipped on it and he started to warm me up for the rabbit. He slipped his hand between my legs and mentioned to me how pleased he was that my pussy was already wet and shaved so nice for him. I went over to lay on our blanket. Master Anakin got me a pillow to lay my head on so I could fully relax and enjoy the rabbit vibrator. I really enjoyed the fact there was no cord like the Hitachi as sometimes I want to move around a lot and with the Hitachi it's distracting when I can't go any farther because of the cord. I do not have a g spot attachment yet for the Hitachi so my orgasms from it are all clitorial. The rabbit felt so good inside my pussy rotating around. I started to masturbate with it. I switched different speeds to see what felt good. The dual sensation was so stimulating. I thought I had died and gone to heaven!! I could feel the pleasure in my pussy and the vibration around my clit...ohhhhhh...soooo heavenly. I was so deeply aroused!! I turned it from medium to a bit higher to get me more excited! I was moaning loudly and could hear the woman in the porno also moaning and screaming in the background as I was which furthur got me aroused. I would shove it deeper into my pussy and I felt it hit my G Spot and then rotate around my pussy wall. My clit was swelling and the vibrations were making it so stimulated and ready to cum!! Master Anakin took pictures of me while I masturbated with it. In one picture you can see the pleasure written all over my face. He timed how long it took me to achieve orgasm from it. Just over three minutes!! I *begged* him so cum!! "PLEASE Master!! Oh god PLEASE let me cum!!!" I screamed out to him. He said "CUM" and I had a G spot orgasm from it. I felt like I had peed but it was my vaginal fluids all over the blanket. Master Anakin remarked he hadn't seen so much wetness all over in a long time from me!! I loved the dual sensation from it!! Inside my pussy with the vibrations and rotating and then the clit being stimulated made for a heavenly combination and a explosive orgasm!! I had seen many of the rabbit vibrators at the Taboo Naughty but nice sex show and admit I was really curious about them. I had heard many good things about them. You never really know until you give it a try yourself though! This toy has easily become one of my favorites!! I can't wait to try it out more! The Rabbit Lady has some wonderful choices which are affordable and really neat to try from her website which I have linked to. I've had many vibrators through my adult life but most of them were cheap and I didn't have very big orgasms from them. I have never acheived a G Spot orgasm from any of them! This was the first vibrator to give me one and it was a truly incredible experience! After I came, Master Anakin fucked my very wet and slick pussy very hard. He came soon after. He gave me a OTK to redden my ass and then we were both tired out and went upstairs and talked about this new toy a bit. He was very pleased by my reaction to it. He teased me that I'm going to have a hard time trying to pick between my Hitachi now and the iVibe Rabbit vibrator when I am going to masturbate! It was easy to clean up the toy and I put it away to hopefully use again tonight for our overnight! It's fight night (UFC 67) and an overnight tonight!! I can't wait to play again! This would make a great gift for Valentine's day or a birthday for your girlfriend/wife/slave. I highly recommend the rabbit vibrator if you don't have one already! I know I will be getting lots more use out of mine and I can't wait to bring it into a nice hot shower for a little masturbation time. :) I'm giving this toy a 9 out of 10. The only drawback I could see for this toy is that it's heavy and big and you can't put it into your purse to take it out with you. It's also a bit on the loud side similar to the Hitachi. I really enjoyed testing out this toy and I recommend it to everyone! Please check out the Rabbit Lady today!! You won't be disappointed!! Master Anakin asked me to e-mail him a list of different things I want to try for our overnight play night tonight. I mentioned a few things we havn't done in a while that I would like to do again. I've been told I won't be sitting down very comfortably tommorow and he plans to use a few toys that he hasn't in a while. I can't wait! :) I hope everyone enjoyed my review on the waterproof iVibe Rabbit vibrator. I tried to put a lot of thought into it and describe what my experience was with testing it out last night. I think it's a really great toy and one of the best vibrators I have ever had! I hope you will all consider buying one if you don't already! If anyone else has a product or service they want reviewed, please contact us by e-mail and let us know. I hope to do many more reviews in the future! I love new toys! :) I spent a lot of time on this post and I'd like to thank Master Anakin for helping me with the pictures to put up with it. Please give me some feedback! I was very nervous putting up a pussy photo on here. I'd love to hear from everyone! Hope your all enjoying your weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme

Spanking time tonight!

TGIF!! I'm so glad it's the end of the week. What a long week. I'm excited about tonight for a few reasons. I got a brand new toy to try tonight and I will be doing a toy review this weekend on it. You'll have to come back to find out what the new toy is I will be reviewing!! UPS dropped it off yesterday and I am so excited to try it out tonight. We will be taking pictures of it also for the review. I've been told to make sure my pussy is shaved smooth for it. :) I love new toys! I have been wanting to try this toy and I am beyond excited and aroused about tonight and trying it out. This will be my second review and I hope everyone will enjoy it. My first was the Hitachi review which is one of my favorite toys! I'm curious to know how this toy will be compared to the Hitachi. I've also got another interview ready to go up also. So stay tuned! We are taking many photos this weekend so we hope to take one for our HNT also next week. Tonight is also play night for us. I was told that there is a spanking coming to me tonight. I need one bad!! I need some escape and fun and can't wait to bring down some toys for Master to use on my ass. I am craving a spanking today and it's been on my mind a lot. I am putting up a picture today from our archives of my red butt after a spanking with Master's belt. One of our HNT's bottom and belt was taken that same night. Everyone voted on that for their favorite HNT of 2006. I'm wearing my pink heart panties. Click to enlarge. You can see an outline of his belt on my one ass cheek. :) Tommorow is UFC fight night and we have an overnight planned and more play. UFC 67 is happening and it looks like there will be some good fights happening. It will be good to get my mind off things. I wrote a blog post on padme's devotions today on some of my emotional feelings today on my Bah bah's anniversary of her passing which happens tommorow. It felt good to share many of those feelings on there. Thank you everyone for your comments on our HNT post. Master Anakin spends a lot of time on the pictures and is very proud of them. We appreciate your feedback so much!! So...what is everyone's plans this weekend? Anyone else getting spanked or giving a spanking? Anyone else going to be playing tonight? Master Anakin came home tonight with a bunch of red roses which are my absolute favorite!! What a lucky girl I am!! He came home and gave me a big kiss and then surprised me with the roses behind his back!! I'm so in love and feel so lucky!! Thank you Master for spoiling me! I put up a picture of the beautiful red roses up for everyone to see!! He knew I was feeling a bit down and wanted to cheer me up!! What a romantic Master!! I truly love him so much!! My force is strong through him... May the force be with you all!! ~padme