Christmas t-shirts and gifts

Okay, I know it's a LITTLE early, but believing in both Santa and planning ahead, I've added a new Christmas section to our Darkside Digital Arts store, and I really think that you'll enjoy the t-shirt designs I've added so far. I put a thumbnail of each new design in this post. Just click a thumbnail to go to the Christmas section of the Darkside Digital Arts. I've put these designs on all kinds of dark and light t-shirts and other products for men and women, as well as created a really fun Christmas card combining two of the images. The outside of the card has the "Ho Ho Ho" design, and inside it says "Merry Fucking Christmas." I added these designs today and will be adding more Christmas themed designs soon. I was thinking everyone could get a head start on their naughty Christmas gift giving. Hence the first design. Weather it's good or bad to be on Santa's naughty list, I'll leave that up to your imagination. The second design says all there is to say about the Christmas season in an unexpected way. The third design is my personal favorite. These girls sporting Santa hats and nothing else together with a traditional HO HO HO cheer will really get you in the kinky Christmas spirit. Please check back between now and Christmas for more funny Christmas t-shirt designs and enjoy. Anakin

Play time with Darth Vader begins...

Wow...what a day! It's been truly amazing today and full of so much naughty fun. And I still havn't been fucked yet or had an orgasm. Darth has made me wait for it. I need to work for it. I need to beg for it. It's been a week since I had an orgasm and it's driving me crazy!! I am so deeply aroused tonight. It's been a very interesting day today. We had some sitting time this afternoon with no kids. He came home after I finished my blog post and I got to get over the pillow for some spanking fun with his belt before heading out for some lunch and shopping together. We decided to go by the casino in town for lunch and some gambling. I won $80 which was great! I've been really lucky lately with gambling and it was nice to walk out with some extra money. Lunch was wonderful. Yummy fish and chips! Yummy! We headed over to Value Village afterwards to look for Halloween stuff. We found a black feather boa that Master wanted me to get and also a new wig. This wig is a blonde long curly wig. It is so cute and very sexy. You can see a side view of it in this picture which was taken tonight while chatting online to Griz and good girl. They were online tonight and I got to hang out with them for a while on the webcam. They were busy with something but we did try to squeeze in a bit of naughty play. I got to watch good girl cum tonight with some nipple attention from Griz. I got to show off my sexy outfit and blonde wig to them and do a bit of spanking play on the webcam. I got some attention on my ass with the Anakin's paddle and also Master's hand. He left quite a hand imprint on my ass. I also got some marks from his belt which he used on my tits. mmmm...it was fun to have some naughty fun with friends on the webcam and to get all warmed up for tonight. I've been wet for hours and ready to be fucked. We were hoping to play more after my bath on the webcam but it was too late for them to stay. I'm now online feeling very horny and a bit buzzed after drinking some Jackson Triggs merlot. I shaved my pussy smooth in the bath. It's wet and ready for action. I've got a girl on girl porno going and I can't wait to start using my Hiatchi and get ready for some cock. I'm waiting for Darth Vader to come downstairs and for our play to begin. I wonder if there is a perfect stranger or another couple out there tonight who wants to play with us?? Anyone else online and horny and needing some fun fantasy webcam play? Just let us know and we can all have some naughty fun tonight. :) Play time is about to begin with Darth Vader and I can't wait...I really need him to show me the power of the darkside... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A kiss from Darth Vader

I wanted to share a spanking photo with everyone which we took from last Saturday. I think it's a very erotic spanking picture. You can click to enlarge it. If you look close, you'll see the welt marks on my ass from the cane and some redness from the belt. I was also whipped with the homemade whip too. I am laying over the pillow with my bare bottom exposed and ready for some attention. He used his belt, the homemade whip and the cane on my poor ass that night. You can read the details from last Saturday in this blog post. I wore my pink wig and sexy pink crossbones thigh-hi's also that we used for our HNT picture this week. :) I've been feeling really depressed this last week. I've barely left my house. I have felt worn out and my sex drive has gone to zero. My period was extra heavy and there has also been a lot of family issues going on this week. I had a nightmare about my mom the other night. It seemed so real to me. And the worst part about it is that I can't get a hold of her for a few weeks. She's moving far away and it's really upsetting me. I'm also dealing with the 10th anniversary of my Grandpa's death. It brings back a lot of upsetting memories for me. I've been looking at old photos and feeling really down in the dumps. This morning I got a kiss from Darth Vader. It really blew me away. Master was leaving with our son for karate. He wanted me to do some chores while he was gone to get ready for our date time this afternoon. I was putting away dishes when Darth Vader came up to me and gave me a huge passionate kiss on my lips. My nipples immediately got erect. Darth noticed and gave me a big smile and then he tells me to prepare myself for a spanking today. He feels I need it to get me focused again. He told me I will be getting an erotic but hard spanking today. I'm not sure with what spanking toys he is going to use but I admit that I am both excited but nervous about it. I really need some time on the darkside. Some time to escape for a while and to be just a slave. I need pain and I want pleasure. I want to feel Darth's dark power while he ties me up or slaps me hard. Maybe he'll do his force choke on me? Maybe he'll leave me tied up for hours while he spanks me and fucks me. I hope he'll beat me ...make me suffer and bleed. My period is finally over and I really want to play. I can't wait to get spanked...I'm awaiting Darth Vader as I write this. Waiting for him to come through that door and unbuckle his belt. Or perhaps tell me to go bend over the pillow which is waiting on the bed right now for me to go over for my spanking. We have almost six hours with no kids around. All that time to just play and be together. I can't wait... I need him so bad. I need him to fuck me so bad. I need him to spank me so hard. I need to feel his power over me. I ache and need him so bad.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Quiet weekend ahead

TGIF! I am feeling in a very quiet mood today. I've been enjoying some alone time today and doing a lot of reflecting. It's hard to believe that this weekend will be ten years since my Grandpa H passed away. I sure miss him a lot and remember how it felt to lose such a wonderful man who was more like a Dad to me than my own father was. He's been in my thoughts a lot today. This song and video reminds me so much of Grandpa H and our memories that we shared when I was growing up. It's been a really long week and I am very drained physically and emotionally. I was up at 5 am due to a bad nightmare that I was having. It's made me so tired today. Master is renting us a movie for tonight and we plan to just relax and take it easy. I am hoping my period will be over by tommorow for our sitting time. We've got an afternoon with no kids and no plans made yet. I could really use a good spanking and some fabulous sex and orgasms with Darth Vader. I am really hoping we will be able to play this weekend. I really need some stress relief. I will not be online much this weekend with trying to relax and spending some time with Master Anakin. I feel like I've barely seen him this week and I miss him and can't wait til he's home. Well...I'm off to Wal Mart to pick up a few groceries and look at the Halloween stuff. I am hoping to decorate this weekend and wanted to pick up some new Halloween things there. Halloween is my favorite day of the year and I love to decorate lots for it. I also was curious about what costumes they have there. I'm still hoping to pick up a new one for my birthday overnight on Oct. 13th. We have a special night planned and I want to dress up that night in a sexy new costume after we get home from our dinner and casino fun. Please make sure to vote in our poll on the side bar if you havn't already. We'd love to hear from you! Prep schoolgirl is in the lead! :) I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Neat quiz

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Birthday surprise from Shasta!

I got a big surprise this morning from my close friend, Shasta Gibson and it really made me smile today. I wanted to say a very special thank you to Shasta for sending me out a very sweet and thoughtful birthday present. My 35th birthday is coming up soon and she sent me out an amazing gift!! I was feeling really depressed this morning and stressed out. This hasn't been a very good week for me. So much has happened lately and I've been trying to figure it all out. I've been able to lean a lot on Shasta during some very tough times lately. She stood up for me in a very big way when I got very hurt recently. She's been strong and inspiring for me. She makes me feel positive when I am having a rough day and she's been there to listen to me. I feel really lucky to have her in my life. :) It's really hard to find true friends who are there through thick and thin. Shasta is like family to me. She is someone who I enjoy a special friendship with that goes outside the blogs. We talk on the phone and we're on msn chat together all the time. I love to talk with her about anything and everything. This morning we were talking so much on the phone that it starting beeping and was almost dead. :) I knew the mailman had come and I wanted to take the phone out with me to see if the birthday surprise had arrived. I was so excited!! The phone didn't die and I was able to grab the present and come running back into the house to open it. I really like that I got to open the present while she was on the phone with it. It made it seem a lot more personal. She got me 6 envelopes with packages of loose tea leaves (Coconut Black Tea, Rooibos Chai Tea, Mango Black Tea, Monk's Blend Black Tea, Tiffany Rose Melody Flowering Tea, and Winter Love Rooibos Tea) and a tea strainer to make the tea with. I got a really lovely birthday card which really made me smile and think of our morning coffee chats together. :) I was so excited to try the tea that I tried some while I was on the phone with her. I tried the Coconut Black Tea and it was truly delicious and amazing!! The smell was just like coconuts and I found it so relaxing to drink and helped to mellow me out a lot. I have never tried loose tea before so this was a first for me and I'm so happy to have shared such a special moment with a good friend over the phone this morning. Thank you dear friend for making me smile today with your phone call and also your really lovely birthday gift. I can't wait to try the different loose teas. They all smell so good and I really enjoyed the coconut one so much. I am so grateful for our friendship and I can't wait to meet you soon. Your friendship is a strong force in my life. xoxoxo padme amidala I am going to relax this afternoon and read a book and try some more tea. The question is...which kind should I try next? They all smell so nice. :) I hope everyone has had a chance to check it out our HNT picture. Please make sure to vote in our poll if you havn't yet. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Sexy pink crossbones

Happy HNT everyone! I am very excited about this week's HNT picture. I personally like it as one of my top 3 HNT's we have ever done here at Journey to the Darkside. Click to enlarge. I love this pink look! It's the girlie girl in me...I love the color pink! Last weekend I decided to dress in pink and black which are two colors that seem to mix very well together. I did a blog post about our dress up and role-playing from the movie, Closer. I found a pink wig that looked like Natalie Portman in the movie, Closer. I did a strip tease for Master Anakin and I had a very fun and naughty memorable night with Darth Vader. :) Check out this site! I was surprised to see the same thigh-hi's on there with a very sexy Pirate costume and look. I really need to get that costume. It's extremely sexy. :) Make sure to vote in our new poll on the sidebar. What costume would you like me to buy next? I'm really curious to hear from everyone. Who knows...you might encourage me to go out and buy that costume next and wear it for a future HNT picture. I love to hear feedback. Please also comment on the HNT. Master Anakin and I would love to hear from you what you think of it. Do you like the thigh-hi's? They had pink bows on them and looked so cute and sexy. I felt like "little miss dangerous" in them. Do you think they went well with the pink wig? Speaking of the pink wig...I'm putting up another picture today for everyone of me in my pink wig last Saturday. :) Today has been a very blah kind of day for me. I'm thankful that I've been able to chat with my sister and also Shasta today on msn. They've both kept me company today and helped me with the feeling blue today. I went running out to the mail box today to see if my birthday present had arrived from Shasta today. She has sent me out something and it should be arriving any day now. It didn't arrive today. *pouts* I really want to open my present and can't wait til tommorow. :) Thanks Shasta in advance for the birthday present. I can't wait til it is here and I can open it. I'm not a very patient girl. It's very hard to wait when I feel so excited about something coming in the mail. I'm really looking forward to talking on the phone to Shasta again tommorow morning. I enjoy our phone conversations so much. We talk until the phone dies. She's truly a very special friend in my life and I'm so glad she's in my life. :) 17 days til my birthday. The countdown clock at the bottom of the blog keeps me updated on how many days there are until I turn 35. This feels like a pretty big birthday. I can't wait til the 13th of October when I get to go to Rasputin Restaurant and then to River Rock Casino. We have no kids and a whole night to ourselves. I love River Rock Casino..we were at the casino a few weeks ago and I really loved it there. We are planning on a very special date night for my birthday and will be having some special play. I'm hoping to find a new costume to wear for that night so stay tuned! I'm sure we'll be having lots of pictures for that night. I found out that I am getting Miami Vice Season 4 on DVD for one of my birthday presents from Master Anakin. Yeah! I'm so excited! I've seen almost all the episodes from seasons 1-3. I love to get my escape of Crockett and Tubbs. :) This video is going out to my bad boy "Bender" from the Breakfast Club. I'm hoping Bender can cum pay me a visit soon. "Claire" the Princess is needing a spanking and really missing him. ;) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala Technorati Tags: HNT, dress up, stockings, erotic photography, role-playing

Role-playing and dressing up is lots of naughty fun

I wanted to escape into a blog post today. It's a really yucky Tuesday. I'm starting my period and it's raining and dark out. The typical Vancouver weather is starting with Fall now here. Time to break out the umbrellas. I have been wanting to do a blog post for a while about role-playing and dressing up with Master Anakin. We've had a lot of experiences with different roles and dressing up since 1997. I havn't blogged about many of them. I'm sure some people would find it fascinating just how wild we can get with our costumes and role-playing scenarios. I think we are one of the few blogs around which feature a special feature for fantasy costumes. If you look down that drop down menu on our sidebar you'll find lots of different costumes we have tried the last two years. I thought I'd share a few pictures today from different costumes we have tried which we used as HNT's...Darth Vader, sexy Geisha, French Maid and schoolgirl outfit. There are many other costume pictures. I have been a cheerleader and also Vampire and many others. The schoolgirl picture was taken in 1997. It was my first attempt with the schoolgirl role. Master played the Principal. I was being bad and went to see the Principal for my punishment which included a spanking of course. :) I wore a red shirt and cross and my green schoolgirl skirt with white tights and black girlie shoes. I bought a lot of the stuff for this outfit from Value Village. It's amazing what you can buy there. During Halloween season you can pick up costumes at a really good deal. My French Maid outfit only cost me 10 bucks. Compare this with some adult stores where costumes can be very expensive. My cheerleader costume for example cost me $50 at a adult store. It was so cute though that I couldn't resist. Another place that I recommend to get costumes from is Spencer Gifts. I love that store. It's one of my favorite ones to shop at. Their costumes are very good quality and so many fun and different themes. I saw several on the weekend that I want to get like Alice in Wonderland, some of the Amy Brown Fairy ones, police officer, playboy bunny and Prep school schoolgirl outfit. Spencer Gifts sells a lot of racy stuff. I don't like to take my kids in there so I don't go there often. Last weekend we went there and bought my pink short bob wig which you saw pictures of in my last blog post. We also got me a pair of sexy thigh-hi's which are perfect for Halloween and so cute. Make sure to cum back for HNT tommorow to see what they look like. :) After Halloween is also a great time to look for costumes. There are many sales on the costumes and you can sometimes pick up a great deal on something sexy that you can wear all year round. Online also has some great online stores selling different costumes although sometimes they can be a bit on the pricey side. Check out this site with Star Wars costumes. Very neat Yoda costume even for pets. So cute. :) Or this site which has different costumes online for Halloween. Both men and women can find different cool costumes to wear for Halloween or for an erotic night of fun and dress up. Who do you want to be for the evening? Which fantasy did you want to live out? Did you want to be a sexy witch or perhaps a vampire? Many places sell make up or different accessories to add to your look to make it real. It's amazing how putting on a costume can make you feel so different inside and make for a very fun and erotic night. I like to put a lot of extra time and energy into it to complete the look. When I was the vampire for Halloween I wore vampire fangs to go with it and made my make up look dark for it. I always love Value village as they are a deal and I've found some vintage clothing there and neat stuff for costumes or role-playing like our school desk that I have been bent over many times for different paddlings and spankings. I've been told that I'm a "cool mom" for dressing up for Halloween. I dressed up as a witch once and also wore my Vampire costume when I took them trick or treating. I always get people who think it's very cool and I get different responses to it. Why not though. Why do you have to be a kid to dress up for Halloween? Have fun...dress up as someone you've always wanted to be and have fun. It's a great time to be creative and add some fun to your sex life. I love to dress up. Since dressing up back in 1997 as a schoolgirl I have been wearing lots of different costumes for Master Anakin. I have also worn different wigs. I wore a Cher type of black wig one to be different. Master Anakin got extremely turned on by it. He said he felt like he was cheating with another woman. One of our neighbors at the time actually thought that! She drove by as we were outside together kissing. My back was facing the road so she couldn't see my face. I was wearing my black wig and black velvet dress and black sexy shoes. I don't normally dress like that obviously so she assumed it was another woman making out with Master Anakin. She approached me about this in the park and I had to admit that it was me, not another woman. She honestly looked so shocked. I still laugh about that. lol. You should have seen the look on her face when I explained it was me. One of my favorite role-playing we did was early in relationship where we played Claire and Bender from the Breakfast Club. Master Anakin loves the Breakfast Club and has always had the hots for Molly Ringwald. I made sure to try to dress up just like she did in the Breakfast Club. I watched the movie a few times to get the role right. I even dyed my hair really red just like hers was in the movie. Master played "Bad boy Bender" who had just got released from prison and came to find Claire. He was going to give her a spanking for being such a Princess. What a night that was!! I remember him being so extremely hard over this role-playing and me so wet over the bad boy role he played. We had fabulous sex and we talked about doing more role-playing in the future after that night. It added a lot to our sex life and play. We've done Star Wars role-playing many times...even before we started this blog. I have always loved him in the Darth Vader role or as Anakin. I really got wet when he bought the Darth Vader costume last Halloween for me. He even did the choke scene just like Anakin did in Revenge of the Sith. I love when he dresses up too. He dressed up like such a bad boy as Bender...leather jacket and kick ass Terminator boots and black shirt and handcuffs hanging from his pants. Mmmm....just thinking about it makes me want to fuck him. We also did some role-playing from the movie, Wild Things with nikki. That was quite the motel night with our first threesome with her. mm...just thinking about it gets me wet. Maybe one day we'll watch that video we made of that night. Recently my friend, good girl told me that I had inspired her to do some role-playing for the first time with Griz. I was so happy and excited for them to give it a try. She dressed up as a schoolgirl for him and has shared some very sexy pictures with us. She looked very sexy and fit the role perfectly as a schoolgirl. She told me they really enjoyed doing it. I'm very glad that they gave it a try. It can be a lot of fun to role-play and dress up for playtime. Many people have wondered why we do the role-playing or dressing up. They don't see the point. I will say that it's added so much to my relationship with Master Anakin. It's fun and fantasy and so nice to escape into another world for a while. It adds a lot of spice to the play and puts us into the moods for playing and spankings. It turns us both on and we have fabulous sex and orgasms from all the excitement. One thing I will never get rid of is my costumes. I love to have different ones to chose from for whatever mood we are in. Cleaning wearing the French Maid outfit makes me fit the role and adds a lot of fun to everyday chores. Wearing Darth Vader made Master feel so dominant and powerful he told me. I have felt so sexy wearing my schoolgirl outfits. There are so many different roles out there to try. I love that aspect of our relationship and I hope that we can inspire others out there to have fun and give it a try. Lingerie can be very nice. I have a drawer full of it. I really love having a costume drawer too. It doesn't just have to be Halloween to dress up and have fun and be someone else for a night. :) We would love to hear from you today about role-playing and dressing up. Do you do it in your relationship? If not, would you like to try it? Tell us about your experiences with it. What role would you like to try? What costume has been your favorite to wear? Is anyone else dressing up for Halloween this year? Please leave us a comment ...we'd love to hear your experiences with it. :) This weekend we got to try role-playing from the movie, Closer. It was one of the most memorable scenes we have done in a while. I really felt so sensual and beautiful in my pink wig and all dressed up and doing a strip show for Master Anakin like Natalie Portman did in the movie. It was erotic and so much fun and escape. I wonder what we'll do next....which role would you like to see us do? Or which costume would you like to see us wear? We've added a new poll on our side bar. Please vote!! Which costume would you like to see me in? I've had a hard time deciding on what costume to buy next and perhaps you can all let me know what you would like to see me in next. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Closer to the darkside

Wow...what a weekend it's been!! I am very happy and relaxed after a lot of fun and naughty play over the weekend. I really wanted to share some of the details while they were still fresh and I really wanted to share some of our sexy adventures this weekend. It's been a wonderful escape which is just what I needed. I wish we could have had someone join us for some naughty play this weekend. It was memorable and so much fun. Friday we watched Resident Evil and relaxed. We were both tired but we did manage to get a quick fuck and orgasms in before bed. I was promised a spanking on Saturday. I went to sleep with dreams of getting spanked with his belt. I woke up wet and horny. I had an appointment to go to Curves though. We tried to get another fuck in but ran out of time. I wasn't that impressed with Curves. I don't think it's what I am looking for. I am a cardio type of woman and I love my treadmills to much. I had problems after in my accident injury. I will contine to look for a gym but am hoping to find one I can go to with Master Anakin so we can do some work outs together. Today is weigh in. I have been excused due to my pms starting. I am bloating a lot and I always gain weight during this time of the month. Master still has to go his weigh in. He's just getting up right now after our exciting and memorable night together. :) I came back from Curves and we got ready for our date. We headed out to Metrotown Mall for the afternoon. It was a really nice drive and we were able to have some great conversation in the car. I love going to Metrotown. It's a big mall with everything there. We went and ate lunch. I got my butter chicken combo. Yummmy! Master got Thai. We headed to to the movie theatre there to see the new Resident Evil-Extinction movie. Wow...it was awesome!! So much excitement and Milla looked very hot. I really enjoyed it. I recommend it a lot. We did some shopping afterwards. We started to head home and Master mentioned dropping by the Spencer Gifts which is at another mall. He was wondering if I wanted to go costume shopping. We headed there and looked at their really cute costumes. They had some Amy Brown fairy costumes there that just looked amazing! A bit too expensive though. We saw a few different costumes that I would love to get. Master spotted a bright pink short bob wig and it got his attention right away. We both loved the movie Closer and the wig reminded him of one Natalie Portman wore in the movie. She was a stripper and dressed in a short pink wig. She called herself "Jane" while stripping. He decided that he was buying it for me. He also saw some cute thigh hi stockings that he wanted me to get. They are so cute. We will be putting up a picture for HNT this week. :) We headed home for dinner and the UFC. Chick Liddell lost the fight which was a real shocker. He is Master's favorite fighter and I know Master was a bit in Darth mode just watching the fight. After the UFC we got ready for some naughty play. I was told to go dress up for him. I did my nails and put on some neat rings and my black leather collar. "Dress like a stripper and strip for me, Jane" he said to me in a very dominant tone. I got wet just by the look in his eyes. I went upstairs and spent a long time getting ready. He set up the camera and spot light and toys. He got out his whip, cane and belt to use on my ass. I put on my black and pink lingerie from our Whistler anniversary, pink thong from La Senza, new pink and black thigh-hi's, black sexy shoes, leather and gold earrings and short pink bob wig. It put me into an immediate sexy mood. Little miss dangerous was ready for action. I put on my make up and Saje tantra oil. I came out into our bedroom and saw him waiting for me with his belt in his hands. Everything was set up ready for pictures. A porno with girl on girl was going on. Music from the movie, Hackers was on the cd player. I could see a hard on through his boxers as soon as he saw me. "Holy fuck. I want to fuck you right now. But your going to get spanked and strip for me first" he told me. We sip on our drinks and watch a bit of the porno. In the one picture you can me laying on the bed watching the porno and my nipple looking very erect. You can see the bright pink wig I was told to bend over the pillow waiting at the end of the bed. I got 25 with each spanking toy that was laying out. First the belt, then the whip, and then the cane. He took pictures during the spanking. Who wants to see them? ;) After I got attention on my ass I was told to strip. He wanted me to be "Jane" for the night. I've done Star Wars role-playing but not from the movie Closer. I knew I was going to really enjoy this role. I love Natalie Portman and I knew this was going to turn him on so much. He sat down on the bed and I started to strip for him. Then he gets into his role. He says the line from the movie. "What does your cunt taste like?" he asks. I shake my ass and say "Heaven" and start to remove my lingerie. I get down to the pink thong and thigh-hi's. He shines the spot light onto me as I strip for him. I can barely see him through the light. Then I hear his voice ask me "Alice tell me something true?" I know the line well. I love that movie and have seen it so many times. I say to him "Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off. But it's better if you do." I take off the thigh-hi's and down to my thong. I move to the Hackers music. I love him watching me strip. It really makes me wet to know he's enjoying the show I am putting on for him. I sway my hips to the music and then slowly remove my thong getting naked with the spot light shining on my body. He takes off his boxers and grabs me and throws me to the bed and fucks me harder than I've been fucked in a very long time. It was honestly one of the most sexual experiences of my life. Naked wearing that pink wig feeling like "Jane" in the movie and being his fuck toy. I ask permission to cum as I can't hold back anymore. He stops fucking me and goes down on my shaved pussy with his tongue until I cum so huge!! I exploded. He knows how to give great oral. No one has ever licked pussy the way that Darth Vader does. mmmm.... He got me to lay down on the bed and started to jack off. He tells me he is going to cum on me like a whore. "Jane...are you ready for me to cum on your face and tits? he asks. "Yes, Sir" I say in response. He explodes all over my face and tits and I lick it up and then lick off his cock. mmmm...a very fun and naughty time. I got a little more attention on my ass and some more Hiatchi time giving me a second orgasm that shook my world so much that I could barely walk afterwards. I barely remember going to bed. I took off my wig and and he told me just before going to sleep that it was one of the hottest role-playing he's ever done with me. The pink wig reminded him of Natalie Portman and he said I turned him on so much. He was very pleased. :) It was a very fun Saturday and I slept like a rock. Today we have errands and Master is hoping to work more on our online store, Darkside Digital Arts. I hope everyone is having a naughty weekend. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Ass kicking weekend ahead!

TGIF! There is going to be some serious ass kicking going on this weekend. I'm so extremely glad it's Friday. This has been the longest week ever. Full of a lot of stress and way too busy. Yesterday was the longest day ever. The day seemed to go on and on. I am hoping today to relax more and get ready for some ass kicking. Tonight I have put out the Resident Evil movie for Master Anakin and I to watch. We are going to treat ourselves with a pizza delivery. There is nothing better to escape into than some ass kicking going on with Milla Jovovich. Check out that website. Wow!! Just looking at her pictures made me drool and want to do very naughty things with her. mmmm. She is the ultimate woman ass kicker and is extremely beautiful. She is totally my type of woman. I know Master Anakin has a real thing for her too. He also gets a hard on watching her movies. :) Tommorow we are both excited to go see the new Resident Evil-Extinction movie. Check out this very cool trailer. I love ass kicking movies and this is going to be a good one. We knew we wanted to see it as soon as we saw the trailer for it. Talk about a total escape...I am really excited about going out on a movie date with Master. We have an afternoon to go out for lunch and the movie and also hopefully fit in some play time which we both really need right now. Then it's time for more ass kicking with the UFC 76 Knockout tommorow night. We are both looking forward to seeing Chuck Liddell kick Keith Jardine's ass. It should be a good fight. :) The stress of the last week has killed our sex drives lately. We havn't connected all week and I know that I am aching for him today. I need to feel his cock in me so bad. I want to be getting spanked and getting fucked and having huge orgasms with him. I miss my Darth so much and I really need some time on the darkside right now. I'm horny today and needing him so much. I can't wait til he is home and our ass kicking weekend starts. I won't be online much this weekend. I am hoping he'll do a little ass kicking on my poor little bottom this weekend too. I am craving a little time with the Anakin's paddle right now. A little pain and pleasure is a great way to forget the week's troubles and stress and just concentrate on fantasy and play. Today I am putting up a picture that was taken last Friday. It's me in my "little miss trouble" t-shirt and my schoolgirl skirt holding the Anakin's paddle. That was just before lifting my skirt to get a good paddling. :) I am planning to do a little ass kicking too this weekend. I am heading to the Curves gym for my first work out with them. I got a two week free membership from a good friend of mine. She wants us to work out together and she is really enjoying Curves. She told me how it's changed her life. She is a breast cancer survivor and been through a lot. We have become good friends over the last few years. She invited Master and I to a Halloween party again this year at their house. We went last year and it was a lot of fun. I'm really excited to have someone to work out with and to start a new chapter in my life. I havn't been to a gym in almost 4 years. I have wanted to but didn't have anyone else to go with. I didn't like the idea of going alone. I'd like to say thank you to Master Anakin for giving me permission to join Curves. I remember how good it felt before going to the gym. It helped me to feel strong mentally and physically. I'd like to say a big thank you to one of the best ass kickers I know, Shasta Gibson. She's truly amazing and was a there in a very big way for me. She inspires me to get strong and be able to kick ass when I need to. Thank you Shasta!! You are a truly amazing friend and I really love having you in my corner. Thanks for watching my back. This video and song is going out to Shasta today. Shasta is also having a really cool party happening next month and she wants everyone to know about it. It's the First Sex blogger Cocktail party in Toronto. Check out this post for any details about it. It looks like a lot of fun and I really wish I lived closer so I could go. Please contact Shasta if your interested in attending. I'd also like to thank Griz and good girl who really cheered me up on a day I needed it the most. They put up a HNT picture this week for me to help "perk me up." It gave me a big smile and I really appreciate it a lot. Check it out! I hope everyone else out there has an ass kicking weekend and also has some naughty fun. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - pink lace and red cheeks

Happy HNT everyone. My padme was in a particularly sassy and playful mood last Friday when I took this picture of her red ass cheeks. she was showing off her new pink lace thong panties to me, so she dressed up all sexy in her red tartan schoolgirl skirt and swished her ass around being all mock sassy, practically asking for a spanking. How could I resist? I gave her a lot of spanks with my hand but also My Anakin's paddle. Her cherry bottom glowed bright red when I was done with it. Then My sweet padme begged me to fuck her and I gladly gave it to her. I fucked her pussy hard and came deep inside her. What a fucking fantastic Friday with My sweet slave. I hope everyone enjoys the spanking HNT picture. Please leave a comment or drop us an e-mail. We'd love to hear from you about it. May the force be with you. ~Anakin Technorati Tags: HNT, spanking, panties, erotic picture, schoolgirl

A change in the seasons and on the Journey

padme amidala is feeling fired up today. I'm in a real mood and ready to make some changes in my life. I'm feeling fed up with a few people in my life. My brother used to tell me that "you can always chose to press the delete key" if someone is upsetting you and as a way of moving on. Today I pressed a few delete keys. I deleted some links on Journey to the Darkside and also I press the delete key on a blog which has been to hard to keep up with. I did my final blog post for padme's devotions today. The blog was started a birthday present last year from Master Anakin. We had planned to make Journey to the Darkside strictly a sex and spanking blog. Over the last year though it's become a lot like a life blog also. I like to post and share pictures from different parts of our life. Not just the kinky stuff but about our real life and adventures. This blog is about real life...our ups and downs and struggles whether it's about our weight issues or my family ones. I don't need padme's devotions anymore. I felt it was time to move on from it. It's become a place that I use for quiz's now and I often forget it's there. Then I feel guilty I am not posting on it. So I think it's time today to make a decision. I was going to delete it but I think there is some good information on past posts there. So today is my final post there. Thank you to everyone who commented there and supported that blog. It was a good place to write out my feelings and I really appreciated having it. 3 blogs is way too hard to keep up with. I've got my diet blog now too with my ongoing weight struggles with Master Anakin. I also like to post here often and put a lot of work into the posts. Master Anakin deleted Mean old men's blog today also. No one had posted in it since the end of June and was just sitting there. Master Anakin just doesn't have the time to put into it that he would have liked. He's been busy on our online store and HNT's also take a lot of time to do. One blog can be a lot of work but trying to juggle a bunch...just isn't really realistic or good for us. We are hoping to put all our time and energy into Journey to the Darkside and also Journey to the Lightside. I'm also on facebook and also love spending a lot of time on there too. My birthday is in a few weeks and I can sense a lot of change happening in my life right now. It's a change in the seasons. Today it's raining and feeling cooler out. Fall is in the air. Summer is almost over. We even put our gas fireplace on the last few nights due to the chill in the air. I'm trying to stick on my diet and exercise but it's been hard this week. I have had a lot of changes to make and it's been a bit hard for me to adjust. I am a very sensitive soul....I feel things when I play with others and I can get hurt easily. The biggest challenge in the poly aspect of our relationship is the different players who come and go from our life through the years. Some people are only interested in playing and not in any real friendship. They come into my heart and then hurt me leaving me with serious trust issues. I know people read about the good times with the poly and all the different play...but there is another side of it. Poly can be a real struggle and very hard to maintain. It's hard enough having one relationship but add others to it and it can be very complicated. There have been times lately that I want to give up the poly forever. Just walk away and not play anymore with anyone. The playing part is wonderful and sexy but the feelings you get when you get hurt...just plain suck. :( Some people will disappear after playing...I'm left wondering what I did wrong or what happened. Some people play but it's only until they find other people better to play with. It honestly feels like in the last ten years of our poly relationship that my patience has gone to almost zero with the people we play with. Maybe I'm just getting too old for this poly thing. I'm getting my needs met by Master Anakin now. He knows me better than anyone and our sex is fabulous. I live out my fantasies all the time with him. We both play on a level that I never had before with any man. I find myself comparing my male lovers with him and they don't compare. Sexually Master Anakin is a God to me. He's truly got one big cock and he knows how to use it. Why would I want any other if I am getting that cock all the time? With the females..it seems harder to find a woman to be close to sexually and with a friendship. It's been over a year since I was last with a woman physically. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be with a woman again on a physical level. We still get responses to our ads but it seems like the majority of them are people just looking for fuck buddies. I'm getting too old for the fuck buddy thing. It's just not working anymore for me. Maybe it's time to take a break from the poly and just concentrate on Master Anakin and our relationship.... I've had some family stuff going on too the last week. I made a decision regarding my Dad. He tried to buy my love and I stood up to him and said no. I'm not playing that game anymore. I feel good about my decision to stay away from him. I feel stronger when he is not in my life. There are changes within my family going on and also in my friendships. Changes are good but they can be very hard. Walking away from people I have cared about deeply (including my dad) is hard....so very hard to do. The D/s is going great with Master Anakin. We had a very intense play night after our River Rock Casino night on Saturday night. I even had a bruise yesterday from it on my one thigh. I have felt his control and power of the darkside. It's been a wonderful feeling to snuggle up with him at night and feel owned and peaceful. He is truly my force. When I get hurt and when I feel fragile...he takes me under his dark cape and protects me. I had a really long phone call with my close friend, Shasta yesterday. It felt wonderful to talk to her. She's been amazing and inspires me on so many levels. I don't know what I would do without her friendship in my life. :) Master Anakin is spending a lot of time on our online store, Darkside Digital Arts the last few days making some changes on there including a new header. Check out the new designs! He's got some really cool ones on there. I can't wait to get a few t-shirts from there. Maybe for my birthday. *hint hint* I have been invited to a spice party tonight. I am excited to meet some new people and buy some new spices. It should be a lot of fun. :) Tommorow is HNT so make sure to cum check it out! I love this picture I am putting up of padme today. It had a very dark look to it. :) I hope everyone enjoys the cleaner look on Journey to the Darkside. The journey continues... My force is through Darth....I can sense his force and power today... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Fun spanking quiz

Your Score: SPANK SLUT You are 93% spankable! You loved to be spanked, good and hard, with any available object. You will take it as hard as anyone is willing to give it. You are probably guilty of provoking your lover into spanking you, by flagrant misbehavior or verbal challenges. Hell, your ass is probably red right now. We wouldn?t be surprised if you are standing at the keyboard, because it hurts to sit down. Link: The How Spankable Are You Test written by bazz22 on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Fun Saturday night at the River Rock Casino

I've had a really fun weekend and wanted to do a blog post about last night to share two pictures and some of the details of my fun Saturday night. I found out yesterday that we were getting a surprise overnight for our son. We weren't sure what to do and talking about different places to go. I have always wanted to go to the River Rock Casino and Resort. I have heard so much about it yet havn't had the chance to check it out. Master Anakin decided that it would be a great idea to go somewhere new and have some fun. The description on the River Rock Casino and Resort says: "River Rock Casino Resort is a sophisticated and relaxing urban oasis; conveniently located just 5 minutes from Vancouver's international airport and a short 20 minute drive from both downtown Vancouver and the US border. Our distinctly west coast style, coupled with stunning architecture, create a vibrant yet tranquil atmosphere. Our four story lobby featuring ponds, cascading waterfalls and a variety of natural elements, transports you miles from anywhere. But rest assured you are right in the middle of the action with River Rock's dazzling casino, featuring more than 1,000 slot machines, and all your favourite table games. Our resort features a myriad of amenities and services to make your stay as memorable as possible, including our famous 950-seat show theatre featuring world-class entertainers, state of the art convention and meeting facilities, nine restaurants and bars, deluxe fitness centre, tranquil spa, tropical swimming pool, water slide, plus a 144-berth marina. Our staff are expertly trained to ensure the highest level of service and attention to detail during your stay. It’s not Vegas…..it just feels like it!" We had a quick shower together and headed down to the casino. I was honestly quite shocked at how big it looked and so fancy even on the outside of it. There was a huge waterfall just outside the entrance and right away it gave you a Las Vegas type of feeling being there. The sound of the slot machines and the big hotel part. We walked around staring up at the stars on the ceiling and watching some people gamble before heading to their buffet at Runway 26. This was an amazing Seafood/Prime Rib buffet. I've never seen so much good food before all laid out for as much as you can eat. My diet went flying out the window. I thought the lobster was just amazing and their chocolate fondue part too was to die for. We enjoyed and talked through a delicious dinner. After dinner we headed outside the Hotel part to check it out. A beautiful sunset was starting to happen. There was a marina there and some boats coming and going. Master Anakin took a picture of the pink sunset and boat coming into the River Rock marina. It reminded me of Miami Vice. I just imagined Crockett on the boat with his sunglasses. :) It was such a beautiful summer night last night. We walked around for a while and then headed inside for some slot machines. I got lucky at the dollar slot machines. I played for an hour on $20 bucks that I had put into the machine. I kept winning small amounts. I walked away with $100 at the end of it. I was very happy to have won a little money and had some entertainment paid for. It was a lot of fun. Master Anakin played the poker and then we walked around the casino a bit watching other people at the tables. We left pretty late and headed home for some play. We were up late having some fun spanking play and lots of fucking and orgasms. I will share the details if anyone is interested in hearing them? *winks* Last night was so much fun. I want to go back to the River Rock casino sometime. It was my favorite of all casinos around Vancouver. A great place to hang out and feel like you've gone to Las Vegas without spending the fortune to do that. We had a wonderful time. :) Today I've got a date!! I am leaving at noon to go out on a date with my friend, Max. He is busy for the next few weekends but had some time this afternoon to get together. He wants to take me out for East Indian food for lunch. I am looking forward to checking out a new restaurant. I'm not sure yet if Max and I will play but I am hoping we will. :) It's been a great weekend. :) My force feels strong. We did weigh in this morning. Master Anakin has lost another 5 pounds. I lost 1 pound. We are both doing well on our new diet and fitness plan. We did take last night off with the River Rock buffet but we are back on track today. No punishment spanking for me due to losing another pound. I am to lose one pound a week or get a spanking punishment. I hope everyone is having a good weekend too. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Little miss trouble has a date with Darth Vader tonight

Little miss trouble has a date tonight with Darth Vader. He will be showing me the power of the darkside. I can't wait. :) Master Anakin took a few hours off this morning and we had some alone time. We were not able to play last night as it got too late and I fell asleep early. So this morning I was told that I would be showing Darth my new pink bra and thong set. He wanted to see them on me. I bought the set at Wal Mart on my afternoon outing with my friend, talia. I showed off my new little miss trouble t-shirt yesterday in a picture in that post. :) I went upstairs as he got himself a snack and got ready for him. I wore my naughty schoolgirl skirt, little miss trouble t-shirt, pink thong and also the new bra. He was very pleased when he came up and saw me sitting on the bed dressed like that holding the Anakin's paddle in my hand. I asked him to paddle me hard so my ass could be good and sore when he left for work. I wanted a sore ass to remember him by today. He lifted my schoolgirl skirt and set my ass on fire with his Anakin's paddle making it nice and red. Who wants to see the pictures of it?? *winks* After the paddling I did a little strip show for Darth Vader. I slowly started to take off my clothes for him piece by piece. I lifted up my little miss trouble t-shirt to show him the new pink bra. Then I took off the t-shirt and grabbed the Darth Vader lid for our Star Wars container. Master thought it would be a cute picture with the me holding onto the lid. I took off my bra and showed him my tits. Then the pink lacy thong panties came off slowly showing him my pussy. And finally I removed my schoolgirl skirt for him. I then begged him to fuck me so he jumped on me and fucked me hard. I wanted to cum but he denied me. He told me he wants me horny all day thinking about what is coming to me tonight. He said no pleasure before pain. I must take a good hard whipping with his homemade whip before he allows me an orgasm. mmmmm....just thinking about it makes me so wet today. :) I walked him to the door and kissed him goodbye as he gave me a swat on the ass telling me to "not get into trouble". How can little miss trouble stay out of trouble though? It's hard. *pouts* I won't be on the computer much this weekend. This afternoon I plan to relax out in the sunshine and dye my hair. We rented a movie tonight called Fracture which looks good. Then tonight is play night with Darth Vader. I can hardly wait! I hope I get the whip hard...I need a good hard one to get me focused on him. I'm feeling so submissive and horny today. my force feels strong... :) I hope everyone has a very naughty weekend! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Little miss trouble meets talia today

I had a wonderful day today. :) I met a friend today for the first time. I really enjoyed meeting talia today. :) We met through collarme.com almost a year ago and we have talked for a while but we havn't had the chance to meet until today. I was a bit nervous about meeting her but also very excited about it. I went down and got a latte from Wired Monk before meeting her for sushi for lunch. We had a really nice talk over some yummy sushi and then headed to Wal Mart afterwards for some girl shopping. Nothing like a little retail therapy to make it a perfect day. It's been a while since I had another woman to shop with. I was very excited to be able to do some sexy shopping today with talia. I wanted to look for a new bra and found a really nice cute pink one. I had to get the matching color of panties of course so I found a pink thong to go with it. I also got a t-shirt from there which says "little miss trouble". I quess little miss dangerous loves to get into trouble...so that suits me a lot. :) I noticed when I got home that it's a bit tight across my chest on me. Master Anakin was very pleased to notice that. He said it fit me just perfect and looked very sexy on me. I did not take any pictures yet of me in my new pink bra and thong set. I did promise Master Anakin I would wear it for him tonight when the kid's are in bed. We hope to play tonight. ;) I picked up some hair dye and also m&m's and a few others things before heading back to my place after shopping at Wal Mart with talia. I almost suggested bringing out the toys to show her but we were running out of time before my kid's got out of school. Maybe next time. :) I really enjoyed my afternoon with talia and hope we can do it again soon. I'm so glad she lives close by. I am very glad to have someone to shop with and have sushi with and have fun together. Thanks for a great day out today, talia. :) Soooo...do you think I'm little miss trouble? Do you notice in that picture that I forgot to wear a bra with my t-shirt tonight? I like to show off my nice big tits to everyone. :) The weekend is coming up and so far there are no naughty plans. *winks* Little miss dangerous wants to get into some naughty trouble this weekend. Maybe I'll even get a spanking for it...I'd like that a lot. ;) Master Anakin brought home dinner tonight and has spoiled me. I even got to have a few m&m's tonight as a treat. Yummmmy! I can't wait to show off my new bra and thong to him. He's very excited to see it. Does anyone else want to see what it looks like on me? *winks* TGIF tommorow! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend with lots of naughty play. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Fraser River Flash

Happy HNT everyone! :) This week's HNT picture was taken on the weekend during an outing with Master Anakin. We went for a drive down to the Fraser River to a park we had never been to before. We took our Subway sandwiches for a picnic down there and strolled around the river area. It was such a beautiful hot and sunny day. We walked along the river edge to an area near the water. My mean old man had an evil idea at that point. Darth wanted me to do a tit flash right then and there for him. So I lifted my t-shirt and showed him my tits. Click to enlarge the photo. We hope you enjoy...it's one of our most scenic tit flashes in my opinion. It was beautiful and so nice there. I hope to go back one day. :) Please leave us a comment and tell us what you think. I always enjoy getting e-mails too. :) It's the exhibitionist in me...I just love to do a tit flash with the chance we might be caught. It was a fun and relaxing day. We went to Fort Langley which is one of my favorite places to go. We had some pastries from the bakery and I also got a coffee and we sat on the park bench and talked for over an hour. It felt so good to have that time with my wonderful Anakin. He held onto my hand, looked into my eyes, and told me he loved me and it was truly a wonderful memory for me that day. :) We came home to our naughty webcam fun with Griz later that day. I also got my spanking after the webcam which I posted about yesterday. It was a really geat Saturday. I wish every weekend was that fun. :) I created a special section last year just for padme's public flashes. If you have missed any of them, check them out in the drop down of the side bar. This was a bit of a fun and naughty challenge for myself. I'd like to try to have as many public flashes in as many places as possible. I am hoping to get another one or two flashes by the time summer ends. I know it's harder to do that in the colder weather. You can see the Albion Ferry in the background. It is a free ferry which goes from Langley to Maple Ridge and I have rode a few times. Also in the background is Mt. Baker. Mount Baker is 10,775 feet tall and is about 15 miles south of the United States/Canada border. It's not far from that park to the US/Canada border. I always love going down to Bellingham or to Seattle for a day or weekend. Seattle is one of my most favorite places to go to. I havn't gone in a few years but I can still remember the bdsm stores down there and the one alternative club we went to many years ago. The first time I ever kissed a woman too was in Seattle. It holds many good memories for me there. :) I talked to my good friend, talia on the phone last night. We talked for two hours. It was a wonderful talk and great to get to know her. I enjoy having another submissive to talk to about the lifestyle. We are meeting tommorow for the first time to have sushi. I'm really looking forward to it. :) Master Anakin booked my birthday plans for my 35th birthday which is coming up in October. I put a countdown clock on the bottom of this blog with a countdown to my birthday. I am looking forward to our overnight on Oct. 13th. My birthday is on the 14th but we are celebrating on the Saturday. We are heading to my favorite restaurant in Vancouver. It's a Russian Restaurant. called Rasputin. mmmmm....my diet is going to go flying out the window that night. lol. I havn't been there in years. Words can't express how excited I am about it. I'm planning to dress up. I'm working my ass off hard on my diet and fitness to get to my goal weight for that date. We are hoping to have some play afterwards. Maybe we'll be able to go to a swingers party that night. I've been hoping to go to one. We were invited in August to go to one but we went to the PNE instead. I'm enjoying some chatting with the very sexy, Shasta Gibson. :) mmmm...she sure knows how to drive me crazy!! She has managed to bring out little miss dangerous out in me this morning. She has been sending me very naughty pictures of herself. mmmmm...I'm horny and ready to grab my Hiatchi!! I'm a desperate housewife who needs some excitement in her life....I want to play and get naughty with someone. I love having the house to myself during the day....I am able to masturbate or maybe sometime I'll invite someone over to play with me so I don't have to masturbate alone. *winks* I've been wet all morning...and I'm ready to explode. I think after writing this post I'm going to go upstairs and do some masturbation. Master Anakin has told me I am allowed to masturbate as long as I ask permission. I hope he'll allow me some morning masturbation....*winks* Maybe if I am a good little slut and offer the services tonight of a good blow job, he'll allow me my upstairs Hiatchi time. ;) I'm a naughty girl... I hope this weekend I can play with Darth Vader...I miss him... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala Technorati Tags: HNT, flash, public nudity, erotic picture, tit flash

Saturday night webcam and spanking fun!

I wrote about our webcam fun with our friend, Griz in my last blog post. I thought today I would put up two more pictures that were taken on Saturday night. One of them was taken when Griz was on the webcam and had the mean old man's idea to get Darth Vader to handcuff me with my hands behind my back. When two mean old men get together and give each other ideas...look out!! I sure felt submissive and couldn't do much to protect my nipples from the mean old crop or Anakin's paddle. :) The other picture was taken after we had gotten off the webcam. Master Anakin was watching the porno and told me to get upstairs and change into something sexy for him and then come downstairs for some spanking fun. He told me to make sure I brought his belt with me when I came back down. I was naked and went upstairs to find something sexy to wear. I found my pink lingerie from La Senza and through it on and took Master Anakin's belt off his pants to bring down to him. He was waiting for me naked with his cock in his hand stroking it. I could see he was hard as a rock. He told me I had been a good slut and taken the spanking really good and he was happy I put on a good show to Griz with me spreading my legs and cumming with my Hiatchi in front of the webcam. He said that when I act like a slut that it turns him on and he likes to spank me for being so naughty. I gave him his belt and then was told to get over our bar stool for some spanking fun. We got this one in the summer time so you could sit and eat at the kitchen counter. He got the evil idea to spank me over it. He placed it out in the open so there was a lot of room to swing his belt. I was told to bend over it and hang onto the legs of it to steady myself for a strapping. My ass was already hurting and sore from my previous spanking (with the different spanking toys) that Griz got to watch on the webcam. I heard the jingle of the belt and then he started off slowly and then started to build a face pace with his belt. Again and again the belt came crashing down on my poor ass. I got over 100 strokes with his belt...some light but some very hard that I had to bite my lip to stop from screaming out. I tried to hold on and not to move but at times it was hard. I had a very red and sore ass by the time he was done. I was told to get on my knees and suck his cock after I got spanked with his belt. I sucked hard and then he pushed me to the ground and climbed on me and stuck his hard cock into my very wet pussy. He rode me from behind holding onto my pig tails. It was extremely intense sex. I could hear the porno in the background and a girl screaming as she was getting fucked hard at the same time I was. He fucked me and came hard in my pussy. I then was told to cum again for him. I had already had one big orgasm earlier but he wanted another one from me. He used the Hiatchi again and I came so big the second time around that I was dizzy when I stood up. I don't remember too much else that night...I fell alseep so happy and relaxed and submissive. It was a really erotic and fun night and I hope we can do the webcam fun again soon. I love to be watched. :) .... I'm having a really relaxing day today. I was given permission to use my Hiatchi and went upstairs for some morning masturbation. It's too bad no one was around to play with...I felt a bit lonely masturbating alone this morning. I could see the sun coming through the blinds and I put on a girl on girl porn and used my Hiatchi to rub it nice and hard against my clit. I used my fingers to fuck myself with and fantasized about Master Anakin and his belt and Saturday night...mmmmm....it felt so good to be spanked like that. I had a nice long hot shower afterwards and then sat out in the sunshine sipping on my water. What a perfect way to spend the day...a very nice Tuesday and I feel more relaxed than I have in a long time. HNT is tommorow and we have a naughty one from the weekend for ya...make sure to cum back tommorow for it! My force feels strong... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Saturday night webcam fun with Griz

Wow!! What a naughty weekend for me. Before I write about the details of last night...I wanted to share the results of our weigh in this morning. I posted about it on my diet blog. I have lost 2 pounds and Master Anakin has lost 5 pounds. A very successful week for both of us. We are both very happy and I'm relieved that there is no punishment spanking for any weight gain. I am supposed to lose one pound a week or get punished. My ass is already very sore from our play last night so I'm glad I don't have to worry about that. :) I posted last night about my naughty Friday night and cyber sex experience online. I am hoping sometime to share the chat conversation sometime here at Journey to the Darkside. It was a very hot chat and I saved it because it's been a long time since I had a sexy chat like that with someone. It was a naughty Friday night with the perfect stranger. I really enjoyed that experience. :) Last night I was about to get offline when I noticed my friend, Griz come on yahoo messenger. Master Anakin was still watching the UFC on spike and I wanted to chat with Griz and see how his day went with good girl. He read my post from last night and we chatted for a while. The UFC ended and our son was put to bed and we were about to start our play for the night when Master Anakin came up with a very mean old man idea. He was wondering if Griz would like to listen into my spanking that I had coming to me. We chatted and Griz said it would be ok to webcam with him so he could not only listen into the spanking but also watch it as it happened live. He would be watching us on our webcam and listening in on the voice chat. We went upstairs to get ready and bring down our toys. Master Anakin grabbed his Anakin's paddle, homemade whip, mini swede flogger and crop to bring down to play with. I was told to get into my leather outfit for Griz so he could see me in it. I wore my leather skirt, thong panties and leather vest and black leather play collar. You can see in the one picture taken last night me sitting at the computer holding the crop in my leather outfit. I put my hair in pig tails and got ready for some play. I was told to bring down the handcuffs and clothespins and also the Hiatchi and leash. We came downstairs and got onto the webcam with Griz. Master Anakin picked out a porno on shaw on demand and got it started. The play got started very fast. I was positioned into a spot that Griz could watch my spanking as I received it live. I was very wet just knowing he would be watching this happen. I love to be watched. :) Master Anakin started with the mini swede flogger which felt good as it started to spank my naughty ass. I was sitting on my knees on the chair and bent over slightly so he could have a good angle to spank me. He took pictures as the play was happening. Then he paddled me with the Anakin's paddle. I was put on a leash at one point. Some of the strokes of the paddle was intense and I couldn't help but cry out in pain. My ass started to burn a bit. Then he picked up the homemade whip and started to whip my ass. The whip seemed to hurt more than the paddle. It was intense at times. I started to float away in subspace at this point and some details became fuzzy for me. At times I almost forgot that we were being watched on the webcam. In the other picture I put up today is of my red ass after getting the Anakin's paddle. Then he went back to the crop for a while. He made sure that Griz got a good look at the intense spanking with the different spanking toys. I got very excited and wet and I wanted to cum so bad at this point but he didn't let me. I was put into handcuffs on my wrists in front of me. That was Griz's mean old man idea to have me handcuffed. I was bent over and spanked and then my leather vest was removed and clothespins were put onto my very erect nipples. I wanted to cum and he told me that I could take my Hiatchi and use it. I was sooooo wet at this point. I really wanted to cum! I held onto the Hiatchi but it was too hard with the handcuffs on my wrists. I asked for them to be removed so I could use it better so the cuffs were taken off. My thong was ripped off and I got comfortable on the computer chair with my legs spread wide. Griz had a mean idea of Darth Vader cropping my tits which had clothespins on them. This was extremely intense!! My nipples felt like they were on fire!!! My pussy was on fire too. The pleasure and pain was a lot and it didn't take me long after I spread my legs and came so big!! I screamed out and my body shook. It was very intense. I chatted with Griz a bit afterwards topless. Then Griz asked that I be put in handcuffs with them behind my back. I was bent over and paddled some more. I got out of the handcuffs so I could chat with Griz more and I got completely naked at that point. I got spanked a bit more with the paddle and my nipples were teased. Master Anakin then went over to watch the porno. I showed Griz how wet I was with the webcam. I gave him a good look with the webcam at my very wet pussy. I put my fingers in me and tasted my pussy juices. Then at one point I was told to get off the computer and come serve Darth Vader... More spanking play did happen...his belt was brought downstairs and used on my already sore ass. I also was fucked hard. I am going to save those naughty details for another post though. We took pictures of the play after the webcam fun too and will post a few of those if anyone is interested in seeing them. *winks* :) I have a sore and bruised ass today and I'm feeling horny and wet still. I can't get enough play. I wish I was having more webcam fun today. :) Thank you Griz for joining us for a night of naughty webcam fun. :) It was very naughty and exciting to be watched while being spanked and our play time. It feels good to be playing with others again. It's always a great escape from reality and so much fun to play on the webcam or have others watching or me watching others fuck or play. :) I'm really hoping I can meet my friend, talia this week. We met on collarme.com and we have become good friends and I really want to meet her. She lives close by and I hope we can set up a time to meet this week. :) My force feels strong today... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Friday night with a perfect stranger

It's been a really relaxing weekend and a lot of fun. Just what I needed...a exciting playful night last night and a relaxing day out in the sunshine today with Master Anakin. Last night was a bit of a surprise for me. I didn't expect to be playing online and having such a exciting night. We watched a really good movie called A Perfect Stranger. Check out this very sexy scene from it. The movie inspired what happened last night with my naughty cyber sex. It also got me thinking a lot about virtual sex and about having a secret world online. This blog is in many ways a very secret world for me...I share some very sexy parts of myself on here on Journey to the Darkside. I really enjoyed the movie although Master Anakin fell asleep during it and was very tired. He wanted to go to bed around 9 pm. I was wide awake though and wanting to play. I was told that I could masturbate if I wanted to with my Hiatchi and stay up. I felt that it would be very lonely to just masturbate by myself and then go to bed. I was in a playful mood...I wanted to stay up and have some fun and escape. I asked permission to come online to find someone to play with and was given it before Master Anakin headed to bed. I wanted to escape reality for a while by playing in a fantasy world online. I wanted a late night cyber rendezvous. Finding a person to play with online is very easy...just a mouse click away...I had no idea how easy it would be to find someone to play with and spend my Friday night having some cyber fun and fantasy. I came online but it was too late to find any other sexy blogger's to play with. I wasn't sure what to do or where to look. I considered going into Beauty's Castle chat where I spent a lot of time many years ago but I wanted to find somewhere new. I put "adult chat room" into the google search and a bunch of places showed up. One place wanted me to fill in a bunch of information which I didn't want to do. I found a place that just needed a screen name. I put in "padmeamidala" and entered the adult chat room. It was pretty intense...lots of messages going by fast and a lot of different names in there. I wasn't sure what to do so I wrote "hello" and waited. There was a few hello's but nothing else. So I wrote "lonely, bored, desperate housewife who's horny and looking for some play tonight. Who wants to play with me?" and all of a sudden a whole bunch of pop up's for pm's (private messages) came on my computer screen. One guy who called himself "jimbo" kept wanting me to webcam with him. I didn't feel comfortable doing that with someone I just met online though. I enjoy naughty webcam play with people but I like to know who they are first. lol. He sure didn't give up either...kept messaging me trying to get me to cam with him. Some messages were extremely horny. I finally found a guy who called himself "macho superman" who pm'd me. I had a good feeling about him. He seemed intelligent and playful but not pushy. I eventually asked him to join me on yahoo messenger which he did. I sent him some very naughty pictures of myself and he sent some back to me. We chatted for a while and he seemed to get what I was into right away. I mentioned liking getting spanked and how I like a dominant and controlling man. Right away he started to give me orders and I got naked and things started to get wild and naughty. I had brought my Hiatchi and some clothespins downstairs to have ready for play. I also was told to get a hairbrush to spank myself with to have ready. The chat got very naughty very fast. I liked that he was so sexual and seemed to know exactly what he wanted. I'm not sure if he has ever been a Dom online before but he sure had no problems getting into that mode with me. I saved our chat last night to read it sometime as it was one of the most sexual chats I have had in a very long time. I'm curious if anyone would like to read it? I'm considering posting it sometime for everyone to read. I think it was a very hot and naughty chat and it might turn a few people on. I spanked myself for him and I was told to give myself an orgasm with my Hiatchi. We had some cyber sex which was fun and playful. Hours flew by fast with the naughty play online. Before I knew it...I had cum twice and he had cum once and my ass was red and sore and it was 2 am and time for bed! I really needed the escape and fun. It was a wild time and I sure hope I can do it again with macho superman. He was a lot of fun to play with. It's been a while since I had some naughty cyber sex and I enjoyed it a lot. :) Today Master Anakin and I got some sitting time and decided to head out for some exploring. We headed down to the Fraser River and went to Fort Langley today to look around. I did a very naughty tit flash down at the Fraser River which we will be putting up later in the week for HNT. The breeze made my nipples hard and very excited to be such a naughty exhibitionist. I think I need a spanking. What do you think? Do I need a spanking? What kind of spanking do you think I deserve tonight? Do I need Master's belt? Perhaps a hard OTK or paddling? Tell us what you think...what does a naughty slut deserve tonight?? Tonight I'm chatting with the sexiest blogger I know...my lovely and sexy friend, Shasta Gibson. I'm relaxed and I'm also feeling like little miss dangerous. She brings out some very sexy feelings in me...and I'm so happy to feel like little miss dangerous again. It feels good to be back...to feel horny and sexy and happy. I was told that I could chat on the computer tonight while Master Anakin watches the free UFC fights on spike TV tonight. I was told to put in a butt plug up my ass which is in right now. I was told to get rid of my bra and put on my chain collar. Mmmmmm...I feel like such a naughty little slut. I'm extremely horny and needing some play tonight. Wanna play? mmmm...anyone feel like a little naughty time with a very horny padme amidala?? I wonder if I could find another perfect stranger to play with tonight... I want to play on the darkside and hopefully I'll get some time with Darth Vader tonight...who knows what kind of naughty play with happen tonight. :) I hope everyone is having a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Have you seen little miss dangerous?

Have you seen "little miss dangerous?" I have been looking for her. She seems to have just disappeared...missing without a trace. I sure miss her...the naughty fun and play she used to have and her very high sex drive. little miss dangerous seemed to take a summer vacation and she never came back again. A few weeks ago all the naughty fun and good times seemed to have just stopped dead. The poly seemed to go on hold...it seems like to me that no one wants to play with me anymore. :( I have no plans to see Max and it's been a few weeks since we played together. There havn't been any sexy phone calls or webcam nights either in a while. I admit I've felt really lost lately and insecure. I feel like the future of the poly part of our relationship is up in the air. Maybe I'm getting too old for the poly? The playing part always feels great but the emotional part afterwards doesn't. I will feel a connection some someone and then they disappear on me or they don't want to play with me anymore. Maybe they miss little miss dangerous. She was so much fun to play with and so confident sexually and ready for action at any time! I have also felt disconnected from Master Anakin. It seems like we hardly have any naughty fun either together. I really miss our force. I miss that connection...I miss Master. I told him last night that I missed Master and he told me that I was just saying that to get attention. It made me upset and angry inside. I need Master right now because of all the changes I am going through. I need his strength and dominance. I got to see shades of Darth Vader last night. He was in a mood and I went to bed feeling alone. I miss being spanked...I miss pain...I miss bdsm....I miss bondage and play. I miss my sex drive. I miss the escape and fun we used to have. Maybe Darth Vader misses little miss dangerous. She used to be a lot of fun...dressing up and being pouty and bratty and seducing him with her wicked ways. I wonder what happened to little miss dangerous? Have you seen her? Where do you think she went? I'd really like to know....cause she was a lot of fun. TGIF. Thank you for the comments on the HNT post. We are really glad everyone liked it. It was a very erotic bondage one and I can still remember what it felt like that day being bound by that homemade yoke that was bolted into the ceiling. It was very intense bondage. I felt like Master's slave...owned and controlled. I'm going through some major changes right now this week. It's been extremely intense. I feel strong at moments and then I crash. Life hasn't been easy for those around me lately. I'm trying so hard to stay clean with the sober in September. This is *extremely* hard for me this weekend to stay sober. It will be my first sober weekend in months. Maybe even years. I honestly don't remember the last time I stayed sober for a whole weekend. The thought scares me a bit...I'm afraid I've lost my "little miss dangerous" in me...that she's never coming back. I'm very sexually frustrated right now. My force does not feel very strong...I need Darth to take me to the darkside and show me the power of the darkside... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Basement bondage

Happy HNT everyone. I hope everyone enjoys this week's HNT photograph of my padme. she's pictured here purring in the darkness of our basement. It was dark but for the spotlight I had on her, my playfully tormented prisoner. she's pictured solidly chained up to a ceiling mounted suspension bar and yoke. She's also entangled in a bull whip. I had her dress in her fetish boots, a short leather skirt, fishnet stockings and her play collar. It was thrilling in a twisted way visiting Home Depot to buy the parts to make this suspension bar and yoke. I drew up the plans at home and then went into Home Depot with my dirty list; six lengths of thick but light chain, the wooden doweling to be used as a yoke, various hooks and fixtures. It all came together perfectly, though, to the wide eyed delight of my padme. I suspended the apparatus from heavy screws and hook in the basement ceiling and adjusted the height to fit My slave. I chained her wrists to the doweling and walked away and turned out the lights. In the darkness, I trained a spotlight on her and turned it on. she couldn't see me. I proceeded to taunt, question, and spank to our mutual delight. Oh how I love visits to Home Depot. I hadn't done a sepia tone Photoshop image in a while, so I hope this attempt is pleasing to the eyes. I added the shadow of a cross (not intentionally religious at all) on her face for privacy, but everything else remains sepia toned for your viewing pleasure. I hope you enjoy (click on the image for a full sized view) and please leave us a comment; we'd love to hear from you. Again, Happy HNT everyone. May the Force be with you. Anakin Technorati Tags: HNT, bondage, yoke, erotic picture, spanking, suspension, sepia

Back to school today

It's back to school today and I thought I'd share a very sexy back to school picture with you. There's nothing like a naughty schoolgirl to complete the back to school look. This photo was taken last year with me in the schoolgirl skirt and white innocent thigh-hi's and sexy white top sitting on top of the school desk we have in our basement. I imagine when I was going to school that this outfit would have turned a few boy's heads. lol. I dated 3 guy's in high school who went to catholic private school. One of them was the boyfriend who gave me my first spanking at 16 years old. He was a very cute guy who used to draw pictures for me. His sister was the first one I ever saw wear a real schoolgirl outfit. I remember thinking about how sexy she looked in it. Years later with Master Anakin...he admitted a fantasy to me about having a fetish for schoolgirls. I bought my first schoolgirl outfit and the rest is history...I've got many different schoolgirl looks for all kinds of naughty times. My kid's were back to school today. Skywalker starts his first full day tommorow of grade 1 and Princess Leia will be in grade 7. It's so amazing to me that they are growing up so fast. Leia decided it was "not cool" to have her mom walk her to her class this morning. lol. They weren't in school very long. I was back to my walking. It felt good to be outside even in the rain this morning. I started my detox kit this morning and I'm doing very well with eating healthy foods. I plan to do a post on Journey to the Lightside more about my new changes. I'm very happy to be back to feeling controlled again also by Darth Vader. I've got some strict rules now to follow and I'm happy to know that I will be losing weight or getting punishment spankings. I know this will motivate me a lot. I lost weight before with the spankings I received for not losing weight. I will be doing diet updates when I can here also as well as my fitness/diet blog. I will be very focused on that this month and it will be a big part of my life. If I don't lose weight...you'll be hearing all about the punishment spankings here at Journey to the Darkside. :) I did weigh-in yesterday and am still at 198. I was hoping some of the weight would go down after my period but no luck. Thankfully the new rules started only yesterday so this weigh-in did not count. I've got to lose one pound a week or I am getting a punishment spanking. Yikes!! I am hoping to get some diet friend's who will kick my butt also to support and encourage me with this new chapter in my life. Please e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com if you are interested in being diet buddies and taking this journey with me. I am posting this link from Rocky Balboa today to inspire others. I really loved what he said in the speech. That movie really inspires me so much. I have Rocky music on the Ipod I like to listen to while I walk. :) I wanted to post this meme also from New Beginnings. It looked really good. :) 1. What was the first blog that you regularly read? I read Patty's blog (when it was Creative Spanked Wife) first for months and lurked on there. I found a link to someone else and then started to read a few other ones before starting Journey to the Darkside. 2. Do you remember the first" blogger" that you had an E-Mail Relationship with? The first blogger I had a e-mail relationship with was Jewels. She no longer blogs anymore but I contacted her through e-mail and she set up Journey to the Darkside for Master Anakin and I. We exchanged a lot of e-mails back and forth. We havn't talked since she stopped blogging. 3. Why did you create your blog? I created the blog to make friends. It was more for the social aspect more than anything at first. I wanted to meet other people. I was feeling very isolated at the time I started Journey to the Darkside. I would talk to my friend, S but she didn't know about my spanko desires or about being Master's slave. I was hoping to meet other friend's who would understand that part of myself and I've met some wonderful friend's through Journey. :) 4. When was your first post, and who was your first commenter? Our first post was back in September 2005 and the first commenter was Bill B/Adam from New York. He left his comment on our first blog post ever written. 5. Are there blogs that you absolutely have to visit daily? I visit around 5-10 blogs daily. I try to visit the others on my links as often as I can. Many blogs I lurk on but some I comment on regularly. 6. Is your Blog categorized?..(I.E. Comedy, Literary, Personal Angst, Etc.) We are a spanking/sex/bdsm/Star Wars blog but I also like to think Journey to the Darkside also is about life. I don't like to categorize our blog because I like to discuss all aspects on life on our blog from our family stuff to sexy times or spanking adventures. We tried at one point to make Journey to the Darkside strictly a spanking blog but I found it too hard to write about spankings all the time. 7. Do you see an end to your blogging some day? I've thought about giving up blogging a few times. I'm sure the day will come one day that the Journey will come to an end... 8. What are you wearing right this very minute? lol. Strange question. I'm wearing my "spank me" panties and no bra and my black capri's and boca shirt. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Sugasm #95

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Fall is coming and it's back to school

I was given permission today to write a blog post. I'm under very strict rules and Darth Vader's watchful eyes right now. He's been watching every move I have been making and being my Daddy and my Master the last few days. I've had a very difficult few days this labor day long weekend. I am very depressed and having a very hard time finding my force again. I found out some really bad news about my Grandma. I know she had been having health problems the last few year but I didn't know how bad it was until Friday night. She phoned me to tell me things that she was afraid she might not have the chance to say to me. She's not doing very well and it breaks my heart to know that I will be losing my last grandparent and someone I love so much someday soon. The ten year anniversary since I lost two grandparent's who meant the world to me is coming up. They both passed away shortly after Princess Diana did. Ten years later and I'm losing the other woman I am closest to. My Grandma is the strongest woman I know and I love her to pieces. I wanted to elope with Master Anakin to Las Vegas but I decided instead to do a family wedding so she could be there and see it. She didn't get to see my first wedding and I wanted to make sure she was there for the second one. I honestly don't know how I am going to handle her death...when I think about it, I start to lose it. I am not close to many members of my family but I've always had a close relationship with my Grandma. I am not sure what will happen to my Dad and I's relationship after she passes because she has brought us together a few times when I didn't want anything to do with him. I'm so angry with my Dad and wish I could somehow try to let it go and forgive him. How do I do that though? How do I forgive after all that he's done to me and to others I care about? I'm depressed and trying to deal with the many changes happening right now. It's back to school time tommorow and my whole structure and rountine is about to change. I will be back on a bedtime again and getting up earlier and back to my walks again. Master is seizing control of everything again...I am being controlled tight right now so I don't slip into a black hole. I want to not get out of my pj's and leave the house but he's been taking care of me and has been trying to get me out. He is taking over Journey to the Darkside for a while also for me. It's too hard to write sexy blog posts when I have lost my sex drive and am not feeling too sexy these days. Tommorow Skywalker will be going into grade 1 and full days. Princess Leia is going into grade 7. Next year is high school and she turns 13!! I admit I'm having a bit of a hard time with my kid's growing up so fast. There are no more babies for me. I'm turning 35 next month and lately I just have felt old. I will be getting my days free for the first time in a very long time. I'm not sure what I am going to do with my extra time. Some people have asked me about going back to work but I havn't worked in 12 years and Master Anakin likes to me to be a house slave. I have decided to go ahead on my Sober in September. I will be still blogging at Journey to the Lightside as it helps me to write about my new diet and feelings about it. Tommorow I start my Detox kit and today I am starting my very strict diet. I will not be eating chocolate for all of September and no more chips or snacks. It's going to be very tough and I am hoping to get my life cleaned up and back to being healthy again. Thank you to everyone who has supported me with it. I'd like to tell Master Anakin that I really love him and to thank him for being there for me this weekend. He is my true Jedi and force and I am so lucky to have him in my life. He put on Revenge of the Sith for me last night because he thought it would cheer me up. He knows me so well...I really enjoyed watching Star Wars together. I will not be online very much in the next week as I adjust to the new changes happening and dealing with what is happening with my Grandma and family. I do intend to keep focused on my diet and getting strong and healthy again. I'm hoping that my force will be strong again soon... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Taking over, seizing control

I have decided that My padme needs a break from blogging and all the activity that that entails. I'll be taking over Journey to the Darkside and all our online responsibilities for a time until I see that My padme is fit to return. she will not be online as she must rest and will be concentrating on getting better and stronger. she got some bad family news this weekend and is struggling with that. Also, she's been blogging steadily for the past two years and it is time for her to pause. I will of course continue to post, publish and read your comments, and answer incoming email. I would ask that email concerning Journey be directed to me at anakins.blog@gmail.com. Don't worry; any emails that are mistakenly sent to padme will be forwarded to me for response. There are times when it is wiser to step back; this is one of them. I look forward to being the face of Journey to the Darkside for a time. I'm usually lurking in the dark shadows behind My padme. Now I'm stepping into the light. It is My pleasure to do this for my padme. I love her more than life itself and she needs to be taken care of right now. May the force be with you Anakin

Journey to the Darkside's 2 year blogging anniversary

This long weekend is a very special anniversary for Journey to the Darkside. We are turning 2 years old. Amazing how this blog has turned out after 2 years. We've had over a million reader's and many people keep returning to be a part of our journey. We even have an online store now which is starting to do well. :) Master Anakin and I both thank you all so much. I'm sharing two pictures today from two different headers for Journey to the Darkside. The fairy header was our original one when I was called shyanne. I love fairies and this picture really touched me. I have a postcard of that exact picture on my fireplace mantle. I love it. Amy Brown is awesome. I really love her work. I have fairy stuff all through my place. The other header is during a time when I became padme and changed my name from shyanne. We wanted to go a more Star Wars type of approach to this blog and we also got into Star Wars Sunday not long after that. Last year for our first year anniversary we had a Star Wars spanking party online. It's hard to believe it's been a year since that happened. I honestly didn't expect to be blogging this long. There were many times I wanted to delete this blog and Master Anakin stopped me. People have asked me "why do I blog". I blog because I like to have an outlet where I can write out my fantasies or feelings. I have tried to open myself up more lately on this blog...show everyone that there is a real padme amidala outside of this blog. I'm a slave but also a mother and a wife. There is more to me than just being little miss dangerous and getting spanked all the time. I know many people wanted us to have just a spanking blog but I just can't do that. Journey to the Darkside is more a life blog than anything else. We share all sides of us...the spanko side, the kinky side, the Master/slave side but also the side of being parent's and husband and wife. Blogging has been a real journey for us. It's helped us to make new friend's and it's also had it's challenges also. I know it's taken up a lot of time and we've put some blood, sweat and tears into this blog. We have always tried to post often and to have our own unique type of blog. I didn't know anyone else who did a Star Wars sex/spanking blog and I was really happy to have our own type of theme for Journey to the Darkside. We thank you all for being a part of our Journey...our Journey to the Darkside. Please leave a comment today telling us what you have liked the most with our blog. We would love to hear from you for our 2 year blogging anniversary. ... It's after 1 am in the morning and I'm exhausted, depressed and drunk. I was having a really good day today and came home feeling happier than I had in weeks. Then I got the call from my Grandma. She's not doing very well and had some serious health problems lately. My Dad isn't treating her very good and she was very upset about it. Her 80th birthday is in a few days and my Dad is too busy to make time for her. She's not going to be around too much longer...she has had a difficult year and it upsets me that he's being such an asshole. It's not fair!! He's really turned into a bitter old man who is so unhappy with his life that he's decided to bring others down and try to make other as miserable as he is feeling. I know he wasn't being very nice to my sister lately either. I'm so angry tonight that I want to phone him up and tell him what I think of this. I couldn't sleep and I hoped maybe writing some of this out would help me with the insomnia I am feeling tonight. Master Anakin fell asleep an hour ago and I've been doing a lot of crying tonight. It was so hard to hear my Grandma in so much pain tonight...to hear her crying and so upset. I love her and she's one of the closest to my heart. I honestly don't know how I'll handle it when she passes away. I know I don't have very long left with her and I want to try to spend time with her before she is gone. Master Anakin's grandma is not doing too good either right now. She's had some serious health problems this year too and is turning 94. She's been in and out of the hospital too. I'm scared cause I know that we could get that phone call anyday now...that one of them is gone. I love them both and it really tears my heart up inside to know that Master Anakin and I have to get prepared for that. It's the long weekend and there isn't going to be too much sexy fun this weekend...I got my period and I feel bloated and awful. Emotionally I feel all over the place after that phone call from my Grandma. My force doesn't feel very strong...I'm alone tonight and I just feel crappy. :( I'm supposed to start sober in september today and I'm not sure how I am doing to do it. Cause right now I just want to drink and try to not feel. I'd like to be numb right now.... My grandma told me to "forgive my Dad" even though he continues to hurt people and has hurt me my whole life. She told me that she had forgiven him for all the hurt he has done to her. She told me I carry too much rage inside and need to let it go and forgive him. Maybe she's right...maybe I need to just let it go..I just don't know how to do that. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala