Happy New Year from Anakin and padme

My padme and I wish all of you a happy and prosperous new year for 2008! Thank you for joining us on our Journey in 2007. We look forward to sharing our adventures with you in 2008. A special thank you to Fleshbot for the mention of our recent post Saturday night bondage and wooden spoon spanking. Welcome new readers to Journey to the Darkside. May the force be with you. ~Anakin and padme amidala

Saturday night bondage and wooden spoon spanking

It's been a while since I posted some new spanking pictures (click to enlarge) and details of my play with Darth Vader. Last night I got to spend some time on the darkside and am glowing from all the attention on my ass and playtime. We have spent the week getting our force back and we have been playing every night since Boxing Day. Leia is gone until the 9th of January and Skywalker is a very solid sleeper. He's been going to bed early lately and allowed us the chance to have hours of play. Every night we have been doing something different and Master has had me on the edge at all times. Constant non-stop kink. During the day I need permission for everything. He's been monitoring me for any attitude or bratty behavior. Every night my ass has had attention and I've been in bondage for the last two nights. He will give me a hint of what is to come that night but he doesn't tell me his wicked plans for me. I feel constantly aroused and have cum so many times since boxing day. Last night I was not allowed to cum though. I was teased and sexually tortured for hours but denied orgasm. He wouldn't fuck me but get me close to the orgasm and then deny me. I would then get spanked hard with the wooden spoon on my ass and then he would use his fingers again to get me close. We headed upstairs and I was nervous about what was to come. He told me that I would be in extended bondage for a few hours and to get comfortable before going into the cuffs. I went to the bathroom and prepared myself for the bondage. I noticed a pillow at the end of the bed and a wooden spoon laying on it. That wooden spoon was one of my Christmas presents in my stocking. It's a wicked little toy. I thought because it was smaller than the leather or Anakin's paddle that it wouldn't hurt as much as those other toys. Boy was I wrong!! That toy made my ass sting and glow red and it brought me to tears last night. He had laid out the handcuffs and leg cuffs and also my leash. I love being on the leash. It makes me feel owned and I feel his control over everything that I am doing. I can't even go to the bathroom without his permission. He put me right on the leash and removed my panties for me. He wanted a naked ass for spanking. He put me over the pillow and then put on the handcuffs and leg cuffs. You can see in the pictures today what it looked like. I had my blue slipper socks on to keep my feet warm and my new nightie but no panties. I was facing the tv in our room so I could watch the movie he chose. He went through the channels and decided on the movie, Goodfellas. He knows that I love Mafia movies and that one is one of my favorites. I didn't get to watch a lot of the movie though because my mind was in other places. For two hours while in bondage I was spanked constantly with the wooden spoon and teased and sexually tortured. He had me in such a state of arousal that I was begging for him to fuck me. He wouldn't though. He said I am on orgasm denial now until New years eve tommorow night for our overnight. We have a whole night free for New years eve to spend together with no kids. He plans to take me to a movie and dinner and then home to spend the rest of the night playing. I have been told like always I will be getting my ass spanked as we ring in the new year together. We've done that the last few years and it's always made for a great beginning for the new year. I loved the feeling of being in bondage for a long time and feeling free of any decisions. He fed me and he pet me and he controlled my body and mind. I felt myself floating at one point into a submissive state of bliss and subspace. My only thought was on pleasing him and taking the pain for him. That wooden spoon spanked my poor ass over and over again. He would stop and take a break and have a drink and then watch a bit of the movie before starting to spank me again. My body jerked around a few times at how intense he spanked. The pain making my ass sting under the attack of that wooden spoon. At one point he told me there was some blood on it. He had spanked me so hard that one of my scabs fell off from a previous spanking the night before from that new cane. I was told to come cuddle with him while we watched the end of the movie. He wouldn't let me out of the bondage though. I was also kept on the leash. I felt so utterly submissive at that moment. True peace and happiness while cuddling up to the dark Master who made my ass bleed for him. That same Master who was slapping my face the night before and hurting me. Last night was the perfect kind of night for Darth Vader and I. We played on the darkside with plans to play again tonight and then a huge play night for tommorow for New years eve. I have been told today will be about anal play. I am going to be wearing my butt plug for hours and getting lots of anal attention. No orgasms though until tommorow night for me. I will have to suffer again tonight for him and then take the pain and hopefully earn the orgasms he will give me tommorow. I hope everyone enjoys the pictures from last night. One picture is an action shot of my wooden spoon spanking. You can see my red bottom in another. We have enjoyed sharing our spanking stories and adventures with all of you in 2007. We hope there will be many more to share with you in 2008! The last few days have been a great way to spend the holidays and I hope 2008 will bring me as much pain and pleasure as 2007 has. How are your holidays going? Anyone else getting spanked and fucked and having lots of naughty fun? May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Joining Twitter

My close friend, Shasta convinced me to try Twitter and I joined up today. It's pretty neat actually. I joined up today as padmeamidala. Feel free to add me if you have Twitter and are interested in my daily adventures. It's a way of updating what I am up to whether it's being naughty or doing something nice. :) I am only following Shasta so far but if anyone else has Twitter, let me know and I can follow you too. It's a way to stay in touch and keep updated on what everyone is up to. :) I'm still figuring it out and how it works but it looks pretty neat and I look forward to adding more people and exploring all the features. I have enjoyed being on facebook a lot so hopefully this will be just as fun! I hope everyone is having a good weekend. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Christmas presents from our Darkside online store

This year was very exciting for Journey to the Darkside. We started an online store called Darkside Digital Arts around the same time we reached a million hits. Master had many good ideas for designs and ideas for our online store and started to work on it. We've been enjoying selling our designs and very proud that we own a few of them to wear. I have a little miss dangerous t-shirt that I received for my birthday and this Christmas we bought ourselves each a t-shirt as a gift to one another. I picked out the "Bad Pussy" t-shirt as it's one of my favorite designs for our store. I love it and wanted to let Master Anakin know that it's one of my favorite Christmas gifts he bought me and say a special thank you to him for spoiling me this Christmas. We bought a "Bad Pussy" mug for Christmas for our friend, Shasta which she posted a picture of it today and posted about it. I know she likes that Bad Pussy design a lot too. . :) We also bought another mug from our online store for our friend's, Griz and good girl for Christmas and we picked out the Pirate design for them as we knew they really enjoyed the Pirates of the Caribbean movie a lot. We are really happy that everyone who got gifts from our store enjoyed them. :) Master Anakin picked out a C.C.C.P. t-shirt which stands for Union of Soviet Socialist Republics which is the old Soviet Union. He was very happy with it and it looks great on him and we are sharing a picture of it today for everyone to see. We'd like to thank everyone who has bought something from Darkside Digital Arts. We appreciate your business and we will be bringing many more designs in 2008! If there is anyone out there wanting to see certain designs or has an idea for our store, please e-mail Anakin at anakins.blog@gmail.com. Please make sure to vote in our latest poll. We put up the top 3 favorite HNT pictures in my last blog post and have asked people to vote on what their favorite one is. We would love to hear from you. It's been a really nice holiday for Master Anakin and I. He's been home an extra two days this week and we've had a lot of play time and reconnecting. I've been told to prepare myself for some bondage this weekend and heavy bdsm play. He wants me to refocus on my slavery to him and get me back into line for the New Year. We had a few weeks when his Grandma was passing away that I was having to take over a lot more of the responsibilities and I am very happy now to be giving that up now and getting back to my submission to him. It's had me very centered and happy and feeling more peaceful than I have in months. I feel an inner calm in me with knowing that I am owned and loved and that we are back to getting our force back. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

What is your favorite HNT picture of 2007?

Master Anakin and I have had a very busy day today getting our Christmas decorations and tree down for the year. It's hard to believe Christmas is really over and we are getting ready for New Year's eve which is coming up quickly. I have found myself reflecting a lot the last few days on everything that has happened in 2007. It's been quite a year for Master and I but also for this blog. Our Journey has had it's ups and downs and lots of different erotic pictures we have put up for HNT and to share on our journey. I've dressed up in different outfits and we've shared different moments that happened during our play this year. We have been doing HNT pictures for almost 2 years. Master Anakin has invested a lot of time into photoshopping some of them and coming up with new and unique ideas for our HNT pictures each week. I've flashed my tits in different places like on a boat and in a milkhouse. I've had my ass red many times with lots of spanking pictures to prove it. We have done different types of bondage and play and all of them have made for pretty erotic and exciting HNT pictures. We put up a poll on our sidebar today and we hope you will vote on your favorite HNT picture of 2007. We would love to hear from you. Which picture was your favorite and why? What kinds of pictures would you like to see for 2008? Anyone have any ideas of places they would like to see me flash my tits? Please leave us a comment or e-mail and let us know. We enjoy the feedback and hearing from everyone. Master Anakin and I both picked out our top 3 HNT pictures we enjoyed the most for 2007 and we've put it to a poll to see which one will win for favorite HNT picture of 2007. The choices are: Master Anakin's top 3 favorite HNT pictures: #1- Happy HNT - Waiting for a cropping #2- Happy HNT - Bed Bondage subspace #3- Happy HNT - Black and Yellow padme amidala's top 3 favorite HNT pictures: #1- Happy HNT - Classic Nude #2- Happy HNT - Geisha Fantasy #3- Happy HNT - Bad Girl in the Corner Each picture reminds me of different nights that we played and different spankings I received or moments between Master and I. It was very hard to choose between all the different HNT pictures we have taken this last year. If you would like to look at anymore of our HNT's, just click on our sidebar for Half-Nekkid Thursday and check them all out! There is almost 2 year's worth of different HNT pictures and there is many more to come for 2008! Speaking of spanking pictures...we took a few last night during our play we had during our overnight. We got a big surprise when Skywalker went for an overnight just after Leia left with her Dad. We were not expecting it at all. We thought about going to a movie but we wanted to have a play night instead. We watched a movie and tried out the new wooden spoon on my ass and some other toys we played with also. Would anyone like the details and pictures from last night? I dressed up really cute for Master and got a very red bottom. Our force is strong and we are both very happy today and relaxed. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A Skywalker Christmas

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas! It feels good to be writing again. I admit I was missing the blog a bit during our holiday hiatus. I am back to writing but I am still trying to limit my computer time while Master Anakin is at home and also trying to read The Ethical Slut and also testing out new toys and gifts that Santa brought me. I wanted to share a few memories and pictures from our holidays. I threw in a naughty picture from the night we did the Holiday Hooters HNT picture. I like this picture as it's a bit different than that one as you can see my leash and red lingerie. We havn't taken any other naughty pictures this Christmas but we do plan to take a few tonight when we play. Leia leaves today for almost two weeks and we are going to have some play time tonight and try out a few of the new toys. I got a package of wooden spoons in my stocking. I am not thinking they were for cooking either. lol. Master also bought me a new cane which we hope to test out tonight. Santa brought me some gifts I really wanted also like Miami Vice Season 5 DVD's and brand new fuzzy pink slippers which are awesome and comfy! I got jewlery and all kinds of smelly stuff from Lush and other places. I was truly spoiled. I guess I made the nice list this year. I was a bit worried as I have been very naughty this year. :) I can't believe that Christmas is over already. It came and went very quickly and we have a fridge full of turkey and goodies. I did a lot of baking this year which really pleased Master. I got the kids to help me and we filled up Christmas containers for gifts to people full of baked goods and chocolate goodies. We did gingerbread men, double chocolate chip and plain chocolate chip also. The kids decorated a gingerbread house too which I am putting up a picture of today. The kids were totally spoiled. Leia got new rollerblades from Santa and Skywalker got a new Nintendo Ds Lite. There seemed to be non-stop gifts happening yesterday. Even Meisha got totally spoiled for her 2nd birthday and Christmas. Santa brought her a stocking of cat nip and fuzzy mice to play with. She needed a long nap yesterday afternoon after all the excitement and cat nip. lol. The best part of Christmas was being together with the whole Skywalker family this year. Leia was there for the whole Christmas and doesn't leave until today. Usually I split the holiday with my ex husband but this year he gave us the whole Christmas which was really wonderful. She got to come with us to Church on Christmas eve for the service. They had a live nativity and angel choir at the church and the kids and us really enjoyed it. There were some spiritual moments during Christmas and wonderful memories. I will remember this as being one of the best Christmas's we have ever had. Our family was together yesterday and I spent most of the day on the phone with family like my sister and mom and dad and grandma and brother. My grandma got released from the hospital right before Christmas and is doing ok. We had Master's parent's over and also his Uncle and girlfriend for dinner. I felt very close to some people during the holidays and I also feel very disconnected from other people. I guess the holidays are like that though...ups and downs and all kinds of different memories for people. How was your Christmas? I hope everyone survived with no hangovers or too much family stress. I know I had a few too many cocktails and Christmas drinks. lol. Master and I reconnected and our force felt very strong this Christmas. We usually fight and have a lot of stress during the holidays but this year felt very different. We had a really rough first few weeks in December and I was a bit worried it would affect our holidays but it didn't. Saturday the 22nd was a really wonderful day for us that I won't ever forget. We had a few hours of sitting and went out for a date to see I am Legend. We did a lot of talking that day and spent a lot of time reconnecting after a very stressful week. I had countless orgasms that night and got my ass spanked by all kinds of toys like our new paddle and his belt and hand. It had been a really long time since I felt my ass that sore. It was the best kind of play with lots of spanking and bdsm play. We both needed it and it brought us very close for Christmas. There is nothing better than making love under a Christmas tree. That was our private celebration for Christmas that night and so magical and wonderful! New year's eve is just around the corner and I am feeling many changes happening in my life right now and for 2008. There could be a really major change happening for the Skywalkers next year and that has been on my mind a lot. I am a bit nervous but also very excited. I have a very positive feeling for 2008. I am excited about New year's eve and spending the night with Master Anakin. We have some very special plans for that night and I can't wait. :) Today I am hoping to hit the mall for those boxing day sales! We got a whole bunch of gift cards this Christmas and I want to hopefully do a bit of retail therapy. Tonight is play night with Master and trying out the new toys. I wonder how that cane will feel against my ass...mmmm....it feels damn good to get my sex drive back and also little miss dangerous!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy Holidays from Anakin and padme

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Happy Holiday HNT - Naughty by Night Christmas panties

Happy HNT! It's been a while since I put up a sexy post here on Journey to the Darkside. We've got two sexy pictures for you today for HNT. The last while has been difficult on Master Anakin and I and I don't have too many sexy or naughty stories to share. Today I just started my period so I doubt there will be any sexy details to share for a while. I'm glad at least this year I won't be getting it through Christmas time like last year. Master Anakin and I both have gone through a very difficult week with the loss of his Grandma and also the funeral which happened yesterday. I'm not sure words can quite describe what that all felt like with that kind of funeral and all the emotions happening. I've never been to a funeral like that or viewed a body before. It was all very emotionally draining. I'm glad to be having a very quiet day today and I'm doing little things to comfort myself...drinking loose tea and eating some chocolate and lots of resting. I was happy today to have some quiet time. Master Anakin had to work and errands to run so I've had the day to myself. I've been able to catch up a bit on e-mails and reading a few blogs and also I had a really nice long talk on the phone with my good friend, Shasta today. It's really helped me to know that Shasta is going through something very similar right now and we can be there for each other right now. Her husband, Jack just recently lost his Grandma too and they are both dealing with loss right before the holidays. This is a really tough time of the year for these types of things to happen. You want to try to enjoy the holidays but it's hard when you are dealing with loss and stress. Our deepest condolences go out to Jack and Shasta and I hope they both know we are thinking of them right now. We are also dealing with some other difficult things which are happening in both of our families. My Grandma (who has been very ill for months) had gone into the hospital and isn't doing very well. Master Anakin's Uncle went in for life-saving surgery today and we are still waiting for word about him. It just seems to be so much happening all at once. It's been a bit overwhelming the last few days. I havn't been on the computer as much or keeping up with blogs or even wanting to write in our own blog. We both think this is a very good time for us to go on holiday hiatus. We will not be posting again until after Christmas. There is just too much going on and we need to also start preparing for Christmas which is coming up quickly. I've got baking to do and a place to get cleaned up and ready for the holidays. It's going to be a very busy time and that leaves little time for blogging. We havn't taken a break since the summer when we went on our family vacation. I know I always come back from a break feeling refreshed and ready for blogging again. I look forward to posting more HNT's and we have many more ideas for future blog posts for 2008. It's hard to believe that in this last year we have gotten over a million hits here at Journey to the Darkside and also started a online store, Darkside Digital Arts. We have also done many posts and shared many pictures (erotic and vanilla) and details about our different adventures. It has been quite a year! Many ups and downs and sexy and naughty times and some sad ones too. I have really enjoyed the direction that I am taking on this blog with writing honest posts about my feelings and what is going on in our lives whether that is good or bad. I like to think of this blog as a diary about what is going on in our lives and sharing more than just spanking posts or sexy pictures with everyone. I've enjoyed sharing it all with our readers and having others there for support or with comments or e-mails. We appreciate them all so much! There is a new holiday poll on our side bar about what you enjoy drinking through the holidays. We hope you will vote. We always enjoy the responses to our different polls we put up. :) Master Anakin was able to do a new HNT for today to start our hiatus for the holidays. It's a holiday themed fun picture of me wearing my new Christmas panties and new nightie and a Santa hat. I dressed up for Master Anakin last weekend and he took a few pictures of what I looked like. The new Christmas panties say "nice by day" on the front and "naughty by night" on the other end. Master Anakin loves how they look on me and said I looked very Christmasy and cute. :) I decided to put up the other picture that was put up last year before our holiday hiatus for those that never had the chance to see it. It is of Master Anakin and I standing beside our Christmas tree. I'm dressed up in my Christmas thigh-hi's and leather skirt and cupcake shirt. I was also wearing my Santa hat that night. Master was dressed in black holding onto the crop. We both hope you enjoy both holiday pictures....we think they are both sexy and themed perfectly for the holidays. :) We have taken some other holiday HNT's over the last few weeks including: Happy HNT - Holiday Hooters Happy HNT - Silver Bow and Red Ass Happy HNT - Candy cane cropping Which one is your favorite of all the holiday HNT's? We would love to hear from you. Please leave us a comment or drop us an e-mail. We always appreciate and enjoy the feedback. See you after Christmas! Master Anakin and I both wish all of you a very Merry Christmas and happy holidays! Thank you for being a part of our Journey...our Journey to the Darkside. We hope you will continue to be there for our journey in 2008. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy 2nd birthday Meisha!

I am posting this early as I don't plan on blogging on Meisha's birthday which is coming up on Christmas Eve. Our kitty, Meisha is turning 2 years old! I can still remember her being a little baby kitten with tiny mews and so small that we could hold onto her in the palm of our hand. She's been a real welcome to the Skywalker family and given us a lot of joy and a few headaches too! lol. She loves to get into things and wake us up early in the morning wanting her food. Sometimes she can be really cute too though. She loves to play fetch which is really strange for a cat. We'll throw her mouse at her and she'll get it and put it in her mouth and bring it back to us to throw again. I can't imagine our family without the furry one in our lives. I love this picture which was taken a few weeks ago of her all dressed up in a Santa outfit. We got it from Pet Smart for her. It comes with a Santa hat and also the outfit. She was soooo cute! Our little Christmas kitty is going to have a birthday and I'm wanting to wish her a very happy 2nd birthday! May the force be with you with the year ahead, Meisha! ~padme amidala (and also from Master Anakin too!)

For Master Anakin..

WwW.SparkleTags.Com Master Anakin, My thoughts are with you during this difficult time. I know that tommorow will be a difficult day for our family and also your family with the service and funeral of your Grandma. We will be saying goodbye to a woman that we both loved and respected. She is resting in peace now and I hope that you know that she loved you very much. One of best decisions that we made was to go ahead with a family wedding so that both of our Grandma's could be there to see it. I will never forget how wonderful it felt sitting there that day with our Grandma's and sharing laughter and good times with. Your Grandma was a great lady and I am proud to have known her. Please know that I am there by your side tommorow and always. I am there as your wife and also as your slave. The best service I can do right now is to be there for you and help you get through this difficult time. Our force is strong and I know we will make it through this, just as we got through other difficult times we have had in the last 11 years together. May your Grandma rest in peace and know she will live in our hearts forever...this song is for her... Love padme amidala

Christmas blues

I am feeling so extremely overwhelmed today. It feels like the world around me is crashing in. I think a lot of things are hitting me today and I am also starting PMS. Perfect timing with the funeral coming up in two days. I am honestly not sure how I am going to get through Tuesday. We have to get up early and get ourselves and kids ready for the funeral. Master Anakin is a pallbearer and needs to arrive early to help carry the casket in. Both are children are attending the service. Apparently there is going to be an open casket which is something I have never experienced before. I have not decided yet if I will go up to view the body. The whole thing really creeps me out just thinking about. Master Anakin will be speaking and also he did up a beautiful poem for his Grandma. He printed it out on really beautiful paper and plans to give that out before the funeral to everyone. After the funeral we are attending the burial. I have never been to one before. This is all very new to me. My grandparent's funerals were a lot different. I'm not sure how my children are going to react to all of this and that part really stresses me out a lot. I really didn't want Skywalker to attend but my mother-in-law really wants him there. After the burial is a tea. The Christmas concert for our children is that night so we need to come home and make dinner and get ready for that. I'm not sure how we or the kids will be able to go from all that funeral stuff to Christmas stuff all in one day like that. I am not looking forward to Tuesday and it's on my mind a lot today. I can't think of anything but that. I'm having a hard time even thinking about the holidays. I've got the Christmas blues today. I am very depressed and overwhelmed and I wish someone could give me a really big hug right now. I know Master Anakin is very overwhelmed too. He's not in a very good mood today and he wasn't up to playing last night. I gave him a few shots of vodka and he finally relaxed. I sucked on his cock and tried to convince him into some play time. We fucked and I came twice. I even got spanked a little and wore my new Christmas panties and a cute nightie. I just felt like the mood of the night was different. It felt extremely difficult even with the vodka to try to relax enough to get into the play. I feel a bit guilty today that I pushed Master Anakin into it last night when he wasn't really ready for play. I know he's in mourning and he is going through a lot right now. I will be offline a lot between now and Tuesday. I don't feel like I am very good company to chat with or talk to. I also am not in the blogging mood. I tried to read a few blogs this morning but I just couldn't get into it. I'm writing today because I wanted to get some feelings out and hopefully feel a bit better. My force does not feel very strong right now... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

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Thank you

I didn't plan to post for a few more days but sometimes I find it too hard to stay away from Journey to the Darkside. Blogging can be a great way to get my feelings out and there is so much going on right now. The last few days have felt like a bit of a blur. It's been really strange trying to plan for the holidays and a funeral all at the same time. Half of the time I am getting ready for the holidays and the other half is dealing with Master Anakin's family and funeral arrangements and details. I feel like I'm on fast forward right now and my head has been spinning a bit from everything going on. We wanted to give a very big thank you to all the people who commented on our last post and left condolences and e-mails and e-cards to Master Anakin and I. We appreciate the support right now and have been amazed at how much people have reached out to us right now. I'd like to give a very special thank you to our friend, Shasta who sent the most beautiful bouqet of pink roses to us from Safeway. We had just told our kids the bad news about Grandma A and Leia was very upset and crying. It was a very difficult thing to tell them. Those beautiful roses showed up on our doorstep as we pulled into the driveaway just after telling the kids that news. I saw a few tears in Master Anakin's eyes and I was very moved by her very kind gesture. I am putting a picture up today of what they look like for everyone to see. They are sitting by the open window beside my fairy sticker. They smell so wonderful and we want her to know that we really appreciated it. Thank you Shasta from the bottom of our hearts. Pink roses are my favorite flower. When I married Master Anakin, my bridal bouquet was pink and white roses. The funeral plans have changed. It is now going to be happening on Tuesday. The funeral home was booked for Monday. Apparently this is a busy time for the funeral home. They were saying that they are usually very busy during the holiday season. Tuesday is our children's Christmas concert too. It is going to be extremely strange to go to the service and burial and then go over to the Christmas concert that night. I am also putting on a dinner that night for my Dad and Master's parent's before the concert. We can't really get out of the concert. Leia has a speaking part in it and Skywalker is singing. It's terrible timing but there isn't much we can do about it. Next week is going to be very busy. Master Anakin is taking a few days off to deal with the loss of his Grandma. Then he is on holidays. So he is now home until Dec. 28th. We are going to be taking a holiday hiatus soon on Journey to the Darkside. I'm hoping we can do a few more blog posts before that happens. Last year we started our hiatus on the 19th of December. At some point it becomes too hard to blog and deal with everything going on. This year is extra crazy with what happened with Grandma A. I am done my Christmas shopping and wrapping. I have all my supplies for baking. My mother-in-law won't be doing it til this year so it will be falling onto my shoulders. We might be having Master's Uncle also there for Christmas dinner. He has just lost his mom and is going to be alone during the holidays. So we have invited him too. It's going to be a strange Christmas dealing with all of this during Christmas. There is a part of me which feels guilty every time I try to enjoy anything to do with Christmas. I feel like this should be a sad time and I shouldn't enjoy anything and be in mourning. This has affected Master and I's relationship a lot the last few days. Master is needing me to take more responsibility as he is dealing with helping his family during this difficult time. He needs me to stay focused and strong. We had Leia home until this afternoon so we could help her during everything. She was so upset last night that she didn't want to go to her Dad's house. We took the kids to Breakfast with Santa this morning. We are still trying to keep everything as normal as possible right now for them. Master Anakin and I are hoping to have some play time together tonight. We have been so busy and overwhelmed that we have hardly been able to connect. I am really craving physical pain right now. It's my normal response to feeling overwhelmed by stress. I really need a spanking or beating! We are going to have a few drinks and try to unwind a bit and get our force back. I have really missed him this week. I even bought something naughty and cute to show him tonight. I was trying to find something sexy to surprise him with for the holidays. I wanted to cheer him up....so I found a cute girlie nightie and new Christmas panties! My candy cane panties are two years old and I wanted a new pair to wear. I found the cutest pair at Winners yesterday. The nightie and panties are going to go very well together. I hope I can distract him a bit from everything and give him a little naughty escape. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Sad news for the Skywalkers

Master Anakin and I found out some very sad news tonight. We have been expecting Master Anakin's grandma to pass away for the last month. She just turned 94 and had cancer spreading through her body. We knew it was coming but it still doesn't stop the hurting tonight. Master Anakin was very close to his grandma and he has no more grandparent's left now. Master Anakin and our children said their final goodbyes to her on Sunday and tonight she passed away with her children by her side, including Master Anakin's mother. She is very upset tonight and in a deep state of shock. She knew it was coming but it's still her mother and she was there at the moment she passed away. This has been a very hard experience for our daughter, Leia who is 12 years old and this is her first real experience with death. She was very shaken up on Sunday when she saw her Grandma A in that condition towards the end. We still have not told our children the news. We wanted them to be able to sleep tonight so we have held off until tommorow with telling them the news. Skywalker doesn't understand it as much but he was also close to his Grandma A. We will cherish our memories with her. We will miss her so much. Tonight my heart is breaking...I feel so much sadness in my heart. We will be attending the funeral on Monday and Master Anakin will not be going to work tommorow or Monday. We are going to be taking a break from Journey to the Darkside. I will be away from the computer for the next few days while our family grieves and gets through this very difficult time. If you would like to pass on any condolences to Master Anakin, I know he would appreciate a comment or e-mail to anakins.blog@gmail.com. He is always so strong and brave but tonight he is very shaken up and this is a very upsetting time for him and our family. We got another bit of bad news also on top of everything tonight. My ex sister in law who was pregnant lost her baby. Leia will not be having a cousin after all. We hadn't told Leia about the pregnancy yet so she doesn't know what has happened. We feel at this time she is handling enough than to tell her about that too. I hope that we will be able to post at least once or twice more before the holidays. I know though it wouldn't be until after the funeral and we get a few days to deal with our loss. I hope everyone understands that I won't be on the computer and will have to catch up on blog reading at another time. My family needs me right now and they are the priority during this difficult time. May the force be with you, Grandma A....we will miss you so much and you will be in our hearts forever... ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Holiday Hooters

Happy HNT everyone! With the Christmas holidays fast approaching, we thought we'd share a sexy holiday wish with all of our readers. Click to enlarge this week's HNT and you'll see more detail of padme last Friday in shiny red lingerie, wrapped up like a sexy Christmas present with gift wrap in the background and those immodest green bows on her tits. I know what I want to unwrap for Christmas now! The golden retro text completes our Christmas card from us to you: Happy Holidays from Journey to the Darkside. So as you finish your shopping (pace yourself!), visit with friends and family, sit down for drinks, and make other plans naughty and nice, we wish you a kinky Christmas and a sexy new year. Leave us a comment or send us an email. We'd love to hear from you! Merry Christmas to all and to all a good spanking! May the force be with you. ~Anakin

New Christmas poll

Thank you for everyone who commented on my post yesterday about how to cope with holiday stress. I got some really good ideas and enjoyed reading about how other people are coping with the holidays this time of the year. It sure can feel crazy when you start thinking about all the things that need to be done by Christmas which is sneaking up on us fast. The countdown is on and it is starting to get very close. Have you finished your Christmas shopping yet? If you are, you are probably laughing at people like me who have only finished half of it and are stressed out trying to figure out different gifts. I have not bought anything yet for Master Anakin. I am still trying to figure out the gift that I give to "Master". I like that one to be very special and personal and it's always a bdsm lifestyle type of gift. One year I gave him The Loving Dominant book. Another year I gave him rope. I wish I could figure it out. I'm running out of time! Thank you to everyone who voted on our last holiday poll. We asked what your favorite day in December is. 33% of you said Christmas Eve is your favorite day in December. 20% of you voted for Christmas Day. It was interesting to see what everyone voted for. We have put up a new Christmas holiday poll today for everyone and we hope you will vote. You can chose as many answers as you want for this poll. We asked you what you enjoy the most about Christmas. We are both curious to know what other people enjoy about Christmas time. Do you like the baking or sending off Christmas cards? Or maybe it's relaxing on the couch with a glass of egg nog and rum and watching Christmas movies? Or maybe it's just being naughty with the one you love. Or being able to celebrate with a good friend or your spouse. Please vote! The poll is on our sidebar. I found a new website today called northpole.com. There is some really neat stuff on there for adults and children. I am going to show it to Leia and Skywalker. I think others might enjoy some of the neat Christmas stuff on there. :) I moved a few things around also today on the blog and wanted to put the Yoda Christmas picture I saw up at the top. It's so cute and I love Yoda! There are many things that combine Star Wars and Christmas. I've seen a few videos and pictures and that. It's really neat for the Star Wars fans out there. How many people give Star Wars gifts or get them at Christmas time? Master has gotten calenders and cards and games and all kinds of Star Wars stuff. I try to buy him at least one Star Wars related item each Christmas. I put up a picture from a HNT that was taken last year. You can click to enlarge it. It's one of my favorite holiday ones. I am wearing Master Anakin's white dress shirt and white innocent thigh-hi's with bows. Master had wrapped me up in Christmas lights and I love how the picture turned out. Tommorow we have a brand new holiday HNT to put up that was taken on Friday night. I think it's very sexy and I hope you come back tommorow to check it out. :) I got a notice to pick up a letter at the post office tommorow. I have a feeling it could be the stuff we ordered from our online store, Darkside Digital Arts. I am very excited to see if our t-shirts have arrived. Master says I can't wear it til Christmas but I am excited to be able to wrap them up for us. Will be so neat to wear t-shirts that we both helped to create. We hope that the few friends who got and will be getting gifts from our online store also enjoy! I hope everyone is having a good day! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Neat holiday quiz

Your Christmas Song Is Santa Baby Santa cutie, and fill my stocking with a duplex And cheques Sign your 'x' on the line Santa cutie, and hurry down the chimney tonight You're a bit of a greedy kid this Christmas... You'd like for Santa to be your personal sugar daddy! What Christmas Carol Are You?

How do you handle holiday stress?

I had written a blog post last night about the holiday stress that I have been feeling. I noticed this morning that there hasn't been any comments on it, not even from Master. I know it wasn't a very sexy or naughty post so that could be why. Maybe no one out there can relate to feeling holiday stress? I know the one person who has been able to relate to me is my sister. We have e-mailed each other back and forth the last few days. She was talking about how much she is drinking in the last while. I admit too that I have been drinking a lot to cope with my stress lately. What is it about this time of the year? I drink more around the holidays than any other time of the year. The liquor store was packed full of people on the weekend and I could see other people having the same idea as mine..let's make sure to stock up on plenty of booze to deal with the holidays. In the movie, Christmas Vacation Chevy Chase asks his Dad how he dealt with Christmas. His Dad says "with a lot of help from Jack Daniels." I can't help but laugh at that part every time I see it. I totally know that feeling. I usually start drinking very early on Christmas day and I don't stop until bedtime. I actually drank so much one year that I up and left the house just before Christmas dinner. I said I couldn't deal with it and I walked out. My mother in law and mom had to both take care of the turkey. I have memories of many different members of my family and Master's drunk out of their minds on Christmas day. My mom one year literally fell out of her chair onto the floor and was completely drunk on wine. My father in law has passed out on my couch at Christmas too many times to count. The one year I wasn't drinking was when I was pregnant with Skywalker. Yet my sister was so mad when she came to Christmas dinner and there was no booze! Other than that year, there has always been a big supply of booze at our house for everyone that drops by or just for ourselves to cope with the stress. I'd be willing to bet that we are not alone. Others out there have had their own ways of coping through the holidays. I'd like to hear how you handle holiday stress? I was amazed how many websites are out there with ways of coping with holiday stress. So many funny videos of people who are feeling like I am right now. The one song which makes me laugh each year is Blink 182- Won't be Home for Christmas. I saw a funny Wal Mart one too while searching for videos. That song for the Wal Mart video was too priceless! I have to say that I understand what it is like to work in retail during Christmas. You don't get paid enough to deal with crazy holiday shoppers who want to take it out on someone. Christmas of 1992 was one of the worst because of having to work Christmas eve til closing and then all of boxing day. I dealt with some of the ruddest people I ever had in my life!! I feel like I have so much to do before Christmas. I need to finish my Christmas shopping and wrap them all. I plan to bake this year and also plan to do a big dinner for Master and our children. It's overwhelming when I think of how much I need to do. There is also this situation going on with Master Anakin's grandma and what is going on with that. Very hard to plan for the holidays when everything is up in the air and we will probably be attending a funeral through the holidays. Urg! My force does not feel strong today. I've got a big list of chores to do and I need to start my wrapping gifts. This is just the beginning of a very busy week full of stuff to get done. Someone tell me when it's New year's eve and Christmas is over and behind us! I am in a bah humbug mood today and wanted to post about some of my feelings. I am also hoping to squeeze a few posts in before the holiday hiatus that we plan to take here at Journey to the Darkside. I keep meaning to post also about the Taboo Naughty but Nice Sex Show which is happening next month in Vancouver. Master Anakin and I plan to attend and are wondering if anyone else will be going to it? The one we went to last January was awesome and I can't wait to go to it next month. I got my fetish boots there and my spank me panties and that. I can't wait to go next month. Please e-mail us or let us know if you are going. We'd love to see you there! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Holiday stress

Today felt a lot different than yesterday. I could feel the holiday stress in the air today. I have felt myself losing it a few times today. I decided to have lunch with my Dad and to have a talk with him today. It was very emotional and hard for me to do. I felt that I needed to tell him how I have been feeling. I was direct with him and he listened to me. I think my Dad is having a lot of regrets about how his life has turned out. We talked about old childhood Christmas memories. A few of them got me close to tears. I know I have told about the bad times of my childhood but there was some really nice ones too. We talked about the year that Leia was a baby. My mom and him were still together and we had a big family Christmas. I have to admit that really is one of the best Christmas's I ever had. Things really changed for our family after that year. On the way home a song came on the radio...reminded me of that happiness of Christmas past...of my grandparent's (who have both passed away) and of my family all together. I found myself choking back tears listening to that song. It reminds me of another time..another place. Those times are long gone now and those are just memories now. Master Anakin had a very emotional and difficult day himself. He took his mom, our children and himself out to visit his Grandma one last time. It's getting very close now to her passing away and he wanted one last memory of her. I could see him very upset tonight and it brought me to tears over dinner. I feel his pain right now and I wish I could take it away. The timing of it couldn't be worse. I am trying to be positive about the holidays but I would be kidding myself if I said this wasn't dampering the holiday spirit this year. We need to carry on for our children and try to give them a good Christmas despite the funeral we will also be attending. It's a lot to think of tonight. I find myself near tears just writing this post. I havn't been online too much the last few days and I am not sure how much I will be with the holidays approaching and a huge list of things that need to be done. We are also dealing with the family stress with the Grandma A situation happening. It's going to be hard to be online the next while. We are discussing going on a holiday hiatus soon for Journey to the Darkside. We will try to post when we can but I am not sure how many more posts we will be writing between now and Christmas. This is a very busy and also stressful time of the year. We do have a holiday HNT for this week and I do hope we can try to do a few more posts before the hiatus. My force feels strong through it all with Master. We played last night and had a really naughty Friday night together. I really needed that stress release and it helped us to bond and connect. We really needed that. We have done a lot of holding onto each other tonight and it's helped a lot. I love him so much and I hope he knows that I am here for him right now and that we will get through this... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Friday night paddling and bondage

Last night was filled full of pleasure and pain. Lots of bdsm play and trying out new toys. I wanted to post a few pictures from last night and describe a few naughty details for those who are wondering how last night went for Master Anakin and I. I had posted yesterday and showed pictures of my new toys that I got for Christmas from my close friend, Shasta. She sent a brand spanking new leather paddle and ball gag and also The Ethical Slut. We were going to try out the toys last night and I was told to get ready for some play. I had a hot bath and shaved my pussy smooth and got the toys out for Master. I got dressed up in my sexy red lingerie and red ruffled panties and I put on a porno and lit some candles. I also made sure the camera was ready to go as Master wanted lots of pictures of our play last night. We are going to be putting up a HNT picture later in the week that was also taken last night. :) Master was pleased with the set up and how sexy I looked. I made sure my black leather play collar was on and he attached the leash right away after coming into the bedroom to play with me. I waited for about ten minutes staring at the leather paddle wondering what it was going to feel like against my ass. I was nervous as I waited for him to put our son to bed. I was very deeply aroused too. I was really longing for some rough play. I needed Darth Vader last night. I wanted him to get mean and rough with me. We had a very powerful moment before he started paddling me...he was looking deep into my eyes with such dominance and force that I truly lost myself for a moment. It was like he put me into subspace just by the look in his eyes. He hadn't even touched me yet and I was floating. I was overcome when I saw him holding the black leather paddle. It looked so huge and intimidating. It is a lot bigger than the Anakin's paddle. I was craving it but also a bit scared at the same time. He knew it too. He knew to put me into bondage and the new ball gag. He told me that I wouldn't be able to move as I got paddled hard. I was tied up tight with our blue and white rope. He put the new ball gag into my mouth. I put up a picture today of what I looked like with the ball gag and leash. I was tied up tight when that picture was taken. I couldn't move and I couldn't stop what was coming to my poor ass! I was pushed down roughly and panties were pulled down to expose my bottom. He really laid it into my ass full force setting it on fire. It didn't take long with how big it is to really redden my bottom. Wow!! I could feel the sting immediately. It burned my ass deep. 24 really hard paddles were given to me and counted out for Shasta. She got to decide on the first stokes with the paddle and she decided on 24 for my poor ass! Wow...those really hurt and I was very aroused by the after sting of the paddle. Master would rub my bottom after paddling it...making it feel soooooo good! My ass burned so bad by the end of the 24 strokes. Thank you Shasta for those! I couldn't sit down for a while after those ones. Master made sure those were counted out and very hard. I love the new leather paddle. I know we will be getting lots of use out of it in the next year. :) A few times he slipped his fingers in my pussy and checked to see how wet I was and to tease me. I couldn't stop it because I was all tied up and I couldn't tell him to stop because of the ball gag. Not that I wanted him to stop...it felt so heavenly and good. He would paddle me and then rub it and then finger my pussy and clit. I was told to suck on his cock a few times when he would stop the paddling. He would threaten to give me more if I didn't suck him hard enough so I sucked on it like a good little slut. Master was hard and threw down the leather paddle and entered me and fucked me hard. He pulled on the leash a few times tight to make sure I knew who was boss. I love to get fucked while I am in bondage and with the ball gag and a very sore ass...mmmmm...it was true heaven! True bdsm heaven. I really love that feeling. I live for that feeling. A deep connection that feels so spirtitual and arousing. I came 3 times last night hard until I didn't think there was anything left in me. He untied me after he was done making me cum and fucking me. I was let out of the ball gag and told to clean up. He let me sleep naked next to him while he held onto the leash in his wrist. I felt owned and very peaceful. It's one of the best sleeps I have had in a very long time. The feeling went into today with feeling relaxed and owned. Master and I even had some sitting time today to relax and play. It was a lot of light play as we are saving the heavier play for tonight. He plans for another play time tonight and told me there is going to be some anal play. I am supposed to put into my butt plug as soon as I am out of the bath and get my ass ready. mmmmm..little miss dangerous is going to meet Darth Vader tonight. It's going to be a very naughty Saturday night! :) I hope everyone is having a very naughty weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Naughty Christmas gifts from a very special friend

Wednesday was quite an exciting day for me! I had been expecting a parcel from my good friend, Shasta with my Christmas presents in it. She had saved my parcel which I had sent last week so we could open our gifts together over the phone. I almost tripped over the parcel which was laid out outside my door. I was very surprised and practically ran up the stairs to tell her it had arrived. I was SO excited!! I couldn't wait to open the parcel. I'm glad she didn't make me wait until Christmas. I have no patience and I really don't think I could have waited a few weeks to open it. She phoned me and told me that I could go first! The first thing that I saw was something that I have wanted for a very long time. A brand new leather paddle!! I was shocked at how big it was. I had seen the picture in her review for it and it didn't seem quite that big. WOW!! Of course the very first thought going through my mind at that moment was...how is this going to feel paddling my ass?? It's been a while since I got a brand new spanking toy and I am so curious about how it feels. I could smell the leather smell of it too. mmmm...I love the smell of leather! I know Shasta had to try it out to review it too so I really liked the fact it had been used a few times on her bottom from Jack. *smiles* It came with a little red bow and a gift tag for Master Anakin which said "I'm sure you can find a good use for this! Merry Christmas! XOXOX from Shasta" Then I noticed there was more in the parcel. I took out a ball gag which Shasta had also reviewed and looked very cool! Our ball gag is homemade and hard to breathe through. This ball gag has holes through it to allow for better breathing. I was so excited and can't wait to try it out! I hope Master can do some bondage with me tonight while he tries out the new ball gag. :) I also noticed that I had been sent a book that I have been wanting to read for a long time called The Ethical Slut. Master Anakin gave me some time to start reading it last night and I really enjoyed it. It's easy to read and very interesting and I can't wait to read more hopefully this weekend. :) She opened her gift too on the phone. We sent her a book about Stiletto's which reminded Master Anakin and I of her. I also sent her a bath bomb and some loose tea. We also sent her something special from our online store, Darkside Digital Arts. That should be arriving soon and I really hope she likes it. :) The Ethical Slut and the leather paddle were both on my naughty Christmas list that I posted a few weeks ago. I had mentioned that if anyone sent me the leather paddle that they could give me a spanking with it. So Master Anakin thought that it was only fair to let Shasta have the first paddling on my bottom with the paddle. She got to decide the number that I would be receiving for the first paddling with it. She said she would like 24 hard paddles given to me for every day that is counting down to Christmas in December. She can't be here to give me it in person so Master Anakin will be doing the paddling tonight for her. He has promised me that they will be hard and swift and that he plans to take pictures of it. I hope that I can meet Shasta sometime soon and that I can bring the leather paddle out to her and perhaps she can give me a paddling with it in person one day. mmmm...I really like the thoughts of that! :) I put up two pictures of the Christmas gifts that received from Shasta so everyone can see what they look like. Please check out the reviews of the ball gag and leather paddle if you want to know more about these products or want to order one for yourself. I will be letting everyone know what I think of them after testing them out tonight. Perhaps I could even share a few pictures too with everyone if anyone wants to see how red my bottom turns with testing out the new leather paddle? Who wants to see? *winks* Master Anakin has had me on orgasm denial the last few days so I could be all worked up for our play night tonight. He has told me that he has some special plans for me besides the paddling and trying out the ball gag. I am very curious and aroused to know what his plans are. I hope that I can have some play on the darkside tonight with Darth Vader. It's been a while and I could really use some stress relief. I've been chatting with Shasta this morning on msn and enjoying my morning cup of Starbucks coffee. It is always one of the best parts of my day...waking up and enjoying a coffee with Shasta and enjoying a morning chat. She shared some incredibly erotic pictures with me which have really aroused me. She is truly a beautiful woman and so sensual and naughty. One of the things I love best about our friendship is that we can flirt or talk for hours on the phone together and that we have a real deep connection together. I am so very lucky to have her in my life. :) Shasta, Thank you so much for the generous and truly amazing Christmas gifts! You spoiled me rotten and surprised me so much. One of the best things about 2007 has been our friendship. Whether it's playing on the webcam or phone play with you and Jack or our marathon phone calls to one another, I love our time that we spend together. I feel like I never run out of things to talk to you about. I can imagine when we meet each other that we won't be sleeping but talking non-stop for hours. You are one of the most beautiful and erotic women I have ever met through my blog. What I truly love about you is that you are very comfortable with your sexuality and have such a beautiful personality. You've stood up for me when others hurt me and have given me strength when I didn't have any. Most women are afraid to flirt with me or open up but you've always been so fun to be around or talk to. You and Jack are an incredibly sexy couple and I enjoyed playing with you both a lot. You've mentioned doing a foursome on the webcam with Master Anakin and I and I can't wait to do that! I really appreciate how you have taken the time to get to know Master Anakin. He has told me how happy he is with our friendship. You have made him feel very included and that means a lot to me. He has become very fond of you and we often discuss you and Jack. We both hope that we can meet you two sometime. You both are a big part of our life and that goes beyond our blogs. We wish you and Jack a very Merry Christmas! Thank you for your friendship! You really are my ray of sunshine...you have cheered me up and made me smile on days that I didn't think I could. XOXOXO padme amidala I hope everyone has a very naughty weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Silver Bow and Red Ass

Happy HNT everyone! Christmas is quickly approaching, so padme and I thought that this week's HNT image should reflect that. There I was last week, bringing the belt down hard on poor padme's ass when I decided to snap a photo of my handy work as it was glowing as red as Rudolph's nose. I added the silver bow from our Christmas giftwrapping box. Sometimes, a spanking is a gift; from Master to slave, from top to bottom, from Husband to wife, from lover to lover. It is done out of love. And just as much, it is a beautiful gift to Me from her. I Photoshopped a silver ribbon into the image to complete the gift wrapping theme, and then added the silver "Journey to the Darkside" text in a font that reminded me of the writing on a Christmas card from days gone by. I hope you all enjoy this gift-wrapped, red bottom. It's what I want the most for Christmas. What do you want the most for Christmas? I hope your kinky and other holiday preparations are going well. Please leave a comment or drop me or padme an email and let us know what you think of this week's HNT and maybe what kinky plans you have for your Christmas this year. Please be sure to vote in our latest holiday poll that My padme put up last night. It is on our sidebar. If you're looking for any last minute gift ideas (kinky or otherwise), our Darkside Digital Arts store is full of unique, cool and kinky shirts and more, with designs that you certainly wont find at the mall. They can be express shipped to you directly or to anyone you want with just a few clicks of your mouse. We've got kinky Christmas shirts, adult shirts for spankos and more, retro shirts, pirate themed shirts, and clothing for video gamers, geeks, and even a few for Star Wars fans and more. Check it out. May the Force be with you all! Anakin Technorati Tags: HNT, Christmas, spanking, Christmas gift, clothes

New Holiday Poll

It is a double karate night tonight so I am having some time to catch up on blog reading and also I wanted to put in a new poll here on Journey to the Darkside. It's on our sidebar and it asks you "What is your favorite day in December." I voted for Christmas Eve although it was hard to chose between that day and New Year's eve. I love Christmas Eve because it's so spiritual and I really enjoy the feeling of it. It is the one day of the year we go to church for the candlelight service and I enjoy opening one gift when we get back and snacking on goodies and snuggling up by the fire with Master Anakin and the kids watching Christmas movies. I like to have my egg nog and rum and enjoy the holiday feeling of Christmas approaching. Sometimes we go looking at the Christmas lights too that night on different houses which have big set up displays. I have wonderful memories of that. My kitty, Meisha is having her second birthday coming up on Christmas Eve this year. I bought her specifically because of her birthday. I knew she had to be a special kitty with a birthday like Christmas Eve. :) I would love to hear from you through comment what you voted for and why. Tommorow we have another holiday HNT for you and it's a very naughty one that was taken last week. We are hoping to have lots of holiday themed pictures and blog posts this month here on Journey to the Darkside. Hopefully getting everyone into the spirit of the holidays which is coming up soon. Thank you for joining us on our journey...Our Journey to the Darkside. I hope everyone is having a really good night. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Holiday Quiz

What The Holidays Mean to You For you, the holidays are about celebration. You enjoy all the fun and fellowship that the holidays bring. You celebrate the holidays in an over the top style. If something is cute, you'll buy it. People end up with a lot of gifts from you - and your house is like a holiday wonderland, full of decorations. During the holidays, you feel happily busy. There's so much do to and not a lot of time to do it. But you enjoy every minute of your holiday chores. You think the holidays should be nostalgic and sweet. The holidays bring out your inner child. Your best holiday memories are of childhood foods and traditions. You secretly still wish you believed in Santa Claus. What Do the Holidays Mean to You?

Rainy days and Mondays

Is there anything worse than a rainy day and a Monday? Today has been a very yucky day for me. I wasn't sure I even wanted to write today but I'm drinking some merlot and wanted to get some feelings out. My posts tend to be emotional and not as naughty as my usual posts when I feel like this. I do feel that I open myself up though and let people see the real padme amidala that writes here. I am a very complicated and emotional person. I feel things deeply and sometimes I wish I could be a lot stronger than I am. On days like today I feel weak and vulnerable and like an emotional mess. I want to be held and taken care of. I need my "Daddy" right now to take care of me. I need my Master to reassure me and be there for me. I need to know that I am loved. Today is a painful anniversary which is difficult to think about. I was due on Dec. 3/97 with Master Anakin's baby and I lost it when I was almost three months along. Of all my miscarriages, that was the worst one for me physically and emotionally. I remember how it felt being pregnant with our first child and how excited I was to be having his baby. How it felt to see the heartbeat on the ultrasound and how I knew it was going to be a boy. I even started to buy baby outfits. I don't think I can describe what that experience was like for Master Anakin and I. We were just starting our relationship when I got pregnant. It was a really horrible experience which affected us a lot. I was supposed to be having the "christmas baby" that year. The baby would be born around the holidays and how that would add to our family with Leia. I dreamed about it...was excited about it...and had wanted it so much. Each year I think of it and people say it gets easier but I don't think it ever has. Skywalker is a really amazing son but I should also have a 10 year son too. I just knew it was a boy...I could feel it and I had dreams of him. My heart aches tonight for the child I never have...it is almost too much to think about. Today has been difficult for many reasons. It's been hard to come down from such a naughty and playful weekend. I had my fun on the webcam with my friends and I had so much playtime with Master. The snow was beautiful and Sunday I felt a lot of peace walking in the snow. Today was dark out and rainy and slushy. I didn't want to leave my house. I felt like I was losing it in the Save on Foods tonight. Master and I have been at odds tonight and I know we are both stressed out and thinking about what today is. My Dad is also trying to come back into my life too which hasn't helped things today. This seems to happen around Christmas each year. I don't hear from him for months and then he comes flying back into my life and thinks we should be close. I find it hard to tell him how I am really feeling. I wish I could be stronger with my Dad but it just is something that is so hard for me. I struggle with feelings of guilt about the whole situation with my Dad. I just wish I could find peace with it somehow. My force does not feel very strong today. Hopefully tommorow will be a better day... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A very naughty Saturday night on the webcam

I have had quite the weekend so far. I have a sore ass and a very sore pussy from all the orgasms and fucking that has happened. Yesterday I posted about my overnight with Master Anakin. I had already had two orgasms in the morning and been fucked while we watched the snow falling. I was told that there would be more play later in the night. I didn't expect to be playing on the webcam last night. That was a real bonus for me. I want to thank my friend's, Griz and good girl for inviting me to spend my Saturday night with them being naughty on the webcam. They had told me they planned to play and I was invited to play too! I was very excited. Master Anakin had given me the night off so I could play and have fun. I had the place to myself and I was still very horny and looking forward to the night ahead. Master Anakin ran me a hot bath before he left and I relaxed and fantasized about the night ahead and all the fun that was planned. I got out and slipped into something sexy to wear. I brought some toys downstairs and put on the porno we still had until 11 pm on shaw on demand. We are able to get the porno for 24 hours so I was glad to be able to watch it again. It was a really naughty one. :) I lit some candles and turned up the heat and grabbed some dinner for myself and a glass of Jackson Triggs merlot. I got onto the webcam with them and was immediately aroused by the sexy sight of good girl in a very naughty outfit. She was wearing her new Christmas panties and a black corset which showed off her tits nicely. She looked so yummy!! mmmmm... They were setting up for the scene complete with a bondage device Griz had made for good girl from another webcam night I had done with them. They had planned to video the scene and this was their first ever video that they have made together. I was so excited to be a part of it all! I used a combination of my Rabbit vibrator (which doesn't work but is great to use as a dildo)with the Hiatchi to give myself several huge orgasms. It was so hot to watch good girl cumming and being controlled by Griz. He forced her to have many orgasms and I got a really good view of it on the webcam. He let me have some control also over good girl and demand some orgasms for me. She had to beg permission from me to cum and that was SO incredibly arousing!! Hearing her submissive voice begging me to cum...watching her body twisting and turning in the bondage device as she was having a huge orgasm for me. mmmmmmmmm...words can't describe how much that turned me on!! good girl was made to cum 10 times and I really enjoyed watching her cum and cum again. I got on my naughty prep schoolgirl outfit for them to see me in and came downstairs with the Anakin's paddle and butt plug and a few other things. When she was let out of the bondage device, she was sucking on Griz's cock and getting him hard. He used the hiatchi on himself and came hard with all the excitement going on. He fucked her too but I missed it because of problems that were happening with yahoo. I can't wait to view the video today and see what I missed. mmmmm The clothes didn't stay on very long. Before I knew it...I was naked and fucking myself with the Rabbit vibrator and then licking and sucking my juices off of it. I was so excited watching the play with Griz and good girl. They are so sexy together and it was just amazing to watch it all live. It was like a live sex show and I felt like I was right there in the room playing with them. I was craving a spanking and I decided to paddle myself with the Anakin's paddle in front of them on the webcam. I bent my ass over and self paddled myself hard many times...my ass feeling so sore and was very red. I also put in a butt plug at one point and was so aroused with that up my ass, the rabbit in my pussy and the Hiatchi on my clit. mmmmm..a terrific combination which pushed a HUGE orgasm out of me which left me breathless and in subspace. On top of it all...I decided that I really wanted some pain last night. So I poured candle wax all over my naked body in front of the webcam. A lot of the wax ran down my body onto my pussy and made me yell out in pain!! We spent a bit of time this morning cleaning up the wax that was all over the place. lol. I had 8 orgasms during the webcam play. My record for total orgasms in a day is 7. I had already cum twice in the morning which left me at 10 orgasms when Master Anakin got home. Master pushed two more orgasms out of me during our play last night when he fucked me which gave the total of orgasms for yesterday to 12 orgasms!! Whoa!! I broke my record. No wonder I was floating and fell asleep before Master came up with a snack for me. I was exhausted and today my pussy is so extremely sore and swollen. I am not used to cumming that many times. I couldn't help it though...the morning was so exciting and then the webcam play and also more play last night with Master. What a day! What a weekend! I planned to get together with Max today but it's snowing too much so that is postponed until next weekend. I think my poor pussy needs a break today. I'm looking forward to relaxing today and hopefully going for a walk in the snow today. I am also downloading the video from last night right now. I can't wait to check it out. :) I've had such a wonderful weekend and I am feeling submissive, relaxed, happy and very content. My force feels strong. I hope everyone is having a great weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Let it snow!

I am enjoying a very peaceful day today after a very wonderful overnight with Master Anakin. Last night was a lot of fun and I didn't get much sleep last night due to all the fucking and playing that we did. We went Christmas shopping at the mall for the kids last night and then headed over to Red Robin for dinner. I enjoyed a drink with dinner and we had some really good conversation. We headed home and began playing. The toys were laid out on the coffee table and fireplace was turned on and a porno started. I dressed up in some lingerie for Master with no panties. I had my pussy shaved nice and smooth for him the way he likes it. :) I was spanked over his knee on the couch to warm up my bottom. And then I was cropped and given his belt while bent over the couch. We had some of most incredible sex!! I was bent over the couch getting cropped when he stopped and stuck his fingers into my pussy and played with my clit and then he stuck his hard cock up my pussy and fucked me hard banging me against the couch. He held onto my blonde hair around his hand and pulled on it as he fucked me from behind. I screamed out at one point as he pulled so hard on my hair as he rode me. I was given 2 huge orgasms with the Hiatchi after we fucked and spanked a little bit more before I cuddled up close to go to bed around midnight. I slept naked next to him wearing my leash. He held onto it on his wrist while we slept close together. I felt owned and very content and happy. This morning I was up at 5 am and noticed that it was started to snow! Our first snowfall just in time for Dec. 1st and the holidays approaching. I woke up Master Anakin and we opened up our blinds a bit and watched the snow falling. He rubbed up against me and I noticed his cock was hard. He slipped his cock out of his boxers and into my wet pussy that was wanting him to fuck me. I was naked and ready for some naughty fun with Master. We fucked as we watched the snow falling...it was so magical and so naughty. He pulled out just before he came all over my face and tits. The cum went in my hair and on my face and some on my tits. I am still feeling very sticky from it and needing a shower soon. I came twice more after we fucked and we enjoyed a really nice morning together alone with no kids around. I even got breakfast in bed! What a morning! :) I had a really nice long nap this morning while Master was out shopping. I had a very intense dream of him. I have been enjoying a nice peaceful day and feeling very relaxed. I am still in my pj's and it's 2:30 in the afternoon. I was going to go to a family event with Master tonight but I was told not to worry about it and that I can have the night off. I've got the place to myself and I'm going to have a few drinks and enjoy the night. Maybe I can even get into some naughty fun. *smiles* I am hoping to go on the webcam with my friend's, Griz and good girl later today. It sounds like they have a very exciting naughty night planned. Maybe if I am lucky they will let me watch a little bit of the naughty play tonight. :) There is a snow storm coming tonight and I am in hibernation mode. I don't really feel like leaving the house this weekend. I mentioned to Max that we might have to postpone getting together depending on how much snow we get tonight. I am enjoying the snow as it's so peaceful and pretty. We don't get too much of it in Vancouver so it's always a nice change from the usual rainy weather we get. Thank you for voting on our latest poll. The winner for the favorite Christmas movie that you like to watch is...Miracle on 34th Street. It won with 24%. National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation and Charlie Brown Christmas came in second place with 16%. Did anyone catch the Shrek Christmas tv show this week? Skywalker and Leia both really enjoyed it. I've been watching the Christmas parade today on tv from last weekend. It's really got me into the holiday spirit. :) Make sure to check out our online store, Darkside Digital Arts for your online holiday shopping. I am very excited about my "bad pussy" t-shirt which is coming in the mail for one of my Christmas presents from Master. Master also ordered himself retro grunge C.C.C.P t-shirt from the store. He says that one is his favorite one that he has created. There are some great gift ideas on our online store. We even ordered a few gifts for some friends from the store for Christmas. :) I added a bit of holiday spirit onto the blog yesterday with a countdown clock and a few other things. I'm starting to get really excited about Christmas coming. How about you? Are you excited about Christmas coming? Anyone else getting snow? Anyone else being naughty or nice?? Here's a song and video going out to everyone who is watching the snow today. Let it snow! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala