TGIF! Looking forward to playing on the darkside with Darth Vader tonight!

TGIF! I am SOOO ready for the weekend to begin? I am missing Master and trying to make time go faster so we can get to tonight and our naughty plans. I am nervous with anticipation and feeling very horny and submissive knowing that I will be suffering and taken to the edge tonight. We had planned a very intense scene last weekend but it got postponed after I went to the swinger's party. We talked about it last night and agreed that we would play tonight after Leia is gone to her Dad's and Skywalker is going to his grandparent's. We DO get an overnight! No kids for 24 hours!! Yeah! We have some special plans for our alone time. We tend to play heavier with the bdsm and do more bondage when we know there are no interruptions all night and we don't have to worry about waking the kids. Our play is often louder because I can moan and scream louder. Sometimes we spend hours in our basement making it into our own personal dungeon. I am SOOOOO excited! I want to make tonight very special for us and memorable. I've been told that Darth Vader will be in charge tonight. He reminded me of my safeword "peace" last night. He doesn't usually do that unless he plans to push me so far to the edge that I might need it. He has only made me use a few times since we started our bdsm journey in June of 1997. Our anniversary of being Master and slave is on June 14th which is kind of funny because I will be in Toronto this year for the anniversary. We will be doing our own personal ceremony tonight to reconnect and bond us as Master and slave. I remember the day I found D/s on the internet...June 14, 1997. Our lives would change forever because of me looking up "bdsm" on the search engine. This blog might not even exist if I hadn't had the courage to look it up. I was feeling so ashamed at the time about my dark desires. I felt like a freak and felt so alone. I stayed up all night reading that night and then asked Master Anakin to be my Master. We started our journey and I began reading books and talking to others in the bdsm lifestyle. I met my friend, Master Mark who helped me a lot and was there for me. He has passed away and I miss him and think of him often. I met Master R who helped mentor me and we began having a very intense relationship. I met amber who would become a lover to me. 1997 was a very big year for me. The poly also began and we started having an open marriage. I wanted so bad to be a slave but there was a big part of me that resisted it at the same time. I loved the bedroom control but outside the bedroom was difficult for me. I loved the other side of Master but I would be a brat to bring it out. Things work so differently for us now. We've become so comfortable in our roles now. He is Master...i am slave. He is in control and I listen and obey. Many rules are just second nature to me now. There just doesn't seem to be the struggles anymore that we used to have. I do have my moments where I struggle but they are not as often now or the same kind I used to have. I accept my slavery a lot more and am very comfortable in my role as slave. It's been a very long 11 year journey to become TPE Master and slave. Many people may think that they know our whole story but there is so much missing from this blog...the beginning and the journey to get to where we are today. It was hard...there were struggles...there were tears and some extremely naughty and erotic and fun moments but also some really tough times. There were broken hearts from other people we both loved and played with, struggles to give up full control to Master, lots and lots of family drama, and some people who tried to break us up. Some great memories and also some ones that I would rather forget. It's all a part of who we are today though and how we got to this point. There were many who said we wouldn't last a year. There were many who also said this blog wouldn't last a year. LOL! I know we got a lot of bad reviews that first year of doing Journey to the Darkside. We are almost at 1.7 million hits now! We are just about at our 3 year blogging anniversary in August! It's so hard to believe just far we've come on this blog...and also in my relationship with Master Anakin. My marriage is stronger than ever and I am more in love with my Master and husband than ever. I have had so many people think that I wasn't satisfied in my marriage so that is why I was poly and turning to others for play. Master has satisfied me more than any other man I've ever dated or fucked. I have had the biggest orgasms and I have never felt the type of emotions I have with Master. He is so much a part of my soul that I would truly not know how to cope if something ever happened to him. I can't wait until tonight. It's our last chance to play for a few weeks because I am expecting my period next week and then I'll be in Toronto the weekend after on the 14th. I am feeling very masochistic and really needing some heavy play and to escape into the subspace of some darkside play. Please cum home soon Darth Vader! I am able to cross something else off my bucket list after tommorow. #328-Walk somewhere every day for a month I started on May 1st to walk somewhere every day. I walked the entire seawall of Stanley park and all over the city I live. I am very proud of myself that I have made sure to walk every day. I've lost a few pounds this month and feel a lot more energy. I hope that I can cross something else off the bucket list after this weekend. Maybe even something naughty. :) I am still trying to figure out what to wear for tonight. I'm hoping the readers can help me out! What outfit or costume do you think I should wear? The french maid? The prep schoolgirl? The Geisha? The Cheerleader? Or should I just dress up in leather with my vest and skirt so I look like a slave girl. Hmmm...lots of different choices. Maybe I can convince Darth Vader to take some pictures or video of tonight too. That is...if anyone would like to see any? *winks* 12 days til the Toronto trip!! Woooo hooooo!! It's coming up very fast and I can't wait! I hope everyone has a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Sexy feet in the hot sand

Happy HNT! I was searching for an HNT picture and saw this one and decided that it would be a bit of a fun and different one to put up for this week's HNT. I don't think we have put many feet pictures up. Usually you see all the different spanking or erotic ones or tit flashing HNT's. I hope you will enjoy this one as it brings back good memories for me and is perfect for the warmer weather and summertime that is just ahead for everyone. I think that most people know what it's like to stick your feet into the hot sand at the beach and what that feels like. I love the beach and it's one of my favorite things to do is to kick off the sandals or my shoes and stick my feet into the sand and feel it through my toes. I can still remember what it felt like doing that when I was in Hawaii in 1990. You can see some of my tattoo also on my ankle to make it a little bit naughty too. I am also wearing a very cute pink anklet too. I have many different anklets and this one is so pretty. I have been feeling pretty off the last few days. Emotional and struggling with some depression. I think I've got some pms starting and also feeling a bit overwhelmed about a few things. Master's been very supportive and helped to get me focused on my upcoming Toronto trip. Chatting with Shasta this morning helped a lot too. :) We talked about the trip and I felt so excited and could feel my mood changing a lot. It is just 2 weeks away now!! 2 weeks from today I will be making the final preparations for the trip. I have been told I can even do check-in over the internet too for my flight the day before so that's neat I can chose where I want to sit before I even get on the plane. I am not patient at all! I wish I could make time go faster so I can get to Toronto! I can hardly wait to meet my best friend and start on my vacation!! WOOO HOOO!! Anyone have any ideas to help time go faster? LOL! Thank you for voting in our latest poll. We asked you "What do you normally wear to bed?" The results are in! PJ's - 7% Boxers - 10% Lingerie 5% Nightgown - 2% Naked! I don't wear anything at all! 51% Underware - 23% I tend to wear different things for what is happening. I will wear nothing and be naked when we have overnights and no kids around. I wear nightgowns mostly which are sexy for Master. Sometimes I wear just my underware especially if it's my time of the month. I've even worn Master Anakin's boxers to bed too. I've got my tweety bird pj's too for my Toronto trip. Thanks for voting! We have a new poll on the sidebar we'd love for you to vote in. I went to my first swinger's club this weekend and it got me thinking about different types of clubs that I have been to. We are asking you what kind of club you have been to before. You can vote for multiple answers in the poll. I've voted for strip club, dance club and swinger's club. In a few weeks I can vote for sex club when I go to Goodhandy's. Please vote! So who plans to see the new Sex in the City movie this weekend? I am very excited about it! I love Sex in the City. Master Anakin isn't a big fan though and says it's too "girlie" for him. So I may have to go on my own to go see it. LOL! Will Carrie marry Big? What's going to happen? I am so excited! Happy hump day! I hope that I can convince Darth Vader to come out and play with me tonight. I miss him! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

For My padme

My padme, You are... the most beautiful woman in the world, the most playful, fantastic, romantic lover, the most caring and loving mother, the most hardcore, erotic slave, the most devoted and giving submissive, the most honest and humorous friend, the most deep and sensitive soul mate, the most perfect and thoughtful wife, the most intelligent, and giving person... and the light of my life. My soulmate and best friend. You are so much more than you know, and I needed you to know, I believe in you, in us, and I love you, forever and ever. Everything I do, I do it for you. Love Anakin

Little miss dangerous goes to Toronto!

I wanted to thank everyone for all their comments on my post on Sunday about my first experience going to a swinger party. I got some really wonderful comments and felt really bad that I didn't get time today to respond to them all personally. I appreciate all your comments so much!! Sometimes I am really busy and I just don't have much time. Blogging is a lot of work and I have a lot going on right now trying to get ready for my Toronto trip which is coming up in just over 2 weeks. Master Anakin has started a huge "to do" list that must be done the day before I leave on my trip. I have to get ready for Father's day as I won't be here for that weekend and also for Leia's grade 7 grad and birthday coming up after that. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by all that I have to get done in the next two weeks. I am going to be very busy and online less the next two weeks and will be away completely from blogging and the internet on my trip. I do plan to always keep my twitter updated on the side bar though even when I am away in Toronto. I've had a few messages on yahoo wondering why I don't go on there anymore. I wanted to explain that I am mostly on MSN messenger. I hardly go on yahoo anymore. I have considered getting rid of it lately because I just don't use it and find it too much to deal with two different chat systems. I much prefer MSN. I have had a few e-mails too wondering why I havn't gotten back to them. I get behind on e-mails because sometimes I get so many and I am trying to blog, read other blogs and comment and trying to keep up with my slave duties and family life. I am going to be very busy getting ready for my Toronto trip so I may not be online as much in the next two weeks. I was also told by Master Anakin that he wants me focused on my trip and getting my to do list done. I heard from that Dom from the swingers club on the weekend. I misunderstood things with him. I didn't think he was interested in me because I came onto him and he said he'd be back and he never came back. He was busy with hosting the party and not able to visit with me. It's hard in that situation because I've never come onto a man that strong before. I really did think I had scared him away. I had a few drinks that night and was feeling so naughty and little miss dangerous had come out. I felt a sexual chemistry with him that I havn't felt in a very long time with a Dom. I was very glad to hear from him today and we exchanged e-mails and also got to chat on MSN. I really hope that I can see him again one day. I did tell him that I would also like to go to another swinger's party again but I wouldn't mind it being in a private type of venue. I was disappointed that I didn't get to meet many people but I was very glad to meet him. :) I had a marathon phone call with my best friend, Shasta today. It was over four hours!! We just kept talking and talking and I was shocked when I saw the clock!! I can't wait to meet her and all I can think about right now is my Toronto trip. There is a new development about the Toronto trip. Shasta and I will be staying in a hotel the night we go to Goodhandy's. It's going to be very fun to spend the night in the city and have somewhere to get ready for our night out! Shasta told me there is one queen sized bed. I am really curious to know how the Goodhandy's night is going to go and so excited! I'm sure others are probably curious too and will want to hear all about it when I get back from my trip. :) I am wondering if anyone will want to play with me when I go to Goodhandy's. Will there be any hot guys there to play with? I am really excited to be going with Shasta and I know we are going to have a lot of fun! I know this will make our friendship closer to be able to meet one another and spend a few days together. I'm sure little miss dangerous will be also making an appearance in Toronto. Shasta told me we were going to have some vodka before we leave for Goodhandy's and that always brings out little miss dangerous! I got my button in the mail today for my trip from our online store. It is so neat and says "what happens in Toronto stays in Toronto". I plan to wear my button on my trip and I hope Shasta will too as we sent her one too and should be arriving in her mailbox soon. I did weigh in this morning and have lost another pound! Woot! I've been working hard on my diet and am back on track this week trying to lose a few more pounds before my trip. Master was very pleased. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

The first blowjob that I ever gave Master R

I went to my first swinger's party this weekend and I met a Dom there who I did feel a connection with. Nothing happened though but it got me thinking about Master R a lot. We have broken up now for a year but yet I find myself thinking about him a lot and having a very difficult time finding another Dom like him to play with. Every man I meet gets compared to R and I find myself wishing sometimes that we were still together. He is the only man other than Master Anakin that played with me on a very heavy level. I received some of the most intense spankings from him. He also mentored me and was a big part of my life for many years. .... For the rest of this post...please check out the Fellatrices blog! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

padme's first swinger party

Last night I got to experience going to my first ever swinger party. It took me a long time to get ready and all dressed up. I felt sexier than ever and was very nervous and excited. I put up a picture today of what I looked like after getting ready. My tummy had butterflies as I was getting ready to go. Master Anakin gave me full permission to play with anyone that I might meet at the party and told me that I could even chose to go back to someone's place if I found someone to play with after the party. I was feeling very excited as we drove out to the party. I went with talia and her husband and the mood in the car was filled with anticipation. I'm not sure what I was expecting but the swingers party didn't go at all like I thought it would. I wish I could write a post today saying how naughty it got or that I found someone to play with or even socialize with but that did not happen. We ordered some drinks and I tried a sex on the beach martini for the first time. The appetizers were really good. The dinner however wasn't too good. It took two hours to get our dinner and talia's husband cancelled his order because it was taking so long. My tummy was a bit upset from the mixed drinks I was having and was needing to eat dinner. The chicken was pretty bland and dinner was not too great. talia also complained that her meal wasn't as good as it could have been. It was being held in a public place but privately for swingers. I found myself people watching a lot out of curiousity. There were tons of different couples there. Some people really dressed up and others were barely wearing much of anything. One girl was even wearing a short schoolgirl skirt. I told her at one point that I had "left mine at home" and she giggled about it. I didn't really like the set-up of the party. We were put into our own booths but it made it really hard to socialize with others to mingle. I expected that a swingers club meant socialization with people who would be open minded and perhaps wanting to play with me. But that was not the case. I met the man hosting the event and even tried to come onto him and be naughty. He said he would be back but never did come back and I am not too sure he was even into me. People seemed in their own groups and they all seemed to know one another. People were dancing together and even some girls were making out but they all seemed to know one another. I did do some dirty dancing but danced on my own many times. I have to admit feeling very left out. There were slow songs and couples making out on the dance floor and I just had to sit back and watch. Only one person approached me as he was feeling bad for me and said I looked lonely from across the dance floor. He is a switch and he felt really bad that we were not able to talk more. I felt like the only single person there. It felt much different than a normal club in that way. I did try to approach people and got the cold shoulder a few times. I tried to talk to one woman in the bathroom who snubbed me and giggled with her friend when I was leaving. I tried to talk to someone at the bar area but the person didn't seem to want to talk to me. I even went directly up to that Dom who was hosting it and mentioned that I was feeling lonely and hoping to meet some people. He introduced me to one couple but when I mentioned the bdsm I felt snubbed. They took off pretty fast also when I mentioned that I wrote a sex blog. I was finally getting into the music and dancing around midnight and was surprised when talia told me they were getting ready to close up. Usually I'm dancing til the early morning but it felt like the night was suddenly over. I felt like I had hardly met anyone and it was very obvious that there were no prospects of going back to any place with anyone. I didn't say too much on the drive home. I am not sure I knew what to say. The night didn't go at all like I thought it would. I admit that I felt very disappointed. I went there hoping for at least a social aspect of it all but I didn't feel like I had gotten much of that. Master Anakin wasn't expecting me home and was surprised to see me at around 1 am. He knew something was wrong and we talked about the evening for a long time. He told me he would make it up to me and take me upstairs and fucked me and made me feel good. I admit that I didn't feel very wanted at all at the party. I think everyone was in their own circles and I really don't think many people were there to find people to play with. We went upstairs around 2 am and spent an hour fucking and Master gave me a huge orgasm. I didn't get much sleep last night and am very tired this morning. I'm glad that I got to at least experience going to a swingers club. Maybe it would be a different type of experience if it was being held in a private place instead of a public one with booths making it hard to socialize. The loud music also made it hard to socialize even with talia. We were up front near the speakers and had a hard time hearing one another at times. I went there to at least try to meet some people but I really didn't feel many people wanted to meet me. At least I can cross a few things off my bucket list though and it was an experience. I had always wanted go to a swingers party and now I know a bit of what it's like. I get to cross off my bucket list: #102 -Go to a swingers club or party #348 -Go out dancing again #418 -Try a different type of martini that I havn't tried before Hopefully I can try to get a few things done today. I am so tired and my legs hurt a bit from dancing last night. I want to start packing for my Toronto trip today. It's just over two weeks away and I am very excited about it!! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

padme goes to her first swingers party tonight!

I have some pretty big plans for tonight and I'm very excited and a little bit nervous too! My friend, talia invited me to go with her and her husband to a swingers party tonight and I am going! This will be my first swingers party that I have ever been to and it's on my bucket list so I'll be able to cross something off this weekend. Who knows if I will be crossing anything else off too! I have no idea what will happen tonight or how the night will go. talia and her husband will be picking me up and we are all going to go together. I'm really glad that I have a friend to go with because I don't think I could go to something like this on my own. Master Anakin was invited but he isn't very social and he wants me to go and have a great time and he wants to hear all about it when I get back. I imagine that it's going to be a very late night tonight but he plans to wait up for me. It should be a really interesting and fun experience. I have always wanted to go to a swingers party or club. I don't really consider myself a swinger even though we have a poly relationship. We mostly tend to play with people we know or friends. I do have swinger types of fantasies though and I do admit that it's very exciting thinking about the possibility of meeting someone there to possibly play with or even just to have a really nice social night out. I'm going to have the chance to meet new people and am excited to meet the man who is hosting this event too. The event is being held privately in a public type of place so it's a lot different than Goodhandy's where I am going in a few weeks on my Toronto trip. There will be dinner and dancing and a chance to meet other swingers and maybe even a few people in the lifestyle. I think it's going to be a lot of fun and a very different Saturday night for me. I'm SO excited!!! Master took me out shopping earlier to get an outfit as I wasn't sure what to wear to the party. Everything I have is so naughty and barely covers my ass. I found the most beautiful skirt which is sheer and fit me perfectly. I got a new blouse to go with it and I plan to wear my black fishnet stockings which are a tad naughty to complete the outfit. I even got new shoes too as I don't really have any black dancing type of shoes. I can't wait to wear it tonight and I'll have to get Master Anakin to take some pictures of me in it for everyone to see. :) So who wants to hear all about how my night goes tonight? I hope to blog about in the next few days when I get the chance. I'm sure it will be a very amazing night ahead! I don't even remember the last time I went dancing and I'm really looking forward to that part of the evening too. I have never met talia's husband before so that will be a nice chance to visit with him too. I better start getting ready for my big night ahead!! talia and her husband are picking me up in an hour and a half! I want to look my best. I hope everyone is having a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Rules for the Toronto Trip

TGIF! The weekend is almost here and there is only 19 days left before my big trip to see my best friend, Shasta Gibson! I am very focused on my trip right now and saving up all my pennies so I can go shopping in Toronto with her and be able to do lots of different things. I am flying out very early on Thursday June 12th. We plan to go for sushi that night and maybe even Starbucks and a walk if I have enough energy from being up at 4 am that day. LOL! I am not sure how I will be able to sleep the night before as I am having insomnia already and having a hard time sleeping because I am so excited about the trip! On Friday June 13th Shasta planned to take me to her gym and maybe a sauna there. We are going grocery shopping for the fondue that night also. This will be my first ever fondue that I have ever had!! It's on my bucket list and I'm very excited about it! We plan to make homemade margarita's and I will have a chance to visit with Shasta's husband, Jack too. I have had a few people ask me if I know Jack very well and I have only seen him a few times and he was naked. LOL! I had a naughty webcam night with Shasta and Jack before and also saw him on the webcam being naughty with Shasta for some JLD nights a few months ago. It will be nice to have a chance to talk to him hopefully with his clothes on this time. :) Saturday is the big Toronto day! Shasta is planning to take me right into Toronto to go shopping and see some of the sights! I REALLY want to see Much Music and that is also on my bucket list. She plans to take me to a few fetish stores there including this really neat one! I hope to buy something really sexy for our Goodhandy's night that night. I can't wait for that!! I have never seen Toronto so it will all be very new for me. We are planning to stop at a vodka bar called Banu's also and I might be trying some new foods too there. It should be a really amazing day and I'll be taking my camera and hopefully getting lots of pictures for everyone to see. The best part will be hanging out with my best friend and being able to enjoy a coffee with her and spend some time with her off the computer as we are always on msn chatting. I plan to take that whole weekend off of blogging but you will still be able to check my twitter updates on my sidebar and also you can always check out Shasta's blog too for any updates. Saturday night we are heading to my first ever sex party at Goodhandy's! I can't wait! I am soooo nervous but in a really good way. I have always wanted to go to a sex party and I can't wait to meet Todd Klinck who was in the show, Kink. I have to admit that I think he's a real hottie!! I'm super excited to be able to dress up sexy and have a great time at Goodhandy's with Shasta. I have been told that I will be on a collar and leash that night from Shasta. She's got a collar to put on me and also will be having me on a leash so that "little miss dangerous" doesn't get too out of control and she can keep an eye on me. I will not be playing with anyone unless she is ok with it and she will be in charge that night so I will be following her lead. It will be interesting to see what toys she might bring that night as you can apparently bring your own toys into Goodhandy's. Will I be watching others or perhaps being watched? Everyone will have to wait and find out!! *winks* I'm sure Saturday is going to be a very late night. Hopefully we will be able to sleep in a bit before we get up to head out to Niagara Falls for the day. Sunday is going to be a very busy and fun day! I have never seen Niagara Falls and that is also on my bucket list. Shasta is treating me to a wine tour also and we get to tour around Jackson Triggs winery and other fun places too! Thank you Shasta for such a nice treat! I can't wait!! I love Jackson Triggs and I am soooooo excited about the wine tour which is also on my bucket list! We come back to spend some time at Niagara Falls and hopefully dinner there before we come home to maybe a bath in her very big tub with a bath bomb and some wine. She picked up some ice wine for us and I'm not sure if we will be having it that night or maybe earlier. I can't wait! I don't leave until late on Monday so hopefully there will be time to relax and unwind from all our adventures. Shasta mentioned maybe driving around or just being able to visit with one another. I'm sure we are going to have lots to talk with all our amazing adventures through the trip. There is something special and pretty big being planned for my trip too! I am not sure when that will be happening. You will have to wait and find out after I'm back from my trip! :) I have always gotten rules when I go away on vacation without Master. My rules are a lot different than when I went to Las Vegas with my sister years ago. Things are different with our relationship and also even with my friendship with Shasta. My sister tended to get me into a lot of trouble and I broke many rules while travelling with her. Shasta will be watching out for me so Master Anakin is very sure that I am in good hands with her. He wanted me to post the rules so that everyone knows them and because they are very different than my usual TPE rules that I follow on a daily basis. padme's rules for the Toronto trip: 1. Sex is allowed on the trip but always safe sex at all times. Condoms always. Do not come back pregnant! 2. No bondage play at all with anyone that she doesn't know very well. Bondage play is fine with Shasta as padme knows her very well. 3. No anal sex. Period. Anal is something sacred between Master and slave always. 4. Must let Master know after she has arrived safely and is at Shasta's house. This phone call is very important as Master will worry until he hears his slave is ok and the plane landed ok and that. Must leave a message if Master is not reachable letting him know she is in Shasta's hands and ok. 5. Check in phone calls at least once a day. Master always has his cell phone when out. Must call every day to let him know she is ok. If she can't reach him, leave him a message. 6. Must wear wedding ring and let anyone know that she plays with that she is married. 7. Must communicate with Shasta if she is feeling uncomfortable about anything or needing reassurance about the trip at all. 8. No secrets!! Master wants to know everything that happens and any details must be shared with him. Master would like an approx and updated itienary so that he knows where she will be during some of the time she is there. If plans change, please let Master know. 9. slave must take care of herself while on the trip. Nothing to strain her back or neck. Also must try to get a decent amount of sleep on the trip although Master knows this will be difficult. 10. No going back to anyone's house after Goodhandy's that she doesn't know. Master doesn't want her spending the night anywhere other than somewhere safe (Shasta's house or an alternate arrangement) 11. No leaving drinks unattended at Goodhandy's 12. No red meat. padme's tummy is too sensitive to red meats so that must be avoided on the trip. There are no diet or liquor restrictions on the trip. 13. Must stay with Shasta and not going off on her own anywhere. slave is in a strange city and shouldn't be wondering around alone or off on her own in Goodhandy's. Also, listen to Shasta if she is not comfortable with any of the guys who wants to play with slave or if Shasta has any advice for her on how to say no. Master knows that saying no can be hard so ask Shasta to do it if she can't. 14. Even though slave is away, she is always Master's slave. she can be punished when she comes back for any serious infractions without real reasons. 15. padme must keep her twitter updated for Master so he can know a little of what she is up to and if she is doing ok. 16. Master wants padme to wear her dolphin necklace to remember him on the trip. Shasta can take it off to put her own collar on padme at anytime. 17. padme has a safeword she can use at all times. "Yellow" is the word used for slow down or I need a moment. "Red" is used for stop. padme must communicate if she is having any back or neck problems during play also. 18. Make sure to bring Master a bottle of wine home and some things for the kids. 19. Show Shasta respect at all times and listen to her. Be a respectable houseguest. Shasta has full permission from Master Anakin to spank padme as she sees fit for any disrespect or misbehavior or not listening. padme is in Shasta's hands when the plane lands and must try to be a good girl. Of course naughty girls are ok as long as Shasta is ok with that. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Is chocolate fudge ice-cream worth getting spanked for?

Master and I have a TPE relationship and I am very strictly controlled. I don't drive and I need permission to do anything and must always obey all my rules. One thing that there was never many rules about before in the past was about food. I need permission for medication or liquor but yet I was pretty much allowed to eat whatever I wanted. He didn't feel the need to control that because he figured I could make good choices myself. The problem is that I'm an emotional eater though. I had an eating disorder when I was young and food has always been a comfort to me. There is nothing better than chocolate or ice-cream or some cheesecake to comfort me when I am feeling lonely or down. We had a talk recently where I asked him to take over the control with what I am eating. I needed help with my diet. The spanking diet did not work too well for us. My weight was always going up and down. I'd get spanked and be on track for a day or two and then temptation would get the best of me. It was not producing the results I needed. I really wanted to lose some weight for my upcoming Toronto trip and also for the summer time coming up. Summer means less clothes on and it is harder to hide your body in shorts or tank tops. I asked him to be my personal trainer. I recently did a post called Darth Vader is my personal trainer. I asked him to push me very hard. I wanted him to control my eating and fitness and to help push me because I didn't feel capable of pushing myself hard enough. I have told him a few times I really need a spanking boot camp or something where someone is literally kicking my ass to get motivated and take better care of myself. He warned me it wouldn't be easy and there would be very serious consequences if I disobeyed or wasn't losing weight. He told me that I had to lose one pound a week or face a very serious punishment spanking. He said I would not enjoy it and I was even threatened with the cane which is something I am afraid of. He has really pushed me hard. I did an entire walk around the seawall on Saturday for our overnight date. My legs hurt worse than they had in years. The seawall is really huge and I still can't believe I really walked around it. On Sunday my legs throbbed and I didn't think I could move them. Master still made me walk. I had to walk down to the grocery store and back. And boy did I complain!! The problem is...I can't really complain why I asked for this. I asked for him to push me as hard as he could. I wanted him to take over the control with my food. It is starting to produce some good results. I have a list of things that I am allowed to eat while he is at work for breakfast and lunch. I am on the "special K challenge" so that is my breakfast each day. Lunch is lean cuisine or something off my list. Obviously there are no goodies or chocolate or sweets on the list. Yesterday I was lucky because I got one scoop of ice-cream after agreeing to walk after dinner with Master. He was mean though because I was expecting a big scoop and it seemed tiny to me!! *pouts* There is a bucket of chocolate fudge gourmet ice-cream in the freezer. I bought it for my kids. It has been calling my name today! I have been thinking about how good it would taste. I started wondering if Master would notice if I just had a scoop or two and then hid the spoon. Would he notice? It isn't that bad to just have a little, is it? Sometimes the temptation is just too overwhelming. I kept opening the freezer and looking at it and kept wondering. Then I decided to phone Master and ask (ok..more like beg) him for some. I even tried to offer him a blowjob and he laughed at me. He told me I can't exactly try to bribe him with a blowjob when he is Master and can take that anytime he wants. I then tried to be sweet about it. That didn't work either. Then I tried to pout. Pouting never works well with Darth Vader though. I was told that I am not allowed any ice-cream and that he will find out if I am naughty and have some without his permission. I was warned that if I disobeyed him that the consequences would be serious and there would be a punishment spanking involved. He had a very stern tone when he said I could go ahead and be a bad girl but I better be prepared for a very hard spanking if I didn't listen to him. *big pouts* What a mean old man!!!!!!!!!!!! My question to all of you today is...is chocolate fudge ice-cream worth getting spanked for? Should I just be a bad girl and have some even though that means a hard spanking? Some things in life are just too hard to resist...ice-cream is one of them! :) May the force be with you all! ~padme amidala

Tweety bird pj's for Toronto

I wanted to put up a picture of my new pj's that I bought for my upcoming Toronto trip to see my best friend, Shasta Gibson. They are soooo cute! I looked around the mall for a long time before heading to Sears and finding these adorable pj's. I love tweety bird sooo much! I love the color of the pj's and they feel very comfortable on me. Master Anakin said they looked "spankable" on me. What do you think? He proved how spankable they are by giving me an OKT wearing those pj's last weekend. I posted a picture yesterday of it. I better be careful not to be too much of a brat on the Toronto trip. Master has already told me that Shasta can spank me as much as she wants if I am misbehaving. He told me that once the plane lands in Toronto and I meet Shasta that I will be in her hands then. Shasta has already warned me that she has a lot of spanking impliments. She's got more toys than any other person that I know. I better make sure to not pout or be a bad girl too much or she might be also proving how spankable they are by pulling down my pj bottoms and spanking me herself! Of course being a naughty girl is a bit different than a bad one. I have a feeling Shasta might enjoy it if I got naughty at Goodhandy's when I get to go to my first sex club. I can't wait! I'm counting down the days! 21 days and counting! I don't remember the last time I was so excited about something. Shasta and I have been chatting a lot lately and also talked on the phone yesterday for a long time. It's been really great to chat about her plans for me. She's got a lot of plans like taking me to Niagara Falls and shopping in Toronto and having a fondue and making margarita's. She also has a few naughty plans in store for me too. There is something pretty major being planned for my trip. You will just have to wait until I'm back from my trip to find out what it is. *winks* I had a really good morning with Darth Vader. He was home for a few hours this morning so he could take Leia down to the bus to go to her first camp. She is going on a grade 7 camp until Friday and it is the first one she has gone to away from home. She was very excited about it. She gets to go horseback riding and hiking and will be having lots of fun. Darth surprised me by bringing me home breakfast. We ate and then I showed him something on the computer. I was joking around with him that I would never surrender to him. He joked back saying to go upstairs so he can make me surrender. Before I knew it...I was getting a spanking with his hand and he was saying to me "do you surrender now, bitch" and I was saying "no" and he would give me another spank harder. The joking around turned into some VERY hot sex!! He was so hard after spanking me so he stuck his hard cock into my very wet pussy and we fucked like crazy!! I was out of breath when he was done with me. I walked him to the door naked with his cum running down my legs. I am still sitting here naked right now watching a porno and feeling so horny! He has given me permission to use the Hitatchi today because I'm all worked up and needing some release. Thank you for voting in our poll about how often do you have sex. I've been enjoying the weekly polls and I appreciate all the feedback. It's interesting to see how people vote to each poll. The results are in! How often do you have sex? As often as possible - 35 % Every few weeks - 22% At least once a week - 22% Every few weeks - 4% Every few months - 8% Every year or two - 2% I don't have sex - 4% I was surprised to see that some people aren't having sex? I can't imagine going without sex for more than a week! I need it...I crave it...I want it! I'm just too horny of a slut to go without cock for too long! :) Please vote in our latest poll. We asked you "what do you normally wear to bed". I am curious to see how people vote. I tend to wear a lot of nightgowns to bed. The Tweety bird pj's are one of my first pj sets that I have ever owned. Have a great hump day!! ~padme amidala

Anakin takes padme to the beach..

Happy holiday Monday! What a weekend! I don't remember the last time I felt so happy and submissive and relaxed. I think it was when we went away to Victoria and the Island for our anniversary for the Easter long weekend. Yesterday was one of the best days so far for 2008! It was so perfect and relaxing and I am trying to come down from it all today. I've got sore spots on my ass and tits from all the play. I wish everyday can be like yesterday was. I really do feel spoiled from my Daddy sometimes. He knows just how to make me a very happy girl. We had an overnight and he told me that he planned to take me to the beach as I had posted yesterday about really wanting to go to the beach sooooo bad!! He told me that he wanted me to wear my "beach girl" t-shirt to wear while we were down at the beach. We got into the car and enjoyed a nice long drive to downtown Vancouver and Stanley Park. I really love Stanley Park. Some of my best memories have been in Stanley Park. I went there the night I had my prom night...memories of my first husband and I...memories of the night before my wedding to Master...memories of getting belted over a rock down at the beach in Stanley park and of him fucking me while the waves crashed in one night after seeing Phantom of the Opera for the first time. He told me we would be walking the entire seawall as he has always wanted to do that and it was on my bucket list. I had no idea how long it would be! lol! My feet never hurt as much as they did after walking around it. My muscles were throbbing. Darth Vader knows how to push me and I've asked him to be my personal trainer. He knew this would be good exercise for me and to help get me to get a really good workout in. I've never walked around it before. I saw a few things I never saw before. We did stop over at the Vancouver Aquarium for some lunch and also to shop in the gift shop there before we started our walk on the seawall. I love that gift shop and it was also on my bucket list. Master bought me a really cute magnet from there and also a beautiful dolphin mood necklace which I put up a picture of today. I LOVE it!! It was a very romantic moment as he came over and put it around my neck. I love dolphins and the ocean and I was so very touched with his romantic surprise for me! Thank you Master! :) We started our journey at the one end where you can see the downtown Vancouver cityscape. There were tons of people rollerblading and jogging as well as walking. We saw some wildlife and crabs in the water and ducks including some baby ducks with their momma. Master took a ton of pictures. We did stop along the way at different benches to relax and enjoy the scenery. You can see me looking out at the Lions Gate Bridge in the one picture. It was a perfect sunny spring day and the seawall is sooooo incredibly beautiful! We even saw a cruise ship leaving and people waving at us from the deck. It was all a bit surreal almost how perfect it felt down at the beach with the waves crashing in and Master leaning over to kiss me and the happiness and love that I felt in my heart. I feel like I keep falling in love with him over and over again. He knows how to blow me away and create a bond between us that I've never had with any other man. I really love how romantic and sweet he can be as well as his Darth Vader side. The Anakin side is so gentle and loving. He created a perfect day for me and had me smiling and laughing the entire time. We wound up over at English Bay at the end of the journey. We stopped for some dinner on Denman Street at a place called Nat's New York Pizzaria. The pizza was just incredible with tons of mushrooms in it which I love. We walked down Denman afterwards and I was soooooo excited to pick up a cupcake at the cupcakes store . It was also on my bucket list as I havn't had one since I was downtown seeing my sister for the last time before she left to move away from Vancouver. I always wanted to eat another one. They are sooooo good! I put up a picture today of it! It was called Blue Hawaii and Master allowed me this treat as I had worked so hard with all the walking and did good on my diet this last week. YUMMY!! I really enjoyed it! We came home and Master ran me a hot bath to soak my muscles which were throbbing worse than they had in a while. A very deep burn was in my legs from all the walking. He put on some gregorian chants for me and lit some candles and told me to take my time and soak and relax. He didn't want me to have any worries. He came up at one point with some Jackson Triggs Merlot for me to sip on. Ahhhhh!!! It was heavenly. I could still smell the salty air of the beach and feeling of a good workout and at peace. Master was taking our toys downstairs while I was in my bath. He grabbed the razor strop, his belt, the whip, clothespins, Hitatchi, the rabbit vibrator, and he got everything ready for some pictures and play. He put on a new porno and then came up to get me out of my bath. I got a deep massage before being told to get into my new pj's to model for him. I bought them for my Toronto trip on Friday from Sears. They are sooo cute and come with pj bottoms and the top has Twetty Bird on it. The blue color is my favorite! Master said they look very "spankable" on me. He proved that point by making sure to pull down my pj bottoms to give me an OTK. I put up a picture today of the OTK spanking. Notice his big hands? Boy he can spank hard with those big hands of his. Ouchies! My bottom was burning red by the time he was done. I wrote about some of the play and also the blowjob that he got last night over at the Fellatrices. You can read all about it HERE. You can read all about the naughty play that we had over there. We played for hours and I came twice for him. I fell asleep so content and submissive and in his arms naked. Life really doesn't get much better than that! It's the perfect way to spend a long weekend and I loved waking up with some soreness and bruising from the walking and all the play too. My force feels strong... I get to cross off 5 different things off my bucket list from yesterday. They are: #152 -Walk around the entire seawall in Stanley Park #165 -Go back to the Vancouver Aquarium and buy something neat at their terrific gift shop #166 -Get another cupcake from that very cool cupcake shop on Denman Street #387 -Spend the whole day at the beach (this is heavenly) #403 -Search for seashells at a beach again for my collection May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Darth Vader is my personal trainer

I hope everyone is having a good long weekend. It's been a really warm and sunny weekend so far and all I can think about it is going to the beach today. We got a big surprise yesterday when Master's parent's offered to take Skywalker for an overnight tonight. So we have no kids for a whole 24 hours!! The question is...where do we head to or what should we do? I really want to have some naughty fun with Darth Vader tonight. We havn't been able to get naughty this weekend yet and I am aching for it. My mascochistic soul is craving a beating!! I'd love to spend some time on the darkside and escape into some subspace. We had a big family event last night which went really well. It was drama free and a nice time for everyone. I was going to go out on a ladies night out but that didn't work out. I had a really hard time sticking with my diet last night with all the good food and bellini's. Master gave me a warning look at one point with how much I was indulging it. I knew weigh-in was going to be this morning but I wanted to enjoy my evening. I was a bit nervous this morning when Darth Vader woke up and the first thing he says to me is "five minutes til weigh-in" and I know my ass is on the line. I have agreed to submit to a hard punishment spanking if I don't lose at least one pound a week. I will be getting punished even if it stays the same. This is to push me which I really need right now. I want to lose some weight for my Toronto trip and with summer coming up. I have a hard time making smart food choices so I've given Darth the control with it. He has been monitoring my food and letting me know what to eat. It paid off because I stepped on the scale nervously but did lose one pound! Yeah! A pound is a pound and it meant no punishment spanking. Darth Vader is a real hard-ass personal trainer who is going to push me and get me to reach my goals. I added some more to my bucket list this morning. I really want to cross something off this weekend so hopefully we can do something fun off of it while we have some time with no kids for our overnight tonight. Maybe even something sexy from the list. I wonder if there is anyone else who wants to help me cross something off the list? :) I love this weather! I really want to be on a beach collecting seashells or breathing in the ocean air. Maybe eating some fish and chips while enjoying the long weekend. I could always wear my "beach girl" t-shirt that Master bought me from our online store. I can't wait to wear it on my Toronto trip which is coming up in a few weeks! Master has some really neat beach designs on our store and I really want to buy the "waikiki beach" one! So cute! :) I really hope Master can take me to the beach.......... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF! Yee Haw! The long weekend begins...

Best graphics, layouts, and more for your profiles! Click Here! TGIF! The Victoria Day long weekend is about to begin and I'm all pumped up about the Cloverdale Rodeo which starts today. I really hope we can drop by the rodeo and check it out. Or more like...check out all the sexy cowboys and cowgirls. *winks* We go every year and I really enjoy the country fair. I'm a true country girl at heart so the Cloverdale rodeo is always a fun time! I have gone every year that I have been with Master. We don't go to the actual rodeo part but we do walk around the fairgrounds and sometimes go on a few rides or play the games there and check it all out. There's always a beer garden there too which is great to check out all the eye candy. :) There is a big family event happening this weekend too. I will be seeing my sister. I havn't seen her since summer so that will be wonderful to get to see her again and spend some time with her. I might even get to see her today. Hopefully there is no family drama for the family event and it all goes smoothly. I dyed my hair a lighter shade of blonde for this weekend and was very happy about how the color turned out. I'm hoping to go shopping today for my Toronto trip. I want to get some new pj's and also a few other things too. It's sure coming up fast! 26 days and counting! I can hardly wait! The trip is on my mind all the time and I am soooooooo excited about it! The weather has been absolutely beautiful yesterday and today! It feels like summer time with the warm weather and bright sunshine! Perfect for the long weekend and Cloverdale rodeo! I really hope that I can cross something else off my bucket list too this weekend. I hope everyone has a wonderful long weekend and enjoys some naughty fun too! I am hoping there will be lots of naughty fun with Darth Vader this long weekend. I've been so horny the last few days and I would love to spend some time on the darkside with Darth. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Naughty glowing schoolgirl

Happy HNT everyone! I was looking around our old pictures and came across this one and knew it would make a very good HNT. It's one of Master Anakin's favorites. I am wearing his white work shirt and naughty schoolgirl skirt and red thong and white innocent thigh-hi's and schoolgirl shoes to complete the look. His white shirt was open wide exposing my tits and I was lifting my skirt up to touch myself. mmm..nothing like a schoolgirl being naughty to make for a very erotic and fun picture. Don't I look like I need a spanking? Can't you imagine me bent over Master Anakin's knee wearing that outfit? I had a really fun and wonderful day. I spent the morning chatting with my friend, Shasta. We were chatting about the upcoming Toronto trip and I enjoyed a morning coffee with her while on msn. I always enjoy having our morning coffee's together while we chat. It's one of the best parts of my day. :) It was so quiet and I wanted to have some background noise but I didn't want to watch any daytime tv. So I threw on one of my favorite porno's called Casey Parker: The Girl Next Door. I love that porno! It's one of my favorites. I started to get very wet and aroused. Master phoned me on his lunch break and asked me what I was doing and I told him that I was chatting with Shasta and watching porn. He wasn't surprised I was being so naughty in the middle of the day. I almost considered asking him permission to use the Hitatchi but I realized that my friend, talia was due to arrive for us to go shopping. I wasn't sure if she would show up early and I would be in the middle of masturbating. lol. I had to change my panties before leaving because of how wet they were. talia and I went to Starbucks and had a really nice chat over our latte's. I really enjoyed being out and having some wonderful coversation at Starbucks with talia. We headed over to a lingerie shop afterwards for some sexy shopping. She has a party coming up and wanted to look for something naughty. I was trying to find some new stuff for Toronto. I was trying to find a nightgown there to wear on my trip. Most of my nightgowns are a bit too revealing to wear and I wanted something new. It's hard to find a vanilla type of pj's in a lingerie shop. I tried a few sexy things on but have lost a bit of weight in my chest area so it didn't fit well. I did buy some new black lace panties for my night at Goodhandy's. They are so sexy and I can't wait to wear them. :) I came home and found out that I had accidently put a quiz I was doing onto The Fellatrices. You can check out the quiz over there and maybe give it a try if you havn't already. It was a fun one. :) I am sooooooooooooooooooo horny today!! I am not sure what's gotten into me but all I can think of is sex right now. Have you ever had a day where you were so horny that you thought you would burst? That all you can think of is sex and orgasms and play? I seriously need some Darth Vader time!! I would love to have him spank my naughty ass and then get fucked soooooooo hard!! mmmm...little miss dangerous has cum out and she wants to play.... Now the question is....who wants to cum over and play with me? Or who wants to see me all dressed up in a naughty schoolgirl outfit getting spanked by Master Anakin? Or how about seeing me touching myself all dressed up in that outfit? This song describes how I'm feeling right now....mmmmmmmmmm May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

How often do you have sex?

It's been a very dreary rainy day in Vancouver today. Yuck! Where's the sunshine? I hope that it comes out before the long weekend coming up. I have been feeling a bit overwhelmed by life the last few days. Lots of family drama going on which is a bit much to deal with. I went for coffee to Tim Hortons this morning with my friend, DL. I am glad that I am able to vent about family stuff to her. I am adjusting to a new diet too this week with some new rules and Master starting to control what I eat. I think I will be feeling better after this big family event which is coming up on Saturday. I am wondering how it's going to go and my stomach turns just thinking about it all. 29 days and counting til my Toronto trip. Time is flying! The trip really doesn't seem too far away now. It's on my mind a lot these days. I admit I'm a bit nervous about going on my first trip alone and also my first night alone from Master in over 3 years. It's a really big event being able to meet my best friend, Shasta and also my first ever sex party at Goodhandy's and all the excitement of the weekend. I am doing more in those few days than I think I have all year. lol. Shasta and I talked on the phone yesterday about all the different plans for the trip and it's all just amazing all the different places she will be taking me on the trip. I have never been farther than Saskatchewan so this will all be very new for me also to go to Ontario. I am already starting to wonder about what to pack for the trip. Thank you to everyone for voted in our latest poll. The results are in! We asked you if you have ever had a threesome? The results were: Yes! A m/m/f one 25% Yes! A f/f/m one 30% No! But I'd like to 30% No way! I wouldn't want to! 10% I've had several 25% I voted for "I've had several". A threesome isn't for everyone so I'm not too surprised to see a few votes for "no way! I wouldn't want to". I had some really wild threesomes in my time and I'm very glad to have experienced all of them. I have put down to have another m/m/f threesome and also another m/f/f threesome in my bucket list. I am hoping that I will be able to experience both kinds of threesomes again before I kick the bucket. I put up a new poll on our sidebar. Please vote! We are asking you how often do you have sex? I am really curious to see how people vote. I am always very curious about other people's sex lives. I do know some people who don't have sex very often. I used to be that way in my first marriage. We could go months between having sex. I often complain now if I go one week without it. lol. Boy times have changed. :) I wanted to say hello to everyone coming from Fleshbot. My post about Darth Vader showing padme the power of the darkside made it onto Fleshbot and I've noticed a lot of hits coming today from them. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

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Happy one year blogging anniversary to the Fellatrices!

Today is the one year blogging anniversary of The Fellatrices blog. I did a special post over there today for it. I'm hoping that I can get a few people to come over and leave a comment today for it. It would mean a lot to me. I've really enjoyed being a part of that blog with my blog posts every Monday. There is lots of information and different posts about Fellatio. If you havn't had the chance to check it out, please do! The Fellatrix has a really wonderful blog and has put a lot of work into it and there are lots of ladies helping to make it a very successful blog. Happy one year blogging anniversary to The Fellatrices! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy Mother's day!

I would like to wish everyone a happy mother's day today! I've had a pretty good mother's day weekend so far. Friday night we played on the darkside (see yesterday's post) and yesterday we went on a date and went to see the new Harold and Kumar movie, Escape to Guantanamo Bay. It was really funny and several times my stomach hurt because of how hard I was laughing. I had a wonderful date and came home to find out some sad news from my best friend, Shasta. Their pet hampster died yesterday. I thought about her all last night and wondered how she was doing. I know it's very difficult to lose a pet and I hope she knows that she has been in my thoughts a lot this weekend. Today is a pretty quiet mother's day. Master is still sleeping so not sure I'll be getting breakfast in bed this morning. lol. Master changed the brunch with his mom around so that I didn't have to cook and clean today. We are going to all grab pizza instead. That's the best mother's day gift I can get today...not having to put on a big brunch and cook and clean all day. I want to enjoy the day and spend some time with Skywalker and Leia today. It's funny how mother's day has really changed for me now that I have my own kids. I feel so extremely lucky to have been blessed with two wonderful children. My pregnancies and births were not easy and I went through a lot to have them but I am so blessed to have my kids. I can't imagine my life without them in it. My trip to Toronto is a month away now! I leave on June 12th very early in the morning. One month from now I will be getting ready to go. It's starting to feel so close now and was the first thing I thought of this morning when I woke up. I can't wait!! I hope everyone has a wonderful mother's day and is having a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Darth Vader shows padme the power of the darkside

I had written a blog post yesterday about feeling irritable and my mood carried into last night. Darth Vader had come home in a dark mood and we both started to bicker before I went into a hot bubble bath. He wasn't too happy at all with my mood and told me that he would be "showing me the power of the darkside" as soon as there was an opportunity. I soaked for a very long time in the bath and decided that I would dress up for Darth and surprise him. I shaved my pussy smooth and got dressed into my leather skirt, girlie socks, heart panties and tight white top. I put my hair into ponytails also for him and got ready for some play on the darkside. I sipped on merlot as I waited nervously for Lord Vader to arrive. He was very pleased that I had dressed up for him and also laid out all the toys and put on a porno. He noticed that his belt was also laying on the bed waiting for him. "I'm going to spank that bad mood right out of you" he told me and he sat down and tapped his lap for me to get over it. I got a quick but very hard OTK to redden my ass as a warm up with my heart panties pulled down. Then I was told to go over the pillow at the end of the bed and take the belt for him. He warned me it would be hard and to not move. I tried my best to stay still although it was very difficult at times when he belted my lower thighs. I got a quick few with the whip too. Then I was told to go into the "bad girl" corner and put my hands on my head and to keep that position for ten minutes. I could feel him watching me while he started to stroke his cock. I could feel the wetness running down my legs. I was soooo aroused and needing him. Then I was told to come over and suck on his cock for a while as he watched some of the porno. I used my hands to massage his balls as I sucked up and down on his cock to make him feel good. I noticed him holding onto his belt as it jingled in his hand a few times as a warning. I was told that he was going to fuck me up the ass and to go get the butt plug in and get it ready. I lubed it up and put it up my ass and he fucked my ass first with the plug and then he took it out and plunged his cock into it. He held onto my hair tight as he fucked my ass hard. I felt so deeply submissive in that moment...my very welted and sore ass being fucked hard by Darth Vader and feeling used and taken. mmmm...I came soooo close to cumming but he denied it. "Don't you dare cum or I'm going to have to hurt you more" he warned me. I felt like I was on the edge of an orgasm the entire ass fucking. I had to try to concentrate to hold it in. He came up my ass and then told me to clean up and come back to him. He used the rabbit as I was using the Hitatchi and I begged for him to let me cum and he finally said "cum for me" and I exploded so hard that it shook my entire body. We played a bit more and I fell asleep as Master was getting me a snack. I don't even remember falling asleep. What a night! I put up a picture of me standing in the corner last night with a very welted and red bottom. Enjoy! :) We found out we have a few hours of sitting today so we are hoping to go out on a date. This weekend has gone better than I expected so far. I can't wait to see what tonight will hold.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF. Let the weekend begin..

TGIF! What a day! It feels like today has flown by so fast. Master is due home soon and I am feeling like I need a drink. I had a really nice day today. My friend, talia invited me out for coffee to Starbucks today. I havn't gotten out of the house all week and it was such a beautiful day today. I was really glad to be out with a good friend enjoying a latte and some banana bread at Starbucks. We took her kids to the park afterwards and had a really nice talk. It feels so nice to be able to get together with someone who knows about this blog and knows about my lifestyle with Master. I'm hoping that we can maybe go shopping sometime because I would like to get some new clothes for my Toronto trip and maybe even something sexy for Master. It's been a while since I treated myself to some new lingerie or new panties. Master put up a new design on our store yesterday for the Toronto trip. It says "what happens in Toronto stays in Toronto". He ordered a button for Shasta and one for me too that should arrive before I go on my trip. It's hard to believe that it's just over a month away til I'm off on my Toronto trip. Shasta mentioned that she bought some ice wine for my trip and I'm very excited to have some. I have only had a taste at a wine tasting up at Mission Hill winery. It's on my bucket list so that will be great to cross that off. :) I have been feeling a little bit irritable the last few hours. I really wish there was something going on this weekend. We don't have any plans other than mother's day and I have to host a brunch for my mother-in-law. I guess I thought I would be spending Mother's day being able to relax or be treated to lunch instead of having to clean and cook. Mother's day reminds me that I am not very close to my mom anymore also. We havn't talked on the phone in months. She only e-mails when there is some kind of news going on which is rare. She moved far away and we are no longer close. I miss her a lot. I miss my family. At least with Father's day I'll be away in Toronto so I will be more distracted to think about my relationship with him which is worse than ever at this point. I really hope that I can cross something else off my bucket list this weekend. Perhaps even something naughty. I just hope that I can get out of this mood that I am in right now. Master has offered to let me go out this weekend but I don't have anyone to go out with and I don't drive and have no clue where I could go on my own. Sometimes I just feel very frustrated. I think perhaps it's time for some merlot ...who knows...maybe I might be surprised and something naughty or fun might happen this weekend. Have a great weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Prep schoolgirl needs a spanking

Happy HNT! I was looking through our massive collection of erotic and spanking pictures to try to find one for HNT that we havn't put up before. You can't imagine how many pictures we have done in the last few years. It took me all morning to find a picture that was a bit different and fun and that I didn't think we had put up before on Journey to the Darkside. lol. This picture was taken the weekend of my 35th birthday. I wore my new Prep schoolgirl outfit for Master to surprise him. He loves this outfit. The pink schoolgirl skirt and very tight white top that shows my tits off nicely. The outfit comes with white thigh-hi's to complete the innocent but naughty look. I always love to dress up and be naughty. We did an HNT which was similar called "sexy prep schoolgirl costume" but it mostly showed the backside of this outfit. Soooo....Who thinks I need a spanking for looking so naughty? Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think. :) Speaking of spankings...I got a punishment spanking yesterday from Master that was a pretty major ouchies and left a few bruises on my ass and a lesson well learned. I had a problem in the past taking too much medications. My car accident left me in constant pain and I popped a lot of different pain medications. This became a major rule with us with our TPE agreement. I am not allowed to take any medication (including tylenol) without his permission. He likes to know what I am putting into my body. I wasn't feeling very well at all yesterday and was in pain and went for the pamprin to relieve my cramps. I honestly didn't think of the rule when I was taking it. I only wanted to stop the pain I was in. I realized soon afterwards that I should have asked him but I figured it was too late and I would tell him when he phoned me for his daily check-in phone call on his lunch break. Master was not impressed. He wasn't happy that I had broken the rule and also that I hadn't phoned him to tell him I was in pain and what was going on. I was told that we would "talk about it later" which is code for "there's probably a spanking coming for this". He phoned me back a little while later on his cell phone so we could talk in private. I could tell he was in Darth mode and very disappointed with me. I was told that I would be getting a punishment spanking and he was going to see if his Dad could take the kids to karate to give us some private time alone. My stomach was not feeling well but this put it into knots. I felt bad for disappointing him but also nervous knowing that he was going to punish me for it. I had no idea either how hard or with what he would spank me but I knew there would be a price to pay for my breaking the rule and disobeying Lord Vader. I thought about it all afternoon. I could see a very intense look on his face when he got home from work. I came over to kiss him and saw a very cold stare from him. He told me that he would cook dinner as I was not feeling well. I felt extremely guilty about it because that is my job to cook dinner. He had just spent an hour driving home and was in a mood and now he was having to cook dinner. I was feeling pretty fragile and guilty by this point. I sat on the couch watching tv but I couldn't concentrate at all. I also couldn't eat. I had a piece of toast. The kids went to karate and I was sent upstairs to wait for him. I felt like I could barely breath when I heard him coming up the stairs. I know what he is like when he is going to punish me. There is nothing fun or erotic about it at all. I am going to get a punishment spanking and boy can he spank hard!! Some men would probably have let it go because I was not feeling well but he didn't. I admit that I freaked out a bit when he came upstairs. I didn't think it was fair to get a punishment spanking when I was feeling sick and on my period. I tried very hard to get out of the punishment coming. He heard me out and then responded with "you broke the rule and you know what happens when you do. You are getting punished whether I need to restrain you or not for it. That is your choice. If you struggle or fight this, you will get more and get it harder. Do you understand me?" He looked me directly in my eyes with a very intense dominant stare. He started to take off his belt as he lectured me. His voice was stern and very in control. I knew that I couldn't resist and I had to just suck it up and take it. I got down to my panties and went over the pillow at the end of the bed. My panties were pulled down and he started to strap me. The first one almost knocked the wind out of me. I think the last time I felt him use the belt that hard was when I disobeyed him about using the washer and it leaked everywhere. That was months ago. The first ten had me screaming into the pillow. I tried to stay still but at one point I tried to move my ass away and he grabbed me by my hair and pulled me back onto the pillow and gave me one stroke with his belt that made it feel like my ass was one big welt. I started to cry at this point. It takes a lot to make me cry but I think that I was in the right emotional frame of mind for it. I was feeling fragile and getting punished and he was very disappointed with me. I hate to disappoint him and it was eating at my soul. I started to sob by the time he got to 40. They were all extremely hard strokes with his belt teaching me a lesson. I laid there in a curled up submissive position and he spoke softly to me saying that the punishment was over and that he would take care of me. He started to run me a bath and told me I was going to bed early again after. He stroked my hair and reassured me and let me cry it out. I felt a great release from within myself. It felt good to cry and I felt extremely submissive afterwards. I went in the bath and soaked and then was in bed by 8:30 pm. I am still feeling very submissive today and really hoping to please Master. I've got dinner planned and I hope that I can be a good slave today for him. My force runs through him... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Is it only Tuesday? A long week already...

It's only Tuesday and it feels like a long week already. I am not feeling very well today due to my period and maybe even a flu. My stomach is not feeling good and I have been leery about eating anything today. I took some medication without asking Master first. I was having some terrible cramps earlier and was doubled over in pain and needed something to help. I realized after that I should have asked him first as that is a big rule for me. I am supposed to ask him before taking any medication. I feel guilty though for not asking him. I'm not sure yet if I am going to be punished for this or not. I'll have to wait until Darth Vader gets home to find out. I feel so fragile today. Maybe it's the hormones or my stomach or something but I feel very off and really needing comfort and needing my Daddy. He takes care of me when I am not feeling well. Last night he helped to make dinner and also put me to bed early and I know he's worried about me too. I really don't like feeling this way. Emotionally and physically I feel like a mess...I just really need a hug today! I got all the way up to 400 on my bucket list today. Please make sure to check them out and let me know if you are interested in helping me out with any of these. I am really hoping that some readers or friends will get a bit brave and help me cross some naughty things off of it. There are so many things that I would like to try or do again. You can e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com. There are some vanilla things too which you can always help me with...meeting a new blogger, talking on the phone to someone new, or meeting me at starbucks to talk for a few hours. There are several naughty things too I'd like to also cross off my list from threesomes to trying out the violet wand to kissing another man or woman again. I am looking for someone to go with me to Sin City sometime. I really want to go there but don't want to go alone. Also I'd love to go to a swingers club too sometime. Master Anakin often gives me nights like last saturday to go out on my own. It really sucked because I had no one to go out with and wound up staying at home. I'd also love to go to a local munch sometime too in Vancouver. Please let me know if anything interests you in helping me cross it off my list. I intend to cross everything off my list. You will get full credit for anything that you can help me with. I am hoping that Fetlife might connect me to more people in the area too. I had one e-mail from someone saying that he could maybe take me to Sin City sometime and also from another couple. Is there anyone else who would like to meet me or talk to me or play with me? It's time to start crossing things off my list! I got to cross out something this morning that was very fun to try for the first time. Master Anakin and I posted our first video on You Tube!! I have always wanted to do that. We posted a video of our online store, Darkside Digital Arts. Check it out and let us know what you think. Please keep in mind this is our first video that we've done there and are just learning how to do it. You may see more videos there in the future! :) Thank you for voting in our latest poll. The results are in! We asked you if you watch porn? 32% said Yes! As often as possible 28% of you said sometimes 32% of you said only on the internet 3% have a few times 0% said no way! and 3% of you said that you are a porn star! Not sure who voted for the porn star but if there are any porn stars reading this blog, please e-mail or let me know! I'd love to hear from you. :) We put up a new poll on our sidebar asking you if you have ever had a threesome before. I really enjoy the poll's and hearing from everyone. :) I saw this meme on the story of m's blog and wanted to give it a try: four unusual places you have had sex: 1. on Waikii Beach in Hawaii 2. in the front seat of a honda 3. in Stanley Park 4. On the sandy beach at Harrison Hot Springs four erotic books you've read: 1. the Anne Rice Sleeping Beauty series 2. The Story of O 3. Submission by Marthe Blau 4. Nine and a half weeks by Elizabeth McNeill four of your favorite erotic zones: 1. pussy 2. nipples 3. lips 4. ass four sexy experiences you want to have: 1. Go to a sex club or swingers club 2. Have another threesome 3. Kiss another woman again 4. Get spanked by someone new four favorites: 1. Doggy style 2. Spankings over the pillow 3. Master's belt 4. The Hitatchi four sexy things you like to wear: 1. "spank me" panties 2. schoolgirl outfit 3. Leather skirt 4. thigh-hi stockings I'm not tagging anyone but let me know if you give it a try and I'll come check out your answers to it! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Fetlife

I just wanted everyone to know that I joined Fetlife today. I noticed a few other bloggers have joined and thought I'd check it out. My name is padmeamidala on there so if you are on there, please feel free to add me to your friend's list. I joined a few groups on there too. Let me know if you know of any good groups that you are a part of if you are on Fetlife. It looks like a really neat type of Facebook but for people in the lifestyle. Very cool! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Top ten reasons I love to suck Master Anakin's cock

Top ten reasons I love to suck Master Anakin's cock: 10. It relaxes him and makes him happy. I love to give him a blowjob when he's had a hard day at work or needs to relax. Nothing works better than getting him to relax and wrapping my mouth around his cock and sucking him until he cums. He is in a way better mood and that makes for a Master who is feeling relaxed and happy. It makes for a happier home for everyone when he's in a good mood. Blowjob = good mood. 9. It makes me feel submissive. I love to get down on my knees and I always feel submissive and owned when I am sucking his cock. 8. It bonds us during times that we are not able to have sex. The blowjobs give us time to be intimate together without having the worry of having sex because of surgery or that time of the month or whatever. .......... For the rest of this post, please check out the Fellatrices blog. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A spanking and some naughty fun in Campbell Valley Park

Yesterday was a pretty tough day for me as you could tell from my last blog post. I was having pms and Master was in Darth mode and we had a lot of fighting through the day. I started drinking some merlot last night and soaked in a hot bath but I still felt very irritable and in a real mood. Skywalker went to bed and Master and I watched a movie for a bit before I decided that I wanted to go upstairs and not really deal with him anymore. He was in a mood and I wanted to be alone. Master had different plans though and followed me upstairs to our room. I pushed him a bit trying to get him to leave when he pushed back harder and pushed me right onto the bed. What followed was a big wrestling match and then some incredible sex!! He had me screaming out at one point because he had my legs up and was fucking me so hard that I couldn't help but scream out. There was some slapping and biting and scratching and very rough sex. I came so hard that I literally laid on the bed panting for a few minutes and couldn't move. Wow! PMS girl vrs Darth Vader and Darth won! I felt so submissive and owned by the time we were done and snuggled up to him while we had a late night snack. I hate fighting with Master but I love the make-up sex afterwards. It was really fantastic rough sex and I really needed that last night. We discussed the upcoming Toronto trip and some of the rules that he wants me to have. It is kind of funny how far we have come through the years. My rules are a lot lighter than my rules when I went to Las Vegas in 2000 with my sister. I remember not even being allowed to go to a club and there was no sex allowed and a very strict budget. I didn't follow some of the rules on that trip and can still remember that spanking I got when I got home from the trip. Most of the rules for my trip are for safety like making sure I keep an eye on my drinks so no one spikes them at Goodhandy's and also no bondage with anyone I don't know extremely well. I am allowed to have sex but of course the condom rule applies. This doesn't mean that sex is something that will happen but I have the option should I feel in the mood to indulge in some naughty fun. 40 days and counting! It is getting closer and closer and I'm so excited! :) Master and I went over to his parent's this morning to see them as they had just come home from their trip. They offered to take Skywalker for a few hours so we could have some time for ourselves which was a surprise. Master took me to Tim Hortons for brunch and then we talked about my bucket list and I had really wanted to cross something off my list this weekend. My list has been growing but I havn't been able to cross anything off it yet. We headed for Campbell Valley Park which is a big forest area that is great for hiking with tons of wildlife and trails. #322 - Hike through campbell valley park again is now crossed off my list! Yeah! We had a really wonderful long hike through the trails and got some great pictures of some wildlife and also we were able to have a bit of naughty fun. I thought I'd share a few pictures with everyone from our hike. *winks* I was told to flash my tits at one point during the hike. The trails were kind of busy so I was a bit nervous someone would come around the corner and see me being a naughty girl but I did obey and lifted my bra and shirt and flashed my tits for Master. He did some photoshopping to cover up my face but you can see my tit flash. It's been a while since I did a public flash so this was a lot of fun. At one point we went off the beaten path into a private wooded area. Master looked for a switch to give me a spanking with. He found a pretty long one and told me to touch the tree with my hands and to take some switching from him. He didn't pull down my pants or panties but that really didn't matter as that switch hurt!! It went right through my clothing leaving a real stinging feeling on my ass. He gave me a quick and hard 20 with that switch before telling me to be a good girl for the rest of the day or I would get more. He made sure to take that switch with him and threw it into the trunk of the car so it came home with us. He has told me he has no problems getting it if I am getting out of line at all today. I guess that means I better be careful and try to not be too naughty. :) Thank you for everyone who left comments and also the few e-mails I got with people offering to help me out with crossing things off my bucket list. I got a few interesting offers including a e-mail from a local couple who have gone to Sin City to play a few times and said I could always go with them next time they go. That is on my list so that would be very neat. I havn't played with many couples before so that could be interesting. I hope that there are many more that I will be crossing off my list very soon. It felt great to cross something off today. :) I hope everyone is having a great weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

PMS slave meets Darth Vader today

I was sitting here feeling very irritable and needing to blog. Sometimes I just need to write out some feelings and I know that some of them are coming from some bad PMS that is going on today. I have been having cramps and signs of PMS since yesterday but my period hasn't started yet. I did get the chance to play a bit last night and had some time with Master. Today though has not been a very good Saturday. I think I've been used to the sitting we usually get on Saturdays. Master's parent's take Skywalker for us and Leia is often at her Dad's on Saturdays. We have had Skywalker today and some more running around to do which we did earlier. I'm now bored and feeling irritable and wishing that my life was a bit more exciting. Master had offered me a free night out tonight. I could go out on a date with someone or go out somewhere. The big problem is though that I have no one to ask to go out with me. There is not much going on with our poly relationship these days. I am not dating anyone at the moment. I havn't dated anyone in a while. I was thinking back today to all those weekends when I was in my 20's. There were so many club nights and Saturday was often the big party night of the week. There seemed to be excitement happening all the time back then. My sister was always a phone call away and I had a list of friends to call to get together with or even to play with. I miss that SO much right now! I miss my sister so much sometimes that it makes me want to cry. She was a really big reason that I didn't spend too many weekends bored. We always got into trouble together and had so much fun hanging out. I realize sometimes that I can't just phone her like that anymore. I hardly see her anymore and we don't talk as much even on the phone like we used to. It just feel like her and I have drifted apart over the years. There are a few other people I have found myself missing too this weekend. I know that it's time to move on but it gets hard when I really wish I could phone them up again and go out somewhere fun or play with them. I really wanted to cross something off of my bucket list this weekend too but that hasn't happened. Master has been in Darth mode and it's raining and I'm having pms and it just doesn't seem like that is going to happen. There is one thing off the bucket list that is looking awfully tempting right now. #315 - Get drunk off wild turkey again. I tend to want to drink when I am feeling this shitty and right now it's looking very tempting to walk down to the liquor store and pick up some Wild Turkey. Maybe it will make my night a bit better than today has gone. I know Wild Turkey inspired some really wild nights in the past. I've been thinking a lot about my Toronto trip this weekend. It's 6 weeks away. I know I should be patient but I wish it was happening sooner. I am so excited to meet Shasta and get away for a few days and have some fun in my life. I also know I'll be crossing several things off my bucket list that weekend. I even had a dream about my trip last night. I just wish it would get closer! 6 weeks seems so far away right now! Maybe everyone can check out my bucket list and let me know if they want to have some fun tonight or help me cross something off my list. There are several things on there like having another naughty webcam night or having phone sex with a stranger. I'd like to meet another blogger too. Anyone in the Vancouver area who is free tonight and wants to get together? Hell I'd even meet someone in a hotel for some sex tonight too as that is also on my list to meet someone at a hotel for the sole purpose to have sex. Help me please! I need some excitement in my life and in my weekend! Anyone going somewhere fun tonight locally and wouldn't mind me tagging along? Please e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com and let me know. A whole night off that I can do whatever I want and I have no one to go out with or nothing to do! I could sit around feeling sorry for myself or try to get motivated to go somewhere or do something. I'm hoping that fate will happen and someone will phone or message me and that today will get a bit better than it's been... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF! Have a great weekend!

Best graphics, layouts, and more for your profiles! Click Here! TGIF! It's been a really long week and a very tiring day today. I just got home a little while ago from a ton of running around. I have started having some PMS and I'm very worn out. Master just ran me a hot bath with bubbles and candles and spoiled me today with buying me some of my favorite chocolate and merlot today. I've been so good all week on my diet that he said I could splurge a little bit tonight after working so hard today and being a good girl this week. My period hasn't started yet so I really want to play tonight and have some naughty fun before that starts. We are hoping to put Skywalker to bed early and then head upstairs and have a few drinks and then hopefully get a few hours of play on the darkside before falling asleep in each other's arms. I could *really* use a spanking for some stress relief and I am craving his touch and really missing Darth Vader. My emotions are running wild today and I just really need him to center me which he is very good at. It just feels like I havn't had much alone time with Master this week and I really, really miss that. I miss him. I probably won't be online very much this weekend. We have some plans and I'm really hoping that we can cross something off my bucket list. I havn't yet crossed anything off and I'm itching to. There are tons of naughty ideas on there too. Maybe we can role-play tonight or do some extended bondage. Both are on my bucket list of things that I'd really like to do again. I hope everyone has a really awesome weekend and that everyone fits in some time to get naughty. There is nothing better than a naughty weekend! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala