Happy Halloween!

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Happy HNT - Halloween vampiress

Happy HNT! I wanted to put up a Halloween themed HNT this week. We put up this picture last year and it's one of my favorite Halloween pictures we have taken for Journey to the Darkside. I'm dressed up in my vampire costume and Master did some photoshopping on it to make it look like I was at a castle. Halloween is coming up fast and it's time to get dressed up in costumes and start carving pumpkins. Master is hoping that he can make a Darth Vader design on our one pumpkin. It would be fun to do something like that! I woke up feeling pretty blah today and moody. The weather is cold and a bit dark today and I wanted to cuddle up in my big blanket on the couch this morning. I rented a movie from Shaw on Demand and didn't expect it to turn me on like it did. I rented Deception. It had a pretty interesting plot including about a sex club where people were meeting at fancy hotels to have sex with anonymous strangers. I have always had a fantasy of doing something like that and even put it on my bucket list. I felt myself getting aroused and feeling naughty. So how do I get on the list for the sex club? *winks* I have been chatting with a new Dom the last few days. I met him at LB's dungeon warming party and I've seen him at a few different public events and I added him onto MSN and we have been getting to know each other. He also likes to live out his fantasies and it's been a lot of fun talking to him about naughty things. I will call him S. I was mentioning to him today that I was feeling naughty and that Master Anakin had given me permission to use the Hitatchi and have an orgasm because he knew how turned on I was. I didn't want to masturbate alone though. He suggested the possibility of doing some naughty phone fun and I was very excited about it!! He wanted me to phone him on his cell phone while he was on his lunch break. I got the bedroom ready with a porno going and a few toys laid out and Hitatchi plugged in and also clothespins. I got dressed into my blue sexy lingerie and then I nervously dialed up his phone number. I had butterflies in my tummy and was feeling very wet already when I heard his voice. It didn't take long for him to start telling me about an erotic story. I turned on the Hitatchi and listened to him. I wanted to cum at one point but he kept denying me and making me wait longer. Finally I got to cum and I exploded! mmm...so erotic! Then I put the clothespins on my nipples and self spanked for him over the phone. I used the leather paddle to paddle my ass many times while he listened in on the phone. He wanted me to cum again and kept telling me more of the erotic story. I masturbated with the Hitatchi while listening to the story. SOOOO erotic and naughty! The second orgasm shook my body and I was screaming out and came hard. He kept telling me the story and I think he wanted more orgasms from me but I needed a break. We talked for a while before he had to go back to work. I asked him how hard his cock was and he told me he was "very hard" and that this was a very fun way to spend his lunch hour. I can't wait to play with him sometime in person. He was a lot of fun over the phone. I get to cross two things off my bucket list! #251 -Have phone sex again #353 -Self spank for someone over the phone again (hopefully the person won't just ask me to do 3 paddles like the last person did LOL) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Halloween panties

Only a few days until Halloween! Woot! Halloween has always been my favorite day of the day and I can't wait! I put up a new poll on our sidebar asking you what your favorite parts of Halloween are. Do you enjoy carving pumpkins or going to parties or dressing up in costumes? You can vote for as many different choices are you want. We got invited to another Halloween party over at my friend, DL's for Halloween. It's always a fun time and our kids enjoy it too. We got our pumpkin today and have plans to carve it on Thursday night. I'm so excited! I wanted to put up a picture of my Halloween panties that I bought at Wal mart last week. They are so cute! I wore than to LB's play party on the weekend. I wanted to put up a picture today so everyone can check them out! *smiles* :) Here is a Halloween joke also for today: Top 10 reasons that Trick or Treating is better than sex 10. You are guaranteed to get a least a little something in the sack 9. If you get tired, you can wait 10 minutes and go at it again 8. The uglier you look, the easier it is to get some. 7. You don't have to compliment the person who gives you some. 6. It's o.k. when the person you're with fantasizes you're someone else, because you are. 5. Forty years from now you'll still enjoy candy. 4. If you don't like what you get, you can always go next door. 3. It doesn't matter if the kid's hear you moaning and groaning. 2. Less guilt the morning after And the #1 reason why Trick or Treating is better than sex.....1. You can do the whole neighborhood. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Weekend fun with Daemon and at LB's play party

I had a really fabulous weekend and wanted to write about it while it's still fresh in my mind. I'm sitting on a very sore ass and have a lot of bruises and marks from all the fun. Friday was my movie date night with Daemon. I met him at Metrotown and we had dinner at Red Robin and then went to see Quarantine. The movie was extremely creepy and a bit disturbing. I had a really hard time watching the last part of it. I had my head buried into Daemon's leather jacket and couldn't even watch the screen. I really enjoyed my date with Daemon and being able to spend some vanilla time together. I got to know him a bit more and we both enjoyed the evening. It was a pretty late night for me. The night was pretty vanilla other than the moments I was trying to touch his belt and remembering what it felt like crossing my ass during our Rascal's night. I came home to Master who was horny and wanting some play. I mentioned to him how much I was craving Daemon's belt and he was happy to take his off and make me close my eyes and pretend it was Daemon's crossing my ass. mmm...a real turn on and got me very aroused. We had some really great sex. He fucked me doggy style and then I got to cum using my Hitatchi. I loved falling asleep naked after our naughty fun. I woke up Saturday and was supposed to do some housework but I was feeling too lazy. I wound up watching Halloween and then we had our overnight start. Master and I were so tired from staying up that we both decided to start our overnight with a nap. We got up and had a hot shower together before heading out for dinner and our night. I got two messages on Fetlife from two potential play partners and they both made me smile and Master and I talked about them before leaving. Master decided we were going to Swiss Chalet for dinner which is one of my favorite places to eat. YUM!! He knew exactly what to order for me. I love the chicken meals. We enjoyed a delicious meal before heading to the liquor store to pick up some wine for the night. We got to LB's around 5:30 pm. Things were much better between LB and I last night. He gave me a big hug when I got there. I got dressed into my cute outfit right away. I dressed in my leather skirt, white top, new Halloween panties and red stockings. I also put on my leather gloves that match my skirt. I had my new Halloween earrings on also. I put my hair into pony tails. Master seemed very pleased with my outfit. There was play happening right away and we enjoyed watching that scene. People started to arrive for the party including SJ and LW who were the couple I played with the first time I did my cupping scene at the dungeon warming party. SJ and Master seemed to get along very well and had some ideas for the evening including putting me into the isolation room. There was a long chain that my collar was attached to and they turned out the light and I was made to wait in there. It is a very small area and I started to have a panic attack. I felt like I couldn't breathe and freaked out. SJ really helped me to get through the panic attack ok. I needed some time to come down from the panic attack and enjoyed sitting by the fire and having a snack afterwards. We enjoyed some visiting and I also talked to someone who I'd really like to play with sometime. I am intrigued by him. He had a beautiful flogger that I got to check out and I had hoped to play with him last night but we ran out of time. At one point SJ and LW and Master and I all headed to the medical room. LW and I were both going to get cupped at the same time. She laid down on one of the medical beds and I laid on the other one. Master borrowed LB's cupping set and SJ had his own to use. This was a really neat scene and a great chance to play with another couple. SJ and Master are both very evil men and enjoyed some of the moans and screams coming from LW and I at the same time. Master used some wooden skewer sticks to whip my backside when the cups were all over. You can see some of the marks from that cupping scene in the picture I put up today. At one point SJ brought out a really big paddle with holes and I was paddled VERY hard!! You can see how red my ass was. SJ got to paddle me and he was mean with it. Master gave a very evil laugh when I got a few hard whacks from SJ. My ass was bleeding when the paddling was done. I was floating in a very nice endorphin high. We came out and had a snack and did some more visiting before heading downstairs. I saw a few couples playing and then went into the school room. There was some violet wand play happening and I *really* wanted in on the action. I asked if I could join in with the fun. I had just met the Dom an hour before but he reassured me that he is a DM (dungeon monitor at public events) and experienced and I felt very comfortable playing with him. He used the violet wand and I felt like I was going to cum at one point when he was using it around my pussy area. mmm....SO arousing! I am such a wand slut. I LOVE it!! There was one woman who I got the violet wand with at the same time. We held hands and went through the pain together. Boy was she cute!! I am very into her and have played with her before during a violet wand scene at LB's last party. The Dom showed me his huge bag of toys including a bunch of beautiful floggers. He makes and sells toys and I was intrigued by his floggers and asked for a flogging from him which he was happy to give to me. I went over the St. Andrew's cross and prepared myself for a flogging. I had quite an audience at that point including Master who had a really evil smile while watching me get a hard flogging. He told me that he had such a hard on watching that. He has always enjoyed watching others spank me and he said that he could tell I was in a deep subspace at that point. The Dom knew exactly what he was doing and was incredible to play with. Not because of the intimacy or emotional connection but because he knew exactly how hard to hit me and where to take me. I was amazed at how well he seemed to know my body and mind even though we had only met each other last night. AMAZING!! I moaned and groaned and floated in subspace while getting flogged all over my backside and on top of the cupping marks and also marks from the paddling. mmm...I'm such a pain slut and this was incredible to get very close to the edge. I considered using my safeword a few times but wanted to continue because I wanted to go deeper and farther. I loved knowing that people were watching and several people remarked at how much of a pain slut I am. I couldn't get enough flogging. He used a deer skin type of flogger afterwards to cool me down and it also felt incredible. He showed me some acupuncture needles afterwards and asked me if I wanted to try needle play for the first time. I really enjoyed that play and Master got to put a few into my tits too. There was acupuncture needles all over my tits and my sore ass was sitting on the school desk. Amazing play and I was SOOOOO aroused!! I mentioned to Master that I wanted to go home so we could be alone and fuck. He was also turned on and we both were practically racing home so we could be alone after all the play. We had a few drinks and headed upstairs for more play. I got some spanking fun on top of all the marks and bruises. Then I got a very punishing ass fucking. mmmm...the anal sex was awesome and I was begging for it. I came during the anal sex very hard when Master gave me permission. Then I got to use the Hitatchi again for another orgasm which shook my entire body. mmmm....I could barely walk afterwards and don't even remember falling asleep naked next to Master. I felt submissive and owned and so peaceful after all the play and orgasms. A wonderful night and I enjoyed my incredible night with Master. We took about a hundred pictures and I only put up 3 today. I will be putting up more up this week including an HNT so stay tuned for those! The pictures turned out great and I am really glad for the sore ass today and marks and bruises from all the play. A terrific way to spend a weekend! I got to cross another thing off my bucket list: #525 -Try play needles for the first time My force feels strong today.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF...have a great weekend

I blogged a few hours ago and have deleted that blog post. There was a really big misunderstanding between Daemon and I. I probably shouldn't have blogged until I heard from him. I jumped to conclusions based on what happened two weeks ago. I hadn't heard from him and was thinking it was due to him shutting me out due to depression. It turns out that he has family visiting for a wedding that is happening tommorow. He can't come to LB's party because of the wedding and I didn't even think that he could be busy because of that. He phoned me and had no clue that I was upset about him not responding to my messages. He hasn't been online due to the family visiting. I was in a panic this morning and assumed it was the same thing happening from two weeks ago. Now I'm feeling like a complete idiot. Daemon felt bad that he worried me and we talked and we are still planning to meet tonight for a movie night. I will be heading out to Metrotown to meet him at Starbucks and then we plan to go to a movie. I feel really bad for this misunderstanding and can't wait to give him a big hug and have some cuddles with him. I could probably use a spanking too for jumping to conclusions like I did but I hope he understands that it came from what happened over my birthday weekend. Master and I have an overnight tommorow and we both plan to go to LB's play party tommorow night. This will be Master's first public event and he is excited to meet my friends and we are both really looking forward to it. It should be a lot of fun! I'm sure I'll have lots to blog about next week. I'm just glad that things are ok and that things look good for the weekend ahead... I hope everyone has a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Halloween paddling

Happy HNT! I am putting up a picture from some Halloween fun that I had with Master Anakin last year. I am all dressed up for Halloween wearing my naughty French Maid costume and skull thigh-hi's and holding onto the Anakin's paddle for a Halloween paddling. I am also wearing my pink wig too for fun. I always enjoy dressing up at Halloween and this was a very fun costume to wear. It's hard to believe that Halloween is almost a week away!! It is my favorite day of the year and I can't wait! I'm counting down the days! It's been a rough few days for me. I found out that my mom is coming for a surprise visit this weekend and I am working on some chores to get my place cleaned up and ready for her visit. I had a really horrible period this month with a lot of cramping and feeling very irritable. I had some SAD (seasonal affective disorder) happening also with a very dark rainy Monday and some colder weather the last few days. Master and I also had some tension and fighting too the last few days. We had a really good talk last night and things are a lot better now. I am really looking forward to the weekend. Daemon and I have plans to go to a movie and Metrotown on Friday night. I have the kids home for a Pro D Day on Friday so it will be nice to have something to look forward to and a nice date with Daemon. I can't wait to see him again! Be sure to check out Daemon's blog post about our date last weekend and Rascal's night! He wrote about it yesterday. Master and I found out that we have an overnight on Saturday night. We had planned to go to LB's play party but we have decided to spend a quiet night home alone instead. Things were not too great between LB and I at Rascal's. I really hope that it will get less awkward and tense between us in time. It's too bad we won't be going to the party because I was looking forward to seeing some of my friends there. There are always different events happening though so maybe I can get out to MVK or the next Rascal's. I'm still hoping to go to Sin City one day and also a rope and grope event. I think it will be really nice to spend some alone time with Darth Vader. He hasn't seen me in my corset yet and he wanted me to dress up for him that night. He cleaned up our basement and wants to do some bondage play in it on Saturday night. It will be a good chance for us to reconnect and spend some time alone and play. I'm really looking forward to it. :) I hope everyone enjoys the HNT picture! What are your plans for Halloween? Does anyone plan on dressing up in a costume? Leia is so excited about her first Halloween high school dance coming up! Ahh...I remember those days of the high school dances. Those are always a lot of fun and a chance to dance with a cute boy. I'm excited for Leia that she will get to experience her first dance. I am feeling a lot better today and I better try to get a few more chores done for Master. He's cracking the whip right now and told me I need a shorter leash these days and more control over me. I am enjoying his dominance and the control and it's keeping me focused and feeling very submissive. Happy hump day! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A romantic date with Daemon and a fun night at the Rascal's Halloween party!

I really wanted to write all the details from yesterday while it's fresh in my mind. Wow! What a day and night! Yesterday was incredibly amazing and magical. I just hope that I can remember all the details from last night. I was in a very deep subspace and lost track of time and was lost in the moment. Some details are a bit fuzzy for me. I'd like to thank Daemon for a very special and memorable night that I will never forget..... Here are the details from yesterday: I got to sleep in a bit yesterday and was glad for the solid sleep. I've been having some insomnia problems lately so it's always a good start to the day when I've had a good sleep. I had breakfast and then headed up to a hot bath to get ready for the night. I made sure my bag was packed. I packed my traditional schoolgirl costume which I wore to Rascal's last night. You can see the picture of me wearing it which I am putting up today! I got a lot of compliments on the outfit. I also packed a few toys. I wasn't sure if Daemon and I were going to be playing but I was hoping. He never asked me which toys to pack so I chose a few of the standard ones (leather paddle, soft flogger, chain flogger) but also added a few new ones. I packed the ping pong paddle and soft rubber flogger also. I headed out to Metrotown around 12:30 pm. My tummy was getting nervous and my thoughts were very focused on the day and night ahead. I was a bit nervous about seeing Daemon also. I arrived at Metrotown when Daemon phoned me on the cell phone to let me know he was on the way. My tummy was doing flip flops. I went to the bathroom and got a bit of a surprise. My period had started! Damn mother nature! I started my period at the last Rascal's too! Why does this always happen! I felt a bit frustrated by that but I wasn't going to let it ruin my night. At least it was just spotting. I had a few errands at Metrotown and I also picked up some very cute spider earrings from Claire's and also hair ties. I had decided I was going to either do braids or pony tails for my hair at Rascal's. I went outside to meet Daemon. He was having some transit issues so he was a bit late but I enjoyed waiting for him outside in the sunshine. It was a beautiful day out! Cool crisp air and sunshine. Daemon and I got some Starbucks coffee and I got some banana loaf and we enjoyed sitting outside in the sunshine for a while. Daemon seemed a bit stressed and mentioned being worried he didn't have a costume for Rascal's. He asked me what costume would look good on him. I mentioned a Pirate costume. I told him he could pull off an Orlando Bloom look. Daemon reminds me a bit of Orlando Bloom. Very young and sexy. mmmm..:) We went to Zeller's to look for a costume but didn't have any luck. Superstore did have a Pirate costume which looked good and was a pretty good price too. We headed to the skytrain when I told Daemon that I had a big surprise for him. I could tell he was curious to know what the surprise was but he didn't ask too many questions. I couldn't wait to surprise him! I wanted us to have a very special night and I had planned to take him somewhere. We rode the skytrain down to Waterfront Station and headed over to the Top of Vancouver which is called the Lookout. There is a restaurant which revolves around Vancouver and also the lookout which you can see the view from. I had a 2 for 1 coupon and it was on my bucket list. I wanted to take him somewhere special. To feel like we could just be together and share a romantic moment together. I was hoping to take his worries and stress away. I was really hoping we would connect there which we did. I put up a picture today of a view from the Lookout of Stanley park and Canada Place. It was the perfect day for it! The view was incredible! I felt close to Daemon and we share a few intimate moments there. I felt very relaxed and started to really unwind for the evening. I get to cross something else off my bucket list: #338 -Go up to the Lookout at Harbour Center in Vancouver to see the view We were both getting hungry so we picked one of my 2 for 1 coupons and headed to Robson Street to Kalypso Greek Restaurant for dinner. I love Robson Street on a Saturday night. It reminded me of my club days of going out to eat before heading out for a fun night! The restaurant was really intimate and we had a candle going and it felt very romantic. The food was amazing and service was great! I loved going there for dinner. I had been there with Master Anakin before so I knew this was a very good place to eat. I recommend it! We decided there was time to go back to the Lookout to see the night view of the city. We could get back up for free so we decided to go back. The elevator freaked me out a lot and Daemon teased me a lot about it. The night view was a very different experience than the daytime one. It was just beautiful! It took my breath away. We caught the bus and headed to Rascal's after we left the Lookout. I cuddled close to Daemon and enjoyed some time with him before arriving at Rascal's. Rascal's had a Halloween theme going. Very spooky atmosphere and fog machine and really cool decorations. I went to get dressed and put my hair up in pony tails. I thought I looked very cute. I could see how pleased Daemon was when I came out to him. He looked SOOOO sexy as a Pirate. YUM!! I loved his costume! He made a great pirate. *smiles* We got a drink and then enjoyed some visiting with our friends. LB was there as a kinky clown. It was a bit strange. He never hugged me or hardly talked to me. I wanted to approach him a few times but hesitated. LB played with someone at Rascal's and I was happy for him. He has told me that we are all welcome to his play party next weekend and I hope things will get easier and less awkward as we see each other at more events in the future. I enjoyed checking out all the costumes. Of course I wasn't the only schoolgirl there but I think I was one of the cutest. I got a lot of compliments and many Doms seemed very interested in wanting to spank me. lol! I had a few prospects last night of potential play with a few friends. I went to get the toys to show Daemon. He then teased me that he had also brought a toy. I was very curious when he told me that. He wouldn't tell me what toy it was though. I couldn't figure it out and he did a few mind fucks with me. I was baffled and trying to figure it out. We headed up to the private area of the dungeon. It was all decorated with Halloween decorations and the music was extra spooky for the Halloween theme. Daemon found a table for me to lay down on. He laid out the toys and started with a hand spanking. Boy he can spank hard!! I was squirming around and he seemed to be enjoying spanking me. He then told me what toy he had brought to give me my birthday spanking. It was his belt! Everyone knows that I have a belt fetish and I have been pretty obvious about the fact that I have been wanting him to use it on me. He decided that this would be the perfect toy for giving me my birthday spanking. His belt is very similar to Master Anakin's. It's black and thick and very heavy with the strokes. It had my ass dancing to a nice rhythm very fast. I was yelling out a few times and having a hard time staying still. Daemon can get very dominant and firm during play. He was also very evil when it came to making me count out the strokes. I lost track a few times and he started from zero. He would mind fuck me and I would completely lose track again and he would laugh and start over. He is a true sadist with a very dark side. He reminds me a lot of Master Anakin when it comes to getting in my head. It was like he knew how to turn the pain into pleasure. I felt an incredible energy with Daemon. A true connection and chemistry between us during our play. I realized at one point that we had an audience. We were in the private area but people could see still some of the play. I could see a lot of people watching us from the social area. There were moments that Daemon and I were making out so much that it almost seemed like we were about to fuck right there on the table. I was feeling his hard cock through his pants and he was kissing me with with passion and lust. I don't think there are the words to describe how intense and electric the play was with Daemon. Sparks were flying and people were watching us. My pussy was throbbing and my ass was starting to hurt also. We took a break at one point to get another drink and do some visiting. We then went up for round two. I honestly don't remember too much other than lots and lots of pain on my ass and also him biting me (I have a big bite mark on my neck today) and hitting my tits a few times. I was lost in complete subspace. Daemon told me today that he could tell I was gone. I felt complete submission in my heart in that moment. I would have done anything for Daemon. He had total power and control over me. We were both lost in the darkside. I felt completely controlled by him. He also played a lot of mind fucks with me. I had to pee really bad at one point and asked permission to go to the bathroom. He told me to chose between going to the bathroom and more play. He said I could go pee but the play would be over. I was able to sweet talk him into waiting for me while I ran to the bathroom and I was told to come right back to him. It was hard though because all the people watching our play wanted to talk to me. I was told that we were incredible to watch. I tried to come back as fast as I could to Daemon who was waiting for me very patiently. He used his belt on me more and I don't remember moving too much during that part. I wanted to take his pain and wear his marks. I was riding the endorphin highway. The pain felt so pleasurable and good. He told me at one point that my ass was bleeding and that he couldn't use his belt now on anyone but me because I had bled on it. I really enjoyed him using his belt on me. It turned me on like crazy!! I was SO aroused. mmm...It was like he knew that I wanted to cum. I didn't even say the words. He lifted my schoolgirl skirt and then fingered me to an orgasm. It didn't take me long. I was SO ready to explode! I asked for permission to cum and he let me and I came all over his fingers. mmmmmm......my whole body just exploded in pleasure and lust. I told him several times "I want you" and I meant it. I wanted him badly. It felt really amazing to cum in Rascal's like that in public. I didn't hold back. I was so lost in the moment and surrendered to the passion and arousal in me. Complete submission to Daemon. I loved to cum for him. There were some very intimate moments between Daemon and I. We did some cuddling and he pet me and told me "good girl" a few times which warmed my heart. I felt complete submission in that moment. I wanted to please him and make him happy. We found a place to sit and Daemon got me something to drink. We visited with some friends and they both told me that I was "glowing and looked very happy". I think they could tell I was deep in subspace. I had a big grin and kept looking at Daemon who looked very happy and in his own Dom space. I wish we had more time for the aftercare but it was closing time and we had to go outside and meet Master. Master drove Daemon home and then we headed home. Master wanted to know all the details and was very impressed with the bruises and marks on my ass. He said he is happy to send me out to Daemon and then not have to do any of the work but I come home to him feeling submissive and happy and marked. He has told me that he will give me more attention on my very sore ass if I don't be a good girl today. I put up a picture of what my poor bottom looks like! It is pretty ouchies today and I need a pillow! He did some low hits and those bruises hurt every time I sit down. I think of Daemon every time I sit down today. I talked to Daemon on the phone today and he sounded as happy as I am today. I was really glad I got to talk to him. I am having a really great weekend and keep thinking back to the moments that I shared with Daemon. My force feels strong... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF! Rascal's is tommorow!

TGIF!! It's a rainy dark Friday here in Vancouver but I'm glad it's almost the weekend. Master is off work today and we are going to be spending the day together. We've had breakfast together and we have some plans to play today while the kids are both in school. He let me sleep in and I really needed it. I was having a lot of insomnia this week and I got put to bed early last night just after 8 pm. I have some PMS going on and was very cranky and irritable with Master. We got into it a bit and I was very mouthy. I could tell that Darth Vader was ready to play on the darkside. He had enough of my mouthy behavior and cranky attitude. I was told to go upstairs and he came up and locked the bedroom door. He took off his belt and told me how much he was wanting to use it on me. He told me that he was putting me to bed and that I better be a good girl and that I would be having some attention on my ass in the morning. I know that I have a good hard spanking coming to me today. I was overtired but I shouldn't have acted like such a brat. I'm going to be sitting on a very sore ass for the movie tonight. Hopefully we'll have some time to get naughty too. I've missed Master this week and need some reconnection with him. We rented the new Indiana Jones movie which came out this week. We are both excited to watch it. Hopefully there will be lots of whip action in it. *winks* We always enjoy our "movie and merlot" Friday nights. It's a really nice way to end the week when we can cuddle up and watch a movie together. :) Tommorow is the Halloween Rascal's play party! I am looking forward to it and also I get to see Daemon! We havn't seen each other since our kiss at the skytrain station which was almost 2 weeks ago. We are going to go shopping and have dinner together and then it's off to Rascal's. I will admit I'm a bit nervous about seeing LB there. I really hope things are not too awkward between us. I am curious to see what everyone dresses up as. I plan to bring my naughty schoolgirl outfit. I may find another one while out shopping tommorow. Well have to see how that goes. I don't think I will be online too much this weekend. I hope to blog about the weekend on Monday or Tuesday. I should end this post so I can go spend some time with Darth. He's watching Revenge of the Sith right now and waiting for me. The darkside is calling us.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Waiting for a spanking

Happy HNT! We didn't have time to take a picture this week for HNT so I am putting one up from a few weeks ago during some play with Darth Vader. I am waiting for a spanking and dressed up so sexy. You can see a glimpse of my lower back tattoo. I'm also wearing my blonde short bob wig. A lot has happened the last 24 hours. It feels like my life has been changed in many ways. My birthdays have always been a time of big changes for me. It felt like everything changed in a few hours..... I wrote my blog post yesterday and hadn't heard from Daemon at that point. LB and I had talked and he recommended writing to Daemon to have closure with that situation. I thought that was a good idea so I sat down and wrote my heart out on a message on Fetlife. I wasn't sure I would hear back from him but I did. An hour later he messaged me on MSN messenger. He apologized for not coming to the birthday dinner. He felt horrible about what happened and apologized to me many times. He offered to give me closure if I needed it and to walk away from him. I chose to keep an open mind though. I can understand a lot about depression and being in a dark place. I am a very forgiving person and I could understand where Daemon was coming from and why he did that on Friday. I forgive him and we are moving forward from this. He made a mistake and he's apologized and I forgive him. He went through a very severe depression episode and couldn't deal with the dinner. He shut the world out. Daemon has a lot going on and I know it's really stressed him out. I decided to call LB at this point and let him know that Daemon was ok. LB was very worried about him too. LB's whole attitude changed at this point. I felt like things were going very well between him and I up to that point. He seemed very angry with me forgiving Daemon. I tried to explain my feelings to LB but he seemed very upset about it. I knew going to Rascal's together was not going to happen at that point. I got off the phone and discussed the whole thing with Master. Master read Daemon's e-mails and we talked about it. We both decided to give Daemon a second chance. Everyone deserves second chances. I know my friends have forgiven me through some very rough times. Friends stick it out through thick and thin. I care about Daemon a lot. He's danced his way into my heart and I didn't want to throw away what we have together. Daemon and I talked on the phone yesterday and he explained a lot to me about himself. I was very glad that he opened up to me and we both decided to go to Rascal's together on Saturday for the Halloween dance. Master and I talked a lot last night and we both made the decision to forgive Daemon and to move past this. Poly relationships are hard!! There are some wonderful and exciting moments but there are really tough times. I e-mailed LB and his response back was short and sharp. I was told to focus on Daemon and that I shouldn't be budding relationships with other people. I didn't really understand it because I am poly. I care about him too. I thought things were going very well lately for LB and I. I was very happy about the direction we were heading. We were taking it slow and developing a friendship together as well as playing together the last few weeks. MVK was a very special night for us and I really enjoyed playing with him and getting to know him. Master met him last weekend and I thought everything was going very well between LB and I. I had no idea that my decision to forgive Daemon would cause a huge problem between LB and I. I got a pretty harsh e-mail today from him and he doesn't think it was a good idea to forgive Daemon. He had some pretty strong opinions. I feel very bad that things did not work out with LB. Hopefully we can still stay friends although I will not be playing with him again. I'm a bit surprised to be honest. Daemon was supposed to be LB's best friend and I thought he would be there for him through this tough time. Daemon told me last night that he feels like he is falling in love with me. I can't wait to see him on Saturday and I'm glad we have worked through things and are moving forward. You can read his thoughts on everything over at his blog called Outside the Garden of Eden. We have a very special night planned out for Saturday. We plan to do a bit of shopping as well as dinner together before going to Rascal's. I can't wait to see him again... I hope everyone enjoys the HNT picture! Happy hump day! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

I'm 36 years old today!

I am officially 36 years old today! It's my birthday today! It's also voting day here in Canada. The polls just opened here in Vancouver and I plan to vote later today with Master. I had a pretty good birthday weekend although yesterday was a bit of a rough day. I felt myself crashing from 3 nights of playing with Master and also trying to process everything that happened with Daemon. I never heard from Daemon at all. He has ignored all my messages and has disappeared. I'm left with a lot of unanswered questions and feeling very sad over the whole situation. I'm going to try to move on from it though and learn something from the whole experience. I want to thank everyone who sent e-cards and happy birthday messages on twitter. I also wanted to thank everyone who left happy birthday messages on the comments here at JTTDS! I also wanted to thank everyone who sent gifts. I got some really neat stuff and I have 2 presents sitting here waiting to be opened today. LB and my mom both gave me gifts and told me not to open til today. I can't wait to see what is in them! I want to give a very special thank you to my wonderful Master. He spoiled me for my birthday this year and was really incredible through everything that happened with Daemon. I honestly don't know what I would do without him. Thank you Master! I always hope that I will hear from a few unexpected people on my birthday. It's happened before in the past. Sometimes I get an unexpected e-card or e-mail or even a phone call. Who knows...even my Dad has surprised me before although he's quite angry with me because of our last phone call so I don't think he will. I have plans to go to Tim Hortons with DL this morning for breakfast. She is treating me for my birthday this morning. I am also hoping to get permission from Master for some masturbation time with my Hitachi. That is always a really nice way to spend a birthday. *smiles* I hope all Canadians get out there and vote today! Today is the day! Your vote could make the difference! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Thanksgiving and birthday weekend fun

I have been having a pretty good weekend for the Thanksgiving long weekend. I have been celebrating my birthday this weekend as well as the Canadian holiday. I wrote in my last blog post about what happened on Friday with the dinner with Daemon and Master Anakin. I still havn't heard from Daemon. He has ignored my messages and still hasn't let me know what is going on. I don't feel like I have had proper closure with the chapter with Daemon. I have many unanswered questions. I can't help but worry about him even though I am really upset about what's happened. I really miss him and I feel very sad about what's happened between us. I wish I could understand also why this happened. I didn't feel like making the dinner on Friday so Master got us a pizza instead. We enjoyed a movie together and then decided to head upstairs for a few hours of fun. I have to admit I wasn't really in the mood to play because I was still upset about the dinner with Daemon. Master reassured me that it would help me to get my mind off things and that we needed some play time. He wanted to take advantage of the kid free time also. I changed into my prep schoolgirl skirt and cupcake shirt and helped Master to spread out all our toys. I was given a OTK before getting over the pillow for some spanking fun! He took off his belt and used it on me for a while before grabbing the cane for a few strokes. I am not fond of the cane and squirmed around a lot when he used it on my poor bottom! Then he used his fingers in my pussy and masturbated me to an orgasm with threats of more pain on my ass. I was told that I would be getting fucked in my shaved pussy. He wanted to be inside of me. We made hot passionate love together. It was intense and beautiful and I really enjoyed making love with him. I got some more hand spanking before he told me he was going to do something to me which he hasn't in years. He got out a pack of clothespins and told me to spread my legs for him. He attached clothespins in my most sensitive shaved pussy area. I have never had so many clothespins on my pussy before!! It hurt!! I squirmed around and he got out the soft flogger. I was told to stay still and spread my legs a bit for him. I felt so helpless and exposed. He started off slowly with the flogger and started to build up an intensity. My pussy felt swollen and I didn't think I could take anymore. I couldn't close my legs because of the clothespins. I almost wanted to cry. It hurt but it also felt so incredibly pleasurable. He flogged me right to an orgasm!! I havn't had this done since 2000. I forgot how great this can feel. He never touched me at all. It was the flogger which made me cum. That orgasm was very intense! I was shaking and Master held and pet me and then took the clothespins off with screams coming from me. He had a big evil smile while doing that. I get to cross something else off my bucket list from the flogging. #458 -Get my pussy flogged until I orgasm (have not done this in a long time) We stayed up very late playing and I fell into a very deep sleep naked next to Master. We woke up and showered together before heading out to Burnaby in the afternoon. I had phoned LB and invited him out for lunch. He had a female friend over and we arrived around 1 pm. She wasn't quite dressed yet and still in his bedroom. I got a really good glimpse of her beautiful ass. mmm...she is very attractive and I enjoyed getting to visit with her and LB for a while. Master got to check out LB's dungeon and was very impressed. It was a lovely visit and we headed to Denny's for lunch afterwards. LB's friend had to leave so she couldn't join us for lunch though. I am going to the Rascal's Halloween party on Saturday with LB. We had a good talk over lunch and Master enjoyed getting to know LB. I held LB's hand and also had my other hand on Master's knee. That kind of felt kind of kinky. *smiles* I kissed LB goodbye and Master and I headed to Metrotown before going to the River Rock Casino and Hotel for a fun night of gambling and the buffet and lots of fun!! We headed back and watched Sex and the City (the movie) before going upstairs for more play. Master does not like Sex in the City but he suffered through it for me because it's my birthday. lol! We enjoyed some drinks and laughed a lot and enjoyed the night. I got something in the mail yesterday which we were excited to try out. tromboneforhire is a friend of mine on twitter and works at Extreme Restraints. He sent me two things off my wish list that I created. I got a weekender Kama Sutra Set (Strawberry Dreams) and also an over the door bondage set. I put up a picture today of what they look like. We enjoyed the Kama Sutra products last night and I also got to try out the over the door bondage set. It was a lot of fun and felt pretty secure. It was some fun bondage and I got some attention on my ass while using it. I put up a picture of it. You can see a few marks already on my ass. Thank you tromboneforhire for the birthday gifts! We really enjoyed trying out the bondage set and also the Kama Sutra products. A very neat birthday gift! :) We played and had several orgasms together before going to bed in the early morning hours snuggled up together. Ahhh....I really love connecting with Master and being able to have so much naughty fun together. My poor ass was sore and my pussy was even sore from all the orgasms and attention all weekend. I'm feeling a bit tired today from it all. We went shopping today and Skywalker got his Halloween costume. I got new slippers and also new Halloween panties! Woot! They are so cute and Master plans to take a picture of me wearing them so everyone can check them out! We enjoyed brunch together and tonight I plan to make the pasta meal that I had planned for Friday night. I don't want all the food to go to waste. I won't be making a turkey this weekend. Too much work for a birthday weekend. lol! We'll be having a gourmet Italian meal and pumpkin pie for dessert. Yum! I hope everyone is enjoying the weekend! Two days til I turn 36! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Heartbroken and confused

I didn't plan to blog this weekend. I expected to be blogging on Tuesday or Wednesday about what a terrific and fun night I had with Daemon and Master Anakin last night. That didn't happen though. A lot has happened in the last 24 hours that has changed things a lot between Daemon and I. I should have probably seen this coming. I can remember our night at Rascal's a few weekends ago. He showed up quite late and had me worried he was standing me up. He did show up though and we had a great night together. He mentioned something to me as we were leaving Rascal's that night. He told me he had considered not showing up. He told me that he is sometimes unreliable and had a hard time holding down a job because of it. I didn't think too much about it at the time because I was so happy he did show up that night. It was a sign though and I chose to ignore it. There was a few other signs too that I should have seen. Last weekend was really amazing. I had my date with LB at MVK and a really wonderful time with Daemon at Metrotown. I admitted to Daemon that I was falling in love with him. I knew it wasn't true love yet because it's so early but I was falling hard for him. He indicated he had similar feelings for me. We had a very deep connection at Metrotown. We even talked about the future together and even a possible poly household one day if it worked out. I do not think that I imagined the closeness and connection we shared that day. We shared one of the longest lingering kisses I have ever had before to say goodbye on Sunday. We were at King George Skytrain and our lips locked and I was floating on air afterwards. Master could see I was so happy and glowing. He suggested having the dinner last night. He offered for Daemon to spend the night which I know is a very big deal to Master. He is very cautious when inviting people into our home. He knew I had feelings for Daemon and he wanted to be able to get to know him. Daemon said yes to the dinner and I started my chores on Tuesday afternoon for it. I spent hours cleaning up our toys and Master worked on the basement as soon as he was home from work. We both invested a lot of time and energy into the dinner. We both wanted it to go well. I was very excited and everything seemed to be going good with Daemon. Something seemed a bit different on Wednesday. He came on MSN in the afternoon and we briefly chatted together. I was trying to get a plan for the dinner. He didn't seem to want to talk about it. He seemed very off to me. He said he had to go to the bathroom and he would BRB. I waited for long time for him to come back to MSN but he never did. One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone says BRB and never comes back again. Can't you say goodbye at least so the other person isn't waiting around for you? I personally think it's very rude. I left him two messages on Fetlife and he did not respond to either of them even though I knew he was online through the night. I woke up feeling very annoyed. He came on MSN later in the day. He explained to me that he was avoiding me and also his ex-girlfriend. He told me he was very depressed. He's got a lot on his plate and I knew he was feeling very down about things. I tried to be supportive. I also thought I would suggest cancelling the dinner in case he wasn't feeling up to it. He reassured me he was still planning to come and he looked up transit times and a plan to get here. We didn't get a chance to chat long but I felt very reassured that the dinner was going ahead as planned and that I could count on him. I was up at 5:30 am and enjoyed a chat with my friend, Shasta. Master was leaving for work and told me he was concerned Daemon might cancel on the dinner. He told me to phone him as soon as Daemon arrived. I also expressed worries to Shasta that he might cancel also. I kept reminding myself that he reassured me and I hadn't heard anything different from Daemon. I went to Save On Foods and picked out a birthday cake and flowers and put even more into the dinner. I spent over a hundred dollars on supplies for the dinner. I also spent hours and hours cleaning and doing all the prep work for the dinner. I came back and started cleaning up the place. I got his bed ready and made sure the place was completely spic and span. I figured by 11 am that everything was going ahead as planned. I thought he would be on the bus by then and hadn't cancelled. I was VERY excited about the dinner. I couldn't wait to see Daemon. I set the table for the dinner and am putting up a picture of what it looked like. I took a long hot bubble bath and shaved my pussy and got myself ready. I spent a long time on my make-up and hair and getting ready. I couldn't wait!! I baked some homemade chocolate chip muffins because Daemon had mentioned wanting some in a chat with me. I was looking forward to giving him a very relaxing evening. I had an erotic massage planned for him and wanted to cross a few things off my bucket list. I was feeling so happy and excited! It was almost 1 pm and Daemon was due to arrive just after 2 pm. I sipped on my coffee and enjoyed some alone time before going on Fetlife to do some reading. I almost turned off MSN at that point. I'm glad I didn't because a minute later I got two very short messages on MSN from Daemon. He said he was sick and had been throwing up all night and might not be able to make it to the dinner. I quickly responded to his messages and asked him to phone me. He did not respond at all to my many messages that I left on MSN. I offered to reschedule until tonight (Saturday night) or even Sunday night. I offered for Anakin to come get him on his way home from work so he didn't have to take transit. I offered to take care of him if he would come out. I made a lot of suggestions but he didn't respond to any of them. He ignored me. What upsets me the most is that he did NOT apologize!! He obviously knew I would be disappointed. This dinner was for my birthday and I put a huge amount of work and money into it. Anakin was also looking forward to getting to know Daemon. We had to do some juggling for sitting for our son and daughter. We both put a huge amount of time into cleaning the basement and place for the dinner. I was extremely upset when my messages did not get returned. Daemon wouldn't even talk to me. It's been almost 24 hours since those messages and STILL no word from Daemon!!! I left him a very big message on Fetlife and told him that although I am very upset and angry...I am also worried about him also. I do not believe that he was sick. I think he's depressed and was avoiding me. He is avoiding everyone. I phoned LB and asked him to try to phone Daemon. I was hoping LB would get through to him. But Daemon did not even pick up the phone for him and his mailbox was apparently full. Master had a very hard time working after I phoned him. He was very upset. I was a total mess. I'm glad Shasta phoned me and talked to me about it all. It helped to have her to talk to. I know she's gone through heartbreak too with having a poly relationship. The great times can be magical and special and great! The bad times can be awful and horrible and make you feel like going back to being monogomous again. I think it says a lot that he hasn't responded to any of the messages. Depression is not an excuse to be rude. I would have never done something like this to someone in my deepest depression. He would have been in touch by now or tried to reschedule if he was indeed sick. What he does not realize is that Anakin lost a lot of respect for Daemon. You don't treat people like this. If you want to cancel a dinner...cancel it!! I think he's a true sadist because he never actually cancelled the dinner. He told me he MIGHT not be able to make it. It left me hanging and I spent a lot of time yesterday looking out my window wondering if he still might show up. That was very unfair and upset me the most. I didn't make the dinner because I was too upset. I started drinking merlot around 4 pm and went through the night. I wanted to feel numb because my heart was hurting. I don't understand why Daemon did this. Did I really deserve for him to treat me like this? I keep going back in my mind wondering if I said or did something wrong for him to treat me this way. I'm confused and I hope he realizes the bridges he has burnt. Not only did he miss out on a very fun night with Anakin and I but he will lose out on anymore play with me in the future. Master has told me he doesn't trust Daemon anymore. How can Master or I trust Daemon again that he will not cancel on future events or do this to me again? Trust is extremely important in any relationship but especially in a poly one. I need to feel like I can trust the people that I play with. I feel very hurt because it isn't just losing out on one night but in playing together in the future. I planned to go to Rascal's with him next weekend. I also planned to go to LB's party with him at the end of the month. There was a lot of really great potential with Daemon. I saw many possibilities. But he has decided to burn the bridge. He could have just told me if he wasn't interested in me anymore. I don't understand why he has treated me (or Master Anakin) this way. There are ways to be mature and handle things properly. It really does come down to respecting people and making sure you don't burn bridges because it can come back and bite you in the ass. Master and I did have a great night even though the dinner did not work out. I have pictures to share and details in another post about it. Daemon missed out on a really great night! I dressed up as a prep schoolgirl and we played until the early morning hours. We are heading out to Burnaby this afternoon. We are going to LB's house so Master can meet LB and see his dungeon. We plan to go out for brunch with LB and his friend. His friend is one of the ladies that he told me was interested in me. It will be nice to meet her. I'm looking forward to that! Tonight is the River Rock Casino and Hotel! We get another overnight. I'm trying to not let what's happened with Daemon upset my birthday weekend. I feel very hurt but sometimes life lessons are hard. I will always cherish the memories of the last few weeks with Daemon. We had some really amazing times together and I felt a very real connection to him. I wish he would have chosen a different path on his journey. I wish he had left the door open to possibilities and a beautiful future together....hopefully one day he will realize what he is losing. I hope one day he will explain to me what happened so I can try to understand and have some kind of closure for this chapter in my life. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy Canadian Thanksgiving and happy birthday to padme!

TGIF!! I wanted to do my Thanksgiving post because I plan to take the long weekend off to enjoy my birthday and the holiday with my friends and family. I hopefully will be able to blog on Tuesday which is my actual birthday but I'm not too sure I'll have time. I have plans on Tuesday to go for breakfast with DL and I'm also expecting a few phone calls that day including from my best friend, Shasta. I enjoyed chatting with her today and can't wait to talk to her on the phone!! I havn't talked to her on the phone since her birthday and can't wait to hear from her. :) Well tonight is the big night!! Daemon is planning to come over for a Star Wars birthday party with Master Anakin and I!! Woot!! I have been doing all the preparations over the last few days for it. I have almost finished my chores list and am very proud of how clean the place looks. I also bought a ton of groceries for the dinner and picked up some coolers, vodka and also my favorite merlot. I am planning to make a baked chicken penne with garlic bread, casear salad and veggies. I picked up a decadent chocolate cake today at Save on Foods!! I also spoiled myself with fresh flowers also. I love to cook and this is one of my favorite meals to make. I have made it for my brother and he liked it so much that he's coming to spend Christmas with us. lol! I admit I'm very nervous about tonight. I have no idea what to expect and I'm trying to not have too many expectations. I do hope that I can cross a few things off my bucket list and also be able to get naughty and have some fun with my two favorite Doms!! I think it's going to be a lot of fun and I can't wait for the party to start!! Let's get this party started... I have no limits for my drinking tonight as it is my birthday and I'm allowed to indulge and let my diet and a few rules go. I am really looking forward to a weekend of not worrying about my diet or how many drinks I'm having. I can celebrate and have a great time!! We also have an extended overnight this weekend for my birthday. Leia is gone until Monday. Skywalker is getting picked up from the school and will be babysat until Sunday!! That's a long time with no kids around and I can imagine I might get close or break my orgasm record!! I've been on orgasm denial all week and I'm horny and wanting to get very naughty this weekend! I'm very excited about the River Rock Casino and Hotel night tommorow night too! I miss having overnights with Master and can't wait to celebrate my birthday in private with him too! I'd like to wish everyone who is celebrating the holiday in Canada a very happy Thanksgiving!! Or happy Spanksgiving to anyone who might be having some spanking fun too this weekend. *smiles* I noticed that there wasn't many comments on our HNT picture. I was very disappointed because our stats have been very high this week but yet no one is commenting. Lots and lots of lurkers out there. I'm asking all my readers for one thing for my birthday. Please come out of the shadows and say hello and wish me a happy birthday. That would really mean a lot to me and give me a big smile! I'd love to hear from a few people that have not said hello in a while and also my friends and lovers and everyone else that is new to JTTDS or lurks and never wants to say hello. Please leave me a comment!! I sure hope I get a birthday spanking this weekend! Be sure to vote in our poll on our sidebar. Master Anakin would like to know what impliment you think should be used on my poor bottom this weekend for a birthday spanking. Maybe I could convince Daemon to join in with the birthday spanking and also give me one too! I'd love to have my birthday spanking from two very sexy and stern Doms! Yum!! :) Sooo...who wants to hear about all the details from this weekend? Or perhaps see a few pictures? We have our camera all charged up and plan to take lots over this weekend. I might share a few if we get enough comments this weekend. *winks* Have a great weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Schoolgirl bondage

Happy HNT everyone! I wanted to put up our picture for HNT early today as I have many chores to get done in preparations for my Star Wars birthday party with Daemon and Master on Friday. I am really excited about the party coming up and I want everything to be perfect for it. Master has worked a bit on the basement getting it ready and I cleaned all the toys up yesterday and made sure everything was all organized. I have bought a nice bottle of merlot as well as vodka. Everyone knows how vodka brings out little miss dangerous! *smiles* I plan on making a gourmet pasta dinner and plan to do some baking also. I can hardly wait!! I can't wait til Friday and for the party to start!! Woot! :) I had a really good talk on the phone with LB this morning. He let me know that there are two women who are interested in getting to know me and possibly play with me in the future. I contacted both ladies today through e-mail. That's pretty exciting as I havn't had any females interested in me in a long time. I enjoy playing with women as much as I do with other men. I'm crossing my fingers that something may work out and I can enjoy the intimacy with another woman again. I really miss having that and hoping it works out. *winks* Daemon started his own blog. I wanted to put up the link to it in case anyone wants to take a peek and read some of his thoughts about our play together. It was really neat to be able to read his thoughts about our play at LB's party a few weeks ago. I really miss playing with him and hoping we can have lots of naughty fun on Friday when I see him. I'm really excited about this weekend. Lots of big birthday plans and I have a few gifts put aside also to open. I think that this could possibly be one of the best birthdays yet!! :) I hope everyone enjoys our HNT picture this week. Master took this picture soon after we started Journey to the Darkside in 2005 and started taking erotic pictures. I am wearing my schoolgirl outfit and am bound with leg cuffs and handcuffs. I think it's a very erotic picture and brings back fond memories of our play that night. We'd love to hear from you!! Please leave us a comment. My force is feeling strong. A new chapter of my life has begun and it feels really wonderful!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

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Star Wars birthday party on Friday with Master and Daemon!

October has been an amazing month for me so far. Last weekend was so incredible with my first time going to MVK and seeing LB and Daemon and my play with Darth Vader. Yesterday was a bit difficult to come down from all the excitement. I felt a bit of a crash happening. My SAD (Seasonal affective disorder) was also acting up due to a lot of darkness and rain. Yuck! The rainy season is arriving and this is always hard on me. I have to be very careful not to slip into a depression which tends to happen in the winter time. There are some really great plans for October. This weekend is going to rock!! I am really excited about Friday. Daemon is coming over for a Star Wars birthday party. It will just be him and Master and I. Master has met Daemon but they havn't been able to get to know each other. It will be a lot of fun and it is also on my bucket list. We plan to watch one of the Star Wars movies and perhaps play the trivia game for Star Wars also. I am planning to make a gourmet Italian meal and I will be serving both Doms. I love this kind of service. I will be serving a yummy dinner for two very special men. Daemon really means a lot to me. He has danced his way into my heart. He is a terrific Dom and seems to know me and how to make me respond to him. I can't wait to see him again! :) Leia will be away for the long weekend. It's the Canada Thanksgiving long weekend happening. We were able to get an extended overnight for Skywalker because it's a special birthday weekend for me. We also havn't had time together with no kids for an overnight in a long time. I miss getting overnights! No kids and freedom to be able to get naughty or have fun. I am really looking forward to it!! I am also very nervous. lol!! Darth Vader and Daemon could get creative ideas for me that night. Daemon will also be spending the night!! So we have a whole night all together...just the 3 of us. Hmmm..I'm trying to not have too many expectations but I admit I'm hoping things get a bit naughty. It would be really fun to play with both of them!! Perhaps they could both give me my birthday spanking together!! Lots of possibilities and privacy and time to get naughty and have a lot of fun! I'm really looking forward to showing Daemon my toys. My toys are his toys because he will be using them on me when we get together to play. I'd like him to see them all. I don't have as many toys as LB but I do think we have an impressive collection. We have been collecting toys for 12 years. We also have a basement. It's not a full dungeon like LB has but I think it's fun to play in!! We have cleaned up our basement so there is plenty of room to play in. Friday should be a lot of fun!! I have been given a long chores list that I must have done by Thursday night. Master has told me that this dinner will not be happening unless all my chores are done and the place is cleaned and ready for the dinner party. I have a lot of work to get done so I won't be online too much the next few days. I know Darth Vader would be very unhappy if I didn't get my chores list done and the dinner was cancelled. I'd get punished and lose out on a fun night with him and Daemon. I also know that would disappoint Daemon and I don't want to do that. So I will be working my butt off the next few days to get it all done. I am also on orgasm denial until Friday. I had permission to masturbate yesterday with my Hitatchi. I admit I was practically running upstairs to use the Hitatchi after talking to Daemon on the phone and he said yes to the party!! Many naughty thoughts were racing through my mind of him and Master and the fun possibilities. Yum!! Saturday is our River Rock Hotel and Casino night!! A very fun night to celebrate my birthday with Master for another overnight. I can't wait!! Next weekend is Rascal's and a date with Daemon. It's a Halloween costume play party. I plan to either go as Alice in Wonderland (if I can find the costume) or a naughty schoolgirl. I have so many different schoolgirl outfits to chose from. Do I go as the goth schoolgirl? Or prep one? Naughty schoolgirl with the classic red skirt? Or maybe the classic look with my green skirt. Hmmm...lots of possibilities! I love Halloween and dressing up! LB is having another play party later this month. That should be a lot of fun. I always enjoy going to LB's parties. Then it's Halloween! Yeah! Who is dressing up this year? Is anyone going to be buying a new costume this year? Tell me all about it! I love to hear what people plan to do for Halloween and wear for costumes! I put up a new poll on our sidebar asking you about what spanking toy I should receive for my birthday spanking. Please vote! We'd love to hear from you! Do I deserve a traditional hand spanking for my birthday? Or perhaps a leather paddle? Or another toy? What do you think? The results are in from the last poll! Who do you think should give padme her birthday spanking? Anakin - 20% LB - 0% Daemon - 10% All 3 of them! - 70% I want to say hi to everyone from Fleshbot who has come over from there. My last blog post got mentioned on it! I noticed my stats are a bit higher and some new readers are coming by! Welcome to Journey to the Darkside to all the new readers! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

My amazing weekend at MVK and with LB and Daemon

I've had a really amazing weekend. I wanted to blog about it while it's still fresh in my mind. I want to hold onto this feeling right now. I feel so spaced out in subspace and feeling like I'm floating and very happy and content. My weekends have been incredible lately. This weekend was as amazing as the other weekends. I had lots of fun. Two special men have come into my life and into my heart. LB and Daemon are both very special Doms and I really enjoyed my time with both of them this weekend as well as some time with Darth Vader too! *smiles* Here are my details from my weekend: Friday night was a really special night with Master. We had dinner and merlot and enjoyed watching What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. We cuddled up and enjoyed the romantic comedy. We talked about our memories of Las Vegas and some of the wild things we did there. I felt very close to Master. We had some very rough play when Skywalker was in bed. I got punched pretty hard. One spot was very sore the next day from that. I got slapped and spanked pretty hard. I was given some with our homemade whip and also his belt and hand. Then I got fucked up my ass. It was a pretty heavy scene and I was cumming several times for Darth Vader. He took us to the darkside and I felt so close to him after our play. I cuddled up naked and slept very solid through the night. I woke up and had breakfast with Master before heading up for a shower to get ready for meeting Daemon. I got to Metrotown around 1 pm on the skytrain. I spoiled myself at Fruits and Passion. I got some really elegant massage oil and a few other goodies from there. It was a part of Master's birthday present to me. I got to Starbucks at 2 to meet Daemon. We were going to go out the water fountain to talk and enjoy our coffee but it was very stormy out and too windy. I put up a picture today of the water fountain. I've had some special times with Daemon and really enjoy our talks there. We found a seat inside Metrotown on a bench. It was so extremely crowded in Metrotown. It's very hard to be intimate or get too close to someone with a ton of people surrounding you. There was one moment that Daemon had me feeling like for a moment I was somewhere else. I felt like I was in subspace and blanked out. His voice is hypnotizing to me and can put me into a trance. The force was strong between us. I really wanted to be alone with him but there was no where to go that we could have privacy. I didn't want to leave him at 4 pm but I had my date with LB and had to get going. I was running a bit late and he was waiting for me at Royal Oak Skytrain station. We headed to his place for a warm fire and some merlot. It was too stormy to go for our walk yesterday. We had a really good talk. I had some questions for him. I felt close to LB and we had a few moments between us before heading to the Old Spaghetti Factory for dinner. We had a very yummy meal and enjoyed some great conversation before heading back to his place to get ready for the MVK (Metro Vancouver kink) play party. I dressed up in my new corset that I got for my birthday. I also wore my PVC skirt and fishnet stockings and new collar which says "bad kitty" on it. LB took a picture of me which I am putting up today. I am at his place ready to go on our date together. I felt so sexy and ready for play! I was very excited about going to MVK. MVK is much different than Rascal's. I found it a lot less pressure and more room for aftercare and cuddles. There is a special area there in a tent like area with lights and pillows and a really nice place to have aftercare after play. There was lots of equipment and it felt a lot more low key. I enjoyed seeing some familiar faces like my friend, cinful and a few others that I have met at different events lately. I really enjoy visiting with the bdsm community. I've met some really wonderful people. Everyone has been so friendly to me and made me feel very included in the community. I really appreciate feeling welcome from everyone. LB and I visited with some people before heading out the play area which was cornered off with rope. There was lots of different equipment. There was a medical area for needles and suspension frames and St. Andrew's cross and spanking bench and other naughty equipment. I really enjoyed watching all the different scenes going on. The play area was very busy so I pointed out one thing which wasn't getting used. There was a cage out on the play area which looked appealing to me. It was on my bucket list and I really wanted to try being caged. LB liked the idea and put me into the cage. I immediately went into a certain head space. It felt so secure and calm and I felt like a little kitty in the cage. LB was walking around looking into the cage and smiling a lot. I saw a very sadistic smile on his face. I knew he was really enjoying having me in the cage. I watched some other scenes while in the cage. I was in there for quite a while before LB let me out. I loved how it felt. I hope to experience the cage again! Yum!! We went over to the St. Andrew's cross and a more private area that we could play in. I was only wearing my high heels and PVC skirt and black lace panties. I had to ask to take off my high heels at one point because I was uncomfortable and having a hard time standing in them. I was bound to the St. Andrew's cross with rope. My arms spread out and feeling very restrained. I felt helpless and at his mercy. This was a very erotic moment for me. I felt very submissive to him and a desire to please him. He blindfolded me. This helped me a lot with some of my social anxiety disorder. I felt a lot more comfortable to free my mind and lose myself in the sensations of the play. He used many different spanking toys on me. Soft flogger and English Tawse and a rubber paddle that had some holes in it. I think there might have been other toys but I don't remember too well. I got completely lost in subspace at that point. He was really terrific to play with! He was very reassuring and he had some humor in the play also which was really nice. He bit me a few times and hit me with impliments on my back and backside. I made sure to wiggle my ass around and stick it out for him. He felt my panties at one point and remarked how wet they were. I admit I was extremely aroused and my pussy was throbbing and soaking wet after all the play with LB! I felt a lot of energy and connection during our play together. It was amazing! I asked for some water at one point and he had to give it to me because of being bound. I dripped all over the front of me. This felt very humiliating and I felt utterly broken in that moment. I went deep into subspace and don't remember too much after that. I know the rubber paddle with holes was deadly. I came close to using my safeword and he seemed to know how to take me close to the edge without going over. I was shaking and disoriented when he took the blindfold off of me and had to take me to the bathroom because I couldn't walk straight. He was really good to me with the aftercare. He took me over the aftercare area and made sure to cuddle me lots and reassure me. There was some very intimate moments between us. I held onto the moment and enjoyed it. We were in the aftercare area for a while before coming out to visit with a few people before leaving. LB suggested going to the Knight and Day but I wasn't feeling up for it. I phoned Master and checked in with him before going back to LB's house. I enjoyed some more merlot and conversation with LB before we headed into the medical room to do a violet wand scene. We had run out of time at MVK to do the scene and I had begged for him to use it on me. I admit I've become a wand slut. I love the violet wand! I could hardly wait to get it used on me. I squealed and squirmed and he was incredible to play with for our second scene. He tucked me into his bed and I cuddled up after our violet wand scene. I'm sure all the dirty minds will think that we had sex but we enjoyed the intimacy without the sex. I slept very solid and woke up to the sunrise with a really nice view at LB's house. We talked a bit before I took a shower and we headed out to Knight and Day for the breakfast buffet. It was very yummy! We talked a bit about Daemon there. I had to giggle a bit when he asked me about trying to juggle three Doms (him, Daemon and Master Anakin). I have juggled two Doms before (Master R and Master Anakin) but I admit this is kind of new for me. It can be hard to juggle everything and try to make everyone happy. I tried to make sure all 3 Doms had special time with me this weekend. LB and I went for a nice walk around Deer Lake. We hiked around a new area of trails that I had never been on before. That was also on my bucket list to hike somewhere new. It was beautiful and scenic and LB and I had some very special intimate moments together. I really loved our time there! I put up a picture from our walk around the lake. Daemon phoned while we were out on the walk. I wanted to meet him at Metrotown for a coffee together. I wanted to share what happened last night and see him again. LB dropped me off and we shared a goodbye kiss. I went up to Starbucks and Daemon and I went out to the water fountain. We had a really good talk and I told him all about all the details from last night. We enjoyed some time outside before going inside to a bench. It was a bit cold and it was nice to get inside. I gave him a massage to help him to relax. It also felt really nice to have an intimate moment together even if we were around so many people around us. I felt very close to him. The connection felt strong and we cuddled close. I kept rubbing his back and sometimes putting my hands down to feel his belt. I admit I was having some very erotic thoughts about him using his belt on me. mmmm...I am not sure he knew how extremely horny I was and feeling so submissive towards him. We went to Chapters but they didn't have the book I am looking for. We called Master and let him know we were leaving Metrotown. Daemon said he would take me home on the skytrain. We enjoyed some intimate moments on the skytrain. I got lost in my own thoughts at one moment during our skytrain ride. He had mentioned something about adjusting a notch on his belt. I felt myself blush and started to have a lot of fantasies about his belt. He asked me what was on my mind and I told him I was having "naughty thoughts." He asked what about and I told him he would have to wait and read about it in my blog post. LOL! I know I'm a brat!! I felt too embarrased to tell him that I was thinking about being bent over and him using his belt on my ass. Wondering what it would feel like...feeling very aroused and horny in that moment. mmmmm...just thinking about it makes me feel all warm. The skytrain was having some issues today and it took a while to get to King George Station. I didn't mind the wait. I got to spend a few extra minutes with Daemon. I enjoyed all the cuddles and a very long lingering kiss from him at the skytrain station. Wow! That kiss was amazing and magical. A nice way to say goodbye. :) I feel so spaced out and lost in my own thoughts tonight. I keep going back to memories of last night and also today. What a weekend! I'd like to thank Daemon and LB and Master for an amazing weekend!! They all created some very special memories for me that I will never forget. I am a very lucky girl!! I also have a nicely sore ass to remember my spanking fun this weekend! I love the reminder every time I sit down. My force feels strong! I got to cross 5 things off my bucket list this weekend: #54 -Get spanked with an English Tawse #79 -Be caged #419 -Hike somewhere new #215 -Get spanked with a paddle with holes in it #493 -Go to a MVK event for the first time May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF! Going to MVK with LB this weekend!

TGIF! I'm so glad it's Friday and the end of the week. I am sitting here with my light blonde hair dye in. I hope that my hair turns out ok. I picked out a really nice shade and hoping it turns out. I want to make sure I look good for this weekend's fun. I am planning to go to a MVK (Metro Vancouver Kink) play party for the first time. It's a different type of event from Rascal's which is a bdsm play place I went to a few weeks ago. I'm really excited about going and it's on my bucket list so I get to cross something off. I'm hoping if I am lucky to also cross a few more things also. I am going on my first date with LB this weekend. He is the one who hosted the dungeon warming party and also last week's play party. He used the violet wand on me for my first time. He also participated in a spanking scene with Daemon also. Boy my ass was sore after last weekend! I wonder how sore it might get this weekend with all the spanking fun happening. LB has shown me a few pictures of different toys that he has been making. I've always wanted to try an English Tawse (also on my bucket list) and he has made one from scratch. He also made a new flogger which he is calling "Braveheart" as he says anyone that tries it must have. He also made a paddle with holes in it. That is also on my bucket list to be spanked with a paddle with holes so I'm curious to try that. I've also asked him for more attention with the violet wand. I am a wand slut now!! I loved it so much that I want more!! I am really excited to go out on my first date with LB. We have plans for a nice walk and also the Old Spaghetti Factory which is one of my favorite places for dinner. We plan to go to MVK together and play together. This will be a nice chance for us to get to know each other a bit better. I admit that I wish Daemon was coming with us to MVK. I am very disappointed that he made other plans so he won't be able to make it. I think it will be strange without him there and I will be missing him a lot. I really hope we are able to see each other sometime this weekend even if it's for coffee at Starbucks. I miss him and want to see him again. This weekend I am allowed to take the weekend off and enjoy it. This is a part of my birthday gift from Master Anakin. He also plans to take me out to the River Rock Casino and Hotel for my birthday next weekend. We have a special night planned and an overnight and I can't wait! He always makes my birthdays so special and I really feel spoiled from him. I already received a present for my birthday which I got to wear last weekend. It's a special t-shirt that was designed especially for my birthday this year. I have been wanting to get a "naughty girl" t-shirt and he made one with a special design on it which he drew himself. It's from our online store, Darkside Digital Arts. I am putting up a picture today of what it looks like. Thank you Master! I love the t-shirt. It's my favorite color and I felt so sexy and naughty wearing it! I love to be Master's naughty girl! :) 11 days til my birthday! It's sure coming up fast! It's hard to believe that I'm turning 36. 40 is slowly creeping around the corner. Yikes! It seems like yesterday I was planning for my 30th birthday and now I'm wondering about 40. lol! Life sure goes by fast sometimes. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! I don't think I will be online very much this weekend. Master and I have special plans tonight for a movie and merlot. We also plan to play together on the darkside. Tommorow is my day out and then date with LB. Sunday I hope to see Daemon if we can squeeze some time in together. Hopefully I will be able to post the details (and maybe a few pictures too!) on Monday or Tuesday! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Erotic violet wand

Happy HNT everyone! This HNT image began when My padme had the opportunity to experience the pleasure and pain of the violet wand for the first time last weekend. Our friend, Daemon took the original black and white picture and I think he composed a great shot. You can see part of padme's panties in the upper left hand corner of the image, and below them, her upper thighs are getting the wonderful attention from the violet wand. I know she really enjoyed the experience. I really enjoyed photoshopping this image. I gave the image it's violet color, supressed some noise from the low light conditions, and gave it a darker border to focus on the wonderful wand. I hope you enjoy this week's HNT image; and please leave a comment and let us know what you think. We always enjoy hearing from you! May the Force be with you... ~Anakin