Happy New Year from Anakin and padme!

As 2008 draws to a close, it's time to reflect on what this year has brought, good and otherwise, and what hopes lie ahead for the year to come. With that, My padme and I wanted to wish all our readers a very happy New Year. We hope that you can make 2009 a year where you to achieve your goals and dreams; that the new year brings peace to your heart, passion to your soul, and happiness in your life and the lives of those you love. Thank you, as always, for joining us on our Journey to the Darkside and being a part of O/our journey. ~Anakin and padme

Air Supply concert and a very special night tonight!!

It's been a really great day today! A few really exciting things have happened and tonight is going to be awesome! I reserved a date for my Libido Lounge orientation so I can get started on my free membership. My friend, Shiro is going with me and I can't wait to get started. I really wanted to be a part of Libido Lounge and am very excited about attending many events in 2009! I am also making arrangements to hopefully meet some friends and people for the Taboo Naughty but Nice sex show in January. I'm really excited about that too! I got a notice that there was a parcel waiting for me to pick up today at the post office. I was trying to figure out who it was from. I kind of wondered if it might be from a contest that I won way back in October. I had entered a bunch of contests and won one for DesignHers. I won a $100 gift certificate from them and I ordered a few things and had been waiting for it to arrive. I was starting to think it would never arrive and had kind of written it off. It had been 2 1/2 months since I won it! I was extremely excited to see the package at the post office and showed it to Master who had a big smile because he knew what I had ordered. We got home and went upstairs and opened it. A brand new sexy schoolgirl outfit was one of the main things I got. I also got a Kama Sutra Massage Oil (Serenity) and some lubricant also. Master looked very pleased when he saw the schoolgirl outfit. It's a bit different than the other ones that I have and it's called "Teachers Pet". It's a 4 piece set which includes the spandex white top, plaid skirt, ruffled white panties and lace top stockings!! It looks smoking hot!! I noticed a very obvious hard on from Master when he was checking it out. I can't wait to wear it tonight for our very special romantic night that we have planned!! Tonight is the night!! We have been counting down the days and weeks and I am BEYOND excited!! We have not had an overnight since our anniversary in November. I bought him tickets to go see Air Supply tonight at the Red Robinson Theatre and we have great seats facing the stage!! OMG!!! I have loved Air Supply since I was a teen. I used to listen to their Greatest Hits album over and over and over again. I know the words to many of their songs!! Making love out of nothing at all is one of my all time favorite songs!! OMG! I can hardly contain myself over the excitement and anticipation for tonight!! AHHHHH!!! I will probably be shaking like I did when I saw Duran Duran in concert a few years ago or Fleetwood Mac!! There is something so exciting about seeing one of your favorite bands perform live that sends the shivers down your spine! I will also be able to cross something else off my bucket list as I have always wanted to go to a show at the Red Robinson theatre and it's our first time there! OMG!! OMG!! I am SOOOO excited! This is going to be a truly terrific night! I can just feel it!! I'm seeing Air Supply tonight!! This is the best Christmas present EVER!!!!!!!! We have a very romantic night planned!! We plan to dress up in our best clothes and head out for a very romantic and fancy dinner and then casino time for some gambling before seeing Air Supply. Then we are coming home to my new schoolgirl outfit and a very expensive bottle of shiraz and goodies waiting for us. I got the bedroom all ready for a very romantic but playful evening after we get back. I love to see how excited Master is about tonight. He keeps talking about it and we have been practically giddy with excitement!! We don't go to many concerts and this is our first one this year. I don't remember the last time we had such an amazing night planned!! I can hardly wait! We plan to take pictures tonight and I hope to blog about it in the next few days so stay tuned! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A wonderful Pre-New year's eve party at Rascal's!

Master Anakin is back to work today. He works today and for a few hours tommorow and then he is off again for another week. I am trying to catch up on all my computer stuff and that included a blog post about my weekend. It's hard to find the time to get on the computer when Master is at home. I want to be cuddled up by the fireplace and spending time with him. One of the best things about the holidays was spending time with him and our children. I also got to cross two more things off my bucket list! #122 -Do my Christmas baking early and freeze it #507 -Have a big family Christmas again We are still snacking on some of the baking and goodies leftover from the holidays. I am glad that Christmas is over though and hope to put away the tree and decorations today for another year. I am looking forward to the New year and very excited about the next few days ahead. Tommorow is a very special night for Master and I. I bought him tickets (as a Christmas gift to both of us) to go see Air Supply at the Red Robinson Theatre tommorow night! We have really great seats and it's our first concert for 2008. Air Supply is one of our favorite groups and we have both been counting down the days! I am SOOOOO excited!! I am listening to their music right now as I blog. We have an overnight with no kids and a fantastic night planned. A romantic dinner out and gambling at the casino before we go see Air Supply!! I can barely wait!! YEAH!! We have a quiet night planned for New year's eve. LB is having a play party that night but we declined. We couldn't get sitting and we want to be alone and have a private celebration. We plan to have our big outing tommorow for the concert and it will be nice to have champagne and spankings at midnight and watch Dick Clark's New Year's Rockn' Eve as we have done a few other years on New Year's eve. I am really looking forward to 2009 and hopefully crossing many more things off my bucket list! I went to one of the best New year's parties ever on Saturday night. Rascal's was having their Pre-New year's event party and I had a date with Shiro. I packed my bag and headed to meet him. The skytrain was having some serious problems though. I spent a long time at Columbia Skytrain watching people almost getting into fights. I was glad to finally make it to our meeting spot and Shiro and I took a cab to our favorite Italian restaurant. The pizza was incredible and I had a peach margarita. The dessert has become of my favorites. YUM! Shiro and I enjoyed a really good talk about what we are both hoping to get out of our relationship together. We headed to Rascal's and got free passes to the Taboo Naughty but Nice show in January. That was pretty cool because we both planned to go together to it. This will be the 3rd year for Master and I with going to the Taboo show. Very cool to get a free pass! I got changed into my PVC skirt and brand new glittery stockings and Fetish boots. I found my fetish boots at the back of my closet and was very happy as they were missing for six months. I always feel so sexy when I put them on. I tried to put my corset on though and got a bit of a surprise when the zipper snapped off!! I am going to have to get that fixed. I got it for my birthday and like to wear it to fetish events. At least the shirt I was wearing went with my outfit ok. I did some visiting with friends there and also spent some time with Shiro enjoying a few drinks and talking about squirting (which I have never done) and some other things. I was really surprised at the people who were missing from Rascal's. LB wasn't there and many other people. I think the snow kept people away. Daemon was a no show also which was a big relief. I realize I may have to see him one day but I hope it won't be too soon. I wasn't sure about playing but I watched a few different scenes and the alcohol made me feel relaxed and needing a beating. I asked Shiro for some light play as it had been a while and I wanted to go slow. We went up to the St. Andrew's Cross and he bound me to it with the wrist cuffs. He also used a spreader bar so my legs were spread. I got down to my black lace panties. I am still not comfortable being naked in public yet. I also asked him for a blindfold as I was looking out at the crowd and starting to get a bit nervous. I find that it helps me a lot to get into the play and block out everything to wear a blindfold. He used his floggers and a paddle on me and different toys. He started off slow and got into a nice rhythm. We took a break at one point so I could have a bathroom break. I wanted to continue playing though which surprised me. I didn't want the play to end. I wanted to go into a deep subspace and could feel myself getting close to it. Shiro started to use some of the floggers harder on my back and ass and also grabbed and squeezed as well sending me through the roof. I was high on endorphins and the play started to get intense. The light play turned into a bit harder than I anticipated but I was glad to have a good beating and some stress relief and it got me turned on! I shared a very deep connection with Shiro. He had me moaning and sticking my ass out for more. I felt like we could have had sex at one point due to how electric things got between us. It is by far the best scene I have ever had at Rascal's and WAY better than any of the play I had with Daemon. Shiro knows what he is doing and he knew just where to take me. mmmm...my panties were soaking wet and I was SOOO aroused!! There was champagne at midnight and a countdown for the New year. There was also a really yummy buffet of desserts. I was starving after the play and dug into lots of goodies. There was some door prizes and I was delighted when our number got called. We won free passes to Rascal's!! I think that's very cool that we can both get in for free the next time we go which I am hoping will be in Febuary. There are no events at Rascal's in January unfortunately. The aftercare was very sweet and relaxing and I felt very close to Shiro. He told me he loves me and I told him I do too. We cuddled up together and lots of kisses and hugs. We both were smiling and enjoyed the rest of the night there. We left at 1 am and Master was waiting. He drove Shiro home and then we headed home. Master checked out my bruises and marks when we got home and also noticed my very wet panties. "Naughty girl likes getting a good beating, doesn't she?" he said to me with a dominant sparkle in his eye. He put his finger into my pussy and started to fuck it. Then he told me to grab the Hitatchi so I could cum for him. It didn't take me long until I came for him and it was huge. I hadn't had an orgasm in a week and it was so built up in me from the whole night. Master wanted a blowjob so I was happy to give him one. We cuddled up and fell asleep at 3 am. What a night! My force is feeling strong and I am looking forward to the next few days and the year ahead! I see many possibilities for my relationship with Shiro and also lots of more play and fun times at Rascal's and also other events. Shiro was able to get me a free membership for Libido Lounge for the year and I hope to get a membership going as soon as I go to their orientation. I am really excited about 2009! Please make sure to vote in our latest poll! What do you wish for the year ahead in 2009? Do you want more spankings? Or more orgasms? Perhaps you want to travel more or lose some weight. You can vote for multiple answers! We would love to hear from you! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Rascal's Pre-New Year's eve party tonight!

I hope everyone survived the holidays. I barely survived with my sanity after spending 2 days with my Dad, 2 days with my Mom and Step Dad and also 5 days with my brother staying with us. There was so much family drama in the last week and I spent most of my Christmas holiday cooking and cleaning and feeling like I was having a nervous breakdown. I was mentally and emotionally worn out and drained and unsure about whether Rascal's would work out tonight. We've had a ton of snow lately and Master was reluctant to drive and pick me up if it got too bad. His car got stuck in the snow on Christmas trying to get it up a hill. It was nice to have a white Christmas but I'm really glad today that it's raining and the snow is starting to melt. I havn't been easy to be around the last few days due to my stress levels and waiting for my brother to leave so I could have my house and life back to normal. I got into it a bit with Shiro and I am glad we were able to work things out. I wasn't sure this morning about us going to Rascal's together and I needed to talk to him about things. I feel bad that I am not feeling like myself right now. Shiro and I worked it out and we plan to go together to Rascal's. I can't wait! I need to come down from all the stress and I am going to try to have a fun evening out tonight and I am looking forward to seeing Shiro again and also my friends. I havn't been to any bdsm events since the last Rascal's party in November. I will admit I'm a bit nervous about who might be there tonight. It could be a bit awkward if Daemon were to show up. I havn't seen him since our break-up and I still feel like I'm getting over it. Tonight is a special Rascal's event. It's a pre-New Year's eve party and there is a chance to win some prizes in a pleasure chest and I have a key to try it out and see if I won. Also there is a buffet there with desserts and lots of special New year's stuff going on including champagne at midnight and party hats and that. I found my Fetish boots today in the back of my closet and plan to wear them tonight! They have been missing for six months so I am glad to have found them. I am not sure about playing tonight. I am going into tonight with low expectations. My body feels very worn out from the holidays. Christmas took a physical and emotional toll on me. I will have a few drinks and be able to socialize and watch others play. I will see how it goes. I am meeting Shiro at 5 pm and we are going for dinner before Rascal's. It should be a fun night! I will be blogging about it in the next few days. It's almost New year's and time to celebrate! I am really looking forward to 2009! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy birthday Meisha and merry Christmas to everyone!

I wanted to do a special blog post today for my furry little baby. Meisha is turning 3 years old today! It seems like just yesterday we were picking her out and bringing her home and she was a tiny little kitten. Now she's 3 years old today! One of the reasons I picked her out was her birthdate. I figured she had to be a very special kitty to have a birthday like Christmas eve. She is wearing her "Santa Paws" hat and enjoying the holidays in the picture that was taken on Sunday during a family night with our kids. Meisha has added a lot to our family and I can't imagine life without her! Happy 3rd birthday Meisha! I am surviving the holidays although it's had it's stressful moments. I had 2 days with my Dad and now I've got 2 days with my mom and Step Dad. lol! I hope I can get through the next few days with all the visiting time with my Mom. She can really drive me crazy! Lots of family drama! At least my parent's didn't see each other last night. There was a close call when my mom phoned to come over and didn't know that my Dad was here. They had a messy divorce so that could have been fireworks had she just stopped by without phoning first. It's been a bit hard finding computer time with my brother staying with us. I'm not used to having a guest stay with us so long. I will admit I've been drinking lots of merlot the last few days. I may need the hard stuff though tonight to deal with my Step Dad as I really don't get along very well with him. It's not quite how I imagined spending my Christmas eve today. I've already received a few really cool gifts. I got a new coffee maker with a timer so I can program my coffee to be ready for when I get up in the morning. I got a George Foreman grill and Sears Gift card and a bunch of goodies. I also got some Lush soap and bath bombs from my best friend, Shasta!! She knows me really well as I LOVE lush!! Thank you so much Shasta!! I feel bad our gift to her from our online store hasn't gotten there yet. I hope it arrives soon for her. It's Christmas Eve and has been snowing like crazy!!!!! It usually rains here in Vancouver so it's rare to be having a white Christmas. I am not sure if we will be able to make it to church today for the candelight service. Hopefully the snow won't keep me from the Rascal's pre-new year's eve event on Saturday. It doesn't look like we are going anywhere for a few days due to all of the snow! I hope everyone has a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Merry Christmas from Journey to the Darkside!

Master Anakin and I have decided to take a brief break from blogging the next week during the holidays. We both find it too hard to find the time for blogging while trying to visit with family and dealing with all the holiday activities happening. I plan to start blogging again after my Pre-New year's eve party at Rascal's on the 27th. I am sure I'll have lots to write about after my fun date with Shiro. I'm really looking forward to it! You can always check my twitter updates which are on the sidebar. I will try to keep up to date with my twittering although I am sure that will slow down also when my brother is visiting and it gets closer to Christmas. I will not be online very much with guests arriving and Christmas plans with our families. We both wanted to wish all our readers a very MERRY CHRISTMAS and happy holidays! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala (and Master Anakin too!)

Happy HNT - Fireplace Flogging

Happy HNT, everyone. I hope you all enjoy this week's HNT erotic image. Click to enlarge and get a better view of it. My padme was about to get a sweet, long, and harsh flogging by the heat and glow of our fireplace. I had a special scene created for her and wanted to make her holiday fantasies cum true. I had our oriental blanket laid out by our fireplace and Christmas tree and lights. I had padme on top of the blanket, anticipating what was to come. I tied her at her wrists with heavy rope, blindfolded her, teased her. I pulled her hair a little and whispered into her ear. As I stood over her, flogger in hand, I thought, how beautiful, how wonderfully, completely beautiful I think my slave is; with her flowing blonde hair, her sexy new lingerie and panties, the rope and blindfold, she's My restrained angel. I laid the flogger down on her back and took this photograph of her. I hope you enjoy the image a tenth as much as I enjoyed using our new flogger on My padme. It turned her ass and back a very nice shade of pink. A special thank you also to our friend Shiro for giving us such an amazing impliment for Christmas. Please take a little break from your holiday preparations and leave a comment ; as always, W/we would love to hear from you and what you think of this week's HNT image. Happy Holidays! We hope that Santa brings you all that you have asked for. My girl has been a very naughty girl this year and I'm sure Santa will be giving her a spanking for Christmas. She needs a red bottom for some sassy attitude. Perhaps he will use his big black belt on her ass. There is nothing better than a red bottom at Christmas time. You could even say it glows. May the force be with you. ~Anakin

2008 New Year's Meme

I saw this new year's meme and wanted to give it a try today. I still want to blog about Saturday night and a special night with Master Anakin. I will try to do that in the next few days. I have many pictures to share from that night including this one I am putting up today. It's me wearing my new lingerie I bought from Love Nest and standing next to our Christmas tree. Master put a candy cane in the bra part of the lingerie and it looked cute. I am very busy and feeling overwhelmed with how much there is to get done the next few days. Skywalker has his Christmas concert tonight and I hope to get started on my wrapping today. I am pretty much done my Christmas shopping though. My brother arrives Monday so I want to make sure I'm all done everything by then. Here is my answers to the 2008 New year's meme: 1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before? I did many things this year for the first time. Most of it was because of the "bucket list" that I started. I was able to cross off several things from the list and many of them were things I was trying for the first time like the violet wand or playing in public or even going on the plane by myself to Toronto to visit my best friend, Shasta. I had a very exciting year with many firsts. I went to my first munch and then started to get out in the local bdsm community and met lots of new friends and even a few relationships because of that! 2008 has been quite a big year for me! :) 2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I did not make any new year's resolutions this year so I didn't have a problem trying to keep them. I do not plan to make any new year's resolutions for next year. I do hope to have many new positive changes happening in the new year though and am excited about all the possibilities for next year. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No 4. Did anyone close to you die? my cat died. He didn't live with us anymore but he was the first cat I got when I moved out on my own and I loved him very much. Also my baby died when I had a miscarriage in the summer. 5. What countries did you visit? I visited the United States during a shopping trip down there earlier in the year. 6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? I'd like to have a girlfriend or another female that I can play with and be close with. I really miss having a relationship with another woman. 7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? There are several dates which will remain etched in my memory (from my Toronto trip and also play dates with different people)but I will never forget Saturday Dec. 13th. Master and I had one of the most incredible scenes of 2008 and I felt connected to him in a very strong way. It was a very special night and I will never forget the happiness that I felt and submission. 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Being a Mom to my kids and being a slave and wife to Master. I also think it was an achievement to get my lower back tattoo done. That was very intense and painful and I love it so much! I was proud of myself for going through that pain for such a beautiful design (from Shasta) on my back! I am also proud of Master and I's hard work with running our online store, Darkside Digital Arts! That has been a good achievement for us both. 9. What was your biggest failure? I feel like I was a failure as a daughter this year. I wasn't able to be close to either of my parents and have watched my relationship with both of them fall apart. 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I had a miscarriage in 2008 and some minor problems with my health 11. What was the best thing you bought? Air Supply tickets for Master and I for Christmas. I can't wait to go to our first concert of the year on Dec. 30th!! I'm soooooo excited!! 12. Whose behavior merited celebration? my sister's behavior. She has really grown up a lot and she got married this year and went back to school and has really made some really great changes in her life and I'm proud of her! 13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Daemon's behavior with his depression and the way he treated me made me feel very depressed. :( 14. Where did most of your money go? The kids. I never knew teenagers would cost so much. lol! It feels like we have thrown our wallet's out the window this year between karate lessons and all the activities the kids are into. 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? my trip to Toronto in June!! I counted down the weeks and days for that trip. I was so excited that I barely slept the night before leaving. I was so excited flying out to meet Shasta and be able to spend a few days out in Toronto. I had never been out east before and it was just amazing to be able to visit Niagara Falls and the wineries and see Toronto. I will never forget that trip and it was a really big part of 2008 for me! 16. What song will always remind you of 2008? All good things come to an end - Nelly Furtado 17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? happier b) thinner or fatter? thinner c) richer or poorer? poorer 18. What do you wish you'd done more of? I wish I had been able to cross more off my bucket list. There were several places I wanted to go to and things I wanted to try. 19. What do you wish you'd done less of? less worrying and stressing over Daemon and our relationship. I feel like I wasted too much time with that over the last few months. 20. How will you be spending Christmas? I will be spending Christmas with Master Anakin and our children and also my brother who is staying with us. My mom and step dad are coming over for Christmas dinner and so is my ex husband. (Leia's Dad) I think I am one of the few people who invite their ex husband over for Christmas dinner. We both wanted to celebrate Christmas with Leia together this year. We will be doing a seperate Christmas with Master Anakin's family on the 23rd. I will be also visiting my Grandma and seeing my Dad on the 22nd. 21. Did you fall in love in 2008? Yes, I fell in love with a few people in 2008. 22. How many one-night stands? I had a one-night stand with Drew at Goodhandy's when I was in Toronto visiting my friend, Shasta. 23. What was your favourite TV program? The Young and the Restless!! (I've been watching it every day during the weekdays since I was a teen) I also love Ramsey's Kitchen Nightmares also and Nancy Grace and CSI Miami. 24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Yes 25. What was the best book you read? The Ethical Slut 26. What was your greatest musical discovery? I know a few people will laugh about this but I discovered the New Kids on the Block again this year. LOL! I hadn't heard their music since I was a teen and then they came out with a new album this year and I have been listening to it a lot. 27. What did you want and get? Lots of spankings! Also my corset which I got for my birthday from Master this year. I also got my new long suede flogger for Christmas which I wanted and my friend, Shiro got for us. I love it! 28. What did you want and not get? A family trip or a trip with Master and I. We usually do a big family trip every year but we didn't do one this year and that was very disappointing. 29. What was your favorite film of this year? Batman - The Dark Knight! Best saying of 2008 was "why so serious?" 30. What did you do on your birthday? I spent most of my birthday very upset because of what was happening with Daemon at that time and him standing me up for my birthday dinner. I didn't have a very good birthday this year unfortunately. :( 31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? If I had been able to have a threesome! I had really thought it might happen a few times but didn't. I would like to have another threesome sometime and it's on my bucket list. Oh well...there is always next year! :) 32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? I dressed up in lots of naughty costumes and outfits and really loved wearing my new corset. 33. What kept you sane? Merlot!! (our movie and merlot nights) And also Master kept me sane also with keeping me focused and being there for me. 34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Daniel Craig!! He's SOOOOOOOO sexy!!!!!! 35. What political issue stirred you the most? How high the gas prices got and the economy. I am glad that the gas prices have come down from earlier in the year. It got so bad that it was a main reason for not wanting to do a big family road trip this year because of the gas prices being so high. 36. Who did you miss? I miss Grandma A who passed away just before last Christmas. I also miss Master Mark a lot and still think of him. 37. Who was the best new person you met? my good friend, Shiro!!! :) 38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008. I learned that I shouldn't be getting involved or playing with someone who has serious mental issues and doesn't have their life together. Trying to find stability in someone unstable did not work out very well for me. I am not tagging anyone but let me know if you do the meme and I'll come check it out! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A special Christmas gift from Shiro

I really wanted to blog about yesterday but I realize that I am going to need to do it in two parts. I had a very special night last night with Master Anakin and I'm going to post about that in the next few days. I also have pictures from our play and using the flogger for the first time also to share with everyone! We got a very special Christmas gift from Shiro yesterday!! I am putting up a picture of it! I'd like to give Shiro a very big THANK YOU for a very special Christmas gift! It surprised Master and I and we really enjoyed using the toy last night for a very special scene that we did. I went to Metrotown yesterday to meet Shiro. Boy was it cold!! I was shivering outside Future Shop waiting for Shiro to arrive. Master had come with me to do some shopping on his own. Shiro and I gave each other a kiss and a big hug when we saw each other. We went shopping at Future Shop and then over at Metrotown. We had lunch at a sushi place that I hadn't been to in years. It was SO good! mmmm...I love sushi! We shopped afterwards and I went to Ticketmaster to get a special Christmas gift for Master. I picked up tickets to go see Air Supply for a Pre-New year's eve concert on Dec. 30th. I love Air Supply and I knew Master did too. I got really good seats and was really excited about it! Shiro and I also went shopping over at the Love Nest. I didn't pick up a naughty Mrs. Claus outfit as they didn't really have anything that I liked there. I did get some really beautiful and sexy lingerie there. It was on sale and fit me perfectly!! I picked up a few other gifts at Lush and Chapters including an erotic book for myself. I really enjoyed my date with Shiro and spending time with him. He gave me our Christmas present to open later and I was so excited that I could barely contain myself!! Skywalker went to bed early and we enjoyed some merlot while sitting by the fireplace and listening to some Christmas carols and watching the snow falling. We opened our gift from Shiro and we were both in shock over seeing the brand new handcrafted long flogger from him!! I had seen it at Little Sister's and really wanted it!! It's a beauty!!!!!!!!! I have wanted a long suede flogger for the longest time and we have nothing like it! Master could barely wait to use it on me! We phoned Shiro to thank him and Master was already giving me some strokes with it while I was on the phone with him. Thank you Shiro for the beautiful flogger!! Master and I both love it and it's the gift that will keep on giving! I know we are going to get a lot of use out of it. It added to a very special scene last night and I have marks and bruises today from it. I really love it! I surprised Master with the Air Supply tickets last night. I knew I had to tell him that I had gotten them so we could arrange sitting for our son. Our in-laws have told us they will take him for an overnight and we have it all arranged! I am SO excited! We havn't been to a concert together since Lindsay Buckingham in 2007!! We both love Air Supply and I have been listening to all their songs last night and today. I'm so pumped! I listened to Making Love out of Nothing at all over and over again! I love that song and can't wait to listen to it live! Last night was a very special night for Master and slave. We had one of the most special scenes of 2008 and shared a night of passion that I will never forget. Master made my dreams cum true with a very special evening. I will be posting about it in the next few days so stay tuned for that! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Master Anakin wants a remote control for Christmas

I got an e-mail the other day and this picture was attached to it of a remote control that is to "control a woman". He told me that this is on his wish list this year! LOL! We had a good laugh about it and I wanted to share it with the blog. Could you just imagine?? Click on the picture to get a better look. I love the PMS "off" button!! Ha ha ha!! Now if only Master could be able to just turn mine off. There is also a "mute" button! I know Master would like that when I can't shut up during the UFC fights. LOL!! It is a very funny picture! We both thought it was a cute idea to give to the men out there for Christmas this year! Hmm...I wonder where I could find a remote control like that to give to Master? I wonder if our local Wal Mart might have one. *laughs* I am heading out to Breakfast with Santa this morning. Skywalker is excited about it! Then I'm heading out to Metrotown to meet Shiro!! Yeah! I havn't seen him in about a month and I've missed him. I can't wait to see him today! I plan to have lunch with him and also go Christmas shopping at Metrotown. I also want to check out The Love Nest and a few shops for a naughty Mrs. Claus outfit. I've always wanted to get one and would like to wear one for Master and I's private Master and slave Christmas celebration next weekend! Wish me luck!! I hope everyone is having a great weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Breaking up is hard to do

I debated a lot about writing about what is on my mind right now. I actually planned to blog about something else today but I think it would be good for me to write my feelings out right now. I use this blog as a diary and a way to work through my feelings sometimes. I have written some emotional posts here at Journey to the Darkside. I want the readers to know that a real person is behind this blog and that I go through tough times as much as I do with the good and naughty ones. Anyone who knows me will tell you that I am a very emotional person. I feel things greatly. I have a very deep and open heart and sometimes that has lead to some really very big disappointments in my life. Master Anakin and I have had a poly (open) relationship since 1997. We have made it work through some very rough struggles. It takes a lot of work to maintain our own relationship through all the poly stuff. I don't know how many times we have had to comfort each other because one of us is hurting due to a breakup or something going on with another relationship. There have been times that both of us have thought about walking away from it. We both have enjoyed the benefits of having an open relationship though and those times have kept us from becoming monogomous. It feels great to be able to love other people and let them into our heart and relationship. The good times feel fucking great! There are threesomes and wild and naughty times. You have read about many of those great times with other people. I have blogged about all the fun play I've had with other people or different dates I've had with others. The bad times really suck though. We have both had our heart broken several times. I recently let someone into my heart and was heartbroken with our breakup. I didn't plan for it to happen. It caught me off guard. I fell fast and hard. The hormones went into overdrive and I was deeply in lust with him. I fell deeply in love with Daemon. I did a blog post about a month ago called "The power of goodbye" and that post explains my relationship with him. Please check it out if you don't know the background of our relationship. I wrote that blog post and moved on with my life. I wasn't sure I would hear from Daemon again. He did phone me though around the end of November. It shocked me to see his number on the call display. I wanted to hear what he had to say though so I picked up the phone. I was a bit surprised when he talked about wanting to breakup with me. He hadn't read my goodbye e-mail or post yet. I had broken up with him weeks ago and he didn't even know it! He talked about being very depressed and blamed his depression a lot for the way he treated me and also admited he was not stable enough for a relationship with anyone right now. He mentioned not being happy with Master and I's TPE relationship. Some of what he said really confused me. I guess he wasn't happy that I didn't have some of the same interests as he did like politics or science and math. We ended the phone call and I felt very confused and upset. A series of e-mails went back and forth between Daemon and I. They really upset me. I had terrible insomnia for a few nights and also couldn't focus on anything but the e-mails and Daemon. I wrote him the last e-mail and tried to keep things civil with us but I didn't hear back from him. So I deleted him off my MSN list and facebook and also his blog link. I felt like it was the best way of moving on with my life. It hurts me too much to sign into facebook and see his updates on there. It is just a reminder that I don't need. The wounds are deep and painful with this chapter of my life. I really didn't expect to hear from Daemon again. Then yesterday I got an e-mail from him out of the blue. The first thing he says to me is "I don't want to close doors". He went on to tell me about some exciting things happening in his life and that he wished he had someone to share them with. I guess he thought I knew about some of them because of the facebook updates. I wasn't going to write him back but I did. I wanted him to know that I deleted him from facebook and MSN and that I was floored to hear from him. I was also confused. It opened the wound again. I spent a lot of last night crying. I had terrible insomnia and barely slept. My heart feels like it's breaking all over again. I know I should have probably not responded to his e-mail but I did. He wrote me back to my e-mail right away but I decided not to respond to the second one. It is just too painful to have contact with Daemon right now. It hurts too much. He may not realize it but I have some serious trust issues with him also as well as a broken heart. How can I be friends with someone that I can't trust to return a phone call or keep in touch? He is not reliable at all. I also find it way too upsetting to hear from him. He has also burnt bridges with several people close to me. Master Anakin doesn't want me having anything to do with Daemon. Several of my friends also have told me that Daemon is bad for me. That I need to move on from this and not have contact. Breaking up is hard to do...anyone who is reading this and has had a broken heart before knows what I am talking about. I really hope that this is the end of the chapter with Daemon but who knows. He tends to come flying back into my life when I least expect it. TGIF! I am glad it's the weekend. I have plans to meet Shiro at Metrotown tommorow and hope it doesn't snow too much so I can see him! Things are going very well with Shiro. We are taking it slow and it's been really good to get to know him. He is a very sweet man. He phones me all the time and is very caring. I really hope we get to see each other tommorow! Can you believe that Christmas is so close? I really need to get my shopping done which I hope to do at Metrotown! I also need to do more baking. Sooooo much to do! I am not sure which movie we are watching tonight for our movie and merlot night. I'm looking forward to a quiet night with Master by the fireplace and enjoying some time with him. He is my strong force and I love him so much! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Naughty by night panties

Happy HNT! I wanted to get our HNT picture up early today as we have a very busy night ahead with Leia's Christmas band concert tonight. I wanted to put up a holiday themed HNT picture this week that was taken last year. I was wearing my holiday panties which says "nice by day" on the front side and "naughty by night" on the bottom side. I think they are very cute and I love to wear my holiday themed panties around the holidays. I am also wearing Master's Santa hat also to add to the holiday theme. Master was able to put "Twas the night before Christmas" into the background of the HNT picture. Click to enlarge the picture and get a better look at it. It's been a long week so far. Is it only Wednesday? I have been having PMS the last few days and have been feeling very overwhelmed with the holidays approaching and feeling like there is so much to do between now and Dec. 22nd when my brother arrives. He is staying with us this Christmas and I want to the place to be cleaned and ready for his arrival. All our holiday visiting also starts on Dec. 22nd. We are going to have a very full house and week with all the visitors and parties going on. I am looking forward to the 27th when I get to go to Rascal's for their Pre-New year's eve party with my good friend, Shiro. I am going to need a serious break by then and probably a good beating too! *smiles* :) I know I needed a beating last night. I was in a heck of a mood with PMS going on and feeling overwhelmed and emotional. I took it out on Master and he wasn't too pleased with me. I'm not surprised we got into a fight. This always tends to happen around this time of the year. We both get stressed out and then we start fighting and things tend to spiral. We both went to bed angry and upset with one another. I woke up in the middle of the night with terrible insomnia. I never feel very good when I'm fighting with Master. I snuggled up close to him and he woke up. We both said we were sorry and then started to make out a bit. Before we knew it...we were both passionately fucking. It was 2 am and we were fucking each other like crazy! I don't remember the last time we were up during a weekday fucking at that time of the morning! I woke up tired this morning but it was well worth missing some sleep to feel reconnected with Master. He gave me permission to use my Hitatchi this morning and that was really needed! I took my time masturbating with it. Fantasized about Master and some very naughty thoughts. I came big thinking of Him! Thank you Master! I had a long hot bubble bath afterwards. It helped ease some of the tension I'm feeling with PMS and all my emotions this week. I am starting my Christmas baking this week and also I plan to hopefully finish most of my Christmas shopping on Saturday when I am heading out to Metrotown for the day. I am meeting Shiro and we are planning on having lunch together and then shopping together. I love to shop at Metrotown and can hit some of the stores that I love like Lush and Chapters and also treat myself to a Cinnzeo cinnamon bun. mmm.... I am not sure how much I will be blogging between now and Christmas. We usually take a Christmas break from blogging but I am not sure yet when that will be. I hope to put up a few more naughty holiday pictures and hopefully can try to post a few more times before that happens. Please leave us a comment! I miss hearing from everyone! Come out of the shadows and say hello today. How are you coping with holiday stress this year? Are you excited about Christmas? Tell me all about it! I'd love to hear about it! I hope everyone enjoys the holiday themed HNT picture this week! Please check out Osbasso's blog for all the details on HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday)! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

I was a naughty girl this year!

You Were Naughty This Year You Were 70% Naughty, 30% Nice You may not have been good this year... But you sure had a really good time. And nothing from Santa could top that! Were You a Naughty Girl or Nice Girl this Year?

Holiday Meme

I saw this meme on a few blogs and wanted to give it a try. It's been a while since I did a meme! Enjoy! 1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Wrapping paper 2. Real tree or artificial? Green artificial 3. When do you put up the tree? Usually around the end of November 4. When do you take the tree down? Around New Year's 5. Do you like eggnog? Yes, especially if it has rum in it. :) 6. Favorite gift received as a child? my walkman. I used to listen to my favorite music while walking to and from school or just going to a friend's house. Now I listen to my IPod and still love to listen to music on my walks. 7. Hardest person to buy for? This year it's Leia. She's 13 and very picky about her clothes or what she wants for Christmas. 8. Easiest person to buy for? Our cat! She likes her treats and toys and she's a happy kitty for Christmas! 9. Do you have a nativity scene? Yes 10. Mail or email Christmas cards? I do both! 11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? I received a sweater that was way too small so I could never wear it 12. Favorite Christmas movie? Christmas Vacation and also Elf 13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Usually right after Halloween 14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Yes, I have done that a few times. Hasn't everyone? 15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Gingerbread 16. Lights on the tree; colored or white? We have solid blue lights on our tree this year and they are so pretty! 17. Favorite Christmas song? Carol of the Bells and Santa Baby 18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? We usually stay home and people come to us at Christmas 19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer? No but you can probably ask my kids and they would know! 20. Angel on the tree top or a star? We have a pretty star on top of the tree 21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? We usually open one present each on Christmas Eve but most of the presents get opened on Christmas morning. Master and I do a private Master/slave private gift opening also before Christmas. 22. Favorite ornament theme or color? Blue lights and garland 23. Favorite for Christmas dinner? Turkey and stuffing and pumpkin pie for dessert! Yum! 24. What do you want for Christmas this year? I'd love a spanking from Santa and also I'd like to not fight with my mom for Christmas or have any family drama! 25. Who is most likely to respond to this? I'm not sure! I'm not tagging anyone so let me know if you do the meme and I'll come check it out! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

I'm on the naughty list!

Master and I managed to have some private play time late last night. We lit a few candles and brought out a few toys and we had some incredible sex! He made sure that my ass was nicely red first by using his belt for a while. I got some hard strokes. Then he made me put the butt plug up my ass and then fucked me in my pussy. I love the feel of the double penetration. Butt plug up my ass and his cock in my pussy. mmm... He got a bit rough while fucking me and started to fuck me harder and harder. It felt soooo good!! Both my holes were getting fucked and it caused me to get very loud as he fucked me hard. I moaned and cried out several times. I must have been moaning very loud because all of a sudden we heard our neighbor's put up their music extra loud. lol! I know it's hard not to shake the bed when we are having rough sex and the bed is up against the wall. I also get very loud during sex and having orgasms sometimes. *blushes* I had the biggest orgasms afterwards with him whispering in my ear about all kinds of naughty fantasies that he would like to do with me. He told me that I'm on the naughty list and that Santa should bring me lots of spanking toys this year. He made me cum for him and it exhausted me so much that I found myself falling asleep in his arms afterwards. It was a perfect way to end a good day of getting a few things done and being able to spend some much needed time together. There feels like there is a lot to do today. Our "to do" list is very long and we want to get as much done as possible today. The holidays are always such a busy time. Lots to do and never enough time... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF! Looking forward to the weekend and fun with Darth Vader!

TGIF! I am missing Darth Vader and can't wait til he's home from work!! It's been a long and draining week and I'm very glad it's Friday and looking forward to when the weekend can begin! We have our movie and merlot night tonight. Master is going by Rogers Video after work so I'm not sure yet which movie we will be watching. I am looking forward to cuddling up in front of the fireplace and relaxing and watching a movie together. I am longing for some time with Master. We havn't been able to get naughty together this week so I'm hoping we can find time for that too! :) I wanted to put up a picture of some really cute Christmas thigh-hi's that I bought last year. They are perfect for the holidays! They have red bows and look very sexy with the holiday spirit! You can see my tattoo on my ankle which is Master's mark on me. I also wore some very sexy white high heels which I also wore on my wedding day. I should get out the holiday thigh-hi's and dress up for Master this weekend. I am looking for a naughty Mrs. Claus Christmas outfit and will have to see if I can find one to wear for some private time with Darth Vader. *smiles* I was invited by my friend, Shiro to go to a MVK flogger demonstration and play party this weekend but I declined. Master and I are going to try to get some things done around the house to get ready for our guests coming and the holidays. I am looking forward to seeing Shiro for the pre-New Year's eve party on the 27th at Rascal's. It should be a lot of fun and will be playing with him then. I enjoyed a date with my friend, Max on Sunday. We went shopping and then out for dinner before we headed back to his place for a few hours of naughty fun. It was nice to see him again. I really want to start my Christmas baking this weekend. I have lots of different goodies that I plan to bake and I want to get some things put away in the freezer. The holiday stress has been overwhelming at times but I'm trying really hard to hold onto the good parts of Christmas. Master and I and the kids watched Elf last night and enjoyed a family night. I really enjoy watching holiday movies with the family. It's one of the best parts of the holidays. I got one of my Christmas gifts early from Darth Vader. He ordered me a very cute t-shirt from our online store which says "cutielicious". I love it! Thank you Master! Be sure to vote in our latest poll on our sidebar. What do you hope Santa will bring you this Christmas? I voted for a spanking and lots of orgasms of course. *winks* I also hope Santa will bring a few spanking or sex toys also. :) I hope everyone has a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Tits and belt

Happy HNT! I am putting up a picture that was taken during some play time last Friday with Darth Vader when he was off work for the day. I dressed up in my sexy new pink PVC skirt for him and we had lots of time to play. We were upstairs at one time where he ordered me to take off his belt for him to use on my ass. I find this extremely erotic. To have to take off his belt for him knowing what is going to happen next!! He took a picture of this and it came out great! You get a very good look at my tits too as it's happening! Please click to enlarge the picture and get a better look! I really like this picture and enjoyed the belt strapping that came after I took it off for him to use on my poor bottom! I admit it...I love my Master's belt. I have a belt fetish and I just love everything about his belt. He was mentioning perhaps getting a new belt for Christmas but I wasn't too sure as I just love the one he has now. It's well worn and can give my ass a heck of a good strapping! Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think! We'd love to hear from you. Next week we will be putting up a holiday HNT so stay tuned for that! I wish it was the weekend! I need some stress release and play with Darth Vader. I miss playing on the darkside with him. Please check out Obasso's blog about HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday)! We've really enjoyed being a part of HNT each week and are coming up to our third year of doing the series! We hope you have enjoyed all our fun and sexy pictures too that we have shared through the years. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

All I want for Christmas

All I want for Christmas is a normal Christmas with no drama. Why is it that every year I hope for a normal Christmas and something seems to happen? I am not very fond of the holidays. I tend to drink too much. My sister and I joked that we keep the liquor store in business. I'm sure I'm not the only one who stocks up on the Jack Daniels or vodka or rum to put in the egg nog. Why does there always need to be drama during the holidays? My mom is bringing tons this year. Her life is in total chaos and she is having problems in her third marriage. Their marriage is falling apart and they are bringing it to my house this year. No one likes my Step Dad and I have to admit it's going to be hard to be around him without wanting to punch him out! I'm very angry at him right now for what he's doing to my Mom!! My sister has the right idea. She is going with her husband to Las Vegas in January. She invited Master and I to come with them. Boy that is SOOOOOOOO tempting!! We just can't afford it. The kids are costing way more than they used to. Skywalker wants a laptop for Christmas and Leia wants a new fancy cell phone and digital camera. Their Christmas lists were about a mile long and their tastes have gone up a lot. I can't buy Leia clothes from Zellers anymore. She only wears the clothes from the places like Urban Planet or Garage. I hate this time of the year. I much prefer Spring and Fall. I hate to be forced to try to pretend to be a big happy family with my mom. I know she has a lot of expecations and I never seem to meet them. I am trying to force myself to enjoy the holidays but I know that I'm very depressed and stressed out about this. I havn't slept well the last week and I'm feeling irritated a lot. My SAD (seaonal affective disorder) is also acting up. I have no energy. I feel like I don't want to leave the house and I'm just feeling so blah!! Tommorow is also a painful anniversary for me. I always think of that child I lost many years ago and what could have been. I always think it will get easier but it doesn't seem to. I always think of that during this time of the year. I am putting up a picture today from a holiday HNT that was taken a few years ago. We called it "candy cane cropping". I love those Christmas panties. They were very cute to wear. I could use a spanking from Santa this year for some stress relief. Maybe he can use a crop to give me a candy cane cropping on my ass... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala