 I've had my head in the clouds a lot this week. I was so focused on Jake and our play on the darkside last Friday. There has been many e-mails between Jake and I and I was spending a lot of time thinking about it. I was dealing with the crash from the play and also my period this week. I wound up not getting my chores done and didn't have dinner on the table almost every night this week. I've been so focused on Jake that I was neglecting my responsibilities this week and Darth Vader was not pleased with me.
He came home yesterday and was surprised to see that the house was a mess and dinner wasn't on the table again and I had spent a lot of time on the computer writing e-mails to Jake. Darth Vader was not too happy and I was told that there would be punishment coming. He felt like I had been pushing it all week. I broke some rules this week including doing knife play with Jake. I have been told to not do that with anyone but Master. I should have safeworded and said something but I didn't. I was told a punishment was due for that. I also was feeling disconnected from Master and he could feel it and was not happy about it. I wasn't being as attentive to him and submissive. I pulled away from him a few times and got sassy with my attitude.
I was given a lecture before bed. He whispered in my ear what he planned to do to me today. I knew he had the day off work and the kids were going to be in school. There would be hours of alone time and he was not pleased. A punishment caning was coming and he told me that it would be hard and that he wanted me to go to bed thinking about it. I was nervous when I woke up this morning and got the kids off to school. He had the look of Darth Vader in his eyes. I could tell that a hard punishment was coming and I was getting nervous. Punishments are not fun. He is stern and dominant and my ass usually is so sore that I don't sit comfortably for a day or two.
We had breakfast together and talked. He asked me if I was nervous about the punishment and I told him I was. I felt very submissive in that moment and I knew I deserved to be punished. I felt like I havn't treated Master very good and been the proper slave that I should be. There are times that I know what I need. I needed a caning and I knew it had to be hard. I wanted him to punish me.
He made me a deal. He told me that I would be receiving 50 with the cane and also 50 strokes with his belt. He told me that I would receive an orgasm afterwords but only if I took all 100 strokes without complaining. He didn't want me to move my ass around too much and he didn't want to do bondage on me. He wanted it hard and fast and for me to take it all and accept it and thank him for it.
We went upstairs and I brought out the bamboo cane and put the pillow at the end of the bed which is where I usually get punished. I got ready for my punishment and felt like crying even though he had not even started yet. I felt so bad and guilty and I knew it was going to be a hard punishment. He was so stern and in complete Dom mode. He lectured me and pulled my panties down and lifted up my nightgown. You can see two pictures today of that punishment spanking. You can see how red my ass was during the punishment.
I got 50 hard cane strokes and had a hell of a time trying to keep still. I had to bite into the comforter a few times and cried out during a few extra hard strokes. I heard the sound of his belt being unbuckled. Then I felt his belt cross my ass. It felt like it was on fire!! The sounds echoed through the room of his belt strapping my ass. I was crying when we got to 60 strokes. He let me have a few minutes break to go pee and get myself together for the rest of the punishment. I hesitated to get over the pillow again but he reminded me that I wouldn't get an orgasm unless I accepted all of the punishment. 100 strokes and no less.
I cried as he delivered the last 20. 10 were with the cane (which was a surprise to me as I had already taken 50 with it) and then picked up the belt and did the last ten with those to finish me off. Then I was told to get to the bad girl corner and think about why I got punished and do some reflecting. My ass was so sore. I havn't gotten the cane in months and I forgot how much it hurts afterwords. I thanked him for the punishment. That is how it works in our relationship. We use domestic discipline and I was bad and got punished for it.
I'm having a heck of a time trying to sit right now while posting about it. I curled up on the bed after and he rubbed my sore bottom and stroked my hair and whispered in my ear that I would get to cum for him because I took my punishment so well. He went and got the Hitatchi and plugged it in and got me to take off my panties. He got me to spread my legs and used the Hitatchi until I was close to cumming and then said in a very dominant tone "cum for me, bitch." I came so hard that my whole body shook. He held me in his arms after and reassured me and told me that he would get my focus back on him this weekend. He has special plans for me this weekend as well as he wants me to relax also.
TGIF! I was invited to MVK (metro vancouver kink) this weekend but have declined. There is a bondage workshop and also a play party happening there and Shiro and Jake are both going to it. I am still healing from the play last weekend and now my ass is very bruised and marked. I want to watch movies with Master and catch up on the chores that I didn't get done this week. Master is allowing me to have Sunday afternoon off also. I've invited Shiro out for coffee that day but he isn't sure yet if he has plans. I'm hoping it will be a nice weekend and that next week will be better for being back on track again and my force feeling strong.
May the force be with you all!!
~padme amidala
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My padme,
Sometimes a multitude of reasons build up and contribute to the need for a true punishment. It had been far too long since you and the bamboo cane got reaquainted; you were wandering off the path I've set for you and that needed to be corrected; I'm doing that this weekend for your own good.
~Anakin
:S owie. But, I do understand the need. Right now I really understand the need actually... my inner brat says "Yay" but the rest of me yearns for a Dom that way. I'm glad you're feeling good in your home.
Anakin - how did you determine 100 would be necessary? To me is seems excessive. Padme likes really hard stuff. In part you are giving her what she wants. Sure it hurts her, but then so would highly targeted and specific other parts do the job with much less. Why not guidance since crashing so hard, assisting with her recovery? I think she knows her responsibilities, but to expect them done regardless of intense prior play - I can't agree with your methodoloy for handling it.
Jake, you are of course free to disagree with my methodology. I thoughtfully determined that 100 strokes would be both necessary and sufficient punishment for a number of rules that padme broke over the past week. I arrived at this specific punishment taylored to her needs in part by knowing My slave for 18 1/2 years and being her Master for 12 of those years. It may be that this punishment would not work on other slaves; from overwhelming experience with my slave, I know it works most effectively on Mine. I'm sorry you mistakenly believe I'm giving her what she wants. Perhaps as a noob I might have give her what she desires, making the punishment ineffective, but we're way beyond that level at this point. It is an incorrect assumption that I did not provide my padme days of care, guidance, and support while she crashed from her play with you.
We've had to explain to many readers of our blog over the years, not everything her and I do gets written here. It's never the whole picture. Of course she knows her responsiblities; when we spoke of the issue she herself offered that she felt guilty over not giving them sufficient effort after I had got her centered and in a good state late last week.
You can contact me at my e-mail address (anakins.blog@gmail.com) if you wish to request to play with My slave again. My slave belongs to me and I decide on her punishments and pretty much anything else she does in her life, hence our TPE agreement.
Anakin
Hey padme, wow there has been much going on with you as of late. It sounds like you are having a whole world of fun. Its wonderful you got to try knife play and the single tail. Knife play is my favorite. It does not have to be dangerious, its sensual and so erotic. The single tail had me looped for weeks later, craving it but yet fearing it, now I'm only fearing it. LOL
If you have a chance to go to MVK and will enjoy it, then go!!! Have a great time, wish I could join you, but with kids and being sick I cannot. Hope you find a way, have fun....and for the record, I as a reader would love to hear about an adventure where your Master came to a party with you. He is just a central part of you, I would love to read about public parties together.
Just my 2 cents worth. Have fun and play safe.
xxx
talia
PS...I do in part agree with Jake in that giving padme a caning of 100 is what she wants...and then an orgasim...she is one lucky slave on punishment...but I also agree with Master Anakin, you know your slave and how her mind and body works so you tailor the punishment as you see fit.
For the record, I too have had 100 as punishment before, with a hard wooden paddle. It was not pleasant and what made it more unpleasant was I had to keep count AND thank you my Lord for his correction. Whenever I miscounted, we started again at 1. I remembered this punishment.
Another I had was for have an orgaism without permission....I was then on forced orgasims for a whole weekend, all the time, in the most embaressing of positions and places, in front of others I did not know...I was mortified and by the end of the weekend, well I never wanted another orgasim again...so I can see how taloring to the slave and the infraction works well.
Master,
Thank you for giving me my punishment yesterday. The cane is used for punishment because i don't like it and it hurts and teaches me. You know me very well and it was very effective with getting me focused on You again and me feeling more centered and my guilt was gone from not getting my chores done all week and all my attitude this week and breaking rules.
You have had to deal with the fallout from my play with Jake and i apologize to you as it's been hard to deal with me with PMS and all that has been going on with me.
Thank you for allowing me to go out tonight to MVK. You are so good to me and you know me better than anyone.
You have been my best friend for 18 1/2 years and i truly adore you.
i love you Master. i love to be Your slave and i am so proud to belong to You.
XOXO
padme
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