TGIF! MVK and a date with a sexy woman tommorow night!

TGIF!! I am so glad it's Friday and the weekend. What a week! I have learned to avoid blogging during my period but I really need to be isolated for a few days when the hormones are out of control. I wound up lashing out at a few of my closest loved ones and I apologize for my behavior the last few days. I could really use a hard spanking for it. I was miserable to be around during this last week. I was still dealing with my break-up with Shiro and also dealing with the hormones. I was also very upset that my little sister is turning 30 years old and that I couldn't be there to celebrate with her. A combination of things lead up to a horrible day yesterday. I spent most of the day in tears and trying to push everyone away. Darkness clouded over me completely in a very serious depression. It was one of those days where you wish you would have stayed in bed. I bet I'm not the only slave who has a hard time submitting during their time of the month. My period makes me feel unsubmissive and my sex drive goes to zero. I honestly don't know how Master copes with me. He has to deal with two females on their periods now that Leia gets her right after mine. You can imagine the hormones going wild in the Skywalker house during two weeks of the month. lol! Leia and I have snapped at each other a few times this week and I know it's due to our hormones. She's turning 14 and she inherited my bad periods and moods. Master and I were both feeling disconnected and we didn't have the time to be able to talk about it until last night. I am so thankful that Master knows me so well after all these years. He was able to talk me through my emotions and calmed me down. He also was able to figure me out and why I was feeling so depressed and emotional. I havn't been sleeping well lately and had terrible insomnia. It wasn't a surprise when I fell asleep at 8 pm last night. I woke up in the middle of the night and got a drink of water and twittered and then came back to bed and watched Master sleep for a while. I felt a need deep inside of me. I wanted him so bad. I looked at the clock and it was 3 am though. Do I wake him up and tell him I need him and want to fuck him? Or do I let him sleep because he has to be up for work at 5 am. I slid my hand down the sheets and felt his boxers. I put my hand down his boxers and started to stimulate him. He started to wake up a bit and wondered what was going on. "I want you so bad, Master" was all I could say. He leaned over and kissed me and I started to touch his cock and noticed it was getting hard. I took off my nightgown and got naked and then cuddled up close to him and rubbed myself against him. He slid his hand between my legs and noticed I was wet. I told him that my period had ended and I really wanted to fuck him. I needed him more in that moment than ever. I needed him inside of me. The boxers came off and he stroked his cock getting it harder before getting on top and fucking me slow and steady. The sex was incredible! Slow passionate love-making to get us to become one. I felt lost in the time we spent making love. It wasn't rough. It was passionate and loving and I needed that so much. He came deep inside my pussy and we held each other for a minute before he withdrew from my pussy. We kissed and did a lot of cuddling before I fell asleep in his arms naked. I slept right through to my alarm after that. I woke up to a note from Master on the computer. It said: "Good morning, my sweet sleepless wife... I'm so glad for your insomnia sometimes. Thoughts of you will linger, my companion and comfort when I am away from you. Away, but never apart, never separate. We are the same beautiful, haunting dream. I love you. Husband and Master" I woke tired this morning but it was well worth the insomnia. I feel much better today that things are feeling good with Master and I. Nothing feels right with my world when Daddy and I are fighting and there is tension between us. I want to get our force back and feel the magic between us again. I hope we can find some time this weekend to play and connect more. ....... I am really looking forward to the weekend for several reasons. I've got a date! And ....it's a date with a woman! Woot! I don't remember the last time I went out on a date with a woman. It's been years. I almost forget what it's like. I'm not complaining though. I am excited and I think my date is beautiful and sexy and I am really looking forward to seeing her again. We are going to MVK (Metro Vancouver Kink) together tommorow night. I did some making out with girlLi "notty girl" at Rascal's and we've done a lot of flirting and there has been a lot of naughty possibilities with us and our Daddy's. I have really been enjoying getting to know girlLi. She's beautiful and sexy and a lot of fun to flirt with! She's made me smile a lot and I am looking forward to hopefully being able to play a bit with her tommorow night. It's her birthday and she is getting a birthday spanking from a few women and I'm also going to be participating! Woo hoo!! I am not sure which toy I'm going to use but I am thinking I'll probably do a hand spanking as that is tradition for the birthday spanking. Spanking women is a new thing for me. I spanked my friend, Doc at Rascal's 2 weeks ago and I know it felt fun and a really wonderful experience. I am looking forward to experiencing giving another spanking to a woman tommorow night! It's a different but neat experience to be on Top for a while and get to give the spanking rather than receive. *smiles* I'm sure I'll have lots to blog about! I am still trying to figure out what toys to pack in my bag and what to wear. Decisions...decisions. I'm not sure who I will see at MVK. I am going to the evening workshop (Suspension Bondage Workshop with Professor Oni) first and then the play party. I havn't spoken to Shiro since our break-up. So much for the "Let's be friends" after the break-up. It's typical but still sad that we couldn't maintain the friendship through our break-up. I am sure things might be awkward with Shiro for a while when I see him at bdsm events but I think we can be civil. I am not sure if I will be seeing Jake there but I've been forbidden contact with him so I don't plan to talk to him even if he's there. Well the sun is shining and I am feeling good for the first time in a while. I had a really great talk with my sister on the phone. I also talked to Shasta today and got to catch up with her which was wonderful. I have missed her and felt good to talk to her. I have a fun weekend cumming up and hopefully will be having lots of play and orgasms and some time with Darth Vader! Let the weekend begin.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala