Happy Star Wars day!

Happy Star Wars day today! May the 4th (force) be with you! I will have to celebrate by putting in a Star Wars movie on tonight. I hope my mom won't mind. lol. I don't think she is a very big fan but I hope she understands if I put on one of the movies to celebrate Star Wars day today. It's been a very quiet day and I'm gearing up for my mom's visit later. I am feeling a bit torn about her visit today. I wish that things were not so complicated between us. It's not like I havn't tried to make things better with my mom and I. It just seems like we are on different planets and I have a very hard time understanding my mom and the choices she has made in her life. I havn't had much motivation for blogging lately. I have hardly been on the computer. Perhaps it's blogger burn-out. This is post #1,246. That's a lot of posts! We are coming up to our 4 year blogging anniversary this summer. I almost feel like my life is pretty boring lately and there isn't much to blog about. There is no more drama now that the poly is on hiatus in my relationship with Master. I barely go on Fetlife anymore so there isn't much drama happening as much there. I am not going to any of the local bdsm events lately also so there isn't as much excitement going on with that. My life is actually pretty boring lately but I think that's perhaps a really good thing. I feel at peace with my life for the first time in months. I'm a bit worried about my blogging suffering a bit because of the poly being on hiatus and also a hiatus from local events. There isn't any wild adventures or different people to blog about. My weekend was very uneventful although it was really relaxing. Master and I did have a quick fuck here and there but it's not really something most people probably want to hear about. We didn't get a chance to play so I don't have any spanking reports to tell you about also. I am really not sure what to blog about right now. I think that's probably why my blogging motivation is suffering right now. I had a really good talk on the phone with my best bud, Shasta today. I am so grateful for our friendship in my life. I feel like she is the one friend who knows me, accepts me for who I am and has been there for me through the years. I really enjoyed our talk today. We have been friends for almost 4 years and I am so lucky to have her in my life! I enjoy our phone calls a lot and am looking forward to seeing her again hopefully later this year. I feel good about the decision to put our poly on hiatus for right now. It's amazing how peaceful my life has suddenly gotten since certain people have been removed from my life. I am going to have the time to invest into my kids and Master and also other opportunities this summer. I'm hoping my passport will arrive and can discuss some possible travel plans this summer with Master and our kids. I also am starting to think about the future and the many possibilities that are out there. My force feels strong and I am very grateful for the love and support of my family and friends and people who are in my life. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala