A new and improved padme amidala!

I havn't been on the computer much lately. I've been focusing a lot more on myself and my family. I can honestly say that for the first time in a while...there is no drama in my life! It feels fucking great! I did have a bit of family drama last week but things have calmed down. I've really enjoyed taking a break from the poly for a while. I realized recently how much the poly had drained me and given me little energy for other things. I have been exercising a lot more and eating better and trying to stay on top of my chores. I am starting to notice some results and so is Master. Master told me that my back and ass are starting to firm up and that he's noticed a change in my energy levels and also with giving him attention and my focus. I have been feeling very submissive lately. He mentioned that we have been like a bunch of newleyweds again. We've been making out and having a great sex life and talking a lot more. It's been nice to talk about other things that are not poly related. I know that all my different relationships the last year wore me out. I was ready for a break. It's been also nice to have a break from the local bdsm community as well. I've noticed that my anxiety has calmed down and I feel like a new and improved padme amidala! I realized recently that I had to let go of the past. I was still living in the past and couldn't seem to let some of my ex's go. I was haunted by memories and my feelings that wouldn't go away. I was also dealing with a broken heart recently when I fell for a woman who did not feel the same way about me that I did about her. I realized that the poly just wasn't working. I feel so much happier with the poly on a break. I'm not sure that Master and I will go back to it. We have both noticed that the focus is on each other and we are both feeling a lot better about things. We have reconnected and grown together and I am a much happier person because of it. Master is taking some extra time off during the Victoria Day long weekend coming up! We plan to take the family to the Cloverdale Rodeo. They are really excited! I always love going. It's going to be a lot of fun. There is the Star Trek movie that Master really wants to see. There is also the new Terminator movie coming out too which I really want to see! We also got an overnight for Saturday night and have no kids for 24 hours! Woot! Hopefully there will be a lot of orgasms and play time on the darkside this long weekend! We put up a poll on our sidebar. We are wondering if you are more of a Trekkie than into Star Wars? Or do you prefer Star Wars? Please let us know! Do you plan to see the new Star Trek movie? I was disappointed in the Vancouver Canucks last night. Master and I both watched the game. Boo!! It's all over for the local boys. No Stanley Cup this year. Oh well! Maybe next year. I wanted to do a quick blog post before starting on my chores list. I want to get the place cleaned for the long weekend! I don't want to disappoint Darth Vader. We all know what happens when he is displeased. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala