 I am submissive slave to Master Anakin. I try to be a good girl although that isn't very easy for me sometimes. I wore the pants in my first marriage and I loved the freedom that I had during that time of my life. I struggled a lot with my role as a slave. The desire to submit did not come naturally to me.
Master Anakin wanted a traditional home for us and our children. I would stay at home and he would be the Head of the Household. My sister might joke that I am the "stepford wife" but she is right. He wanted a stepford type of wife. He wanted a perfect type of slave. He had demands of me right away. I can remember him saying "I am not your husband (my ex). You can't tell me what to do. I won't have it!."
He made it very clear that he wanted a traditional type of wife. The type of wife from the old days where women stayed home to raise a family and did not disobey their husbands. Some of his ideas did blend with mine. My Mom was also a submissive wife. She surrendered to my Dad who was in control of our household. My Dad clearly wore the pants in that marriage. Master's parents also believe in a traditional type of household. The women are washing dishes while the men drink their beer and watch the hockey game.
Master has always been Dominant. I knew that our marriage would be different than my first one. He would have high expectations. I did not enter our relationship blind. I knew what I was getting into. I knew that I would have to sacrifice. No more dreams of finishing college or having that career that I wanted. We found D/s and everything changed for us in June 1997. I became a slave as well as a traditional wife. I did not surrender quietly though. I rebelled him and was a real handful at times. I broke rules...I pushed the boundaries. I pushed him hard sometimes and he would respond exactly like Darth Vader. The darkside would come out and he would punish me harshly for disrespecting him. We had some really wild fights in those years. lol! I got some really hard spankings too! He would get so frustrated with me and take it out on my ass.
I have learned to live in a Total power exchange. It hasn't been easy. The road has been dark sometimes and very challenging. The desire to submit isn't always there for me. I get mouthy. I get full of sass and push my limits. I admit that I was more mouthy lately than I had been in a very long time. The D/s got put on hold a bit after my Dad passed away. Some rules got put on hold and Master had to become my Daddy for a while. I start to get out of control sometimes when the D/s slips. I start to go back to my rebellious ways. Master was not going to stand for it though! He told me he wanted back in control of things again and for us to be back on track.
We have recently tried to put the pieces of our D/s (domestic discipline) TPE relationship back together again. I got a very harsh punishment spanking recently which got me to tears. It was brutal!! I couldn't sit down for days!! I still have bruises from it. A reminder of my disrespect to Master. We spent this whole weekend with trying to retrain me. He took control of everything. We even had bathroom control for me so I had to ask permission to pee. He controlled what I ate...how I dressed...how he wanted me to be. He controlled my whole world. I came for him...got permission from him for every single thing...and obeyed him completely. The sex was brutal and rough. He showed me who owned me through the time we spent on the darkside together.
I had a moment on Sunday night which came from all the training. I had the desire to submit come back very strong. I had insomnia and he was sleeping. I was up in the middle of the night and thinking about Master. I felt so much submission all of a sudden as I watched him sleep. I wanted to please him. I started to kiss him and stroke his hair. He woke up and wondered what I was doing. I said "shhhh...Master...just let me please you" and started to stroke his cock with my hand. I sucked on his cock a bit to get it hard and then I used my hand to jack him off all over my tits and face. We didn't say a word afterwords. He looked very pleased and put me to bed. I knew it was all about him. I didn't want an orgasm. I didn't want praise. I just wanted to submit to him and make him happy. It was a beautiful moment for us as Master and slave. Our force is strong....
May the force be with you all!!
~padme amidala
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My padme, my wife, my slave...
It was important for both of us to return to our D/s TPE relationship as soon and as completely as possible. You responded so well to the D/s that the hand-job was supremely submissive, spontaneous and immensely pleasing to Me, your Anakin, your Husband, your HOH, your Master.
~Anakin
I have never commented on your blog before but I just wanted to say, it's a great blog and you have a very interesting life. Personally this post does make me cringe though as I am totally against that kind of relationship. I personally believe in equality, but that's just me. I can't really understand why you feel a woman should be washing dishes while a husband gets to relax. Both people work hard and should get to enjoy. Nor do I get why you wouldn't want to persue college or a career where you could learn so much more and think for youself.
Dear Anonymous,
I felt a need to respond. A simple blog post is perhaps not nearly enough to describe to full extent of My slave and I's relationship; suffice to say it works and works VERY well for both of us, equally. In fact, since everything in our relationship is ultimately my responsibility and my fault, padme certainly gets a great deal of benefit from our choice in style of relationship. Remember, W/we both sought out and worked to develop this type of relationship, it makes us Both very happy. W/we know that this is true because we are at our most unhappy when the D/s relationship is at its weakest. My padme had already decided to stop her College studies long before her and I entered into our relationship. I consider our relationship ultimately equal; equal but different. A D/s relationship is hard work, much harder than most supposedly equal vanilla relationships. The amount of communication and work needed means it isn't achievable by everyone; but it's beautiful when you can pull it off, if it's what you desire as it was for her and I. There's nothing in the world I wouldn't do to make My slave happy; it just so happens that what makes her happy is for her to be taken care of; it truly is the case that there is the feeling freedom in her submission that she could not achieve in any other way. There are many books written on the subject I suggest you explore, but again, this is what works for us. Thanks for your comment. BTW, my woman certainly thinks for herself; I have to be on my toes lest she think me into a corner; that said, I decide, based on what would be best for both of us.
Cheers
~Anakin
Anakin,
Thanks for your response. Your relationship does sound great for you guys and I am glad it works so well for you :) I guess I had just misread Padme's post. It to me had almost sounded like that in order to be with you, she had to give up a lot and struggle a lot with it because that was the kind of woman you wanted, not so much that it was also what she wanted, but thanks for correcting me :) Love your blog and hope everything keeps going well for you guys.
What a powerful post. Thanks for sharing.
Padme, I have not been online so I started with your "sexiest post" about the threesome, and then I read this. To me, my personal feelings and biasis -- this post is absolutely the sexiest!!! It is deep, reflective, personal, speaks to the challenges and pleasures of submitting. WOW OH WOW thank you for your honesty and beauty.
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