The Journey of 2009

It's been quite a year and I've found myself reflecting about it lately. It really hasn't been the best of all years. There has been a lot of loss and a great deal of disappointment. I have to admit that I assumed (which I shouldn't do) that certain things would happen this year. I really thought that I would find someone other than my Master this year. That this would be the year that I would find a girlfriend. I've been longing to feel a closeness with another woman again. I miss having it and feel terribly alone sometimes. There were a few women that I had crushes on. Most of them didn't seem too interested in me. I have not had any luck with the poly this year. I met a few Doms but none of those worked out either. I had thought there were a lot of possibilities even for some casual play with people but it didn't work out. I was able to Top a few different women this year though and that was fun. I was able to discover a new side of myself and start a new journey with a different type of play that I had not done before. I enjoyed spanking women. I cherish those memories of the play that I had with them. I also was able to watch my Master spank another woman (my friend, Doc) again! That was awesome!! He came to his first public event this year at Rascal's. He even came to the Halloween Rascal's which was really wonderful. My best friend, Shasta had come out to Van and we all went together. That was one of the best Halloween parties I have ever been to! That was a really wild weekend and one of the best parts of 2009! My relationship with Master is going strong. Our force has been strong through some really rough times. There were some challenges for us this year. I lost my Dad and went through a lot of heavy grieving. He found out that his mom has terminal cancer. We had some sad times together and there was a lot of time cuddling and comforting each other. I believe this made our marriage stronger where some might have failed. I saw several marriages go down the tubes this year and I'm proud to say that mine is not one of them. There was a lot of loss this year. I lost my Dad which was a life changing event in my life. I will always remember this year as being the year I lost him. Terrible moments which happened in May and June. My heart is still sad and I still cry sometimes. I have dreams of him which haunt me. There was a lot of a family loss. Aunts and Uncles seemed to pass away and some of them were only days apart. Some of it was shocking. One of my Aunts committed suicide. I lost a pet this year too. My kitty died. He lived with my ex husband but I always thought of him as my own pet too. He was one of the first kitties I had when I moved out on my own. I will always remember him. One of my best friends from high school came back into my life. This was a very unexpected surprise this year. She contacted me after my Dad passed away. Candycane and I have a very big history together. She helped me through some dark days. I am glad that we have grown closer again and hope to see her in 2010. I changed my hair color and also got a new hair cut this year. I went back to red hair and cut it really short. I used to have blonde hair but decided it was time for a change. My weight is the same as it was during the New Year. I was able to maintain this through a lot of walking. I was able to cross lots of things off my bucket list this year. I challenged myself at times and tried some new things. I went to a few different bdsm events including a woman's only Queer play party during the Halloween weekend. I was going to try to go to Sin City this year but that didn't happen. I'm determined to try to go to one of their parties in 2010. I've tried really hard to be a good slave this year. I've tried to become better at being a domestic diva. Master has been giving me a chores list this year and keeping me focused and on track. I had a lot of motivation (err...spankings) to get my chores done and ahead of time. My Christmas shopping and decorations/wrapping/baking and such was all done WAY ahead of when it usually is. I'm a terrible procrastinator sometimes and Master won't let me. He has pushed me at times but it was for the best! I am glad to have gotten a few projects done this year. It was a really great year for me financially. I got my Dad's estate money in November. We were able to pay off our debts and also get lots of Christmas gifts for us and the family this year. We spoiled our kids and even our kitty! We were able to spoil ourselves a little and indulge in a few things that we both wanted. We also spent an incredible night at the Hilton Hotel for our anniversary in November. I cherish that entire night of incredible passion and great sex! It was amazing! We went on a family trip to Vancouver Island over the summer. We did a bit of of travel this year. I always wanted to see the ocean on that side and it was absolutely incredible!!!! The waves were high and ocean was so blue. Tofino was beautiful! I hope to go back there one day! One of the most exciting things to happen in 2009 was being published in a big book! I was published in a part of The Peep Diaries by Hal Niedzviecki. It was very exciting to go into my Chapters store and buy a book with me named in it. I got several interviews from it and a bit of publicity. Very cool! We were offered a chance to be in a documentary about it but we had to decline because of the exposure it would give us by showing our faces on national tv. Next year it will be 5 years of blogging!! Amazing but true. We've gotten over two million visitors to our blog and we are very thankful for our readers and support. We also really appreciate all your comments. We've put up a lot of really great pictures this year. There was a lot of play time and spankings. It was a pleasure to be able to share some of our adventures with the readers. I look ahead to 2010 and all the opportunities that lay ahead for us. The journey continues and a new year will begin. Thank you for being a part of our Journey...our Journey to the Darkside. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala