Happy HNT - Diamonds are a girls best friend

Happy HNT everyone! I hope you like this week's HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) image. My sexy padme and I found these wonderful bejeweled adornments in an adult store on the weekend. I could hardly wait to get her home to see them on her. As you can see, they attach ever so sweetly around her nipples. They gave her a beautiful pleasure slave-girl look, at least in my twisted mind, and I could tell she felt very sexy in them as the miniature gems sparkled around her excited nipples. Please leave a comment on this post and let us know what you think of this week's HNT image. The feedback is valued in part in that it is the only way we can give you, our readers, more of what you want. Again, happy HNT! Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you. ~Anakin

More Q & A!

It's been a pretty quiet day today. I have really enjoyed seeing the sunshine. I love spring and am starting to think about bbq's and even doing spring cleaning. I have a few ideas for our place. It seems like every year we talk about moving but we havn't made any decisions about it. We do want to be ready for when it happens though and make sure our basement is cleaned up and some things are boxed up and put away or given to charity. The kids are constantly growing out of their clothes and we have boxes ready to go! I did have some masturbation time with my Hitatchi this morning thanks to Master! He gave me permission to cum for Him and my fantasies revolved around Saturday night and the brutal ass fucking that I got from him. I have been feeling horny all day! Hopefully I can have a late night fuck tonight. My pussy has been wet all day with thoughts of His cock up my ass. Mmmm... I wanted to do some more Q & A (question and answers) today as there isn't much to write about. These questions were asked by X-Ray: 1. Q: How old were you when you received your first erotic spanking? A: I got my first adult spanking when I was 16 years old from a boyfriend. I wouldn't say it was erotic though. My first erotic spanking was with Master Anakin and I wrote about it a few years ago. 2. Q: What do you like being spanked with most? Hand, belt, etc? A: I have a belt fetish and love to be spanked with Master's belt the most! I also love hand spanking too! Master's got big hands and can spank hard! :) 3. Q: Do you prefer being spanked on a bare bottom, or one covered? A: I prefer a bare bottom spanking any day! 4. Q: Have you ever been walked outdoors on a collar and leash? A: No. I havn't walked outdoors on a collar and leash yet. Hmmm..maybe with the warmer weather coming up that would be a great idea! *winks* My sexy friend, notty girl asked me: 1. Q: Do you consider yourself a switch? why?why not? A: I don't really think of myself as a switch. I am way more submissive than I am Dominant. I can Top but I only prefer to Top women and feel like I am submissive even in that role. I am trying to make the person happy and please them. I have a naturally submissive personality. blueeyedtawni asked me a few questions too: Q: 1. When did you first find out that enjoyed BDSM? A: I found BDSM & D/s on the internet in June 1997 and found out that I enjoyed it and wanted to live my life as a slave 24/7. I started to get spanked that year and really enjoyed it and started to admit how much bdsm turned me on. Q: 2.Will you get another tattoo and if so, of what? A: I would love to get another tattoo but it's up to Master if I will. I am not sure what I would like to get if he allowed me to get another one done. Q: 3.Does master enjoying spoiling you ;)? A: I think he likes to spoil me as long as I am being a good girl. He will treat me like a Princess as long as I am being good and obeying Him and the rules. Q: 4. How many collars do you own and are they in different colors? A: I have many different collars. I've got 5 different play ones. I also have some collars which I can wear during the day or night and many people wouldn't even know it's my collar as it's discreet. Q: 5.How long have you and your master been married :) A: We have been married 5 years as of April 10th! Our 5 year wedding anniversary is coming up! :) I've got a lot more questions to answer but I wanted to answer a few today! Thanks for all the great questions. If you have anymore questions for me, please e-mail me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A date in downtown Vancouver with Master

I had a really fantastic weekend and have a chance to write about it. I'm enjoying some coffee and quiet time. I am hoping to get some Spring cleaning done this week. I have some energy and want to do a proper cleaning on our place. It was nice that this weekend was spent with Master enjoying some time together. We have been together for almost 13 years and yet we are still having first times together. This weekend we both headed to the Vancouver Art Gallery. We have both walked by it so many times and talked about going but never made the time to go. I was determined to experience this for the first time. I tried to get Daemon to go with me. I even offered to pay for him to get in. He wasn't interested. I even tried to mention it several times to Shiro but he also wasn't interested. I love to look at art. I went to a few art galleries when I was in Europe as a teen. I really wanted to see the Vancouver one. I woke up and noticed that my period had stopped which was a great start to the day. We headed out early Saturday morning. We had to go by the bank and we also went by Starbucks. Master treated us all to special treats. Leia and I both love our lattes. lol. We dropped the kids off at the sitter and we started driving towards downtown. Master mentioned that it would be easier to take the skytrain than drive so we headed over to Metrotown. It's free parking and would be easy to hop onto the skytrain from there and go straight downtown. The traffic downtown is always a nightmare. We were going to have lunch at Metrotown at the food fair but it was a complete zoo. I like to call Metrotown "metroclown" for a reason. lol! It was crazy there!! Sooooo many people! We decided to skip lunch and get to the skytrain and fought herds of people to get there. I still get a weird feeling in my tummy when I see the water fountain outside Metrotown. That place reminds me of Daemon more than any other. I always get flashbacks of special times with him there when I see it. The weather was raining for a while but seemed to clear up as soon as we hit downtown Vancouver. All of a sudden there was a ray of sunshine and the clouds opened and clear sky appeared. It felt kind of surreal. I have special memories of going downtown with Master. I love being down there with him. We got off at Granville Station and then went up to the art gallery. We saw the Four Seasons Hotel and both smiled. I'm sure we were both thinking the same thing about our special night there many years ago. We also have good memories at the Hyatt Hotel also. :) I was very impressed with the inside of the Vancouver Art Gallery. We got the coat check and also had to check our camera. Camera's are not allowed in the Art Gallery. It's understandable but too bad we couldn't take pictures of the inside. So beautiful! There was a special Canadian exhibit going called Legacies of Impressionism in Canada.. Beautiful artwork! So incredible to look at. I also enjoyed looking at Emily Carr's work as she is one of my favorite artists. We enjoyed a few hours going through the art gallery together. It was relaxing and so wonderful. I get to cross something off my bucket list: #64 -Go to the Vancouver Art Gallery We checked out the store at the Art Gallery and then both commented that we were starving. We headed up Robson Street to find a place to eat. We went to the Red Robin for lunch. We got an incredible view from our seats of Robson Street and some of downtown. The sun was shining and we both were holding hands and enjoying the lunch together. It was yummy and I enjoyed my Hawaiian smoothie that Master treated me to. We both walked towards Davie Street after to do some shopping at the adult stores. We went by The Love's Touch and got a sexy pair of black striped thigh-hi's. I wore them as knee hi's and am putting up a picture today of them. I am wearing them with my sexy lingerie and by the fireplace waiting for a spanking. More on that later in the post... We also went by Little Sister's bookshop. I picked up a few goodies from there. We looked and drooled at some toys we both want to buy. We decided to hike up to the beach from there. Our feet were hurting a bit from all the walking but it was a beautiful day and felt great to get some exercise. I really wanted to go to the ocean. I love going to the beach there! It's so beautiful and was so relaxing to enjoy the view and head down to the water. The waves were crashing in and there was some romantic moments that made me smile. :) I was surprised that hardly anyone was down at the beach. You can see in the picture how dead it was there. Where was everyone? It was a beautiful Saturday afternoon at the beach. I really enjoyed it. I love going to the beach. It's one of my absolute favorite things to do. Master calls me his "beach girl". I even have a t-shirt which says that too! Master took lots of pictures and then we walked up Denman Street. We went into a really erotic store which we had never seen before. I'm not sure of the name of it. There was a lot of erotica and hats and stuff. They had some incredible stuff there and a fire going inside so it was very warm and nice to look around. I drooled over some of their fetish stuff they had including some sexy corsets. We didn't buy anything but I would love to go back sometime to pick up a few things. We stopped by one of my favorite ice-cream places in the Lower Mainland. Mum's ice-cream! MMMmmmmm.... I havn't been there in years but I always enjoy their ice-cream so much. I got a large scoop of Spumoni ice-cream and also got to cross that off my bucket list: #427 -Eat at Mum's ice-cream again Thank you Daddy for treating me to ice-cream! Yeah! My feet were starting to really hurt when we walked up Robson Street. We stopped by the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory before heading back to Metrotown. We picked up a few things there like Lush and also wine from the Wine store. Master remarked that I better not buy the expensive stuff like I did last time. lol! I walked out last time after spending almost a hundred bucks on wine. I got two bottles of Quatrain wine from Mission Hill. We are saving one bottle for our 5 year wedding anniversary! I'm sure lucky that I didn't get spanked for that. I never got permission before spending so much money on wine. I did get a fancy free wine glass though for buying it! Master was not pleased when I told him how much I had spent last time even with the free glass. We also picked up a cinnzeo and then headed home around 7 pm. We wanted lots of time to play. *smiles* Master wanted to take some pictures while playing so he set up the living room. He got some music on and ordered me to go upstairs and get ready for him. He got the toys and laid them out. He got us some drinks and a few snacks and then waited for me. I got dressed up in my sexy black lingerie and panties and new thigh-hi's. Master said I looked very sexy and was pleased. I had some body jewlery on my nipples too which I had bought at the adult stores. Master got me to wait by the fireplace at one point and told me he was going to spank me. I am putting up a picture of it today! You can see my ass waiting for the first stroke. He first used his hand and then he took off his belt and used that to set my ass on fire. He can spank hard with his belt!! Ouchies! He would sometimes stop and then switch to his hand. I never knew what was going to spank my ass next! I felt a hard wooden paddle for a few last strokes which had me squealing! "Owie Daddy! Not SOOO hard!!!!" I tried to beg with Darth Vader. That would only earn me a few harder strokes and evil laughing. He had turned to the darkside and he was enjoying giving me some pain. He picked up his whip at one point and whipped my tits a few times. It is a homemade whip and that hurt and had me jumping. He had to order me to stay still and not move during the last whips with it. I screamed out a few times and I'm glad that the music was up loud because I think the neighbors might have heard me. I was VERY loud!! One whip went straight across my nipple and I was feeling a lot of pain. Master can be very sadistic and I saw a hard-on in his boxers from giving me the pain. He got me to get on my knees and suck his cock before he told me to get into the doggy position. My panties had come off during the spanking and my pussy was wet. The next thing I know his cock was being shoved hard up my ass. It was one of the longest ass fuckings I have ever had. He would withdraw his cock and then play with my pussy for a while and then shove his cock back into my ass and fuck it more. He made it go on and on and I lost track of time and felt in complete submission. He was brutal with the ass fucking but he knows that turns me on. I was cumming hard from it when he ordered it. "Cum for me, bitch" he ordered. And I came HARD for him. The orgasm went on and on through my body. He kept stroking his cock in my ass and finally came hard with one last shove. Mmm...it was extremely intense. He had me clean up and then made me cum again using the Hitatchi. I know my legs were shaking and I was in a very deep subspace when he spanked me a few more times before sending me up to the bedroom. I fell asleep naked and content and had a very good solid sleep. Sunday was spent having more orgasms and showering together and having more sex and spankings! I have several marks and bruises on my ass from all the play! It was a great way to spend the weekend! Thank you Master for a wonderful weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

I'm a chocolate cupcake!

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TGIF! A date with Darth Vader tommorow!

TGIF! I wasn't sure about blogging today. I was feeling very blah and my special friend, notty girl made me a deal on twitter. She said she would blog about her weekend fun at St. Paddle's over at Sagacity. She would blog if I would blog too. So here I am writing my blog post. I wasn't sure I had much to say today but something very exciting has happened! We just found out that we have an overnight tommorow night. We will have no kids for over 24 hours! Woot! Master told me that he has plans for me. He wants to take me to the Vancouver Art Gallery! Yeah! It's on my bucket list and I have been wanting to go for months. I asked Daemon and Shiro to come with me but they both weren't interested. I LOVE art!! I am really into looking at art. This will be the first time for Master and I to go to the Art Gallery. I can't wait! We plan to hang out downtown also for the night. We'll probably have dinner and maybe even some adult shopping too at the shops on Davie Street. *smiles* I love our dates and I can't wait for tommorow! We plan to take our camera so I'm sure there will be lots of pictures to put up as well as a blog post. It's been a really long week. I got my period and it was a horrible one this month. It literally took all my energy out of me. I couldn't get off the couch yesterday with terrible cramps. I am feeling better today and am looking forward to the weekend. I feel that there is a lot to look forward to also! I am hoping to go to MVK (metro vancouver kink) next weekend and go on another date with my sexy friend, notty girl! She mentioned maybe playing together again and I think that would be awesome! I hope it works out. :) Master and I's 5 year wedding anniversary is also coming up! It will be happening over the Easter long weekend. I can't believe it's been 5 years! Where did the time go? I also signed my TPE agreement on my wedding night so it's a special anniversary for us as Master and slave. We are planning to head to Harrison Hot Springs for the weekend. We also have Easter plans with our family to celebrate our anniversary and Easter together. We are also hoping to go to Rascal's too in April. Master really enjoyed going last week when he got to play with two naughty schoolgirls there! There is a kinky swap meet happening this month and I want to look for some kinky deals. We are hopefully going to go on a double date with notty girl and her Daddy too that weekend. It should be a fun month and there is a lot happening. It's great to have so much to look forward to! I have a lot of Q & A (question and answers) to answer and hope to get to many of those next week! Have a great weekend! I am putting up a spanking picture that was taken last Sunday. Master was giving me a hand spanking and making my bum really red. I thought I would share it with everyone. I really hope I'm getting a spanking this weekend! I need a date with Darth Vader on the darkside. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Pink spanked girl

Hello and happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone. I hope you like the HNT picture of My padme. We had the time for some spanking fun for her Q & A spanking and this picture was the result. I had padme dressed in a schoolgirl outfit and her cute pink neon knee-high socks. I told her something else needs to get pink and to bend over the couch. She was looking forward to a spanking as much as I was looking forward to giving her one. Her bottom nicely pink, I took this image of her. With Photoshop I added some pink neon for the frame and the Journey to the Darkside lettering, as well as some contrast, noise removal, and a slight darkening of the corners to focus the eyes on the center of the image. I hope you enjoy the picture. Please let us know what you think of the image via comment or email if you prefer. We always enjoy hearing from you. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interesting in participating in the HNT series. May the Force be with you! ~Anakin

Master Anakin's first time at Rascal's!

What a weekend! I finally have a chance to sit down and write about it. My kids are back in school today from Spring Break and I have the place to myself again. It feels really good. I have my morning cup of coffee and I'm going to write about the weekend fun. It was amazing and so much fun and I've still got a sore ass (especially on the left ass cheek) from all the spanking play that I did. I have memories that will last a lifetime and fantasies from it that I will masturbate to for a long time. Some of the things that I experienced were so extremely erotic and turned me on. I lost count of all the orgasms that I had this weekend. Our fun at Rascal's and a kid free weekend inspired many orgasms and naughty fun! I wrote my blog post on Saturday and then started getting ready for our night. Master dressed up and looked handsome! He was all dressed in black which always turns me on. I love a Dominant man dressed from head to toe in black. We loaded up the kids in the car and dropped them off at their sleepover. We headed out to Vancouver. It was a really nice day and I was really glad that it wasn't raining because it did that a lot all week. I was really looking forward to a fun night out. We got to Commercial Drive around 4:30 pm. Master and I have both gone to Commercial Drive but never together so this was a first for us. We have both talked about going there together and I was excited to walk around the shops and have dinner down there. We stopped by Womyns Ware adult store for a bit of shopping. We picked up a few goodies including lubricant. We went to a few other stores and then found a really cool place to have dinner. It's called Memphis Blues Barbeque House. It's award winning authentic Southern Barbeque. The food was delicious and very large portions!! I recommend it and plan to go back there one day. I really enjoyed dinner there and great conversation with the love of my life. :) We walked around Commercial Drive and found a park to go to so Master could snap a few pictures of the Downtown view of Vancouver. I am sharing a picture today of what one looked like. It was really incredible and we had some romantic moments there. *smiles* We went to a few thrift stores and found a few deals. I got a few hippie type of clothes and Master got a really nice shirt. We got in the car and drove down Commercial Drive to check out the atmosphere. It was a great place to people watch. Lots of hippies around and some interesting outfits on people and hair styles. lol! We stopped by Value Village on Hastings Street to look for toys but didn't find any. Then we headed up to Rascal's. Master seemed a bit nervous. I was starting to feel stressed that maybe he wasn't going to like Rascal's. I really wanted him to have a good time. I wanted to be able to go to future events with him if he had a good time and wanted to go back. We got there around 8 pm. and found a good seat. I was worried there might be a big crowd like last time but it wasn't too bad actually. There wasn't a lot of people and I think that helped Master Anakin to relax. We got some drinks for us and my friend, Doc while we were waiting for her. Master was just drinking coke but the naughty girls got vodka/7's. *winks* Doc arrived and we went into the bathroom because I needed to get dressed. She was already looking cute in her naughty schoolgirl outfit. She wanted to put her hair into pig tails and then she helped me to do my hair. I really liked being girls together on Saturday. I started to unwind as soon as I was in my outfit and my hair was done. I started to get into my little girl role and Doc and I started giggling and went out to find Master Anakin. I could see Daddy's eyes almost pop out of his head when he saw us all dressed up as naughty schoolgirls. I wore my "little miss dangerous" t-shirt under my sweater. I had my traditional red schoolgirl skirt and heart panties and red knee high's. I also had my schoolgirl shoes on which got a few compliments. I admit it. I'm an attention whore. I enjoyed all the attention when all the guys (and a few girls too) noticed Doc and I. We were looking very girlish. Doc was wearing her traditional schoolgirl skirt and sexy white top and shoes. We both brought our teddy bears which was so cute! I felt really fun and free to be a little girl with Doc there to be little girl's with. I could tell that this was turning on my Daddy. He had a very big smile and he also paddled me a few times with the wooden paddle which "accidentally" got into his hands somehow. *winks* lol! I leaned over and gave Doc a kiss at one point. She looked so cute and I couldn't help myself. I wanted to kiss her SO bad! She has the softest cutest lips. Master wanted me to go get some more drinks at one point and I did some pouting. Doc said my lower lip had a big pout on it. I wanted to be a Princess for the night. I did some temper tantrums and pouting and got a few paddles on my bum. Doc helped me to get the drinks. We were so cute together. I enjoyed watching people's reactions to us being naughty little girl's. We watched Professor Oni do a suspension scene. I have to admit that the music almost put me to sleep and I wasn't too impressed when it went on for way too long. It seemed to affect most people. Hardly anyone was playing and most people were very quiet and mellow. I socialized with a few friends and also bought a few clothes from one woman who was selling them off to raise money for a trip. I mentioned to Doc that we wanted to go up and play together alone first. I think Master wanted to get a feel for the private area and get familiar with it before bringing Doc up to play with us. He also wanted to warm up his hand for the spanking fun which was to come! We went up to the private area and unpacked a few of the toys which I had packed. I laid down on the spanking table which is the same place I got my first spanking at Rascal's from Daemon. Master used his hand to warm up my bum and get it red before moving on to paddles and then his belt which he took off. I could hear the sounds of his belt echoing in the room and I looked up to notice quite a few people trying to get a glimpse at what we were doing. Master was excellent to play with in public. He talked to me and reassured me and started to get into his Dom space. He finished off with the wooden paddle to make sure I could feel it before cleaning up. We went and got Doc and she came up to the private area with us. I noticed her and Master holding hands as they went up to the area. I had great joy in my heart seeing that. I enjoy sharing Master. He's a really great Daddy and also spanker. I knew that Doc would enjoy herself with playing with him. He had asked for some help with Topping Doc. He wanted to make sure he was doing a good job and to help reassure Doc if she needed it. She got into the spanking position on her hands and knees and we lifted her schoolgirl skirt. She was on the other medical/spanking type of table that was there. I watched him give her a hand spanking to warm up her bottom for the spanking play. I commented to Doc that he has big hands and she agreed with me. I helped him spank her and we brought out some toys also like the Anakin's paddle and ping pong paddle and such. Her ass turned a nice shade of red. I commented to Master that he was doing a great job with spanking her. There weren't any swings that went too high like many of Shiro's did when he played with her and I last time at Rascal's. Master Anakin has been spanking my bottom since 1997 and he has a lot of experience. You could see the area of the bum and upper thigh's all red and some marks and bruises all on the sit spot so she could feel it when she sat down. I watched him use his belt on her ass. I could feel the pain from it even though it wasn't my ass. I tried to complain that he was being a very MEAN OLD MAN!! That only got me paddled at times. He was swinging the paddle on her bum and then having me lean over and paddling mine! Two naughty schoogirls were getting paddled at the same time! I gave Doc a kiss and reassured her. I watched him use his leather belt very hard on her ass. I was surprised how well she took it all! He can spank hard! He asked me to go get some water for her and I went off to the bar. I also got myself a drink and decided that I was going to give them some time alone. I wanted to make sure they got to play alone and that she could have some time with Daddy. I also was curious to watch them play as a spectator. You can't see too much in the private area but I could see him swinging his belt and also them talking at times. He was checking in with her a lot to make sure she was ok. It turned me on to see them playing together. I could tell that Master was enjoying it a lot! I could feel my panties getting very wet. It took a while for them to notice that I hadn't come back yet. I think they were lost in the play and then I saw them both looking around the room for me. Master spotted me in the crowd and pointed at me and I gave him a thumb's up. lol! I KNEW that was going to earn me a punishment. I went up with the water and Master did a few stern comments to me. I noticed Doc's ass was very red and showing a few bruises too especially on the sit spot. Master tried to end the spanking at one point but I was still paddling her with the leather paddle. I was getting into my Top role and wanted to keep spanking her cute spankable bottom! He put her in the corner of the stage and had her lift up her schoolgirl skirt. It showed a very red bottom! Then I was told to get ready for my spanking! I wondered if his arm might be getting tired but he told me he could easily spank for hours! He started spanking me and then I noticed a different type of spanking and turned around to see Doc there. Doc was spanking me!! He said "payback's a bitch" in my ear and then I could feel her spanking me. I think she spanked me with a ping pong paddle but it's a bit fuzzy for me. I was in subspace and so much happened that night. I made a few sassy comments to her and that earned a few more strokes. I lost track of time. I'm not sure how long we were playing for but I was floating when we went back to the table. Doc mentioned that she was glad that I am able to share well. I mentioned to her that I would be happy to share my Daddy with her anytime. I could see how happy it made Master to play with her. He had a big smile. I also KNEW he was probably horny too! He was a lucky man that night. How many Doms can say that they got to spank two naughty schoolgirls? I know Doc and I made his fantasies come true! :) Master mentioned that Doc took her spanking better than I did! He said I did too many "ouchies" and complained too much! He was very impressed with her ability to take his spanking pain on her ass! I know I did too much pouting and that just kept earning me more strokes on my ass! Doc and I enjoyed some cuddles and aftercare together. I wanted Daddy to come cuddle with us but he seemed off in his own thoughts. I don't blame him. It's been a long time since he got to spank another woman besides me. This was also his first bdsm event that he had gone to! It was a big night for him. I watched a few of the other scenes going on including a very erotic fisting scene. Mmm....that got me so turned on to watch that girl cumming over and over again with her Dom's fist in her pussy. I was very turned on and floating in a nice subspace when we left. Doc had given me a lollipop and I enjoyed that on the ride to drop Doc off. It was chocolate flavored and yummy. I felt like a little girl and just enjoyed the feeling. I gave Doc a kiss goodbye when we dropped her off. She commented that the kiss tasted like chocolate. *smiles* We drove home and I got a brief chance to check the computer and update my twitter before I was told to get my ass upstairs and give Daddy a blowjob. He had a massive hard-on that night!! It didn't take long of me sucking and licking and giving him head until he exploded all over my face and tits. I know Daddy was a very horny man all night spanking two naughty schoolgirls. He was very worked up! I had a big orgasm with my Hiatachi and we talked for a bit before crashing in bed around 3 am. We slept in late and then got some breakfast before heading upstairs for an afternoon of play. He took a picture of my marks and bruises from the play at Rascal's. I am sharing a picture today of it. My ass doesn't mark like it used to. It can take a lot of pain. The left side of my cheek hurts a lot today. He gave me more spanking and we had some terrific rough sex and I had so many orgasms that I was literally begging for him to stop. He kept forcing me to cum over and over again. My pussy was sore from it. I had a nap after all the fun. I was exhausted and I crashed hard and fell into a deep sleep. We didn't do much last night other than watch TV and I had a bubble bath and enjoyed cuddle time with Master. I had a terrific weekend and I am so glad that Master came with me to Rascal's. He told me that he had a wonderful time and that he really enjoyed playing with Doc. He wants to come to more public bdsm events! I'm really happy to hear that! I am feeling very connected to Master and our force feels strong right now. We have our 5 year wedding anniversary coming up in a few weeks and we are planning something special for it. Our lives are full of happiness and fun and some wonderful times. I feel so lucky! I get to cross a few more things off my bucket list: #615 -Go to a public bdsm with Master Anakin #616 -Play in public with Master Anakin at a bdsm event #617 -Watch Master Anakin spank another woman again May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Spank me at Rascal's!

I didn't plan to write a blog post today but I have some time to kill and wanted to put up a picture that was taken a few years ago. I was posting pictures to Fetlife and noticed this one in the archives. I love it! I think it's so cute and the picture says it all. Spank me! I woke up this morning with spanking on my mind. I havn't had a spanking since last weekend and am craving a good hard one. I've packed lots of spanking toys for tonight! My toy bag is stuffed with my schoolgirl outfit and all the toys! I even packed my teddy bear and I think my friend, Doc is planning to bring hers too! *smiles* We get to be naughty schoolgirls at Rascal's and I am really excited! Master wanted to know which toys I was bringing. I showed him the razor strop, leather paddle, wooden paddle, Anakin's paddle, all kinds of floggers, the swede flogger, and I also mentioned he'll be wearing his black leather belt also which I hope he'll use on my poor bottom! I need a spanking from Darth Vader! I am aching for it. I can't wait to dress up as a naughty schoolgirl and show him my cute heart panties and hope he'll pull them down and give me a good spanking! Mmmmm...my Daddy can sure spank hard!! We are dropping our kids off for the night and then heading down to Commercial Drive. We plan to get dinner somewhere there. We also plan to do some shopping. There is an adult store that I'd like to go to also to pick up some lubricant as it's one of my favorites now. Then we are off to Rascal's for a night of naughty fun!! I am so glad that Doc is coming too and plans to dress up! I am really excited that Master is coming to his first bdsm event. I'm really hoping he'll like Rascal's as much as I do. I love it there! I was going to treat Doc to a few vodka/7 up's. We got naughty the last time that we were drinking them at the last Rascal's. *giggles* I can't wait to see her in her schoolgirl outfit too! She looks adorable in it! She is so much fun to play with! I hope she will join Master and I tonight for some spanking fun! There are a lot of naughty possibilities! I don't want to have too many expectations but I am sure hoping for a fun memorable night! I am SOOOO excited!! I am counting down the hours and I can't wait to get going! Master Anakin is sure a lucky man tonight! He gets the company of two cute schoolgirls who plan to be naughty and have a wild and fun night! We might have a hard time trying to not get into trouble. You know how naughty girls can be. *giggles* He's going to have his hands full! There could be two bottoms getting punished and red and sore tonight! What do you think will happen? I am sure that I'll have lots to blog about! Doc is a sex blogger too so I'm sure she'll be blogging about her experience too! *smiles* I hope everyone is having a good weekend! It's almost time to get ready... I can't wait for Rascal's tonight! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF...More Q & A

TGIF!! It's been a really long week and I feel very drained and tired today. I am glad that I am going to be staying inside tonight and watching movies. It's been raining a lot this week and it's also been Spring Break for my kids so they have been home all week. I tried to get a few projects done but it didn't work out too well. At least my chores are almost all done so Master will be happy. I am going to head up to a hot bubble bath soon and then watch movies and enjoy merlot and cuddle time with Daddy. I hope to get to bed at a reasonable hour tonight so I'm well rested for my late night at Rascal's tommorow night! I am really excited about Rascal's! We plan to meet my friend, Doc there and I plan to be a naughty schoolgirl with her. I've got my toy bag packed with lots of different toys. I made sure to wash and get my schoolgirl outfit ready to go. It took me a while to figure out what outfit to wear. I have many different schoolgirl skirts and such. It will be nice to escape into some fun and play! I really hope Master wants to play at Rascal's! I could use a good beating or at least a good hard spanking! I am really happy that Master is coming with me to his first bdsm event! I want him to really enjoy the evening. We plan to have dinner down on Commercial Drive and do some shopping there before we head to Rascal's! It is going to be a great night and I am sure I'll have lots to blog about! :) I got a lot of Q & A (questions and answers) so I might just turn this into a series instead of a month type of thing. I am really enjoying it and I hope the readers can find out a little more about me from it. Here are a few more... These questions were asked by Jennifer from Libido Lounge. Thanks Jennifer! Q: 1. Are you coming to this evening's Swap n Shop at The Lounge? A: No. I was not able to make it unfortunately. Leia had a band concert that night. Q: 2. Are you and your Master coming to Dungeon Players this Saturday? A: No. We didn't have any sitting for Skywalker that day. I hope to make it to a Dungeon players party sometime in the future. Q: 3. How old were you the first time you did BDSM? A: I was 24 years old when I started doing BDSM and had found it on the internet. Q: 4. How often do you actively Top from the bottom? A: I used to Top from below a lot during the first few years of being D/s. I don't do it very much anymore because Master A gets very upset when I do it and I will get punished for Topping from below. He much prefers communication with him and telling him what I need. Q: 5. Who besides your kinky friends and internet friends knows that you are involved in a power based BDSM relatinship? A: My sister knows a lot about my life but not that I am a slave to Master. I don't think that anyone else knows about our power based bdsm relationship. Q: 6. If you were a Top, what three things would you never do to a bottom? A: 1. Call them a pig 2. Not provide aftercare. I think that is very important. 3. Go beyond their limits or boundaries or to try and push them into something they are not comfortable with. Q: 7. As a slave what are your best three skills to offer any Master? A: 1. I'm a pain slut and can take a lot of pain for them. 2. I have been well trained and know how to submit to their desires. 3. I know how to give a great blow-job Q: 8. In what area do you excel as a person? A: I am a good mother. I devote a lot of time and energy into my kids and making sure they are raised right. I am very proud of both of my children. Q: 9. Why don't you learn to drive? A: You have to ask Master Anakin that question. I'd like to learn how to drive but that is something he hasn't wished for me to do yet. I put "learn how to drive" on my bucket list so maybe one day Master will let me learn so I can get my licence. Q: 10. Best childhood memory? A: Going to Disneyland with my family (including my grandparent's) when I was 17 years old. I have great memories from that trip. Q: 11. Where did you grow up? A: I grew up somewhere around the Fraser Valley. I want to keep some privacy so I can't say which city as it's a very small one. Q. 12. Why did you start a bucket list? A: my friend, Shasta had started one and I thought it was a great idea. There was so many things that I had wanted to do before I die. Places I want to travel to and things I'd like to try for the first time. my bucket list has been wonderful with encouraging me to try new things. Q: 13. Will you lend me your movie "The Pet" soon? A: Sure! I'd be happy to lend it to you or make you a copy. I recommend it! It's a great movie! Q: 14. Are you self motivated? A: I try to be. Q: 15. Are you hard on yourself, or forgiving? A: I can be very hard on myself. Q: 16. Who raised you? A: my Mom basically raised me although I like to give my Grandma a lot of credit. She lived beside us for a long time and I would visit her and she taught me a lot. Q: 17. Have you ever hid one of your Masters toys? A: Not that I recall. Q: 18.Why does love cloud judgement? A: Hmm...a bit of a tough question. I know love has got me into trouble a lot with my judgement on things. I have made bad mistakes in my life in the name of love. Q: 19. Are you coming to Dirty Girls later this month? A: I won't be able to make it unfortunately. I had to chose between Dirty Girls and Rascal's and I really want to go to Rascal's with Master and see my friends there. Maybe next time. Q: 20. Do you have any physical scars from awesome BDSM scenes? A: Hmm...I have my branding scar from our awesome Valentine's day scene. I can't think of any other ones. Q: 21. Tattoo's on your body? A: Yes. I have a tattoo on my lower back and also two on my ankle. I'd love to get more tattoo's! Q: 22. What type of sheets are on your bed? A: Cotton sheets. Q: 23. Aside from the Hitatchi what do you use to get off? A: I use the Ivibe Rabbit to get off. I also love Master's magic fingers to have orgasms. Sometimes I like to use my own fingers to get off. *winks* I've got a few other vibrators but don't use them very often. Q: 24. What type of lubricant do you use? A: Anything but KY. I like O'My lubricant. I bought some at Woman's Ware which has been good too but I don't know the name of it. Q: 25. Do you swallow when you suck dick? A: Yes. I will gladly swallow when I'm sucking cock. Q: 26. Are you ever gagged? A: Yes. I have been gagged a few times during our play. Master A is not as fond of gags because he likes to hear me moan or he will tell me "silence" and expect me to stay silent under the threat of punishment. Q: 27. Do you like rimming? A: I have never done rimming. I've never been with a man who wanted me to do that. Q: 28. How does bondage make you feel? A: Bondage makes me feel free to submit and let go of any control that I might have. I don't have to think or make decisions and all I have to do is submit. I love that about bondage. It gives the person total control to inflict pain and there isn't much I can do about it. Q: 29. What does doing age-play do for you? A: Age-play turns me on and also helps me to feel close to Daddy. Age-play feels natural to me. I enjoy being a little girl and playing with Daddy. Age play also helps me with stress too because I can slip into my little girl role and not think about worries or problems. Q: 30. When did you and your Master start doing age play? And why, where did it come from? A: We started doing age-play very early in our relationship. I started calling him "Daddy" and it felt strange at first but also natural. He knew I was a little girl from the time we were friends. I think it's obvious to most people around me that I can be very girlish. I think it came from my childhood and the abuse that happened. My Dad was very abusive to me growing up and I never felt that I had comfort or security. I love that my Daddy does all the things for me that my own Dad never did for me. It felt strange to call Master my Daddy at first but now it's natural to me. Q: 31. Do you read much? A: I used to read a lot when I was younger. I still read but not as much anymore. Q: 32. What do you read? Smut? Erotica? A: I read a lot of erotica. Sometimes I read biographies. Q: 33. Do you wear panties day to day? Or only for photographs? A: I wear my girlie panties all the time, not just for photographs. Master enjoys me wearing them also. Q: 34. Do you have sex when you have your period? A: I don't normally like sex when I'm on my period. We have had it though but it's for Master's pleasure and not mine. my sex drive goes to zero during that time of the month. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Jake has turned to the dark side

I normally don't like to take things public but this time I am hoping that it will maybe help with trying to make someone listen. I want Jake to go away. I feel like he is stalking me and it's a horrible and scary feeling. I'm had enough and I want Jake to go away and stop trying to harass me. He just doesn't seem to want to take "no" for an answer. He obviously doesn't handle me rejecting him too well. He won't leave me alone even though I've got him blocked and deleted from Fetlife. I was having a really good day today. I chatted with Doc on MSN and talked about Rascal's on Saturday. I packed my toy bag and dyed my hair. I also had a really nice long talk on the phone with my best bud, Shasta. I was feeling great. Then I checked the computer. I got an e-mail from a friend of mine on Fetlife. She had read the magazine article online at the Walrus Magazine which we had been published in this week. She was horrified to notice an anonymous comment on there from someone that was putting me down. I went to check it out and read it and knew immediately who wrote it. Jake (JKtheWolfe on Fetlife) made one mistake while writing that comment to the Walrus Magazine. He wrote "tho" in one part of it which is a trademark of his. He often used "tho" instead of though when talking. He is only one I know who makes that spelling mistake with that word. I know it in my gut that it's him who wrote it! This was the anonymous comment on the article: "She always gets what she wants even some discipline. She's the pants of the marriage for sure and crafts her requests of her Master to get the exact answers she wants. I wonder if he even knows. She a black widow type of woman who kills off those she love to have great sex with even tho she writes positively about it for days on. I remember some guy she played with named Jake who she raved about for days and then slighted him for whatver reason. Her journal is completely crafted to her needs and no one elses. Her blogs are pure narcisstic whims because she is so lonely during the day. Poor girl." I went onto Fetlife and found a quote from him right away where he uses tho. "Tho there are good reasons why alcohol isn't in CSPC - the club, and others can correct me here, couldn't exist if that were the case. Membership is past the 10K mark - so we are doing well. Yes - a club can do just fine without a liquor license - I'll bet even Sin in BC could do so. There is often too much dependency on the all hallowed liquor licenses. I haven't been to" I am not surprised that Jake would write that about me. He's been leaving very nasty comments on the blog also which I have rejected. I think that Jake forgets that we have Stat Counter for a reason. We know his IP address. It's extremely obvious who has been leaving those comments. We have not published them because they were extremely nasty. Jake has been a nightmare for me since I played with him. He hasn't left me alone. He won't give up. He reminds me of the Terminator actually. You try and try to stop him but he won't give up. His e-mails were out of control at one point and they were full of put downs and name calling. Master read them and I had to block/delete him on Fetlife. I guess Jake tried to do it through our blog but we rejected his nasty comments. Now he's gone to the magazine online to try to do it. I have no regrets about anyone that I have played with except for him. I wish I had never agreed to play with him. He did not respect my limits or boundaries when we played together. I said "no canes" which is a rule from Master Anakin. He disrespected my Master by not listening to him. He took canes out of his toy bag first when we played together. He went too fast and way too far. He called me a "pig" during one part of the play. I did enjoy the single tail whip a lot. There were some aspects that were nice about the play but there were some things which bothered me and my Master. It was our first time playing together and he broke the rules. He used a knife on me also which is also on my rules that I am not supposed to do. We spent the week after e-mailing back and forth. Jake was relentless with his e-mails. There was one day that I got a total of 8 e-mails from him. Lots and lots of mind fucks. He tried to get me to play with him at MVK but I was going with Shiro. We exchanged some e-mails after MVK and he wouldn't give up. He finally got me to give in and agree to give him another chance. I agreed that I would go for dinner with him and see how things went. I said "no expectations" and he agreed. Things were going fine until he started to change the rules. He had some huge expectations. He was talking about "scream girl" and how he planned to whip me. I kept telling him over and over "no expectations" but he wouldn't listen to me. The e-mails overwhelmed me. There was some really horrible put downs in the e-mails and he started to make fun of me. Master was very angry and at that point I was told to block and delete him and forbidden contact with him. He is the only person in the local bdsm community that I am forbidden from talking to or ever playing with. Then the nasty comments starting happening and now the comment on the Walrus. I wish Jake would leave me alone! He's starting to turn to the dark side in a very scary way. I think he's starting to show some very dark colors. Jake.. I asked you privately to leave me alone. Now I am asking you in public. Please leave me alone! Ps...the person who anonymously left that comment mentioned me having sex. I havn't had any lovers in a long time. I played with and dated many people (Daemon, LB, Jake, Shiro etc..) and I never slept with any of them. "kills off those she love to have great sex". Hmmm..it's kind of funny that all of the men I have ever slept with are all alive. I don't remember killing anyone. Who does he think I am? Sharon Stone in Basic Instinct? May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Published in the Walrus Magazine

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! We have a special HNT picture for this week. We found out on Monday that we were published in the Walrus Magazine. I had done an interview for them about blogging and it got published! It was really big news and we did some celebrating. It's a pretty big thing to be published in a big magazine! I have been keeping it a secret from everyone because I wasn't sure it would really happen. I had a few people call me "famous" and a "celebrity" because of it. I don't really think of myself like that. I'm a surburban lonely desperate housewife who lives an interesting life and has many wild adventures and blogs about them. I honestly didn't think that our blog would ever become as popular and big as it has. It blows me away that we have gotten over two million hits and have now been published in a magazine! I wonder what's next. We got some very negative reviews in that first year we started blogging. Some people made fun of us and put us down. We were called a "trainwreck" on one review site. I almost wanted to walk away from the blog a few times but Master stopped me. I had no idea that our blog would catch the attention of a publisher Hal Niedzviecki and then the Walrus Magazine. Master and I went to the local Chapters store yesterday and picked up a copy of the magazine. I was shocked to actually see it in print. It was a surreal experience for me. Standing in Chapters and reading a magazine article which has my name in it! I never expected anything like that would ever happen to me in my life. I really wish I could share this big news with our families but it's a shame that we have to keep our lives so secret. There is way too much risk. I do realize that someday someone from our families may come across this blog. We get a lot of readers. I wonder sometimes what would happen if that happens. I feel addicted to blogging. I don't think that I could ever stop. Being a blogger is a big part of my life now. I love to write about my feelings and experiences. We came home and Master wanted me to do a tit flash while holding a copy of the magazine. I don't think the cover of the Walrus magazine has ever looked so sexy! *smiles* I'm sure you can see my hard nipples that I got when Master was teasing me about being such a flirt and exhibitionist. I can't help it! I love to show off my tits. It seems to drive the boys wild and even a few girls too! *winks* We hope you enjoy the picture. Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think. We always enjoy hearing from you. It's been a bit of a roller coaster of a week so far. We got published and we have been having a lot of big talks lately about the future. There are a few things on the horizon for the future (like being in a documentary and such) and I want to ride the wave and see where it takes me. I don't like to jinx things so I am not sure if I will blog about some things until it happens. Yesterday had it's ups and downs and caused a lot of insomnia for me last night. I got 5 hours of sleep. There were 3 different women on my mind all night! I will let you guess who those 3 lovely ladies are. They are all on my mind for different reasons. I have had a lot of bisexual feelings going on and am very attracted and into 3 women right now but I don't really know how any of them really feel about me. I'd like to be wanted by another woman. I am aching to be physically intimate with another woman again who I can connect with. I have kissed and made out with (and even played with) a lot of women the last few years but I never slept with any of them. I havn't had much luck when it comes to women unfortunately. I've got a history of rejection from different women and it's built some walls up and I'm afraid to make moves on women who may not want me the way I want them. More on this in another post.. ..... I got some big news last night which made me very happy. My friend, talia asked me 2 questions on our Question and Answer post and I am going to answer it today as it applies to the news. Thanks for the great questions, talia! Q: 1. why does Master A never come out to an event? A: Master Anakin is not very social. He has never had much interest in going to public events. He can be quite shy around people and prefers to be home when I go out to play. He will play video games or work on the online store or watch UFC fights and have his "guy time". He loves that I come home to him (he's always waiting up for me) and tell him all the juicy details. I'm usually wet and ready to fuck! I'm practically dragging him upstairs to fuck after coming home from playing. He did come to LB's private play party in October. It was easier to convince him to go because there was less people and we could play in private in the medical room. I have begged him to come with me to public events. I would love to have him there. He's my Daddy and Master/Owner. I'd love to be playing with him instead of other Doms. I came home a few times after different events and told him how much I had wished it had been him flogging me or playing with me. I love to play with Daddy the most out of any Doms I have been with. I've been aching for him to come to a public bdsm event so we can play together and experience that together. We do have some issues also when it comes to sitting and our kids. We have one sitter for our son and our daughter isn't old enough yet to leave more than a few hours with sitting our son. We get limited overnights and Master often wants to spend those together alone playing and such. We had talked about maybe going to a libido lounge bdsm party last weekend but our sitter was sick and we didn't know what to do about our son. We can't bring him to events obviously and we don't trust hiring some stranger to sit him. So that is a dilemma we face when it comes to Master A coming to events also. Q: 2. Has Master A ever played with you in public? A: He has never been to a public event. He has gone to the Taboo Naughty but Nice sex show but that's not a bdsm event. LB's party was a private play party so it wasn't technically in public. We have done private type of play (spankings, fucking, tit flashes etc...) in public places together but not at somewhere like Rascal's or MVK or a bdsm type of event. Master and I were discussing weekend plans yesterday. There had been a possibility of going to a Sagacity event over on the Island. Daddy said "no" to going though. He was concerned as it's a all-night type of bdsm event and he wasn't sure about the safety and security with staying overnight there. He likes to have me home after events and know where I am. I also would be sleeping in a sleeping bag and that isn't good for my arthritis and neck/back problems. The ferries also only run til 9 pm so if there was a problem he couldn't come get me. I was disappointed but I understood Daddy's reasons and he is the Boss. I feel bad it didn't work out but I respect my Master's wishes. I was invited to Dirty Girls and wanted to go to Rascal's this weekend so I discussed it with Daddy. He told me to decide between the Dirty Girls and Rascal's. I could only go to one event. I am supposed to add that to my rules now. I am not allowed to go to more than one event on a weekend. It's way too difficult to deal with two late nights on the weekends and trying to come down from it all. I chose Rascal's for this weekend. I have never missed a Rascal's event since I started going that first time with Daemon. It's my personal favorite of all events that happen. I love to hang out and I really love the atmosphere there. I asked my friend, Doc if she would like to come with me to Rascal's as I didn't want to go alone. She agreed and we made plans. Then I tried to convince Master to come with me. I made arragements for sitting and then I told him what Doc/baby girl had wrote on my Fetlife wall: "Promise to wear a school girl outfit? LOL! Good luck Good luck Good luck! I'm starting to really look forward to it too Padme!" It was kind of funny how fast he answered "yes"! I couldn't believe it! I've been trying and trying and trying to get him to come to public events. He kept saying no until I told him what Doc had said. lol! She was able to convince him and change his mind. Master Anakin has a schoolgirl fetish. I saw a big smile on his face when I told him she would be there wearing her schoolgirl outfit and mentioned wearing mine that night for him too! He met Doc when we drove her home after the last Rascal's night. I know he thought she was pretty cute. He noticed her schoolgirl skirt that night and mentioned it a few times to me. Thank you Doc for helping me convince Master Anakin to come to Rascal's! I literally wanted to jump up and down when he told me he was coming with me! I was a really excited girl. Doc and I can be naughty schoolgirls that night and I KNOW that would drive poor Darth Vader wild! He had quite a hard-on last night when we talked about it and he demanded a blowjob. It was a big reason I didn't get to bed til after 11 pm. I am really excited about Rascal's and can't wait to pack my toy bag. I am really hoping that I can convince Master to play in public or at least the private area of Rascal's. I'm really happy to see Master so happy. I am trying not to have any expectations about Rascal's but I admit that is a bit hard. I'd love to be able to kiss Doc again or maybe even play with her. I would love to see her play with Master Anakin also if she was interested in that. It's been years since Master Anakin played with a woman other than me. I know she would make his fantasies cum true if she lifted her schoolgirl skirt and allowed him to spank her cute bottom! Ohhhhh...that is a hot fantasy! It makes me wet just thinking about it. It's been YEARS since I saw him spank another woman and he's a really great spanker. I feel bad that I have been the one to get all the playtime with other people through the years. Master Anakin often feels left out. I am so happy he is coming on Saturday and I get to experience his first public bdsm event with him! Yeah! :) .... Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Happy St. Patty's day today! We hope everyone enjoys the day! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala and Master Anakin

Being published in the Walrus Magazine!

We got some really big news this morning! I had been interviewed by Hal Niedzviecki last year for his blog. I had been really surprised last month when someone called and wanted an interview with me based on the one that I had done with him for his blog. I was extremely surprised when she told me she was from the Walrus magazine. She wanted to interview me! I was really blown away when she told me that my interview would be published in their magazine in an article they were putting up about blogging! I didn't want to jinx anything so I kept it to myself. I wasn't sure if it was really going to be published. Until this morning.... My friend, Doc came on MSN this morning and mentioned Walrus Magazine and me being on there! I knew right away what she was referring to. I looked up Walrus Magazine and there it was!! Here is the link for the article: The Other Porn Addiction It mentions: She calls herself padme, and she shows the world everything. Her blog, featuring posts replete with pictures and videos, leaves out nothing but faces, names, addresses, phone numbers, and social insurance numbers. padme lives in a suburban community in the Fraser Valley, not far from Vancouver. She often posts pictures of the snow-capped hills, lush foliage, and blue waterways of the Pacific Northwest. Her husband works full time. She stays home and takes care of the kids, aged seven and thirteen. padme is a bit lonely. She doesn’t have many close friends. In 2005, she started the blog as a way to branch out, find new pals, express herself. At first, she was reluctant: “I thought, ‘Who would read what I write? I’m not a very good writer.’” Soon, though, she was blogging methodically about the basics of suburban life: I just found out that Chuck E Cheese where we are going to have Skywalker’s birthday party had a pipe burst and they canceled his party on us…The woman on the phone didn’t seem to think it was a big deal but we have a ton of kids and people coming to the birthday later and now we have to try to find somewhere else. Also all the loot bags and cake and package was done through Chuck E Cheese. Now we have a lot of running around to do. Urg!! She also wrote about her health: The surgery went well…They are doing some tests on the polyp I had removed from my uterus during the D&C that they did on me. I am not sure yet if I will need more surgery or not for my fibroids. The uncertainty of it all has me feeling cranky. I have no patience and I want to start feeling better soon. And then there was this: The kids were back to school today and Master was back to work again after the holiday break. I was a bit worried I might be lonely today but I was glad to have the place back to myself again and I had also been given permission to use my Hitachi and masturbate this morning. It’s been weeks since I last had the chance for some private time with my favorite vibrator. These are the kinds of posts that have attracted more than 1.9 million people — 1,000 to 2,000 a day — to the blog padme calls Journey to the Darkside. In addition to her alone time with her Hitachi, she writes about spankings, elaborate fellatio sessions, and her need to be dominated by Master Anakin, the man she’s been, as she puts it, “married to for four years, living with for twelve years, and best friends with for eighteen years.” The tone of padme’s blog is as frank and unpretentious as you might expect from a suburban middle-class mom. She tells all in a pleasant, upbeat manner that belies the significance of the blog in her life: “I don’t drive, I don’t work,” she explains. “I’m a stay-at-home mom and I’m alone all day. It’s been a great way to connect to people.” The connection she describes is largely with a geographically dispersed group of men and women in similar “total power exchange relationships,” in which one person makes all the decisions. Among members of this community, padme is a brave explorer of alternative sexuality, a fellow practitioner of a distinct lifestyle. Keeping up the blog, though, requires her to maintain a wall around this compartment of her fragmented life. She doesn’t want her “real-life” friends to stumble across the blog, and yet she appreciates that the details it contains could allow her to be identified even by people who only know her casually. But she also believes that anyone visiting the site would be too embarrassed to expose her. As a result, only a few people in her daily life openly admit to knowing about Darkside. Much of her social existence happens online, in a state of partial anonymity. “There are a lot of lurkers, a lot of return visitors,” padme says of her readers. “People are curious. They want to know what we’re doing next.” She feeds off that curiosity. As more and more readers started visiting the site, her posts became more frequent and she began to experiment with explicit videos and photos. In return, the community shored up her emotional life, responding to her outpourings with everything from e-cards to offers of assistance: Thank you for all the comments and support during this last week. Southern Angel even did a lolcat just for me this week and it cheered me up a lot. I got a lot of e mails and e cards. I’m sorry I haven’t responded to them but I’ve been trying to recover from the surgery and not feeling too good…I want to be feeling better so I can start being more like a slave. Master’s been taking care of me and helping out a lot but I hate not having my structure. The chores list and rules help me to stay centered. I miss feeling like a slave. “It can definitely be addictive,” agrees padme. “I’ve tried to cut back a bit. But you get to 1.6 million readers, and it’s really hard to just walk away from that. I can’t even go a few days and I want to blog. ......... I got a phone call recently from someone who read my interview and wanted to interview me for a documentary they are doing about blogging. So that could be something that is happening in the future! It's really exciting to be published in a magazine and feeling a bit famous from it all! Very cool! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

420 Strokes for Q & A spanking!

It's been a really fun and relaxing weekend so far. It's been really wonderful to have some time with Master and be able to play. I received a very hard spanking on Friday. I had done a Q & A post and was going to receive one stroke for every question asked. We received almost 300 questions! Master picked out a variety of impliments that would be used. I posted about it on Friday. We had a special scene planned out and I was going to dress up in a schoolgirl outfit and we were going to do some role-playing. The kids went to school and Master came back with breakfast for us. We enjoyed it and talked a bit about the spanking coming to me. I was getting very nervous! He was going to do 300 strokes and also added another 20 which would be just from Master. He laid out the toys and I went to get ready. He also told me we would be video-taping the spanking. He set everything up. I got dressed into my schoolgirl skirt and top and pink heart panties. I also had my neon pink and black thigh-hi's. Master was pleased with which schoolgirl outfit I chose. I came down and saw the toys laying out and ready to be used. I am putting up a picture of what that looked like. Master called them "His weapons of ass destruction"! lol! I was getting VERY wet looking at them. The wooden paddle, Anakin's paddle, swede flogger, razor strop, crop, and His belt were all ready to go! I got warmed up with an OTK with the 50 strokes. Then I got bent over the end of the couch for the spanking. I had to count out all the strokes and that was difficult at times because I was struggling to stay still. Some strokes made me scream out. Master had made sure to turn up the music very loud to drown out the sounds of the spanking. The wooden paddle can especially echo loudly when being used. He told me at one point that he was adding another 100 strokes just to be a mean old man!! That was not fair but I couldn't complain. He's the boss and that's the way it goes. He wanted to make sure my ass really hurt and it was red and sore and was hard to sit down comfortably for the rest of the day. I put up a picture of the final result of all that attention on my ass! It felt like it was on fire!! Master came over at one point and got me to spread my legs and put his fingers into my pussy and started to tease me to the point that I was begging to cum. I had several orgasms from all the pain. I also got fucked up the ass! Mmm...it was a wonderful way to spend the afternoon. I enjoyed watching the movie that we made. It's always interesting to video tape the spankings. We also did some fun role-playing through the day which was neat. Friday night was movie and merlot night. We watched "W" which was really great. We didn't have sitting for Saturday so we spent the day shopping and also went out for dinner. Master got a new jacket which looks great on him! We watched the movie, The Story of O last night. LB gave me a copy of it for my birthday and I hadn't seen it before. It was SO erotic and HOT!! I recommend the movie to everyone! I was sooooo wet watching it. There was some great whipping scenes in it. I was craving the whip so I asked Master to take me upstairs afterwords and whip me. We had some very intense play on the darkside. Darth Vader whipped me to the point of blood and tears. I plan to write a blog post about our play soon. The night deserves a post about all that happened. I got to try Sake for the first time! Master picked me up some to try. I thought it was interesting but I have to admit that I prefer vodka. But it was neat to try and I could cross something else off my bucket list: #117 -Drink Sake for the first time Here are some more Q & A. This month is Q & A (question and answer) month and I have lots of questions to answer. These questions were from my special friend, notty girl. Thank you notty girl! I've been thinking about notty girl a lot. *smiles* Q: 1. What is your favorite toy - also your least favorite? A: my favorite toy is Master's belt. I have a belt fetish and I am constantly thinking about his belt and craving spankings with it. my least favorite is the cane and that is always the toy which is used for punishment. Q: 2. Have you ever had a BDSM moment where you felt things were farther then you could handle? A: Yes, I've had a few moments which felt like things were going farther than I could handle. Master knows me very well and how to take me to the edge but a few times he pushed very hard to work through some limits with me. A few times it felt like it had gone too far but then I realized that I really needed his pushing. The scary times of going too far are mostly when I play with a new play partner who doesn't know me very well and goes too far. I experienced this when playing with Jake. He went way too far and fast with me for the first time playing together. I will never play with him again. Q: 3. What is your favorite outfit to play in? A: my favorite outfit is my PVC skirt and sexy red corset. I've had a really positive reaction from others about the outfit and I always feel so sexy and ready for play in it! Q: 4. When do you feel most like Daddy's Girl? A: I feel most like Daddy's girl at bedtime. He will tuck me into bed and make sure I've brushed my teeth and done a final potty. Then he gives me my teddy bear and kisses me on the forehead and tells me to "sleep for Him. Dream of Him". He will sometimes tell me a bedtime story and some of them make me giggle like a little girl. He gets very Daddy like when he's putting me to bed. He puts my sleep mask on my eyes and makes sure that I am ready for sleep. I love it! Q: 5. What do you feel the difference is D/s vs. M/s? A: I think that D/s is about Domination and submission. Some people can have a D/s relationship but it's not M/s (Master and slave.) She may submit only in the bedroom or have some control. I think of M/s relationships as the ones where there is a lot of control in the relationship. Q: 6. What are the challenges you face in a poly relationship? A: There is always a challenge when it comes to inviting other people into your relationship. I struggle with the juggling of it all sometimes. Trying to make everyone happy can be very difficult. There is also the time issue. I have responsibilities with my kids and home life. I can't give the other people I'm in relationships with a lot of my time. The sexual stuff can be exciting and naughty but the emotional stuff can be very challenging. Feelings can get hurt and it can be very difficult going through break-ups with the different people that come into our relationship. It can be challenging with learning how to share. We've both had some jealousy issues at times and communication challenges during the difficult times of poly. Q: 7. Where on your body do you NOT take pain well? A: I don't take pain well on my feet. I hate having cold feet or any kind of feet pain. I also don't take any pain well around my neck around. I have arthritis and a bad injury there and can flare up and leave me in really bad pain. I also don't like any pain around my tummy area. Q: 8. If you were allowed to spank Anakin. Do you think you could, and what would you use? A: This question made me giggle. lol! I've never been allowed to spank Master Anakin. He has made it very clear that won't ever happen. I've tried to threaten him with a spanking a few times but he stops me in my tracks. I don't think he will ever let me do that. If I could, I'd love to give him a hand spanking. Q: 9. How often a week do you get to play? A: We usually play at least once but sometimes twice on the weekends. It depends on the sitting that we get and kid free time. We will try to play during the week but that often depends on the kids. It's way too difficult to play with them around so it has to be planned for times they are out of the house. We like to play at least once in a week though. We both really need it and start to get cranky with each other if we can't have that release. Q: 10. Have you ever gotten into trouble on purpose so you could get a spanking? A: I used to do that a lot to try to get spanked. I have found that I don't need to do that anymore though because I can just tell Master that I need a spanking. He gets upset when I am being a brat on purpose just to get spanked. He'd rather I just communicate it to him and get straight to the point. *smiles* :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Q &A spanking today!

TGIF! I was up early this morning counting up numbers. Holy smokes! I am going to have one heck of a spanking coming to me today! I did a blog post a few days ago with Q & A (Questions and Answers) and I asked people to ask me a question. In return it counted towards a hard spanking for me. One question counted towards one paddle with the Anakin's paddle. Master has changed the rules a bit. We didn't expect so many questions and he didn't think it would be fair to just spank me with the Anakin's paddle. He also wanted to make it a memorable and fun but hard type of spanking. So he decided that he will be using different impliments on me for the spanking. We both want to thank everyone who participated in this spanking fun! It meant a lot to me to hear from some people who asked lots and lots of questions. I'm a bit disappointed that a few of my closest friends though didn't ask any questions. It doesn't take much to ask me a question. I was hoping that everyone would jump into this opportunity and be a part of our spanking fun that is happening today. It surprised us a bit that most of the questions came from Fetlife. I must have some mean friends over there. lol! I got a total of 220 questions on Fetlife!! That's amazing! I got asked some really good questions also. Some of them have given me a lot to think about. Thank you! Master was following this closely and he also asked me lots of questions too! Some people had a lot of fun with it too! We got a total of 292 questions!! WOW! That's a lot of questions for me to answer! That's also a lot of spanks on my poor bottom! Master has rounded it off to 300 in total! I have decided to change it from Q&A week to Q&A month for March. There are way too many questions to answer and I want to make sure to put some thought into some of them. It gives me a lot to write about this month and I really appreciate the thought that went into the questions asked. The kids are in school and we have all day to play! We are planning a special scene for the spanking today. I will be dressing up in a schoolgirl outfit. I get to chose which one. I will be given an OTK to warm up my ass and then I will be bent over the couch for some of it and then taken upstairs to go over the pillow. Lots of pictures will be taken for everyone! We also plan to take some video of it also. We havn't video-taped our spanking fun in a very long time! I will be blogging and putting up pictures of it within the next few days. I'm squirming in my computer chair just thinking about it! Master has promised me it will be a very hard one and that I won't be sitting comfortably for a while! I can't wait! I feel like I need some stress release and needing the pain. I've been feeling very masochistic this week and also very wet. I hope that Master will let me cum lots today and I can get down on my knees and suck his cock. I miss Darth Vader! I will be getting 320 hard strokes on my ass: The toys which will be used are: (all strokes must be counted out or we start over) 50 hard strokes OTK to warm up my ass. 50 hard strokes with the riding crop to redden my ass 50 hard strokes with Master's belt 20 minutes corner time (with panties pulled down) 50 hard strokes with the razor strop 50 hard strokes with the swede flogger 50 hard strokes with the Anakin's padddle Then I will be receiving 20 hard strokes which will be with the new wooden paddle. These are to finish off the spanking and make sure my ass is sore and red and hopefully well marked and bruised. These are Master's special paddle strokes that are just from him. :) Yikes! I'm getting very nervous because I know that Master will be home soon and it will be time to start our spanking fun! It's going to be a fun Friday for us. :) I wanted to answer a few questions also to start Q&A: These were asked to me from Master Anakin... Q: 1. Who has given you the most memorable spanking? (not including Master) A: Daemon gave me my most memorable spanking. It was at the Halloween party at Rascal's. He was incredible and it was our best moment together in my opinion. He used his belt on me and he had me so wet. I can remember everything about our play together that night. It was memorable and incredible. I miss playing with Daemon a lot. Q: 2. What is the one thing you want to do with Master that W/we have never done before? A: I would love to try figging. I'm kind of scared to but I'd really love to experience that with you for the first time. Q: 3. Who would you like to be spanked by that has never spanked you before? A: I've got 3 lovely ladies that I would love to be spanked by. Jennifer from Libido Lounge, girlLi, and Doc. I hope one day I can have the chance to experience a spanking from each of them. *smiles* Q: 4. What would you like to do next off of your bucket list? A: I would love to go to the Vancouver Art Gallery. I have been trying to get people to go with me but no one has been too interested. I really want to go! I'd also love to have a threesome again or a foursome. *winks* Q: 5. What do you think we should do for our five year wedding anniversary next month? A: Whatever you wish, Master. I just hope it involves lots of spankings and orgasms and naughty fun! :) Q: 6. What is the funniest bdsm moment that you have ever had? A: Hmm...I've had a few really funny moments. I still laugh when I see the picture of our kitty who was attacking your rubber flogger at the time. She was just a kitten and kept interrupting our scene and you were getting so frustrated and I was giggling. It was so funny to see you try to swat away the kitty while trying to spank me. Meisha thought the toys were all for her and she could play with them. lol! Thank you for the questions, Master! I hope I will be having a visit from Darth Vader today! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Master's belt

Happy HNT! (Half-Nekkid Thursday) I hope you like this week's HNT photograph, featuring My padme's bottom reddened by Master's belt. Yes, she's in love with My belt or rather, with Me swinging it across her ass over and over and over again. I love it too. Click on the picture enlarge it and have a better look. Leave us a comment and let us know what you think. We always love to hear from our readers. Of course, be sure to ask padme some more questions in her Q&A post. You have until midnight Thursday and she's going to get one paddle for every question asked! Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the Force be with you. ~Anakin

Q & A for padme amidala

I've had a really relaxing lazy day today. Master told me I could take a day off from my chores and enjoy the day. I was given permission to use my Hitatchi and enjoyed some morning masturbation. I had many fantasies of a sexy woman, girlLi who I had fun with on Saturday night and who has been on my mind a lot lately. I had the biggest orgasm and then enjoyed a very long hot shower to relax. Thank you Master for giving me permission to cum! Mmm...it was a great way to start the week. There is nothing better than Monday morning masturbation. I have noticed a few blogs doing Q & A this month. (Questions and Answers) I realized that we have never really done anything like that at Journey to the Darkside. Master had a "Ask Anakin" series but hardly anyone asked him questions so he stopped doing the series. Would anyone be interested in Master doing that series again? We also want to do a Q & A week this week at Journey to the Darkside. I invite you to ask me some questions (about anything like bdsm or poly or whatever you are curious to ask me) and I will be responding in posts through the week with the answers to them. You can ask me a question here through comments or through my e-mail at shyanne.blog@gmail.com. We are going to give the readers a bit of a bonus for asking me questions. We want to add some encouragement so I can get lots of questions to respond to. I will be getting one paddle on my ass for every question that is asked up until Friday. This offer ends on Thursday at midnight and questions will be counted at that time. It will be given to me with the Anakin's paddle on Friday. Master is off work that day (for Skywalker's birthday plans) and we have plans to play. The paddling will be given that day and pictures will be taken of it for everyone to see. Hopefully this will get a few people to come out of the shadows and ask me a question. So feel free to ask away... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A fun night at MVK and a wonderful date with girlLi!

I did a blog post yesterday and mentioned some of the naughty fun that happened before I went to MVK (Metro Vancouver Kink). I went shopping and found a sexy pair of leather boots which I brought with me to wear last night. I have a pair of Fetish boots but they are very uncomfortable and hard to walk in. I had been looking for another pair for a while and yesterday found a sexy pair which fit me perfectly. I put up a picture of the boots today so you can see what they look like. I also was wearing a leather skirt also which I got from my friend, Katt. I get to cross that off my bucket list: #565 -Buy a pair of leather boots (to replace my fetish ones that are uncomfortable to wear) I looked through my bucket list and noticed that I should have crossed two items off my bucket list so I am going to today. I made homemade chocolate chip cookies last week. I hadn't done it in years and the family loved them. #391 -Make chocolate chip cookies from scratch again (havn't done this in years) I have also talked on the phone twice to girlLi when she was coming to pick me up for MVK. I can cross something else off my list because she was a blogger that I didn't know until recently. #261 -Talk to a blogger who I don't know on the phone Here are the details of my date with girlLi last night and my fun night at MVK: I wrote my blog post and then started to get ready for my fun evening out with girlLi and friends. I dyed my hair light blonde and made sure my outfit was packed and the toys were packed. I packed some rope, chain flogger, leather paddle, suede flogger and erotic feather. I wanted to surprise girlLi with giving her a birthday spanking and have a few different toys to chose from. I had a hot bath and shaved my pussy and got ready for my night out. Star Wars: A new Hope came on Spike TV and I watched it with Master while waiting for my date to arrive. I had picked out some beautiful orchids(I put up a picture today of them) for girlLi to surprise her for her birthday. I had also gotten her a card and Starbucks gift card. I wanted to make her night very special and memorable for her birthday. She arrived and I started to get butterflies in my tummy. She met my Daddy and he sent me on my way. I enjoyed the car ride to MVK. It is always fun to go to a bdsm event with friends. I really wanted to kiss girlLi or reach out and touch her but I was shy and very nervous. She looked beautiful and so sexy. We got to MVK early and I got a seat and was able to talk to girlLi for a bit before she went up to be a model for Professor Oni and his suspension demonstration. I really enjoyed the workshop. I've always wanted to try suspension but havn't been able to find someone to do that with. I found it fascinating and enjoyed Professor Oni demonstrating how he does suspension with different people. The play party started at 9 pm and I got dressed in the bathroom. I wore my red corset and fishnet stockings with the leather skirt and boots. I needed help with my red corset and girlLi helped me out. We were about to leave and we both looked at each other and reached out and kissed each other. I had been wanting to kiss her since she picked me up for the date and couldn't wait anymore. Mmm...she has the most soft and sensual lips and I really enjoy kissing her. We found a seat and started to watch some of the play which was already happening. My friend, Doc came over to us at one point and talked to us. Doc looked beautiful and I was glad to see her. I admit I wanted to give her a kiss but wasn't sure if that was ok so I didn't. She told me who she was sitting with and I admit that I got a bit worried. She told me she had met Mr. Spanks at MVK and was sitting with him and his wife. I knew the name right away from Fetlife. I have blocked and deleted 3 people from Fetlife and he is one of them. He contacted me about playing with him and his wife and I didn't think I was what he was looking for. He wanted me to play at his house with them and didn't seem to want to include my Daddy in any of it. There were several red flags for me and I found him very creepy. girlLi mentioned she also got a bit creeped out by him through his e-mails to her. I said "no" to Mr. Spanks and he continued to e-mail me to try to change my mind. Daddy looked at the e-mails and decided to block and delete him. I feel protective of Doc and a need to want to take care of her since we played at Rascal's together. I think of her as a good friend and wanted to look out for her. Doc seemed ok about him though but I still kept my eye on the table through the night. girlLi and I both watched Mr. Spanks giving Doc a spanking with his belt during some play. We both commented that the belt looked very wimpy. I know that I was not impressed with what I saw. Master Anakin is a belt expert. He's got a big black leather belt and he knows how to use it very well. He's got many years of experience. Doc seemed to enjoy the play though and had a big smile afterwords and was floating in subspace. They came over to us and Doc mentioned my belt fetish. I looked at Mr. Spanks and got creeped out by the look he gave me. I told him that I like my Daddy's belt. I do not have any interest in ever playing with him. girlLi and I did some touching and kissing and groping and making out. She is so soft and sexy and I couldn't keep my hands off of her. I buried my head in her tits and couldn't help myself with reaching out to grab them. Mmm...I was soooooo turned on by girlLi. She brought out some feelings that I have not felt in a very long time. I have played with other women and even made out with some but I felt a true connection with girlLi. We looked deep into each others eyes at one point and I felt chemistry between us and a connection. We both talked about our friendship and that is important to both of us. I can do casual play with a woman but it's not the same for me as when I play with a woman that I am friends with and am deeply attracted to. girlLi and I also have a lot in common. I feel like I can relate to her about many things. girlLi and I went up to Professor Oni at one point to check on a friend of hers. She was in the middle of a needle play scene and it was neat to see that being done. We were waiting for her friend to finish so we could start the birthday spanking scene but it was taking a while so we decided to go ahead on our own. We both went to the bathroom and then went out to the play area with our friend, Doc. I was excited that Doc was going to be playing with us too! :) I laid out the toys and then wanted to tie girlLi to the rack. I didn't have a clue what I was doing through. lol. I am used to being the one who is usually tied up. I had no idea how to tie knots or try to figure out how to do bondage with her. I had to get Doc to help me out. girlLi had her skirt off and was just wearing her cute panties which got pulled down right away. Doc and I warmed up her ass by giving her a hand spanking. At one point we were both spanking her. Doc was spanking one ass cheek and I was spanking the other! Fun times! *grins* Doc was a lot of fun to Top with. I enjoyed watching Doc spanking girlLi. Doc spanked girlLi with the chain flogger a bit. girlLi got a bit cheeky at times and got a few really hard ones from Doc. I had no idea that Doc could spank so hard! There were a few good bruises and marks from her spanks. I got my hand in the way at one point and accidently got it hit. I couldn't stop touching girlLi. I rubbed against her body and touched her all over. I used the leather paddle to give her some birthday spanks. At one point Mr. Spanks came over and interrupted the scene. I wasn't too impressed with that. You shouldn't talk to people during a scene and I got the feeling he might be trying to get in there with the birthday spanking. I was prepared to get involved if I had to because I didn't think girlLi would like that. I feel very protective when I am in my Top role. I have discovered a few new things about myself recently with Topping women. I want to make it a very soft and sensual experience for the bottom. I feel like I know how to give the bottom what they crave and need because I've been on the bottom so many times. I am also very aware of the person's responses to the play. I made sure to talk to girlLi a lot and make sure she was enjoying the spanking. She seemed to be really into it and asked for more. She sure is a spanking slut! *smiles* She didn't seem to get enough. I got the feeling she could have gone on for hours with the spanking. Doc left the scene at one time and I continued with Topping girlLi. I used the erotic feather on her body and I spanked her ass and gave a few play bites and rubbed her bottom and kissed it. I enjoyed watching her responses to what I was doing to her. I used the swede flogger to flog her very hard during several parts of the spanking. I really surprised myself with how hard I was flogging her. I had to step back and really get my arm into it. My arm is sore today from it! lol! She seemed to be really enjoying the flogging part. She asked for more and stuck her ass out to get more and more. I don't think that I am a Sadist because I don't get enjoyment out of hurting someone. The pleasure I get is knowing that the person I am Topping is enjoying the play and getting pleasure from it. I love the soft and sensual play but also giving the bottom what they are craving. I knew girlLi was craving a good beating on her ass and I tried very hard to give that to her. I was sweating by the time I was done flogging her. girlLi looked like she was in a deep subspace and feeling very floaty after. I am not happy unless I know that the bottom is happy. girlLi had a big smile and I could tell she was happy and in subspace. It was the first birthday spanking that I have ever given someone and something else I can cross off my bucket list: #416 -Give someone a birthday spanking Professor Oni and her friend came over to give her more birthday spanking with a wicked paddle after I was done. Holy smokes was her ass bruised and marked!! I don't remember the last time my ass marked like hers was. The bruises were purple and almost black. I rubbed her bruises and tried to make her feel good. I released her from the ropes and hugged her and tried to reassure her. I cleaned up the area and then got her some water and a chocolate chip cookie. We cuddled and I tried to provide aftercare for her. I really enjoyed seeing her glowing and happy. It gives me great pleasure when I know that the bottom is satisfied and happy and in subspace feeling good. I admit I was aching for a spanking myself after all the play and girlLi offered to maybe play and spank me but I felt that the night was about her and her birthday and I wanted her to enjoy the glow of subspace and enjoy the feeling. I also felt the aftercare was more important than me getting a spanking. I did tell her she has a rain check though to give me one sometime. I'd really love for her to spank me. *grins* I was VERY wet after our play. I was so extremely aroused and wet. My panties always seem to get soaked when I play with women. :) We decided to leave around midnight. We considered going out to the female strippers or going out dancing but it was getting a bit late and we were all hungry. Hopefully we can all go dancing sometime soon. I think that would be a lot of fun. I am so happy that I've found a special friend in girlLi. :) We went to McDonald's and girlLi treated me to a meal. We enjoyed some cuddles and she seemed to be very happy and glowing. I was so happy to know that she enjoyed her special birthday evening. I wanted to make it memorable for her. I really wanted to make her happy. I got dropped off and girlLi walked me to the door. Daddy was waiting up for me and I wanted to show girlLi his belt. She showed off her marks and bruises on her ass. She is quite the exhibitionist! I'm not sure if the neighbors saw but I didn't really care. I gave her a kiss goodbye and watched her drive away with a smile on my face. It's been a really long time since I went out on a date with a beautiful women who made me smile the way that girlLi did last night. It's great to feel a connection with another woman again and to know that I could make her birthday special for her. *smiles* girlLi....thank you for a really great evening and date. You were so much fun to play with and spank! You looked beautiful and I enjoyed watching you glowing and happy and enjoying your evening on our date. I hope I made your birthday very special for you. Thank you for your special friendship. You made me smile and feel happiness in my heart last night. You are a very special girl and I'm glad to be getting to know you. .... Daddy wanted to know all the details after girlLi left and I told him all about it while giving him a blowjob. I was so horny that I begged him for an orgasm which he was happy to give me. We fell asleep after 3 am. I was awake early this morning. I'm very tired but I've got the biggest smile on my face this morning. My force feels strong. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

MVK tonight and my date with girlLi!

I am SO excited right now and also a bit nervous and aroused. It's been a really great day so far and I know tonight is going to be really amazing! I've got a date with a beautiful birthday girl tonight! I am planning to go to MVK with my special friend, girlLi "notty girl". It's her birthday and I will be participating in a birthday spanking scene with her tonight! *big smiles* I packed my toy bag and included a few surprises. I also have a very special surprise to give to her when she picks me up tonight for our date. She will be meeting my Daddy. Hopefully I can meet her Daddy soon and then our Daddy's can meet each other. *smiles* I am going to a MVK workshop and then the play party. I can't wait to go out with the girl's tonight and see girlLi again and for a very memorable night at MVK. Leia is home this weekend and we took her to meet a friend at the Mall today. Skywalker went to sitting with his grandparents. Master and I went shopping and I found a very sexy pair of black leather Europian boots to wear tonight! That is on my bucket list so I'll be able to cross that off. I will cross that off in my next blog post and also have a picture of them to show everyone what they look like. Stay tuned for that! I also plan to blog about all the juicy details in the next day or two. *winks* Master and I had lunch at Tim Hortons and I picked up something for the birthday girl and then we came home for some alone time. I put on some lingerie and my "spank me" panties for Daddy. He used the new wooden paddle on my ass and also some hand spanking and then a few hard strokes with his belt on my bare bottom to finish off the spanking. I am putting up a picture that was taken about an hour ago. My bum is ouchies right now as I type this. You can see my brand in the picture that was given to me on Valentine's day from Master. It's healing very nice. I love to wear Master's marks. I will be wearing a few for tonight when I go to MVK. :) I am in subspace after given some nipple pain and the spanking and a huge g-spot orgasm. We also had some really great sex! I'm STILL horny though!!! My pussy is wet and I am SO excited about tonight.... I've got a date with a beautiful birthday girl and can't wait to give her a birthday spanking! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF! MVK and a date with a sexy woman tommorow night!

TGIF!! I am so glad it's Friday and the weekend. What a week! I have learned to avoid blogging during my period but I really need to be isolated for a few days when the hormones are out of control. I wound up lashing out at a few of my closest loved ones and I apologize for my behavior the last few days. I could really use a hard spanking for it. I was miserable to be around during this last week. I was still dealing with my break-up with Shiro and also dealing with the hormones. I was also very upset that my little sister is turning 30 years old and that I couldn't be there to celebrate with her. A combination of things lead up to a horrible day yesterday. I spent most of the day in tears and trying to push everyone away. Darkness clouded over me completely in a very serious depression. It was one of those days where you wish you would have stayed in bed. I bet I'm not the only slave who has a hard time submitting during their time of the month. My period makes me feel unsubmissive and my sex drive goes to zero. I honestly don't know how Master copes with me. He has to deal with two females on their periods now that Leia gets her right after mine. You can imagine the hormones going wild in the Skywalker house during two weeks of the month. lol! Leia and I have snapped at each other a few times this week and I know it's due to our hormones. She's turning 14 and she inherited my bad periods and moods. Master and I were both feeling disconnected and we didn't have the time to be able to talk about it until last night. I am so thankful that Master knows me so well after all these years. He was able to talk me through my emotions and calmed me down. He also was able to figure me out and why I was feeling so depressed and emotional. I havn't been sleeping well lately and had terrible insomnia. It wasn't a surprise when I fell asleep at 8 pm last night. I woke up in the middle of the night and got a drink of water and twittered and then came back to bed and watched Master sleep for a while. I felt a need deep inside of me. I wanted him so bad. I looked at the clock and it was 3 am though. Do I wake him up and tell him I need him and want to fuck him? Or do I let him sleep because he has to be up for work at 5 am. I slid my hand down the sheets and felt his boxers. I put my hand down his boxers and started to stimulate him. He started to wake up a bit and wondered what was going on. "I want you so bad, Master" was all I could say. He leaned over and kissed me and I started to touch his cock and noticed it was getting hard. I took off my nightgown and got naked and then cuddled up close to him and rubbed myself against him. He slid his hand between my legs and noticed I was wet. I told him that my period had ended and I really wanted to fuck him. I needed him more in that moment than ever. I needed him inside of me. The boxers came off and he stroked his cock getting it harder before getting on top and fucking me slow and steady. The sex was incredible! Slow passionate love-making to get us to become one. I felt lost in the time we spent making love. It wasn't rough. It was passionate and loving and I needed that so much. He came deep inside my pussy and we held each other for a minute before he withdrew from my pussy. We kissed and did a lot of cuddling before I fell asleep in his arms naked. I slept right through to my alarm after that. I woke up to a note from Master on the computer. It said: "Good morning, my sweet sleepless wife... I'm so glad for your insomnia sometimes. Thoughts of you will linger, my companion and comfort when I am away from you. Away, but never apart, never separate. We are the same beautiful, haunting dream. I love you. Husband and Master" I woke tired this morning but it was well worth the insomnia. I feel much better today that things are feeling good with Master and I. Nothing feels right with my world when Daddy and I are fighting and there is tension between us. I want to get our force back and feel the magic between us again. I hope we can find some time this weekend to play and connect more. ....... I am really looking forward to the weekend for several reasons. I've got a date! And ....it's a date with a woman! Woot! I don't remember the last time I went out on a date with a woman. It's been years. I almost forget what it's like. I'm not complaining though. I am excited and I think my date is beautiful and sexy and I am really looking forward to seeing her again. We are going to MVK (Metro Vancouver Kink) together tommorow night. I did some making out with girlLi "notty girl" at Rascal's and we've done a lot of flirting and there has been a lot of naughty possibilities with us and our Daddy's. I have really been enjoying getting to know girlLi. She's beautiful and sexy and a lot of fun to flirt with! She's made me smile a lot and I am looking forward to hopefully being able to play a bit with her tommorow night. It's her birthday and she is getting a birthday spanking from a few women and I'm also going to be participating! Woo hoo!! I am not sure which toy I'm going to use but I am thinking I'll probably do a hand spanking as that is tradition for the birthday spanking. Spanking women is a new thing for me. I spanked my friend, Doc at Rascal's 2 weeks ago and I know it felt fun and a really wonderful experience. I am looking forward to experiencing giving another spanking to a woman tommorow night! It's a different but neat experience to be on Top for a while and get to give the spanking rather than receive. *smiles* I'm sure I'll have lots to blog about! I am still trying to figure out what toys to pack in my bag and what to wear. Decisions...decisions. I'm not sure who I will see at MVK. I am going to the evening workshop (Suspension Bondage Workshop with Professor Oni) first and then the play party. I havn't spoken to Shiro since our break-up. So much for the "Let's be friends" after the break-up. It's typical but still sad that we couldn't maintain the friendship through our break-up. I am sure things might be awkward with Shiro for a while when I see him at bdsm events but I think we can be civil. I am not sure if I will be seeing Jake there but I've been forbidden contact with him so I don't plan to talk to him even if he's there. Well the sun is shining and I am feeling good for the first time in a while. I had a really great talk with my sister on the phone. I also talked to Shasta today and got to catch up with her which was wonderful. I have missed her and felt good to talk to her. I have a fun weekend cumming up and hopefully will be having lots of play and orgasms and some time with Darth Vader! Let the weekend begin.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - The unseen hand

Hello and Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone. We hope that you like this week's HNT image. I combined a photograph of padme's sexy, paddled bottom with another of Me holding our new solid wooden paddle. If you click on the image to enlarge it for a better look you'll clearly see that you are able to see through My hand and the paddle which have taken on a ghostly glow. This is how I wish My slave to feel, like Master is always and forever there, perhaps unseen like a ghost, but always present, watching her, watching over her. Please leave a comment and let us know what you think of this week's Photoshop image. We really enjoy hearing from you, our readers. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the Force be with you. ~Anakin

Friendship award

I was gifted with a friendship award from Bethie from Spanking Bethie. Thanks Bethie! :) “These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers.” The Rules to accepting this award: “Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award.” I agree with bethie that it is hard to find just 8 bloggers to give this award to. There are so many wonderful bloggers out there. Here are my 8: 1. Shasta Gibson from Stiletto Diaries 2. Doc from Reformations 3. Vie from Diary of a sex addict 4. Jennifer from Libido Events 5. Notty Girl from Confessions of a Notty Girl 6. lil girl and her Daddy from liljgrrl and Daddy 7. This girl from This girl's weblog 8. PK from New Beginnings These are all wonderful blogs written by the loveliest and nicest people you will ever know. I am glad to consider all of them my friends. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Weekend fun with the Skywalkers and playing on the darkside with Darth Vader!

Master gave me permission to come online this morning for a while and upload some of our pictures from the weekend and also do a blog post so I could share a few of them with everyone. What a weekend so far! I've had a blast and I feel completely submissive in my heart. I feel completely connected to Master again and focused on him and our family. It's felt wonderful and I want to hold onto this feeling. Master was off work on Friday and we spent a lot of the day playing and I had an orgasm. We were both horny and we couldn't wait to start playing on the darkside. I got some erotic spanking with his hand and a bit of his belt. It was all fun and I really enjoyed spending the day with him. The kids were getting out of school when he told me he had a surprise for me. He was sending me out to a movie with Leia and also shopping time with her. He told me that he wanted to do some shopping without me around. I headed out with Leia for most of the afternoon. We had some girl time together including going to see the movie, Twilight. WOW! It was a really great movie. I could see a lot of D/s elements in the film. Leia and I both really enjoyed the movie and talked a lot about it. I got her a Twilight movie poster this weekend because I know how much she enjoyed it. Apparently she would like to find a guy like Edward. Edward is a vampire in the movie. lol! I think she is a bit like her Mom and likes boys who are a bit dark. I got to cross something off my bucket list too: #593 -Watch the movie, Twilight We did some shopping for clothes which is Leia's favorite thing to do ever! lol! What teen girl doesn't like to go shopping for new clothes? I enjoyed spoiling her. I also got myself a new pair of spandex type of black pants. They are nice and tight and show off my figure. I have lost a bit of weight lately and felt great to be in a size large instead of extra large. Leia and I enjoyed some Starbucks and some nice girl time together. I really enjoyed my time with her. I came home and we watched a bit of TV. Leia left go to to her Dad's and Skywalker got put to bed. Master told me there was something waiting for me on our bed and to go look. He told me he had special plans for me. I was curious of course and couldn't wait to go see what he bought. I saw a thick wooden paddle waiting for me on our bed. I went over to investigate. I was a bit surprised by how thick and heavy it was. We have a leather paddle and the Anakin's paddle but nothing like that. My bottom hurt just looking at it. I felt myself squirming a bit waiting for him to come into our room. He brought some drinks and food and he laid out a few toys and plugged in the Hitatchi. He lit some candles and put on some porn. He picked out the lingerie for me to put on for him. I got it from my friend, Katt. It's a very sexy tight piece. I was sitting on the bed and starting to get extremely horny and also nervous about the paddling. He told me that he would be testing it out and to get ready for it. He also went and got a little bag and gave it to me. Inside of it was a brand new collar. Thank you Master! I was so surprised and put it around my neck right away. I put up a picture of the paddle and also new collar around my neck. We took lots of pictures on Friday night. Click to enlarge the pictures I put up today if you would like a larger view of them. He told me to put in a butt plug up my ass and then go downstairs and bend over our couch. He picked up the new paddle and I watched him walk away and felt myself getting very aroused and also nervous. I had my Valentine's day panties on and I put the butt plug up my ass and went downstairs. He was waiting for me. I was bent over and he started with his hand to warm up my ass before using the new paddle. He did it 10 strokes at a time. He would make me count them out and then we would get to 10/20/30/40/50 and I'd be allowed to rub my ass to try to make it feel better. Ouchies!! That wooden paddle hurt a heck of a lot worse than the Anakin's paddle. My ass felt like it was on fire!! My pussy was VERY wet though. I was close to tears by the time we got to 50 strokes with the new paddle. Master told me that he bought it from Value Village and it only cost $1.99. Wow! That is one heavy sturdy type of paddle for that cost! What a find! I was told that he will be using the paddle for play but also punishment too. I know how much it can make my ass hurt. I know my ass felt so extremely swollen and red and like it was burning after he was done with me. It was also very bruised. I still have a few bruises today from Friday night's play. He made sure to put a band-aid over my branding so it was protected during the paddling. It's still healing from the brand he gave me two weeks ago on Valentine's day. We went upstairs and he took a few pictures of the marks and bruises. He also kept pushing the butt plug hard up my ass. He told me he was going to fuck my ass and to get ready for it. I got pushed hard on the bed and I turned around and saw him stroking his cock to get it hard and ready. He used the new lube from Woman's ware. The panties were pulled off and the butt plug came out and got replaced by his hard cock. It was one of the hardest ass fuckings I have ever received. I'm not sure I even have the words to describe how rough the play was. He pulled my hair hard and put his hand around me to squeeze my nipple while his cock rode my ass. He told me to "shut up bitch" a few times that I tried to moan out. He scratched my back and ass which sent me through the roof. I felt the deepest kind of subspace during the ass fucking. There was a lot of really rough play during the anal sex. I also came very hard during it. I can't seem to cum very well when he fucks my pussy but I can cum so big during anal sex. "Cum for me, you fucking bitch" he growled at me while his cock was deep in my ass. I just remember that orgasm seemed to go on and on and on. The waves of the orgasm went through my body and into my head and I could feel the room spinning when I tried to go clean up afterwords in the bathroom. I could barely stand. Darth Vader gave me a very intense look after he had fucked my ass hard. We both love to play on the darkside and I love when the sex gets so rough. I cuddled up to Master for a while and then was told that I was going to cum again. I got naked for him. He got the clothespins and put them on my nipples. Then he got the Hitatchi and turned it on and put it against my clit. He made me masturbate while he squeezed the clothespins. My nipples were squeezed so extremely hard until I came hard again for him. That one rocked my world to the point that I couldn't move for several minutes. I was breathing hard and my heart was pumping so fast. He stroked my hair and told me "good girl" several times and reassured me and talked to me like a Daddy does. I don't remember falling asleep. I laid beside him feeling extremely submissive and peaceful and knowing who I belong to. It was a wonderful way to feel at the end of the day. We didn't have sitting yesterday for Skywalker because my MIL is sick. So we decided to head out to Science World for the afternoon. We drove to Metrotown and had lunch at the Food Fair before going on the skytrain down to Science World. It was a blast! I havn't been there since Skywalker was a baby. Skywalker really enjoyed it. They had a Lego Land exhibit there which was very cool. I can cross something else off my bucket list: #366 -Go back to Science World again (havn't gone since Skywalker was a baby) We walked around False Creek outside of Science World. The area has changed a lot since Expo 86. They have two playgrounds there which Skywalker enjoyed playing in. We went to Metrotown after for some shopping. Master picked up a brand new 24 inch LCD widescreen computer monitor at Future Shop. Our old one broke down and we wanted to replace it and also upgrade from our other one we had which was 19 inches. I could tell that Master was very excited to go home and set it up! I picked up a very expensive bottle of wine called Quatrain by Mission Hill winery. It was recommended to me from the Wine Store at Metrotown. I picked up two bottles as they were having a promotion going. I got a very fancy wine glass worth $30 because I bought two bottles. It was gourmet and very delicious! I've never tasted such a fine wine before. It tasted incredible and it was one of the most expensive bottles of wine that I have ever bought before. We went to Poster World and a few other places including Cinnzeo. Master and I can't help but pick one up when we are at Metrotown. Mmmm....yummy, yummy, yummy! We also picked up chocolate at Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory which was also extremely yummy! The diet went flying out the window yesterday but it was well worth it! lol! Mmmm...my tummy was very happy with all the yummy foods and snacks and drinks. We came home and Master set up the computer monitor while I sipped on my wine and enjoyed a bath with Lush. Then we watched the movie, Mirrors when Skywalker went to bed. It was freaky!! We both had a laugh after about being nervous about going to the bathroom where there are a lot of mirrors. I wanted to cover them up. It's a very creepy type of movie. We had some great sex and I got to have a few more orgasms before bed. I woke up this morning to my period starting. I am sure glad it waited until this morning so I could have all the naughty fun this weekend! Master spoiled me with breakfast this morning. He's been spoiling me a lot lately and I'm a very lucky slave girl. :) I've got a very busy day with a few chores that I want to get done including a big cleaning of my kitchen. My force feels strong and flows through Master. I felt so happy to be reconnected with him and feeling our force again. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala