Of Life and Death

I hope the dark trees and bright sunshine in shades of black and white in this picture I took can somehow express the many emotions one can feel at a loss this close. Is it a sad picture, is it not; is it spring, or or fall; is it hopeful, or hopeless; is the sun setting or rising? I'm listening to New York Minute by the Eagles. As Don Henley says, this is a song about appreciating what you have. I hope that I now do. And I strongly suggest you do as well. Hold the ones you love; hold them, and love them, because one day you wont have that chance anymore. This is a song about how "Everything can change in a New York Minute." And so it has. "One day they're here, the next they're gone." I wanted to thank everyone on behalf of My padme for their many kind words and expressions of sympathy. I'm doing all I can to support her in her time of need; dealing with my own emotions as well, knowing full well I'll be losing my own parents in the not too distant future. Life is a gift, not a promise. Life is a journey with no certain destination, but with a certain inevitability. Looking back at the family photos from so long ago up to the latest photos of padme's father, I'm struck as to how long a life can seem, and at the same time, how brief, reduced to photographs and memories and momentos found along the way. How much more I feel I should have appreciated him now that I no longer can; just my feelings here, not anyone elses. A man larger than life, for without him, there would be no padme, the love of my life. I am forever in his debt for that alone. The most amazing thing to me right now in this darkness is that life somehow continues; the most absurdly mundane needs tug at us; we must eat, care for children, console each other, and in padme's case, create an appropriate send off for this great man. We mourn, but we shall, some day, continue. Anakin

Very sad family news today for the Skywalker's

Today has been one of the worst days of my life and I'm sitting here in shock and very, very, very upset. My Dad passed away at around 3 pm today...just over 3 hours ago. I can't stop shaking. I don't even have the words right now to describe the emotions inside of me. My Dad passed away from a massive heart attack. It's been a very upsetting day for my family. My kids have been crying and very upset. I had to be the one to tell my Grandma and she was very shaken up. This came very suddenly and there was no notice or goodbyes. He went into the hospital and then had a massive heart attack and was gone. I got the call from my sister. My sister is on her way down here so we can make arrangements. There is so much right now going through my head. My Dad is gone....he's really gone!!!!!!!!! OMG!! I just don't have the words right now......I want to start crying every time I think about it. He's gone...he's really gone!!!!! My relationship was complicated with my Dad but we had been working towards improving our relationship lately. Our last phone call was about the death of his sister's and I know that affected him greatly. I feel a lot of loss for myself, my kids, my siblings, even my mother...and his family also. They've lost 3 now in their family all in a close amount of time. I will not be blogging for a few days while we make arrangements and while I sort out of my emotions and all the pain that I am feeling in my heart right now...I'm in complete shock. I just can't stop shaking. ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Friday night spanking!

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I've got a brand spanking new HNT picture this week!! It was taken on Friday night when I had some time on the darkside with Darth Vader! We had some time to play and he decided to give me a OTK spanking and then use His belt and homemade whip on my poor bottom. Boy he can spank me hard!! My poor ass was sore and very red when he was done with it. He also made sure to hit my sit spot very hard so I could feel some soreness for a while. It really hurt to sit down and I could feel it the next day! Ouchies! Click to enlarge picture if you want to take a better look at the picture. I had taken a hot bath and got dressed up in some sexy black lingerie and pink heart panties. I was told to get over His knee first and he used his hand to spank my bum and get it nice and red. I was then ordered over the pillow at the end of the bed for more spanking. He went over to his pants laying on the ground. I heard that familiar sound of the belt coming out of the loops and the jingle of it in his hand. I was told to hold position and he started to strap my ass. I wiggled it a few times and got a "hold still, bitch!" from Darth Vader. He had an angry tone while he used His belt on me. He lectured me a bit about some naughty behavior that I had done at the Cloverdale Rodeo. We had a minor spat and I walked away from Him in anger. He didn't like my attitude and He wanted to make sure I got punished for it. I didn't think I could take anymore and was relieved when he paused briefly. I heard him taking out another toy but didn't know which one. I then felt it hard across my bottom! It was the homewhip whip. Ouch! That toy hurts and I got some hard strokes to remind me of my place. Then I heard Him pause briefly and took a few pictures including this one that we are sharing for HNT this week. We had the most incredible sex afterwords. I was soaking wet after the spanking. He took my panties off and fingered me a bit and then entered me while I was still at the end of the bed. He rode me while pulling on my hair and showed me His complete Dominance while we fucked. Harsh whispers in my ear about whipping me more and how much it turned Him on to hurt me. We were both panting by the time we were finished fucking and I turned around and held him afterwords. Mmmm...a very special night and felt fantastic!! Our force was strong and we both felt reconnected and fell asleep in each other's arms naked. ..... I hope everyone enjoyed our HNT picture this week! Please leave us a comment. We always love to hear from you and appreciate the comments a lot. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in the HNT series! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A relaxing and fun long weekend!

It's been a really nice long weekend for the Victoria Day long weekend here in B.C. I have been able to catch up on my sleep and have some family fun and also playtime with Darth Vader too! We went to the Cloverdale Rodeo on Friday. Saturday was our overnight and no kids. We went to the casino and I won the Jackpot on the 2 cent slot machine. I won $230 at the casino! Woot! That was a really neat feeling. I put $20 in the machine and out came $230. It paid for our buffet lunch and also a new BBQ for the family and other things. We went out to the movies on Saturday also. We saw the new Star Trek movie! It was really great. I'm not a Trekkie but I thought it was a very cool movie. We came back home and ordered some pizza and had a few drinks and then decided to start playtime early around 8 pm. It gave us plenty of time for playing. There was a lot of spanking fun and plenty of orgasms too! We played for about 5 hours before finally crashing together naked. I had a very solid sleep and enjoyed a nice breakfast with Master before we got Skywalker back from sitting. We searched for a BBQ yesterday and got a great deal on one at Canadian Tire. We set it up and was able to have a very yummy BBQ dinner last night with the kids. Leia came home and was able to join us. We enjoyed some family time and also a hot bath with a bath bomb from Escents that I bought on Friday. Today is a holiday and Master and the kids are both home. We've been catching up on some projects and also on computer stuff too. Master Anakin joined Twitter!! Yeah! I was so excited when he finally agreed to join. He's on Fetlife and now he's on twitter too! You can follow his updates by adding him as "AnakinDarth" if you have twitter. I am really excited to have him on Twitter. :) Master is off from work tommorow too. He took some extra time off to spend with me. We've been cleaning up our basement which is starting to really look great. We wanted to create a family area to be able to hang out during the summer months when it's cool down there. Also Leia wants a place to hang out with her teenage buddies. I can't wait til it's all complete! I love long weekends like this. Quiet and relaxing but yet productive and fun!! I've enjoyed many orgasms and lots of spanking play and have several bruises on my bottom as a reminder. I've also enjoyed family time and time with Master also. It's a great combination which adds up to a very nice long weekend! My force feels strong. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A fun Victoria day long weekend!

I've had a really fun long weekend so far. I wanted to do a quick blog post and put up a few pictures from the Cloverdale Rodeo yesterday! We had a family fun day eating mini donuts and petting the animals and the kids went on rides and played games there. It was so much family fun! We've been spending a lot of family time with the kids and they were both really excited about the Cloverdale Rodeo. We've been taking them every year since they were both toddlers. On Thursday we took them out to Swiss Chalet for dinner. I have been wanting to take them there for a while and we finally got the chance. We've always had take-out from Swiss Chalet but this time we brought the family and ate at the restaurant. I can cross something off my bucket list! #467 -Go for a family dinner to Swiss Chalet I was going through my bucket list and saw one that I forgot to cross off. I got my passport renewed recently and had put that on my bucket list to encourage me to get it done. I can cross off: #386 -Get my passport renewed I'm really glad that I got it renewed because there are some really big possible travel plans for Christmas! We are currently having discussions with my sister and her husband about all going away this Christmas somewhere warm and tropical! I don't want to say too much though as it's in the planning phase right now. I'm sure hoping it works out though! I would be able to cross several more things off my bucket list if it all works out! There are a few really big things that are happening in my life at the moment. I don't want to write about it yet because many of them are only possibilities. I try to keep my expectations low so I don't get too disappointed if it doesn't work out. 2009 is starting to look like a really big year for me! It's been an incredible journey and I have a lot to look forward to. There are some really wonderful new things happening and a new and improved padme amidala! .... Master is still in bed and it's almost 9:30 am. I am really excited about today! We have an overnight tonight and no kids for 24 hours. We drop Skywalker off at 12 noon and we don't have to pick him up until 12 noon tomorrow! Leia is at her Dad's this weekend. So that means we have the time to play and have some fun on the darkside hopefully! Yeah! We had arranged sitting because we had plans to see the new Terminator movie but it hasn't come out yet. It comes out next week! We have discussed possibly seeing the new Star Trek movie though and a nice dinner out somewhere. That sounds great to me. We would come home and bring out the toys and have lots of private time to play together. Last night was a fun night on the darkside too! We had some really incredible sex after I got spanked. I got an OTK and also some time with his homemade whip and belt. My ass was very red and sore! We took a few pictures but Master still needs to upload those. I might put up a picture if anyone is interested in seeing it? *smiles* Master is off until Wednesday. He took 5 days off this long weekend to spend extra time together. I am so lucky to have so much time with him. I'm enjoying it all and really glad to reconnect and bring us closer together. I am so grateful for Master Anakin and our love. He makes me very happy! I have been really spoiled the last while. I had a terrific Mother's day last weekend and have received some really neat gifts. I've got a package arriving today from our online store but I don't know what it is. It is one of my mother's day gifts! I am so curious to know what it is. Thanks Master! Our force feels strong and that makes me so happy! :) I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend! May the force be with you all!! padme amidala

Happy HNT -- Pretty pink lace panties

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! Master Anakin took this picture of me and I wanted to share it with everyone for HNT this week. I was wearing his white dress shirt and a pair of pink lace panties that show off my ass really well. I also had some innocent white thigh-hi's to go with the sexy look. I was showing off my ass to Master when he took this picture. I look like I'm waiting for Master to come over and spank my ass and make my bum as pink as my panties!! :) I love the lighting of this picture. I think it's a very sexy picture. I love those pink lace panties. They show off my ass nicely and are very pretty! Please leave us a comment on our HNT picture. We always love to hear from you! Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A new and improved padme amidala!

I havn't been on the computer much lately. I've been focusing a lot more on myself and my family. I can honestly say that for the first time in a while...there is no drama in my life! It feels fucking great! I did have a bit of family drama last week but things have calmed down. I've really enjoyed taking a break from the poly for a while. I realized recently how much the poly had drained me and given me little energy for other things. I have been exercising a lot more and eating better and trying to stay on top of my chores. I am starting to notice some results and so is Master. Master told me that my back and ass are starting to firm up and that he's noticed a change in my energy levels and also with giving him attention and my focus. I have been feeling very submissive lately. He mentioned that we have been like a bunch of newleyweds again. We've been making out and having a great sex life and talking a lot more. It's been nice to talk about other things that are not poly related. I know that all my different relationships the last year wore me out. I was ready for a break. It's been also nice to have a break from the local bdsm community as well. I've noticed that my anxiety has calmed down and I feel like a new and improved padme amidala! I realized recently that I had to let go of the past. I was still living in the past and couldn't seem to let some of my ex's go. I was haunted by memories and my feelings that wouldn't go away. I was also dealing with a broken heart recently when I fell for a woman who did not feel the same way about me that I did about her. I realized that the poly just wasn't working. I feel so much happier with the poly on a break. I'm not sure that Master and I will go back to it. We have both noticed that the focus is on each other and we are both feeling a lot better about things. We have reconnected and grown together and I am a much happier person because of it. Master is taking some extra time off during the Victoria Day long weekend coming up! We plan to take the family to the Cloverdale Rodeo. They are really excited! I always love going. It's going to be a lot of fun. There is the Star Trek movie that Master really wants to see. There is also the new Terminator movie coming out too which I really want to see! We also got an overnight for Saturday night and have no kids for 24 hours! Woot! Hopefully there will be a lot of orgasms and play time on the darkside this long weekend! We put up a poll on our sidebar. We are wondering if you are more of a Trekkie than into Star Wars? Or do you prefer Star Wars? Please let us know! Do you plan to see the new Star Trek movie? I was disappointed in the Vancouver Canucks last night. Master and I both watched the game. Boo!! It's all over for the local boys. No Stanley Cup this year. Oh well! Maybe next year. I wanted to do a quick blog post before starting on my chores list. I want to get the place cleaned for the long weekend! I don't want to disappoint Darth Vader. We all know what happens when he is displeased. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Sexy blogger award

I was tagged for the Sexy Blogger Award from this girl and also viemoira. Thanks for tagging me! It works like this: you need to say five sexy things about yourself and then pick 4 other people to pass it on to. :) 5 sexy things about me: 1. my ass - I have been told by countless people that I have a sexy ass. I've shared plenty of pictures of it too with Journey to the Darkside. Master Anakin calls my ass "spankable" and he enjoys it very much. I do a lot of walking to keep my ass looking firm and sexy. :) 2. my tits - I have gotten a lot of compliments on my tits from many different people. I've also shared many pictures on the blog of my tits. Many of them were different HNT pictures we have shared. I have flashed my tits all over Vancouver also and taken pictures of it with padme's public flashes. *smiles* 3. my legs - I have been getting compliments about my legs since I was a teen. I've always been pretty athletic and kept my legs in good shape. I love to show them off with wearing sexy thigh-hi's or stockings. I think I have very sexy legs! 4. my lower back - I think my lower back is very sexy now that I have a lower back tattoo to show off. It's a beautiful one that I got done in Toronto last year and my best bud, Shasta designed it. I am very proud of it and love to show it off! It makes my lower back look very sexy! *winks* 5. my eyes - I have green eyes and I can be shy but also flirtaous with my eyes. Master Anakin has told me many times that he enjoys looking right into my eyes and finds them sexy. I am not going to tag anyone as I know this award has gone around the blogs. Feel free to use this on your blog if you havn't done it already. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A Friday night paddling with the Anakin's paddle

Master is running an errand and I wanted to put up a picture that was taken last night. It's been a while since we shared a paddling picture and this one shows off the results of some attention with the Anakin's paddle last night!! I was really glad to have some play time with Darth Vader on the darkside last night. I think we both needed it. It's been a while since we had a chance to play and I was craving some pain and pleasure. Darth was happy to give me a little of both. I had a hot bath and enjoyed some movie & merlot time with Master cuddling on the couch. We watched the new Punisher movie. I didn't really like it. I found it too graphic and a boring type of typical plot. I was told that we would be playing in our basement. I got dressed up in some sexy black lingerie and put on my heart panties for Master. He grabbed a few toys before we headed downstairs. I was surprised to notice the Anakin's paddle with the toys. We havn't played with that toy in a while. We have a harder wooden paddle which he prefers now. I was told that he missed the Anakin's paddle though and wanted to paddle me with it. I was bent over a chair and given some hand spanking to warm up my bottom. Then I got the Anakin's paddle and even a few with his belt. Then I was ordered upstairs and he grabbed the camera to take with us so he could take a few pictures of my bum. It was nicely sore and I was ready for some playtime with him. The Anakin's paddle is one of the first paddles that we had. Master did the work on it himself and it's one of our most unique ones. It doesn't take too many strokes with the paddle to get it nicely sore and red. You can see me holding the Anakin's paddle and my panties pulled down and red bottom. You can also see how well my branding (given to me on Valentine's day) is healing. You also get a glimpse of my lower back tattoo also in the picture. I gave Master a blowjob afterwords which made him a very happy Master. He forced my head right onto his cock and made me suck his cock until he came all over my face. Then I was given a few slaps and told to grab my Hitatchi. He put clothespins on my nipples which he played with a lot to get them sore. And I used the Hitatchi to masturbate while he played with the clothespins on my nipples. Mmmmm...pain and pleasure all at once. It didn't take me long to explode in a huge orgasm after he gave me permission and ordered me to cum for him. I fell asleep naked in his arms and had a really nice solid sleep. This morning we ran errands but we plan to go on a picnic with Skywalker this afternoon. It's a beautiful sunny spring day here in Vancouver, BC. We are not sure of what park we are going to for our picnic. Leia is away on her band trip this weekend. She'll be back in time for Mother's Day tommorow and we have a family dinner planned for that. I'd like to wish everyone a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! My mother's day weekend has been wonderful so far. I am hoping that I can have some more spanking fun tonight with Darth Vader! I love when he shows me the power of the darkside. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Go Canucks Go!!

Yesterday was a bit of a crazy day so we didn't get a chance to put up our HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) picture for the week. I was looking through our archives for one to put up and saw this one and it seems appropriate for what time of year it is. It is hockey playoffs and there is Canucks fever happening in Vancouver for the Vancouver Canucks!! Master A and I are not huge hockey fans but we enjoy watching and supporting our team during the playoffs. Of course watching Roberto Luongo is always a treat too! He's the Vancouver Canucks goalie and I think he's very sexy and cute! *winks* This picture makes me giggle a lot. Master Anakin photoshopped the picture to make it look like I was naked on the ice during a hockey game. I am only holding a white towel which supports the Canucks. Take a look (you can enlarge the picture to get a better look) at the ref!! LOL!! He's got quite the look on his face when he spots me on the ice. Perhaps I need to go to the penalty box and get a spanking from him. What do you think? Go Canucks Go! This week's HNT picture is in support of our home team. I am hoping that they will make it to the Stanley cup this year. I am wishing them all the support that I can. I hope everyone enjoys our HNT picture this week. Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think! Please check out Os if you are interested in participating in the HNT series! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Ready for a spanking

I was looking through pictures today and saw this one which was taken a few weeks ago. I had meant to put it up on the blog but didn't get the chance. I had pissed Darth Vader off and was ordered upstairs to our bedroom and told to get over the pillow at the end of the bed and wait for a punishment spanking. I lifted up my nightgown and pulled down my panties and waited for him to come upstairs and give me what I deserved...a nice hard punishment spanking on my bare bottom. He likes to make me wait in this position when it is time for a punishment spanking. My mind spins thinking about what is about to come. Wondering if he is going to use his belt on me. Or will he use that hard wooden paddle on my poor ass? Or will I get the dreaded cane? Will he punish me hard and then put me in the corner? Or will he punish me to tears? Will he lecture me as he punishes me? What will he do? I hear him walking up the stairs and know what is coming and try to prepare for it. I know that when Darth Vader is mad that I am really gonna get it. He's going to make sure I pay for breaking the rules. That I will learn my lesson. Master gave me a quick OTK spanking this morning and it's been all I can think about all day. We didn't have a chance to play over the weekend and I'm aching for a hard spanking from him. I want to be spanked and fucked hard. He gave me permission to use the Hitatchi this morning to masturbate and think about it. I was so horny thinking about him spanking me. I am ready for a spanking...... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy Star Wars day!

Happy Star Wars day today! May the 4th (force) be with you! I will have to celebrate by putting in a Star Wars movie on tonight. I hope my mom won't mind. lol. I don't think she is a very big fan but I hope she understands if I put on one of the movies to celebrate Star Wars day today. It's been a very quiet day and I'm gearing up for my mom's visit later. I am feeling a bit torn about her visit today. I wish that things were not so complicated between us. It's not like I havn't tried to make things better with my mom and I. It just seems like we are on different planets and I have a very hard time understanding my mom and the choices she has made in her life. I havn't had much motivation for blogging lately. I have hardly been on the computer. Perhaps it's blogger burn-out. This is post #1,246. That's a lot of posts! We are coming up to our 4 year blogging anniversary this summer. I almost feel like my life is pretty boring lately and there isn't much to blog about. There is no more drama now that the poly is on hiatus in my relationship with Master. I barely go on Fetlife anymore so there isn't much drama happening as much there. I am not going to any of the local bdsm events lately also so there isn't as much excitement going on with that. My life is actually pretty boring lately but I think that's perhaps a really good thing. I feel at peace with my life for the first time in months. I'm a bit worried about my blogging suffering a bit because of the poly being on hiatus and also a hiatus from local events. There isn't any wild adventures or different people to blog about. My weekend was very uneventful although it was really relaxing. Master and I did have a quick fuck here and there but it's not really something most people probably want to hear about. We didn't get a chance to play so I don't have any spanking reports to tell you about also. I am really not sure what to blog about right now. I think that's probably why my blogging motivation is suffering right now. I had a really good talk on the phone with my best bud, Shasta today. I am so grateful for our friendship in my life. I feel like she is the one friend who knows me, accepts me for who I am and has been there for me through the years. I really enjoyed our talk today. We have been friends for almost 4 years and I am so lucky to have her in my life! I enjoy our phone calls a lot and am looking forward to seeing her again hopefully later this year. I feel good about the decision to put our poly on hiatus for right now. It's amazing how peaceful my life has suddenly gotten since certain people have been removed from my life. I am going to have the time to invest into my kids and Master and also other opportunities this summer. I'm hoping my passport will arrive and can discuss some possible travel plans this summer with Master and our kids. I also am starting to think about the future and the many possibilities that are out there. My force feels strong and I am very grateful for the love and support of my family and friends and people who are in my life. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A family beach day at White Rock

I havn't been in the mood to blog lately but I wanted to get a few pictures up this morning and also update the blog about a few things that have been going on in my life recently. It was a very sad week for my family. I found out that I lost two of my Aunts this week within one day of one another. One of my Aunts was in her 50's and it was unexpected. The other Aunt was older and in very poor health. My Dad was very upset about it. I admit that it made me feel very sad. I had a lot of childhood memories with my one Aunt. I feel bad for my Dad and his family. I'm also kind of curious to know what will happen now that she has passed on. She has a very large estate worth millions of dollars. She has properties across Canada and lots and lots of money. My Dad is going to be inheriting a lot of money and will be a very rich man. Life is ironic. My mom cleaned him out during their divorce and now she is broke and he is about to become a very rich man. .... It seems like I havn't had any luck at the poly dance. We have been doing the poly dance (having an open relationship) since June 1997 and I have no success stories to share with you. I will be honest that I am not sure that I have the strength to do it anymore. I don't really want to blog about what happened recently but it soured my feelings a lot for poly. It is just one more heartache on top of all the other ones through the years. My heart got hurt again recently and I really should know better after all these years. I should have seen the red flags. I feel like I am a failure at doing the poly. It seems to be the same dysfunctional cycle which keeps happening. I invest a large amount of time into getting to know someone and connecting with them. Things look great and I have hope that I've found a play partner or a relationship with someone. I think I have a true connection with someone and get intimate and play with them. Then the connection seems to change and it ends just like all the other times. I'm left with a broken heart. I tend to let others into my heart way too easily. I wish I could just keep it simple but it's not in my nature. I'm still sore about a few of my ex's who I fell for so much and they broke my heart. I've talked about it before...the good times are wonderful! You've read about many of those wonderful naughty times! They rock! They make you feel great! The bad times really fucking suck though!! It seems to have sucked the desire for wanting to do the poly anymore out of me. Master is feeling the same way. We seem to be on the same page this time. He's at the end of his rope and so am I. I could tell that Master is as frustrated as I am. We let people into our relationship, our home, our lives....and it always ends badly. We can't think of one time that it's worked out for either one of us. We have both had to heal each other's broken hearts. I'm not sure the poly is worth it anymore. The bad times sour all the good times and leaves a bitter taste in our mouth. We had a very big talk this week. There is some big changes happening with the poly. I think we are both feeling frustrated. The journey will continue but I know that we both will be putting a lot less time and investment into the poly dance. There will be a break from the poly for a while. We are going on hiatus from the poly aspect of our relationship. We plan to concentrate fully on our relationship for right now. Perhaps it could be a permanent break. It's hard to say. I just know that I can't do the broken heart anymore. I'm tired of investing so much into the poly and getting a broken heart in return. I know that I can't play at a casual level like so many swingers or people who are in poly relationships can. I've tried and tried to find people that I can connect with but that connection only seems to last so long and often the feelings are not returned the same way. I am grateful for my relationship with my Master. I know that he will always be there unlike the many others who gave me tons of promises and did not deliver. He will not break my heart. He will not let me down or reject me. I know that I can count on him and that he is my strong force. I might have failed at the poly but at least I have not failed at my relationship and marriage with Master. We have been together for almost 13 years and happily married for 5 of them. I am so lucky to have a soulmate who knows me and accepts me and is always there for me no matter what. He knew I was feeling very down on Thursday. He came home and we had a big talk and then he told me that he would be taking me to the beach on Friday. He was home and so was the kids. He knows that the beach relaxes me and it would be one of the best things for me. It was a beautiful sunny spring day yesterday. We packed up the car and beach bag and headed down to White Rock beach. We got lucky with finding a perfect parking spot and a small walk down to the beach. The kids loved it a lot! They built sandcastles and played in the water. I cuddled close to Master and enjoyed our time at the beach! I even wore my "beach girl" t-shirt. :) We had fish n chips at Docks. I am putting up a few pictures of our family beach fun! The fish n chips was yummy! The ocean air was wonderful and soothing. I felt very relaxed and we stopped by the grocery store for ice-cream and dessert on the way home. I enjoyed a beer with Master and we put the kids to bed and then had some private time together. We were able to have a quick fuck before bed. I slept like a rock. That ocean air always knocks me out and gives me a full night's sleep. I woke up with lots of energy today. I am not sure of our plans for today. MVK is tonight and I kind of wanted to go but I didn't want to go alone. I have been taking a break from public bdsm events lately. I'm not sure when I will be back to going to them again especially if we are taking a break from poly for a while. I miss seeing some of my friends but maybe sometime I'll be able to plan for a Rascal's or something. I am waiting for Master to wake up so he can tell me where we are headed today. I hope we can have another family day. The beach was so much fun! Hopefully one day I can fullfill my dream of living down near a beach. I hope everyone is having a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala