Happy HNT - Bat on my boob!

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I found this erotic picture in our archives and can't believe that I have not put it up before. I think it's erotic but also kind of cute!! Click on the picture to enlarge it and get a better look at it. It was around Halloween time and I had put a small bat temporary tattoo on my tit. I was wearing Master's white shirt with no bra and he got me to show off my one boob to him and took this picture. You can see how erect my nipple was. I don't remember what had me so excited but I'm sure it had to do with Darth Vader being a mean old man!! :) It is almost October and my favorite month of the year!! There are many plans for Thanksgiving, my birthday, Rascal's Halloween party/Shasta's trip out to Vancouver, and also Halloween! I'm hoping to maybe schedule a few play dates also or perhaps even a coffee with a friend or two. I am expecting my Dad's estate to be settled by the end of October also so that will be nice to have a big cheque come to me right before the holidays. October is going to rock!! I love the Fall season and all the spooky things about Halloween. I think I've figured out my costume for the Rascal's Halloween party. Master is still trying to figure his out. I'm really excited to start going to events again in the local community and I remember how much fun the last Halloween Rascal's was!! It's going to be a blast! Please leave us a comment on the picture. We always love to hear from you. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Grounded for being a mouthy slave

I got myself into trouble yesterday. I really should know better after all these years of being a slave. I have a truly submissive heart but I am prone to stress and PMS and all those other emotions that women get. I was having a bit of a bad night yesterday. My period had started and I was still getting over my cold. I started getting snappy at Master as soon as he was home from work. I didn't have dinner ready on time and he was not too happy with me. I got some Melatonin from my Mom last week. I've been taking it daily to help me sleep and it's been working. I didn't tell Master about it. I guess I thought it wasn't really a medicine because it was bought in a herbal store instead. Master caught me taking one last night and got very upset with me. I'm supposed to tell him about any medication that I take. It's one of my rules. I tried to excuse it away but he is right. It's still a sleeping aid and I should have asked his permission before taking it. Especially with my family history. My Dad was very addicted to sleeping pills. He was taking about 7 strong prescription sleeping pills a night to sleep at the end of his life. I've got to be careful because I seem to have inherited my Dad's chronic insomnia problem from him. He ordered me upstairs and I got cranky. He warned me that there would be consequences if I kept pushing him farther. I didn't listen to him and then he told me that I was grounded until furthur notice. I have not been grounded in a while. I was pretty surprised. I am not allowed to leave the house unless it's to and from the school to get my son. I was also punished by going to bed at 8 pm. He sent me to bed early!! He also laid his belt out on the nightstand so I could fall asleep with it nearby. I know what that means. I woke up to a big chores list also which must be completed by the end of the day. And he also mentioned in his note that there is a punishment spanking coming to me also. He told me that he used to put up with me being bitchy but he doesn't anymore. He's a mean old man and that's the way it is. We have a TPE (Total power exchange) relationship which involves Domestic discipline. Consistency is very important to Master and I. I like that he is strict with me. That he is so controlling. He likes to control me and I like to be controlled. It works well for us and we both get off on it. He is a mean old man and I wouldn't have it any other way. I admit that it's really turned me on today. Thinking of him isolating me. Grounding me and forcing me to stay inside and work on chores for him. Also thinking of what's coming to me...the true punishment spanking. I get nervous about it but I know that it will get me wet in the end. That's how it usually goes. My submissive soul is yearning for him today. I want to be locked away, not just grounded. I want to be in a cage...awaiting my punishment...hoping that he will be cruel and mean to me because I need it...I want it!! My force runs through my Master. The force between us is strong. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Bite me like a vampire

I have been looking in the mirror today at a big bite mark on my neck. I got it during some rough play on the weekend with Darth Vader. He was pulling my hair and looking deep into my eyes. He said "I'm going to bite you like a vampire" and he bit down on my neck. It left a pretty big bruise. I am really into erotic biting. I have a bit of a fetish for it. There is something so erotic about the bruise that it leaves and the feeling in my erotic soul. I've always had a fascination with vampires and that dark side of life. Leia has recently taken an interest also in the vampire books and movies. Twilight is her favorite movie and she has the posters and has read the books and talks about Edward Cullen. We plan to see the new movie when it comes out. She seems to be into the vampires just like her Mom. lol. Master has been trying to think of a Halloween costume for Rascal's next month. I was thinking today that he would make a very handsome vampire! I would love to see him in that costume. Then he can bite me all over as well as spank me!! Mmmm...I love the thoughts of that!! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

In love with my handsome Jedi

I am a very lucky slave girl to have such a wonderful Daddy in my life. He takes such good care of me when I am sick. He took Friday off of work because I had a nasty cold and was very ill. I've also got PMS going on. My period has not come yet but it's on the way!! Yuck! I feel horrible tonight with PMS and also still having some cold symptoms. I felt pretty ill this weekend and didn't feel like leaving the house very much. I was feeling very emotional and needing him so much this weekend. I needed my Daddy as well as Master. He let me sleep in on Friday morning. Then made me breakfast after the kids went to school. He sent me upstairs to our bedroom and then took off his belt. He gave me a very erotic spanking with his belt. 100 firm strokes with his black leather belt on my bottom. Yum! It was just what I needed. I am thankful for Advil cold and sinus. It helped me to feel better enough to play for a while. I got a red bottom and some great sex and also a nice big orgasm with the Hitachi! Then he put me straight to bed for a nap. I slept for a few hours and woke up feeling a bit better. I got soup for dinner and he made sure I went to bed early that night. He arranged for sitting on Saturday. We had a full day of no kids. He rented me some movies from Rogers Video and then got a bunch of goodies and treats from Safeway to eat through the day so I didn't have to cook. We had some play during the day and more sex!! I'm a very lucky girl! He made sure I got lots of orgasms and was very satisfied. He pushed me to have that last orgasm even though I didn't think that I could. He demanded that I "cum for him" and I made him very pleased by having one of the biggest orgasms of my life!! He was so good to me this weekend. Thank you Master! I had to do some chores today but he also helped me a lot with that. I baked him a homemade angel food cake so he was a very happy Master. I feel very submissive today. I am such a lucky slave girl. I don't know what I would do without my Daddy. He is my force. I am so in love with my handsome Jedi! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF! A weekend of rest and recovery

TGIF! It's been the longest week ever! Very emotional and yucky. There has been a lot of stress going on. My Dad's estate is almost settled by it's taken up a lot of my time and energy. I've had a lot on my mind lately and dealt with chronic insomnia. It's almost 4 am and I'm wide awake right now. I'm drinking my neo citran and hoping that it kicks in soon so I can get some more sleep. I've got a horrible cold and it's drained me a lot. It came on very suddenly yesterday. Master took care of me. He got me cold medicine and also Turkey Vegetable soup for dinner. He put me to bed at 8 pm and has been very sweet to me. I'm so lucky to have him! I've also got PMS going on at the same time. My period feels like it could start at any minute. I can cry at the drop of a hat and I'm very emotional from that. There has been a lot of processing this week. Master has told me that this weekend will be about rest and recovery. He wants to take care of me and get me feeling better physically and emotionally. He is taking tomorrow off of work and we plan to spend some time watching movies and taking it easy. I am hoping that I can get a spanking sometime this weekend and lots of cuddles. I feel like I could really use it right now. I don't know how much I'm going to be on the computer. My force hasn't felt very strong. I've got my birthday coming up in a few weeks and hope to be feeling better in time for that! I am not sure yet of the plans for it but I'm hoping it involves lots of orgasms and fun! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Journey through the past

Today has been a very long, tiring and very emotional day for me. I was supposed to go to meet the teacher night but I couldn't go. I broke down and I spent the last hour sobbing and having a panic attack. It was a very difficult journey that I went on today but I think that it was good for me also. I felt like I learned a lot about my Dad today. Things that I didn't know. I am starting to cry right now just thinking about it. My Dad passed away 4 months ago today. I can remember that moment vividly when I heard that he had died. The feeling of breaking in my heart. The overwhelming grief that consumed me. I will say that it was a very defining moment in my life. I have not been the same. I am not sure if or when I will be the same. How do you get past losing a parent? People keep telling me to "just get over it". I had one person roll their eyes at me when I mentioned my Dad. I felt so much sadness today holding my mom's hand by his grave site. I watched my mom say goodbye to the man that she once loved and married and also hated. It was a very private moment for me. I don't have the words. My Mom wanted to go to his grave today. I really didn't want to go. I have been postponing it for a while. I canceled on Friday. I had promised her that I would take her but I really didn't want to go. I felt like I was betraying my dad by taking her there. He hated her. She took his money. She sent him to jail. She destroyed his life. They couldn't stand to be in the same room together after the divorce. They had a very complicated marriage. Lots of secret abuse that was never talked about. My Dad liked to use his belt on me and my siblings. It was strict and controlled. He abused my mom for years. I have pushed that chapter to the back of my mind. I thought that I had forgotten those times. Then today it all came back to me... .... She showed up at 9 am and started looking at a map. She told me she was taking me on a field trip today. She wanted to show me some of the old homes we once lived in. She wanted to take me to the place that she met my Dad. The place they were married. The hospital that I was born in. Old houses we had lived in when I was young. I wasn't expecting it and had no idea that it would shake me up so much. So many old memories. Those old houses with walls that could talk. The stories that they could tell. It all came back to me. I have not been to some of those places in years! The past..my childhood..the abuse...I got very choked up seeing some of those places. My Mom talked about the old days. She told me all about her and my Dad. She talked about the love they once felt. The happiness of when they were having me. How much my Dad loved me!! He loved me! My heart raced when my Mom said those words to me. Why didn't he tell me he loved me? Why do I have to hear about it AFTER his death! It upsets me to think about. My Dad had a hard time showing affection. He didn't like to say the "l" word to me. I tried to tell him I loved him but he didn't respond. I honestly wondered if he had any feelings for me. I found out today that he did. It moved me to hear her words. To listen to the stories of their marriage and love. All I remember was their hate for one another. This scene from the Soprano's reminds me SO much of my parent's divorce. My Dad reminded me a lot of Mr. Soprano from that show. Their personalities were very similar. I love that line "I want what I am entitled to." OMG ...that reminds me SO much like my mom. It was weird going to the grave site with her. She talked to him like he was standing there. I will say that I could hear my Dad's words from the grave and some of them weren't kind. lol. I can imagine him saying "what the hell is that bitch doing here?". We came home and then spent an hour looking through old pictures of their wedding and my childhood. It was weird to hear her talk about him and her response to the pictures. "We had some good times too" she said to me. I had a hard time not crying. I held back until she left and then it all came out. I have not slept well. I had a horrible dream about my Dad the other night. I thought I heard his voice calling me. I feel his presence around me. The estate is about to be settled and there should be closure but I don't feel like there is. My heart hurts as much as it did the day he left... I miss you Dad. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

On CBC Radio One with Hal Niedzviecki

I woke up this morning and noticed a lot of hits coming from Hermoine's Heart blog and went over to check it out. She had done a blog post about me being mentioned on the CBC radio one interview that Hal Niedzviecki did for his book, The Peep Diaries: How We are learning to Love watching Ourselves and our neighbors. I am mentioned in part 2 of that book and have since had a few interviews because of that interview. It's pretty cool to be mentioned on a radio station also. I hope that everyone has had a chance to pick up the Peep Diaries book! I read mine within a few days and couldn't put it down. It was very surreal for me to be in the Chapters and seeing my name and interview in the book. I had no idea that an interview that I did for his blog would lead to a book and then the Globe and Mail and other places like the CBC now. I was offered the chance to do a documentary about the Peep Diaries but I declined because I didn't want to show my face. I am kind of curious of what is next for Hal Niedzviecki. Will he be going on the Oprah show and talking about me? After all, she did mention his book in her summer favorites for reading and she recommended his book. I had no idea that the Peep Diaries would become so known and that I would become a bit famous!! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Two lumps comic

I got this comic from two lumps.com. It's pretty neat! I don't think I've ever put up a comic before but I got this from my friend, Galen and think it's really good to share here. Please click to enlarge the picture and get a better look at it. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

The romantic sadist

I am a very lucky girl. I've got a man in my life who is romantic and spoils me like a princess. Just call me "princess padme"! I've also got a man who's sadistic and mean also. There is the Darth Vader side of him. He gets intense and VERY dominant. He can be very controlling. BUT he can also get very romantic. He's got the Anakin side of him also. He will surprise me and be romantic and treats me so good. Last night he gave me a really sweet surprise. I was having a pretty crappy weekend up until 5 pm yesterday. We usually do our movie/merlot nights on Friday. We didn't get the chance and I was disappointed but decided to try to go to bed early. It took me a long time to get to sleep and then I was up at 1 am. I twittered, went on Fetlife and facebook and read some blogs. I was wide awake. I even posted in a Fetlife Insomnia group that I was up and wondered if anyone else was. I went upstairs and snuggled close to Master at one point and felt his warm body beside me. I started to kiss him gently to nudge him awake. I really needed him. "Daddy's sleepy, slave" he tried to tell me. "Please Daddy. I really, really need you right now." I said feeling a bit desperate. I really wanted to feel him inside of me. I put my hand down his boxers and started to rub and stimulate his cock. "Please Daddy. Please fuck me" I whispered in his ear. It was pouring rain out and our window was open. Normally we close the the window when we fuck. Not this time. It was very spontaneous. He took off his boxers and then rolled over and noticed I was not only naked but I also had a very wet pussy. I desired him so much. He slid into my pussy easily and commented on how wet I was. We fucked missionary style with him on top. He looked deeply into my eyes while we fucked. Not a word was spoken but I could feel his energy and dominance through his eyes. The sound of the pounding rain and knowing that the window was open and that our neighbors could possibly hear us added to the excitement and arousal. He thrust into me hard and made me moan out a few times. It was really great sex!! A moment that I will never forget. He had no problems going back to sleep after we had fucked. I couldn't though and was up until 7 am. I slept for two hours and then awoke to the thoughts of my Mom showing up at any moment. She came for a brief visit and then there was lots of stuff going on with the kids. I had a terrible headache and was very overwhelmed. Master made me take a nap although I felt guilty because there was so many things on my to-do list that I needed to get done. He insisted that I nap. He took care of the kids for me and took them out for the afternoon. I woke up and had a lot of alone time. I started to get very depressed. It came out of no where and seemed very dark. Master could tell when he got home and asked me what was wrong. I felt disappointed that we didn't get much time together all weekend. There was so much going on with the kids and we barely had a moment alone. He told me to go run myself a hot bath and brought me up a glass of merlot. He told me to relax and that he would take care of me. He arranged sitting for our kids. Leia got to have her friend over to help babysit so she was happy. He picked up a pizza for them and offered her a few bucks to babysit Skywalker. Then he came upstairs and picked out my outfit to wear. I came out of the bath a bit confused when I saw my dress clothes laid out. Then he told me he had a surprise for me and was taking me out for dinner. He instructed that I wear my black lace panties and bra and to look nice. I spent a bit of time getting ready and felt way better after cleaning up. He took me to the new Montana's restaurant that we had both been talking about going to. I love Montana's! The food is always good and always enjoy going there. We saw the sun setting as we drove to Montana's for dinner. It was a bit crisp in the air and stars in the sky. We got to Montana's and he ordered me another drink and my dinner which was my favorite food. He held hands with me and we had some romantic time together. It was very special and it was so nice to be out for dinner with no kids. I love my kids but I need some kid-free time sometimes. He took me to IGA to pick up some dessert and we headed back home. We had an early bedtime together and I had a pretty good sleep. I had a really romantic and special date with Master last night. I am so lucky that Master is a romantic sadist. I truly, deeply, love him... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A Friday meme

TGIF!! I'm so glad it's almost the weekend. I feel like there is a lot that I can blog about right now. I'm still trying to sort out some of my feelings though. I saw this meme on another blog and thought this would make a nice and easy post for today. Hopefully I will be able to process some of my feelings and write a blog post in the next few days about some of the things that have been happening in my life the last few days. So here goes: So, what are you? I am a 36 year old wife and mother of two kids. I am a house slave who takes care of my family and tries very hard to keep my Master happy. What are you favorite three implements? 1. Leather belt!! I have a belt fetish 2. Razor Strop 3. Leather paddle Alfresco/Safely Inside? It depends on my mood. Sometimes I like alfresco and sometimes I prefer to play and be inside. Depends on the weather and my kind of mood and sometimes if I have been drinking. I admit to a few topless shows while under the influence. LOL. Whats your favorite sound? The sound of a belt coming out of pant loops. Yum! :) Any place in the world you could be right now...where would it be? I would LOVE to be in Las Vegas right now! Under a palm tree, sipping on a margarita and checking out the boys at the pool!! Ahhhh...I wish. Maybe one day. :) Are you collared? Yes, I am. I am collared to Master Anakin. Who inspires you in your kink? My best friend, Shasta inspires me a lot. I was telling her on the phone today that I was able to get out in the local BDSM community in Vancouver because of her. She inspired me to take the chance because she had done it herself and she encouraged me to. She's inspired me in many ways and I am so glad for our friendship! She is one of my closest and dearest friends. What means the most to you? Family and friends. I love Master Anakin and our family is sooo important to me. I love our kids and am so glad to be a mother and wife. My friends are also important to me. So is my submission. It means a lot to me to be able to submit and have the kind of lifestyle that both Master and I want. What quality do you absolutely need in your friends? Being there for the bad times as well as the good. True friends are there whether it's good times or your having rough times. I've had many people take off on me when the times got tough. Those are not true friends in my opinion. Public/Private play? Both are nice. It depends on my mood and where I am at. Obviously I do public play if I am at Rascal's or somewhere where I can do public play. Otherwise, I'm content to do it in private at home. Would you say you are shy or a social butterfly? I can be very shy when I first meet someone or I am in a big group. I can also be a social butterfly sometimes too. I think it's a mixture. One thing most people are shocked to learn about you...they would never suspect! I was a real prude once and that you couldn't even crack a sex joke around me. I used to be very uncomfortable even talking about sex when I was in my first marriage and in my early 20's. I've obviously changed a lot through the years. Now I discuss my sex life on my blog and very openly. What fascinates you most about spanking and BDSM? The people who are into it. It's fascinating sometimes to find out that someone who you would never suspect is into spanking or into BDSM. It can sometimes be the person you least expect like a friend or a neighbor or family member. Role play/Real Life or Stress Relief spankings? Any kind of spankings is good with me! *smiles* I like all kinds. :) Hard Spanking or sensual? Sometimes I need a hard spanking and other times it would be nice if it were more sensual. Depends on the person and the mood and whether it's for punishment or fun or foreplay. Ever done corner time? And does it work for you? I've done corner time a lot and have many pictures to prove it. :) I enjoy it. I like the humiliation aspect of it. Having to show my red bottom to Master (or whoever is doing it for me) and stand in the corner like a bad girl. Safe word or no safe word? I have a safe word that I use with Master Anakin or anyone that I play with. I think it's important to play with a safe word although I would never use it unless it was necessary. I have bad arthritis sometimes and need to be able to safe word if I was having a problem or such. What are you going to do now? Publish this blog post and then enjoy some lunch and watch Y&R before heading down to the school and picking up my son. It's been a nice Friday and hopefully a good weekend ahead! ..... May the force be with you all! Have a great weekend! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Tied up cheerleader

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! It's been a while since I put up a bondage picture and thought this one looked very sexy. I was wearing my naughty cheerleader skirt and no top. Master Anakin had tied me up with some rope with my arms behind my back. It made me very helpless and feeling very submissive. I love when we play with bondage and Master gets out the ropes. It adds a lot to our play and makes me very aroused. It also adds to our spanking play. I can't do much to stop the spanking on my ass when I'm tied up. I just have to take the strokes and accept the pain. Please leave us a comment. We'd love to hear from you! Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Blondes have more fun!

I decided to dye my hair blonde today after a month of letting it grow out as a red head again. I didn't like the way my red hair was making me feel. It's kind of funny how a hair color can give you a certain feel and attitude. I am normally a red head but Master decided he wanted me blonde a few years ago. I barely remember what it was like to have my natural hair color. I was searching for pictures today and found this one. It gives you a bit of a glimpse of my reddish hair. People are often surprised that I am not a natural blonde. I have to admit that blondes have more fun! I feel sexier about myself as a blonde and a lot more confident sexually. I wonder if I'll ever be able to go back. I would if Master Anakin ordered me to but I think he prefers me as a blonde. He goes with me to help pick out the color and he always goes for the blonde tones. I think the hardest part about being a blonde is the blonde jokes. Some people think it's funny to put down blondes and make them look stupid. I'm not sure why Hollywood does that. Mind you, some of the sexiest women are/were blondes. Look at Marilyn Monroe or Pamela Anderson or even Jenna Jameson. Who is your favorite blonde? I'd love to hear from you. I am wearing my Pirate panties in this picture. I bought them one year for Halloween and Master liked them. They glow in the dark. lol. Very cute! I've got a few different pairs of Halloween panties. Halloween is just around the corner and I'm so excited about it! I'm planning to go the Rascal's Halloween party with Master Anakin and my best friend, Shasta. It's going to be a blast! We need to figure out costumes though. Not sure what I'm going to be. Do I go with the classic schoolgirl costume or something new? I wish I could find a Alice in Wonderland costume. I think it would look so cute!! I have been looking for a few years and would love to finally be able to wear one! Anyone know any good costume stores online? What are your plans for Halloween this year? Anyone else looking to buy a new costume? May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A weekend of kinky fun and romance

I had a really great weekend. The overnight on Saturday was fabulous! I really enjoyed my time with Master. We went to see a movie called Whiteout. It was really great! I recommend it. It was full of non-stop action. Then we went to the casino and I won the Jackpot!! Very cool feeling! Then we picked up some Sushi dinner from a new place in town. We feasted on it and had drinks at home. We also had a really long deep talk during dinner. We talked about old times and good memories. It felt great to reconnect like that. It felt romantic to be eating our dinner while listening to soothing music and candlelight. I had a really wonderful night with Master. We also had some play time on the darkside. I got to spend some time with Darth Vader. We headed upstairs after our yummy dinner and dessert. I got a red bottom and some rough play. The sex was fantastic!! The orgasm blew my mind. I don't really remember too much after that. I fell asleep naked next to Master and had a really good solid sleep. Then we woke up together and headed out the Cloverdale Flea Market. Didn't really find too many deals unfortunately. It was nice to get out for the afternoon though. We spent last night relaxing and helping Leia do her homework. I am missing Master a lot right now. Wishing we could be together today. I long for his touch and to hear his voice giving me orders. My force runs through Master. My longing for him increases day by day. I need him so bad. I need him to take me to the darkside and to never look back again. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Motivation from the belt

I had blogged about doing housework last weekend and how Master Anakin had laid out his belt on our beside table. He was trying to give me some motivation to get my chores done. I took a picture of it and wanted to share it with the readers. It gives you a good idea of what that looks like. I come into our bedroom and there it is waiting for me. I spent hours cleaning and organizing all our clothes and bedroom. He came into the room a few times and gave me a few strokes with the belt. It's great motivation! I got the room completely cleaned up! I've been trying hard to get my chores done and the house cleaned up. It's been hard with back to school and also Master was not feeling well. He's doing a lot better and was back to work although his boss gave him another day so he could rest. He had other plans than resting though. lol. He didn't tell me what they were and it was all a very big surprise to me. He told me on Thursday night that there was a surprise waiting for me on Friday morning. I found out on Friday morning that he had the day off and he also had plans to take me out for breakfast and some play time. It's amazing how precious that play time is when you have kids. It's been hard to connect with Master with homework starting with Leia and early bedtimes again. I was very happy to have some alone time with him. We went out for breakfast and then headed upstairs to our bedroom. He gave me 100 punishing strokes with his black leather belt. He made me count them all out. This was for some punishment. There were a few chores that I had neglected through the week and he wanted me to pay for that. That's how it works it on relationship. The domestic discipline part of our relationship. I have to get my chores done or my bottom pays the price. My bum was red and sore after he was done strapping me!! Ouchies! I noticed he got hard from it and practically ripped off my panties which were pulled down during the spanking. He fucked me very hard and had me screaming out a few times and panting because of how intense it was. It didn't take him long to cum and then he made me cum for HIM. Yummy!! I came so hard. It was great! I spent some time in his arms afterwords. He stroked my hair and told me what a good girl I was. It was heaven. Last night was very relaxing. We picked up dinner and he treated me to a Pumpkin Spice Latte from Starbucks. We watched a movie called The Informers. It was pretty good although I expected more of a climax at the end. We cuddled up close and it felt so relaxing and nice. A great way to end the week! We have an overnight tonight! Master also arranged for us to have tonight free. Leia is at her dad's house. Skywalker's is going to the in-laws. And we have no plans at all!! I wonder if he has any evil surprises in store for me? Master Anakin loves to surprise me and can get very evil (like Darth Vader) when he's wanting to play with me on the darkside and we have overnights. I'm sure I'll have lots to blog about though. Have a great weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Sexy schoolgirl spanking

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I meant to put up this picture last week for HNT but Master got sick and it wasn't able to get posted. This is a recent picture of my red bottom courtesy of Darth Vader. We had an overnight and time to play on the darkside. I got dressed up for him in my prep schoolgirl skirt and red heart thigh-hi's and some other naughty stuff. I got spanked by Master until my bottom was nicely red. Then he took a picture of it for everyone to see! I think this is a perfect HNT picture for back to school. Time to get out the schoolgirl skirt and play with some back to school play. Maybe Master can play the stern principal and I'll be the naughty schoolgirl who was misbehaving and needs a paddling or strapping. What do you think I need? What would you use on a naughty schoolgirl's ass? A mean strap? Or a big wooden paddle? How about a English Tawse? Lots of possibilities for naughty schoolgirls. Please let us know in a comment. We'd love to hear from you and appreciate your comments. Come out of hiding and say hello! We get a lot of lurkers here at JTTDS and I wish some of you would come out of lurking and say hi. I'm curious about who reads this blog. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Talking with Tiggr

I was recently interviewed by my good friend, Tiggr from A Spanking Good Time. She asked me a lot of really interesting questions which made me think a lot before answering. She posted the interview today. Please check it out and leave a comment. I am curious to know what you think of the interview with me. I'd like to thank Tiggr for her wonderful interview and letting me have a chance to let others out there get to know me a bit better through it. If you would like to be interviewed or know someone who would, please contact Tiggr. I've really been enjoying her series and getting to know different people. I had a chance a few years ago to interview Tiggr. Please check it out if you have not had the chance already. It gave everyone a glimpse at the woman behind the blog and to know Tiggr a bit better. Today is back to school day! Skywalker is going into grade 3. Where did all the years go? It seemed like just yesterday he was going into kindergarden. Leia is going into grade 9 but doesn't start school til tomorrow. It's nice that things are going back to normal again. My force is strong. I have several posts which I keep meaning to write but have not had the chance. I'll try to get to them this week. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

House slave needs some motivation

It's amazing how much motivation happens when there is a belt laying across a bedside table. That is usually the signal for me to know that there is a spanking coming to me with it. There have been threats of a strict and stern punishment coming to me. Master must be feeling better because he seems in the mood to spank today!! I've gotten several swats across my bottom today already and a strapping coming to me later with his belt. He likes to pull my jeans down while I'm doing the housework and then spank my ass to give me lots of motivation to get it done quickly and also the way that he likes it all done. He can be a very mean old man and demand that I spend the whole day cleaning house. I'm not allowed to leave the house until it's done! He is displeased with the housework lately. I have not been keeping up with it and he's told me there will be plenty of motivation for doing it this long weekend! He plans to get me back into line tonight and give my ass some hard punishment. House slave needs some motivation from Master. I know he's going to be happy to give that to me! I'm a bit nervous about the punishment coming. Darth Vader can be a very brutal Master. He is a very stern man who can hurt me in many different ways. He can be very creative also when it comes to punishing me. Sometimes I'm getting a strapping and other times I'm in the "bad girl" corner or sometimes I'm tied up for hours and given painful reminders of my place. The last few days have been mostly about playing nurse to Master and taking care of him. I have tried to serve him in little ways like making sure he has his antibiotics and rubbing his feet. I've been feeling very submissive and wanting to please him. I have to admit that I am hoping it will be a hard spanking tonight. I want to get my focus back on being a house slave and get my mind into my role as slave. Sometimes I just know that I need a spanking. I hope everyone is enjoying the long weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

100 Truths meme

TGIF! It's been a really long week and I'm really glad it's the long weekend. Thank you for all the supportive e-mails and comments about my last blog post. We are waiting for test results from the hospital and Master Anakin is feeling a bit better today after some rest and also the antibiotics starting to kick in. It's been hard to see him so sick and I've been trying my best to take care of him. Hopefully the test results are ok. We are both a bit worried about it. I saw a meme this morning on my best bud, Shasta's blog and thought it looked like fun! I wanted to give it a try. I'm not tagging anyone so feel free to do the meme on your own blog if you wish. Here we go: 1. Last beverage? my morning cup of coffee 2. Last phone call? my friend, DL called me last night to see how Master was doing and was worried. DL and I have been working on our friendship and growing closer lately. It really meant a lot to me that she phoned. 3. Last text message? I can't remember. I don't text but we can receive text messages on the cell phone we have. 4. Last song you listened to? Heart of Glass - Blondie (one of my favorite songs) 5. Last time you cried? when Master Anakin was in the hospital and I went outside to make a phone call and got so upset that I cried. HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice? Yes, a few people. Master Anakin and I dated in 1991 and then again in 1996 when we got together. 7. Been cheated on? Yes 8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Yes 9. Lost someone special? Yes 10. Been depressed? Yes, especially lately 11. Been drunk? Yup! More times than I can count. I've had some wild times in my life. lol. LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Red 13. Blue 14. Pink THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends? Yes 16. Fallen out of love? Yes 17. Laughed until you cried? Yes. I've done this during a few movies while watching them with Master Anakin. There was one part in the movie, The Zombie Strippers which was so extremely funny that we were laughing and I was crying at the same time! OMG was that funny! LOL! 18. Met someone who changed you? Yes. A few people. 19. Found out who your true friends were? Yes, especially during the last few months after the death of my Dad. I am truly amazed at a few people who I thought were my friends and did not even give me a condolence after my Dad passed away. I no longer think of those people as my friends. 20. Found out someone was talking about you? Yes. 21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list? Yes *winks* 23. How many kids do you want to have? I have two kids and we are done having kids 24. Do you have any pets? Yes. I've got a very spoiled kitty cat. 25. Do you want to change your name? No 26. What did you do for your last birthday? I waited around for Daemon to show up for my birthday party and got stood up. I would rather forget about my last birthday. This year will be better! 27. What time did you wake up today? Around 7 am 28. What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping next to Master Anakin 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? Shasta's trip out to Van next month! Woot! I'm extremely excited about it. We have plans and are going to have so much fun! CANNOT wait! :) 30. Last time you saw your father? I saw him at the viewing of his body. He was in the casket and I said my final goodbye to him. :( The last time I saw him before he died was a dinner in April with him, my sister and my grandma. It is one of the best memories that I have with him. 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? I wish we had a bigger home so the kids could have their own room. 32. What are you listening to right now? Infatuation by Rod Stewart 33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Yes. My Dad's best friend is named Tom. 34. What’s getting on your nerves right now? Waiting for the hospital to call and give us test results. I'm nervous and want to know what's going on with Master's health and get him back to feeling good again. 36. What’s your real name? I'll never tell ;) 37. Relationship Status? Happily married and in a poly relationship with Master Anakin. I am currently not dating anyone. 38. Zodiac sign? Libra 39. Male or female? Female 40. Elementary? Somewhere around Vancouver, BC 41. Middle School? Somewhere around Vancouver, BC 42. High school? Somewhere around Vancouver, BC 43. Hair color? Blonde (although I am a natural red head) 44. Long or short? Long 46. Do you have a crush on someone? Yup. I have a crush on a few people right now. ;) 47. What do you like about yourself? my submission to Master. I like that I can submit to him and make him happy and pleased. 48. Piercings? Just my ears 49. Tattoos? Two on my ankle and one on my lower back 50. Righty or lefty? Righty FIRSTS : 51. First surgery? Hernia surgery 52. First piercing? my ears 53. First tattoo? my red roses tattoo on my ankle 54. First best friend? My friend, C. We met when we were 15 years old and became best friends for years. We drifted apart and now we are talking again although we are not as close as we once were. 55. First sport you joined? Soccer 56. First pet? A cat 57. First vacation? Hawaii when I was in grade 2. A trip I took with my Dad. 58. First concert? Micheal Damian (who played Danny Romalotti on The Young and the Restless) I was 17 and went with a friend to see him. I thought he was SOOOO hot!! 59. First crush? Mike. The guy turned out to be a total loser though. lol. 60. First alcohol drink? Orange cooler (which I got sick on) RIGHT NOW: 61. Eating? Banana bread 62. Drinking? Coffee (second cup of the day) 63. I’m about to? post this so I can go see how Master Anakin is doing 64. Listening to? Fleetwood Mac 65. Waiting for? the weekend YOUR FUTURE : 66. Want kids? No. I've got them already. 67. Want to get married? No. I'm already married. 68. Careers in mind? House slave WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? 69. Lips or eyes? Eyes 70. Hugs or kisses? Both 71. Shorter or taller? Shorter *smiles* 72. Older or Younger? I tend to go for older men but I like younger women :) 73. Romantic or spontaneous? Both 74. Nice stomach or nice arms? arms 75. Tattoos or piercings? tattoos 77. Hook-up or relationship? I am not looking for other relationships right now but also hook-ups. I am hoping to find some play partners though. 78. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble maker *smiles* HAVE YOU EVER : 79. Kissed a stranger? Yes 80. Drank hard liquor? Yes 81. Lost glasses/contacts? No 82. What? ? 83. Broken someones heart? Yes 84. Had your own heart broken? Yes 85. Been arrested? No 86. Turned someone down? Yes 87. Cried when someone died? Yes DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 89. Yourself? I try to but it's hard sometimes. 90. Miracles? Yes 91. Love at first sight? Yes. I believe in love at first sight. 92. Heaven? I am not sure about heaven. I do like to think that there is some kind of afterlife though. 93. Santa Claus? Of course. lol. 94. Kissing on the first date? Yes 95. Angels? Yes ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes. There are several people I would love to be with right now. I'd love to be hanging out with Shasta for coffee or cuddling up to Master watching a movie. 97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Yes 98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? Yes 100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Yes .... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

In sickness and in health

Today has been the day from hell! I'm in a very bad place emotionally right now. I had planned to put up a HNT picture today from the weekend. The day didn't exactly go as planned though. I had a really rough night last night. I've been having chronic insomnia lately. I can't sleep. I had to take a sleeping pill the other day and I really don't like to do that. I feel a bit haunted right now. I feel haunted by my Dad's death. I have thought about getting therapy for it because I am not handling things too well lately. Lots of family drama has me stressed out also. I didn't get much sleep last night and woke up feeling very tired. I am on day 2 of my period so I barely got out of bed anyways. I felt like crap and wanted to stay in my pj's all day and hopefully nap. That didn't happen though. I started to notice Master Anakin looking very ill this morning and asked him a few times about it. He kind of shrugged it off but I could tell he was very bothered by it. I know he tries to be the strong Master and has a hard time asking for help. I knew something was wrong when I saw him starting to have a seizure right in front of me. It was one of the scariest moments of my life! He was shaking in my arms and I tried to comfort him and then noticed he was extremely hot. He was burning up with a fever. I have never felt him so hot before. It really worried me. I called my in-laws and my FIL came over right away. We took him down to the medical clinic. I was hoping it was just the flu but I knew something was wrong when Master walked out of the office. He told me we had to go directly to the hospital ER. My Father-in-law dropped us off and then went back to help look after the kids. The hospital was pretty crowded and time seemed to move in slow motion there. It's a very depressing place to be. They put Master Anakin into the isolation room and I could tell something was wrong. All the precautions were done with the gloves and masks because they were worried about the swine flu and also Meningitis. Master said he has the worst headache of his life and his fever was over 103. He looked sicker than I have ever seen him before in our relationship and friendship. He is usually so strong and dominant and in control. It was hard for me to see him so sick. They did heart tests, blood and urine tests and a chest x-ray. I held his hand and wanted to cry. It was hard to see him so helpless. It's a different side to Master that I have never seen before. I started to get really upset and worried. I started to think about my Dad and how I just lost him. I don't think I could deal with losing my Master too. I went outside and called my MIL who had a *major* breakdown on the phone. She really lost it with me and then I had a full blown panic attack. It was not a pretty scene. I am married to Master in sickness and in health. I have to be the strong one right now and take care of him. It's a different role for me. I'm having a hard time keeping it together right now. I want to lose it but I know that I have to be strong. Master Anakin is resting right now. He's going to be off work for a few days and needs to rest and take it easy. Usually he is the strong one who is taking care of me. This time though I need to be the strong one. There is also a chance of us going back to the hospital if he gets worse. He's on strong antibiotics. They said he had an abnormal white blood cell count. They are waiting on tests but there is some kind of infection going on with his body. He needs to be rest. I will be taking a few days break from the blog and also e-mails and Fetlife and such. I will try to keep up to date on my twitters so you can have updates. My force is not strong at the moment. I know that my biggest fear is to lose Master Anakin. He is my force and without him, I am nothing. I truly, deeply, love him. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala