A harsh punishment from Darth Vader!

I should have known better. I've been a slave for a long time. I know how it's supposed to work. I know the rules and I must follow them. I get punished when I disobey and especially when I act like a mouthy bitch. I was feeling very off yesterday. I hadn't heard from A and was starting to get a bit worried. I wish I wasn't so needy, especially after I play with someone. I've had partners who have disappeared on me after playing with me. I think that I've felt a connection with someone and then they disappear. R was very good at that. He played a lot of games. So did Daemon. I guess the games have made a lasting impression on me. I was very overtired and cranky. I've been having insomnia lately and having a hard time sleeping. I've been walking every day and been trying to follow some new strict rules. I've had some slip ups and last night was a big one. I started to act like a child and decided to throw a tantrum. I got into a big pout and went upstairs to curl up into a ball. Master came up and tried to comfort me and I pushed him away. I was angry with him. He's been a bit distracted with things lately and I felt like I wasn't getting enough attention. I told him to "go away" and "get away from me" and pushed him. I'm not sure where this burst of anger came from but it seemed to spill out of me. I said some very bad things. *blushes* The bitch in me came out and tried to take it out on Master. This is NOT allowed in our relationship at all. I knew the consequences but I didn't care in that moment. I felt angry at him and flashed some of it into his eyes. Of course this brings out Darth Vader. I was told that I was being grounded to my room and being put to bed. He got close into my face and told me to "get my ass to bed and don't say a word to him or else". It shook me up a bit and I tried to apologize which got me a harsh look. I could see that I had pushed his buttons and really angered him. I went straight to bed and had a good night's sleep. I awoke to Master who was getting the kids ready for school. He decided to take a few hours off from work to deal with things. I was told that a spanking was coming to me and to think about it while he was out dropping them off at school. He arrived with breakfast and barely spoke. I started to get nervous. I know that his silence usually means that I have really upset him. We spoke about A. He told me that I need to have more faith. I heard from A shortly after our talk through breakfast. Everything is fine. I was a silly little girl for being so nervous. I knew what was coming next. He twittered about his evil plans for my ass. I was ordered upstairs and could hear him unbuckling his belt as we got into the bedroom. The door was closed and I was ordered to lean over the bed and pull down my pants and panties. The first stroke was brutal and I could tell that this wasn't going to be an easy punishment. He was going to hurt me. I knew I had pushed him too far. I am not allowed to push him away. No more games. I'm not allowed to be a bitch and try to push him around. He was in full control. Every stroke was hard and punishing. He lectured me as a few really hard strokes took my breath away and had me trying to stay still. "Don't move bitch or your going to wish you didn't" he said to me very angry while I tried hard to keep the position. There was some hand spanking also which was extremely hard. I tried to fight him away at one point which got his hand across my face. "Who's in control..hmmm slave? Who the fuck do you think owns you?" His anger was sharp and my jaw throbbed a bit from the hit. Clothes were ripped off and panties came flying off. I thought he was going to fuck me as he started to take off his clothes. He picked his belt up again and got me to roll over so he could strap me more. I shrieked and screamed into the pillow. Some strokes were so hard that it felt like my skin had been broken open. He stopped and pulled on my hair and then spread my legs. "Little slut is soooo wet, isn't she? he teased me. His fingers penetrated my wet pussy and he started to get me very excited. He got me to get up on my knees on the bed and started to fuck me doggy style. The sex was very, very rough. I'm not sure I want to get into the details on this blog. Some of the play feels very private between Master and I. It was extreme and brutal at times. I begged him to hurt me and he gave me what I needed. He knew to take me to the darkside and beyond. I always like it when we are able to go to the edge of the cliff and then fall off it together. Rough sex is always the best after a good beating. I felt submissive and extremely horny. I begged to cum but he denied me. "You'll have to earn it, slut" he warned me. He came with a thrust into my pussy as we both fell over. Mmmm...I wanted to cum sooooo bad. I was given an offer from Darth Vader. He would give me an orgasm but I must take some strokes from the end of the bullwhip and also wooden paddle. I must not flinch and must accept them all gracefully. I tried my very best to take it well. He made it very hard at times with the strokes and licks of the whip. Then I was allowed to use my Hitachi while he pinched my nipples and whispered evil things into my ear about what he wanted to do to me and how hard he wanted to hit me. I came as soon as he gave me permission to cum for him. I layed into a ball and floated off in endorphin heaven. My ass hurt and my pussy and clit felt swollen. He told me that he was going to give me a bit more before he went off to work. This surprised me. I wasn't expecting more punishment. He felt that I needed to learn a hard lesson. I had to take 20 very hard full strokes from his belt. This is on top of the bruises and marks already that were there. I was sobbing by the third full hard stroke of the belt. I was screaming by the 5th one. He stopped at one point and told me that he was going to go a bit lighter on me and to calm down. I was sobbing and crying at this point. Tears were rolling down my cheeks. "Please Daddy....please...please I won't ever do it again. I'll be a really, really good girl." I tried to beg him. I wanted him to have mercy. Darth Vader does not grant mercy though. He's a strict Master and if you disobey the rules, you have to accept the consequences. Our marriage has domestic discipline and this is the way it works. I don't get to decide when the punishment is over. He decides and I must accept it. "I'll be a bit lighter but you must accept the rest. I can't go back on my word now. I told you that your getting 20 and you must take them" he told me as the belt came down again on my ass. One stroke was a bit lighter but then they got hard again and faster. I could barely breath when he was done. My ass was bleeding in a few spots and I was sobbing. My ass was so red and sore that I could barely sit down and I've got a reminder about my place. I will be a better slave. I need to learn to be a good girl or else I'll be meeting Darth Vader again for more punishment... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala