I've got a schoolgirl crush

I admit it. I've got a schoolgirl crush and Master thinks this is very amusing and has been making me blush about it all. I've been blogging about a young handsome Dom that I've been getting to know. I met A at the local munch and sparks flew at the last one. We've had some really good chats lately and tomorrow we have plans to get together. I'm SO nervous and feel very giddy and girlish. A intrigues me so much. There is a lot of mystery about him. I am a bit nervous about embarking on a new journey but am ready for a new road to follow. The poly part of my relationship has not been going very well the last year. I broke up with Shiro (about a year ago) and admit that it made me sour about dating anyone for a while. I will be honest...I never really had much chemistry with Shiro. I think he was a rebound for me during a difficult time in my life. I was madly in love with Daemon and threw myself into that relationship. He left me heartbroken and I turned to Shiro. I think I needed a break from the poly but was starting to get the itch towards the end of the year. I miss the poly and think that it can nice to get back into it this year. I didn't think I could meet someone again who I would feel chemistry with the way that I had with Daemon. Then I met A. He walked in the local munch and I got goosebumps. I was interested in him right away. I knew he was someone that I wanted to get to know better. I had a hard time looking into his eyes and felt a magnetic chemistry between us at the munch. A has a lot of Dom energy. I see a lot of potential for him in the kink world. I sense a darkside in him. He kind of reminds me of Master Anakin when he was younger. I think they both have a lot in common. Master Anakin has been encouraging me to get to know A. He likes him and I am glad they were able to meet. It makes it a lot easier when my Master knows who I am dating or playing with someone. A has been encouraging me with my new rules. I didn't want to get off MSN yesterday but he told me that I should go for my walk. He even said "good girl" to me a few times which made me soooooo giddy and girlish. Purrrr....I admit that a lot of our chats have gotten me wet. I've asked him to go to Rascal's next weekend. I have not been to one since Halloween and would love to go with him. I have my best times at Rascal's. I really want to go with him. I've promised him that there is no pressure. We can just go and observe the scenes going on and hang out. We don't have to play if he doesn't want to. I just enjoy the atmosphere at Rascal's and miss seeing some of my friends from the community. I hope he can go. I think this could be a lot of fun. I'm not sure where things will go with A. I guess we'll see how it goes tomorrow and go from there. .... Today was weigh in. I've lost two pounds. Woo hoo! I've kept up with my new rule of walking everyday. I plan to go for my walk as soon as I've posted this blog post. I dyed my hair cooper red and have opened up my spiritual side recently with going to church. I did wonder a few times about my church friends. I really don't think they would understand the other side of my life. DL is a traditionalist and I don't think she would ever understand my need for spankings or kink. I had an overnight last night with Master. We had no kids and a whole night to play! I'll try to write about that in the next week. We got to play on the darkside. I played with Darth Vader. *grins* :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala