Just call me Betty Cocker

Just call me Betty Cocker...Errr...I mean Betty Crocker. Being a stay at home mom can get lonely sometimes. I felt very alone today and emotional. I didn't feel like doing much of anything. But I decided to bring out my new bread maker that I got for Christmas and try making some homemade bread for the first time. I am trying to do more in the kitchen and be more domestic. This has been something that I've wanted to try for years. It seems like everyone has had a bread maker but me until now. I got the recipe from a friend on twitter and right now it's baking. It smells good. I just hope it turns out ok. *crossing fingers* I get to cross the first thing off my bucket list for 2010!! Woot! #200 -Bake homemade bread for the first time in a bread maker It's been a difficult week so far trying to get back into the normal routine again. I'm tired and also dealing with SAD and PMS starting. At least the weather is a bit better today. A nice change from the rain and darkness lately. I was able to go for my walk earlier and plan on it again this afternoon when I go to the school. It's been hard to get back into walking because of the holidays and not doing too much during them. My legs have been very sore. I know it's good for me though and Master Anakin has been really encouraging about it. I've got a personal trainer who is a very sexy stern coach who knows how to push me and get me to lose some weight and get healthy. There is a new rule now about weight. He wants me to lose one pound a week or I will get a punishment spanking. A great motivator for someone who can get lazy sometimes and be a bit of a couch potato. I have a feeling that some very big changes are on the horizon for me this year in 2010. I can feel a disturbance in the force. I do feel that good things are happening in my relationship with Master though. Our relationship is one of the only things that I am really sure of these days. I feel a deep connection to him even through our time apart this week. I am starting to realize that he might be the one of the few people who will continue on my journey with me forever and until death. Our force will always be strong... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala