A lunch date with A

I got a pleasant surprise today and a visit again from A. He was in the area and wanted to drop by and see me. It was a bit unexpected but I was glad to see him and go out for lunch together. We walked down to Subway and had lunch and a really good talk. A and I have been doing a lot of talking about our "relationship". The thing is...I really wasn't sure if we had a real relationship or it was just a Dom/sub type of play partners type of thing. It's always hard in the beginning of any poly relationship. You have to figure out what the person is looking for. Sometimes it's not the same thing as you are. I feel true feelings for A. I know that a lot of them are probably NRE (new relationship energy) and there is always a lot of lust and hormones in those first stages of a new relationship. It's like a honeymoon period and everything seems great and you get butterflies in your tummy when you see each other. NRE is a wonderful feeling but I like to try to look beyond that. I like to know that when I invest my heart, time and energy (and especially my submission) that the person is going to be around for a while. I have told A that it's important to know that we are both on the same page. We both seem to be going in the right direction though and I'm happy to be opening up to A and also learning how to serve him. We are working on some rules for me to follow around him. A few of them have been hard to remember but I'm trying. :) ... I am craving a beating right now. I've been having some thoughts today about hard discipline spankings. I need a spanking! The question is...when don't I need a spanking? I never seem to get enough! I also need some rough play and Dominance. A and I were not able to play today and I was aching for a beating from him. I had a few flashbacks of him using his belt on me yesterday. Mmm... Master Anakin and I were invited to a play party on the weekend at LB's. We are hoping to go as long as the sitting works out. We have not been to a play party together in a long time so this will be a lot of fun if it works out. That would be great to be able to play with Darth Vader this weekend! I can't wait for the weekend!! I wish it was Friday! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala