TGIF!! When does the weekend begin?

TGIF!! When does the weekend begin? I have had a lot of changes happening this week and trying to adjust to new rules for 2010. I was doing very good up until yesterday. I broke a rule last night and will be punished tonight for it. I'm nervous and it's on my mind a lot this morning. I always know that a punishment spanking is much different than a pleasurable fun one. It's going to hurt and won't be too much fun for my poor bottom. We got some bad family news this week. My father-in-law is going to need some major heart surgery soon. There are going to be some tough challenges ahead for 2010. My mother-in-law has terminal cancer and is starting her next round of chemo. My grandma is also not doing very well. It's a lot of stress. It's been hard to see Master Anakin stressed out because of what is happening with his parents. I love him even more though for taking care of his sick elderly parents. We'll get through this together because our force is strong. Leia put a virus onto our main computer and we've had to go onto our son's laptop to be on the computer. It's forced us to upgrade our computer and it will be fixed but we are ordering some parts and will take a while to fix. I'm slowly getting used to the laptop. I hope our computer will be fixed soon. Master took the day off yesterday to try and fix the computer. We wound up spending a lot of time playing together which was a nice escape from all the stress this week. I got a sore bottom and a few orgasms and we had some fantastic sex to connect us. I really needed the play. We were able to go to the darkside and he was able to take me to the edge. I begged THREE separate times for more pain. He called me a "pain slut" and sadistically laughed as me as he took his crop and thrashed my ass. I've got some very impressive bruises on my thighs from it. I felt sooooo incredibly submissive after the play. I've been thinking about it this morning and wondering how it's going to feel to get punished on top of that already sore bruised bottom. I need to learn to obey Darth Vader and remember that he owns my ass and makes the decisions. I can't break his rules for me and not expect some major attention on my ass. We have domestic discipline on our relationship and this is the way it works for Master Anakin and I. We have plans for a movie & merlot night tonight. We are hoping to do a lot of relaxing and hopefully I can catch up on some sleep that I've missed because of my insomnia. It's returned this week with all the stress. Sometimes I find that I can have more time to think when it's the middle of the night. Master Anakin and I have plans to go to church this Sunday. We went to church for Christmas Eve service and felt very welcomed and enjoyed it a lot. We have decided to give it another try and go this weekend to the service. My friend, DL and her family goes to the church and she is happy that I'm giving it a try. She's been trying to convince me to come to her church for years. Our friendship has taken a turn recently and we've become a lot closer. It feels like many friends have disappeared on me lately except for her. I am hoping to go to a Quilting class up at the church on Mondays also with DL. I think this will be an interesting new chapter in my life. It will hopefully bring out more of my spirituality and give me some peace that I have been seeking. Don't worry...I'm not going to give up my kink. I am still a spanko and a slave and that's not going to change because I'm going to church. I know that some people might not understand this decision but I need a change in my life. I have felt a disturbance in the force and know that I am going to need some spiritual guidance in my life with the tough challenges that await us this year. I hope that everyone has a good weekend! I can't wait for it to begin. I wish Master was home and we can watch a movie together. I need Darth Vader and hope that he can come out tonight with punishing me and teaching me a lesson to not break rules. I know that I need this punishment spanking. It will be a well deserved lesson and some time spent on the darkside. I just wonder how far we might go tonight...will he push me harder than he did yesterday? How far to the darkside is he willing to go? May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala