The journey of life

We got some family news today that we were waiting for. I have to admit that it's stressed me out. My father-in-law goes in for major heart surgery in less than two weeks. He is going into the same hospital which my Dad passed away in. It's going to be very strange going back to that hospital as I have not been back there since my Dad died. It's hard to believe that it's almost been a year since my Dad passed away. The anniversary of his death is coming up in May. I feel like I have slowly moved into the acceptance part of his death. I have my days where I think of him but not like I did in the beginning. I miss him a lot though. My sister is planning a very special memorial for the first anniversary of his death. This will be a good way for us to deal with that painful anniversary. I hope my FIL will be ok. I will be praying for him. I will no longer be getting any car rides so I'm on my own for a while. This is going to force me to do a lot more walking which is good for me but will be draining. There is also the family stress from this situation. Anakin's mom has terminal cancer so this will be putting a lot more strain on an already stressful situation. I will keep everyone posted as to how things go.... .... We got some exciting news today! Our new computer from Dell is coming on Friday!! Woo hoo!! We can transfer our old hard drive over to the new one and finally be able to upload pictures again!! I've missed being able to post pictures for HNT and all the different ones that we've taken over this last month. Hopefully I'll be able to post some very soon. Master Anakin is off work all of next week and will be working on getting our new computer up and running. :) Yesterday was our local munch and I was able to go with A. Master had other plans and was not able to attend. It was good to see some friends including my friend, Shann who I played with at the Dead Sexy Queer play party in October. I was able to Top her that night and enjoyed it. I commented last night that she needed a spanking and it made her blush. I'd like to see her again for coffee and maybe plan a night out with her. I think it would be a lot of fun to Top Shann again. I also met a few new friends there including someone through collarme.com who intrigued me and was interested in maybe being casual play partners. We'll have to see what happens. It feels like my plate is a bit full right now with my relationship with Master Anakin and also A. A and I are still so new to our relationship and we are still getting to know each other. I feel like I am learning more new things about him every time we talk. I admit that I'm falling for him and I have not felt this way for anyone other than Master in a very long time. It's been challenging at times but we are growing closer and establishing our roles as Dominant and submissive. I was being very good up until this morning and didn't obey him. I've got a punishment coming and I feel badly for screwing up. It's hard to get away with much when I've got Master and A riding my ass. They both make sure I'm following my rules and being a good girl. I find it very hard to get away with anything now. lol. I am supposed to be going to Sin City on Saturday with A. It seems like it never seems to work out with Sin so I hope that this time it will. I just started my period yesterday though. I hope it's over by the weekend. Sin City is having their Valentine's day celebration and I'd like to share that with A. Sunday will be spent with Master Anakin and we have plans to go out for dinner and celebrate together and also with our kids. We will be celebrating our 7 year anniversary of moving into our townhouse that day on Valentine's day. Hard to believe it's been that long!! Where did all the years go? You wake up one day and suddenly life has completely changed and my kids have grown up on me. I wouldn't change a minute of it though. I learned a lot from the death of my Dad last year. The journey of life is precious and one day you don't wake up anymore and it's over. You better enjoy it while it lasts... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala