Trouble on the darkside

Today has not been a very good day. I have disappointed both of my men today. A and I got into a pretty big fight. It was very intense and full of a lot of emotion. He told me he felt angry today and I know that it takes a lot to get him angry. He was going to come by today but I knew that wouldn't make Master too happy as I was already way behind on my chores and on thin ice with him too the last few days. I have been spending a lot of time with A lately and neglecting some other areas of my life. Juggling a poly relationship can be challenging and complicated sometimes. I think I also have PMS. I feel very hormonal and very emotional. I want to cry. I would like to be punished until I cry. This feeling has made me bitchy and lash out at my men today...in a way perhaps begging for that punishment that I so richly deserve by being such a bitch today. I wish there was a way to get rid of that bitch inside of me. She gets completely out of control sometimes. Today the bitch attacked Darth Vader. She picked the wrong time to pick a fight with him. He's got enough stress and then the bitch appears and he was not too pleased with me. There is trouble on the darkside. I am grounded for 3 days as well as will be getting a punishment from the punishment jar. He also intends to stay home from work tomorrow to deal out my physical punishment to me. I won't be around the computer much the next few days during my grounding. I have plans to be working for Darth Vader. I am sure I will be having a very sore ass as good motivation. I know Darth Vader has some very evil plans for me on the darkside. One of these days I will learn to be a better slave... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala