Six years of being a slave and wife

It's hard to believe that my six year wedding anniversary is coming up this Saturday! It is also the anniversary of signing my TPE agreement with Master Anakin. I agreed to be his wife and slave on the same day. I signed my agreement on our wedding night before we made love and he took me as my Master for the first time. That day is also the anniversary of his proposal. He got down on his knee in Las Vegas outside the Mirage Hotel and asked me to be his wife. Special memories and a great reason to celebrate. We have romantic plans for Saturday. I am so proud to be his wife and slave. We have a really good solid marriage and it's been an amazing 6 years together!! .... I had a really good Easter long weekend. I had my Friday night dinner with A and Master Anakin. I enjoyed playing with both of my Masters. I really enjoyed Anakin being home for 5 days. I even had a visit from the Midnight Caller one night. He came to visit me and jumped me and fucked my brains out!! I hope he comes to visit me again soon! :) A went on his date. It went alright but she is not too into the poly and that has become an issue and things have not worked out with A and her. I thought I'd feel a lot of angst on Saturday night while he was on his date but I didn't. I enjoyed some merlot and movie time with Master Anakin and cuddles. I am trying to work through my issues about the poly and about A wanting to date and connect with other women. I feel like I have no rights to be jealous as I am married and not able to give him what he needs. We had dinners with both sets of parent's this weekend. On Sunday we had dinner with my in-laws. It upset me to see my FIL very ill and not doing very good. He's a really good man and I am praying for him. I lost my Dad last year and would hate to see Master Anakin lose his. We've gone through some rough times in the last 6 years of marriage/13 years of being together/almost 20 years of friendship. There has been great joy and loss in all those years together. Our force has been strong through it all though. We had dinner with my mom and step-dad. This was one of the best dinners that I have had with my mom and her husband. We had a really good talk at the table. My mom called herself a "cougar" though which made me almost spit out my wine. I didn't even know that my mom had heard of that term before. She really IS a cougar though!! LMAO! She's married to a man who is half her age. I feel a bit differently towards her marriage since getting into my relationship with A. A is also half my age. I admit it's kind of surprised me to be in a similar situation as my own mom!! We are both in relationships with very young guys. My Mom seems to be happy despite a lot of challenges in her marriage. There have been a lot of challenges in my relationship with A. I feel that the odds are against us. I don't regret the journey though and have learned a lot along the way. There is a bit of a challenge going on right now. I might be buying a pregnancy test soon. My period is late and I am having some strange symptoms going on. It's made me think a lot about the possibility of what it would be like to be pregnant and have another child. I will admit my maternal instincts have been going a bit crazy lately. The biggest challenge would be having a full term baby if I am indeed pregnant. I have a history of miscarriages and there has been a lot of babies lost along my journey. I have a feeling that this is going to be a big week for me. I got a fortune cookie during Easter dinner which said "now is the time". Maybe now is the time for big changes on my journey.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala