Some sad news today

I had planned to put up an HNT picture tonight. I've decided to wait before posting it. We got some sad news today and it's been a very difficult day. My MIL got transferred into a hospice today where she will spend the last of her days. I don't think she has much time left. She has been unable to feed herself or walk without assistance. We all knew this day was coming but that doesn't make it any easier. She's not coming home again. Master Anakin went over to his parent's place and said it was a really weird and sad feeling. His mom's chair still sits there with her "to do" list by the side of it. He waved goodbye but she wasn't there. He said it was routine for him so it feels natural to him to wave even though he knows she will never be looking out the window again waving to say goodbye. It's been really hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that she won't be at anymore dinners. This Thanksgiving is going to be very difficult. It's hard to plan anything right now and it's not the same without her not there. I can't imagine what it must be like for my FIL. He was married to her for almost 50 years. They always came as a package. He's losing his soulmate and wife. I feel such intense heartbreak for my FIL. I had a last goodbye talk with my MIL a few weeks ago. She phoned me to tell me the things she needed to say. She said to take care of Master Anakin and the kids. She talked about how much she loves the grandkids and how special it's been to be a grandma. She asked me to take care of my FIL. She's worried about him. He had major heart surgery earlier this year and this is a big strain on him. Hopefully he will be ok. I know from my own personal experience that sometimes one person goes soon after the spouse. Tomorrow is the 13 year anniversary since I lost my Grandpa and he passed away from cancer. My Grandma couldn't handle it. She declined after he died. I saw her spirit start to go. Then she passed away soon afterwords. I think of them often and how much they loved each other. It's my worst fear...losing my spouse or my kids or family. Cancer sucks!! I've lost many loved ones to that disease and I start to wonder who's next. There has been so much loss through this journey. It's hard to lose loved ones along the way. Death is a part of life though. We are all on "borrowed time". One day it's going to be us sitting in a hospice bed waiting for our turn. It all goes by like the blink of an eye. Treasure each day because you don't when your last day will be. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala