 My MIL has deteriorated a lot in the last 48 hours. We have been told there isn't much time left and that the end is near. This is a very difficult process for the family. It's much different than when my dad passed away from a heart attack. I got the news and it was shocking but I never saw my Dad suffer or waste away like cancer does to you. It's an awful disease. Horrible....horrible.....horrible disease. Cancer sucks!!
I've never been to a hospice before. It's a very peaceful place but also very sad. My MIL recognized us and was able to open her eyes a bit but was very jaundiced looking and frail and weak. I'm very shocked at how much different she looked even in a few days. I've known my MIL for 20 years. I can't imagine what our family is going to be like without her. My heart breaks for the loss in our family. She will be greatly missed.
This has been really hard on my kids especially. My son doesn't seem to fully understand and my teen is pretty withdrawn. They were very close to their grandma. This is very hard on them both. They both got to spend some time with her this morning.
Master Anakin is very sad and has leaned on me a lot the last few days. He cried on my shoulder today after getting the news that there isn't much time left and it can happen at anytime. He is usually a very strong man but losing a mother can break even the strongest. He is very close to his mom and they had a good relationship. I wish I could make things better for him. This has been very hard on him. The same with my FIL. He's having a very difficult time too.
I am not sure how much I will be blogging or on the computer for the next few days. The family is in crisis and our time is being spent with going back and forth to the hospice. I hope that my MIL will find peace soon. May the force be with her....
~padme amidala
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I'm glad you used one of My pictures for this post. This gull making a slow turn beneath the clouds with the sun rising is beautiful. This is hard, life is hard, we were very, very close, and now it seems everything makes me think of her; it's all part of the process of life, and it hurts, and she is beautiful, and peace will come soon enough, and I thank her for the million memories and the endless, undying love she gave us all.
~Anakin
I know I haven't commented much here, but I wanted to send out my condolences.
My sister-in-law was only 36 when cancer took her away on June 27th of this year. Like you, we had to watch her drift away. It was horrible and awful and beautiful at the same time.
Your MIL will be fine, it's the ones left behind that are left with a big hole in their hearts.
I will pray for you and your family.
HUGS!
grace
I'm so sorry to hear about your MIL. My thoughts are with you and your family.
*hugs*
turiya
Hang in there you two. Sending you some warm thoughts...
A note from a quiet reader....
My heart goes out to you both. I know exactly what you are going through. My own mother lost her fight with cancer in a hospice one week ago today. I know what it is like to watch your mother/MIL waste away day by day. She finally let go and is no longer miserable. For her I am grateful. The family, we are sad. Riding the emotional roller coaster. Take care, be good to yourselves and each other.
Sending healing and peaceful vibes,
~azra
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