Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Happy HNT - Pink bottom with black lace panties

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! It's almost the long weekend! Master Anakin starts his Easter holiday weekend tomorrow and has 5 days off!! It's going to be great to spend the time together. Lots of plans for the weekend and hopefully a nice Easter holiday. I'm hoping for lots of play on the darkside with Darth Vader. I miss playing with him.

This picture was taken on New Year's eve 2009. I was wearing some sexy red lingerie and black lace panties. Master Anakin had spanked my ass a little making it pink. He gave me an erotic spanking that night as it was romantic and special. It's a pink bottom with black lace panties! We hope you enjoy the picture. Please leave us a comment. We'd love to hear from you. Please click on the picture to get a better look.

Speaking of spankings....I got a punishment one from A today. I broke a few rules and he came over and punished me. Many impliments were used on my ass including the cane and wire coat hanger which are ones that are not often used. He is the third Dom who has used a cane on me. He's the second person ever to use the wire coat hanger. That is Anakin's favorite toy and it hurts like you wouldn't believe!!

I have said that it makes it feel like my ass is being torn up and is welted and bleeding. I've got some very impressive welts and bruises from the punishment to remind me of my place. Many toys were used on my poor bottom. I had asked him a few times over the last few days for a hard strapping with his belt and he was happy to oblige. A can really swing a belt! Same with the whip. My bum is sore to sit on and I'm going to try harder to follow the rules. Next time I will try to be a better slave.

It's been a rough few days. I have not blogged much and am still processing a lot of what has happened. It's been a very challenging time for A and I. Having a poly relationship can be very difficult sometimes. We are trying to work through our issues. The journey continues...

Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interesting in participating in the HNT series.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Sunday, March 28, 2010

My second time at Sin City with A

What a wild night!! It was the type of night which didn't start off to great but got better as the night went on. I had a date with A and spent most of the day getting ready for it. He told me to make sure I was ready in time and I managed to by 5 pm when he arrived on time. We headed out to Burnaby. We decided to stop at Metrotown Mall to eat. I had to giggle when A mentioned going to the food court to eat dinner. I'm a spoiled princess and the food fair (which is a total gong show usually) was not where I wanted to eat. I topped from below a bit with suggesting somewhere else to eat. I was glad that we didn't go to Red Robin which was Daemon and I's place to eat. We went to Boston Pizza. I had a few flashbacks of Daemon. A seemed to notice that I was distracted a few times.

We headed to the play party early. I have not been to a party at LB's in a very long time. I had told A all about the parties and how exciting they usually are. I have to admit...his party was a total bust. Things have really changed. Hardly anyone showed up. The music was very slow like elevator music. The only people I knew there was my ex's and there was a lot of awkward silences. There was no energy in the room and hardly anyone was playing. I didn't want to sit around all night watching my ex's play. I didn't expect to play so it felt like a bit of a disappointment.

I was able to show A around though and did enjoy being back at LB's. He has a great place with a dungeon in his basement. I saw my name on the chalk board which was still there from my last party of his!! I was surprised to see that. His parties used to be great and lots of energy there. I'm not sure what's changed.

I talked to A and asked him if he might consider going to Sin City instead. It was still early and I wanted to recover the evening and do something fun. A was a bit worried that I might not get into Sin City. I had my PVC skirt but the top was not appropriate for it. So I had to phone Master Anakin and ask him to meet us half way so I could get my red corset from him.

There was a problem with the car and I got worried that we might not be leaving at all!! A couldn't get the steering wheel to turn. The night felt like a bust at that point but someone was able to help us so we could go meet Master Anakin. We got the corset and were on our way to Sin City. I had been there for Valentine's day with A so this was my second time there. There was a bit of a line-up and it took us a while to get in.

We ran into friends outside and inside of Sin. It's always neat to see different people from the bdsm community there. A got me a drink (gin and coke. No vodka for me!) and we enjoyed some socializing. We also got our picture taken there. I was on my knees and A was pulling my hair. I wore his collar too which made me feel very submissive.

Things seem to be going a lot better with A and I. He's been more controlling and taken more of the lead. There was several reminders last night of my place. He likes to pull my hair or bite me. I was lead around and followed him like a puppy dog. We had a fight at the last Sin City but this time was a lot better. We had so much connection and chemistry happening, especially on the dance floor. We had an audience with our dirty dancing. He had me pushed up against the speaker which was vibrating. We practically had sex with our clothes on. The dancing was very dirty. Lots of grinding up against each other. The heat was coming off of us!! We worked up a sweat as we danced.

I really enjoy the eye candy at Sin City. Lots of handsome men in uniforms and sexy women in corsets or lingerie. You see lots of tits and ass there!! I was checking out the women and got a chance to dance with a beautiful blonde there!! My bisexual feelings came out very strong as I grabbed a hold of her hips and grinded up against her. I could smell her pussy while I danced low enough to get close to it. A seemed to be enjoying the show and joined us for a sandwich while we all danced together. It was sooooooo hot!!! She was so cute!! I wanted to take her home with me but was too shy to ask. She did come over to us to get my name though and talk to me. :)

I noticed a vendor there selling corsets and stuff so I went over to take a look. A and I looked through the corsets and I saw one which stood out. It looked so sexy with the red and black colors and lace which is feminine as well as sexy. I'm putting up a picture of it so you can see what it looks like. It only cost $40!!! What a deal!! I couldn't believe what a deal it was for such a beautiful corset. I just had to get it!! I didn't want to take it off as soon as it was put on me. It fit me perfectly. I'll try to have a picture of me wearing it soon for everyone to see!

I thought about asking for a spanking at one point of the evening but the dungeon there isn't too great and I was also sore from all the play on Friday with A and also Master Anakin. I got 50 strokes with the wire coat hanger on Friday night after playing with A earlier in the day. My ass is still marked and quite bruised. The itch to play wasn't as strong as usual because of that.

I did lots of dancing and really enjoyed the wild atmosphere there. I love the energy at Sin City!! I love their music there! Some great rave and dance music including hits from the 80's. I loved watching people dancing to "Beautiful People by Marilyn Manson". It took me back to my club days when I used to go to a club called Luv Affair which was the place that I first heard that song. The dance floor got WILD when that song was on!! I loved watching it from the second floor with A who grinded up against me. We made out like crazy and enjoyed a lot of connection and energy together. We got onto the couch at one point and enjoyed making out. I watched other couples who were making out too at that point. It turned me on so much! My panties were very wet.

Sin City is a really great escape from reality and a bit of a fantasy world. Lots of neat costumes and people and high energy. We got to stay until the very end and was surprised by what time it was. I got lost with all the excitement and having such a great time!! I could barely walk because my feet were killing me!! The goth boots just about killed my feet from all the dancing. I was almost crying from the pain on my feet as we walked back to the car. It hurt!! I normally like pain but not this kind!! I had a big blister on my one foot. I can barely walk today from it!!

I had some vodka in the car which I had planned to take to LB's party. I drank some of it to help with the pain. I think I drank too much though!! My head was spinning as we got back to my place. I was glad that I did not have a curfew last night!! It was close to 5 am as we pulled up. I asked A to come inside. I wanted him to fuck me. He was not allowed to stay over but it was ok if he came in for a quick visit.

We went into the basement and things started to happen very quickly. My new panties came off and all I wore was my new corset as A entered my pussy and fucked me hard. No orgasm for me. It was all about A. I wanted him to fuck me and leave me. I felt degraded but it really turned me on. I kissed his feet as he got dressed. He told me to clean up and he left after he had fucked me. I felt like a slave in that moment and it turned me on like crazy.

I am a bit embarrassed to admit that I don't remember too much of the sex. I had drank a lot of alcohol through the night and it went straight to my head as we fucked. I was a drunk horny slut and needed to get fucked. I cleaned up and then went straight to bed at 6 am!! I've had very little sleep and am still buzzing from a very wild and crazy night at Sin City with A!! I am enjoying my journey with A and all the adventures that we have shared.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Friday, March 26, 2010

Spank me! It's the only way I'll learn!

TGIF!! I am really glad it's the weekend. I've had a really nice Friday so far and wanted to share a picture of my new panties!! I bought them while I was out with A today in Fort Langley at a Halloween store there. We went on a date there after we played together earlier. I have been feeling disconnected from A lately and was really nervous about seeing him. There was no expectations about playing together but I got into a bit of the Russian vodka and was a needy pain slut that needed some pain.

The play was pretty rough and brutal. I encouraged him to be mean to me which he was happy to do. He used the paddles a lot and chain flogger as well as the suede flogger too. The whip was very mean and cut into my flesh in several places on my ass. He also used his belt on me which is my favorite of all the toys he used. I squirmed around and got very sassy in the beginning of the spanking which only encouraged him to get meaner with me. I have a sore bottom tonight to remind me of my place. I needed the beating and Master Anakin was very impressed with the bruises on my ass. He told me that he was glad that I got my beating.

My pussy got very wet from the spanking play we had. The vodka always goes straight to my pussy too. I was a very horny girl!! I was allowed to have an orgasm with my Hitachi and he put clothespins all over my tits and some on my legs. He used his fingers in my pussy which drove me crazy. He also fucked me with the Rabbit vibrator and gave me a very big g-spot orgasm which made me scream out in pleasure and was incredible!!

We had sex afterwords and connected. We were going to try to make it a vanilla type of date today but I take full responsibility for the sex that we had. I phoned Master Anakin at work to make sure it was ok and get permission to fuck my young lover. He wanted us to try to control our hormones for our date but I couldn't help myself. I wanted A so bad and his cock felt amazing in my tight pussy. My pussy had tightened up after my g-spot orgasm and made the sex feel incredible!!

It was wonderful to cuddle up close to A and feel connected again. I had really missed him. We went out on a date this afternoon to Fort Langley. We have gone there before but it was at night and raining and most of the places were closed at that time. Today we were able to do some shopping.

We stopped a Halloween store there which had some neat corsets and interesting stuff including a new pair of panties which said "Spank me! It's the only way I'll learn!". A said there was no way I was leaving that store without the panties. lol! They are so cute and I can't wait to wear them to a private play party I am going to tomorrow at LB's. I have a date tomorrow with A to go with him to the play party and plan to wear my new spanking panties!! :)

We went to a 50's diner there which is one of my favorite places to eat. A bought me chocolate ice-cream for dessert which was so yummy!! We walked around a few other stores and then headed down to the park near the Fraser River. It's so pretty there and tranquil. I find that it always clears my head to go there. The walk along the river was romantic and I felt so connected to A. We really needed that time together.

I sent off a twitter which made A remark that I "might have a problem with being addicted to twitter". lol. Hmmm...what do you think? It's hard because I know how to twitter from my cell phone now so I can update while I'm out. I did something kind of corny but thought it was a neat touch. I texted him while we were out. He didn't know who I was sending the text to until he heard his cell phone go off. That made him smile. :)

We went to a chocolate shop which was hard to leave without buying. I tried to be a good girl with my diet and it was hard to slip up with A monitoring it. We had a nice drive back and he dropped me off and we said goodnight. It's been a really nice day. The weather feels like spring and that's helped my mood a lot too. Things feel good with both of my men right now. I am looking forward to spending some time with Anakin tonight. Tomorrow I have my date to LB's play party with A. It should be a fun and interesting weekend. I'm sure I'll have lots to blog about!

Enjoy your weekend!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Happy HNT - Schoolgirl paddling

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I wanted to put up a picture today that was taken during some play time with Master Anakin last week. I was dressed up as a naughty schoolgirl and he was paddling my bad bottom with the wooden paddle. That sure makes my bum red very quickly!!

Being a naughty schoolgirl is always a great way to earn a paddling. I just wiggle my ass a little in my schoolgirl skirt and tempt him to paddle me hard.

Please leave us a comment on our picture. We'd love to hear from you. Is there any type of spanking picture that you'd like to see here at Journey to the Darkside? Do you think I need another hard paddling?

Check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

The Midnight Caller

I have been in a very dark mood lately. Last night I could feel Darth Vader's darkside right before bed. He wanted to hurt me. I could see it in his eyes. I could feel his Dominance. But there were kids downstairs and responsibilities. Sometimes it never seems to end.

We grab hold of those moments we can be together as Master and slave. Sometimes that means having late nights or him having to take time off from work. I wish I could be a caged slave who was in bondage 24/7.

He made me a promise as he tucked me into bed. He kissed me on the forehead and told me a bedtime story as I drifted off to sleep. He told me about the dark dreams of a slave girl. The slave girl was going to get a visit from "The Midnight Caller" he warned me. His voice sounded menacing. I was wet and intrigued.

"The midnight caller, Master? Who's that?" I asked almost afraid of the answer.

"You'll see" he warned me. "He's a big bad man with a very big knife. He's going to wake you suddenly and put his hand over your mouth so you can't scream out. Then he's going to rape you, bitch. He's going to hurt you bad."

I saw the look of Darth Vader in his eyes. The darkside was coming out and there wasn't anything I can do to stop it. His sadism is never satisfied until I'm hurting and broken. He wanted to mind fuck me last night and he did it. I was a little afraid but very horny over the prospect of a visit from the Midnight caller.

I woke up disappointed that the visit did not happen last night. He fell asleep and felt bad that we didn't have a chance to play on the darkside. He promised me tonight that he will be coming to visit me and that I'd better be ready for the Midnight Caller.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Monday, March 22, 2010

Questions about serving two Masters

I got an e-mail today from my good friend, Obi-Wan who had some really great questions about my poly dynamic with A and Master Anakin and I. I serve two Masters and obey they both. It's been an interesting journey for me this year with A coming into my world. He has joined Master Anakin and I on our journey.

Question: "Is there a kind of "chain of command" when it comes to your Masters? Like, does Master Anakin have veto if A and Him disagree with a particular course of action regarding you? "

Answer: my Master Anakin is my Owner and he has final say when it comes to me. This was spelled out in my contract with A and was important to keep clear when it came to building my M/s dynamic with A. Master Anakin will always have more say than any other of my poly partners because he is my husband as well as my Master. He is my Owner and owns my ass. Anyone who becomes involved with me knows that right off the bat.

He is the father of my children and we have our life together. He has known me a long time and we share a very powerful dynamic which is between Owner and property. A is my Master but not my Owner. He can not make decisions on things like body modifications or tattoos or even anal sex. There were a few limits which were made clear when our contract was written up. I plan to share that contract very soon in a separate blog post.

Question: Is there any Jealousy?

Answer: I admit there have been moments that I have been a bit jealous. It was hard for me to hear about A making out with those girls at Sin City on his birthday weekend and felt some jealousy. I'm trying to be better about it as I know that we are poly and he's going to want to add more partners in our relationship at some point.

It's all a delicate dance and there is always a bit of jealousy when dealing with the emotions of poly. I have been reluctant to play with anyone else or add anymore partners though for myself. I feel like I have enough to deal with in serving two Masters. I've had a lot of offers lately but that isn't a path that I want to follow right now. Maybe one day I'll want to add more people into our dynamic but for now I'm busy enough trying to juggle both Masters and keeping them both happy.

A and Master Anakin have not been too jealous with one another. I think they both might get a bit jealous sometimes if I get to spend more time with one partner over the other. You might want to ask them that question about jealousy. I'd be curious to hear what they would both say.

Question: "Will there ever be a day when you and your two Masters all play together? I think it would be incredible to read about Master Darth taking the young Master A under his wing and teaching him the ways of the Dark Side. Him teaching A the quickest and ouchiest ways to get your attention! ;) lol. I could really imagine how hot a fantasy that must be for you, being used roughly by both your Masters at once. Serving them, like the good lil girl you are! "

Answer: I admit that this is a huge fantasy of mine. I've had a threesome with two Masters before and it was damn HOT!! Master Anakin and Master R and I had a few threesomes together. They were some of the hottest experiences of my life.

We are hoping to have A over for dinner sometime soon and perhaps I will get the chance to serve both of my lovers. Master Anakin has offered to mentor A and help him on his journey to the darkside. I know he'd be happy to take him under his wing and teach him the ways of the darkside. I can imagine them both being very mean to me if they ever get together though. I think it could be a pretty intense night with playing with them both.

We can all have dinner together which I will cook and serve them. The guys want to watch a Star Wars movie and bond over a few beers. Maybe the darkside might get brought up and some play might happen. It would make an interesting night. I don't like to make too many expectations though so it avoids any disappointment. We'll have to see what happens...

It's a VERY hot fantasy though!! I hope one day I might get the chance to live that fantasy of a threesome with my two lovers. I would love to serve them both sexually at the same time. *smiles*

Question: "So I guess what I'm asking is because Master Anakin/Darth came first, and is your husband, does he get final say? Or is it an equal 50/50 and they both have to agree?"

Answer: Master Anakin is my Owner and he will always have final say when it comes to me. I belong to him. A knew that going into our dynamic that he would be second in command. He seems fine with that arrangement. Maybe at some point he'll have his own slave and our dynamic might change again.

The poly arrangement has been challenging at times. On Friday there was a conflict between the two men. A wanted me to go for my walk (he's trying to control more aspects of my life) but I ran out of time and then was spending time with Master Anakin who wanted me to spend a night relaxing with him. Master Anakin got a bit irritated with A for trying to step on his toes and there was some conflict. This isn't an easy arrangement. There has had been a lot of communicating and some struggles and bumps along the road. There are moments which make me wonder if I was crazy for having a second Master to serve who is half my age.

I am calling A Master but yet he's still young and learning. Maybe we jumped into the M/s too early. I guess time will tell. I just wonder if the M/s will be able to work out sometimes. Sometimes I have my doubts. Things are running smoother in my relationship with A though but it's also had a lot of pressure too with this new change in our relationship. I am trying to serve two Masters and this is not an easy job. Hopefully this special dynamic will be able to continue for a long time and there is lots more on this journey to learn and experience.

I love both of my men a lot and am happy and proud to be serving two Masters. It's kept me on my toes with having them both kicking my ass and keeping me in line. It's also very arousing too and inspired a few orgasms!

Thank you for the great questions Obi-Wan. If anyone has any other questions for me (on my poly dynamic or anything else) please feel free to contact me at shyanne.blog@gmail.com.

We have a new poll up on our sidebar asking me if I need a spanking. What do you think? Should both of my lovers spank me?

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Darth Vader is cracking the whip!

It's amazing how much you can get done when Darth Vader is cracking the whip!! My place looks and smells great. I spent several hours working on projects and housework. I feel very controlled and it's helped me to have a productive weekend. I did weigh-in today which didn't go so well. I have gained a few pounds and gotten a bit lazy about my eating habits.

I tried to be a lot better this weekend with my walking and being a good slave. A and Master Anakin have both been kicking my ass. I feel very submissive and controlled by both of my men. I have marks and bruises all over my ass from the play over the last week.

I still have whip marks on my ass from the whipping that A gave to me last Monday when he became my other Master. I've enjoyed some dark text messages with A. I walked along the beach while getting them yesterday and felt like I was in subspace just from getting them. He gets into my head sometimes and the dark fantasies took over yesterday.

A's darkside intrigues me so much sometimes and arouses me. I admit that I've been thinking about our night at Gabby's a lot lately when he used his belt on me in the public park because I had been a naughty girl. I can still hear the sounds of the belt coming through the loops and that anticipation of the punishment spanking that I knew was coming. That moment goes through my mind a lot when I am doing my errands and chores. It makes my pussy throb and get very wet and want to get out the Hitachi.

This weekend was also a fun one. I went and saw The Green Zone with Matt Damon on Friday with Master Anakin. It was great to go out on a date together. I had a hot bath and relaxed. We were going to play lightly that night but didn't get a chance. Saturday was a beach day! I got to spend some time with my sister who was in town this weekend. We went to White Rock beach and walked around the pier and beach.

We had fish n chips and went shopping as well as had a really good talk about the poly. A told his family about me this weekend too. He said that it went well although his mom thinks it's all a phase. My sister had thought the same thing about the poly. The "phase" for Master Anakin and I have lasted 13 years and is continuing. I would like to meet A's family sometime. I am not very happy that I have not been able to see where A lives or any parts of his life. It feels like he's had full access to my life and comes over and even got to meet my kids. I hope one day he will let me get a glimpse into his life too. I miss A and have not seen him since last Wednesday. We were supposed to get together but he's come down with a cold this weekend.

Last night was spent on the darkside with Darth Vader. We watched the movie The Crazies which was a very freaky movie. I got to wear a butt plug up my ass for several hours to remind me of my place. We had some play time for several hours. He used his belt, whip and wire coat hanger on my ass til it bled. Made me scream and moan and beg for mercy which he did not give me. The play was rough. The sex was great!! The orgasms were intense. I needed that beating and was glad to feel centered and connected to Master Anakin. He has been barking orders at me all day and we've both gotten lots done.

Our 6 year wedding anniversary is coming up in April. I've been hoping that we can maybe get away for a weekend or a holiday soon. I've missed the romance and passion. There's been plenty of darkside play lately but I need to feel loved and seduced too sometimes. I don't think there is anything better than hotel sex!! Our anniversary is a great reason to get away and have some romantic love together.

My force feels strong with Darth Vader cracking the whip!!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Friday, March 19, 2010

TGIF! Glad it's almost the weekend!

TGIF! I'm glad it's almost the weekend. It's a bright sunny day and I'm feeling better than I have in a long time. I've been able to connect and play with both of my men this week. Things seem to be running smoother with A since he's become my other Master.

This week has been a pretty good one, especially towards the end of it. I was able to play on the darkside with Darth Vader yesterday. He stayed home because he was sick. Apparently he wasn't too sick to give me a spanking!! We spent several hours playing together. Things got pretty rough and dark. I'm still trying to process my feelings from it all.

He did allow an orgasm after I bargained with the mean old man. I had to take more pain on my already sore ass in order to get out of my orgasm denial which was supposed to be til today. I had to pay the price with pain and also do a lot of begging before he finally let me cum. I squirted all over the place and had a huge orgasm which over took my whole body. It left a huge mess all over the bed. The sex was great too! Rough doggy style with the butt plug up my ass and his cock in my pussy at the same time. I almost came just from the pleasure of it all.

It seems like I am always venturing into new dark territory with Darth Vader. Sometimes he takes me places that scare me and mind fuck me the most. Yesterday he got inside my mind and struck fear in me which got me nervous and wet at the same time. The beating was a hard one. The darkside play was rough and violent. The crash from the play went into last night and left me feeling completely broken and submissive. I had no insomnia last night and slept like a rock. I feel so centered and peaceful right now. I got my chores done this morning and I've been behaving a lot better this week.

My sister is arriving soon and then I have a movie date with Master Anakin later. We are going to see the new Matt Damon movie called The Green Zone! It looks great! The Bourne Identity is one of my favorite movies. Matt Damon is SO hot!! I've got a big crush on him. I love his movies and can't wait to go see it later! My force is feeling very strong today...

Have a great weekend!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Happy HNT - Spank me panties

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I went looking through our archives today to try to find a picture which suits my mood today. This one seems very appropriate. I am wearing my "spank me" panties and lifting up my cheerleader skirt. It seems like I always need a spanking. Today I needed a punishment one and A was happy to come over and give it to me. I admit that I've been a bit out of hand lately with my men.

I think I've driven them both crazy with my bitchy attitude and mouthy behavior. I don't know what has gotten into me lately. I think there are several triggers which are affecting me. I've also had insomnia problems too. I was in bed by 7 pm last night after being grounded to my room.

Darth Vader has not been pleased. I knew that I had gone too far yesterday when I hung up on him at work. This is a very big rule and could tell I was in big trouble when I heard the sound of his voice on the answering machine. This earned me 30 with the wire coat hanger and also orgasm denial until Friday. No orgasms for a bitchy out of control slave.

The man gives to me and he takes it away. He has told me that I need strict control more than ever. Lots of threats have been made about being grounded from the computer and also going into isolation for a few days. I better get into line or I'm going to be a slave with a very sore bottom. I am sitting on one right now for disrespecting my other Master.

I had attitude with A today too. He is my other Master now so I can't get away with it. He decided to come over and pay me a little visit today. Promises of hurting me and giving me some much deserved pain. I've been itching for it....craving it...and needing it badly. There were text messages back and forth yesterday which made the itch worse. A knows how to get inside my head sometimes.

Master Anakin told me that I needed a beating today. He has been displeased with my disobedience lately. He said that A should come over and beat me hard. I felt ganged up on by my men. There was no getting out of it. I was a bitch and was going to pay the price. My panties were wet before he even arrived.

He told me that I was "dripping wet" before the spanking even began. I had wetness running down my legs. We went upstairs and I was punished with many different toys including the chain flogger which I hate. I had to take 20 hard ones with that one and count them out. He also used many of the paddles which leaves a sting and burning feeling. He used the different paddles very hard and made me squirm out and hurt my bum!

I have to admit that I giggled a few times when I shouldn't have. I can't help myself sometimes. I got strict control at that point and some really hard strokes and pain. A is a true sadist. I've got to see that darkside, especially since he's become my other Master. He spanks hard!! My ass has countless bruises and marks from all the attention it's received lately from my Masters. I asked him to use his belt on me at the end. I really longed for it and needed it desperately.

He took off his belt (I love his new one so much!! It's my personal favorite) and gave me a very hard strapping. I could feel my wetness all over my legs at that point. I don't remember moving much at that point. I just took the pain which I needed so much. I was gone in endorphin heaven. I had a very deep subspace as he used his belt on me. I needed that beating badly. My ass bled and the punishment was over. I got a few slaps and rough body play which was great foreplay and excited me greatly.

No orgasms for me but I still had to sexually submit to A. I sucked on his cock and gave him a bit of a hand job before he decided to fuck me. I didn't need any lubricant as my pussy was soaking wet from all the pain. The sex was great!!! I have been fucked by both of my lovers in the last 24 hours. I got fucked from Master Anakin in the middle of the night. I got fucked by A this afternoon. I am a very lucky girl. The orgasm denial has built up inside of me where I am extremely aroused right now and hardcore s/m fantasies are going around in my head. I want more control from my Masters and more pain. It seems like I can never have enough.

I got some corner time before making A some lunch after we were together. I got some time to cuddle with him and be at his feet and then it was time to go back to reality. I wish we had more time together but hopefully will see him again soon. I feel a lot more centered and submissive. I needed my beating today and am glad to have such strict Masters that can give it to me. Thank you Master Anakin and A! I love you both very much. :)

Please leave us a comment on our HNT picture and let us know what you think. I think they are very cute panties and always gets Master Anakin's attention. He knows what I am needing when I wear them. It drops a very big hint.

Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interesting in participating in the HNT series.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Monday, March 15, 2010

A becomes my other Master

Today has been a pretty big day for me. I have two Masters again. I used to have two Masters years ago when Master R was my Master and also Master Anakin. I broke up with R though and never really considered having a second Master again until A came into my life. A has been my Dominant the last few months but we decided to take the next step and make it official. We had both been wanting more of a M/s (Master/slave) relationship. I was wanting him to take more control and he was hoping to go down that dark path with me. Today we both signed a contract which is a trial period of 3 months to see how it will go with him being my other Master and I am his slave.

There was a lot of discussion with A, Master Anakin and I before we entered into the contract and took the next step. It's going to be very interesting having two Masters and serving them both. I plan to post my rules with A and also our contract at some point in the future for everyone to see.

A came over early this morning and dealt out my punishment which has been adding up the last two weeks. We have been unable to have some play time and this one was going to be intense and I knew it. I broke a few rules and was very bitchy at times. I was warned that he was going to "make me bleed" and that it was going to be a very rough punishment. I was so extremely nervous as we headed up the bedroom with the toys. He used several toys on me including his new belt. He tested it out on me and I noticed it's a lot meaner than his other one. He also used his old one so I could see the difference between them. He used the paddles and also the homemade whip which was *very* mean!!

I tried to call him a "bastard" at one point because he did a low blow on one of my thighs which hurt so much. He beat my ass, back and also my tits. The spanking was intense. A spent a lot of time flogging me and that was very hard. I enjoyed the beating a lot. The last part was very, very rough. He used the whip on me 5 times and made me count out the strokes which brought on tears and left some very nasty bruises on my ass. It also made my ass bleed in a few spots. I could barely count out the strokes due to the severe pain that I was feeling from the whip. I could see A's darkside today as he punished me and caused me a lot of pain from the spanking.

When it was over we did a bit of a ceremony before signing the contract. He asked me if I would take him as my Master and I agreed. He agreed to be my other Master. It felt like a very powerful moment as we signed it. I take it very seriously that I am his slave now as well as Master Anakin's. My men are both very important to me and I love them a lot. A gave me a slave name which is "atra" which means dark in latin. It's a very pretty slave name and I'm glad to have that.

We fucked and connected and then I was allowed permission to have an orgasm with my Hitachi on my clit and his fingers in my pussy. He used some clothespins on my nipples and ripped them off at one point which made me feel like my nipples were on fire. I begged to cum and he gave me permission and I screamed out during my orgasm which he said was "very loud".

I was very, very wet though and excited after the punishment and all the control he was giving me and our connection. We cuddled and connected and then I gave him a massage and enjoyed some time wearing his shirt. I love his scent and really enjoyed the feeling of having his shirt on. He took pictures of my ass including the one I am putting up today of the bruises from the play and I am wearing his shirt.

We enjoyed some time together before heading downstairs for lunch. I was at his feet as he tried to make a new toy after we had lunch. I felt sooooo submissive in that moment and slave like. It was a beautiful moment which made me feel so close to A. I love that he is my other Master now. I love that I am giving over more control to him in our relationship. We are coming up to our 3 month anniversary together and things are going very well with us. I had no idea that he would become so important to me and a big part of my life. I am very proud to be his slave. :)

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Sunday, March 14, 2010

A punishment caning

Yesterday was a horrible day for me. I wound up having a very big fight with Darth Vader which was one of the worst we have had in a very long time. We don't fight very often and this one left me in tears and feeling very upset. It had been building up during the day as I had worked hard in getting ready for Skywalker's birthday party which is today. We did carpet cleaning and got our place ready for it but there was a lot of stress happening at the same time. My father-in-law went back into the hospital with blood clots and complications from his surgery. Last week was Spring break and I was not able to get as much done as I had hoped for the party. There has been a lot of family stress happening and lead up to the horrible fight with Master Anakin.

I said some things that I regret and didn't handle it very well. I broke a big rule and this lead to us working it out last night with the cane. Couples that don't have a M/s relationship usually work out their fights a lot differently than I do in my relationship. Things get resolved with domestic discipline. I get punished and then it's behind us and we move on from it. This is how we connect with each other. We have a very strong relationship and I believe it's from the domestic discipline.

I had written about the cane in our HNT post. I don't remember the last time I got it and it was well deserved for a being a very bad girl yesterday. I was out of control and didn't handle things well. Master Anakin lectured me and then I got the riding crop to warm up my ass for the punishment with the cane. I had forgotten just how much it hurts!! OMG!! The first stroke took my breath away and lead to tears very quickly. It was brutal. He took pictures and I am putting one of them up today for you to see what my ass looked like. It was well striped and it's sore today as a reminder of my place.

I had a butt plug put up my ass for hours and got my ass fucked hard as punishment also. Master was very rough about it. I was denied an orgasm because of the punishment. He doesn't want me to associate any pleasure from the cane. It's strictly used for punishment in our relationship. The cane broke me last night and made me cry and regret my actions. I need to learn to be a better slave.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Friday, March 12, 2010

TGIF!! Happy birthday Skywalker!

TGIF!! Today is Skywalker's 9 birthday and a very special day for our family. I can't believe how much my baby boy has grown up. It seems like yesterday that I was holding my miracle baby in my arms and watching Master Anakin with tears in his eyes as I gave birth to our son. I had a moment with my son this morning which brought tears to my eyes.

I snuggled him close and told him all about the day he was born. I am getting teary eyed thinking of it. I always wanted to be a mom but that journey was hard. I lost a lot of babies along the way. My pregnancy with my son was very difficult but worth it. Skywalker is such a smart kid and just like his Dad. He's a Dom in training. He's going to be just like his Dad. I am a very proud Mom. :)

We are planning a very big family birthday on Sunday to celebrate and I've got a lot of work to get done for it. We have not hosted a big birthday like this in years. My head is spinning when I think of all the work that needs to get done. I will not be on the computer much and will be very busy this weekend. I will not be able to attend any events because of it.

Today is also my wedding anniversary but not with Master Anakin. It's with my first husband, Brad. (not his real name) We were married 16 years ago in a beautiful big romantic ceremony. We spent 9 months planning that wedding and it took about a year before it went downhill. It makes me feel sad in many ways to think about. I must be one of the few people on this planet who had their lover's baby on the same day as their wedding anniversary with their other husband. I tried to get my Doctor to change the date but he just laughed and told me he couldn't as it was a planned c-section. It always makes me feel a bit weird.

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I knew that I wasn't going to be able to see A until next week so I made arrangements to see him last night. We went to Red Robin for dinner. A has been a lot more Dominant lately and taken more control in our relationship. Thing seem to be running a lot smoother than they were. I have to admit that it has been turning me on lately with him being so Dominant with me. I feel like I can get away with very little now with two of my men watching my every move. :)

We enjoyed dinner together and a really yummy chocolate dessert. I'm a lucky girl to be so spoiled. We wanted to spend some time together so we went to Fort Langley to park and go for a walk. It was very calm there and romantic but started to rain. I didn't mind but A doesn't like the cold so we went back to the car. We fogged up the windows with our heat from making out and our passion. I felt a moment at one point where there was so much chemistry between us. I wanted him badly but I am on my period and his car is quite small to do anything in.

I was very curious to see his new belt which he had bought earlier in the day. He was happy to show it to me by taking it off. I think my jaw dropped a bit when I saw how much thicker and meaner looking it looks from his other one. His other one was breaking and he needed a new one. Yikes!! Of course, this really turned me on also. It was all I could think about last night as I headed to bed. I can't wait until he can test it out on me. *smiles* He sent me a few text messages about it which drove me crazy and made it hard to sleep. I tossed and turned and had images in my head about him using that new belt on my ass. I need a beating from A soon! It's been too long. :)

I did get a beating from Darth Vader the other night with the wire coat hanger and belt and whip. We hope to play this weekend as my period is at the end and I'm aching for one. My force feels strong today. I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Happy HNT - A schoolgirl caning

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I went looking through some of the pictures in my archives and found this one which I don't ever remember posting before. You can click to enlarge the picture and get a better look at it. We don't have many caning pictures as it is rare for me to receive the cane. The cane is specifically used for punishment when it comes to Domestic Discipline. It is never any easy punishment for me as it's usually brutal and leaves me in tears and with nasty bruises and welts on my ass.

I fear the cane unlike any other spanking impliment. Just the mention of it makes me want to bow down and surrender and do whatever it takes to avoid it. Master Anakin reserves it for the most strictest punishments that I receive and for serious infractions or when I've really gone over the line. I've learned some very hard lessons with our bamboo cane. One of the hardest punishments I have ever received was getting the cane 3 days in a row. He promised to "break me" and he did. I was a VERY bad girl and deserved that very hard punishment that I received. He told me that I would learn to fear the cane and I have.

I was wearing my schoolgirl outfit during one of my lessons with the cane which left me with tears in my eyes and me promising that I will never again be a bad girl. Of course, that only lasts so long until the next time when I start being bad again and misbehaving. That seems to be the story of my slave life with misbehaving and getting punished and then being good for a while until it happens again. Perhaps I need more beatings with the cane? What do you think?

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May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Sleepy sex

I had some insomnia last night and got up to check e-mails and sent a few text messages to A who was also up and having a hard time sleeping. I tried to go back to bed but was having a difficult time of it. I watched Master Anakin sleeping and started to feel needy. I had missed him and felt a deep need in me to be with him in the darkness of the night.

He was asleep when I put my hand down the comforter and sheets and felt his cock. I started to stroke it and waited for a reaction. "What are you doing, bitch" he mumbled half asleep. "I need you Master" I told him as I started to take down his boxers and stroke his cock. "Master is tired. Not now" he told me and tried to roll over. I wasn't going to give up though. I needed him inside of me. He tried to pull up his boxers but I wouldn't let him. I know.....topping from below. lol. I was horny and really wanted him. He was sleepy so it was hard for him to resist me, especially when my hand started to make it's way down to his cock again and started to play with it to get it hard.

I noticed at one point that he was snoring even though his cock was rock hard!! lol. I thought that was kind of amusing that he could still have a hard cock even though he was so tired and snoring. I gently poked at him and tried to get him to wake up. "I want you so bad" I told him and tried again to get him interested. I started to give him a hand job and this got his attention quickly. He got on top of me and started to fuck me.

He looked so sleepy but was able to give me a good hard proper fucking that I so desperately needed. He flipped me over at one point to fuck me doggy style til he came deep in my pussy filling it up with his cum. I cleaned up and then asked him to hold onto me tight so I could try to go back to sleep which he was happy to give to me. Was it all just a sexy dream or did we really fuck last night? If so, that was a damn sexy dream!! :)

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Sunday, March 07, 2010

A date with A and a punishment spanking in the park

Wow!! What a wild night last night! It's been quite a weekend. A had commented to me that he didn't think there would be lots to write about because we were going out on a vanilla date and there wouldn't be much happening. I disagreed though. Even vanilla dates can get wild and it sure did last night.....

A showed up for our date in the afternoon and surprised me with white and red roses which are my absolute favorite flowers!! I was very touched. It is very romantic to show up for a date with flowers and I was surprised. Thank you A!! They are beautiful and it touched my heart. I am putting up a picture today of what they look like. I think of A every time I stop and smell my roses.

We went and saw the movie Shutter Island. I enjoyed being able to have a popcorn and cuddle up a bit with A. The movie was different than I had expected. I had expected to be a horror and about ghosts. It wasn't really about that though. I was glad to see a movie with A though and go out on a date with him. We tried to find a place to eat but most places were way too busy so we headed into the city where the local casino was. I love going to the casino. I love to gamble and there is a great buffet there which I recommended to A.

I had to call Master Anakin to get a spending limit though. lol. I've gotten myself into trouble a few times at the casino with spending too much money. The buffet was busy and we got a beeper and went off to gamble. I put in $20 bucks and wound up winning $66 bucks which was very neat. I was able to gamble for a bit before we ate. The food was great and I wound up eating too much. I enjoyed some chardonnay which went straight to my head.

I was a bit tipsy as we left to go to Gabby's country Cabaret which was not open yet. We were trying to figure out a place to go hang out at and I remembered a local bar which was close by and in my old neighborhood. I knew it was in a bit of a rough part of town and the bar is kind of seedy but I knew there would be cheap liquor and interesting people to check out. lol.

I got a beer and we found a place in the corner of the bar which had no one in it. We cuddled and made out. A texted his friend and we watched some intoxicated people celebrating a birthday party. The girl came over at one point and introduced herself to us. She had the same first name as me!! I can't say what it is due to privacy but it was exciting to meet someone with the first name as me. I can also cross something off my bucket list:

#558 -Meet someone with my first name

The girl was going to invite us to come sit with them but we were leaving to go to Gabby's. She mentioned something about how A and I should "get married and have lots of babies". I decided to tell her a bit of news. I was already married and it wasn't to him and had the babies already. She looked a bit shocked on the way out the door.

We got to Gabby's and I have to admit I was a bit nervous about going in there. I heard a lot of stories about it and wasn't sure what to expect or who I might run into. Gabby's really surprised me though. I really enjoyed it. There was a band playing country music and lots of different people including a lot more of the younger generation which surprised me a lot. I did see a few cougars there though. lol.

There was a table of girls who looked like cougars trying to look for men. A and I sat upstairs and got a birds eye view of the place. A seemed in a very Dominant mood and I enjoyed my vodka 7-up while checking out the cowboys (which were all over the place!!) and some cute girls too.

The vodka was going straight to my pussy and making me feel a bit wild. It's the Russian in me. Vodka really affects me out of all the liquor there is. I felt "little miss dangerous" come out to play. A tried to control me with giving me a time-out in the corner which I wouldn't obey him. He also pulled on my hair and tried to take my drink away from me at one point. Lesson #1 about dealing with little miss dangerous: Do NOT take vodka away from the Russian girl.

I didn't respond to it very well. I wanted my drink and to have fun. I was planning to get drunk and didn't understand why A was taking away my drink and trying to be such a meanie. I had a plan though. I told him I had to go to the bathroom. On the way back I stopped at the bar and picked up TWO drinks. I had planned to down the one drink before he'd notice. He really surprised me though when I turned around and saw him standing there. I thought "oh shit" when I saw him and knew he had caught me. I was getting very out of control at that point.

I tried to quickly finish my drink which A was trying to take away from me. The drink spilled on A and a bit on myself too. I was getting a bit angry as I just wanted to have a good time and it seemed like he was trying to spoil my fun. He got hammered at Sin City last weekend for his birthday weekend and it seemed like a bit of a hypocrite to try to stop me from indulging in the same fun for myself.

We wound up on the dance floor at one point although I wasn't really in the mood to dance. I was in a really bitchy mood and A was having a hard time trying to deal with it. He threatened to take me out to the car and "beat me" which only intrigued me. I think he was trying to worry me but a masochist loves to hear those words "I'm going to take you out to the car and beat you, bitch."

I have to admit I didn't really believe him though and was surprised when he told me it was time to leave. I wanted to stay and have fun and we hadn't been there long. I was really getting into the mood of the place. He was getting angry though and we left. We got out to the car and he looked around a bit worried as there was a lot of people around and didn't want to put on a show for them. lol. He said this morning that he was worried about getting arrested by the cops. Although I'm sure I would have been begging the cops to use the handcuffs on me instead if they had showed up. :)

We drove over to an empty parking lot although that felt pretty public also. I was getting VERY mouthy at that point. I even threatened to take my purse and leave and go off on my own. A didn't seem to believe that I would do that although you can ask Master Anakin about my experiences of taking off on him when I'm angry. I was having a temper tantrum and out of control.

I wanted A to hit me and he did try to slap me although he seemed worried about the marks on my face which I could care less about in that moment. I wanted him to hit me soooo bad. We started driving at one point and went past my old place which was weird for me to be back in the old neighborhood.

I had to really pee and asked to stop somewhere to go. The vodka had gone right through me. We found a high school in the area and stopped and I went over to where the forest area was and peed. I noticed how secluded the area was and went back and mentioned it to A. A got the toy bag out and we went over to a dark secluded wooded area with benches. It was a very dirty area which looked like someone had been partying at. There was empty beer bottles around. I guess other people liked the fact it was so secluded there too.

I was very surprised when A told me to drop my pants and panties and that he was going to punish me for being such a bad girl. He didn't intend to play with me but I had pushed him way too far. He was angry at me and thought I deserved a punishment. It was supposed to be a vanilla date but he couldn't let me get away with my misbehavior. I had seriously disrespected him and he wasn't going to back down to me. (I am getting wet just writing about this part of the night though. It turns me on to think about it)

It's been a while since I had an outdoor spanking and I felt very vulnerable when I had to pull down my jeans and panties and had my bare ass sticking out for punishment. My ass felt a bit cold from the chill in the air before he warmed it up with the toys. I had to bend over and hold onto the bench and he started to lay into my ass. I don't remember all the toys he used but the last one which was his belt. There was a moment that we got interrupted!!!

We heard a loud noise and he ordered me to pull up my pants and a minute later we saw a ATV brigade. A bunch of guys on ATV's went by us and a few of them were staring at us as they went by. I was blushing two shades of red at that moment. We came extremely close to being caught which added to the excitement of the outdoor punishment. They almost wound up getting a very good show!

The jeans got pulled down again after they all left and I could hear him unbuckle his belt which sent a shiver down my spine. I could hear it come out the loops and it hit my ass VERY hard which took my breath away and left some impressive marks and bruises on my ass. I love it when he uses his belt on me and I certainly deserved it last night for being a bitch to A. I felt humiliated and very punished as he used his belt on my poor ass. It sounded very loud also with him using his belt on me in public like that. It was like the whole neighborhood could hear me getting spanked as it echoed loudly each time it hit my ass.

I started to cry at one point and felt very submissive. He told me to pull up my pants and we headed back to the car. He seemed to think it was not a hard enough punishment but my ass felt it as I sat down in the car. I could feel the sting and burn from the punishment spanking. We drove to Home Depot and found another empty parking lot to have a discussion. He wanted to discuss my bad behavior and try to figure out what was going on. I have PMS going on but I think I was trying to provoke a reaction from A.

I like to get him angry and he got my anger out too by taking my drinks away at Gabby's. This lead up the climax of the outdoor spanking in the park. He had meant for it be a vanilla night but I had pushed way too hard and far. A's darkside takes a lot to come out but he doesn't fuck around when the bitch tries to get her way. I was glad he didn't back down to me. I respect him more that he punished me.

So did Master Anakin. I told him what happened as soon as I got dropped off for my curfew at 1 am. He was not surprised that I was a bitch though when the vodka got taken away from me. He also was not surprised by the bitch coming out and trying to get her way. I have a submissive heart but that bitch side of me can drive my men crazy. Anakin told me he planned to watch porn and that I should call A and apologize for my behavior and thank him for punishing me. We had a good talk on the phone and then I got ready for Master.

He had given me some vodka shots to get me liquored up. I thought it was kind of amusing that my Master was trying to get me drunk but yet my Dominant was trying to do the opposite. Master knows that a liquored up girl gets horny and very masochistic though. He came upstairs and there was some very rough play.

Slapping, punching, and then his belt came off too. I received the belt from both of my lovers last night. This made me VERY wet!!! I asked him to "hit me harder" with it which he was more than happy to do. He lectured me as he used his belt on my ass which was already tender and sore from the punishment from A. I admit it...I love when my men spank me hard.

The sex was incredible!! He got hard from hurting me and then pushed me down on the bed and pounced on me and spread my legs and entered me. He turned me over at one point and fucked my doggy style. It was hard, rough and brutal. His fingers were wrapped in my hair pulling on it and he yanked me harder onto his cock. He rode me til he came and then told me that I could cum too.

I was sure glad to have an orgasm although I don't think I deserved it from my behavior last night. He used the Hitachi on me til I came for him. I don't remember much after that. I passed out around 3 am. I woke up a few hours later with thoughts of A hitting me and being mean to me. I was VERY wet and wanted to cum again but didn't have permission and didn't want to wake Master to ask for it. I wrote A an e-mail instead telling him about my feelings.

I have been chatting with A while writing this blog post. It's been interesting going over last night and all that happened. It was a pretty wild date. I hope that we can try to do the vanilla date again without any punishment spankings this time. Maybe this time though I should stay away from the vodka. *winks*

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Saturday, March 06, 2010

A naughty phone call with A

The weekend has been very fun and interesting so far. I should have more to write about after my date with A later today. We are planning to go on a vanilla movie date to see Shutter Island. We are also going out for dinner and then to Gabby's bar which is a notorious cougar bar. lol. It's a country bar and I've heard some very interesting rumors about the place. I bet it's going to be a VERY interesting night. I have not seen A in a few days because I was grounded for being a bad girl.

I spent most of the morning yesterday getting ready for a movie & merlot night with Master Anakin. I bought a bunch of groceries to make a gourmet meal and we were planning to cuddle and watch a movie together. The teen was planning a sleepover so we could have even had some alone time to play and fuck!! He had the day off work but she was home and we were not able to do anything. I was horny though!!

My period is close and my hormones are feeling wild right now. I feel bitchy but yet very horny. It's going to be hard to not jump on A tonight. We have a rule though for tonight. This is a "vanilla" movie date and there is no sex or play. I feel that our relationship was starting to turn into play and fucking and not enough of us dating.

I love to date my poly partners. That is one of the best parts of it for me. Movie dates are one of my favorite. I can remember when I saw Quarantine with Daemon and how he fed me popcorn and I spent most of the movie with my face buried in his leather jacket because it was so gory. I can handle a lot of gor but that movie was filled with it.

I remember how we made out on the skytrain and how close I felt to him as he pulled my hair and looked deep into my eyes. We got to King George Skytrain and I told him "your going to break my heart, aren't you?" He told me that I would get over him. I guess he was right. I have not thought about Daemon in a while now. The memories are fading away as I have been dating A and growing close to him. I loved Daemon though and I will never forget our special times together. Hopefully he is doing ok as he has disappeared from the community.

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Master Anakin's Dad has had some complications from his heart surgery and has been in and out of the hospital. He had to go stay with the night with his Dad and take turns with family members to take care of him. This meant our movie & merlot night was canceled. I was very disappointed. Master was able to stay for dinner though and that was really nice. I opened a bottle of merlot and watched Halloween 2: The Rob Zombie version which is the latest one. Wow!! It was very gory and dark. I really enjoyed it.

It shows Laurie's darkside a lot in this movie and the ending is quite shocking. I am a huge fan of Rob Zombie!! He is one celebrity that I'd love to fuck. His movies are so twisted and dark. Halloween 2 was by far the scariest with Micheal Myers. That is one of my hard limits...anyone wearing that mask!! OMG!! It totally creeped me out. He looked SO scary in that movie.

A and I kept sending dirty text messages back and forth through the movie. Some of his text's were totally turning me on. His darkside came out through them. He talked about hurting me and all the mean things he wanted to do to me. I could feel my pussy becoming very wet while reading the text messages. Yum! :)

The movie was over and we had a brief phone call and decided to have some naughty phone fun as soon as I could have some alone time. I put my son to bed and set up the bedroom and got changed into some sexy lingerie. I put on a porno, brought out the Hitachi and clothespins and lube. I put 3 clothespins on my tits and got the Hitachi started as I phoned A. He was very Dominant on the phone. His voice changed a few times as he got aroused by me masturbating over the phone for him. I had a hard time holding the phone at one point. I had to put it on my pillow as I used both hands to masturbate my clit.

I begged for an orgasm and he gave me permission. "Cum for me" he commanded. I went over the edge and had a very big orgasm. I could hear him being naughty too. I knew he was masturbating while he had listened to me cum for him over the phone. It excited me to think of him on the other end of the phone jacking off while listening to me. I grabbed the Hitachi again and started rubbing my tender clit again.

It didn't take me long to cum and then I heard A cum too. We were both out of breath and panting. We could barely talk after our naughty phone play together. That was a lot of fun! Thanks for keeping me company A. We found a way to be together last night and enjoy a night of being naughty.

I had a really good sleep and even got to sleep in til 9 am. I enjoyed a chat on MSN this morning with my good friend, Obi-Wan who has offered to make Master Anakin and I a lexan cane!! Thank you, my friend. That's very sweet of him! Although it won't be too sweet for my bottom as I've heard stories of how hard the lexan cane can be when it's used for spanking.

I also had a chat on MSN with A who was very Dominant with me. I love when he gets controlling with me. It's a huge turn on and very arousing. I've got to get a few chores done and get ready for my date tonight with A. It's going to be a very wild night!! I can't wait!! :)

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Happy HNT - Sexy sassy schoolgirl

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! This picture was taken last week during some play time with Master Anakin. I was tied up in our basement wearing my sexy schoolgirl outfit. I really love how this picture turned out with the light. You get a bit of a glimpse of my cute panties because the schoolgirl skirt is so short. Master Anakin likes it because that way I can show off my ass before I get it spanked. That day he used the English Tawse on my poor bottom til it was bright red. He likes to spank a sexy sassy schoolgirl. You can click to enlarge the picture and get a better look at it.

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May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Trouble on the darkside

Today has not been a very good day. I have disappointed both of my men today. A and I got into a pretty big fight. It was very intense and full of a lot of emotion. He told me he felt angry today and I know that it takes a lot to get him angry. He was going to come by today but I knew that wouldn't make Master too happy as I was already way behind on my chores and on thin ice with him too the last few days. I have been spending a lot of time with A lately and neglecting some other areas of my life. Juggling a poly relationship can be challenging and complicated sometimes.

I think I also have PMS. I feel very hormonal and very emotional. I want to cry. I would like to be punished until I cry. This feeling has made me bitchy and lash out at my men today...in a way perhaps begging for that punishment that I so richly deserve by being such a bitch today. I wish there was a way to get rid of that bitch inside of me. She gets completely out of control sometimes. Today the bitch attacked Darth Vader. She picked the wrong time to pick a fight with him. He's got enough stress and then the bitch appears and he was not too pleased with me. There is trouble on the darkside.

I am grounded for 3 days as well as will be getting a punishment from the punishment jar. He also intends to stay home from work tomorrow to deal out my physical punishment to me. I won't be around the computer much the next few days during my grounding. I have plans to be working for Darth Vader. I am sure I will be having a very sore ass as good motivation. I know Darth Vader has some very evil plans for me on the darkside. One of these days I will learn to be a better slave...

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Monday, March 01, 2010

An amazing day with A

Monday is usually the worst day of the week for me but not today. I got to spend the day with my handsome young lover. He had mentioned yesterday that I needed a spanking. I knew that I did and we both agreed to get together today for it. He wanted me to make him some homemade chocolate chip cookies which I was happy to do for him.

It made me feel like a kinky Martha Stewart baking chocolate chip cookies for my lover and putting out the toys to get spanked with at the same time. I also feel like such a cougar when I'm waiting for my lover to arrive. Sometimes I wonder what the neighbors must think of me as he arrives for a few hours and then leaves. *smiles*

I decided to put on my 1950's housewife dress while baking cookies and getting ready for A's arrival. I made sure to have his tea ready for him and be all clean and ready for my spanking. He arrived and it didn't take him long to order me to lay out on the couch and get ready. He told me that he was going to give me a "nicer spanking" for being such a good girl the last few days. I have been behaving a lot better since my punishment spanking on Friday from A.

I was glad to hear he was going to be nice but I admit I needed my pain too. He seemed aware of that need and was happy to hurt me. He used many different toys. I have to admit that I love his belt the best. He's found a new technique to it which makes me feel like he's whipping my ass with it. His belt is quite different than Master Anakin's. It is less soft and gives off more impact. My ass is quite sore from the beating it got from it and the other toys.

It feels like I've always got bruises on my ass the last month. I am always getting my ass beat by one of my two lovers. My lovers are quite different and the way they spank me is too. A tends to like to warm me up, at least he did today very nicely. Master Anakin tends to get to the point quicker but sometimes is hard to get into subspace as easily because of how fast the pain hits me. I really enjoy getting beatings from both of my men.

I feel connected to both of them through pain and suffering. A deep bond has been forming between A and I. I have felt way more submissive since he got rough with me on Friday. I am not testing him as much and things seem to be going a lot more smoothly. I'm really glad. I've noticed a change in A lately too.

He's been more Dominant and controlling and seems to really enjoy me serving him. He looked very pleased today with my obedience. I've tried really hard to be a good girl for both of my men. Hopefully I'll have a better week with not getting into trouble and misbehaving. I really need reminders of my place sometimes. I needed the hard spanking today from A.

My pussy was soaking wet after he was done spanking me. He told me I was a "little wet" but it was WAY more than a little bit. I had to remove my panties because I had soaked through them. I got out the Hitachi and started to masturbate. This seemed to excite him as he pounced on me (the Cougar who usually likes to pounce on him) and entered my pussy. The sex was amazing and lasted a long time. It had me panting and moaning and feeling so much pleasure as his cock fucked me nice and hard.

I got fucked doggy style at one point. He was a bit worried about some of the sounds I was making during sex. I get very vocal sometimes. lol. He was pounding me very hard and the pain felt VERY pleasurable. I almost came from the fucking. Yum!! I am so lucky to be getting fucked so much lately. I was fucked on Saturday night from Darth Vader. Today I got fucked from my young lover.

I begged him for my orgasm which he finally agreed to give to me. I used the Hitachi and he used his fingers to fuck my pussy at the same time. It didn't take me long to cum for him. The orgasm literally shook me up. My body and hand was shaking after I had cum. We cuddled and then I gave him a relaxing massage before we headed downstairs for lunch.

I made him some lunch and we had a good talk before he had to go. I enjoyed watching him put his belt back on his pants. I had a very big smile as I walked him to the door. It was an amazing day with A. Thank you A for coming over today. :)

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala