A sexy day with A

I really wasn't expecting today to unfold as it did. I had planned to meet A for a coffee. We broke up a few weeks ago and have been keeping in touch and trying to stay friends. I was really nervous about seeing him today. I really wasn't sure how things would be between us after the last time we were together. He arrived and we had a good talk but things still felt a bit awkward between us. We drank our tea and both looked at each other nervously. The chemistry was still there. There was no denying that. I miss A a lot and was aching to be near him. We went over to the couch and he moved to sit closer to me. I reached out my hand and we began to hold hands. He wanted to cuddle with me so I moved over to the couch and fell into his arms. He looked so handsome and it felt natural and very good to just fall back into his arms again. We kissed and then started to make out. Hands were going all over each other. We both wanted each other badly. He had a hard on (which I could feel through his pants) and I was very wet even though we hadn't played together. I'm not sure why he didn't spank me. He took off his belt at one point and it fell onto the floor. I was a bit surprised that he didn't try to use it on me. I kind of wished he had though. I miss feeling his belt on my ass. I then got changed into some sexy lingerie so I could get more comfortable. We did some more making out and then moved up to the bedroom and became intimate. We slept together. It was spontaneous and not planned. It just kind of happened. It felt really good to have him inside of me again and to have my lover back. He wanted to give me an orgasm but I didn't have permission for that from Master Anakin. I technically didn't have permission for the sex either. *blushes* Master Anakin wasn't very surprised though. He was surprised that we didn't play together. I have to admit that I am also. I suggested bringing out the toys but it was getting too late to play. I also wasn't sure how it would go with not having any kind of a M/s or D/s dynamic with A anymore and then trying to play together. I am not sure how that would be. It is strange that there was some Dominance from A but it was mostly hair pulling and some sexual Dominance. I didn't feel it the way I used to. That's changed a lot but my feelings are still submissive towards him. I gave him a massage and also made his lunch for him. I wanted to call him "Sir" a few times and kiss his hand or lay by his feet. It was weird to be with him but not wear my collar. I'm struggling with my feelings over that. I want to play with him but don't know if I can now that our dynamic has changed so much. I had a shot of vodka to help me calm my nerves before we fucked. I admit that I feel kind of weird about it all. I don't regret what happened. It felt good to be close to A again. But it didn't change anything. He doesn't want to get back together or be my Master again. I guess we could become "fuck buddies" although that doesn't feel very good after a while. I've tried to do casual sex in the past and it can be good for a while but I need more than that. I long to have a lover who wants to be in a relationship with me and love me. This is also something I'm struggling with in regards to Master R and his offer to come over and play with him while his wife is out of town. He wants me to come over on Sunday to play with him. He is also my ex but still my Master. I don't think he wants a relationship either. I'm sure it would be easy to fall back into his arms again too though. I am not sure why I keeping putting myself into these situations. Sometimes it's just too easy to go back to an ex. I've always had a problem with this. It's so easy to jump into bed with a lover who is familiar and when the sex is good. Sex was not an issue between A and I. We had a lot of issues but not about that one. I miss us being lovers. It felt good to be his lover again today even if it doesn't happen again. It's really hard to predict the future of where A fits into my life or even R. .... I am really looking forward to the weekend. I have plans to see the new Nightmare on Elm Street in the movie theatre!! I am so excited! I'm a big fan of Freddy Krugar! He was the first villian who scared me so badly that I couldn't sleep. I stayed up all night the first time I saw the first Nightmare on Elm Street. OMG...I was sooooo scared!! I might want a little knife play after we watch the movie. Maybe Darth Vader wants to play with me! :) I hope everyone has a good weekend!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Sexy thigh-hi's and flogger

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I am putting up a picture that was taken from our archives. I was looking through some old pictures recently and came across this one. I was playing with Master R and dressed up sexy for him with my cute thigh-hi's and PVC skirt. He had come over to my place to play with me. He had given me a gift of a soft suede flogger which he liked to use on my tits for flogging them. I love how you can see how short that PVC skirt is and how you almost get a glimpse of my pussy. One day maybe I'll be brave and be able to share a picture of my pussy instead of just a tease. :) Please click on the picture to enlarge it and get a better look. The thigh-hi's are very cute with pink skulls and crossbones on them. I love to wear sexy thigh-hi's. I wrote a blog post yesterday about having an offer to play with Master R again. I am very tempted by his offer of having me come over for an afternoon of rope bondage and mean toys. I miss playing with R and think of our old times together a lot. I miss being able to play on the darkside with him. I know he's very sadistic and mean and that the next time we get together will probably be very painful for my poor bottom. I wonder what would happen if we get the opportunity to play together again. I thought about it a lot today and it gave me inspiration for my Hitachi time this afternoon. I masturbated with the thoughts of what could happen if I decide to play with Master R again. I wonder if I can organize another threesome with R and Master Anakin. I miss playing with both of my Masters. :) Please leave us a comment on the picture. We love to hear from you and always appreciate the feedback. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Breakfast with Master R

I have been meaning to write this blog post for a while. It was about a breakfast date that I had recently with my old Mentor and Master, R. We broke up about 2 years ago but always kept in touch through e-mails. He always let me know he was there for me even if that was from the shadows. Our breakup was a bit of a strange one for me. We kept the door open and he kept referring to himself as my Master even though we were no longer together. I knew that he felt that I was his slave as soon as I agreed to his rules and to be his slave. There was no temporary contract like there was with A. (my recent ex) I was Master R's slave for life as soon as I agreed to submit to him years ago. I was really curious to see him again. I have thought about him a lot over the last two years. There were times that I really wanted to pick up the phone but something was always holding me back. We talked on the phone and agreed that it would be just a coffee date. No expectations meant no disappointment for both of us. I had no idea if there would even still be chemistry between R and I anymore. I was so nervous to see him again. I got ready for the date and waited for him to arrive. I saw his car pull up and he got out and headed towards my place. I was surprised to see more grey hair then the last time we saw each other. He is getting to be an old man though! He is almost 20 years older than I am. The chemistry was there from the moment we saw each other again. His warm embrace and smile made me feel at ease even though I know R's got a very mean side also. He is a ruthless sadist. He's got a very sadistic side. But he's always been in control of himself. R is a very good experienced Dominant with years of bdsm experience.I knew that he would calm my nerves and he did by the time breakfast arrived. His soothing Dominant voice always calms me and puts me into a submissive mindset right away. He can control me through his voice or eyes or tone. I don't even need to worry about any decisions while I am with R. He takes care of everything. It is easy to be around Master R. He's an experienced Master and things just seem very simple with him. He controls and I obey. We got to the restaurant and he ordered my food for me. I was impressed he remembered what I liked. We made eye contact several times and tried to have some chit chat. We had a lot of things to talk about. He was very amused by my relationship ending with A. He didn't understand why I had fallen for a young boy who was not experienced. He reminded me that I have not had much luck with young boys and that maybe I need to play with the "big boys" next time. R has always had a simple way of having poly relationships. He controlled me only when we got together which sometimes was weeks or months between our play times. I tried to tell him about my feelings during lunch. I was told at one point that I had broken the rules and would have to be punished for that the next time we got together. He made it clear that it was fine to get together for coffee but next time we got together it would be on his terms. I started to squirm in my seat while he told me what he wanted to do to me the next time he saw me. He told me he bought a new belt and always thought about me when buying it and putting it into the loops of his pants. He has always been brilliant at the mind games. He knows this makes me come back for more. R was the one who turned me into a pain slut. He told me he would train me to become a pain slut and he did a really good job. He knows that I ache for the rough play we had together. Our relationship never involved the "L" (Love) word. It was not about love. It was about pain and pleasure and lots of rough sex. He filled a need for me and he knew that this would make me come back for more one day. He didn't seem to understand what took me so long to agree to meet him. I was looking for more than he could give me though. I wanted to feel love in my poly relationships. I've started to realize though that maybe love isn't what I needed the most. I need pain. I need the people who I play with to be mean. R's very mean. He is one of the few men who really get me. He knows how to give me that pain that I need. He reminds me a bit of a drug dealer who knows what the drug addict needs and wants. He knows she wants that fix. She'll do anything to get it. It feels soooo good. And he knows how to make everything feel better for a while. He'll hurt her and she'll beg for more and have many orgasms. The sex was always great. He is the one ex who I can't forget and move on from. I have kept coming back to him for years. It was only a matter of time before we found our way back to one another again. I felt a bit angry at times (because I was not getting my way) but he was always in control. R does not let me manipulate him and this is what makes him so attractive for me. A lot of the boys I've dated have let me wrap them around my finger. I'm a spoiled princess and can be a real brat. R doesn't buy it though. He does not let me be a princess. He is not my "Daddy". He is my Master and he demands obedience from me, even if we are no longer together. We got out to his car and there was a moment between us which felt very intense. The chemistry was very strong. He pulled my hair hard and pulled me in for a deep passionate kiss. This felt very forbidden and naughty. Being in the car of a married man making out with him and wanting to invite him into my place for some sex. I was wet and he knew it. He drove me home and it was very quiet in the car. He parked and we briefly talked. I wanted to invite him in and he knew it. But we both had agreed there wouldn't be any sex. This just made me want him more. The lust was strong as we kissed and he felt up my shirt. "Next time we get together, it's on my terms" he let me know in a very firm voice. Then he extended the offer to me. His wife (who is vanilla) is going to be away for 2 weeks at the beginning of May. I am welcome to come over and play with him while she's gone. He told me that he'll give me a nice escape from all my worries. He told me to hand all the worries over to him for an afternoon. He's promised me lots of pain and pleasure if I obey him. *shivers* I admit that this is a very tempting offer. It would be so easy to fall back into his arms and surrender my dark soul to him again... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Rope Kitty

It's been a long time since I posted a picture of my kitty. She's all grown up now and not a kitten anymore although she still likes to play! Master Anakin and I were having our rope bondage overnight and she saw the rope and jumped onto the bed and wanted to play with us. She is laying on my hood. She loves rope!! lol. She's a bit of a brat that way. She's interrupted our play a few times jumping up to catch a flogger or trying to play with Master's belt. I call her the "other woman" in our relationship because she is so attached to Master Anakin. She follows him around like a puppy dog as soon as he walks through the door. She loves to sleep by his feet like the submissive kitty she is. Of course, I like to be around Master too so I can understand that need. He has a very Dominant personality and the whole house responds to it. There is no doubt that he is the HOH. (Head of the household) He makes all the major decisions for me and our family. Our 1950's type of marriage is what makes us strong in my opinion. I have a really wonderful family and am very blessed for the life that I have with them. I had a very productive weekend but also a fun one. I spent a lot of time with Darth Vader getting stuff done and many projects started. It feels good to be focused more on him and our place and getting spring cleaning done. I am very proud to be Master Anakin's slave and serve him. I feel so close and connected to him after all our play together over our 4 day long weekend together. I miss him so much today but feel very submissive. I can't wait to play on the darkside with him again soon! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Testing out the new toys with Darth Vader

Yesterday was a very good day spent getting a sore bottom, having lots of orgasms and being tied up for a while and being left in subspace for most of the day. We had a bit of a surprise happen yesterday. I had thought the kids were both home for a Pro D Day but it turns out it's next Friday they are both off. So we had a kid free day as Anakin was home from work. We also had some new toys to test out which our good friend, Obi-Wan Kenobi sent to us. I know Master Anakin was itching to play with them and test them out. We had breakfast and then I was sent upstairs to get dressed up for him and ready for my spanking. He started with the hairbrush. It's very smooth on one side but can still pack a deadly sting with each stroke as is came down on my ass. Master Anakin was very happy with how red my ass started to turn with the hairbrush. It stung! Ouchies! I squirmed around while that hairbrush spanked my bottom!! Then he picked up the large leather strap that was also in the box of toys that was sent to us. That strap is MEAN!!! OMG!! It's ten times harder than his belt. It's thicker and wider and very stiff so there is a big impact from it as well as a big loud strapping sound. There was some flogging as well as time for some nipple torture with the clamps and him squeezing/pinching/hurting them during some of the strapping. We'd stop playing and then he'd work on my nipples...then turn me over and strap me more with the leather strap. I floated in subspace and started to accept the pain at one point. The next toy that was tested was the lexan cane. I'd heard stories about it but it was quite different to find out for myself how evil that toy can be. It's meaner than my bamboo cane and that's saying a lot because I think that one is mean!! This one is pure evil. He had me crying in 20 hard strokes from it. The marks from the lexan were on top of the red bottom and welts that were already there from the other toys. It hurt!! Darth Vader can be SO mean to my bum! I did get some pleasure from taking the pain for him. I got three delicious orgasms through the day and night. I also got fucked really hard doggy style. I also got an hour which I got to float away in rope space when he tied me up for a while with rope bondage. He loves the new white rope we got. It's long enough to tie me up very securely. My ass was sore and I enjoyed the submissive feeling it brought me to go into the bondage for a while. I got spanked more too while in the bondage. He used the English Tawse on my ass more as I tried to squirm to get away but couldn't due to the tight rope bondage I was in. I spent most of the day in subspace floating on the endorphins from our play. Anakin was so strict and Dominant with me and controlled all decisions through the night. This included some time which I wore my butt plug up my ass while we watched Ninja Assassin for our movie and merlot night. I was whipped with the homemade whip later in the night. He also made me cum again for him. My pussy was so sore that I begged for him to stop. He pushed me hard and far last night. We traveled to the darkside and beyond. I was offered the chance to go to Rascal's tonight as they are having their flea market there. I decided not to go. I have a lot of projects that I need to get done. We are trying to decide about whether or not to move. If we do, there is a lot that we need to do. Darth Vader will be cracking the whip this weekend. I've been told that I'm working for him and he will do what it takes to get my ass moving. My ass is very sore from the play yesterday. I can't imagine getting anymore with that strap or lexan cane! I guess I better move my ass and make Darth happy. You know what happens when he gets mad.... We recently passed 2.3 million hits on our blog!! Very exciting! Thank you for being a part of our Journey...our Journey to the Darkside. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Sexy shot of vodka

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I am putting up a picture of some play that happened on Saturday night with Master Anakin and I. We were having a shot of vodka and I put his between my tits to serve it to him. He had a big smile on his face and took this picture. I love to show my tits to him and know that they belong to him. :) I admit that I have a love for vodka. I consider it one of my fetish's. It's the Russian in me. I drink it and the other side (little miss dangerous) comes out to play. Trust me, once you've played with that side of me you are addicted. She's a lot of fun and willing to do a lot of dark play that most people don't ever consider. The masochist comes out and I can take a lot of pain while under the influence of vodka. Some of the best play I've had was when I had a few shots to help me bring out the little miss dangerous side. It's a guarantee to get my panties wet and make me so horny that I can barely stand it. Vodka always goes straight to my pussy. Please leave us a comment on the sexy picture. We'd love to hear from you and always enjoy the feedback from our readers. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Mean toys from Obi-Wan Kenobi!

I was having a very quiet day today with not much excitement until I got a phone call from the Greyhound that they had a package waiting for me. My dear friend, Obi-Wan Kenobi told me he had sent me a toy and I was curious to go get it. Master Anakin drove me there as soon as he got home from work. I could barely wait to open it. Obi-Wan has been a new friend that I have enjoyed chatting with and talking to on the phone as well as exchanged text messages with. I was very touched that he was sending us the toy. I was expecting only one toy!! But instead we opened up a whole box full of toys! Wow! Master Anakin and I were both very touched and impressed by the toys in the special toy box which has "may the force be with you" on the outside of it. There is a very mean strap which made me drool and my bottom cringe! There were evil clamps and also a very mean hairbrush!! There is also a lexan cane that looks like a lightsaber! That lexan looks evil and I've heard a lot about them. I know my bottom is going to hurt when Darth Vader gets to test out that toy! Yikes! Thank you Obi-Wan! I can't wait to test out the new toys and feel the strap against my bottom and lexan cane leave the marks that I know it will. I will think of you when the toys get used and hope that one day you will visit Vancouver and be able to test out the toys on my bottom in person! Thank you for your friendship. You are very dear to my heart. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Red bottom from playtime with Darth Vader!

I got a very hard spanking on Saturday night during my play time with Darth Vader on the darkside!! Ouchies! My ass cringes just looking at the picture of what he did to my poor bottom with his mean toys. You can see my new panties on which only added encouragement to the spanking by provoking him. They say "spank me. It's the only way I'll learn." Trust me, I need my spankings and learn a lot from them. :) My ass is still marked today from the play on Saturday night. A nice reminder of my place and who I belong to. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Rope bondage overnight

I am still floating on the endorphins from last night's play with Master Anakin. He took me to the darkside and beyond. Wow! It was amazing and a lot of fun. We had to do some juggling and call in a few favors to get sitting for our kids for the night but it was well worth it. We were kid free starting at 4 pm last night. I wanted to go for a drive and get out of town. Master decided that we would head to the River Rock Hotel and Casino for a date. We have not been there in a long time and we both really enjoy the atmosphere there. It's like going to Las Vegas for a night. A total escape from all the stress and worries. Master Anakin was very Dominant during our date. I had nothing to decide. He decided what I would eat and drink. It was a bit fascinating to me that he was ordering me several vodka 7's which are my favorite drink but is also the secret ingredient to make my pussy really wet!! "Drink this, bitch" he commanded. He was encouraging me to get a bit drunk and horny. His control was really turning me on. We did some flirting over a fancy romantic dinner at the restaurant. The food was delicious. The walk afterwords was romantic and time for a connection between us. He pulled my hair and looked deeply into my eyes. He whispered in my ear about his evil plans for later tonight and what he wanted to do to me. The pain he planned for my flesh. We won over $100 and were both floating on air when we left the casino. He spanked my ass on the way out the door and there were security guards there. One guy gave us a big smile after that which made me giggle!! We went for a drive out to North Delta and Surrey. We went to a strip bar called Mugs and Jugs which had moved location to the Turf Hotel. It was not open yet and we didn't feel like waiting around. That is in a very scary part of town. It felt pretty wild driving around to the sounds of ACDC and Judas Priest. We had to stop at 7-11 to pick up some munchies and then headed home. I was told to get dressed into something sexy and to at least wear the schoolgirl skirt for him. Get the toys out and prepare our bedroom for some fun. He watched porn while I did the slave labor of all the work of getting the room ready. I wore my schoolgirl skirt, white top, socks and spanking panties which I bought in Fort Langley recently. He came in and noticed the new white rope that I had bought at the Dom Depot (Home Depot). It was not used yet and he was interested. "Bring this down to the basement as well as some toys, bitch" he told me as his belt got pulled out of the loops of his pants. I grabbed the whip and also my hood as well as the English Tawse and rope. We had taken our punching bag off the hook in our ceiling in the basement recently. It was perfect to tie me too. Master Anakin went into Dom Space. He had music playing while doing his rope work. I was really impressed with his work on me as we have not done much rope bondage together. I was put in my hood right away for some sensory deprivation. That always puts me into deep subspace. I held onto some chains first and he prepared me for his rope. We took lots of pictures and I am sharing two of them today with the readers. You can see the front side and back side of all the rope work. I felt helpless and surrendered to the feeling of being totally controlled by the rope and hood. I was a schoolgirl slave girl who had no choices but submitting to Master. He used his belt on my ass while I wiggled in the rope. I couldn't move much though. I lost total track of time at that point. I felt a whip hitting me at one point but could do nothing to stop it from marking my flesh. I moaned and screamed out a few times. "Silence, bitch" he warned me a few times trying to keep me quiet during the beating. I was lost in subspace and floating when he took me out of the rope bondage. I felt like a rag doll as he gave me orders and told me to get my ass upstairs while he cleaned up. A lot more play happened upstairs. I was given a punishment spanking for neglecting my chores the last week. I had 100 with the homemade whip and another 100 strokes with his belt. Paddles, whips, and all kinds of impliments crossed my poor ass making it bleed in several spots. We had a few shots of vodka and then things got interesting. Darth Vader's darkside came out and took over. Slapping, punching, biting, scratching, hair pulling, and lots of dark play happened including some knife play. He put the knife up to my throat and threatened me as he told me how he was going to fuck my ass. The anal was brutal and rough. He took me in that hole that only he has used. No one else has ever fucked my ass but him. He fucked my ass and then made me cum over and over again until I begged him to stop and couldn't walk. I lost track of all the orgasms I had. I squirted in our bed leaving pussy juice all over it. I curled up to Master naked and submissive and drifted off with his eyes watching over me. I loved playing on the darkside with him. I proudly wear his marks today and know who I belong to.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A dark Friday

It is around 4:30 am and I am wide awake on a very early Saturday morning. I went to bed early and then got up with insomnia. I couldn't sleep and figured maybe I'd write a blog post and process some feelings so I can hopefully get back to bed and snuggle up to Master Anakin's warm body. We get an overnight and I want to make sure I'm well rested for it because I'm sure it will be a late night! I had a dark day yesterday. I sent some text messages to A but they didn't go so well. I don't know what to say. I try to extend an olive branch to A and then he makes me feel like I am constantly rejected. I feel that the connection between us has changed. I don't even feel his Dominance anymore. That was something that really attracted me to A. All that M/s (Master/slave) or D/s (Dominant/submissive) energy has changed. I feel lost at times and confused as to how someone can be so Dominant for months but then change overnight. I offered for him to spank me sometime and he says that "it might happen someday". Yet he sent me messages telling me how much he missed playing with me and had wished we had done more knife play together and such. Too many mixed messages. It's confusing and bruises the heart more. I love A very much but how can we be friends through all of this? How would it even be if we saw each other again? The last time had me in tears and having a breakdown. I feel like A didn't even try to work out our issues. We had something special and I feel like he's thrown it all away. It's all left a bitter taste in my mouth. He also wanted to get together for a "proper goodbye". I feel like he's already said goodbye to me though. What more is there to say? He wants to be "just friends" but sends me dark messages through text's. I find it all very confusing. I'm not sure if I will see A again or how a friendship is going to work with him. My heart still hurts and it's hard to get past the rejection that I have been feeling the last week. It would be coming up to our 4 month anniversary. There was many people who didn't think it would make it past the first one. I really tried my best to make it work with A. I really hope it can work out with just being friends. I just feel like everything we had is all slipping away into the darkness... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A date with Master R and busy few days..

It's been a very busy few days for me. I have been wanting to sit down at the computer and finally be able to write a blog post. I don't think that I will be able to write out the details about my date with an old flame (my old Mentor and Master - Master R) today though. I think that it deserves it's own post all about that. A lot happened and I think I learned a few things about myself. Stay tuned for that post in the next few days! A and I have been keeping in touch and things seem to be going better between us with just being friends now. We have not been fighting and I am glad to be still in touch with him and keeping the lines of communication open. Who knows what the future holds for A and I. I'm glad though that we have been able to stay friends during the break-up. I had a friend over for coffee yesterday from the local community. It was really great to see her. I always enjoy having friends over and being able to share my kinky side with them. I have vanilla friends like DL but it's really hard to talk to her about bdsm or my kink life. I had a really nice phone call with my new friend, Obi-Wan Kenobi. We talked for almost 2 hours on the phone today and had a really great talk. I really hope to meet him sometime. I really enjoyed hearing his voice and he made me smile. :) I spent a bit too much time on the phone today though. And Lord Vader is not pleased. I have been neglecting my chores this week. So I am grounded tomorrow and also on orgasm denial until furthur notice! I also got told that there is a hard punishment spanking in my future! I'm willing to bet that may be happening on Saturday night during our overnight. My mom has offered to take Skywalker overnight and our daughter is going to a friend's house for the night! Yikes! I think I'm going to have a very sore red ass. What do you think? I had to laugh with my friend, maxlagos asked me on twitter today "Damn girl. How many Masters do you have?" I had two Masters when A was my Master (before our break-up) and Master Anakin. Butttt....Master R is also my other Master. So I guess that means I technically had three Masters the last 4 months!! Wow!! That's a lot of Dominance and control. I miss having A as my Master but I'm glad that my other Master has stepped into my life recently. I enjoyed lunch with him and got very horny over it all. I'll post more about it soon...I promise! I am going to go have a hot bath and get ready for an early bedtime. I'm feeling very tired. Maybe it's because I had a visitor last night. The Midnight Visitor paid me a visit and kept me up for a few hours last night. *smiles* May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

What hurts the most

I wanted to say thank you for all the support during my recent break-up with A. I have gotten e-mails, DM's, phone calls, twitter messages and lots of messages from my friends and readers. Thank you for the great comments on my last post. I really appreciate the support during this difficult time. I am glad to know that I am not alone through this and can lean on others to get me through. Thank you!! It has been a very difficult 24 hours for me with what I have gone through with A. I barely slept last night. I think I got about 2 hours sleep and that was after a melatonin and sleeping pill. I tossed and turned and couldn't stop thinking about what had happened with A. I kept going over what had happened and tried my best to understand it. It's been a really difficult journey for A and I but I knew we both loved each other. I didn't understand how it could all fall apart. A and I had been fighting lately but we had some really great times. We talked about our future last week and about having a baby together (during my pregnancy scare) and even about a poly household. We got together on Friday and spent hours on my couch making out and things were great between us. What changed? I struggled through the whole night with that question and needed an answer. I woke up and did my chores early and texted A to let him know that I needed to talk to him. I needed answers. I wanted to understand what had happened. I had also decided to give it another try to work things out. I needed to know that I had tried everything to make it work. I love A. I hated the fighting but I really loved our great times together. We have good chemistry and a connection between us. The play was great too. I really loved being his slave. I was really hoping to salvage something and hoped he would want to also. I will admit to being greatly disappointed by his reaction to my wanting to give it another try. I really thought he would come over today and we could work it out. We still had the love and there are great aspects to our relationship. I didn't feel ready to walk away from it and hoped he wouldn't. It was awkward between us at first. We hugged and sat down to talk. I gave him back his collar which is something I have kept in my toy bag. I didn't think it was right to keep it if he wanted it back since had made it himself and it belonged to him. I laid my heart out to A and tried very hard to work things out. I could understand the M/s (Master/slave) part ending but hoped he would still want a relationship with me. He didn't though and didn't seem to want to even try. That part was the hardest for me to accept. He talked about being miserable the last few weeks which confused me because we had some really good times too through the fights. I wanted to know that we had honestly tried everything before walking away. A made it very clear that he didn't want to work on it though and our relationship was over. He still wanted to be friends though. I will admit to having some doubts over this. I do not have very good friendships with any of my ex's with the exception of my ex husband who I share a child with so we are forced to be in contact with and also share a history together. The thoughts of not having A in my life really upset me though. He has become a big part of my daily life. I enjoy our text's, chats, e-mails, and communication and friendship. I can't imagine my life without him. I'd like to believe that we can still be friends through this. Right now though it's hurting a lot. What hurts the most is all the dreams for the future seem like they have disappeared. I feel very lost with not having a second Master anymore. A and I have protocol and rules (which I had intended to post about sometime) and they are all a big part of my daily life. I woke up this morning and didn't know what to do about my morning e-mail to him which was a rule for me. I feel very lost and a bit confused that all of a sudden A is not my Master anymore and that has now just dropped from my life. I complained a bit that I wasn't feeling enough control but I can honestly say that I know now what I am missing that it's gone. I want him to be my other Master but he didn't want to have that either. It is really hurting a lot to accept that he no longer controls parts of my life and those rules are now gone. I had thought that A would honor our M/s contract and at least try to get through til June when it was up for renewal. That hurts me to lose my other Master. I know Master Anakin would never walk away from being my Master. I didn't think that A would. The chemistry is still there between A and I. I could still feel it. I wanted to just ask him to spank me and take me upstairs to the bedroom. I wanted a beautiful goodbye with him even if it was just one last time. I wanted to hold him and kiss him and have that intimacy that we had shared the last 4 months. He seemed cold at times though and that made it hard for me to reach out to him until lunch at Subway. I was afraid he would reject me more than I was already feeling. We went out for lunch because I had not eaten in 24 hours and my stomach was grumbling and unhappy. I worried that maybe A wanted to leave and go home because there was tension between us and he didn't look very happy. We ate lunch though and I reached out to hold his hand and asked him for reassurance. I wanted to know if we could at least salvage our friendship or at least the good parts of our relationship. I was even hoping we might play together sometime because we talked about doing rope bondage and lots of different play together. I wanted to believe we could still have something left out of all the doors which are closing. A comforted me and tried his best to reassure me. I admit that I almost broke down in the Subway but held out til we got to the car. We talked in the car and held each other. I wanted to kiss him soooooo bad. Even if it was our last kiss goodbye...I really wanted to feel his lips on mine one last time. I can accept it if we are just friends but I wanted a final goodbye. But A didn't seem to want that. It will admit that this broke my heart. I couldn't even look at him as we drove back to my place and the tears started to fall. He dropped me off and I went inside and totally broke down crying. My heart was hurting so bad that I could barely handle it. A messaged me when he got home and offered to talk to me if I needed it. He got onto MSN and we have been chatting. I do believe he meant what he said about us still keeping the friendship and being there. I am glad to know he has not disappeared unlike others who said they would be friends after breaking up with me but took off afterwords. I will always love A and I'd like to think that the door is open for a new chapter for us both even if that is just as friends or if we might play together one day. I feel like I was not good enough for A or a good enough slave for him. I feel like a failure for not being able to make my poly relationship work with A. It just seems like the poly never really works out for me. My force does not feel very strong today. I don't regret the journey though and am glad that A and I can still be friends even if we can't be together.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Goodbye my lover

Today is officially one of the worst days of my life. I don't think my heart could hurt any worse than it does right now. Life is unfair. I had one of the best days on Saturday with my anniversary with Master Anakin. I woke up feeling really good this morning. I had plans of a quiet day with doing chores and hopefully some Hitachi time for some morning masturbation. I got on MSN and another fight happened between A and I. It seems like lately we can't stop fighting. We were on MSN and a small miscommunication resulted in a huge fight and break-up. It continued onto the phone and many hours of trying to work things out although we both knew in our hearts that there is damage which can not be repaired. I love A a lot. I wish that we could work through the issues but it seems impossible. We knew the odds were against this working out. We had some really great times. I don't have any regrets. I've learned a lot on my journey with A. I've really enjoyed serving him as his slave. I think one of the happiest days was becoming his slave and the day we signed our M/s contract. Our nights at Sin City were incredible!! The sex, play, and connection/chemistry was amazing. He came over on Friday and we had worked out our last fight and I had thought we were on the right track. It was not meant to be though. Maybe it was our age or life experience. Maybe it was not the right time for us both. I'm not really sure what went wrong. I know many people told me that it would not last. There were people who were surprised that we were even together. I felt a spark there with a very handsome young Dom who danced his way into my heart. I fell in love with A....with my whole heart and soul. I imagined a life together in the future. I thought I might even be having his baby last week (during my pregnancy scare) and we had talked about a real future together. That is the part which kills me the most right now...I am crying my eyes out just writing that. It is the dreams for the future which hurts the most. Usually my feelings are dead when a relationship ends but that isn't the case with A....I truly, deeply, love him. I feel like a failure for not being able to make this relationship work. I wanted it to so much. A seems to think we can remain friends although I am really not sure what will happen now. I wish him the best though and hope he can find happiness. I hope that he knows that I will always love him. Goodbye my lover - James Blunt Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won. So I took what's mine by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care. You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you. I've kissed your lips and held your hand. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you. Chorus (2x) Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I am a dreamer and when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you. Chorus (2x) Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep. And I will bear my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet. Chorus (2x) Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow. I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A happy anniversary with Master Anakin

I had one of the best days of my life yesterday. It's been a really great anniversary weekend with Master Anakin. I feel very connected to him and our force feels strong. We really needed the time together and I was glad to focus on him and give him all my attention. Friday night was very nice. We had a date night. We got some pizza for dinner as well as a few coolers. We watched a really great movie called Brothers. I want to buy this movie now! I recommend it. It moved me and deeply intrigued me. Natalie Portman is in it and I admit that I have the hots for her!! She was great in this movie. The plot was really good as well as the acting. I like how Natalie Portman falls for the bad boy in the movie. Yum! Master was very Dominant and controlling through the night leading up to a night of play on the darkside. We were both aching to play with each other. I wore some sexy lingerie and he had his belt come off as soon as we entered the bedroom. He used his belt on my bottom and then enjoyed some bath time where I was able to give him some attention. I enjoyed running my hand all over his body in the hot lavender bubble bath. We made out and enjoyed some foreplay before he came out and got me to suck his cock. He gave me a very long strapping with his belt and let me fly off into subspace which was heavenly after a week of no play. He used his fingers to stimulate me at times between belt strokes. My pussy responded by getting very wet. I begged for an orgasm which he finally let me have with the Hitachi on my clit and his fingers in my pussy. He had nipple clamps on my nipples which I normally couldn't wear more than a few minutes. I had them on for about five minutes before that orgasm which he prolonged. That orgasm was extremely intense! So was the sex. I love fucking my lover. He's got a cock and knows how to fuck me. I've always loved our sex life. I loved having his cock in my pussy and feeling him cum hard up it. His cum dripped down my thighs as I went to clean up. Mmm... I fell asleep naked in his arms and slept right through the night. I woke up to breakfast from McDonald's and cuddles with Master. We got ready for our anniversary date and then headed out to North Vancouver. He made me pack the butt plug in my purse. I got a few strokes with his belt on my ass before we got in the car. I was nervous and excited as we headed out into an afternoon of spring sunshine and a kid free day!! We got to the Maplewood Flatlands first which is a nature reserve in North Vancouver. It is truly beautiful there. We found a bench to sit on with a beach view. Birds were flying around and sounds of nature everywhere. He looked into my eyes and told me he loved me and all about his feelings for me. We made out and hands were going everywhere. We kissed and he took a picture of it. There were reminders of my place even on our romantic date. He pulled my hair a bit and I got a public spanking!! I had to lean over a log which was on the beach. His hand spanked me and I worried we might get caught. It was very exciting and arousing. We went to Cates Park next and noticed a wedding going on which was very neat to see. We shared many romantic moments during our date. We talked about our wedding day and how our love has grown strong through the years. I love Master Anakin so much! He is my husband, Owner, Master and my absolute best friend. We went to Deep Cove afterwords where we spent the rest of the afternoon. I love going to Deep Cove. There is a beautiful beach there and it's so relaxing and nice there. We walked around and enjoyed some beach time together. We shopped in a few stores and had dinner there at a pizza/pasta place. I can also cross something off my bucket list: #118 -Spent the afternoon in Deep Cove, North Vancouver I was told to go to the bathroom at one point during dinner. He wanted me to put the butt plug up my ass. That is always something which makes me blush when I do things like this. I feel like everyone knows that I am walking with a butt plug up my ass. Master Anakin had a very sadistic smile on his face as he saw me coming out of the bathroom. I felt very submissive and horny as we drove back in the car with it up my ass. I could feel it go into my ass deep during a few parts of the drive and he chuckled with amusement at it all. What a mean old man!! We got back and had gotten the news that we had an overnight with no kids. We headed upstairs with our bottle of merlot. Master had bought a really nice merlot for our anniversary. We had dessert and set up the toys and room. He wanted the "bed of roses" on our bed so I scattered them around. I got to take the butt plug out of my ass finally. I changed into my leather skirt, white sexy blouse, black lace panties and red fishnets. The "briefcase of hurt" came out with our toys and also the sex toys like the Hitachi. We lit some candles and put on a porno and then enjoyed some wine. Then it was time for a spanking!! He got me to lay down in the bed of roses and started with a bit of an erotic hand spanking. He warmed me up really nice and then the English Tawse got brought out for some attention on my ass. I got about 100 licks with the English Tawse and then things started to get rougher. The belt came out of the loops of his pants and got brought down on my ass several times. Whips were brought out and used. Paddles came down hard on my ass too! There was biting, slapping, and a bit of tit torture with his hands and fingers and clamps/clothespins all over. It was supposed to be a romantic anniversary. We had plans to make love. But we did not make love last night. It was fucking....really, really great fucking!!! First he made me cum with the Hitachi and then entered me shortly after I had cum. My pussy was tight but he liked it that way. The sex was incredible! Some of the best that I've ever had with any partner. It lasted 20 minutes and we tried several positions during the sex. He would fuck me doggy style and then turn me over and enter me missionary. He thrust into me so hard that I screamed out in pleasure. I am sure that the neighbors could have heard us as we were pretty loud last night during the fucking. I could have cum just from the sex alone. It was truly amazing!! Master is a very truly skilled lover after all the years he's had to practice and learn. I have to admit that it surprised me with how long we had been fucking when we looked at the clock!! We both held each other naked and I could feel all his cum coming out of my pussy. I wanted to clean up but he wanted me to stay a while first in his arms. I noticed how sticky my thighs are this morning from the sex last night. I had another orgasm after we fucked which just about sent me through the roof. It was an intense g-spot orgasm which left me gasping and having a hard time breathing and even walking. We spent an hour together afterwords holding each other and cuddling up naked and making out. Lots of kissing and affection and intimacy. "I think this has been one of the best anniversary's that I have ever had with you Master. I am so proud to be your slave" I told him. He looked into my eyes and told me he was proud to be my Master and told me how much he loved me. 6 years of being his wife and slave. The years have flown by but our love has only gotten stronger. I truly am a lucky slave girl and so happy to be in love my handsome Jedi. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy 6th wedding anniversary!

"Will you stay with me, will you be my love Among the fields of barley We'll forget the sun in his jealous sky As we lie in the fields of gold" - Sting - Fields of Gold It seems like yesterday when I was on my way to my first day of college. I was 17 years old at that time. A very young girl who was still a virgin. I walked into my class and met Master Anakin. We became best friends right away. You just know with some people that they will be in your life forever...that's the way I felt about Anakin. We were destined to be soulmates. We connected with a few laughs over the chocolate chip muffins we had at the local cafe in the college that we would go to. We were both really broke at that time so sometimes a muffin was all we could afford. The friendship came first. I think that I always loved him though from that first moment we became friends. He was important to me and I couldn't imagine my life without him. We dated in 1991. It was brief and not a sexual relationship. The friendship continued and he became my very best friend. I denied my feelings until Nov 23/97 when we finally made love and declared our love for one another. The sex was the best I have ever had with any of my lovers through the years. That night of passion was one that I will never forget. 7 years of build up lead to an incredible night of lust and a connection that would connect us together forever. I became addicted to the sex with my older lover. We fucked a lot in those days. Constantly needing to fuck each other. One of the kinkiest things we did was fuck in my Dad's bed at his house. Then I went home and fucked my husband who didn't know that I had just been with my lover. I left my husband and then started living with Anakin. We found D/s and our relationship went into a different direction. He became my Dominant. We found poly and opened up our relationship. We started to create a family and talk about our dreams for the future. Then something happened which almost broke us up. A very evil man tried to destroy our love. We got through it because our force was strong. We moved away and started a new life in a new city. I got pregnant with Skywalker and our love child was born. I was told that my very last major decision would be to marry him. I finally surrendered my soul, life, mind and body to him on April 10, 2004. I became his wife and then his slave on our wedding night. I sat down in that chair in my wedding gown and a signature on a contract changed our relationship into a Master/slave one. He owned me then. I knew it. There was no leaving our relationship. He owned me for the rest of my life. He claimed me afterwords with the sex and things went into a TPE direction. We started this blog almost 5 years ago and have shared the rest of our journey here for you to read. It's been a really amazing journey so far and I'm so proud to be Anakin's slave and wife. Happy Anniversary Master! It's been a really great six years together as husband and wife/Master and slave. i look forward to the rest of our lives together... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Sideboob and a flogger

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I am putting up another picture which was taken last Friday during some play time with both of my Masters. A was pulling my hair and flogging my back with the suede flogger when this picture was taken. I love it when A pulls my hair. It's so Dominant and controlling and a big fetish of mine! I got flogged all over by my two Masters who beat me good and hard. I am wearing my PVC skirt but no top. You get a bit of a glimpse of my boob in this picture! There is just something so sensual about a flogging, especially one on the back while getting your hair pulled. It turns me on and gets me very wet!! Click to enlarge the picture and get a better look of it! I went on a date with A yesterday. It was good to see him. We went to East Side Mario's for lunch. It is a place that I have been wanting to eat at for a long time and has always had big line-ups so I never had the chance to go there until yesterday. A treated me for lunch. It was yummy! It was nice to see him and spend some time together. A and I went for a nice walk and had a long talk about the future afterwords. I really enjoyed our date together. There were no spankings or play but we enjoyed lots of cuddles on the bench in the park and some hair pulling and reminders of my place. I had planned to take a pregnancy test if I didn't get my period by tonight. Master Anakin was going to buy one on the way home from work and be with me for the results. I started spotting though and having cramps so we don't need the test now. I am not sure if I was pregnant or just have a late period. I admit to being a little bit disappointed and sad about the news. Maybe it was just not meant to be. Please leave us a comment on the picture. We love to hear from you and appreciate your comments and feedback. Check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. I am really looking forward to a relaxing weekend with Master Anakin to celebrate our six year wedding anniversary and also the anniversary of being his slave. The journey continues... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Six years of being a slave and wife

It's hard to believe that my six year wedding anniversary is coming up this Saturday! It is also the anniversary of signing my TPE agreement with Master Anakin. I agreed to be his wife and slave on the same day. I signed my agreement on our wedding night before we made love and he took me as my Master for the first time. That day is also the anniversary of his proposal. He got down on his knee in Las Vegas outside the Mirage Hotel and asked me to be his wife. Special memories and a great reason to celebrate. We have romantic plans for Saturday. I am so proud to be his wife and slave. We have a really good solid marriage and it's been an amazing 6 years together!! .... I had a really good Easter long weekend. I had my Friday night dinner with A and Master Anakin. I enjoyed playing with both of my Masters. I really enjoyed Anakin being home for 5 days. I even had a visit from the Midnight Caller one night. He came to visit me and jumped me and fucked my brains out!! I hope he comes to visit me again soon! :) A went on his date. It went alright but she is not too into the poly and that has become an issue and things have not worked out with A and her. I thought I'd feel a lot of angst on Saturday night while he was on his date but I didn't. I enjoyed some merlot and movie time with Master Anakin and cuddles. I am trying to work through my issues about the poly and about A wanting to date and connect with other women. I feel like I have no rights to be jealous as I am married and not able to give him what he needs. We had dinners with both sets of parent's this weekend. On Sunday we had dinner with my in-laws. It upset me to see my FIL very ill and not doing very good. He's a really good man and I am praying for him. I lost my Dad last year and would hate to see Master Anakin lose his. We've gone through some rough times in the last 6 years of marriage/13 years of being together/almost 20 years of friendship. There has been great joy and loss in all those years together. Our force has been strong through it all though. We had dinner with my mom and step-dad. This was one of the best dinners that I have had with my mom and her husband. We had a really good talk at the table. My mom called herself a "cougar" though which made me almost spit out my wine. I didn't even know that my mom had heard of that term before. She really IS a cougar though!! LMAO! She's married to a man who is half her age. I feel a bit differently towards her marriage since getting into my relationship with A. A is also half my age. I admit it's kind of surprised me to be in a similar situation as my own mom!! We are both in relationships with very young guys. My Mom seems to be happy despite a lot of challenges in her marriage. There have been a lot of challenges in my relationship with A. I feel that the odds are against us. I don't regret the journey though and have learned a lot along the way. There is a bit of a challenge going on right now. I might be buying a pregnancy test soon. My period is late and I am having some strange symptoms going on. It's made me think a lot about the possibility of what it would be like to be pregnant and have another child. I will admit my maternal instincts have been going a bit crazy lately. The biggest challenge would be having a full term baby if I am indeed pregnant. I have a history of miscarriages and there has been a lot of babies lost along my journey. I have a feeling that this is going to be a big week for me. I got a fortune cookie during Easter dinner which said "now is the time". Maybe now is the time for big changes on my journey.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy Easter from Anakin and padme!

A night with my two Masters

I spent most of the day getting ready for my dinner with my two Masters. I was feeling very nervous and also domestic. I like to be a good host. I take that role seriously and Master Anakin has big expectations when it comes to hosting in our home. He likes to make guests feel welcome and I am often in the kitchen cooking up a storm. I worked all day on my pasta dinner. I wanted to cook my own sauce for it including fresh garlic and mushrooms. I used angel hair which is very nice for a baked pasta. I made garlic bread, caesar salad, veggies and the pasta. I baked homemade brownies for dessert for my men. I am putting up a picture today of the kitchen table waiting for my Masters. We bought a bottle of Jackson Triggs wine but I was the only one who was able to drink. I was really glad to have the wine. It helped me calm my nerves. I dressed up in my 1950's housewife dress and black lace panties. A arrived and we had a bit of time together before Anakin arrived from dropping off our son. We had a few precious hours with no kids and we were going to make the most of it. The conversation during dinner was intense at times making me feel nervous and blushing from it all. A had bought a new belt and had texted me earlier in the day about it which got a reaction from me. I've got a big belt fetish and that was on my mind all day after he messaged me about it! He told Anakin about it and suddenly there was talk about me getting spanked by BOTH of their belts. Eep!!! We finished watching Star Wars Revenge of the Sith. It felt a bit surreal to be watching that movie and then knowing a spanking was coming. The Star Wars movies do remind me of my blog sometimes and it does inspire my darkside. Especially Revenge of the Sith. I LOVE watching Anakin turn to the darkside. We had a Star Wars marathon and ended it with my favorite one!! Then it was time to get ready for play time. The coffee table was moved and I was told to get down on the couch and get ready to take some pain on my ass. Their belts were used on my bottom first. They both took turns strapping me. I started to float into a very deep subspace at this point. This was a big fantasy for me and it was coming true!! A's new belt is pretty harsh. Yikes!! I think it hits me harder than his other one. Master Anakin's belt is very familiar to my ass. He's had the same one for a long time and it's very soft and yet harsh at the same time. I floated in subspace heaven as both of my men took turns at my poor ass. I found myself down at their feet at one time trying to beg for mercy. You can see the picture today of them holding their belts and me trying to beg. It didn't work though!! A is as mean as Anakin is. I was playing with two very mean men!! They were VERY mean to my bottom!! I changed into my PVC skirt at one point and couldn't find a top so I can downstairs topless. They both seemed pleased with that. They experimented with different toys. I had a hard time keeping still as the paddles, whips, belts, flogger (suede and chain one) and many different toys came down hard on my ass, back and tits. I don't remember who was hitting me at times. I would look behind me and see A sometimes. Other times it was Anakin who was hitting me. Anakin showed our bullwhip off to A. I was told to bend over and hold onto the couch and he bullwhipped my thighs. This brought back memories of my threesome with R and Anakin when they both took turns with the bullwhip on me. I was so lost in subspace at that point. Things got cloudy. They had overpowered me, controlled me and took over my senses and mind. I served them both by taking the pain that they both wanted to give to me. It was a hard beating and very intense. My ass is very sore today as a reminder of the play that I had with both of my Masters. My ass bled many times through the beating. They would clean it up and then hit me more. I moved around a lot and had to be tied up at one point. I called Master Anakin a "bastard" too during the play. which just encouraged him to hit me harder. They showed me no mercy as I played on the darkside with them both. I think that things could have gotten very naughty between the three of us. I certainly wished that I could have brought out the Hitachi and cum for both of my lovers. We all agreed it would be a low pressure type of night though. The spanking/beating was a fun time though and felt like a great threesome with my Masters. It was great to play with the men who I serve and obey. It was a huge turn on too! My pussy was soaking wet after the play and my bum was sooooo sore. We cleaned up the toys and then the men played video games while I served them munchies and drinks. I enjoyed watching them spend time together. I love them both. I want them both to get along with each other. It was neat to see them playing Streets of Rage and Left for Dead. They made a good team killing the zombies. A and I had some time together to cuddle up and be alone. We watched a bit of the Haunting in Connecticut which is a super scary movie. I enjoyed being at A's feet and being a good little slave girl. I got a bit playful with him and got slapped hard at one point. My jaw is sore today as a reminder from that. There was hair pulling, slapping and lots of rough play with both of my men last night. A left around 11:30. We said goodbye and we watched him drive away. Master Anakin commented on how marked my ass was and how excited I must feel about the night. He wanted to inspect my pussy which was very wet after the night with my Masters. We uploaded the pictures which turned out great. There was a bunch of different pictures taken last night. Some were posted on Fetlife if you want to check them out! I exchanged a few text's with A and then headed upstairs for some Hitachi time and great sex with Master Anakin. We cuddled up and talked about the wonderful night we had with A. He was a lot of fun to have over. I hope we can all get together again really soon. I am really glad that both of my men get along so well and that we could all have a great evening together that I will never forget! .... I slept great last night and woke up to messages from A. We started chatting and he told me that he's going on a date tonight!! It's with a girl that he dated in high school. We have been talking about this happening but I admit it kind of surprised me. We were having some really serious problems last week and I had wanted things to be going better with us before introducing others to our relationship. I know we are poly but I worry that she might not be able to accept our relationship. I just hope that this won't add anymore stress onto my relationship with A. We've had a rocky road so far and things are were just starting to get better in the last few days. She is not from the bdsm community and I am wondering how much knowledge she has of poly. I am trying to work through my issues about it all though. I want A to be happy and he has every right to have other partners just like I do in our relationship. Some of my emotional angst could be coming from the pms going on though. I also feel like I am crashing a bit from the play last night. I think I'm going to stay in and watch movies tonight with Master Anakin. I could really use the cuddles with Master and maybe a fun spanking too! My bum is sore but I can never get enough spankings. :) I hope everyone is having a good Easter long weekend! Happy Easter! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Dinner with my two Masters tonight!

The Easter long weekend started for us yesterday. Master Anakin took an extra day off and we ran some errands in the morning as well as had breakfast together at the A&W. It seemed like I got into trouble all through the day. Master starting looking for his credit card through breakfast. I knew where the visa was but didn't want to tell him. I had to take the card to get some numbers from it. I don't own a credit card so I "borrowed" his. Um, that wasn't a very good idea. He was not pleased. His look was dark and dominant when he saw me hand the visa back to him. "We'll discuss this later" he said. You know what that means. I sure did. My ass was going to pay the price. We went grocery shopping and then headed home. I remembered that I needed to get a new chocolate Easter bunny to replace the way that I had eaten some of it. It was an "accident". um, well ok...maybe it wasn't such an accident. I am a chocolate addict. I couldn't help myself. I handed him his Easter bunny which had all the parts eaten except for the ass part. He was REALLY not pleased with that. He twittered about it and then ate the rest with a very stern look on his face. I squirmed around in my chair as we talked about my behavior. He asked me to make him some chocolate chip cookies. He had to go pick up the kids from the school. I put the cookies in the oven but forgot all about them. I noticed smoke from the oven. Ack!! I was too busy watching The Young and the Restless!! The masked ball that is happening has been intriguing. The cookies were black and burnt. Master was REALLY, REALLY not pleased. "You could have burned the whole fucking house down" he said as he got up close to me and put his fist close to my face. "Your really asking for a beating, bitch" he said on his way up the stairs. He was in full Darth mode. I know that look well. I was going to get it. We watched a movie called The Blind Side which was really great. A kept sending me dirty text messages which were really turning me on. I kept thinking about the punishment spanking that was coming. I was nervous!! I was told to go upstairs and wait for him. I was glad to be able to send text's to A as I was so nervous and trying to calm down. It was a nice distraction while I waited for Darth Vader to come in and punish my ass. I'm not sure how many times he used the wire coat hanger on my ass. He had a very cold stare when I tried to beg for mercy at one point. The punishment seemed intense and he kept wanting me to take more pain. He had no mercy for my ass which took a very hard punishment for my bad behavior. We have domestic discipline in our relationship and this is how it works. I cried at the end of the punishment. He finally stopped but my ass hurt so much. He put clothespins all over my tits and then fucked me with my rabbit vibe while I used the Hitachi on my clit. It didn't take me long to have my first g-spot orgasm. The orgasm seemed to go on forever. We played around a bit more. A few slaps and threats and darkness. He told me to suck on his cock while he held the wire coat hanger in his hand. He wanted my pussy at one point. He knew that I had shaved and trimmed it and wanted some action. He fucked me from behind until he came hard up my pussy. I was so horny that I begged for another orgasm. He gave me another g-spot orgasm. That one was so intense that I could barely move and gave me the shakes. I was on another planet at that point. We had a snack and then went right to bed. I slept very well. We invited A over for dinner tonight!! I will be serving my two Masters an Italian feast. We have been able to get sitting for our son for a few hours and our daughter is gone so there will be no little ones around. A chance for us all to have dinner together and for the two Masters to get to know each other better. I have been told that I "better be on my best behavior tonight". I was also told that I will be wearing my 1950's housewife dress tonight while I serve them dinner. I have to admit that I'm very nervous about the thoughts of my two evil Masters conspiring up mean ideas of what they might do to me. We plan to watch movies and play video games and have a low pressure type of dinner and evening. I'll be in my slave role and serving my two lovers. I am looking forward to it! Master Anakin and I are having a Star Wars marathon today too! I am feeling very subbie and content today. Things seem to be going well with both of my men and I am excited about tonight. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala