A Rockn' good time at the PNE

This weekend was wild and amazing! It was one of the best weekends of summer 2010 and one that I will never forget. I was looking forward to the PNE all of last week. I have great memories there. Some of my youngest memories are of my Dad taking all of us down to the PNE and then complaining about the costs. I didn't understand it at the time how much it cost to take a family to the PNE for the day. Ride and gate passes are close to 50 bucks and that's just for one kid! Our teen wanted to go to the PNE for the day also but with her friends. So we had two kids there but spent most of our time with Skywalker. We did run into the teen. She looked surprised and clearly didn't want us hanging around her and her teen friends. I guess we are just not cool enough. lol. Or maybe she didn't want us around because she had secretly invited her ex bad boy ex boyfriend to the PNE. Her current boyfriend couldn't make it so she invited this punk instead!! She didn't tell us. We found out when we saw them walking by us at the Mariann's trench concert!! I thought he was out of the picture because he moved away. Apparently not. Teen world continues. Skwalker enjoyed the rides although they were all very busy during the day. The crowds at the PNE were massive!! I've never seen the PNE so busy. It was a sunny summer weekend and everyone decided to go to the PNE. Wow! The superdogs show was almost sold out!! I've never seen so many people. I was glad to have some alone time to go shopping at the Marketplace and walk around on my own for a while. It was an interesting place to watch people. It's also the best place to get great food!! We always consume a lot of calories but I figure it all comes off because of the walking you do. My feet and back were so sore after 11 hours of walking around the PNE!! I have a few blisters to remind me of all the miles we must have walked. Ouchies! The mini-donuts were awesome! I admit that we bought a few bags to snack on through the day. We are addicted! I heard from someone that they specifically come to the PNE just for the mini-donuts. lol. Washing them down with some fresh lemonaid is one of the best joys of summer for me. :D We spent over an hour to get us a really good place to watch the Mariannas Trench concert. I had wanted to see Joan Jett on Friday but my son had no interest in it. He found out his sister was going to Mariannas trench and wanted to go. So we went on Saturday instead. I've been to a lot of concerts but this one was very wild!! I've never seen so many teens!! The teen girls were screaming for the lead singer. I was very impressed with their music. I had heard of "celebrity status" but didn't know any other of their songs until Saturday. Our son was excited to get a t-shirt from it. They were selling out fast. We saw Hedley in concert a few years ago before they became really big. I think Mariannas Trench will become a pretty big band. They've got lots of fans who were there on Saturday's PNE show. I have to admit that I thought the lead singer was pretty hot!! It's the cougar in me. I had a few fantasies of him while he sang his love song to all the girls. Yum!! One girl threw her bra at him during the show and he said he "would put it back on her later". Ohhh.... Mariann's Trench performed as the sun set over an incredible PNE summer concert. It was amazing and a really neat experience for me. We saw a Tina Turner look-a-like perform also and then Skywalker went on the rides. The rides are always so neat at night time with the lights on and sounds. We checked out the Hall of Fame tent and other places. We saw the animals there and also Skywalker enjoyed the petting zoo. He had a blast and it was great to experience the PNE through his eyes. He was brave to go on the big kid rides for the first time alone. I really enjoyed taking him. I also felt close to Master. There was fireworks at the end of the night and I cuddled with Master Anakin and we kissed and felt close. We spent 11 hours at the PNE having lots of fun and experiencing the best part of summer! We had a rockn' good time at the PNE! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A romantic dinner and hard spanking

It's been really nice having a few days to myself. Skywalker went away for a two day trip and the teen has been at her friend's house having sleepovers. I spent most of Wednesday doing some cleaning and then relaxing. I decided to surprise Master Anakin with a romantic dinner. I love to cook homemade meals for Master and our family. It's one of the things that I have always found pleasurable and enjoy surprising people. The way to most people's heart is through cooking. It's one of the ways that I can show someone how I feel about them...cook them a really gourmet meal. I set the table and put out a nice bottle of homemade wine that was given to us. I spent a lot of time on preparation for the meal which was salmon and garlic and herb cheesy potato's. I used soy cheese so Master could enjoy the meal without worrying about getting sick. He's lactose intolerant so this always affects the way that I cook for him. I put on some soft jazz and lit a candle and surprised Master when he walked in through the door with a kiss. I do enjoy going out for dinner during date night but this was a bit different and very refreshing to have a night at home. There was no interruptions except for our kitty who went downstairs for a while so we could enjoy some private dining time alone. I was able to wear my collar and also dress up sexy for him. Dinner turned out great. Master told me it was the "best potato's that I've ever made" which is a very big compliment. Dinner was a chocolate cake and then we went into the livingroom to cuddle up together and watch the Blu-Ray of The Breakfast Club which he got for his birthday and is one of his favorite movies. We headed upstairs to our bedroom afterwords for some kinky time. We were both a bit buzzed from the wine and the toys can out including his belt off his pant loops. I have been craving a good hard strapping for a while. I could barely wait to get over the pillow at the end of the bed and he was pulling down my panties and strapping my ass with his belt. I lost track of how many strokes I got. They were hard and cruel and exactly what I needed to float into a nice endorphin state. He used the wooden paddle a few times too to make sure my ass was nice and red. I could feel the welts all over my ass from his belt. He demanded a blowjob and I was happy to please him with my mouth and tongue. He rewarded me with more strokes from his belt and reminded me that he could spank me as hard as he wanted. He used his hand to spank on top of my welts. The pain slut in me was plenty satisfied. I needed pain and he delivered. I was allowed to cum with the hitachi after taking more with his belt. The orgasm left me breathless and my ass throbbed with pain. I woke up the next day with some impressive bruises leftover from the play to remind me of my place. I also woke up to the whole day to myself which was heavenly. I got to read and take a hot bath and enjoy lots of time to myself. Then he came home yesterday for round two. We had take-out dinner this time and then headed back up to our bedroom for more play time on the darkside. There was more spanking on my already sore ass from the night before. Round 2 made it hurt worse. Ouchies! Master is a very mean man to my bottom! My pussy was feeling quite swollen and I wasn't really in the mood to cum but Darth Vader didn't care. He pushed me to a huge g-spot orgasm which left me squirting all over the place. TGIF! I've really enjoyed my alone time this week. I can't wait til my kids are back in school and I can have my alone time again. I got a taste of it this week and really enjoyed it. I am really excited about this weekend. We are taking Skywalker to the PNE!! Woot! We plan to take lots of pictures and I'm sure I'll be blogging all about it! :D May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Beach day

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! This picture was taken at the beach on Tuesday during some family fun with the kids. The weather has been lovely the last few days. Perfect temps and blue skies. Master Anakin took the day off and we all headed to White Rock beach for the afternoon. We enjoyed some fish n chips and walked in the sand. I took this picture of my sandals in the sand. I'm wearing a new anklet that I bought from West Edmonton Mall. It's so pretty! I love beach days! Please click to enlarge the picture and get a better look at it. Please leave us a comment on our HNT picture! We'd love to hear from you and always enjoy the feedback. How is your summer going? I can't wait for this weekend because we are going to be taking our son to the PNE!! There is always fun rides and lots of family fun there. The teen plans to be there on the same day but is going with her friends. It will be a lot of fun and is always one of the best parts of summer for me. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy 5 year blogging anniversary!

It's hard to believe that we started our blog 5 years ago. I can remember the day that another blogger suggested that I start a blog of my own. I really wasn't sure what to write about and didn't think my life was too exciting at that time. I wondered who would want to read our blog and doubted my writing abilities a lot. She set up our blog for us and I sat there trying to figure out what to say. I had been reading blogs for a long time before I started my own. I wrote that first blog post and got several comments on it which surprised me. People were very welcoming from the blogging community. I started to get really into writing and even wrote some erotic stories in those early days. I really need to start doing that again. I miss it. There was a few times that I came close to deleting this blog and had my finger on the delete key. Blogging can become very time consuming. Also there is a risk of opening yourself up. Sometimes we got some very negative comments. You learn right away that you need a thick skin when you get into public blogging. Master Anakin stopped me a few times from walking away from this blog. I am glad now that he stopped me from making a mistake. I have come to really enjoy blogging and have made it a journal of our journey. I often look back on old posts and remember feelings or special times. We have always posted lots of pictures too of our journey and I enjoy remembering some play times with Master and also other people too. There was a lot of pressure in that first year to try to cater to the readers and build a spanking blog in the beginning. Our stats went through the roof as we posted almost all spanking material on our blog. I was really bored though and felt like it was more of a job than enjoyment to blog. I'd spend hours interviewing other bloggers or trying to keep up with our many different themed posts we had going. The only themed posts we do on a regular basis now are HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) pictures. Spanking is a part of my Master and I's journey but there is so much more to our relationship. We are poly and had other people in our lives with playing and also relationships. We have bdsm play and enjoy rough sex. We have an interesting dynamic as Master and slave. He is my owner and we have been in the bdsm lifestyle since 1997. We are both experienced in many areas of bdsm although always learning new things. We've had some really amazing experiences through the years, especially after we both got into the bdsm community in Vancouver. We've been to Rascal's and play parties. I've been to MVK and Libido Lounge and Sin City. I started a munch and was proud to get people together from this area for that. I learned a lot about myself after playing in public and trying out Topping for the first time. It was great to be able to blog about it all and share our journey with the readers. We've had over two million readers to Journey to the Darkside. Some days we get lots of readers and other times not as many. Our stats go up and down but I've stopped worrying whether or not we'll get any readers. Many regular readers continue to come to our blog and read about our adventures. We've been called a "legend" amongst some people and well known around the bdsm/spanking/sex blogging community. We have a successful online store which has gotten a lot of business through the years. Master's idea was to start Darkside Digital Arts and we have both been surprised at how well it does. Thank you to everyone who has supported our store. We are both very proud of it. I have been published in a book which was very exciting. I am proud to have been a part of The Peep Diaries. I was glad to be a part of that and see my name in a book at our local Chapter's. It got me several interviews including the Globe and Mail. I have felt like a little bit of a celebrity at times due to this blog. This book made it onto Oprah's list of 25 books you can't put down. I had no idea how big this book would become and what has happened since it came out. We were offered a chance to be a part of the documentary for the Peep Diaries but turned it down because it felt too public for us. It was very flattering to be asked though. I was even asked to star in a few spanking movies through the years. I was sent a script from my old friend, Master Mark who wanted me to star in the spanking movie he was making. There was other offers from other companies too. I've had to turn it all down though. Master and I are very private people. It has been a bit tempting sometimes to get more public but there have always been worries about stalkers and other weird people and thought this might get worse if we got even more known. I've gotten some very strange e-mails through the years and even a few which were a bit threatening. I am really just a slave and a mom and a very simple girl. I don't want to be a celebrity and feel uncomfortable when people try to say that I am. I'm just a girl who started a blog and wasn't expecting anyone to even have read it. I have gone through life experiences and shared it with my blog. I have cried over some posts and others have kept me up at night trying to write and get my feelings out. There's been lots of drama and heartbreak as well as all the fun and exciting times we've had. Journey to the Darkside has had it all through the last 5 years. We have written 2,553 posts through the last 5 years of blogging. Amazing!! Although I have been the one to do most of the writing, Anakin has always been a big part of this journey. He comments on all my posts and always gives me his feedback. He's also the one who has taken most of our pictures and contributed a lot for our HNT ones. He was always the creative mind behind Journey to the Darkside. I can't imagine not blogging now. It's become a part of my life. I enjoy it a lot and look to the future in my writing ambitions. I have some really great ideas for future blog posts and things that I want to share on my blog. I hope you will all continue to join us on our journey...our Journey to the Darkside. We appreciate all your comments and support and friendship. It has meant a lot to us both. Happy 5 year blogging anniversary Journey to the Darkside!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Spanking toys ready to be used

You know it's going to be a good night when the toys are laid out and ready to be used. Darth Vader has put out the swede flogger, crop, Anakin's paddle, wooden paddle, razor strop and belt ready to be used on my poor bottom. The combination of all those toys usually means that my ass is going to be cherry red and very sore!! My mean old man likes to use mean toys. His favorite is always the crop and paddles. I love the razor strop and belt. What toy do you like the best out of all of these? May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Playboy panties

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I am putting up a picture of me wearing my new panties that I bought at Spencer's Gifts last week. They are playboy panties and very sexy!! This is the first time that I've bought some sexy stuff from Playboy. They had a sale going so I bought another pair of panties too and will model them another time for you. :D Please click to enlarge the picture and get a better look of it. We'd love to hear from you so we hope you'll leave us a comment and let us know what you think. You get a very good look at my lower back tattoo in this picture too. I've had it now for two years and it hasn't faded as much as the ones on my ankle which are more exposed to the sun. I love these new playboy panties! They are as comfortable as they are sexy. I can be Master's playboy bunny. I know he'd like that. *smiles* Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

The force feels strong

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late. Could you say goodbye to yesterday? - Nickelback It's been a summer full of ups and downs. I was talking to Master last night that I do feel stronger than I've been in a very long time though. I was going through a really awful depression back in May and June and knew that I had to make some new changes in my life. I felt like I was spending way too much time in the past which was very unhealthy for me. I promised myself that I would make some changes even if some of them would be very challenging for me. One of those changes was to delete MSN from our computer. I used to spend way too much time chatting and many fights with people happened through it because of miscommunication. I feel that if people want to get in touch with me than they can pick up the phone or actually get together with me to talk. I think it was a positive change for me and I've noticed that I get a lot more done without spending my days chatting with people. I deleted a lot of people off my facebook. I was a bit confused by the "friends" on my list because some of those people never even liked me or kept in touch at all with me. I was recently contacted by someone after 15 years of not speaking to me and assumed we could just pick up where we left off. This is my biggest pet peeve EVER!! Either keep in touch with me or don't bother. I've spent way too much on flaky friends through the years. I have spent way too much time trying to get after people to get together or talk to me. I would rather have a small group of people in my life who keep in touch with me and are a part of my world. I know people get busy lives but it doesn't take much to send an e-mail sometime or try to keep in touch. I have had to give up on some friendships because I was tired of always being the one who made the effort. One of those people was my ex friend, S. I've been thinking about her lately because of the car accident we were both in years ago and the anniversary is coming up. I thought we had bonded over that and that our friendship was a strong one. I was obviously wrong. She was my best friend for years and even my maid-of-honor at my wedding to Master. I was always the one phoning her though and keeping in touch though. It was very one-sided. Master told me at one point to stop trying and see what happened. It wasn't a big surprise that our friendship drifted apart after that. It makes me sad because I thought we had a really good friendship and it obviously didn't mean the same to her that it did for me. A friendship that has surprised me and become stronger has been with DL. She has become my best friend over the last year. She is one of the few people that I get together with and she phones me to see how I'm doing. She seems to be the one person (aside from Master Anakin) who understands me and actually makes an effort back. We usually get together for coffee at least every week or two and have had some really great talks. I'm really glad for her friendship in my life. I may not have many close friends but at least there is one person who tries to keep in touch with me and seems to want to be a part of my world. It is sad to say goodbye to some people. I had really hoped A and I would be able to stay friends after our breakup but that didn't happen. I got a few random texts from him but no real interest in being a part of my world. I will admit that I feel very sad about it. I invested months into our relationship and let him into my heart. I know that my feelings were always way stronger for him than they were for me though. There is power in goodbye though. I knew that our friendship was a dysfunctional one. We'd get together and slept together a few times but he didn't want to put anything into it at all. I need people in my life who are willing to give back to me and A was not one of those people. He took from me but didn't give anything back but heartache. Saying goodbye was hard but I had to walk away. I've been putting a lot of time into healthier outlets lately. I've been working on projects around the house and spending time with my kids. I've been contesting again and hope that I'll win something soon. I've put a lot of effort into my marriage and relationship with Master Anakin. We even went out on a date on a Sunday night which is very rare for us. Usually it's on Fridays or Saturdays. We went to the IMAX and saw the movie Inception which was great. We've had some heart to heart talks and really connected. I know of all the people that I've been with that he's the strong force that I've needed. I am very lucky to have him in my life and I love him so much. He's given me hope for our future and been a very strong head of the household. I honestly don't know what I would do without him in my life. We were both relieved and happy to find out from the teen that she wants to live with us. I wrote a blog post last week expressing my heartache about her wanting to live with her Dad. She changed her mind and wants to live with us now!! This may be because of a new boyfriend in her life that lives nearby. I am just so glad she is staying with us. She may bring some drama into our home but I love my family. She even has her first job interview tomorrow and I hope she gets it. The Skywalkers are a strong force and I'm so glad we are all going to be together. There is something else which has been happening but I don't want to jump the gun and post about it before it happens. We'll see what happens.... The kids are going back to school soon and that is exciting too. I'm going to be glad to have my days free again. I've been thinking about several projects that I want to do and maybe even look for some volunteering or a part-time job to fill the time. I think it's a very positive move to focus on the future and making positive changes in my life. My force has been stronger than it has in a very long time. I am glad to be on this journey and headed in the right direction. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Taking a birthday spanking for Master Anakin

Darth Vader and I had a chance to play last weekend and I received his birthday spanking. He used his belt to give me 45 strokes on my ass. And he remembered to bring the camera so he could take this picture so I could share it with the readers! I've got my panties (which say Spank me! it's the only way I'll learn) pulled down and a nicely red bottom from his belt. This was just a warm up though as I did get more spanking play after this birthday spanking that I took for him. It's been a while since we posted a spanking picture. Enjoy! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

South Beach birthday shirt

I ordered Master Anakin a few goodies from our online store, Darkside Digital Arts for his birthday. This golf shirt was one of them. It is one of our most popular designs from the store and is a best seller. I personally love this design. It says "South beach Miami" on it. Master has gotten several compliments on the shirt since wearing it around work and different places. A lot of people actually thought he had gone to South Beach! I was glad to surprise Master for a special gift for his birthday. :D May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Cute girlie socks!

Master Anakin and I were both surprised to get an overnight last weekend. We had decided to celebrate his birthday early. We picked up some snacks and peach coolers and decided to spend a night inside out of the rain. It was so nice to have the place to ourselves. No interruptions and we were able to be as playful as we'd like. I wore a cute little outfit for him. I dressed up in my leather skirt, white schoolgirl top and cute panties and socks. Master remarked on how cute the socks were. I had bought these at West Edmonton Mall because they had reminded me of another pair of socks I had way back in the 80's which were similar. I love that pink color!! We went down to the basement and he took this picture of them. We had some play time and then went upstairs to watch Predators. I was in full slave mode. I got his drinks and made sure to do as he ordered. I even got an OTK spanking during the movie because I had given him a bit of sass while getting him a drink. I have to admit that I did it on purpose to get his attention. He knew that I needed a spanking and had been craving it for days. When the movie was over he ordered me to go upstairs to our bedroom and get the toys out and wait for him over the pillow at the end of the bed. He told me that I would be receiving the birthday spanking for him. 45 hard spanks! I asked him what he planned to use and he told me his belt. So I had to go upstairs and wait for him in position and know what was coming to my ass. It was a very long 15 minutes that he made me wait. My mind was on the spanking and his belt. He came upstairs and didn't say a word. He just picked up his belt which was off the loops of his pants. I heard the jingle of it and then he pulled down my panties and started to strap me. "Count for me slut" he ordered me. I counted out each and every stroke of the 45 for his birthday spanks. My ass burned and hurt. I could feel his belt all over my ass. I thought we were over when he added a few more to the spanking for being bitchy at him the night before. I had given him some attitude and he told me that I needed an adjustment for it. So I got more with his belt and then the whip. He also finished it off with the big wooden paddle so I would know my place. I felt very subbie when we were done. I was also very wet. He fingered my pussy and then told me to get his cock out and start sucking like a good slut. I gave him a blow job and then he stopped and suddenly started to fuck me. The sex was great!! It was rough, angry, hard sex. Both of us were panting by the time he had cum deep up my pussy. I got a big orgasm after the sex. Then he put me to bed after we had cuddled a bit. It was a wonderful overnight and a great birthday celebration for Master's birthday. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows

Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! - Quote from the movie Rocky Balboa TGIF!! This weekend couldn't start soon enough for me. It has felt like a very long week. I love many Star Wars quotes and others from different movies that I have seen. I love that quote from Rocky Balboa. I've watched that scene in that movie about a hundred times. I keep trying to remind myself of what he said. Those are very wise words from Sylvester Stallone. How true they are, especially during the difficult times. Life has given me a few punches recently. Life is hitting me rather hard at the moment. I have never felt so helpless and sad over what is going on. I spent last night up til 3 am crying my eyes out. I don't think that I've cried that hard since my Dad passed away. It was like the floodgates opened and all my inner emotions came pouring out of me. I feel hungover this morning although I never had a drop of alcohol last night. I probably should have had a drink. It could have at least calmed me down. I barely slept and my eyes are still swollen from how much I cried. ... Master Anakin had his birthday yesterday and it should have been a happy day. Instead we were given some very sad news about his mom. His mom has terminal cancer and it's spread from the lungs to her brain. Time is very precious right now. It's been hard to watch Master Anakin being very upset with his mom having cancer and what he's gone through. He's had to watch his mom getting sicker and know that there are no happy endings with this situation. His mom is dying. There is nothing we can do but sit by and watch this happen. I've known my MIL for 20 years. We've had a few rocky times during those years but I've always thought of her as a friend as well as my MIL. It's heartbreaking to think of losing her and the holidays and events that she won't be here for. She won't see my daughter graduate from school or get married. My son (who's extremely close to her) will lose out on all those years that grandma should have been there for the special events in his life. Cancer sucks!!! I have written about some of the drama which has been happening with our teen daughter. The bad boy she was dating moved away and I honestly thought the bad times were behind us and we were all moving forward. Then my ex husband dropped the bomb on me last night. She's been phoning him and complaining about me and talking about going to live with him. She's 15 and old enough now to make her own decisions. I guess we could try to force her to stay with us but then that wouldn't make me any different than my own controlling Dad. He used to force me to do what he wanted but it just made me rebel and made me move out of the house as soon as I was legally able to. My ex husband (Leia's Dad) wants her to go live with him. He believes that he could do a better job as a parent. Our marriage fell apart because he was a workaholic though. I never thought he would be interested in having primary custody of our daughter. There was always a big part of myself which worried though that one day he might change his mind. The grass is always greener on the other side. She thinks that going to live with him will solve all her teenage angst and issues. I just hope he steps up to the plate as a parent. My biggest fear has always been that she would chose to go live with her Dad and that's exactly what's happening. I've done everything in my power to get close to my daughter. We worked for days to give her a beautiful bedroom and her own room. We have tried our best to make her happy but she is clearly not. I've tried so hard to be a good mom. It absolutely kills me to think of our family dynamic changing. I've been told by my MIL and mother that the process of letting go of your child is one of the hardest. Both of them told me they cried when the oldest child moved out of the family home for the first time. I know that eventually Leia was going to move out. She can't stay at home forever. But I guess I thought we'd have more time before that happened. I wish we could change her mind but I feel that is out of our hands now. I'm going to have to accept her wishes and start letting her make her own decisions about her life. I think our house will be very empty without her here during the week. I will become a weekend parent and will still be a part of her life but it will be different. I really wanted a big house with lots of kids but I don't think that dream is going to happen. It's heartbreaking. All I want is to have a family but eventually the nest is going to be all empty and one day there won't be any kids in our home. Skywalker is turning 10 and growing up on us. There are no more babies. I really wish I could get pregnant...but I don't think that is ever going to happen. The stress of this situation caused a big fight between Master and I. I feel really bad that this all happened on his birthday. We both were hurting and lashed out at each other. We both said some things that wasn't too nice but at least we were honest. I needed to be honest about my feelings even though I think this might have hurt Master. I love him. I hate fighting with him. We both hardly got any sleep and woke up and apologized. I'm pretty sure there is some good make-up sex in our future. Sometimes fighting is worth it if there is some great making up afterwords. Our force is strong. We'll get through this. I believe in us and our love. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy birthday Master Anakin!

My mean old man is having a birthday today! He's another year older today! I got 45 strokes with his belt last weekend for his birthday celebration. I always receive his birthday spanking every year as well as one for my own birthday in October. He's 7 years older than me so that always means more strokes for it. ;) I saw this Star Wars cake and thought it would be perfect for my Jedi. I'd love to make him something like this one day. I did buy him some neat stuff from our online store, Darkside Digital Arts. He was very impressed with the golf t-shirt I gave him. He also got movie passes and other goodies too! We are having a family celebration later today too. Of course there is the traditional birthday blowjob that he always gets too. I'll be on my knees serving him that as well as birthday cake. Please leave us a comment and wish him a happy birthday. I know he'd love to hear from you! Happy birthday Master Anakin!! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Part 4 - Fun times at West Edmonton Mall

I wrote about the other parts of the trip in my previous posts: Part 1 - Family trip to Alberta Part 2 - The Calgary tower and an amazing sunset Part 3 - Drumheller and the Hoodoos We arrived in Edmonton during a big rain storm. The rain drops were coming down so hard and were huge. We could barely see out of the windows. We weren't sure where we were going to stay. We drove around near the West Edmonton Mall and saw a motel across the street. We figured it would be very expensive and decided to check the rates. We were both surprised at the great deal and stayed there for two nights. I could cross something off my bucket list: #627 -Go back to Edmonton with my kids We checked into the hotel and then made our way over to West Edmonton Mall. It feels a bit like Disneyland in some ways. You can go on rides or shop til you drop. There's an ice skating rink in it and also a pirate ship. The water park is amazing and so is the many amazing places to eat too. We spent a whole 2 days there and could have easily spent more time exploring the mall. I was disappointed that Victoria's Secret wasn't open yet although I got to check out an adult store there. Master and I took turns giving each other free time to shop and explore the mall. I got some time to go to Lush and also the casino there. Then I went to the adult store and picked up some Kama Sutra Sweet Almond Oil and lubricant also. I also decided to get my hair cut really short and have gotten a lot of compliments on it. Master Anakin and I also had a bit of time to have a quickie while we had some kid free time. I was glad to connect with him while the kids were busy. There wasn't as much romance as I would have liked but we knew that this trip was mostly devoted for the family. I enjoyed all our moments that we shared on the trip. We tried to make time for us too. The teen got her nose pierced and that was a pretty neat thing to see. She told me that it would be as easy as piercing her ears. She was a bit surprised when it hurt more than that and remarked "that hurt like hell" after it was done. She thought I was a "cool mom" for giving her permission to get it done. The rain continued during most of the time we were there unfortunately. That canceled our outside plans to visit Elk Island and Whyte Avenue. This was disappointing but you can't control mother nature. We did take the kids out for a very fancy dinner at Red Lobster. This was on my bucket list: #247 -Eat at a Red Lobster again We spent almost a hundred bucks on dinner but it was well worth every bite. I love seafood and it was some of the best I've had in a long time. I am posting a picture of what I ordered at Red Lobster. It was amazing! I wish we had a Red Lobster out here in B.C. It makes it extra special though when I do get to go to one. I really love their food! The kids really enjoyed their food too. It was a great family dinner out. Everyone bought lots of stuff at West Edmonton Mall. The car was jammed pack full of stuff after we were done. We did a lot of back to school shopping there as the taxes are lower and way better deals too. We left and drove out to Jasper and got to explore there before we headed home. I can cross something else off my list: #389 -Visit Jasper again I had a really great trip with the family. Filled full of special memories and fun times. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Part 3 - Drumheller and the Hoodoos

You can read part 1 and part 2 about our trip if you click on the links. Part 3 is about our trip out to Drumheller and the Hoodoos. We got up early and headed out from Calgary to Drumheller. It was really beautiful with the open roads and fields of gold. (the fields were yellow and made it look like gold. It was very beautiful) I had a hard time believing that we would get into the desert and was surprised as we approached Drumheller and the scenery changed so much. Drumheller is a really neat place. There were fake dinosaurs all over the town including a big one at the visitor's center. They called it the world's largest dinosaur and you could go up inside of it but I didn't go as there were too many people. I am putting up a picture of it for everyone to see. I can cross something off my bucket list: #56 -Visit Drumheller in Alberta We drove around and then made our way out to the Hoodoos which was close by. I had never been to the unique rock formations before. Master had been and was glad to take the family out to see them. Another thing off my bucket list: #139 -See the Hoodoos in Alberta We got in the car afterwords and went out the Royal Tyrrell Museum. We decided not to go in though. The kids were impatient and the teen doesn't like dinosaurs. Both of them seemed anxious to get to Edmonton. We were going to stay overnight but then changed our minds and headed up towards Edmonton. A big storm came into Drumheller as we were leaving. It was amazing to watch as the sky got black and we could see the lightening and hear the loud thunder. We went down a road that seemed to go on forever. I fell asleep for a quick nap in the car. We made a stop at Tim Hortons and then headed up to Edmonton. We were amazed by the gas prices near Red Deer. Master was happy to fill up the tank and we both noticed the huge savings from where we live in B.C. Gas prices are quite high out here. We headed to Edmonton and I will write about that in my next post. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Part 2 - The Calgary tower and an amazing sunset

I wrote about part 1 of our trip and our trip to Banff and the Rocky Mountains. This post is about Calgary and our fun adventures there. It had been a long day and we got into the car and headed into Calgary. It was very country like with all the cows and open fields. I really love visiting Calgary and always have a good time there. Skywalker had never been to calgary before so this was his first time there. Master grew up there and is an Alberta boy at heart. He really loved being back there. He even drove us around his old neighborhood and places he hung out as a kid. Really cool! Leia had not been to Calgary since she was 3. She remarked about the "cute cowboys" around as it was stampede time and everyone was dressed up for it. The city felt alive with stampede fever. The air felt a bit electric almost. A storm passed through which gave us a good lightening show. I was glad to check into the Ramada there which is a very nice hotel. We were able to go for a dip in the pool and relax in the hot tub before heading back to our suite to relax. I suddenly had a really cool idea. I wanted to show the kids an Alberta sunset and capture a really nice family memory with them. We drove into town and went up the Calgary tower to watch a sunset with them. I can cross something off my bucket list: #74 -Go up the Calgary Tower again The tower is so neat. I have not been up it in years. There was a piece of glass which you could stand on and look through which was really freaky! I had a hard time letting go of the block wall beside it because it looked like I might fall through. Both of the kids thought that was pretty neat. You could see Stampede from the tower which was beautifully lit up. The sky looked absolutely amazing. I've never seen a sunset like that before. It was romantic and really peaceful. Even the kids were getting along great and we all had some nice family moments as well as more private ones while we kissed and cuddled close. Some fireworks went off as we watched the sunset. Stampede looked soooo amazing from the tower. I spent a lot of time just watching the different stuff happening there from the calgary tower. It took a while for the sun to set as the sky changed different colors from purple to pink and blue. The city lights came on and there was so much energy radiating from it with the stampede happening. It was one of those moments that I'll never forget how it felt. I felt so happy and close to my family and we were all really enjoying our holidays. We walked around a bit downtown afterwords but most places were closed. Our feet were hurting and we were tired from all the stuff we had done during the day. We had squeezed Banff and Calgary all into one day. We thought about going to stampede but were not able to make it. Oh well! Maybe next time. :) We picked up some McDonald's and came back to our hotel room to hang out. Master and I shared some alcoholic beverages while the kids enjoyed their fries. We all shared a few laughs and nice family moments together before heading to bed. It was a really great day on our family trip. I'll share part 3 in my next blog post and our adventures in Drumheller! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Part 1 - Family trip to Alberta

We decided to pack up our bags and leave on our trip earlier than planned. We were all excited to get on the road for our family vacation to Alberta, Canada. We drove 9 hours to Golden and then stopped for the night at a motel there. We got up early to drive out to Banff which is one of our favorite places to visit. We stopped at Tim Hortons though for breakfast first which was one of the many we did on our trip. There seems to be Tims everywhere all over Alberta! I could always count on my double double coffee to help give me energy during the road trip. I loved driving through the Rocky Mountains. We saw lots of wildlife. We saw a tiny black bear by the side of the road near Golden. There was lots of different birds. And also different wildlife like big horned sheep by the side of the highway or the deer all along the way. We meant to stop in Lake Louise but missed the stop. We went on ahead to Banff where we spent a whole day shopping and enjoying the quaint town. I absolutely love Banff. I can cross something off my bucket list. #40 -Visit Banff again The shops there are so cool. We stopped by Lush and also their candy store there. The dollar store was even really neat where I picked up some goodies. I enjoyed shopping a lot there which was also on my list. #172 -Shop in Banff again (I loved the shops there) We had a family lunch at the Old Spaghetti Factory. We ran into a sexy mountie on the street too. There was a Christmas shop there which was the coolest ever!! It was a perfect day. I wish we could have spent more time in Banff. We went for a hike around the gondola's. Another thing I can cross off my bucket list: #171 -Hike in the Rocky Mountains We tried to convince the kids to go on it but there was no way. lol. They looked way too scary for the kids and admit it made me a bit nervous too. We had a family picnic down by Bow Lake where the Banff bridge is. I can cross something else off my list! #636 -Have a picnic in Alberta with the kids I love it there. Very good memories in Banff. We felt close as a family. Even the teen enjoyed it and had a few smiles which is a miracle indeed! :) I discovered an amazing art shop in Banff which I plan to go back to one day. I know that we'll be back there again one day. We had a great day there and then headed to Calgary. I'll continue with part 2 in my next blog post and tell you about our adventures there! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Friday meme

TGIF! I found this meme at Hermione's blog and wanted to give it a try since I have not done a meme in a while: Your favorite fictional character - padme (any character played by Natalie Portman) Your favorite villain -Darth Vader! :) Your all-time comfort food -homemade perogies Your favorite fictional family -The Skywalkers in the Star Wars movies. I also love the Newmans on The Young and the Restless. Your favorite non-masked heroic character -Elektra Your favorite movie -Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith Your favorite writer -Anne Rice Your favorite artist -Emily Carr The first record album you ever bought -Miami Vice soundtrack (way back in the 80's) The first writer you were hooked on -Ann Rule A person you wish you could bring back -Lady Diana Your favorite flower -Red Roses The hobby that takes up most of your free time -Blogging A game you enjoy playing -Streets of Rage 2 Your favorite singer -Stevie Nicks (from Fleetwood Mac) Your favourite TV show -The Young and the Restless. I've also started liking Two and a Half Men. What a great show!! Your favorite game -Hockey Your deepest regret -Quitting college Something that makes you sad -thinking about my Dad's death Something that makes you ANGRY -animal cruelty Something you worry about -about my kids and their futures Your age when you received your first ever adult spanking -16 years old. A high school boyfriend spanked me. Your favorite weapon -UFC mixed martial arts gloves Your first ever pet -a cat Your favorite form of transportation -trains Your "happy thought" from childhood -Expo 86 and all the memories from there Your favorite implement, and favourite place for a spanking -Master's belt and at the end of the bed over a pillow Your most dreaded implement, and worst position for a spanking -The cane. The worst position would be having to bend over and keeping position while getting spanked. The most memorable death in your lifetime -Lady Diana and JFK Jr. What stone(s) would you like in a ring -Diamond Your childhood ambition -To be a cop At what age did you achieve it (if at all) -I didn't. Your ambition now -To be a good slave and mom Your dream holiday (money no object) -Hawaii and Maui If you won £50,000,000, lottery, what would you do with it -Turn it into Canadian money and then spend it on my family and travel the world and try to cross off as many things as I can off my bucket list. What would you like to do this very second -have sex and play on the darkside with Master Anakin The next holiday you have planned -hopefully Disneyland The blogs you like to check out first -Spirited Meanderings and Under His Hand and Diary of a sex Addict are the first of many blogs I check out on a daily basis An ex-blogger whom you really miss -Southern Angel Something you would love to do -To go to the PNE this year ..... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Sand on the beach

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! We are putting up a fun summer picture this week for HNT. We were at White Rock beach recently and I was putting my feet into the sand. Master took this picture of them. I love to feel the sand in between my toes, especially when it's been warmed by the sun. Ahhhh...heaven! I'm a beach girl that could easily live down there. I love White rock. It's one of my favorite places to go. Please click to enlarge the picture and get a better look of it. :) I can't believe it's August already. Almost time for back to school. Have you done your shopping? I'm half way through mine. It's always a big job to get the kids ready for school. We've been cleaning the house and organizing things. The hardest thing was going through stuff from the past. Old memories and reminders. Some emotions got stirred up and feelings resurfaced. Perhaps the most difficult stuff was from my Dad. I read an old letter that he sent me years ago during his divorce to my mom. He was very upset with me and said some very hurtful things. I was not able to read that letter until last night. I am still sorting out how I feel about it. Letting go of the past is tough. It's been mentally challenging and I've pushed myself very hard the last few days. I promised myself that I would make some new changes. It's a new chapter on the journey. I will try to embrace the changes and push myself forward. My family is the most important thing in my life at the moment. I am so lucky to have such an amazing Master. He's been my rock. He's always there when I need him the most. We both worked on making some changes over the last week. It's brought us closer and our force feels strong. Please leave us a comment on the HNT picture. We'd love to hear from you and always appreciate the feedback. How is your summer going? Who else wants to go to the beach today? I can feel that ocean air already with fish and chips ready to be eaten. Mmm....what a great place to be on this sunny summer day. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A new chapter on the journey

It seems like it has been months and even years that I have been discussing moving into a newer house. We have been living at our place for the last 7 1/2 years. Lots of memories and special times have happened in our place. I've grown very attached to it. This has been the longest we have lived anywhere and there are many great things about where we live. There had been a lot of pressure over the last few months for us to move. This caused me a lot of sleepless nights and anxiety. I hate moving. Absolute fucking HATE to move!! I can't stand all the changes that moving can create and sometimes it doesn't solve anything. We did move into a bigger house many years ago. It was in a very new area and a huge house with all the fancy trimmings. We had a lot of trouble "keeping up with the Jone's" though. The house was way too hard to keep clean too. It caused us way too much worry and energy and wasn't worth it. I fell in love with our place the moment we saw it. I didn't even need to look inside. I just knew that this would be a perfect family townhouse for the Skywalker's. I wanted to raise my kids in this place. The location was perfect. The neighborhood was quaint and quiet. I've enjoyed living here. We had to make a decision though about moving. We looked for other places but none of them seemed to compare. We were also very limited in choices of where to move because of the kids and their schools. Leia is going into grade 10 and will be graduating in a few years. Skywalker's school is one of the best around. I am very happy in our location and still love our house. We made a decision this summer to not move and stay here in our cute little family home. This meant making some big changes though for it to happen. Our daughter finally got her own room. Skywalker is sleeping in his own place now too. We decided to invest in new stuff for our place as well as remodel and redecorate. We didn't have any plans this long weekend so we decided to devote the time into making our place look great! Today is day 5. Every single day has been spent cleaning, painting, moving stuff around and getting rid of tons of junk. It's amazing how much stuff you can accumulate after so many years of having kids. I couldn't believe some of the things that I found, especially when cleaning out my closet. Old memories from old lovers. Special keepsakes from the baby years. Many memories with stuff that I inherited from my Dad too. I decided to pack up all our photo albums. We are keeping them but I wanted them out of sight and our bedroom. I felt like I was living too much in the past recently. I kept going through old pictures and feeling sad all the time. It was time to move forward instead of backwards through time. This meant a fresh new start. We also painted our place for the first time since we moved in. I have not painted walls before. I did help my dad help paint our fence when I was a young girl but barely remember it. I've always wanted to try painting and it's on my bucket list: #156 -Try painting sometime We spent most of our overnight painting the walls. There was so many marks and smudges on the walls. I was amazed at how great the place looked when we were done. This was a really neat project that I was able to do with Master. It helped us to connect and spend some time together and also get creative. We have played together the last two nights also. This helped us to feel extra connected and close this long weekend. He used his belt and the whip and a few paddles to motivate my ass and getting it working hard for him. I got rewarded with an orgasm every night for my good behavior. He's also used a few other rewards to help motivate me. I've gotten a few yummy desserts and really nice merlot at the end of the day. I'm feeling a lot more positive about the future and what lies ahead. Lots of new changes and a new chapter for me on my journey. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala