Happy New Year!

Anakin and I wanted to wish our readers a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!! We've had a wonderful few days without the kids around. We watched Black Swan yesterday which was fabulous! I really enjoyed it. We also had another night of play time on the darkside. A great way to end 2010. I'm really excited about 2011 and a fun night ahead for NYE. I hope everyone has a really great NYE and best wishes for everyone for a very happy 2011! ~Anakin and padme amidala Journey to the Darkside

Date night to see Tron!

Yesterday was an incredible day. I can honestly say it was one of the best days of 2010 and a great way to end the year. Our teen is away until Sunday. Our son left yesterday for two days. So we've had no kids. It's strange but also a neat feeling to know that we can pretty much do whatever we want. We can walk around naked or have an hour long hot shower together. We left our toys out overnight without the worries about someone dropping by or kids seeing. Anakin took me out on a surprise date yesterday. We went to Future Shop to do some shopping including for a video game he really wanted. He got a gift card and that was a neat gift. We love the "Need for Speed" series. We also went out to Tim Hortons for lunch. Yummy! I love going to Tims. Then he told me we were going to see the new Tron movie in 3D. I was really excited. We had both wanted to see it! We paid the few extra bucks to see it in the IMAX and it was worth it! WOW!! What a wild ride. It was the first movie we've ever seen in 3D on the IMAX. Amazing! Tron was incredible! Great special effects and actors. Anakin and I had both seen the original one back in the 80's. We were both very pleased with this movie. I thought it was one of the best movies of the year and as good as Inception. Go see Tron! You don't be disappointed. :D We came home and had a few drinks as well as listened to old 80's music which took us back to old times again. It was really fun talking about "the good ol days". lol. We watched some really good porn and brought out all the toys downstairs. We had the fireplace going and a romantic atmosphere. The play was very intense and quite hard. He used on his belt on me until I was squirming all over the place. I also started squirting as soon as the rabbit vibe found it's way into my pussy and fucked me while I used the Hitachi. My orgasm seemed to do on forever. Anakin kept pushing me while I came to keep going. It went through my whole body. Then we fucked for a while and then I had my mouth on his cock and used my hand too until he came all over the place. There was more spanking and then a really hot bath. I felt kind of dizzy from all the endorphins and had to lay down. I went to bed early and passed out from it all. I woke up to a wonderful breakfast with Anakin and the toys laying all over the place. He's promised me more play today! And as a big bonus...it's snowing today! It's a snow day and we have the whole day with no kids. This is the best kind of day. A great way to end 2010. We have similar plans for NYE. We plan to watch a movie (200 cigarettes which is a great NYE type of movie. We've seen it a few times and love it!) and then fuck, drink, play, have orgasms and watch Dick Clark. I can't wait! What are your plans for NYE? :P May the force be with you all!! ~padmeamidala

Looking forward to the new year!

Well I survived Christmas. I might have needed a few drinks but I survived my mom and also many guests for Christmas dinner. It kind of helped that my mom had a few drinks. I was so busy in the kitchen that I barely had time to visit anyone. I'm glad that I had Christmas Eve to relax. We went out for dinner and also to look at lights. We didn't get to church this year but it was nice to come home to a low key evening with our kids. The next day got kind of crazy with all the guests. I enjoyed opening a few gifts early on Christmas eve with our kids. I feel so blessed for the special memories of Christmas 2010. It was a pretty good one this year although a bit sad from missing my MIL. I'm glad that we had our kids though for the whole holiday and also had some nice family nights. We had a pretty busy boxing day. We decided to go shopping because we got so many gift cards. It seemed to be the theme for this year...lots of gift cards for all kinds of places. There were some amazing deals and braved the crowds. It really wore me out though. We were going to see Tron yesterday but were too tired to go far from our couch. I was exhausted. I forgot how hard it can be to host a big dinner. We had 11 guests but our place is quite small. It was a lot of work but went well. Thank you to Anakin for helping me in the kitchen. We worked well as a team. We had lots of food and have enjoyed leftovers since the dinner. I admit I've been eating a bit too much. I also haven't been walking much. I did get out for a walk on Christmas day but only a small one. I had lost weight in the beginning of December but think that I've probably put on a few pounds that I need to shed. I got spoiled for Christmas. Lots of gift cards, chocolate and also Lush goodies. I splurged on some new clothes yesterday from one of my gift cards. I really enjoyed all our family time over the holidays. The teen left yesterday to go with my ex. She'll be gone for a week. And our son is going on a small trip (2 days) with my FIL. So we have a whole 48 hours with no kids! I don't remember the last time we had so much time alone. We plan to play and have lots of naughty fun! I can't wait. :D I'm really looking forward to NYE and the new year! I am really excited to see what 2011 has in store for me... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Merry Kinky Christmas!

We are going on holiday hiatus until after Christmas. Anakin and I both wanted to wish our readers a MERRY KINKY CHRISTMAS!!! Thank you for being a part of our Journey. We reached another milestone on our blog. We are now at 2.4 million hits!! Amazing!! Thank you for your comments and support and being there for us. It's been quite an adventure this year and looking forward to 2011 and lots more on the journey for us. Happy Holidays!! May the force be with you all!! ~Anakin and padme amidala

The Spirit of giving

I had a very productive weekend and got lots done for the holidays. There isn't much left to do this week which is good because I have both of my kids home now for Christmas vacation. Anakin is almost on vacation too. He has 11 days vacation coming up and I can't wait to spend lots of time with him. I've got a bit more baking to do as well as cleaning. I also plan to dye my hair today and a bit nervous about it because I am dying it a darker type of red and not my usual color. We'll have to see how it turns out. I even got some play time with Anakin on Saturday night. We had considered going to Rascal's for their Christmas play party but wanted some alone time. Anakin created a really nice scene for us with lots of toys and naughty fun. I got spanked with many toys including lots with his belt. It was a rough scene and something I really needed. I got a sore bottom to remind me of my place and the anal sex was amazing. I'm glad we chose to have a night alone. Hopefully we'll try to get to a play party in the new year. I spent all day in the kitchen yesterday making up gift baskets for some special people. I was glad that Anakin and my son helped me so I could get so much done. I put a lot of thought into the gift baskets for people. I filled them with different baking and chocolates as well as other thoughtful goodies. I wanted to be able to surprise people and it made me feel so good inside to give to people who have treated us good this last year. I made a gift basket for my best friend, DL. I put some loose tea into her gift basket as well as many other things. We dropped by her place to surprise her. She had surgery recently and isn't able to move around very well. She was deeply touched by my gift for her and even had a few tears in her eyes. She's been really good to me this year and did something similar for me years ago. Anakin's grandma had passed away and I was not able to do baking that year. She dropped by with a bunch of baking for us and had surprised me. So I did the same for her. I am very glad for her friendship. I consider her my best friend and one of the closest people in my life. We gave a gift basket to my FIL and really surprised him. We had even made sugar cookies the same way my MIL used to make them. This seemed to really touch him. I know this is a difficult Christmas for him and the first one without her here for the holidays. We've been trying to be there for him. He had dinner at our house the other night and will be spending a lot of the holidays with us so he won't be alone. He didn't even put up Christmas decorations this year. I wanted him to have some baking though and we made sure he knows we are there for him during this difficult time. I also made up gift baskets for my mom and stepdad. My mom lost her job recently and they are having a lot of financial problems. My mom commented about not being able to afford baking this year so we gave to them too. I also made up a gift basket for my ex husband. Anakin commented that I must be one of the few people who bakes for their ex husband. lol. I feel bad though about my ex being alone and know he doesn't do much baking. I have invited him to Christmas dinner too and let him know we are there for him too this year. We might be divorced but we are still friends and show a united front for our daughter. He looked pretty surprised by the goodies and that made me smile. I reminded my kids yesterday about how good it feels to give to people rather than focus on what they are getting. I've been trying to give a lot more this year for the holidays. We have donated money to several causes including the hospice where my MIL passed away, SPCA, Coins for Kids (money for kids in Mexico), Food bank, Salvation Army as well as the Christmas Bureau. I have even signed up to volunteer for the Salvation Army if they ever need the help. We have needed the help during difficult times and it feels good to give back. It feels good to give to some really good causes that need the money. I feel the spirit of giving this year. I know this is a sad Christmas for some people but I've tried hard to make them smile. We've opened our door at Christmas for those that have no place to go. Anakin's Uncle will be joining us and that makes me happy because this has been a difficult time for him. So many people forget about the spirit of giving and how good it can feel to give to others in need. It's opened my heart and made the holidays a lot more brighter for me. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Star Wars: Carol of the Bells

9 days until Christmas!

It's hard to believe that Christmas is only 9 sleeps away! I am officially done all my shopping for the holidays and that is a big relief. I spent the last few days trying to finish my shopping for gifts, food and drinks. I am very grateful that my mom was able to give me a ride all around to get it all done. I went to the States on Monday and got some really neat groceries and gifts that you can't find in Canada. I also went to M&M meats yesterday and picked up a bunch of really good food. I recently discovered their store and love their stuff!! They have some really nice party packs which is great because you don't have to do a lot of the work and taste great. I also picked up homemade Russian perogies to keep up with our traditional Russian Christmas. I know that I should have probably just made them myself but that place does such a great job and I know they will turn out great. Superstore was crazy yesterday but glad to have it all done! I even did all the shopping with a cold. I haven't been feeling too good the last few days but seem a bit better this morning after taking Cold f/x. I plan to finish my wrapping today and maybe do some baking. I don't get as stressed about baking because I enjoy doing it and am looking forward to making some really neat things this year. I still need to clean my place but am going to do that when it's a bit closer to Christmas. I am a lot less stressed than I was a few days ago. Thank goodness for to-do lists. It helped me to be organized and get stuff done and not forget. I am starting to look forward to the holidays. My kids only have one day left of school and Anakin is almost on holidays. I am VERY happy to have both of my kids home this year for Christmas. I often have to split up the holidays with the teen because of my ex husband. She will be with us until boxing day and then goes to my ex's families for their Christmas and also new years. My ex husband will be joining us for our big family dinner on the 25th. A lot of people think this is strange but we are still friends and he's a part of the family. We got our 20 pound turkey and SO much food that there should be plenty of leftovers. We got enough to feed an army. lol. :D Skywalker will be going on a trip with my FIL for two days during the holidays after Christmas and the teen will be away. This means that Anakin and I will get some kid free time during the holidays. I am hoping there will be lots of playing and naughty fun as well as relaxing. We might even have New Year's eve together too alone. I would love to cuddle up and watch Dick Clark and be able to celebrate the new year together just the two of us. I used to like to party for NYE but not anymore. I much prefer a quiet celebration with the one that I love. It's the perfect way to ring in a brand new year. I am looking forward to 2011! I have a feeling that it's going to be a very good year ahead and many things to look forward to. I am not sure how much I will be blogging in the next week but I hope to at least write one or two more posts before we go on hiatus. How are your holiday plans going? Is everyone done their shopping? What's your plans for NYE? What are you looking forward to in the new year? May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Opening Lines 2010

I saw this meme over at viemoira's blog and thought I'd play along. I am supposed to list all the opening lines from my blog posts in 2010. So here it goes: January - I had one of the best New Years Eve's ever. I am so very lucky to be so spoiled by a Master who treats me like gold. He set up a very romantic NYE's for us. Febuary -I have been having a few problems lately with A. Poly is not easy. March - Monday is usually the worst day of the week for me but not today. I got to spend the day with my handsome young lover. He had mentioned yesterday that I needed a spanking. April - The Easter long weekend started for us yesterday. Master Anakin took an extra day off and we ran some errands in the morning as well as had breakfast together at the A&W. May - This weekend has had some ups and downs. I was really glad to go on a date with Master Anakin today. June - Last night I cuddled up with Master Anakin and watched Rocky. We've seen this movie together a few times and it never grows old. July - We had an overnight last night and no kids for almost a whole 24 hours! My mom offered to take our son for us because Leia was gone and we could have a date night. August - It seems like it has been months and even years that I have been discussing moving into a newer house. We have been living at our place for the last 7 1/2 years. September - Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! Happy September! It's hard to believe it's a new month and my kids are almost back in school! October - My MIL has deteriorated a lot in the last 48 hours. We have been told there isn't much time left and that the end is near. This is a very difficult process for the family. November - I had a very fun Halloween this year. I started celebrating it on Friday. Master Anakin was home and we had a whole day to play and get closer to the darkside together. December - I have been looking through old pictures a lot lately. There are so many that I have not posted before. This picture was taken a few months ago during some play time with Darth Vader. Hope you play along! This was fun! Please leave me a comment and let me know if you do and I'll come to your blog and check it out. :D May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Christmas is coming!

Christmas is coming!! I can't believe how close it is and how much I still need to get done. It's all a bit overwhelming and I'm running out of time very quickly. I did get lots done over the weekend but there is still lots to do. I have not even started my Christmas baking yet and that's going to be a few days in my kitchen to get all that done. I am baking for other people as well as my family. I've really got to get started on that soon. I didn't get much sleep last night because I was thinking about the holidays and what I want to get done before the end of this week. My kids are out of school on Friday and there are a few things that I want to do while I still have my days free. I had a very nice long weekend with Anakin. He was off work on Friday and we spent almost the whole day in bed. We played and fucked and had orgasms and cuddled close. I'm really glad that we had that time together. It felt heavenly. I was very relaxed afterwords and had a sore bum too from the play time on the darkside. He gave me a long strapping with his belt which was needed. We had some family time too and watched Elf with our kids on Friday night. Saturday was Breakfast with Santa. I tried to convince the teen to come but she wanted to sleep in. lol. So we took Skywalker and enjoyed some pancakes with Santa Clause. My FIL even came to it so we could visit. It is still strange not having my MIL at events. We are all still adjusting to the new family dynamic. I miss her so much and have been thinking about her a lot. Today is the 3 year anniversary since Anakin's grandma passed away. Who would have thought that 3 years later and my MIL is gone now as well as my Dad. There is many people who will be missed a lot this year during the holidays. We went to Metrotown Mall to do some christmas shopping with the kids after Breakfast with Santa. We spent most of the afternoon there. There is so many neat things there that you can't get anywhere else. I'm excited to see what Lush goodies that I will be getting this year. Metrotown wasn't as crowded as I thought it would be. It was good to get a lot of neat things that you can't buy at our local mall. I wish I could say that I'm done my shopping but we still have a few places to go. I still need to get to Pet Smart and go shopping for my kitty. It's her birthday on Christmas eve and we still need to get her a gift for that as well as a Christmas present. My mom and I are going shopping in the States today to get some neat stuff that you can't find in Canada. I also have a big grocery shopping trip to buy supplies for the Christmas dinner and holidays. I admit that I still have not bought Anakin a gift yet and need to do that too. Yikes!! My to-do list is pretty big this week. I also need to do a lot of cleaning to get the place ready for all our visitors this Christmas. It's a lot of work to host a big dinner and lots to get done to get ready. I'm not sure how much I'll be able to blog between now and Christmas. Things are starting to get very hectic and my time is going to be a lot less once my kids and Anakin are all on holidays. I know that I'll be feeling a lot less stressed when everything is done and I can relax and enjoy the time with my family. :D May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Holiday plans

My friend, turiya asked me in the comments yesterday about our holiday plans. She said "Planning anything special for Christmas this year?" I was going to respond to her comment but decided to write a post about it. Our holiday plans are pretty simple this year. We've decided to do one big family dinner and that will be on Christmas. We've had separate dinners in the past because some family members couldn't get along and be in the same room together. We decided to take a different approach this year. Either people can get along or not but we are only doing one dinner and that's it. It's an open door policy that any of our close friends or family can come for dinner. We are not making any special types of separate arrangements with people. I can remember one year we held 3 big dinners for 3 nights in a row. I almost lost my mind!! Anakin and I were fighting and there was nothing but unhappy people. No one was happy even though we had hosted some really nice dinners. My Mom has been trying very hard to get us to do a separate Christmas dinner with them but I have put my foot down. We need our own family time with the kids. I have a difficult time enough dealing with her during the holidays for just one dinner. She has many opinions and very high expectations about the holidays. She is STILL talking about last Christmas and how she was disappointed. She never seems to be happy. So things will be a bit different this year. We will be spending Christmas eve with our kids. Leia might be having a close friend coming over to spend the holidays with us. We have plans to go out and see Christmas lights and also go to the church candlelight service. This is always a special part of the holidays. I like to remind my kids that Christmas is more than just presents and food. I always find the church service to be very spiritual and special. We always go out for dinner afterwords to our favorite local restaurant. Then we come home and Anakin reads the Night Before Christmas. We also watch Christmas movies by the fire and have tons of goodies and treats. The kids are also allowed to open one gift each. We also follow the Norad Santa online to see his travels. This is my favorite time of the holidays when we get to spend Christmas eve with our kids and watch them go to sleep and then awaken to Christmas in our home. Christmas morning is spent watching our kids open gifts and I usually make a BIG breakfast buffet. I put out tons of food and we indulge and enjoy Christmas morning together. I will be making a traditional feast of turkey and all the trimmings this year. We are going to have a full house this year. This will probably be the biggest Christmas that we have ever hosted in our home. Anakin and I are great at hosting. There is always lots of food and drinks to go around. Usually a few people get drunk, especially me. lol. I admit that I usually need a glass of wine before dinner even starts. My biggest indulgence is always my bath on christmas after the dinner and people have gone home. I always use a Lush bath bomb (they have Christmas ones which are amazing!) and light candles and listen to soft Christmas music as I soak in hot water and enjoy my wine. Then the next day is boxing day and that's usually when we go shopping. There is tons of sales and there is usually some gift cards to spend. That's also when we have turkey leftovers and enjoy more holiday spirit. There is sometimes other fun things we do like go to movies or events around town. I plan to read some new books during the holidays as well as lots of relaxing. I'm glad that Anakin gets some time off work so we can spend time together. Usually there is lots of sex and orgasms and play (spankings) too during the holidays. My favorite time of the holidays is New Years Eve. That is my second favorite day of the year. (Halloween is my first) We have no plans yet for NYE. It doesn't matter where I am for NYE as long as I'm kissing Anakin as the clock strikes midnight. I always enjoy spending it with him and bringing in a new year together. There is usually lots of romance and special time together while we celebrate NYE. I'm really looking forward to going into 2011 and putting this year behind me. So that's my holiday plans. What about you? May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

The 12 days of a star wars christmas

The holiday countdown

I can remember now why we usually have a holiday hiatus on our blog through the holidays. Things start to get crazy and then there is very limited time for blogging. I am not sure how much we will be posting between now and Christmas. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by all the work that needs to be done. I still have lots of shopping to get done and many other chores. Maybe my sister is right and I'm crazy for having an open door policy for Christmas this year. This is going to be the biggest Christmas dinner yet and this means a ton of work to do. I tend to put a lot into hosting events and I may need some Jack Daniels by the time I'm done everything. I've got a ton of baking to do as I plan to bake for people this Christmas and give a lot of homemade goodies as gifts. So I'll be in the kitchen a lot. I completely cleaned out my oven yesterday to get ready for it. I've also been trying to clean up my house and get ready for all the visitors. Anakin is almost on holidays from work and will be home more. Also, my kids are almost out of school. It's very strange this year to not go to a Christmas concert. We've been going for years but not this one. I admit to feeling pretty stressed out today. It doesn't help that we are having issues with our teenager also. I had a really nice day on Friday going out Christmas shopping with her. But she came home yesterday full of attitude and drama and it's put a lot of stress and anxiety onto me. Raising a teenager is very challenging sometimes. This time of year is also depressing to me for several reasons. I think that anyone who has lost a loved one can understand what it can be like during the holidays. I was at the mall the other day and put an ornament on the Christmas tree there for the local hospice. I also donated some money. I was able to put an ornament on the tree for my MIL who passed away in October. I'm missing her deeply and the holidays feel so different this year without her in them. I've been thinking about my Dad too and the holidays we used to spend together. There will be several people missing from the dinner table this Christmas. They will all be missed very much. The holiday countdown has begun! Christmas is just around the corner. I am looking forward to a new year ahead and hopefully a much better one then 2010. I feel a bit disappointed with how this year has gone. I'm trying to hold out hope that things will get better and there is lots to look forward to. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Christmas spirit

I could really feel the Christmas spirit today. It seems like everyone is out at Christmas events this weekend. We got invited to a few. We decided to have a low key weekend instead. Anakin and I got a few hours to ourselves today which was heavenly and much needed. The teen went to her Dad's this weekend and we were able to get some sitting for Skywalker for a few hours. We were going to go out but decided we were too tired. We spent several hours in our bedroom playing and fucking and having many orgasms. We napped and also just laid together and felt close for a while. That was really nice to cuddle up close with our naked bodies. We spent over an hour playing with different spanking toys. I was spanked and strapped and given a very red bottom. My pussy was very wet with need. The wetness dripped from my pussy as his belt came down hard on my poor bum. The orgasm was amazing! My pussy contracted hard as he told me to cum for him. I started cramping pretty good hard afterwords as it was so intense. My period has started finally after 2 days of pms. I'm pretty sure the orgasm and all the rough play probably started it. :D We went out for a drive and looked around at Christmas lights on the houses with Skywalker tonight. It was lovely. We went out for dinner and picked up a few groceries including delicious Christmas brownies with sprinkles! Yah! I'm feeling very close to Anakin and glad we connected today. The force feels strong and the Christmas spirit is out everywhere. I'm starting to look forward to the holidays and spending it with Anakin and our family. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Where I am today

I was reading an old blog post this morning that was written last January. It kind of surprised me. I had forgotten all about the new year's resolutions and goals that I had made for myself. It's interesting to read that post and then look at where I am today. We are nearing the end of 2010. It's been an interesting journey for me this year. Full of many ups and downs. I lost a few people this year while on my journey. I lost A. He was my young lover and boyfriend that I dated for the first part of the year. He became really important to me. He became my other Master for a while. I fell hard and fast for him and let him into my life and heart. I sort of knew in my heart that it wouldn't last but I always thought we'd at least be friends. We have not talked and he has not contacted me since his last text in July. This (our breakup and everything that happened afterwords) left a sour taste in my mouth and changed my poly dynamic with Anakin and turned it in a new direction. I also think this affected my interest in the bdsm community in Vancouver. I stopped going to the local munch we had because of A. I didn't want to run into him or his new flame. I had met A through that munch and always went with him to it. I really didn't want to see him there with someone else. I gave up hosting the munch because of that. I also gave up going to events too. I will admit that I still feel the same way about not wanting to see A. It gets harder to go to events as you date people in the community. I ran into 3 ex's at one event this last year which made for an awkward and uncomfortable night. I wound up leaving that party early to go somewhere else. I really miss some of my friends through the bdsm community though and maybe one day I'll be back again. I just needed a break. I still catch up with people from the community through Fetlife and twitter and e-mails too. I miss Rascal's and being able to play in public. Hopefully one day I'll get back into it. I learned a lot of life lessons this year. I lost several friendships this year including a few people who were very important to me. I don't want to name people but I think it's pretty obvious who is in my life now compared to in January. I apologize to anyone that I might have hurt. I know that I am not easy to be friends with. I went through a very serious depression for a few months and wasn't myself. I made some really bad choices and now live with some regrets. I really do miss a few people who have disappeared from my life this last year. It is a very hard process to close the door and not look back again. I am so grateful for those people who stuck by me through the hard times this year. Thank you! You know who you are and I am so grateful. It was a tough time for me this last year with losing my MIL. It took a huge emotional toll on my marriage and me too. I feel like a very different person than I was back in January. Life has thrown some very difficult challenges this year and I've had to grow up a lot. I really miss my MIL. Our whole family dynamic has changed since she passed away. It was extremely difficult to watch her struggle with cancer. Cancer is a horrible disease and it's not easy to be there during the death process. I will never forget my experience of visiting her in the hospice during those last few days of her life. It gives you a whole different perspective on life when you visit a hospice and see people dying, especially someone who you have known for 20 years and loved. I have had some spiritual experiences since her passing which have deeply affected me and my beliefs. My marriage is much stronger through the rough times we had earlier in the year. I feel closer to my Master and a lot happier with our family. I've devoted a lot the last year to becoming a better housewife/slave and mother to our two children. It was extremely challenging this last year with having a teenager. Leia changed a lot and there were some huge battles and struggles which affected our family a lot. Things seem ok for now with Leia but who knows. It's hard to tell what happens next in Teen World. I really do feel blessed for what I have in my life. I know who my true friends and family are and that's all that matters in the end. I feel stronger and a lot better than I did earlier in the year. I know what is important now. 2010 has been quite a year. I wanted to compare my goals and resolutions to where I am today: ~ to lose weight. I wanted to maintain my weight last year in 2009 and I was able to do that. I only gained one pound during the entire year. My walking was a big reason that I was able to do that. This year I want to try to lose some weight. I DID lose weight!! I've only lost 7 pounds so far this year but at least it's a loss! A loss is a loss! I've had to work very hard to lose that weight. I've done very well with my walking this year and that's a big reason that I think that I lost it. It's gotten a lot harder to lose weight as I've gotten older. I tend to immediately start putting weight on the moment I stop walking. So I try really hard to at least get one daily walk in every single day even if it's around the block. ~to eat healthier. More salmon and fruits and veggies and try to stay away from sugar more. Hopefully use the bread maker that I got for Christmas and make some bread for the first time. I did use my bread maker for the first time and many times since. I really enjoy baking bread with it. I do think that I've been eating healthier too. I've tried very hard to make more homemade cooking and with fresh and organic fruits and veggies. ~to focus less on the poly aspect of my relationship. I spent way too much time investing into trying to find new relationships in 2009. I think it would be nice to have some casual play partners but I'm not looking for more than that right now. This year I want to focus more on my marriage and family life. I'm also going to focus more on making myself healthier emotionally, spiritually, and physically Ummmm...well this goal/resolution didn't exactly go as planned. lol. I started dating A a few weeks after writing this. He was a lot more than just a casual play partner. I loved him very much and he hurt me badly. I'm not sure my heart has recovered from that. I have not focused on the poly at all in the last six months. I think it's hard for me to let others into my heart after being so hurt. I'm not really sure where things are headed with the poly. I think my heart has been bruised so much that it's getting harder as I age to do the poly dance anymore. NRE (new relationship energy) is wonderful but breaking up is horrible. I am focusing a lot more now on my marriage with Anakin and it's really improved my marriage. I was spending WAY too much time on A when I was with him. It's a lot easier now to just have one Master that I have to please and serve. Maybe we might have casual play partners again in the future but I'm not sure that I can see myself ever getting involved into another love affair again. ~to travel more. I want to see new places and explore more adventures in the outdoors. I'd like to get back into hiking again and perhaps boxing. I did get to travel a lot this year. We went on a really nice family vacation to Alberta over the summer which was wonderful and a great memory. I got to see new places like Drumheller and have many adventures in Banff, Calgary and Edmonton. I really had a great time! One of the best memories of 2010 has been watching an Alberta sunset from the Calgary Tower with our kids. I did do some hiking including a few places nearby. I spent last Mother's day going on a very big hike in a new place. I didn't get back into boxing unfortunately. The boxing bag got taken down and hasn't been put back yet. I still would like to do that. ~to try to blog more. I miss writing and hope to write a few erotic stories. I did try to blog more and there are many posts from this last year. We are pretty regular with our blog posts. It's rare to go a few days without getting an update from us. I didn't get to write an erotic story unfortunately. I would still like to do that too. ~try to read more. I enjoyed reading my book through the holidays. I did do a lot of reading this last year and really enjoyed it. I recently got a few new books which I plan to read over the holidays like I did last year. I find it very enjoyable to curl up with a new book next to the fireplace drinking a hot cup of chocolate. ~to try and cross more things off my bucket list. I was able to cross many of in 2009 but I want to try to experience more firsts and see some new places and put myself out of my comfort zone more I think I did very well at crossing some things off my bucket list, especially in the summer when we went on our trip. I did get to experience a few firsts too like drinking a Tom Collins for my first time ever! I wish I could have crossed off a few more things but there IS still a few more weeks left of 2010 so maybe I still can! ~to try to be a better slave and obey my rules better than I did in 2009. I have not broken any yet in 2010 and I'm going to try to do better Well it didn't take me long to get into trouble and break a rule. I broke a few rules this last year and got punished for them. I think that I was a better slave, especially in the last few months. I supported Anakin a lot through the loss of his mother. I've tried very hard to devote myself to him and please him and to learn from my mistakes. I try to be a good girl but sometimes it's just too tempting to let the bad girl out. :D I look forward to the new year ahead in 2011. The journey will continue and our force will be strong. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Knife play with Darth Vader

I have been looking through old pictures a lot lately. There are so many that I have not posted before. This picture was taken a few months ago during some play time with Darth Vader. It's always interesting when he brings out a knife for some knife play. It's one of the more scarier types of toys but is a huge turn on for me. He knows that a knife gets my attention very quickly and makes my pussy very wet. He was showing me who is boss in this picture that I'm posting today. You can just imagine what he must be saying to me in that moment while holding the big bad knife. It's the ultimate mind fuck for me. Seeing the knife and knowing that he means business. I better do as the mean old man says or I'm going to get hurt! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala