Embracing a new journey

I feel like I am on a new journey this year. Fate has shown me a different path to follow for 2011. I have always believed that things happen for a reason. So maybe everything that is happening right now is all for a reason. Yesterday was a horrible day. It seemed like one thing after another. My mom had a pretty big meltdown on my couch. She's made some really bad decisions and is losing everything. She is selling off everything that she has to move down to Florida with my stepdad. She's given up everything for him. She used to have a pretty wealthy lifestyle. And now she's hit rock bottom and owns nothing. I understand why my sister had to walk away. It's a lot of drama right now. But I can't just turn my back on my mom. She's the only parent that I have left. She's one of the few people that I see on a regular basis. I'm really going to miss her and I worry about her a lot. I got a phone call last night right before dinner. It was from Anakin. The car had died on him on the highway and he had to pull over to the side of the road. He sounded very stressed out. At least he was able to call BCAA to come tow it for free. His mom bought the BCAA insurance as her last gift to Anakin before she passed away. She told him that she didn't want him "stranded on the side of the road". She must have seen the future because it's only a few months later and that's exactly what happened. I'm so glad that she gave him that insurance. He had to get a tow a long way to finally get it to the garage. He was completely stressed out by the time he got home. The car is beyond being repaired. The engine is completely fried because of the timing belt. So that means we are looking for a new car. We need a reliable family car ASAP. Our family relies on having a car. So Anakin is at the car dealership today trying to find one. Our car was almost 10 years old. It's had a lot of memories. Road trips and fun family times. It was a good family car but it's time for a fresh start. I'm kind of excited about getting a new car. And so is the kids. This is a really big deal for our family! I'll keep you updated as to what car we finally decide to get. We are also in the process of looking for a new and bigger home to buy. We've been working on some projects so we can get the place into shape for moving. I'm excited about this new change too but also a bit anxious. It all seems like a lot of work ahead of us and very challenging too. We want to find something in the area that fits our price range. We are hoping to move either in the spring or summer this year. There are some travel plans being discussed also. We are hoping to go back to Alberta this summer. We really enjoy going to West Edmonton Mall and their taxes are lower for back to school shopping. My mom has invited me to come to Florida and visit with her. Anakin has given me the ok to travel alone to go see her. I am hoping to come to Florida next fall. That should be very exciting. Anakin and I have also discussed a few other possibilities for trips we want to take. Our kids are older now and easier to travel with. We hope to have a few more family trips before Leia leaves the nest. She's turning 16 this year!! I admit to being frustrated that I have not been able to walk much since falling down some stairs. My toe is still purple and swollen and wrapped up. I really miss my daily walks. It used to help me with my daily stress. I am afraid that I'm going to gain back all the weight that I've worked so hard to lose. I really hope to get back into it. I had big plans for a healthier and a better body. I've also got 4 months to get ready for my Grouse Grind challenge with Anakin. I am having a lot of faith in God right now. I am trying to be positive about the new journey ahead. The force is with me and I will find a way to get through the hard and challenging times. I need to believe that it's all going to get better. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala