The party is over

Well the party is over and it's time to start getting ready for summer! The teen had a very memorable and fun sweet sixteen birthday party over the weekend. I spent the last week throwing my heart and soul into the party. I wanted it to be special for her. I've been pretty consumed by the party and it's been hard to think about summer or the fact that both of my kids will be home soon. Skywalker has his last full day of school today and Leia is almost done writing final exams. Summer vacations starts next week! I think that things went pretty well with the birthday party although there was some drama which happened before the party started. The teen lied to us and had a bunch of attitude about it all on Friday. There was a lot of worry and stress. Being the parent of a teen is very challenging and stressful sometimes. She is testing a lot of limits with us and trying to grow up too quickly sometimes. She wants to be totally independent and yet isn't an adult yet. She likes to push my buttons sometimes and try to break the rules. I guess this is typical for most teens. I did it to my parents. And now it's payback! My mom says that she is my payback for all that I put her through. I guess I was pretty wild when I was 16 and made some poor choices. It's all a part of the whole growing up process. She's got a new boyfriend and he seems pretty nice. I worry though that things are happening a bit too quickly but not sure there is much I can do about it. I was dating by her age although I didn't lose my virginity until my 18th birthday. It's hard to see your little girl grow up. The letting go process is a slow one. I know she's growing up but I really miss my little girl sometimes. She goes from ribbons and curls to makeup and perfume as Bob Carlisle sings about in the song "Butterfly Kisses." I think it's just as difficult for both of her Dads (Anakin and my ex husband) to watch their little girl growing up into a young woman. I knew from the moment that she was born that she would break a few hearts when she got older. She's already had several boys who keep coming around and don't want to let her go. I'm not really one to talk though. I was dating a 23 year old guy when I was 16. I even dated an ex con at one time just to drive my Dad crazy. lol. :P There wasn't any time this weekend to get naughty. I honestly don't remember the last time we had a whole weekend without even some cuddles. Anakin and I were both very busy trying to make the party a nice one. We were both really worn out from it all. We've had teenagers in our home all weekend and a really big sleepover happened on Saturday as well as the party. At least it's over and it was a really nice birthday for the teen. I wanted her to always be able to remember her sweet sixteen. I got my period in the middle of the party which has also contributed to my tiredness. I slept 11 hours last night and I feel like I could nap right now. And that's after two cups of coffee!! I am glad Anakin ordered me to take it easier today and rest and relax. I really need it. Canada Day is this weekend! Anakin has a 4 day long weekend coming up. I'm really hoping that we can finally find some time together to play and fuck and connect again. I really miss playing on the darkside with him! And I really need a spanking! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala