 This week has felt like the longest week ever! This was the first day that I woke up feeling more like myself. I've been struggling with a lot of depression lately. Last weekend was very difficult on me as well. My siblings came out for a visit and our whole long weekend was full of family commitments.
My sister is demanding and her demands on my time wore me out. So did the family drama. I even got to see my mom briefly although she did not want to talk to me. It was also very sad for me because I had to go visit my Grandma.
She's not doing very well and has been declining a lot the last year. I was told that she was in bad shape but it was pretty bad. She can barely walk and is in a lot of pain. It was very hard to see her like that.
I brought a camera but decided to not take pictures although it may be the last time I ever see her. It's very heartbreaking. It seems like a lot of family members are starting to pass away. People get older and it seems like I'm saying constantly saying goodbye to those that I love.
It hasn't been easy for Anakin and I to find time together. Last weekend was almost impossible. It seems like sex has become quickies in the middle of the night. Last Friday night he took the kids out to see the Smurfs and gave me time to masturbate. He gave me a list of instructions to follow. I had to take a hot bath and have a shot of vodka and then masturbate for him. It felt really lonely though. It took me a long time to cum and it was really hard to be apart from Anakin. I've really missed him. It's been weeks since we last played. We are both aching for it.
The teen has gone to her Dad's house for the weekend and our son will be going away for an overnight. We get the whole house to ourselves and get to play!! There is a punishment spanking coming to me for not sticking to the budget yesterday. I didn't listen to him and it wound up costing us some extra money. He was not very impressed when I phoned him to tell him the news. I've got the whole day to think about what's coming to my ass.
I've got a date tonight...with Darth Vader!!
May the force be with you all!!
~padme amidala
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4 comments:
Not being able to play has made Me crave it even more. Darth Vader's going to be visiting you tonight. Prepare to accept the inevitable.
Darkside, here W/we come.
~Anakin
Hope your time is wonderful! Master and I have had a really hard time getting one on one too- summer vaca is rough!! when we do it seems one of U/us fall asleep :(
but we are going to a play party tonight so wish us luck! :)
~viemoira
Hope you had fun at the play party, vie. :D
Hugs,
padme
i can so sympathize with family issues and the contemplation of losing someone you love. It all kind of casts a shadow on everything else.
It sounds like you are doing better since you wrote this post, but I just wanted to say that you're not alone in these family experiences and hang in there.
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