Another one lost to cancer

There has been a lot of really sad news lately. There was a very sad death that affected many Canadians. Jack Layton recently died from cancer. His state funeral was on tv. Many people mourn his death. It seems like a lot of the news recently has been sad. Anakin and I watched a really good show about 9/11 the other night. It was a true story about two hero's who died on 9/11. It was really good to watch but it brought out some really bad depression. It was hard to watch. I can't stop thinking about it. The anniversary is approaching and a sad time for many people who remember 9/11. The last two years have been really rough for Anakin and I. I lost my Dad. His mom got cancer. They said it was a slow growing cancer and that she would have years to live but she only lived a year. The cancer grew through her and we could only watch. My time at the hospice changed my entire outlook on life. Watching her die from cancer. It was horrible. Yet it was also spiritual. It was very hard but I was glad to have the chance to say goodbye to her. The anniversary of her death is just around the corner. We found out some really bad news last night. We found out that Anakin's Aunt had brain cancer and she passed away from it. It happened very suddenly. She had just found out that she had cancer and had gone into the hospital. We heard they were going to transfer her into the hospice. The same hospice that her sister (my MIL) passed away in last year. We were pretty shocked. We were going to go see her this weekend. But she never made it to the hospice. I'm still in shock. I really liked his Aunt. She was one of the few in his family who welcomed me in from the beginning. She was always really nice to me. She came to the hospital when our son was born and was very supportive. I had the chance to talk to her at length right after my MIL passed away. I am glad we had the chance to know each other. She was a very nice woman with a lot of heart. I'm deeply saddened by this news. We are going to really miss her. Cancer sucks!! Cancer is all around me right now. My FIL has it and is going to treatments for it. My best friend lost both her breasts because of it. She is going in for surgery next week because of complications from the cancer. DL is one of my very best friends. We've known each for almost 10 years and she has stuck it out with me through thick and thin. She heard about Aunt S and showed up at my door this morning. She wanted to give me a hug in person. I didn't want to go out and tried to get out of going for breakfast. But she wouldn't give in and insisted. I know she's got her own problems going on but she's been really worried about me. I am so thankful for our friendship. She is one of the only people that I can get together for a coffee with and be able to vent about cancer and death. She is a very wise woman who's been through a lot and has really helped me through some dark days. I know that I can really count on her and it upsets me to know that one day she might be taken because of cancer. I feel like I'm losing so many people that I love because of cancer. You start to wonder who's next. Anakin's entire family has had cancer. His mom died from it. His Dad has it. His brother has also had it. His grandparents had it. The scary part is that his other Aunt (the other sister) ALSO has brain cancer!! She had surgery for it and is in very serious condition. There is a very high chance of Anakin getting it one day. The thoughts of losing him are almost too much to bear. I even worry for our son because of the hereditary risks. Thank you to all the tweets and e-mails and messages of condolences. You really do find out who your real friends are during a crisis. There are some people (like my mother) that have literally disappeared without a trace. I have no way that I can contact my mom. She's cut herself off from me and my kids during a time when we need her the most. How can you really trust someone if your own parent stabs you in the back? I am sooooo angry right now and it's eating me alive. Maybe DL is right. Maybe I need therapy and meds. I'm pretty messed up right now. But it's hard for me to reach out for help... There have been other ways that I have been affected by cancer. My Grandma also has cancer. I'm surprised she has lived this long. It goes to show you though....some people may live longer than others when they have cancer. My Grandpa lived many years after they said he would. I'm shocked at how fast it happened with Anakin's Aunt. Cherish those you love and enjoy the time you spend with them. You never really know how much time is left. May the force be with you Aunt S. ~padme amidala