Getting older and staying sexy

"Ya know, I saw my bare ass this morning...gotta be honest. It looked better 15 yrs ago. But it's the only one I got so... I'll keep it" - Quote from Michelle Stafford on the Young and the Restless I saw that tweet from Michelle Stafford and had to smile. Michelle plays Phyllis Newman on the Young and the Restless. It's one of my favorite shows. She is one of my faves. Phyllis has such an attitude and can be dangerous at times. She can be a real bitch. Don't mess with her! She proves though that women can still be sexy even during the middle age years. The sex scenes with her and Nick are amazing and a real turn on. I turn 39 years old next week! What the hell happened? I feel like I was just having my 30th birthday and now I'm pushing 40. I'm starting to think about menopause and aging. I see a few more wrinkles now and grey hair than there used to be. My arthritis seems to be getting worse and I get more tired now than I used to. I go to bed by 9 pm every night and wake up early. I used to bug my in-laws about that and now it's me turning off the tv early. Anakin and I joke that we've turned into the "old married couple". Coming up to our 15 year anniversary. Married now for almost 8 years. It seems like the time is moving faster as I am getting older. All of a sudden my kids grew up on me! My daughter is in grade 11 and graduates next year! And my son has turned into a little man. It is really strange to think about the future. A very different phase of our lives is coming. Our kids are getting older. One day will be the empty nest and maybe even grandchildren. Can you imagine me as a grandma? lol. Wow! That's going to be really something. :) I'm still trying to be sexy. Who says that getting older means you have to turn into a frumpy old lady. I still wear the schoolgirl outfits and cute lingerie. I'm a lot more comfortable with my body. I have better orgasms than I did in my 20's. And the sex is better! Being older doesn't mean that you can't have great sex! You learn a lot about your body as you age. I found my g-spot and never looked back. :P I try to keep myself young through daily exercise and changing my diet and way of life. I don't party like I used to. My life has almost become a bit boring. But that's ok. I still have wild times (during my date nights) and still know how to have a great time. I tend to avoid drama now like the plague. There has been a hell of a lot less drama with my mom not around. I tend to not take back people from the past anymore. I've changed in many ways. I used to be a lot more easily manipulated. I've learned to be strong. Submissive to my Master. But strong with other people. It's really hard but I'm trying to move on from the past. And live for the moment. This is easier said than done sometimes. You really do learn to have less tolerance for bullshit though as you get older. I try to focus on what's important (Anakin and our family and friends) and that gives me the strength during rough times. I may be getting older but I can try to live as long as I can. I worry a lot about health concerns as I am getting older. Many family members have died early because of heart problems. I want to try to be around so I can see my kids grow up and enjoy life as much as I possibly can. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala