The drama of poly: Day 8

Today is Day 8 of having an #adventblog. Counting down the days until Christmas. I still need to do my Christmas cards as well as finish my shopping. I also need to figure out what I am going to bake. There has been more drama with the poly in the last 48 hours than all year. I've decided to write some feelings out. I didn't get much sleep last night because I was up late talking to Anakin about it. We have been doing the poly dance since 1997. We opened up our marriage and started dated and playing with others. There have been some really great times. Naughty adventures and 3-somes with different people. Unfortunately there has been a lot of drama which came with it. Drama like we've had in the last 48 hours. There has been some problems going on with Irish Boy and I for a while now. Things haven't been very good. It's very difficult when we live far apart and don't drive. We are not able to see each other. This is also a busy time of year for us both. There was a lot of heated texts between us. We are going to try to be friends. I went on a coffee date on Monday. I had no idea that going on that date would cause so much drama! I'm not sure what to think about Kilted_Knight either. Things didn't go very well. I wish he would have been more honest with me. It turns out that he has dated and played with several other people that I know. The Vancouver bdsm community is very small. Everyone seems to know everyone. One of the biggest reasons I don't like going to events is because of running into ex's and people from the past. There were some people who didn't like me. I had no idea that Kilted_Knight dated and played with one of my close twitter/blogger friends. I wish he would have told me. I might have gone for coffee but it wouldn't have gone any farther. I don't like to date guys who have dated/fucked/played with my friends. I found out the next day about it and some other things came out too. It doesn't look very good. Unfortunately someone else (from my past) got involved in this whole situation. The whole thing wound up into a very big mess. It's made me very reluctant to want to date again. It never seems to go well. The dates are wonderful but the drama afterwords is awful. It's stressed me out a lot too. We've had to take a break with the poly. I'm really not sure what will happen in 2012. The journey will continue though. I'm moving forward. Lessons learned. I don't regret any of my poly experiences. All of them have taught me a life lesson. I had a quickie with Anakin after we had a big talk about it all. It was unexpected and sudden. He told me to spread my legs and fucked me roughly. He used his hand to make me cum for Him. Yum! I usually need my toys but it was more personal to have his fingers. It was a nice start to the day. I'm hoping there will be a less drama today. Today is another day... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala