Bad Kitty

I'm a bad kitty. I have neglected this blog a lot lately. I have many blog posts that I have wanted to write but haven't had the chance. I hope to spend some time this week catching up. I want to write a blog post about my bucket list. I also wanted to put up some sexy pictures that were taken on Saturday during some play with Anakin including this one. I am wearing my "bad kitty" collar. I bought this collar a few years ago when I was together with Daemon. Daemon was one of my poly partners. I wonder what ever happened to Daemon. He isn't on Fetlife anymore and disappeared shortly after we broke up. He was a complicated boy with a lot of issues. He was damn cute though and played really well with me. I have to admit that the collar reminds me a bit of him. He was into pet play and that really turned him on. I saw the collar in a downtown Vancouver store and bought it for my birthday. I went to Rascal's with Daemon for my birthday that year. Ahhh...those were some pretty wild times. I did some kitten pet play (a good article about pet play) with Anakin on Saturday and that was a lot of fun. I enjoy being a kitty. He pets me and feeds me and treats me like a kitty. I always feel very submissive when he does that. I really enjoyed being his bad kitty. :P May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Cheerleader boobies

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I have had a few blogs posts that I have wanted to write but haven't had the chance yet. I even had the chance to cross my first thing off my bucket list for 2011! I will blog about it all in another post. This week has been a busy one. I'm looking forward to spending time with Anakin this weekend. He is taking tomorrow off for a vacation day. I miss him today and am looking forward to our long weekend together. Our HNT picture this week was taken a few years ago during some role-playing with Anakin. I was wearing a cute and sexy cheerleader costume and showing off my boobies to him. He really loves for me to wear the costume while he spanks me. There is usually lots of flirting and sassy behavior to earn myself a bad girl spanking from him. :P Please click on the picture to enlarge it and get a better look. This picture shows off my boobies very well. Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think! We'd love to hear from you. Please check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Anakin and padme's journey

I had a really fun weekend with Anakin. We got two overnights with no kids. We watched movies and shared laughs. We had lots of sex and orgasms. I got spanked with many toys. And I got to serve him in the privacy of our home. I love overnights that I can completely serve him. I love to please him and make him happy. I spent all of Saturday concentrating on our special dinner. He wanted a gourmet dinner cooked by me. He also wanted the place clean and ready for our play time. I walked down to the grocery store to buy fresh veggies for the dinner in the slow cooker. I made a delicious veggie stew loaded full of organic and fresh veggies. We had some South African wine. We have limited our alcohol a lot lately but decided to indulge a bit for our special night. I also baked a devil's food chocolate cake for dessert. We took a night off from the diet and really enjoyed some good food and drinks. I ran him a hot lavender bubble bath and he soaked while I set the table. I gave him an erotic massage. He was happy to also give me one so I could relax too. The dinner was fabulous. I got to dress in sexy lingerie while I served him. We enjoyed some play on the darkside afterwords. It was really nice to spend time as his complete sex slave. I submitted to his dark desires and he made me cum hard for him. It's been quite a journey for Anakin and I. We celebrate our 7 year wedding anniversary this year. We also celebrate our 15 year year anniversary of being together in a relationship. It feels like the years have gone by so fast. The journey was not easy for us. We are in a more secure place in our marriage. It's been really nice to take a break from the poly for a while so we could concentrate on our relationship. I feel closer so close to Anakin and more in love than ever with him. I'm so happy in my marriage and relationship with him. :D I've really enjoyed my time with him. Last weekend we went to Harrison Hot Springs. There was romance and surprises. This weekend we had overnights and special time together with our dinner and play. We've been going for walks together and talking about the future. I feel so blessed to have Anakin as my Master. He really is my strong force and I don't know what I would do without him. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Fetish boots and a whip

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! Unfortunately we don't have anymore recent pictures to put up for HNT. I've been sorting through some pictures in the past and found this one. This is a favorite for Anakin and I both. I am wearing my fetish boots and carrying a bullwhip around. I have received lots of compliments for this picture and many people really enjoyed it. Maybe there might be some people who are seeing this for the first time and will also enjoy it. Please click to enlarge it and get a better look. I keep wanting to blog but have not had much time this week. It's been a busy week. I am looking forward to the weekend and having another overnight with Anakin with no kids. My mom has offered to take our son for the night and the teen is going to her Dad's house. We are planning to have a night in with dinner and movies and also lots of naughty fun. I'm really looking forward to it. A nice reward for a long week. I have also worked hard on losing weight and lost another 2 pounds this week. A total of 8 pounds this month! And I'm proud to say that I'm at the lowest weight that I've been in ten years. Amazing! Check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. Please leave us a comment and tell us what you think of the picture. We are also interested in hearing about what kinds of pictures you'd like to see at Journey to the Darkside. Maybe we can arrange it this weekend to take some new sexy pictures for HNT next week. :D May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A romantic night in Harrison Hot Springs

I got a very big surprise over the weekend. It was something that I was not expecting at all. I had spent Friday night and most of Saturday during the day upset. Many e-mails went back and forth between my sister and I. They were extremely upsetting. She's brought me into a fight she's having with my mom and wants me to chose sides. I refused to do that and she's very upset with me. I was in tears by the end of it and felt very emotional and raw. I went upstairs to take a hot bath and cried my eyes out. I had no idea that Anakin was downstairs making arrangements for us. I knew we had sitting but he arranged for an overnight for us. He booked a room in a hotel in Harrison Hot Springs for us and came upstairs and told me while I was in my bath. He thought it would be good for us to get away for a night and have some romance. I am lucky to have such a wonderful husband to do that for me. We had considered going to the Taboo sex show but we've been in the past many times and wanted to do something different. He packed our overnight bag and then we headed out to Harrison Hot Springs for a night. Harrison Hot Springs has always been a special place for Anakin and I. We had our honeymoon there. Our "special place by the lake" is there. We've had many trips there and great memories with us and our family. It was a dark and stormy night on the way there and I was a bit nervous about the drive but we made it safely. We checked in at the hotel and then headed out for dinner. Anakin took me out on a romantic dinner to a new place called Crazy Fish Bistro. It has great atmosphere and candlelit dinners which is perfect for romance. We held hands and talked until our delicious (and healthy) dinners arrive. The food was perfect. The service was also really great. I don't remember the last time we had a candlelit dinner for two. Thank you Anakin! We got back to our hotel and then took out the toys. I got dressed into some black sheer lingerie and sexy panties. He spanked me and then took off his belt to strap me. He teased me and we made out like crazy for a while. Foreplay is a wonderful thing. We were both all worked up before finally having the best sex!! I honestly don't remember the last time we fucked like that. It was amazing!!! We were both panting when we had finished fucking. We held onto each other and then cleaned up. Then we played some more and he gave me my orgasm. Wow!! That was a really big orgasm too!! Lots of build up and play. Nipple biting and sucking. Hands all over my body and pussy. Hitachi and then stopping and then teasing me again and again. I had a really big orgasm!! We played a bit more and then relaxed for the night. I had a sore bum. We were both connected and it felt great!! We lost track of time. I was surprised when he told me how late it was. I was completely lost in the moment. We cuddled up close and watched some tv for a while. Batman Forever was on. He teased me about liking Val Kilmer. I admit that I used to have a crush on him. :P (ok...I admit I still think he's hot) I fell asleep and then woke up a few hours later. I didn't get much sleep though. We cuddled up again and spent more time together. I tried to go back to sleep but couldn't. So I was exhausted but very happy. We left the hotel around 10 am and went out to the lake. I love Harrison Lake. Peaceful and relaxing. There was fog and rain but it was still very nice. We went out for breakfast and then headed home. Thank you Anakin for a wonderful romantic night in Harrison Hot Springs. I had no idea how badly I needed to get away until we did. It was perfect! :D May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Date night tonight!

I am very glad that it's the weekend. It felt like a very long week. I've been working hard on losing weight and making some positive changes in my life. I even went to a gym yesterday for the first time in years. Was glad to get back onto a treadmill again and work until I was sweaty and worn out. There's nothing better than a hot tub and steam room after you've worked out really hard. I've been taking a cleansing kit as well as added some herbal supplements to my diet. The results have shown on the scale as well as my body. I stepped on the scale this morning and have lost 4 pounds over this last week. (6 pounds in total this year) I am at the lowest weight that I've been at for the last ten years!! And I'm only 9 pounds away from my goal weight!! Yah me! Anakin also lost 4 pounds this week! We have lost 8 pounds together in one week! Amazing! I'm proud of us both. It's been a bit challenging for us but we've been working hard. There was snow and slush last week but we managed to continue walking through it all. We have both been considering signing up for the Vancouver Sun Run in the spring. We have a planned date to hike the Grouse Grind and am getting fit for that. This year is going to be a big year for us full of many positive changes. There are a few things that I have been doing differently. I am not drinking alcohol at all right now. I am also not eating red meats and have mostly been eating a very clean diet. I've been drinking lots of water and stopped drinking pop. Anakin and I both have always enjoyed drinking coke but have eliminated it from our new lifestyle. And I'm pleased with all the results. I can feel a big difference in my energy levels as well as noticing more muscle tone in my legs and other parts of my body. I am feeling a lot more stronger mentally as well as physically. Tonight is date night!! We have a sitter for our son so we can go out tonight. I'm very excited although we are not sure yet where to go. We have been debating over whether or not to go to the Taboo Naughty but Nice sex show in Vancouver. We may just stick closer to home and do something different. We've gone to the sex show a few times. I am not really looking to buy anymore toys and it all seems a bit repetitive. I am very glad to be having a night with Anakin and enjoy some time together without the kids. I've had to overcome some big challenges lately including some family drama which was very upsetting. This would have probably set me back in the past but I refuse to let anyone else bring me down. My force feels stronger than I have in a very long time. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Sexy red panties

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! This is our first HNT picture for 2011! This picture was taken recently during some spanking fun with Anakin. My bottom is getting as red as my sexy panties that I am wearing. You get a glimpse of my lower back tattoo in this picture too! Please click on the picture to enlarge and get a better look at it. Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think of the picture. We always appreciate the feedback. Check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

The journey ahead for 2011

I am feeling very optimistic about the journey ahead for 2011. There are some big changes on the horizon. Change can be scary but also exciting. We have been discussing moving to a new and bigger place. It's hard to believe we have lived in the same place for 8 years. We moved into our home on Valentine's day in 2003 which was amazing for me at that time. We have lived in some pretty shitty places. Basement suites which were too small. Apartments which were tiny and old. A townhouse which was more like a trailer park. It was a nightmare!!! I could tell you stories about my adventures living in that place. We eventually moved from there into a dream house but we were renting it for way too much money. We moved again but there were issues there too. Then we found our dream home. This place was perfect! I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. I didn't even need to go inside to know that I loved and wanted it. We brought our young daughter and baby son (they are now a teen daughter and young son) into our brand new family house. It was amazing! I've really grown to love this area. I hope we can find a bigger place but stay in the area. I really enjoy walking around my neighborhood. I also don't drive so it's great to have so many local services nearby. I love the city we live in. I wouldn't want to live anywhere else. There are so many memories of this place. Birthdays and anniversaries and driving up to our home just after we were married on our wedding day. There's been some sad times after deaths in our family. Lots of fun family times and holidays spent here. There's also been lots and lots of naughty memories too. If only the walls could talk. I love this place. I'll be sad to say goodbye but it's time to move on. We were going to move last year but my MIL got very sick with terminal cancer. It felt too difficult to move when we were dealing with her illness. We've been talking a lot about it and our whole family wants to move. Both of our kids were really excited about it. I think this will be a new chapter for us and a fresh start. Something very positive to look forward to this year. I'd love to have a house with a backyard. And a bigger kitchen would be really nice too! :P It's going to be a lot of work to move but worth it. I think this will a positive thing for our whole family. There are some other really big things happening right now. I will blog about those another time. It's a lot to think about right now. I feel ready for some changes. It would be really nice to change our phone number and also where we live. There are some idiots from the past which like to prank call and harass me. I've been getting some really strange texts and phone calls lately. I admit it's almost a bit scary. I think that it's time to move on though and for a fresh start for 2011! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Walking on sunshine

I've had a really good weekend and am feeling pretty good today. Friday night was a family night. We watched Scott Pilgram vs The World. It was pretty good. On Saturday was a date with Anakin. We had no kids for the day and spent it eating breakfast and having a really good talk and few laughs. We went grocery shopping together. This may seem like a lame thing to do on a date but it's great to shop without the kids. We then came home to play. We spent several hours in our bedroom playing, fucking and having orgasms. A fun way to spend the rest of our date. We also watched The Fighter last night. Wow! What a fantastic movie! I really recommend it. I wonder if it will win any awards this year. I really didn't feel like going for a walk afterwords. I was floating on endorphins from the spanking and intense play. My personal trainer (Darth Vader) kicked my ass out the door though and got me going on a very long walk. I have been doing daily walks with Anakin. Today was day 12 in a row of walking. We've promised ourselves that we will commit to a daily walk every day this year without any excuses other than illness. This is a goal we've made to ourselves and to each other. We are both hoping to lose weight and get fit. I did lose weight last year but it wasn't near my goal and it really helps to have Anakin helping me with it. He's a really mean personal trainer but it gets great results. I stepped on the scale today and have lost 2 pounds this week. I gained 3 pounds during the holidays so I've almost shed that weight! Yah! That felt great! I am feeling a lot more stronger mentally and physically. A very good start for the new year! We have both set a date to hike the Grouse Grind which is on my bucket list and something I've always inspired to do. I want to make sure I'm fit though because that grind can kick your ass! I've had many people tell me that it's an intense hike. I've also got many other hiking trails which I'd like to conquer this year. I went on an hour long hike with Anakin today. It was a bit cold but sunny. I felt like I was walking on sunshine! I really enjoy hiking. It made my legs feel like jello. It does tire me out but also gives me motivation when I work out though. I spent the last hour cleaning my kitchen and getting inspired to get some projects done. It feels good. I hope everyone else had a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Have a great Friday!

TGIF! I'm feeling a lot better than I was a few days ago. Anakin took the day off yesterday and we had a long talk about many different things. It really helped to talk to him and figure out some big decisions that we were both faced with. I think that 2011 is going to be a big year for me. I'm trying very hard to embrace the changes and think positive. We had a whole day to talk and also reconnect. I got a very hard punishment strapping for some mouthy behavior. I needed it and was glad for it. I even asked him for more to help me feel better. He thrashed my ass with his belt and used his hand a lot also. My ass still has some really impressive marks on it from yesterday. We also had some really great sex and orgasms. I felt so much better after our time together. Sometimes I don't even realize how much I need to be spanked and fucked. I'm really glad that it's Friday and the weekend! It's been a really long week. I'm looking forward to spending more time with Anakin and hopefully more play on the darkside. Next weekend is the Taboo Naughty but Nice sex show in Vancouver. We've been talking about going so that should be fun! I'm really looking forward to doing some very naughty things in 2011. I've been wet this morning from reading the #FuckToyFriday tweets over on twitter. *whew* Some of the tweets are VERY hot! If you are on twitter check out FuckToyFriday tweeps and get aroused. I think I'm going to ask permission today to use my Hitachi. Reading all those tweets really turned me on! :D Have a great weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A bad start to the new year

It hasn't been a very good start to the new year unfortunately. There's been a lot of fighting within my family lately. Not in my immediate family but between my mom and sister. My sister is now disowning my mom and doesn't want anything more to do with her. I feel like I'm caught in the middle between them. I am the peacemaker in my family. I don't like family drama or fighting. I just wish everyone would learn to get along. I'm so tired of it all. It caused me to have some of the worst insomnia last night. I've been up since 4:30 am. I couldn't get back to sleep. I'm on my period and have been feeling very stressed out. I think there is a bit of a holiday letdown happening too. I do enjoy having things back to normal but I miss Master as he's back to work after an 11 day holiday with me. I really enjoyed having him at home. At least the kids are back to school though. I am finally enjoying some alone time for the first time in a while. At least my place is very clean and tidy! I spent all day yesterday organizing and cleaning. Anakin and I got some really big news this morning. I don't feel ready to blog about it yet as I really need some time to process this news. We have to make a big decision and plan to talk about it tonight. Change can be a good thing but also very scary. I'm really nervous about what this will mean for our family. I have a feeling 2011 is going to be full of some really big changes in my life. I feel very emo and full of angst today. It would have been my Dad's 69th birthday if he had lived. He passed away in 2009. It's still hard for me sometimes. I wish I could phone him and wish him a happy birthday. We had a difficult relationship but had mended fences towards the end of his life. I don't think that you ever really get over losing a parent. It gets easier with time but certain days (like their birthday) can trigger it all over again and the pain comes back. My heart just feels very heavy today. Hopefully things will get better in 2011. It's been a pretty lousy start to the new year. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

First spanking of 2011!

I got my first spanking of 2011 today! We had some unexpected kid free time and headed upstairs for some play. I was a bit surprised by the toy that Anakin picked out first. We haven't used the Anakin's paddle in a while. I had forgotten how red it can make my bottom and the sting afterwords. Ouchies! I did get rewarded with a really big orgasm after he reddened my bottom. It was worth the pain for some great pleasure after. I came very hard after he made my ass really sore. Anakin took several pictures of the spanking/paddling/strapping. We decided to share one with everyone today. There were several toys used very harshly on my bum. Wooden paddles are always good for making a point. Anakin lectured me about my rules for the year. We reviewed ours recently and updated them. I really needed a good thrashing to get me into line for the new year. One of my resolutions is to hike Grouse Grind this year but that means getting my butt into shape. Anakin's offered to help me as my personal trainer. I've been told that will involve some domestic discipline to help motivate me. Today's "motivation" helped me a lot. I feel very submissive and ready for more walking tomorrow to get my ass into shape for 2011! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy New year 2011!

Happy New Year! This is my first blog post for 2011! Woot! I have to admit that my New Year's eve was pretty low key. I think I'm getting too old to party. :P I've had some pretty wild NYE's in the past, especially during my club days. I could tell you a few stories. This new years eve was a lot more tame. We did have a really nice dinner but I got some tummy upset and it seemed to get worse during Dick Clark's Rockin New Years eve. (at 9 pm which was midnight in New York but not New years for us yet on the west coast) I really didn't feel too good during it. We had wanted to play but were both too tired and worn out from the two days we spent fucking and playing while the kids were away. We both fell asleep after 11 pm waiting for midnight to come. lol. It's the first New years eve that I actually missed the stroke of midnight because I was asleep. I woke up at 12:10 am and kissed Anakin and wished him a happy new year and we both went back to sleep. I didn't even get drunk last night. I had one drink but didn't have anymore due to my tummy issues. I feel kind of bad that things didn't go as planned but am happy that I got to spend it with Anakin and also my son too. It was nice to wake up to a new year without a hangover. I even went for a long walk today with Anakin. I stepped on the scale this morning and am a bit frustrated that I have gained a few pounds during the holidays. I have gotten back into my walking again and eating better. Things go back to normal on Tuesday when Anakin goes back to work. The teen comes home from her trip tomorrow. The kids go back to school on Tuesday too. I am looking forward to things getting back to normal again. The holidays were nice but I'm kind of glad they are all behind me for another year. I'm really hoping to cross some things off my bucket list this year! I am looking ahead to a new year and new beginnings. I look back at 2010 as being in the past now. I move forward in a very positive new direction on my journey for 2011! Thank you for being a part of my journey. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala