Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween from Darth Vader and His padme amidala. This is one of our favorite days of the year! Lots of tricks and treats and darkside surprises. This picture is one of our older HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) pictures. I am wearing my vampire costume and fangs. I was a very sexy vampire for Halloween that year. :) Hope everyone has a great Halloween! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

2.5 Million Milestone for JTTDS

We have hit another blogging milestone for Journey to the Darkside! 2.5 million hits on our blog. Amazing! It still amazes me sometimes that so many people out there are interested in us enough to read our blog. I didn't want to blog at first because I didn't think that anyone would want to read about us. Apparently I was wrong because many of you come back on a pretty regular basis to read our blog and follow us on Twitter and Fetlife as well as other social media. We've received tons of e-mails and many people have told us that we have inspired them in some way. I had no idea that my blog would touch other people but it has. It helps me to know that I can reach out to people through my writing. We've met some really great friends through our blog. In our journey with everyone we've shared many sexy photographs for HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday). We've shared our struggles with life or with our poly/bdsm relationship. One of the things that I like the best about our blog is that we are not too narrow in our focus. We talk about everything here. From Star Wars to cancer or poly and bondage as part of our Journey. Blogging has become a really big part of my life. I can't imagine what it would be like to not blog. We always try to make sure there are regular posts and lots of pictures. Anakin is a huge force behind the blog. He even helps me with my toy reviews. I wouldn't want to be blogging without his support and help. He takes the majority of our pictures and comments on almost all of my posts. He encourages me to blog and has given me personal time to be able to do that. Sometimes writing a blog post has helped me get my feelings out and be able to process my emotions. We really appreciate the comments on our blog posts. Some of the comments have touched me beyond words. It really does help to know that you are not alone and others have similar struggles in their lives. Thank you for being a part of our journey...O/our Journey to the Darkside. I hope we will still be blogging for years to come. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

First experience with Figging

I had been curious about Figging for a few years now. It got brought up on Twitter recently and sparked a conversation between Anakin and I. He wasn't aware that I wanted to try Figging and wanted me to find out more information for him about it. He doesn't like to do any type of new play without information about it. So I asked my Twitter peeps to send me any links or information on Figging. Thank you to everyone who helped me out! We got lots of information and decided that I would try this for our date night. I started to get very nervous about it yesterday. Some people certainly didn't help my fears about Figging. One person talked about how I could maybe get an infection from it. I read a blog post about how someone got a piece of it lost inside their ass. I started to really worry. One person told me that it was going to be very painful. My head felt like it was spinning and the play hadn't even started yet. I was turned on but also really nervous and scared about the Figging. I even debated trying to talk Master out of it but knew better. He was going to make me trying Figging whether I liked it or not. He's the boss and that's how it works with us. He tweeted that he planned to pick up a ginger root on the way home from work. I thought about it all day. My mind was racing. Anakin thought it was funny that I didn't seem as worried about getting caned as the Figging. I was starting to get scared and regretted telling Anakin about it. It was too late though. It was going to happen and there wasn't anything I could do to get out of it. We were going to dress up last night in our costumes. UPS didn't drop off my package so my new schoolgirl costume from EF never came. I am still waiting for the package. Hopefully it arrives before Halloween. I did get dressed into my pink schoolgirl skirt as well as panties and striped socks. I got nervous as he started peeling the ginger. I came downstairs to twitter and a part of me wanted to run away. I was scared. I had the same feeling when I tried the violet wand the first time. I was terrified of it but had an experienced player use it on me the first time and I wound up loving it. The same thing happened with the ginger root. I was scared to try it. But he wouldn't allow me to chicken out. I was given the ginger root to examine before using it on my private parts. I noticed the really nice smell from it. I'm putting up a picture of it. You can see that I'm wearing my purple wrist cuffs as well as the schoolgirl skirt. :) I wanted a spanking first before the Figging. He wanted to get straight to the point. He pulled down my panties and then ordered me to put the ginger root on my clit and all over my pussy. I did as I was told and held my breath. I didn't feel anything for a few seconds but then...OMG!! It burned! Not a painful burn though. It felt good. Really, really good. My clit was on fire and my pussy was soaking wet. It started to throb. The orgasms from the ginger were some of the biggest I've ever had! Wow! It is a very pleasurable stimulant and had me aroused to the point of insanity. I couldn't get enough of Master's fingers last night. Nothing can turn me on like him fingering me to an orgasm while telling me what he's going to do next to me. He told me that he wanted my ass to hurt. He had cut another piece of ginger root and that was going up my ass. It was shaped like a butt plug. He told me to turn over and lubed up my ass and then put the ginger root into it. Whoa....that was intense!! Really intense! Especially when he grabbed the cane and started caning me. My ass didn't like the ginger root though. It burned and I wanted it out. He told me to stay still for a good solid 10 more strokes with the cane. These ones were HARD!! I can still feel them today as I sit on my ass. The intensity from the ginger didn't last very long. Within about 5-10 minutes the sensation went away. I was surprised at how much I enjoyed it. I had big orgasms from the experience and got to try something out for the first time. I love sharing first experiences with Anakin. I will be picking up Ginger Root from the store now when I shop. I'm pretty sure we'll be using it again on me very soon. It makes me look at Ginger Root a little bit different now. ;) This is also something I got to cross off my bucket list. #516 -Try figging There was more spanking play. He used his belt as well as the whip. There was also some with the paddle. We had some really great sex. I have no idea what time we went to bed. I was completely lost in subspace and total bliss. A fantastic night on the darkside. A night of new experiences and some Halloween fun. I've got a sore bum and am a happy slave girl today. There were several more pictures taken last night.Would anyone like to see them? ;) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A Halloween play party for two

TGIF! It's Friday and going into the last weekend in October. This is when most of the Halloween parties are happening. What are your plans? Anakin and I have a very special Halloween celebration happening tonight. It should be a really good night. :) Anakin came up with a really great idea for our date night tonight. We usually have Friday nights as our date night. It's our chance to play and have the house to ourselves with no kids for one night. I love our date nights. I get to put on the slave collar and be naked (eventually all my clothes come off and I'm completely naked) and go into submissive slut role. I almost always get spanked on Friday date nights. I usually need a good hard one by the end of the week. Anakin wanted to take some pictures of me wearing my new schoolgirl costume. It arrives by UPS today from Eden Fantasys. I also mentioned that I wanted to take some pictures of him as Michael Myers too. So we are going to both going to wear our costumes tonight and have a special Halloween themed play night for two. There is an interesting twist on our night. I'm going to be trying something new and that is on my bucket list. I've always wanted to try figging. I'm curious and nervous and have always wanted to try it. Anakin is buying some on the way home tonight. Wish me luck! It will be interesting to try something like figging. Heard lots about it. Fetlife even has a group about it! It should be an interesting night. Spooky and scary and perfect for Halloween! I hope to tweet as much as I am allowed to. Anakin usually lets me tweet a bit during our play. So make sure you are following me. (https://twitter.com/#!/padmeamidala) We are still trying to decide about the rest of our weekend. My focus is mostly on tonight. I keep getting distracted with the thoughts of ginger up my ass and playing on the darkside. There is a Halloween marathon on AMC all weekend as well as a new the Walking Dead on Sunday! We plan to carve pumpkins and lots of Halloween fun. I can't wait until tonight. I'm on orgasm denial and it's all building up in me. Excitement and nervousness. I'm already wet and the play hasn't even started yet! :) Have a great weekend! *Special thanks to jazabelleX on twitter who shared the Star Wars themed Halloween picture that I put up today. I'm looking for any Star Wars Halloween themed links or pictures. Please tweet/DM/e-mail them to me and I'll try to get them up before Halloween.* May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Glow in the dark Halloween panties

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! I had to go looking through our archives to find a Halloween picture to put up for HNT today. This picture was taken a few years ago around Halloween. I bought some glow in the dark pirate panties to wear for Anakin. These were so cute! You can find the sexiest and cutest stuff at Wal Mart sometimes! I love these panties. Anakin used to find it amusing when we would be playing and the panties were glowing in the dark. :) We plan to take some new pictures this weekend hopefully. I'm crossing my fingers that we can go to a Halloween play party. If not, at least be able to play privately at home. I really want to wear our costumes and have some Halloween fun. It would be a nice distraction from the situation going on with my mom too. Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think of the picture. Do you wear themed panties? How many people have Halloween panties? Have you ever worn glow in the dark panties before? Are you excited about Halloween? :) Check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Darkness on the darkside

There has been a lot going on the last few weeks that I have not shared publicly. I guess I was hoping that my mom would go away in time and give me some space. She had contacted me for my birthday and sent a card. She gave me her new phone # in it. I was very tempted to phone her. I'll admit it. I miss her sometimes. But I don't miss all the drama. My mom has some really serious problems going on in her life. And those problems started to consume me for months. I'm not sure how much to share on this blog. Some people probably don't want to hear about my family drama. But I will share a bit of background information for those people who don't know what's happened. My mom met a guy over the internet (almost 20 years younger) and he charmed his way into her pants and life. My mom was rich. She got most of the money from my Dad during their divorce. She got estate money and lived the life of luxury. I can honestly say that I was jealous of her at one time. A nice condo on the beach and trips all over. My mom seemed to have it all in her second marriage. But then she met the internet guy and fell hard and fast for him. She ended her marriage and immediately moved the boy toy in. I didn't trust him from the beginning. He had no job and a criminal record. Bad news from the start. You could tell from the start that he was not a very good guy. He got caught in lies and even tried to get Anakin to lie to me. I tried to tell her he was bad news. So did my other family members. But my mom wouldn't listen. She jumped into marriage #3 and he started draining her bank account. My mom lost it all. He spent all of her money. She's broke. They owe thousands and thousands of dollars to creditors and other people. They've even scammed his own mom!!! She took out of a second mortgage and got betrayed from them. Very, very uncool! My mom has turned into a criminal. Very hard for me to actually say it but it's true. She has done things that are against the law because of my stepdad. I've often wondered if she would wind up in jail or maybe even worse. I've worried so much that it affected my health. It affected my marriage. It affected my kids. My mom's drama had all us upset and affected by it. She even tried to move in with us! Along with her criminal husband. But we said no and she wasn't too happy about it. My mom has lost it all. The only person who still talks to her is my brother. Every other person has had to cut my mom out of their lives. My mom needs help. I truly believe she is mentally ill. She's really changed. I tried to talk to her back in May. But she wouldn't listen. She cut me (and my kids and Anakin) completely off. Wouldn't have a thing to do with us for months. She changed her # and e-mails and moved away. But now she's back and things are getting out of control. I really do believe that my mom thought I'd take her back this time. I always have in the past. I take her back and nothing ever changes. This time I have to stand strong. I will not help my mom until she helps herself first. I won't support her marriage to that loser. My mom needs an intervention. She really does. She's out of control. Her last phone message to me sounded drunk. She was slurring her words. She drinks too much and makes bad life choices. I've learned a lot from watching that tv show, Intervention. Anakin and I saw a woman on the show who reminded me a lot of my mom. My mom needs to make some changes. I can't have her in my life until she does. I had to learn that with my brother who is now a recovering drug addict. I had to walk away at one point. He was pissed off but later thanked me and understood. Sometimes a person needs to hit rock bottom to really make the changes they need to make. It's a very toxic relationship with my mom. I was getting used (giving her money, paying for countless lunches and getting sucked into buying stuff for her) and constantly criticized. I felt like I was becoming the parent. And all I really wanted was a mom. And a grandma to my kids. She's hurt and disappointed us all too much. I really hope one day there will be forgiveness but I doubt there will ever be trust again. Things have gotten pretty bad. My mom has friended/sent requests to several of my friends on there. She's even e-mailed them and asked them to pass along messages to me! Then today something really creepy happened. I was working on a blog post and felt someone was looking at me. I noticed a guy in a white truck outside my window who looked exactly like my stepdad. I got closer to the window but he took off. I am almost certain it was him. I'm not sure if he's going to come back or what exactly he was doing here. But I don't trust the guy or want him near me. The guy scares me (even my kids are scared of him) and completely gives me the creeps. I could call the cops but not sure they would do much to help. I've dealt with the cops before when stalked back in high school. I dated a guy who wouldn't take no for answer. He even tried to rape me. I tried to go to the cops and didn't get any help. Anakin and I have talked about a possible restraining order. It's sad but unfortunately coming down to that. I really wish that it didn't have to go this way. I really do love my mom. She's the only parent I have left. I really miss my Dad sometimes. Because I know he would have come over and kicked some redneck ass all over the place if he was still alive. Dad...I miss you so very much... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Pleasurists #152

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Favorite Halloween Villain

I asked people on twitter today about their favorite Halloween villain. Who scares you the most. Are you scared of Michael Myers and his big knife? Or Jason? What about Freddy? Were you afraid to go to sleep after watching his movies? Perhaps Hannibal Lecter is more scary than all of them put together? What do you think? Who is your favorite Halloween villain? One of my favorite Halloween villains is Darth Vader! My Master is a mean old man and can be very scary sometimes. He likes to play with knives and mean spanking toys! ;) *winks* And lightsabers too! I'm a huge fan of horror movies. I grew up watching them. I watched Poltergeist at 13. Boy that was a scary movie at the time. I am still scared of creepy clowns because of that movie. I was so scared the first time I watched the original Nightmare on Elm Street movie. I couldn't go to sleep. The horror movies have become a lot more violent and scary. I have to be very careful watching these movies right before bed. Otherwise I can have very bad dreams. Halloween is a week away! I love this time of the year. Horror movies always seem a bit scarier right around Halloween time. Anakin and I have been enjoying watching a lot of the fear fest movies on AMC. We also love The Walking Dead too! Great show but can give you some nightmares too. Zombies can be a very scary in the movies or tv. One of our favorites is Zombieland! I have been posting links on Twitter about some of our older Halloween blog posts. I was reading "Spanking in the Chamber of Horrors" this morning. Wow! Very good read. Check it out! Please leave us a comment and let us know who your favorite Halloween villain is. What's your favorite scary movie? Do you dress up at Halloween? I'm going to be a schoolgirl and Anakin is dressing up as Michael Myers! It's going to be a very interesting Halloween this year. ;) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A hard caning and ass fucking

Last night was date night and a chance for us to play on the darkside. The kids were gone by 7 pm and dinner was quickly put into the oven. We had pizza which was easy to make. We were both really anxious to start playing. He ran me a hot bubble bath with some Lush to relax me. He went to check the results from our Twitter poll. We asked people what they would chose to spank me with. The cane or the belt? Which do you prefer? It wasn't a big surprise to me (and I'm sure other people) that Anakin chose BOTH the cane and belt to spank me with last night! He's a mean old man and loves both toys. He enjoyed warming up my ass with his belt and then used the cane harshly on it. I wore my pink naughty schoolgirl skirt and panties but nothing else. Eventually the panties were pulled down but the skirt stayed on during my ass fucking. My ass got some really impressive mean welts on it from the cane. I can still feel it today! Ouchies! The cane that Anakin uses is a thicker type of cane. We've got several that he can chose from but last night he liked the mean thick wooden cane. He used several other toys on my ass as well. He made me get the small butt plug up my ass and then eventually the medium sized one. He wanted my ass ready for a brutal ass fucking. It was very intense and rough. He fucked my ass hard and made me remember who owns me. He bit my neck so hard that there is a big purple bruise from it today. He knew that the rough treatment turned me on so bad. I came twice really big for him while he used his belt more all over me. I couldn't get enough pain last night. Kept asking him for more. He'd just smile and pick up his belt (or whatever toy was laying around) and would turn me over and spank me with it. Some strokes were very hard and punishing. I was a well beaten and used slave and floated in endorphins after our play. I don't remember falling asleep in his arms. I must have passed out after eating some dessert with Master. A slept so solid and peaceful. I always love waking up to the bruises on my ass to remind me of our play. Our force is strong... Anakin wants to play more tonight. I'm wondering what evil plans he has in store for me tonight. I can't imagine how sore my ass is going to be tomorrow! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Halloween caning

TGIF! There is a twitter poll going on. You can follow me at: https://twitter.com/#!/padmeamidala. I am asking my twitter peeps whether Anakin should use a cane or belt on me tonight. I am craving the belt. Need a really hard beating with it. But I think I need a hard caning as well. I need to be punished. And I think I might have it coming to me. Anakin seems a bit irritated with me today. I got a few strokes with the cane last night but it wasn't enough to satisfy my masochistic desires. So what's your opinion. What toy do you think that I need the most? Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think! I've always loved this picture. It is Halloween and spanking themed. A Halloween spanking! It looks like she is getting either caned or maybe even birched. I love getting Halloween spankings. :) I can't wait until tonight. Friday date nights are the best! A chance to play on the darkside with Darth Vader and bring out the toys! I hope everyone has a good weekend! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - Halloween panties

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! This picture was taken a few years ago right before Halloween. I was at a play party at LB's house and wearing a cute pair of Halloween panties. These had a black cat on them! So cute! I've still got those Halloween panties which I like to bring out around this time of the year. I can't be the only one who likes to wear themed panties for Halloween or Christmas or other special holidays. Please leave us a comment and let us know what you think of the picture. What are your plans this year for Halloween? Will you be dressing up? Anakin bought a Michael Myers costume which is pretty scary. I ordered a new schoolgirl costume from Eden Fantasys which should be here right before Halloween! Should be a very interesting Halloween this year! ;) Check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

A lucky birthday slave girl

I am a very lucky birthday slave girl. Friday was amazing and memorable. A big thank you to Anakin for making it one of the best birthdays that I've ever had! He surprised me many times and treated me like a princess. I was totally spoiled! I woke up to lots of birthday wishes on the computer and also from the family. I was deeply touched by all the birthday wishes. We went to drop the kids off. What a beautiful sunny day it was too! Wow! I love it when my birthday is sunny and nice out. Anakin took the day off to spend my birthday with me. It meant a lot to me to spend the whole day with him. I got my choice in places to go for breakfast. This is a rare treat for me. He usually makes the decisions but let me make a few on Friday for my birthday! I chose the A&W for breakfast. lol. It is always one of the best breakfasts in town. I also wanted to go shopping at the mall. Master totally spoiled me. I got Halloween earrings and new slippers (which are hard to take off) and lots of other goodies. He also bought me some new panties (see picture at the top of the blog post). The panties remind me a bit of a schoolgirl type of theme to them. Anakin loves the plaid schoolgirl look. He had me wearing the panties and leather wrist cuffs but nothing else. He surprised me with a blue rose which he bought from the flower shop that did our wedding flowers. I've never been given a blue rose before and this almost moved me to tears. Anakin is so romantic and really surprises me sometimes. :) We went shopping for Halloween stuff as well. Lots of fun! There was some discussions about getting a new tattoo for my birthday. We didn't have much time though and wasn't sure about which tattoo to get. I have a feeling that I will be getting a new tattoo sometime in the near future though. :) I'd love to get another tattoo done for Anakin. We celebrated my birthday with the kids after they got out of school. Anakin bought my favorite triple chocolate cake for dessert. yum! The kids got dropped off and we enjoyed a beautiful sunset together. We even saw some people parachuting from the sky during the sunset. Spectacular! He kissed me and we held each other's hands as we enjoyed the moment together. Very special! He told me that there were a few birthday surprises for me. He was going to give me a day off to myself on Sunday. I was going to be allowed to see someone from Fetlife that I have been exchanging e-mails with. He also told me that I was allowed to go to the Rascal's Halloween play party. I haven't gone to any events in almost two years and miss my friends. He told me that I couldn't go alone though. I needed to find a ride or I couldn't go. He told me that he was going to take me to one of my favorite restaurants in town. I absolutely LOVE the Keg. Great place for a birthday dinner! I got spoiled with lots of Jackson Triggs wine and prime rib as well as shrimp. Dinner was absolutely delicious. Got a free piece of ice cream cake for dessert from the Keg. Lots of hand holding and romance. I admit it. I love to be wined and dined in a classy restaurant. It's great foreplay. I was wet and ready by the time we left the Keg. We got home and he ran me a hot bubble bath. He poured me a glass of Vampire Wine which he had bought me. I was already a bit buzzed from the Keg wine. I bought some floating candles and we got to try those out. Very cool! I've always wanted to try floating candles. Was something new for both of us. Added a lot of romance and atmosphere. Anakin took lots of pictures. Then he checked twitter. There was some tweets about my birthday spanking. He decided to use the cane and also gave me an extra one for a twitter friend. Ouchies! The cane hurt. He didn't warm me up and that annoyed me slightly. I thought he would perhaps be a bit nicer in the bedroom. I was the birthday girl after all! But noooooo...Darth Vader was in a bit of a mood. The caning hurt and got my attention. And it almost drew tears. He didn't like me getting emo though. I was told to "drink up, bitch". He made it clear that maybe I was a spoiled princess during the day. I was going to be a slave bitch for my birthday. I didn't get the royal treatment in the bedroom. He was very demanding and sadistic. He used his belt on me and beat me all over. There was some really rough sex and biting all over. I am convinced Anakin is a real vampire. He's got one tooth which reminds me of a fang and always leaves a very deep bruise. It's intense. I screamed out when he bit me and he just laughed at me. There was some very intense moments between Anakin and I. We used many toys and I had many orgasms. The sex was fantastic!! The best kind of sex is rough and hard. Loved it! Hours of play which went on until almost midnight. We ate leftover chocolate cake and had some wine before bed. A perfect end to a really great birthday. :) I spent most of Saturday hoping for a response to my ad about needing a ride to Rascal's. Didn't work out though. I admit that I was pretty bummed about it. Anakin felt bad for me. He bought my favorite pizza for me. We watched a movie called Wrecked. We had a few drinks and had some more play and sex. Thank you Master for cheering me up! Sunday I headed out to Vancouver to meet a cute younger guy for coffee. Not sure what will happen but it did go very well. I wanted to fuck him but had strict instructions to have coffee and then come home. Anakin is very picky about who I get to fuck. I always need his permission when playing with others. I was tempted but I would never disobey Master. I came straight home after some Starbucks with the cute guy from Fetlife. It was a really good weekend. I got lucky because I got to spend an extra day with Anakin. He was home sick on Monday. He felt ok though to go for breakfast and also play a bit. He gave me a hard strapping with his belt. We both had orgasms. Then we watched Fear Fest on AMC. Our force is strong... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Scary Michael Myers!

It is very rare to put up pictures of Anakin on the blog. It's almost always pictures of my bum or some other sexy one of me that we are putting up. I thought that I would share this one which was taken yesterday. Anakin had been threatening to buy a Michael Myers costume for a long time. He knows that I'm scared of him and a big fan of the Halloween movies. So he went on the hunt to buy the perfect Michael Myers costume! He went to Value Village as well as Wal Mart and surprised me with it. He came up behind me in the costume and I jumped up in the air and screamed! Wow!! It looked very real! Even our kitty was worried and scared and wouldn't go near Daddy in the costume. lol. This is the best costume that Anakin has ever worn for Halloween. Very scary! :) He was going to wear it last night while fucking me but it freaked me out. He's warned me though that he'll be wearing it on Halloween and to be ready for anything! Yikes!! Imagine Michael Myers spanking me? Or maybe he'll just want some knife play! :P May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

39 years old and still a cougar!

I turned 39 years old yesterday. I may be getting older but I'm still a cougar on the prowl. Anakin teased me at the Keg last night about our young server. He was young and super cute and flirted with me a little. Was an amazing birthday! One of the best birthdays ever! Everything went great and even a few surprises that I wasn't expecting. I heard from my mom. I am glad that she at least remembered me on my birthday. Had wondered if I might hear from her. Also heard from a few other people that I wasn't expecting to. I got the most birthday tweets that I've ever gotten as well! Wow!! I could barely keep up with all the tweets and DM's, e-mails and e-cards yesterday. I was very touched. Thank you for all the birthday wishes! :) Of course it's always a bit disappointing when you don't hear from certain people on your birthday. I had hoped to hear from a few people who didn't say anything at all to me. You can always hope but sometimes birthday wishes don't always come true. I was glad to spend the whole day with Anakin though. He made it very special for me. Thank you Master! I used to get really upset when my Dad would forget my birthday. At least he remembered my last one that I had before he passed away. That meant a lot to me. He even told me that he loved me that day. I cherish that a lot. He reached out to me on my birthday and we were able to have a relationship in the last few months of his life. I'm not too sure what will happen with my mom. I'm still trying to sort out some of my feelings about it all. I've got a lot to blog about from yesterday. So much happened. I'm trying to process it all today. I've got lots of sexy pictures to share as well as details to post about. I'll try to do that as soon as I can. I'm a bit distracted today. I am really hoping to go to Rascal's tonight. We were not able to get sitting. Anakin can't go but I am allowed as long as I can get a ride there and back. I'd like to go. I haven't been to Rascal's in over a year and a half. Haven't even been to any events. I miss my community friends and having fun at Rascal's. There is even a big slice of birthday cake there for me if I can get there!! You can check out my tweets (https://twitter.com/#!/padmeamidala) for some more pictures of my birthday. I also put some up on facebook too. Yesterday was an amazing birthday!! Anakin spoiled me and surprised me so many times. I even got to try something new. :P I will blog about it all as soon as I can! I'll also tell you how my birthday spanking went. My bum is very sore today! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

I'm the birthday girl

Tomorrow (October 14th) is my birthday! I am turning 39 years old! Today is my last day of being 38. I am one more year closer to the big 4-0! I am planning a very nice birthday this year. Anakin has taken the day off to spend it with me tomorrow. We plan to have breakfast and do some shopping. (including picking up my birthday gift) We have a date night planned for later. No kids and some time to ourselves. I won't be online much tomorrow. That's why my birthday blog post is going up a day early. Will be out and about for most of the day. And yes...I WILL be getting my birthday spanking!! There will be pictures taken and lots to blog about after our date on the darkside. :) I love being the birthday girl. Thank you Anakin for spoiling me rotten! :) I've received some really nice gifts and birthday wishes so far. My brother sent me a Starbucks gift card. I got a gift card for $25 from Eden Fantasys. I bought myself some birthday treats from EF as well and that package is arriving today! My friend, DL took me out for breakfast yesterday. My FIL gave me a gift card. And a few other nice things as well. Please leave me a comment and say hello. I'd love to hear from you. I'm hoping to encourage a few lurkers out to say hello and perhaps wish me a happy birthday. I know you are out there! Come out of the shadows and say hello. My force feels very strong at 39 years old. I'm older, wiser and a lot sexier than I was ten years ago. Happy birthday to me! :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Lovers rendezvous kit review

I thought that this would be a bit different to test out and review. The Lovers rendezvous kit is perfect for everyone. A fun and romantic kit great for couples. From those who are going away on a romantic trip or a honeymoon or just enjoying a night at home with the one you love. Eden Fantasys has a few different romantic kits to try. About the kit: It is made by Evolved Novelties. The kit includes waterproof multi-speed massager (vibrator), 1 System Jo water based lubricant, vibrating cock ring, lubricated latex condom, romance dice, 28 rose petals (which do not smell and are stiff) and a really cool electric candle. It travels well. It's both fun and romantic. I really enjoyed using this kit during my date night with Anakin. It added a lot of romance to our night. The Vibrating cock ring is low quality. It feels like jelly and only lasted for about 20 minutes before it gave out. It did help to stimulate his cock though and got him hard and ready for sex. It was also a bit hard to turn on. Anakin was able to get it going but it took him a while. Only one condom comes with the kit so you may want to bring more if you plan to have sex more than once on your romantic trip. The cock ring and condom are only for single use. All the other items in the kit can be used again though. It is easily stored in the plastic tubing it comes in. I am storing my lover's kit in the package it came in. The vibrator requires 1 AA battery which does not come with the kit. It's 4 and a half inches long and has a dial at the base of it. It's not very strong so you may not orgasm from it but it's enough to get you warmed up. It is made of hard plastic. I only used it for a brief amount of time because it wasn't very comfortable. It is waterproof so it can be used in the shower or bath. It is also easy to clean. It also comes with a one year warranty on it. Anakin and I both loved the electric candle. I used it several times for my baths and it helped to create a romantic and relaxing mood. It lasted a long time and can be used again if you replace the battery in it. The lubricant is a high quality lube which worked well but didn't last very long. The bottle is quite small. But it's the perfect size for travel or a few times of using it. It came with a pair of dice. Anakin and I enjoyed using the dice for some foreplay fun. I put up a picture of us having some fun with them. It landed on "lick" and "your choice". Anakin then licked my nipples and started having some naughty fun with my tits. It was a fun game to play! The dice are a nice touch. :) I also love the roses. You can't go wrong with having rose petals all over your bed or a romantic place you plan to play or make love. The roses don't smell though but are also a nice part of the set. This kit would make a really great gift! It's romantic and playful! It costs $29.99 at Eden Fantasys but on sale right now for $22.49. A savings of $7.50. You'd better hurry though. This sale won't last long! Toy Rating: I am giving this kit a 4 out of 5. I am able to use a lot of the stuff from the kit again which is really nice. I'd probably buy this as a gift to someone for a special as well. Would make a very nice honeymoon gift. Anakin's thoughts on the kit: "This kit was the most complete weekend kit I've ever seen. I was surprised by how much it had in it. Lots of erotic, romantic fun all gathered together for your convenience. The included cock-ring was interesting and fun. The electric candle was a great idea considering the concern about lighting real candles if one is in a hotel room. The dice were a playful start to the night when we tested out the kit. Overall, I'd highly recommend this kit because it included so many fun and thoughtful accessories to make it part of a successful rendezvous." Thank you so much Eden Fantasys for allowing me to try out this kit in exchange for an honest and fair review. I've really enjoyed being a part of the Eden Fantasys sex community. Please be sure to check out their great selection of sex toys and sexy stuff! They are a really great adult toy store online with lots to offer! My wish list keeps growing every day! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy Canadian Spanksgiving!

Today is our Canadian Thanksgiving! It is a long weekend for us and a time to celebrate with family and friends. I plan to cook a turkey and have a family dinner with Anakin and the kids as well as my FIL. I am thankful to be able to get all of us together and enjoy some family time. I hope that all those peeps who are celebrating Thanksgiving have a really wonderful holiday. We are thankful for our readers and friends and wish you all the best! My Thanksgiving long weekend has been up and down. Friday night was amazing and wonderful. Had a date night with Anakin. Spent hours playing on the darkside. Really needed it. But woke up on Saturday morning with a very big tummy ache. The pain seemed to get worse and then finally puked my guts out. I don't think it was because of alcohol though. I had a little red wine on Friday night but not enough to get that sick. It was horrible. Anakin was very gentle and took really good care of me. I spiked a fever and had the shakes so badly. I had wondered about a hospital visit at one point because I was starting to get chest pain and that's never a good sign. I got very sick and then spent the next few hours sleeping. It was 11 am when I got up. I spent most of the day watching movies with my Daddy taking care of me. I feel really bad when I can't do my daily chores. But he took over and really helped me out a lot. We spent the whole day watching movies. We watched The Crush. Hadn't seen that movie in years. Had even forgotten parts of it. We watched some of the Alien movies through the day on AMC. They had a marathon going. We also watched Contagion. This movie was pretty scary in many ways. Makes you think a lot. Anakin and I wound up into a big discussion about it last night. This is probably not the best movie to watch when you have the flu though. lol. It left me a bit panicky and not feeling too great. I was put to bed early. I slept 12 1/2 hours solid last night. Wow!! That's a lot of sleep for me. I had very strange dreams. Today is turkey day. I'm cooking a very big bird with all of the trimmings. At least I'm feeling a bit better. Although I woke up to my period. If it's not one thing, it's another. *sighs* At least it will be over with by my birthday on Friday. Only 5 days til my birthday. Sometimes we combine my birthday with Thanksgiving but not this time. I'll be celebrating it on Friday. Anakin even has the day off for it. I am so very thankful for Anakin. I don't know what I'd do without him. He is a great man who I admire and respect so much. Our force is strong. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

TGIF! Let the long weekend begin!

TGIF! Today is Friday and the start of our Canadian Thanksgiving long weekend. We've got our turkey and all the trimmings ready to go. We are planning to celebrate on Sunday with my FIL. Will be nice to get the family together. I am thankful for my family and friends. And also for the readers of my blog! Thank you for coming to our blog and being a part of our journey. :) Tonight is date night with Anakin. It won't be starting until about 7 pm but we'll be getting a night with no kids tonight. It sounds like we are staying in tonight and having a night on the darkside. My kind of night! Open a bottle of wine and bring out the toys and leather cuffs. It's the best way to start a long weekend and have some fun! I've spent most of the day on twitter ( https://twitter.com/#!/padmeamidala) I'll probably be tweeting about some of the play tonight so be sure to follow me! Anakin and I are always tweeting each other during the day when we are apart. I think we are both pretty interesting to follow. :) So what are your plans for the weekend/long weekend? Any spanking plans for you? Or will you just be eating a lot of turkey and pumpkin pie? Hope everyone has a good one! May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Happy HNT - The long suede flogger

Happy HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday) everyone! This picture was taken during some play time with Anakin. He's using the long suede flogger on me. It's a beautiful toy which was given to us as a Christmas present a few years ago. I have to admit that it's not used as much as other toys. But it's a lot of fun when it gets pulled out. There is nothing better than an erotic flogging on the back or a hard one on the ass. Please leave us a comment on the picture and let us know what you think of it. We always appreciate the feedback and comments on our pictures. Click on the picture to enlarge it and get a better look at it. Check out Osbasso's blog if you are interested in participating in the HNT series. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Getting older and staying sexy

"Ya know, I saw my bare ass this morning...gotta be honest. It looked better 15 yrs ago. But it's the only one I got so... I'll keep it" - Quote from Michelle Stafford on the Young and the Restless I saw that tweet from Michelle Stafford and had to smile. Michelle plays Phyllis Newman on the Young and the Restless. It's one of my favorite shows. She is one of my faves. Phyllis has such an attitude and can be dangerous at times. She can be a real bitch. Don't mess with her! She proves though that women can still be sexy even during the middle age years. The sex scenes with her and Nick are amazing and a real turn on. I turn 39 years old next week! What the hell happened? I feel like I was just having my 30th birthday and now I'm pushing 40. I'm starting to think about menopause and aging. I see a few more wrinkles now and grey hair than there used to be. My arthritis seems to be getting worse and I get more tired now than I used to. I go to bed by 9 pm every night and wake up early. I used to bug my in-laws about that and now it's me turning off the tv early. Anakin and I joke that we've turned into the "old married couple". Coming up to our 15 year anniversary. Married now for almost 8 years. It seems like the time is moving faster as I am getting older. All of a sudden my kids grew up on me! My daughter is in grade 11 and graduates next year! And my son has turned into a little man. It is really strange to think about the future. A very different phase of our lives is coming. Our kids are getting older. One day will be the empty nest and maybe even grandchildren. Can you imagine me as a grandma? lol. Wow! That's going to be really something. :) I'm still trying to be sexy. Who says that getting older means you have to turn into a frumpy old lady. I still wear the schoolgirl outfits and cute lingerie. I'm a lot more comfortable with my body. I have better orgasms than I did in my 20's. And the sex is better! Being older doesn't mean that you can't have great sex! You learn a lot about your body as you age. I found my g-spot and never looked back. :P I try to keep myself young through daily exercise and changing my diet and way of life. I don't party like I used to. My life has almost become a bit boring. But that's ok. I still have wild times (during my date nights) and still know how to have a great time. I tend to avoid drama now like the plague. There has been a hell of a lot less drama with my mom not around. I tend to not take back people from the past anymore. I've changed in many ways. I used to be a lot more easily manipulated. I've learned to be strong. Submissive to my Master. But strong with other people. It's really hard but I'm trying to move on from the past. And live for the moment. This is easier said than done sometimes. You really do learn to have less tolerance for bullshit though as you get older. I try to focus on what's important (Anakin and our family and friends) and that gives me the strength during rough times. I may be getting older but I can try to live as long as I can. I worry a lot about health concerns as I am getting older. Many family members have died early because of heart problems. I want to try to be around so I can see my kids grow up and enjoy life as much as I possibly can. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

Friday date night

Fridays used to be our movie & merlot nights. We would often crack open a bottle of merlot and a new release movie to watch. It's changed in some ways although kind of the same. Friday nights are now our date nights. We try to arrange to have the night to ourselves with no kids around. We decided a few months ago that we need a "date night" once a week. This is important for our relationship. It's a chance to have some alone time and often be able to play. I really need this time to reconnect with Anakin after a long week. Sometimes we are lucky if we get an hour or two to spend together on a normal weeknight. Sometimes we go out on our date nights. But sometimes we just decide to stay home instead. That happened on Friday night. We were both too tired to go out. It seemed a lot more relaxing to stay inside and watch a movie. We opened a bottle of wine and then made dinner. We watched The Hitcher movie from 2007. A lot better than the original one. It was fun to curl up together. We went upstairs and brought out some toys. It got my attention when the English Tawse was suddenly put on the nightstand. I took a picture of it which I am sharing today on the blog. I looked kind of worried and he had a big sadistic grin on his face. "We are starting with that toy. But there is many other toys to try out on your ass too, slave" he told me. *shivers* I love the English Tawse. It warms up my bottom for more heavier toys later. I was spanked with several mean toys (including the crop) as well as the tawse. Most of the movie time was over his knee getting tawsed. I was also allowed to write a few tweets to keep people posted on what was happening at the time. (https://twitter.com/#!/padmeamidala) He teased me and wrestled with me at one point. Biting me in several places. Fingering my pussy and getting me very wet. We played for hours. I got lost in subspace and the fantastic sex that followed. Two huge orgasms as well. I could barely walk and don't remember falling asleep after we were done. I woke up in his arms feeling submissive and well owned. I had a sore bum which always gives me a better attitude. :) May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala

One year ago today..

It's really hard to believe that it's been a year since my MIL (mother-in-law) passed away. I can remember everything that happened and how it felt at the time. A lot has happened since last year. The family dynamics changed. We lost someone else (Aunt S) to cancer. My FIL found out he has cancer. They recently decided to stop his chemo treatments because they weren't working very well. I've changed a lot. I feel that this really matured me and made me grow as a person. I've really grown up the last year. I've learned what is important in life and how fragile it really is. Someone can be in your life today but gone tomorrow. It happens very fast. My Dad passed away in 2009 and it still haunts me. I do feel more at peace about it but the anniversaries (his birthday, date of his death, etc..) still bring it all up again. Many people will tell you to "just get over it". That is much easier said than done. Some people never really get over losing someone. I don't think that my FIL has. He's lonely and often sad. He was married to her for almost 50 years. He often tells me that he thinks for a moment she might be in the kitchen but then remembers she is gone. I have moments like that too. It is so quiet in the house sometimes. She used to phone all the time. Sometimes there would be 5-10 calls a day. She was always there for us and a very caring person. I miss her very much. The picture I am putting up today is from her hospice room. It was taken shortly before she passed away. There was a ray of sunlight which came from the sky. The light shone down on the hospice. There was many spiritual experiences which happened during all of that which can't be explained. It's got me a bit fascinated with what happens to us after death. I've even read books about it. I wrote this exactly one year ago today.. "I had a strong feeling that she might pass away tonight. I could just feel it. There was some signs that it was about to happen. I honestly don't have the words to describe how I'm feeling. I'm glad she has found some peace. She struggled with cancer and fought hard. Cancer is in an ugly disease. It shows no mercy. Cancer sucks!!" "I've known my MIL for 20 years. I feel like I've lost a good friend as well as a MIL. My kids are going to be devastated. They were very close to her. Anakin has gone off to the hospice to have some final moments with his mom. This has been especially hard on him and my FIL. I'm very worried about them both right now. She was very loved by our family and will be very missed. Things will never be the same." It is really hard to have daily interaction with someone and then not have them in your life again. It was a bit different with my Dad. I could go months without talking to him. My MIL was very close to my whole family. Even my own family was very sad by her death. My sister came out for the memorial. Even my friend, DL came to support me. This was a very tough time for the family. I am thinking about my MIL a lot today. I know this will be a hard day for Anakin. He was a very good son. I'm so proud of my Master. He was there for his mom right through her battle with cancer. He took care of her. He was there when times were really tough. I give him a lot of credit. There were some family members who took off when the cancer got really bad. Not Anakin. He was there until the very end. I have so much respect for my husband. He even did a memorial video for his mom. The video is so very touching and a very special tribute to his mom. He spent 3 weeks working on it. He barely slept or ate. He put so much into that and it was a very special video. He really captured his mom well in it. I miss my MIL so much. I think she'd be very proud of my kids. She was a really great grandma. She often told me that the hardest part about dying was missing out on all the future events like my daughter's high school graduation. Or when they get married or have babies. Hold onto those that you love. I am so grateful for my life and my family. I am very glad for the time that I had with my MIL. I will remember it always... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala