Friends til the end

I have been wanting to blog but not sure what to write about. There isn't much new with me. I'm waiting for Friday and hoping that it all works out. Anakin and I have a date night arranged and some special plans. The special plans even include some Figging! I tried it for the first time a few months ago. I've been wanting to do it again. That should be interesting and fun! I'm also promised some heavier play. We have been playing pretty light since the car accident. We both feel ready to play again on the darkside. It's been hard to be patient though. I really wish it was Friday today! I just got back from breakfast with my friend, DL. I've mentioned her a few times on my blog. She is one of the only people that I see on a pretty regular basis. We always go for breakfast or coffee. We have kids around the same age and are both submissive women in our marriages. Her husband is the HOH as well. She's a cancer survivor so we have had some pretty deep conversations during our coffee. I love that I can discuss real life issues with her. It's hard to find friendships like that. This morning we had a pretty deep talk about life and death. I was telling her about the movie 50/50. I watched it last night with Anakin. It's a really great movie about friends and cancer. It made me think of her. She's gone through a lot in her life. She's often been a real inspiration to me through the hard times. My MIL had terminal cancer and DL was very supportive through that time. Also after I lost my Dad. Some friends took off but not her. I have a lot of online friends but very few close friendships. Especially with people that I can get together with and share a coffee. I find it very hard to really trust people and let them into my life. I'll be honest. I wasn't sure my friendship with DL would work out. She isn't kinky and doesn't know about my bdsm lifestyle. She doesn't even want to discuss sex with me! Our friendship is so much more than that though. I'd rather have a friendship that is real than one that is fake. I've had many fake friends through the years. You really do find out who your real friends are in a crisis. DL is one of the few people who has never left my side. We've been friends now for almost 9 years. I know that we will be friends til the end. I would really miss my talks with DL if something ever happened to her. I often worry about her because she's had some pretty serious health issues. I would be very sad to lose her in my life. She's become very important to me. The car accident really shook me up. I'll admit it. I'm thinking a lot about my death and final wishes. Anakin and I both have not drawn out our wills. We should have done that years ago. No one wants to think about it but it's reality. One day we're not going to be here. We all die in the end. That movie last night reminded me that life is precious. One day you are here. Next day you aren't. I want to try to do more and live life to the fullest. Because you never know.... May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala