Date night interrupted

TGIF. I wish I could say it's going to be a great weekend but I'm not too sure about that. I'm in a terrible mood right now and not sure how to get out of it. I'm very disappointed that there won't be a date night happening tonight. I am very disappointed and also angry about other things going on too. I try really hard to be civil to my ex husband but it's hard sometimes. We had a fight on the phone this morning. It's left me in a very sour mood. I'm cranky and angry and disappointed! It takes a lot to work me up like this but I am. People often ask me what the biggest challenge is in Anakin and I's M/s (Master/slave) relationship. It's the step family situation that we have with my ex husband. My ex and I have tried to be friends but it's changed over time. I think there is a lot of resentment and jealousy about the life that I have right now with Anakin. There has been a lot of hostility through the years with my ex husband and his whole family. It's been very stressful. This has been a very difficult week with having any alone time with Master. It feels like we've barely had ten minutes alone the whole time this week. There has been constant interruptions to our conversations or time together. We couldn't even find time for a quickie or any sex!! The last time we did any type of play or had sex was last Saturday night. I am not sure why I thought it would get easier when our kids got older to find time with Anakin. It's actually gotten a lot more challenging. It seems like it's getting harder to find alone time anymore. I miss the old days when our kids had a bedtime and we could put them to bed and then play or have sex. The teen stays up all night which makes it challenging for doing anything during weeknights. Her bedroom is just down the hall from ours. So we often don't do anything while the teen is at home. She goes to her Dad's house but plans can often change like they did tonight. Sometimes Master can take time off work so we can play/have sex while the kids are at school. Work is very busy right now though. He's been working a lot of extra hours. I've barely seen him. He's had to rush off to work so no morning quickies this week. :/ I was really looking forward to tonight. I often count down the days until our date night. It's the one night that we can be in full Master and slave role instead of being Dad and mom. I can put on a play collar and get naked and we can be kinky. I need that time and don't do well without it. We had plans to test out the new "spank me paddle set" from EF tonight. I was going to get a spanking and we had plans to have sex. I'm pretty sure that people who have kids probably understand the most what it's like to have a date night interrupted. You have to expect this from the moment they are born though. I can remember some date nights in which a baby crying would interrupt our naughty fun. I really miss having time with Master. It always feel like there are so many responsibilities that often get in the way of us having time together. It's not just the kids or what's happened tonight. It's just felt like lately there are constant interruptions to our time together. Phone calls from insurance agencies or daily check-in phone calls to my FIL about his cancer. We are both so stressed out that it's hard to unwind from that. Anakin and I have been talking about going away for our anniversary this year. I really hope that can happen. It just always feels like something gets in the way of doing stuff like that. I am aching for a few days away from it all. I will admit I've even looked into flights to Las Vegas in hopes that maybe I can convince Master to go. I really need to get away from it all. I really miss Master and need some time with Him. May the force be with you all!! ~padme amidala